FIREFLUTTERFLY's SparkPeople Blog FIREFLUTTERFLY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It's been a bit of a while while having a bit of a journey. <BR> <BR> The intensive training to get my 500 hour certification was, well, intense. <BR> I didn't have many spoons to spare during the 8 weeks and the weeks following have been a very different kind of difficult. <BR> Yesterday made me want to stop a moment and take stock of where I am and set some new goals. Goals with no time limit, no boundaries, no limitations at all really. <BR> <BR> Goal #1 create a consistent workout plan with yoga, running, weight... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 12:54:49 EST Almost There… Sort Of I’m kind of stuck in a “once this is done…” loop right now and I’m not too fond of it, but I can’t really do much about it. <BR> <BR> Once faire is over I do A-Kon. <BR> Once A-Kon is done I have my last day of work. <BR> Once I have my last day of work I start Yoga Teacher Training. <BR> Once YTT is done I can focus on my handfasting. <BR> Once my handfasting is done I can focus on my wedding <BR> <BR> Not that my life is really on hold or anything, I’m doing a lot, it’s just that I feel ... Mon, 20 May 2013 15:56:32 EST More Than A Month Since My last Blog… Ouch I’ve been trying to remember the timeline on all the events since the end of February. <BR> So much has happened though, it’s hard and part of me doesn’t want to remember. <BR> <BR> Feb 28th: My grandmother was in a very bad wreck, a head on collision, she is doing better, but an elderly lady recovering from a compound fracture in her ankle is slow and arduous. <BR> <BR> March 4th: My Great Grandmother goes back to the hospital with a touch of pneumonia. <BR> <BR> March 19th: I find out a... Mon, 13 May 2013 15:27:58 EST The hardest thing I've had to do To explain the vague status post from yesterday… <BR> <BR> Yesterday morning a coworker of mine “D” had a heart attack (we think, we don’t know for sure) and when he was found the 2 guys that found him freaked out. I got another guy to help me get D on the floor and I began CPR while “R” got the defib machine we have in the office. He and I and my dad all took a turn at CPR while waiting for the ambulance. The paramedics worked for an hour but were unable to bring D back. This is one of my ... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 14:20:24 EST Cancer's a B!TCH! please help if you can. a very dear friend of mine has just found out she has stage 4 lymphoma, she has started chemo already, but it's going to be a long hard and expensive road. <BR> Every little bit helps. You can donate by following the link below. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Prayers, good energy, and good juju are all welcome as well <BR> <BR> Thank you <em>247</em> Thu, 28 Mar 2013 12:19:16 EST wait... We're A Week Into March Already?!?! how'd that even happen??? <BR> <BR> ok, well here is a general update of my life as it stands. <BR> <BR> I still hate my job <BR> I still don't know when I can quit <BR> My grandmother was in a head on collision a week ago <BR> I've barely seen Matt for about a month now, we're both insanely busy <BR> and I had all but stopped working out/tracking <BR> <BR> My grandmother is mostly ok, she has a compound fracture in her ankle, reconstructive surgery was on Sunday and it went well, though ... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 13:50:46 EST I need help!!! Sparkys! I need your help! <BR> <BR> My sweety has entered a contest to name a new beer at the Texas Renaissance Festival. Please help him win by voting everyday!!! <BR> <BR> If you could please go to this webpage <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> and vote for “New Market M&#1235;rtzen” <BR> <BR> Thanks so much everyone! <BR> Mon, 25 Feb 2013 13:56:26 EST Brain Dump I apologize in advance for this blog. It's going to be all over the place. <BR> <BR> I hate my job <BR> HATE. IT. <BR> and have recently taken steps to leave and go elsewhere to be happy. The yoga studio I have found recently is part of a company that does some of the best and most thorough teacher training in the country and I have discovered that I LOVE yoga, I enjoyed it before, doing videos and my own practice and generally just muddling through it. I liked the way yoga made me feel when... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 14:21:17 EST Another good read! I dig this chick, I 'll be going through the rest of her blog soon! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>9/ladies-lifting-weights-get-strong-no<BR>t-toned/ </link> Tue, 29 Jan 2013 16:56:13 EST This is a great read! I highly recommend reading it slowly, in bits, so you can process the info. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>/guide-how-criss-lost-weight.html </link> <BR> <BR> and most importantly, PASS IT ON! Share it, repost it, Facebook it, whatever! <BR> It's just too good to keep to yourself Tue, 29 Jan 2013 13:09:57 EST What’s In A Name? And Other Musings Today I took my dad out to lunch for his birthday, we have been looking forward to it all week because we go get these tasty Green Enchiladas at a little hole in the wall kind of place close to where we work. They have amazing food. I decided that even though it was an indulgent meal for me I would still log everything I ate today. <BR> <BR> Which got me thinking about a few things… <BR> Firstly, why on earth do we have “cheat” meals/days??? What possesses us to ruin something we enjoy by ma... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 15:41:29 EST Where Did January go??? Oh my dear sweet jeebus, where has January gone??? Seriously, we have only 7 days left! <BR> <BR> Wow… <BR> <BR> Man… this getting older and time going faster thing is complete bull –crap. Raise your hand if you miss those endless days as a kid, when waiting for Christmas took, like, forever and a half. <BR> <BR> *raises hand* <BR> <BR> Can I have those long days back to do my crafty/fitness/fun things? Pretty please with rainbow sprinkles on top??? <BR> No? <BR> d@mn <BR> ok *sigh* <BR>... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 12:06:02 EST The Best Tea This really is the best tea in the history of EVER! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just so you all know <BR> <BR> oh and you can get it at Whole Foods Wed, 23 Jan 2013 14:14:37 EST Body Groove DVD Review! For Giftmas my sister gave me the Body Groove Delicious Dance Complete Collection DVD <BR> <BR> I LOVE IT! <BR> Having as much dance history as I do, I adore this DVD! I’ve tried other Dance Workout DVDs and HATED them because the moves aren’t explained well or they move at a professional pace for a home workout! WTH! (I am specifically referring to the Dancing With The Stars DVD, I can’t keep up and get extremely frustrated with that and I have 18 years of dance training, I can’t even imagi... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 11:44:19 EST Donuts = Road Rage I would like to first state that I did not buy these donuts, I was merely the transportation for them to get to the office (I’ve tried to get them to go for healthier options… not gonna happen) <BR> <BR> This morning I was astounded to find that the sugary smell of donuts that I had never really noticed before, never really noticed the way it filled my car or tickled my nose, the smell of the OMG UNHEALTHY sickly sweet treats I used to eat 2 or 3 of without a second thought… I was astounded... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:15:51 EST Dang it Murphy!!! So it is now noon here (Central US time) and so far everything has gone wrong. <BR> My weekly trip to Sam's Club for office shopping was a mess, they had rearranged and I couldn't find anything. <BR> My bi-weekly trip to the office supply store was a mess, I had to reset account info AT the store. <BR> Traffic to work was HORRENDOUS today <BR> and then getting everything in the office was a chore (no one came to my aid today) <BR> I finally got to sit down at my desk around 10am only to find ... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 13:10:15 EST First Week of 2013 Check In So wow, it’s only been about a week since really rededicating myself to my journey <BR> I feel like it’s been so much longer, not entirely sure why, but I do. I am doing great so far in just about every aspect, though I still need to figure out how to get my 5.5 miles in everyday. I’ve gotten once so far (oops) but I’m managing about 2 miles without going to the gym at all. <BR> <BR> Things that have happened so far… <BR> *I have decided that leg warmers about the most amazing thing EVAR, ... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 12:19:56 EST Goals For The Year! Well kids, we survived 2012. <BR> The world didn’t end (I’m shocked… no really…) <BR> <BR> And now it’s time to get plans and goals in order for 2013. Last year I had kind of an epic list of goals, reached most of them too, but then life got in the way in a serious way. I got hurt and sick and work has been insane for months…. I let go of (not gave up on) the last of my goals for 2012 so I could still finish the year encouraged and motivated (and with some semblance of sanity) <BR> Last year... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 11:42:39 EST By Posting This Blog... I will officially earn my Level 16 Sparkpoints Trophy <BR> <BR> That was a goal for the end of this year. <BR> <BR> YAY ME! Thu, 27 Dec 2012 15:24:57 EST quick question is anyone else listening to Sparkpeople radio? <BR> <BR> and if you are do you find the constant interjection and intrrupting between the 2 hosts incredibly annoying? Because I do. I'm about 15 minutes into episode 1 and I'm going to have to turn it off, it's really grating on my nerves. <BR> <BR> sad Wed, 19 Dec 2012 15:49:36 EST discouraged I did pretty good when I got hurt <BR> <BR> I stayed strong while recovering and going to faire <BR> <BR> I rested and let myself get well when I got sick from faire <BR> <BR> Now I'm frigging sick again and I am beginning to get discouraged. <BR> <BR> Maybe I need to research immune boosters or something? I've never had a very strong immune system, I've always been pretty sickly, but dangit I want to reach my goals!!! <BR> <BR> I am releasing myself from the stress and pressure of the l... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 16:41:09 EST update on the me soooo the last several weeks have been... um... difficult. <BR> <BR> I choose not to share it all here, because I choose not to dwell on it. <BR> <BR> Instead I am going to talk about my day today, which has been good. <BR> I have done a 30 Day Shred workout and I went for a "run". <BR> I use quotation marks because it was kind of sad. I was able to do a bit of actual running (1 minute on, 1 minute off) but my endurance and the strength of my legs has gone WAY down since October. <BR> <BR>... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 17:35:37 EST Yesterday Ooookay, so yesterday I really wasn’t on SP much (really wasn’t online much” and here is the reason why. <BR> There is a woman in my office that has decided to make my life hell (you would think with only 3 women in the office we’d manage to get along) she does little things to make my job harder, to make my day bad, and to make me angry. <BR> Yesterday was a “last straw” sort of moment. When I got in to work and went to put my food in my drawer I saw that all of the food that had been there... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 12:07:21 EST I am loved my fiance and best friend and her boyfriend sent me these to make my day better. <BR> and while my day is not 100% better.... it is much better than it was. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 6 Dec 2012 17:37:05 EST Day 5 ow ow ow FRIGGIN OW Sooooo I may have over done it on the stairs yesterday, or rather I’ve done too much too soon. <BR> My calves are KILLING ME! <BR> I’m able to rub them and use the nubbly-ball-rolly-thing so I don’t think it’s a muscle strain or tear, but rather OHMYGOD soreness. So this morning, as I lay in bed thinking “I’ll get up and workout today and do the stairs and take tomorrow off if I still hurt” I realized how DUMB that is. Why the hell would I work out today if I might be injured? Or if there is... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 12:44:38 EST Day 4 Success Over The Sleepy Day 3 Recap <BR> After dragging my tired butt thru my work day (stair climbing included) I went home and did 30DS day 3. That’s right beetches I conquered that workout! And then I ate dinner sewed some buttons on a vest and passed the hell out. <BR> <BR> Day 4 <BR> Unfortunately I didn’t sleep well again last night, but I was still able to pull myself out of bed and do workout #4. <BR> I can tell it’s a little easier already. I think that is just my muscles re-adjusting to being worked regul... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 11:14:55 EST Day 3 of 30 Sleepless in Euless Uuuuuuggggghhhhhhh… <BR> <BR> I haven’t slept well since Wednesday and it’s starting to really wear on me! <BR> I blame Matt! <BR> He came in SUPER late from things Thursday, Friday, and Saturday and last night he had a terror which woke us both up. <BR> <BR> I wasn’t able to drag myself out of bed to workout this morning, but I will workout after work and I plan on walking the stairs at lunch. <BR> <BR> In other news starting 30 Day Shred the day after pole class (my first in 2 months) ... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 11:58:51 EST Pole Class Tonight & Busy December I get to go to Pole class tonight! For the first time since SEPTEMBER! <BR> And then I won’t get to go again until the 28th… <BR> Oh well <BR> <BR> I am hoping to get a pole for myself for Giftmas, just trying to decide which one I want to get. <BR> <BR> My December is beginning to look crowded, which after the October and November I’ve had I reeeeeeeally was hoping for a mellow month (silly me) <BR> I still plan to do 30 Day Shred for all of December and I walk the stairs at work. <BR> I... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 12:22:33 EST 30 Day Shred, A Good Shift, & Healthy Eating I’m a bit adrift in my blog today, kinda done with the “day count” I was doing, but I’m not starting another one for a few days (literally, just a few) <BR> I have decided to do 30 Day Shred in the mornings throughout all of December. I will stay on track this holiday season no matter what (I’m not sure how I’ll manage during the family trip to New Orleans, but I have time to figure it out) <BR> I’m picking up the DVD tonight after work and I’m starting it on Saturday, December 1st. I’ll ta... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 12:05:21 EST Thanksgiving Weekend Recap Thursday: I got to sleep in for the first time in a month! It was GLORIOUS! <BR> Then we had brunch with Matt’s mom and then set out around 3pm for Houston. Once there it was just an evening of hanging out with our friends there. <BR> <BR> Friday: Lazy day! I actually managed to get Matt to walk around with me for the morning (he like to do his own thing at faire, much to my irritation sometimes) we did some shopping together and then split around lunchtime. I went to do some shopping of my ... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 12:04:51 EST Day 44 First injured Now Sick?!? Weekend Recap <BR> UGH! I started feeling bad Friday night on the way down to TRF and it only got worse as the weekend went on! I still performed on Saturday and had a grand time, but Sunday I woke up feeling like total crap! I strolled around Sunday so the gunk couldn't settle, had some fantastic chili for lunch and just worked to stay hydrated. <BR> Saturday Steps: 18597 <BR> Sunday Steps: 12228 <BR> <BR> Monday was awful, I had to come into work because it's a short week and I was even so... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 14:28:12 EST Day 39 WOOHOO Thursday! Day 38 Recap <BR> I managed to take the coat from half cut out (it’s fully lined) to all but complete last night, woot! I was up til Midnight:30 but I do what I must for my deadlines. <BR> <BR> Day 39 The Plan <BR> I will be squeezing in some body weight exercises where I can today, but it’s another full day. Next week I’ll be hitting the gym hardcore because almost all of my commissions will be out the door. <BR> I stepped on the scale this morning and I’m a pound down (also, woot!) and th... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 12:13:31 EST Day 38 Holy Cow This Actually Does Work! Day 37 Recap <BR> Yoga Achieved! I even tried a new (for me) style, called Ashtanga. I found an “express” series on youtube which I think I’ll do for a while before trying a full series (which is an hour-ish long) after the 25 minute-ish minute video my legs were shaking and tired enough that when I went to try my forearm/handstands against the wall I couldn’t get enough push to get up <BR> <BR> Poor sad weak little legs... <BR> Must <BR> Fix <BR> It <BR> NOW! <BR> <BR> Day 38 The Plan <BR>... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 13:02:16 EST Day 37 Crazy Week Day 36 Recap <BR> I managed 15 minutes of yoga last night, that’s all I had the patience for after trying to get the internet to work for half a bloody hour! Ironic, no? <BR> <BR> Day 37 The Plan <BR> Had a will power WIN first things this morning. <BR> We woke up late because our phone alarms suck and then figured out that my lazy beast of a fiancé didn’t make our Egg Things like he was supposed to, so instead of hitting a drive thru on my way to work I threw together a container of oatmea... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 11:48:52 EST Day 36 Sooooo Sore, But Happy! Weekend Recap <BR> There is so much to share and I don’t have the time to type it all (work is CRAZY today) I’ll give you the highlights version <BR> <BR> Friday was a bad eating day and I felt like complete crap for it, not guilty mind you, I physically felt like icky bad sludge… ugh <BR> <BR> Saturday was better food-wise and an AWESOME day, took my faerie out again and had a blast walking around getting my picture taken, making little kids smile, it was awesome sauce! My pedometer read ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 11:53:23 EST Day 32 HELL YES!!!! Day 31 Recap <BR> I walked at a 4.0 -4.3 doing hill repeats on the treadmill for 45 minutes, managed 3.05 miles <BR> Then did some upper body and core exercises, tried a technique I heard about on Jillian Michaels podcast, where you do slow controlled reps, 6 seconds per rep. I did 2 set of 10 reps doing 3 seconds up and 3 seconds down. I was going to do 3 set but the first 2 killed me. <BR> <BR> It felt GREAT after not being able to really workout for a month. <BR> I’m back and I like it! <... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 11:47:02 EST Day 31 Another Day Day 30 Recap <BR> I didn’t do my ab challenge, honestly I’m bored with it, but that’s not why I didn’t do it. My errands took longer than I thought they would and my friend showed sooner than he was supposed to. Alas. <BR> <BR> Day 31 The Plan <BR> Catch up on the ab challenge <BR> Do some strength training (as much as my ankle will allow) <BR> Walk for 30 to 45 minutes (also as much as my ankle will allow) <BR> I’ve got some sewing to do… again, still, some more <BR> And packing again for t... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 11:54:05 EST Day 30 Short And Sweet Day 29 Recap <BR> No yoga, but I did get some cleaning and laundry done <BR> <BR> Day 30 The Plan <BR> Catch up on the ab challenge (mental note, daily workouts that don’t change are no fun…) <BR> Walk if I get home in time. I am leaving work early to go vote and run some errands before a friend comes over tonight . <BR> <BR> Nothing profound today, sorry, have to get stuff done. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> GO VOTE! Tue, 6 Nov 2012 11:17:33 EST Day 29 A Good Ending, A Good Beginning Weekend Recap <BR> I actually managed to eat “okay” while at TRF! I did not eat a lot of crap and I drank mostly water, tea and lemonade. I don’t think I ate ENOUGH though… oops <BR> <BR> Saturday was awesome, went out with my Honeybear dressed as jesters (there is an old pic in my album, if you want to see) scared people and ran around making noise and having our picture taken A LOT. It was great. <BR> My ankle held up admirably, though it was achy at the end of the day. We had dinner at on... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 12:20:28 EST A good read this is a good article <BR> very in your face, straight forward <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ning/no-bs-keys-success-6-most-common-<BR>fitness-goals </link> Fri, 2 Nov 2012 15:07:01 EST Day 25 Where Did My Week Go? Better yet, where did the month of October go??? <BR> It just flew by in a blur… <BR> <BR> yeesh <BR> <BR> Day 24 Recap <BR> This week has just been an off week, actually this month has been an off month, with vacation, the injury, those d@mn vaccine shots and now with the car stuff and yesterday I started to show signs of a bad reaction to the asthma preventative my doc put me on (this same kind of reaction caused my grandmother to need surgery to repair her vocal cords so she could contin... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 11:48:14 EST Day 24 Mental note Day 23 Recap <BR> Mental note: Don’t get too excited and act like you have it all figured out, the universe will then feel compelled to take you down a peg. <BR> Yesterday, not long after I posted, my safety director at work comes into my office and asks if I knew the front tires on my car were bald. <BR> No, I did not <BR> Crap <BR> And then when I got in my car at the end of the day I saw that my inspection is due, right effing now <BR> Insult to injury, that is <BR> I’m supposed to drive ... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 11:12:33 EST Day 23 Learning What Works Day 22 Recap <BR> So I WAS going to go walk at the gym, but after 3 different routes all encountered road blocks (as in police road blocks) all on the street where my gym is, I decided going home was a better option. <BR> I ended up doing Coach Nicole’s Walk It Out workout twice to get some burn (it didn’t hurt my ankle at all, woot) and then did the ab challenge and lifted for upper body. I had to use my 12 pounders instead of the planned 10 pounders at the gym, an oh my dear and fluffy lord... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 12:11:52 EST Day 22 Revamped goals Days 19, 20, 21 Recap <BR> 3 weeks in and I’m fighting the urge to fizzle out and say “screw it” <BR> It’s always about this time in any plan that I have the urge to say “why bother” this time is a little different though, this time I have an injury AND I have commissions due soon, which separately have been contributing factors in the past to my “screw it” moment. <BR> This time is also different because I WANT to keep going, I want to exercise despite the injury and the commissions, I just ... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 12:52:59 EST Day 19 Indulgences Day 18 Recap <BR> Ab challenge completed <BR> Really didn’t do any yoga last night, I currently have 3 sewing commissions and 2 personal projects and I was super productive and worked on all 5 at some point last night, but it meant yoga got pushed out. I’m not too worried about it because my ankle is still on the mend. <BR> <BR> I’m able to get around without a brace or wrap of any kind, my ankle feels tight more than anything, it’s a little sore at the end of the day, but I’m pretty sure th... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 12:38:00 EST Day 18 What To Do? Day 18 The Plan (before the thinky thoughts take over…) <BR> I have the ab challenge and I ‘m going to attempt some gentle yoga when I get home. <BR> <BR> Onto the deep thinking <BR> <BR> Having an injury makes you slow down and take stock of things and after giving my life a bit of a once over I’m not entirely sure I’m happy where I am. <BR> Actually I KNOW I’m not happy with how my life is right this moment. <BR> On the one hand I have been the happiest and most satisfied with my life du... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 13:02:03 EST Day 16 No Sh!t There I Was… Day 15 Recap <BR> I accomplished my ab challenge stuff at work during the day, I do better if I don’t wait, and then after work I went to the gym to walk. I’m trucking along at 4mph-ish reading my book when I hear a noise and turn just in time to see this lady’s head hit the treadmill. I pressed pause and jumped off my treadmill, checked to see if she was coherent or seriously injured, then jogged (yes jogged, yay/boo adrenaline) down the hall to locate a gym employee to help her. <BR> She wa... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 12:01:49 EST Day 15 Slow And Steady I’m doing better and I’m more mobile than I have been since the 14th (before I got hurt) <BR> I’ve tried to continue to rest even though I’m feeling better and it’s been HARD, I want to jump right back in and GO, but I know my recovery time will be much longer if I try that. <BR> <BR> Which brings me to… <BR> <BR> Day 15 The Plan <BR> Today I have my Ab Challenge and I’m going to go walk on the treadmill at the gym. I’m not expecting a huge burn but just getting going again. The goal is for... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 15:41:36 EST Day 12 Improvement! Day 11 Recap <BR> I did not get the ab challenge done, my evening went ferf*cked after I left work and so I just couldn’t get there. <BR> <BR> Day 12 The Plan <BR> Today so far I have done yesterday’s ab challenge and I later I’ll do today’s <BR> Still working on the nutrition, though in the realm of awesome news, I did not gain weight on my vacation! (that was my goal) and I haven’t gained weight in the time between then and now with the injuries and such. <BR> So, woot! I’m doing something... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 12:55:37 EST Day 11 Learn and Grow Day 10 Recap <BR> Oh. My. God. Yesterday sucked! <BR> I have an extremely high pain threshold, seriously. (after my huge wreck in 2007, where my car rolled multiple times, I took nothing stronger than ibuprofen and Tylenol) but man I was hurting yesterday. <BR> Which makes for an apathetic and unmotivated Jessy. I even marked yesterday's blog as #9 when it was actually #10, because I couldn't think clearly at all. <BR> I did nothing but eat marginally well yesterday and after work I slept an... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 12:11:49 EST