FITALLEY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FITALLEY FITALLEY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 13/126: Stay-at-home Moms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4791938 I realized this morning why us "stay-at-home" moms struggle with our weight. All day everyday I do laundry for six people (I only put it away for three), clean up after six people (in theory I don't, but I live in reality), fix three meals for six people, run errands for six people, worry about six people, give homework help for six people, etc. etc. etc. <BR> <BR> After all that work for six, it's very difficult to remember to eat for just one.... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 11:22:06 EST Day 12/126: Staying healthy through grief http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4791052 I have been eating fine, and exercising most days since my last post, but I haven't been tracking very well because I'm so tired, I'm not sleeping well, and my mind is elsewhere. I'm certainly not feeling very motivational, but today I started feeling motivated again, for the first time in two weeks, which has been a relief. I was starting to think I had lost all ability to care about health. <BR> <BR> It takes a lot of energy to keep motivated to exercise and eat healthy. This is the first ... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 17:49:06 EST Day 11/126: Long Time, No See http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4770547 Wow! This morning, with an actual WORKING scale, I discovered that I am down into the 160's. Although I have previously tried, I have not been able to achieve the lower-than-170 mark since I was PREGNANT with my third child six years ago. Hopefully I will never see the 170's again. <BR> <BR> Sun, 4 Mar 2012 19:25:51 EST Days 8,9,10/126: Broken Heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4769304 We have spent the last days praying fervently and crying over a very sick, wonderful friend who was finally taken off life-support today. I only write about it because I need to keep up this blog. <BR> <BR> Didn't exercise today, but otherwise doing ok. Sat, 3 Mar 2012 22:51:44 EST Day 7/126: My Unmotivational Blog Entry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4764217 I lifted weights & did a little bit of Pilates today--I tried very hard to slow down. I ate fine--not too much, and didn't get anything but vegetables, fruit, and milk at Costco even though I went in the afternoon when I hadn't had lunch yet. <BR> <BR> My plan was to walk to school to pick up my big kids, but I realized the stroller tire was flat with a thorn in it right before I had to leave. So no walk, which was a real bummer. I could have used a walk outside today. <BR> <BR> But I am f... Wed, 29 Feb 2012 21:46:37 EST Day 6/126: Why I Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4761806 I get into a certain mentality when I exercise that I can’t achieve through diet alone. Dieting (in the withholding-of-food sense) makes me feel even fatter than I am—like I have to punish myself for all the moments of indulgence over the years, but that it still won’t be penitence enough. If I can’t stick to my ideal calorie count, then I feel guilty, weak, bloated, enormous, and I end up hating everything about myself, which means that I can't stick to a diet for very long. If I can stick t... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 15:11:25 EST Day 5/126: False Hopes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4760731 I got on the scale this morning, hoping that it would work. It registered my GOAL WEIGHT (this is not a programable scale, so it has no idea what my goal weight is). For a moment I was stunned, thinking, "Wow! I can't remember the last time I saw the 140's"--and then it dawned on me that my scale is broken, and that I couldn't have really lost 40 pounds overnight. Dang! I guess that means I need to keep plugging away which really is better for me in the end, right? <BR> <BR> I lifted weights... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 23:08:08 EST Day 4/126: Herding Cats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4758706 Sundays are my days of rest, so I don't exercise (thank goodness!) but the kids really wanted to walk the half mile to church. I can't really count it as exercise because it is much more like herding cats then breaking a sweat. It is mentally and emotionally exhausting, and feels like 20 miles, but it isn't physically exhausting. That said, I ate great and even got a little nap in this afternoon (thank goodness for thoughtful husbands), so I earned $.80 towards my new swimming suit. <BR> <BR... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 21:30:55 EST Day 3/126: Winnie the Pooh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4757320 I started trying to exercise at about 6 o'clock this morning, and every time I headed to the treadmill, someone would need something. It was supposed to be my "long run" day (which is such a funny thing to say because it makes me sound so athletic!), but by the time I finally scrambled onto the treadmill at 4 o'clock, I was exhausted and not wanting to do it. I planned on doing 6 miles, but I only got 5 in (which was wise, I think, considering how tired I was)--and it took me 2 full hours bec... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 00:35:57 EST Day 2/126: One good day leads to another http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4756401 Yesterday was great. I didn't want to exercise again (why the rut?), but got on the treadmill with the goal of walking for 20 minutes. I did, and then realized I felt a lot better. So I bundled up my four-year-old and walked the two miles to school to pick up my five-year-old from kindergarten. It was a beautiful (albeit, cold) day, and we stopped at the grocery store for a "treat" (a fruit leather for each child), and then at the park to play before lunch. So my 20 minutes turned into a six ... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 11:16:31 EST Day 1/126 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4754677 Yesterday was my first day. So far, so good, except that I didn't exercise. (I have had really bad nights' sleep this week because of my little ones. I can't exercise if I'm sleeping badly. It only makes my family's situation worse because I get more grumpy then grumpy!) I ate just enough, and turned down the brownies from my sister-in-law after dinner. I earned $.80 because I ate well, but didn't exercise. Fri, 24 Feb 2012 09:20:08 EST 18-Week Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752404 I am entering this blog not for your sake, but for mine. I am starting my own 18-week challenge tomorrow morning. It is too complex to write about (perhaps that's a bad sign, but I understand all the details, which is the important thing). <BR> <BR> I was reading this morning about rewards and realized the only reward I really use is food (I don't know how to reward myself when we have so little money, so many people who depend on me, and so few resources.) Chocolate especially, but anythin... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 00:03:09 EST My End of the Relationship http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4728156 When I was 15 I realized I was overweight and decided to do something about it. (Actually, some insensitive person, in a not-so-kind way, "pointed out" to me that I was overweight. But I take credit for doing something about it.) I starved myself skinny, and exercised furiously along the way. In less than three months I lost 30 pounds, and kept it off until after I had my second baby. Life got complicated then, and over the years, and the addition of two more babies, I have put on 40 unbudgea... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 00:27:30 EST The Power of Positive Thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4728125 My husband’s older brother came and stayed with us for Christmas. In his brother’s eyes my husband can do no right. It was the most difficult few days we have had in a long time. My husband recently decided to make a mid-life career change after spending too many years in a miserable, dead-end job. It has been hard for him emotionally as he is a little afraid and unsure of where to go from here. His brother played on those fears, and spent hours ripping my husband apart: You are so foolish. D... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 00:02:39 EST