FITCOUGARMOM's SparkPeople Blog FITCOUGARMOM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Back in action!! Well today Im hitting milestones!! Im getting through a lot of memories and important days that my hubby and I celebrated. Im continuing on my journey and have even dropped 20 pounds plus!! Sorry this entry isnt very long but more details to come!! Thank you EVERYONE for the support you have shown me and all my friends that have truly been there for me but I think Im finally 100% back!! Tue, 19 Feb 2013 15:07:26 EST NEW YEAR, NEW CHAPTER OK...well... It's going to be a new year in a couple of days and sitting down tonight and writing out my "to-do" list for 2013. I say to do list because I'm going to accomplish them this year. I'm finally on the mend, still have my crying times but, all in all, a chapter has closed in my life, still bookmarks there to remind me of where I was and why I dont want to be there again but also to remind me of the good memories with my husband. He would be so proud of me now. I was really worried a... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 15:35:29 EST Fight continues So things arent going like I hoped they would but the fight still continues!! I finally got some healthy foods back in my body and hopefully on the mend with all this thats going on. Its just one thing after another but im a fighter and so I continue! <BR> <BR> I have started really focusing on my future again and where that is going to go. Beachbody and coaching are my main focus but I have to work so that has to be worked around. I love what i do and taking care of people although some da... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 15:12:28 EST REST DAY!! Well my afternoon client cancelled today since he went to the hospital so I just have my 2 hour evening client. Got to sit around in my PJs which I NEVER do but with this respiratory infection and running my butt off for the past couple of weeks I thought I deserved to. Did some exercises today including my squats and Im really feeling it in my inner thighs! I havent felt the burn in a long time and although its painful its a good pain!! Well got to get ready for my client. Not wearing scrub... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 16:50:36 EST December squat challenge!! WOW!! 8 pounds down but not recording it just yet!! Things are getting on track again!! <BR> <BR> Started a December squat challenge!! Everyday has a different number of squats to accomplish. If you post on my like page everyday and tell me how many squats you did you will get a free T-Shirt with "I Survived the December Squat Challenge!" with the amount of squats you did for the month!! Pretty cool huh?? Just go to my like page Fit Cougar Mom on Facebook and join us!!! <BR> <BR> Going to ... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 00:17:38 EST goal for December: 2000 fitness minutes! Sorry I havent posted in a few days!! My goal is to try and post everyday but life happened and have had no time for me this week. That will soon change. Hoping my company can give me an overnight shift before Wednesday because I have a physical for a nursing home. i would much rather put in the hours with my company because after the overnight shift my evening client would be time and a half! Will still have the afternoon to workout and do what I need to with preparing my meals for the next ... Sat, 1 Dec 2012 10:46:41 EST To Pooped To Post!! This has been an extremely tiring day!! Got to my first client and he wasnt there but got paid for an hour anyway. Had 3 hours until my next client so all I did was walk. I bet I walked a good 7 miles today!! It felt good but my knee didnt like it too much. I ended up having to ice it twice today then put a pain patch on it. Im so tired right now!! Good night everyone. Have to track food now! Tue, 27 Nov 2012 00:51:39 EST First steps!!! OK took the first of many steps last night in about 7 months and did not eat at bedtime!! THIS is an accomplishment since I have struggled with this for so long. My stomach felt like it was growling but I chose to ignore it and not eat. I drank lots of water instead. <BR> <BR> Today I ate what I could, canned veggies and chicken, peanut butter toast, and some canned fruit for snack and stayed within range. If I cant eat a regular healthy meal at least I can do what I can to keep myself in r... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 16:48:38 EST I am on it with my commitment issues!! I have commitment issues regarding doing things in my life. Im goal setting again and know this is a BIG obstacle that I NEED to overcome. I think I overwhelm myself with too much at one time then want to quit everything. Not really where eating right and exercising are concerned but posting my blogs, tracking my food, writing in my journal, and fulfilling my long term goals. I have gotten much better at it in the past year but I need to step it up and do more now. <BR> <BR> All in all this... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 21:33:12 EST You have to fight the battle more than once sometimes to win the war!! HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!! <BR> I took today to reflect on the direction my life was going, and where Im headed. Im pretty proud of myself!! Although I fell off the weightloss wagon for 6 months I accomplished so much more!! I got my license back got my PCA/HCSS certfication, my CNA certification, and now my HHA cert. I didnt resort to drugs and alcohol to get me through this really hard year, I used food instead which is just as bad but I can see it more clearly now. I had a good day to... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 19:59:13 EST much for that!!! much for that idea!! Im going back to the city. I miss it and Im miserably depressed here. My daughter and I fight all the time, my job sucks, and I just cant get any fitness in because Im tired all the time. I dont get to go anywhere and I work so much that I never have the energy TO workout. Im glad and excited Im going back though. I spent the day out in Buffalo to interview for some new jobs 2 weeks ago and didnt want to come back. I am going into home care again. I loved it th... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 19:54:11 EST Staying here and making it work!! Well since last blog I havent done a single thing that contributed to my weightloss except weight myself. Up to 235 pounds. TODAY I went grocery shopping for myself for the first time in over a month and started tracking again. Seemed like it had to get worse before it got better. The situation with my daughter got worse and I had put my 2 weeks in at work to leave and go back to the city. Something just told me to hold on, it will smooth out and it did!! Im staying here now and rescinding my... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 15:25:22 EST Why am I having a hard time with getting back on track?? Well, to begin with, I havent wrote a blog in 5 months and 2 days!! ALOT has happened in that time frame. Let me count it out. <BR> <BR> 1. I lost my husband to heart disease April 5th. That was a long battle and one of the hardest things I will or could ever go through!! Fiasco with what to do with his body. Couldnt get life insurance so we had decided to donate his body to science but Hospice never filed the paperwork. Transplant services took alot of the organs and tissue that was still g... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 15:19:26 EST Looking back on things and seeing where I am!! WOW!!! Its been a LONG time since I have written a blog!!TOO long!! Things are good! Well... as good as they could be right now anyway. DH is still struggling with his illness but trying to maintain it so he can be here a little while longer. It hard being a caregiver, it really is, esp to a loved one whom you know your going to lose to an illness. I have been dealing with this for YEARS and its now getting serious with him. His heart is only pumping at 10% and we decided it was time to sign ... Sun, 11 Mar 2012 12:36:08 EST The Good The Bad and Moving On!! Well things were good TODAY then this evening crap hit the fan here and my 19 yr old son moved out!! All the joy i felt from the accomplishment of losing 12lbs this week and getting my powerwalk to 14-15mn/miles. Did 4 miles in an hr today. I was walking on air then my son came home and his negativity stressed the heck out of me and my husband, who cant be NEAR stress right now, I had enough!! I had been told by several people including my hubbys social worker from Hospice that i needed to th... Wed, 21 Dec 2011 23:37:55 EST Back In The Habit!! Well Im back at it!! Im back at exercising again and watching what i eat. I gained 10lbs back but it isnt bad after everything i have been through. I need to learn how to NOT turn to food when things get rough. I would have used exercise as an out but couldnt do that either. A hobbie would be nice if I wasnt trying to build a business!! THAT takes up ALOT of my time!! ALOT of time on my butt though! See this is the first winter I AM NOT sitting on my butt smoking and not doing anything. The ... Fri, 16 Dec 2011 20:30:38 EST New Year Goals!! For now anyway!! So I'm taking some time the next few weeks and setting goals for 2012! Dont like to really do this because you never really know what the future is going to hold and esp mine with a sick Hubby. Hoping he holds out another yr I really do but there is only a slim possibility that he might. Have started making plans on what I'm going to do when he does pass and my daughter wants me to come live with her. Geminis and Saggitarius DO NOT get along that well and living together could prove to be dis... Wed, 7 Dec 2011 16:46:55 EST Hopefully the New Year will start good!! Havent blogged in so long!! Not much of a writer!! Im lying Im just addicted to facebook that much!! LOL ANYWAY... lots has happened since my last blog entry!! Got in a deep depression because the second week in October i found a lump in my belly button. It wasnt hurting only sore but it worried me then i realized it was a hernia!! GREAT!! Was on a roll with my weightloss and losing inches and just so full of life!! Went to the doc and everything had to come to a complete STOP!! Stop ALL work... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 15:10:27 EST Loving myself and setting long term goals!!! Well things are going good!! I did my first 10k + 1 mile on Friday with a Sparkfriend and had a good time doing it!! Im loving myself again and thats whats important!! I had some mess up last week thats probably going to reflect on the scale on Wednesday but everyday it gets easier NOT to mess up because i see the big picture and i have set some long term goals. I want to be a personal trainer or a life coach!! I have a long way 2 go but wanting this has made me more determined than ever to ... Sun, 30 Oct 2011 20:56:54 EST Back on track!! I hope!!! Been dealing with some emotional issues lately and have been having a hard time motivating and staying focused!! No matter what I did I couldnt seem to get it together. The frustration of not losing the weight, hubby feeling like he's giving up, and just over all weather was reeking havoc on my emotions and mental well being!! I couldnt even fake it! Yesterday i was with a very dear and older friend of mine who I do work for from time to time. She has her hands in everything, if she can make... Sun, 16 Oct 2011 22:49:48 EST HELP!!! Having a VERY unmotivational and emotional week!! I worked out HARD Sunday Monday AND Tuesday and GAINED 5 lbs!!! Im getting just so frustrated *crying* !! Seems like its getting harder 2 stay positive in my life. I feel like im spinning my wheels and getting absolutely NOWHERE cuz something always comes up that requires me putting off what i want or need 2 do, not just in weight loss, but in my family life as well! The only constant is the let downs and they just seem 2 keep coming!! I may b... Thu, 13 Oct 2011 01:12:45 EST then and now!! <img src=""> <BR> This was my ...well...before pic, although i had already lost about 15lbs when I took this!! Size 24-26! <BR> <BR> This is now me in my new outfit at size 16-18! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I still have a long way 2 go but I can so see the difference and I need 2 remind myself that. Even though I have hit yet ANOTHER plateau in my weightloss the inches continue 2 d... Fri, 30 Sep 2011 15:56:29 EST How my days have been going OK havent written a blog lately, I am so bad at it but I better get into practice because it looks like I will be writing alot in the near future, stay tuned for that project!! <BR> <BR> Wanted to let everyone know that I am doing GREAT!! I finally figured out my formula for MY weightloss and it seems the numbers are moving again!! Im not as young as I used to be so I have to work twice as hard at it but it feels so good!! As you know my son bought me an elliptical (which I see him on it mo... Tue, 27 Sep 2011 23:33:28 EST What a start To my Week!! Got up this morning thinking my son didnt get up with his alarm at 7am. Im never up that early but would really like to be!! Anyway, I was in a good mood until it all started and when it did I lost it!! <BR> <BR> I got on the computer to read some posts and drink my morning coffee as usual before I started my day and thought I would start my yoga this morning about 8:30am then get on my new eliptical. Well have my DVD player and VCR hooked up to an older TV in my workout room, one my grand... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 23:17:48 EST Well... Yoga anyone?? I am so bad at keeping my blogs up 2 date but by the end of the day Im so tired I cant think let alone write but needed 2 get one updated so here it is!! <BR> <BR> I started my very first yoga class yesterday!! I have known about this free class that a community center gives since March but would forget it was on Friday mornings or to lazy to get up and get dressed and go!! I decided last week I was doing this and that was that.. NO EXCUSES!!.. so I went out and bought some VERY comfy yoga p... Sun, 11 Sep 2011 00:39:51 EST I cant believe I did it!!! I still cannot believe that I did it!! I never thought my body was strong enough or I was 2 fat 2 withstand it but I pushed my body and i did it!! <BR> <BR> I am training 4 a 5k, yes I know u can walk them but I want 2 run this one,. It will b my first walk/run EVER and I want 2 b able 2 say I ran it so, as I was saying, Im training and doing through the Sparks rookie training program!! Well in the training u run 4 a full minute then u walk 4 minutes then u repeat until u have done 20 minu... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 22:13:56 EST Loving The New Me!! Very proud of myself today and feeling so accomplished and happy about that!! Have gone down a couple more pounds and feeling great!! I didnt know if I was going 2 stick with this because I have issues with commitment but I have come along way!! I never realized how far til I was making dinner 2nite and I found myself measuring my ingredients 4 my whole wheat pizza!! I mean getting up and going 2 the kitchen 2 check nutrition info and entering it!! I would never have done that and I feel guil... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 21:24:47 EST The obstacle: MYSELF Well once again I let my cravings control me 4 a few days!! Why cant I seem 2 keep it steady, I get frustrated very easy but the more times I am the less time its taking me 2 get back on track with things so eventually I wont be backsliding anymore. I dont beat myself up anymore I dont feel it accomplishes anything but another trip 2 the frig and I certainly dont need that so I scold myself then start over. I am pinpointing the problems I am having and doing what I can 2 correct it and make... Tue, 23 Aug 2011 23:21:52 EST Back on track!! Well spent 2 weeks backsliding a little bit but Im back on track now!! was walking 2-3 times a day tracking about 2.5 miles each time then my pedometer stopped working !! Took it back and got another 1 but that was defective also, then a 3rd!! Asking myself is this what it comes down 2? Had 2 get a new pair of sneakers cuz my others were rubbing on my heals and causing blisters. It seemed I had so much against me that like most who hit obstacles I quit!! Well it only took 2 weeks 4 me 2 unde... Fri, 12 Aug 2011 19:33:49 EST Still living and breathing!! This morning I am taking time 2 reflect on the past 30 days. My husband has improved slightly, have had a breakdown, FINALLY went 2 the doc, got my surgery, and oh yea STILL LOST 20 lbs. Believe me it was all nausea contributing 2 it. <BR> <BR> I need 2 think about me more and it is SSOOO hard!! I find myself thinking of me 4 a few days then lose sight of the goal again when something comes up!! What gives? I hate comittments but hate doing this on my own even more!! Doing fairly good wit... Thu, 14 Jul 2011 06:40:04 EST well on my way Tomorrow marks 10 days in2 my journey and im still doing it!! Well at least where nutrition is concerned. Got up and made breakfast which doesnt happen very often. Made eating breakfast every morning one of my fastbreak goals cuz I will wait til 3pm til I eat anything. Been keeping my all my nutritional info below or at goal and eating fruits and veggies in everything and anything. Made a turkey burger 2nite with 4 different veggies in it!! U should have seen it, it was a monster and prob... Mon, 6 Jun 2011 22:29:46 EST just 4 me As i sit here trying 2 figure out what Im going 2 write about I think about yesterday and how i did so good with my diet. My emotional state,however, is in ruin!! My husband and son expect alot out of me but when I tell them they r overloading me they look at me like im crazy! My husband is on Hospice care but he is still pretty much independent and a crank all the time. It seems I cant do anything right. Dont get me wrong, he is a good husband and I love him so much but I decided that I ne... Mon, 6 Jun 2011 09:28:52 EST