FINDYOURSPARK's SparkPeople Blog FINDYOURSPARK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Year of the Half Its FEBRUARY! Do you know what that means? Its time to lace up my running shoes and start working towards one of my goals this year: A Half Marathon. <BR> <BR> Yikes! Just saying it gives me a little case of the nerves. This is a big goal for me. I just started running last year, and I can remember thinking how insurmountable a half marathon seemed. It only seems slightly less insurmountable this year. BUT, when I was setting my goals for the year, I knew that THIS was the year. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 09:04:02 EST Lucky '13- The Journey Continues! So....its been awhile since I blogged. Turns out the 4th quarter of 2012 was a blur of traveling, holidays and life in general. I've been here, logging and lurking, trying to give positive encouragement when I can. I'm hoping to be around more often in the coming months, so we'll see how that goes. <BR> <BR> Anyways, Happy New Year! So far, my year is off to a great start. Last week, I came to work to find 5 copies of my company's annual "Fit Champion" brochures sitting on my desk. A few mo... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 14:17:24 EST Where does the time go? Whoah! Where did September go?! My last blog was August 31st, which seems like just a short time ago. I've been here, but I've only had time to log mostly. SO MUCH has happened in the last month. October is proving to be just as crazy! But, thought I’d update quick since I have some victories to share. <BR> <BR> My September seemed to be swallowed up in work. We had our annual turnaround, which means we take the plant down for a week and its all hands on deck. We work 13-14 hour days, round ... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 11:16:41 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 30- 10 things about you! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, I made it! It was the longest 30 days ever...probably because I didn't post on the weekends hehe. I had a terrible time coming up with 10 facts about sorry for the lameness. I had a fun time doing this challenge, and I'll be looking for another one! goes... <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. When I was in high school, I broke the school record for lowest golf score (79). I was one stroke away from maki... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 08:14:16 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 29- Definition of beauty <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is a hard question to answer, mostly because I feel like whatever I say, it will sound so cliché. The whole “beauty is on the inside, not the outside.” I mean, I honestly do feel that, but seriously…its so overused that it just sounds FAKE. Instead, I’ll make an observation that will back up my claim. <BR> <BR> In my experience, its AMAZING how your perception of a person will change as you get to know ... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 08:57:15 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 28- THE GAP <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Haha…oh yes, “the gap”. Do I want it? HELL YEAH! In fact, its made an appearance as of late. I think its funny there’s a question about this. I didn’t realize that it was a common thing that people wanted. I always just thought I was weird to want that. Haha. <BR> <BR> But anyways, yes, I want it. Mostly because I feel like my thighs are big and I’m really working to get those runner’s legs that I crave so ... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 09:52:30 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 27- How do you deal with food? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> What do I do when I’m around food? Well…I EAT IT. Duh. That’s what got me here in the first place! I mean, come on…a girl can only have so much willpower. I can usually avoid the standard donuts, bagels, and crap that gets set out at work. But if there’s pizza buffet for lunch or a family get together, I’m usually a mess. I do good for awhile, but as soon as I let myself have that first bite…my willpower usua... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 08:56:43 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 26- What are you most excited about reaching your UGW? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> The thing I’m most excited about when I reach my UGW is the fact that this will be the first time IN MY LIFE that I have accomplished something I set out to do. It will be the first time I FINISHED something I started. That is HUGE. If you remember, my normal mantra is “you can’t fail if you don’t try”. And this is something I’ve been trying my very hardest on….so when I hit that goal, I’ll know its because I... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 08:18:20 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 25- Have you purged? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have never purged in my life. But, I can say I’ve been pretty damn close a couple times. The only thing that stopped me is the fear that if I started…I wouldn’t be able to stop. And being thin is not worth having an eating disorder to me. I have plenty of battles to fight in this life, I don’t need something like that to fight too! Fri, 24 Aug 2012 08:16:05 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 24- Pro-ana/Pro-mia <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I’ve never really thought much about them, but I think they are disgusting. I am so saddened that people support these eating disorders and encourage them. I spend a lot of time worrying about making sure I raise my daughter in a way that none of these things comes to mind for her. I so want her to live a healthy life from the get go…and not have to go through what I had to go through. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 07:29:14 EST 1 Weekend- 2 Races! Recap (with pics!) So…last weekend was BUSY. Early in the spring, I decided I needed to do something to motivate myself to keep working out this summer, so I signed up for both the Warrior Dash and the Dirty Girl…which doesn’t seem that big of deal, until you realize they were on the SAME WEEKEND. At the time I signed up, this seemed CRAZY, but I really wanted to challenge myself this summer. Now that the time is here and gone, I realize it wasn’t really that big of a deal. I take that as a good sign that I tra... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 12:05:23 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 23- What role does the media play? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> What a strange question. I mean, I’m sure it did…how can it not? Its not like I said “Oh my, that Jennifer Aniston is skinny, I must look like her!”. But…when you are bombarded with images of skinny women every day on tv, movies, books, magazines, websites….its bound to have an effect, right? <BR> <BR> I don’t feel that to be beautiful you have to look like those images, but I also know I’m not the rule, I’... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 08:13:00 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 22- What was your lowest weight? How did you gain? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is going to be really sad, but I honestly have NO IDEA what my lowest weight was. I want to say it was probably around 145ish and that was freshman year of college. I don’t know if I blocked out the younger grades or what, but I really don’t remember what weight I was in middle school and junior high. I just remember what I looked like…and I remember being one of the chubbier girls in the class. I remembe... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 08:18:22 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 21- Clothing Sizes <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I’m not sure I can make a whole blog about my clothing sizes…but right now I wear a size medium top and a size 8/10 pants. Those are 2 sizes I’d NEVER imagined I’d say in my life! I figured I’d never get below a large and a size 12. I don’t know why…I guess maybe because the last time I was at this weight, I wasn’t this “small”. Just goes to show how much it matters to be fit and not just thin! <BR> <BR> Her... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 08:28:04 EST GOAL!! So…I hit GOAL today! Actually, I had cheated and checked yesterday, but I told myself it wouldn’t be real unless I weighed in at goal 2 days in a row. Plus, Fridays are my normal weigh-in days. Here’s the proof! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> (ignore my puffy morning feet!) <BR> <BR> <BR> I’d be lying if I didn’t say I have mixed feelings. I thought I’d feel way more excited. Don’t get me wrong…I’m excited, but I also have a bit of a “now w... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 10:15:52 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 20- Favorite Diet <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> My favorite diet? NONE OF THEM. I hate diets. HATE THEM. They are restrictive, nutritionally narrow and don’t work (for me at least). I haven’t tried many, I’ll be honest with that. There was a girl in my class in high school who did some extreme dieting and ended up messing up her metabolism for life, and that completely scared me away from any kind of extreme dieting or pills. I have never tried any of that... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 08:28:09 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 19- When did you last eat fast food? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> The last time I ate fast food? Well…depends on your definition of fast food. If it’s the traditional McDonald’s, Wendy’s, Hardees etc, then I don’t really remember the last time! I usually try to avoid those places like the plague. The food is never as good as I think its going to be, plus we’ve all seen those documentaries and read the articles..YUCK! I will admit I like Culver’s, but I don’t eat a burger th... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 09:27:06 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 18- What food is your weakness? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Seriously…who WROTE this question? Food? Singular? They obviously have never been overweight. I have many food weaknesses. I call them trigger foods because once I start, I have a hard time stopping. So I shall list them: <BR> <BR> 1. Pizza- the mother of all triggers. I am quite sure that if given free reign, I could finish an entire pizza without flinching. Seriously. Its scary. I’m guessing I can attribut... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 13:25:38 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 17- Do you have an eating disorder? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is a tough one. I certainly don’t have an eating disorder where I restrict what I eat…so no anorexia or bulimia. Is overeating a disorder? If it is, then I suppose I suffer from that. I certainly had/have a disordered relationship with food. I have tendencies to use it for much more than just fuel…mainly emotional support. <BR> <BR> I have always said I’m a food addict. I definitely think breaking the ... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 08:32:38 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 16- When did you decide to lose weight? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Ha…when have I NOT been in some kind of weight loss phase? I’d have to say I’ve been trying to lose weight since I got into college. I was chubby (in my opinion) in high school, but never really tried to lose weight. My freshman year of college I lost a good 15 lbs and was probably near about the weight I am right now. Of course, back then I wasn’t skinny enough (compared to other girls) and I definitely wasn... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 09:25:39 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 15- Are you a vegetarian? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am not vegan nor vegetarian. Never have been. There was one time when I was younger that I developed some kind of temporary lactose intolerance and it was TORTURE! I couldn’t eat any dairy foods for like a month. You know how hard this is for someone who loves milk, cheese and all things dairy? So glad whatever it was resolved itself. <BR> <BR> So I’d definitely say I would never consider vegan. I just ca... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 14:05:07 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 14- What's your UGW? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> So I’m gonna be a little wishy washy on this one. If you had asked me any time before about 3 months ago what my goal weight was, I’d have said “150” without a doubt. But…as I flirt with that number, I keep hearing little voices in my head whispering “Well…you still have some soft spots…maybe you should shoot more for the 140-145 lb range.” SO. I realize that there’s a chance I’ll never be truly accepting and... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 08:41:36 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 13- Are you doing it the healthy way? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Judging by the speed and overall timespan I’ve been working on this, I’m definitely going the healthy route to lose this weight. I’ve been working on losing this 75 lbs for almost 3 years now. When I started, I knew it wasn’t going to be quick, and I didn’t want it to be. For me, the faster I lose it, the faster I gain it back. I’m very much in this for the long haul. I know that its something I will have to ... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 08:22:17 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 12- What do you eat? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So...what do I eat? What a weird question! Hehe. I’ve noticed that at least for me, I have some “go-to” foods that I eat on a regular basis. Sometimes because I like them, sometimes because they are easy, and sometimes, because they are easy to log! Haha. <BR> <BR> So for breakfast I try to be high protein. That usually means egg beaters or high protein Special K. But, I try my best to eat breakfast ever... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 08:57:56 EST Vacation- Northern California (with pics!) I just got back from a fabulous vacation with the hubby to northern California. It was great! We went to Laguna Seca, San Francisco and Sonoma. Rather than babble on with my stories, I thought I’d list out the things I learned on my vacation: <BR> <BR> 1. Californians just WILL NOT give up on the band Sublime. It’s comical! Every other song on the radio is Sublime. Hubby and I had a running joke where a song would come on and I’d say, “Hey, is that Sublime?” I’d say a good 50% of the time it... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 10:35:22 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 11- Favorite Thinspo Blog <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I don’t really have an answer for today. I don’t know exactly what a “thinspo” blog is. But I can tell you that I LOVE reading everyone’s blogs here on Sparkpeople. I love that people put it all out there. Its like free therapy! You all help me to discover things about myself through sharing your experiences. I love how supportive people are, and that most often, the feelings I’m having are not just me. Other... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 08:37:45 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 10- What have you given up? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just back from I'm starting up on the blogs again! Here we go! <BR> <BR> <BR> I’ve really tried to take the approach that I haven’t “given up” anything on this journey. As far as food goes, if I want it bad enough, then I eat it. I find if something becomes “forbidden” then I become obsessed with it. I’ll eat 20 different things trying to substitute and in the end, its way more damaging than just ea... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 09:20:04 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 9- Negative Comments <img src=""> <BR> <BR> (So yeah, this blogging everyday thing is proving to be pretty hard! I promise to finish!) <BR> <BR> Have I had negative comments about my weight? The short answer? YES. The longer answer? Well, I’ve worked in the manufacturing industry for the last almost 10 years (oh, God…I’m getting OLD!) which is heavily dominated by men. What I’ve learned is that no matter what you look like, the fact you are female makes you... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 08:16:59 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 8- My Workout Routine <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Lets see…my workout routine. Honestly, its ever-changing. I think that might be one of the reasons I’ve been able to stick to it. I get bored pretty easily, so I definitely need to change it up often to keep my motivation going. Right now, I’m in a bit of a transition period. In the spring, I was primarily doing group classes, mostly kickboxing, zumba and power flex. It was working, but going to classes 4 nig... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 08:23:56 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 7- My Parents <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think I might be a day off, but oh well. I posted 3 blogs yesterday, so that should make up for it a little! Lets keep going.... <BR> <BR> <BR> Yes, my parents know about my weight and health goals. They have always been supportive of it. It’s a delicate balance though. I’ve been chubby for a large portion of my life. I know my mom tried to gently let me know I needed to lose weight as a youngster, and I love h... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 09:54:04 EST Dirt Fit 2012 (VERY pic heavy) So I racked up the volunteer hours this weekend. It was a BLAST. I think total this week I logged 15.5 hours! (my goal is 100 for the year). Hubby and daughter volunteered with me, which made it so much more fun. <BR> <BR> So anyways, on Friday night, we headed to town to help out for an all-night walkathon. I got roped into selling 50/50 raffle tickets, which basically meant I had to go around throughout the crowds soliciting people to purchase tickets. In the past, this would have made me ... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 12:26:59 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 6- Binging <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Do I binge? Unfortunately, yes. As far as the degree, I don’t think I fall into the category of having a binging disorder, but there are days when I eat copious amounts of food for no rational reason. Honestly, its embarrassing and sad, because most of the time, I’m aware that I’m doing it, yet I do it anyways! <BR> <BR> This is something I have dealt with for a lot of my life, and its only just been recentl... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 08:43:23 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 5- Are you doing it for you? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> (I know I'm horribly behind! I will try to catch up today!) <BR> <BR> YES. I am losing the weight for ME. I know this because I’m succeeding. And that seems to be the big difference this time around. I made a commitment to myself. Now that I think about it, I think I remember even signing a contract with myself 3 years ago. I should dig it up….I’m pretty sure I tried to make it sound all legal and binding hehe. <... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 08:28:11 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 4- My Fears Oh my…we’re prying deep today, aren’t we? There are a few fears I have about weight loss. Maybe its best if I list them. Sit back…this could take awhile! <BR> <BR> 1. That I won’t hit my goal weight. <BR> <BR> I realize this is a common fear. I also realize that its something I have complete control over, and maybe that’s why it’s a fear. Is it strange that its actually almost easier for me to trust other people than it is for me to trust myself? I fear I’m going to sabotage myself. I’ve do... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 08:46:35 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 3- My Thinspiration Hmm…I’ve never really thought about this one before. I can’t say there is a specific person that I use as thinspiration. Its usually a compilation of people that I might like certain features they have. I try to be realistic and pick people that have similar body types to mine. But, I also dream like everyone else! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I found this one on pinterest and would kill for those legs and tummy (and ass!) <BR> <BR> <... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 08:41:15 EST Enjoy the View This was my view on the way in to work today: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> How can you not have a fabulous day after witnessing something that beautiful? <BR> <BR> What did you see out your window this morning? <BR> <BR> Happy Hump Day Sparkers! Wed, 18 Jul 2012 08:03:47 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 2- How Tall Are You? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Seems strange to have an entire blog devoted to my height. Its not usually something I think about much! Maybe I’m lucky in that regard, I know for some people height is a big deal. <BR> <BR> Anyways, I’m 5’6”. Average. And I’m pretty happy with it. I don’t stand out in a crowd much, and shopping is usually easy. I do like to wear “tall” pants…seems after I wash them they always shrink. Plus I grew up in the... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 08:02:22 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 1- Your Stats <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I guess I should probably start off with WHY I’m doing this challenge. I’ve seen it around Sparkpeople lately, and it caught my interest. I kind of like digging into my psyche and really trying to figure myself out, and the questions here seem thought provoking. challenge is to be brutally honest and lay it all out there. So…here goes. <BR> <BR> My Stats: <BR> Highest Weight: 254 lbs (the day I had my... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 10:33:46 EST Biker Chick I'm a biker chick! <BR> <BR> Naw...not really. But I did have an NSV related to a motorcycle this week. Hubby is in to riding motorcycles. Fast ones. I've always been kinda against it (to put it lightly), but honestly, since I jumped out of a plane last year, I have a different view on thrill seeking and the kinds of feelings you get from hurling at things (whether it be horizontally or vertically) at high speeds. In an essence, I "get it" now. And when done responsibly...its a BLAST. <BR> ... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 16:40:13 EST Saving Myself I had a sort of revelation last night. I learned something about myself. Wanna know what it is? <BR> <BR> I HATE feeling overfull. <BR> <BR> Makes sense, right? I mean, who likes to have that yucky, bloated, guilty, gross feeling? Wanna know a secret? I used to like that feeling. I used to crave it even. I can remember eating and eating until I got that feeling. As if it would fill some hole, soothe some hurt feeling. And you know what? It NEVER did. NEVER. I usually ended up feeling yuck... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 10:35:51 EST BMI= HEALTHY!?!? I’ve been inching ever closer to my goal weight over the last month. I had an awesome 2 lb weight loss last week which kind of caught me off guard. I had kind of stalled out and was worried I was hitting a plateau, so it was a pleasant surprise! Since I was getting close to my goal weight, I thought I’d check my BMI. <BR> <BR> OH. MY. GOSH. <BR> <BR> I am officially in the “healthy” range!!! Nevermind that its only by 0.2, I AM IN THE HEALTHY RANGE! I think this is probably the first time... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 14:41:11 EST Father's Day Fun Hope everyone had a great Father’s Day weekend and treated their dads to something special! I had a great weekend. I was FINALLY able to use my new golf clubs. I’ve been itching to for 2 WEEKS! We went home to my parents’ house for the weekend, and I got to spend the afternoon on the links with the 2 best dads in the world. I was actually worried we might not be able to play as it was actually a little chilly and rained on us the first hole! But…luckily my mom is always prepared and had a car... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 14:13:29 EST Late nights, long runs and victories of the non-scale variety When I try to think back on the last week, it feels a bit of a blur. I had to swing to nights a couple days last week, which honestly, I love nights when we have stuff going on at work. It’s so much more laid back and people are generally less stressed (including me) and more fun to be around. Plus….you never know what kind of things you’ll learn about people at 3:00 in the morning. (seriously….tell me the best conversations don’t happen in the wee hours?) I am lucky to work with a lot of pe... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 10:50:16 EST Could this weekend BE any busier? Channeling a little “Friends” nostalgia in the title there. (you know you're imagining Chandler saying that....admit it) <BR> <BR> Also..WARNING…this is a long one! Its been awhile since I updated. (seriously…its super long) <BR> <BR> First, lets start off with Friday. It started off AWESOME with a 2 lb loss. I’m officially 5 lbs from goal (well…5.4) and it feels good. I can already tell I’m going to have to readjust my goal lower, but I’m still pretty excited. I feel like all this running... Tue, 29 May 2012 09:51:24 EST Be a Kindness Ninja! These little acts of kindness warm my heart. I thought I'd share with my spark friends as you've all been Kindness Ninjas to me at some point in my journey. Spread the kindess! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>dness-ninjas/ </link> Mon, 14 May 2012 17:00:06 EST Weekend Hangover I don’t know about ya all, but I have a Mother’s Day weekend hangover! I think its going to take me a few days to get back into the swing of things. What a great weekend. The bad part is, I feel like all I did was eat. So much so I have somewhat of a food hangover today. I’m not hungry at all and the scale was evil this morning. So today will be “flush the system” day with plenty of water! <BR> <BR> So we went back to my parents’ house this weekend so that we could meet up with one of my bes... Mon, 14 May 2012 09:59:54 EST Margaritas and Cell Phones Don't Mix Here we are…another fine Monday. Seems they come too fast…one week blurring into the next. This weekend was good. It was rainy and cold, but turned out to be a good mixture of activity and laziness. <BR> <BR> I have to start with a funny story only because I still laugh about it when I think of it. On Thursday, we had a Cinco de Mayo potluck at work. One of the engineers brought margarita mix, ice and a blender so we could have margaritas. I was drinking mine, and had it setting on my desk, ... Mon, 7 May 2012 15:26:30 EST "It's Gonna Be May" What did Justin Timberlake say when he looked at his calendar yesterday? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> IT'S GONNA BE MAY <BR> <BR> (I wish I would have remembered to post this yesterday...but I couldn't resist posting it anyways.) <BR> <BR> Happy May Day Everyone! Tue, 1 May 2012 09:53:27 EST A week to forget So…how do I characterize last week other than to say it was CRAZY WEIRD. Usually that term defines my life and would be normal, but last week was even crazier weirder. I hit Wednesday and my appetite soared through the roof and I craved all kinds of fatty, delicious foods. I also found I just felt…off…all week. Like no motivation. Working out was a chore (usually I enjoy it once I get started) and work was torturously long. <BR> <BR> On the workout front, I was ok Monday and Tuesday, but I ... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 09:57:39 EST My first 5K ever! RECAP So, this weekend I ran my first race EVER! Honestly, it was a lot of firsts for me. It was my first time running more than 2 miles, my first race, my first time feeling confident enough to do something like this. And it felt amazing! <BR> <BR> I can’t really take all the glory though, I had SO MANY people behind me. I made a point of publicizing my intent to run this race for a multitude of reasons. Mostly, I wanted to be held accountable. I didn’t want to be able to back out, and, frankly, ... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 14:46:36 EST