FINDINGSANDY's SparkPeople Blog FINDINGSANDY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community And once again I start My New Years Resolutions seem to bite the dust earlier than usually this year. Something always seems to happen to derail me. But once more I start again! You only fail when you stop trying. I was using Food Lovers Fat Loss and using their site to track my food but they were really restrictive and I found that I was always hungry. I'm going to use their method of eating small meals every 3 hours to keep your metabolism going and try to eat as much protein as I can. <BR> <BR> Now I'm b... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 06:19:54 EST Fed up! I'm really discouraged. I cannot get the scale to move at all! I have gone a few weeks measuring my food, logging in and exercising and NOTHING! I just want this to leave! My coworker did Weighnot and lost weight really fast. It is very strict and expensive but I'm really tempted to do it. I'm just tired of trying. <BR> <BR> Sandy Mon, 15 Apr 2013 06:31:08 EST Happy April Everyone!! Another new month -- another fresh start! I'm getting serious now; I broke out my food scale! It's interesting to see how small the portions you are to be eating are. I am determined to do some type of exercise, several times each day. I can do this!! Mon, 1 Apr 2013 21:17:11 EST Motivating Spark Team Wanted! I'm looking for a Spark Team that is working hard on losing weight! Let me know which team you're on and why you love it so!! Mon, 11 Mar 2013 22:32:57 EST This is it!! I don't know how many times I've been at this spot. The point where you just feel awful -- bloated and lazy. It's hard to put my shoes on and climbing stairs makes me winded. I need to put my life back in the correct order. <BR> <BR> I have forgotten about putting God first in my life and I've forgotten all about taking care of myself. I know that when I put these things in the right order the rest of life falls into place correctly. I will have more energy and more positivity. <BR>... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 22:09:50 EST It's not how many times you fall but . . . Whether or not you get back up! I'm getting back up!! <BR> <BR> Quick recap: The new co-worker that was starting in my last blog turned out to be awful -- really loud, bad worker and lots of stress! And she left. Thank God!! However she brought in a class member of hers who seems to be working out well!! So . . . I start again! <BR> <BR> I know I've said this too many times before but I need to spend some time on myself. I have not exercised in way too long and my body has completely... Mon, 1 Aug 2011 04:54:23 EST Belated New Years 2010 was a blur of activity, crises and work -- and I'm glad to see it gone. My co-worker was fired in November so that left all of the work to be done by me. Christmas was really challenging -- it seemed I just got ready for it and it was gone and then it took forever to get it put away. So January's Resolutions didn't happen. Instead I've ended January having gained about 10 pounds and in terribly physical shape. <BR> <BR> Enter February! I've finally got a new coworker starting tom... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 17:44:00 EST Stumbling blocks <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The past two weeks haven't been the best. First my brother had a complete mental collapse and was in the psych ward at the hospital, then my husband's uncle passed away quickly in Tennessee so we began plans to travel to the services when our beautiful lab, Angel, got really sick. We took her to the vet who told us to take her to the pet ER who diagnosed her with end stage cancer. My daughter rushed home from gr... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 06:36:21 EST Ugh! I had one week of exercising every morning and eating well and checking into Sparkpeople. I was even watching a "positive affirmation" video every morning. Then . . . Monday came and I got to work and there was an "emergency" and got way off track again. <BR> <BR> So . . . I start again! Tue, 12 Oct 2010 05:59:39 EST This is so Embarrassing :( If I didn't know that most of you have been here too I would be ashamed to come back to this site. But I know if I'm going to make it, this is where I need to be. <BR> <BR> I know that I felt SOOOOO MUCH BETTER when I had lost all that weight oh so long ago. I also know that I got more done around the house when I took time to cook healthy food and exercise. You just get caught up in the busyness of doing what you "think" is important that you don't actually take care of what is REALLY ... Sun, 26 Sep 2010 07:20:33 EST Just when you think life is going to slow down . . . it, of course, never does. I can't believe it's been almost a month and a half since I wrote that last blog. We fin ally made it through moving my daughter to Boston. I came home thinking that now it was time to take care of me . . . and then hubby's aunt passed away. After that trip to NY, I thought maybe now I can work on cleaning this house and start exercising and taking care of myself. Then daughter calls crying because boyfriend broke up with her and "can I come home for a while." <BR> <BR> So its not goi... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 06:35:42 EST A picture paints a thousand words <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This picture was taken of me sleeping on the beach two weeks ago. Wow! I knew that I had gained weight back but this really depicts how badly out of shape I am. I have not exercised in months and I think that is really key. When I do exercise I eat better. When I don't exercise eating better isn't as effective. I need to start exercising again! <BR> <BR> So I'm back! Really back this time! I will not spend... Tue, 6 Jul 2010 05:48:31 EST And Again I Start My daughter's graduation came and went. I was really proud of her at her graduation but I couldn't help but think of the fact that my goal was to be much thinnner by that time -- and I had not been working on that. But I can't let that keep me down. I need to move on and do better now. She will be moving to Boston in July and I need to be in better shape to be able to help her. <BR> <BR> I need to focus on myself. There are soooo many things screaming for my attention and I can't possibly... Sun, 16 May 2010 21:37:10 EST What a difference a day makes Hubby kept telling me I needed to sleep. So I slept from 8 til 5:30 -- and I feel much better! I got up this morning and exercised and have eaten well all day. I'm a little hungry now so I think I'll get an orange. One day down! Mon, 22 Feb 2010 21:30:09 EST HELP!! I've been eating and I can't stop!! UGH! I have been mindlessly eating anything I want to and not having time to exercise and I feel awful! I'm achy and sore. I can't figure out if I am really getting sick or I'm just that badly out of shape. I am sooooo tired. I feel like I could sleep for a week. <BR> <BR> Oh well, I'm going to rethink my schedule so I can be sure I have time for exercise. and I'm going to stop eating so much. And see if I feel better. :-) Sun, 21 Feb 2010 18:40:17 EST Starting again -- one more time "Life" gets so hectic. It can really derail you if you let it. Unfortunately, I let it. Now I've gained back part of what I lost last month. UGH! I just feel tired and don't feel like doing it. <BR> <BR> But I know if I start working on it that I'll feel better. So I bought fruit and vegies and have planned several meals so I don't eat badly. Now to stay on track in the morning so I can get my exercise in. I know if I put a few days in I'll get some momentum to keep me going. <BR>... Mon, 15 Feb 2010 06:08:08 EST Here's to February!! I got a little off track toward the end of January but I did lose 4 pounds. I'm happy with that; it's much better than gaining! Now on to February. <BR> <BR> I'm off to a good start so far. I'm working on getting the house cleaned and in order but I'm trying to make sure I take time to exercise too. If I don't take time to exercise, I don't have the energy to clean . . . so I'm working on keeping my priorities straight. <BR> <BR> I've got three months till my daughter's graduation. L... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 20:36:50 EST I'm Back!! And Ready to Roll!! Here we are -- the beginning of another new year. Fresh slate! My little hiatus is over and I'm ready to dedicate myself to becoming healthy again. <BR> <BR> I am tired of feeling sluggish and stiff, of being tired and crabby, of feeling gross in my clothes, and of totally neglecting ME!! It seems like every facet of my life screams for attention all the time. It's time for it to STOP!! It's time for me to take control of my life, of my time and of my health!! It's time for me to unc... Fri, 1 Jan 2010 19:46:53 EST Taking some time off I've been thinking for a while that I need to take some time off from Spark People; and I think It's time. I have great success once with SP and I know there are alot of good resources here. I have met many many wonderful people here also. but my life has changed alot over the past year and SP has just turned into "one more thing I HAVE to do". And that's not what it should be. <BR> <BR> So for now, I'm going to back out. I'm going to focus on exercising and feeling healthy. I'm goin... Sun, 4 Oct 2009 19:44:56 EST My Farewell to Fat! Definitely time to say "Farewell to Fat"! <BR> <BR> During my teen years I thought I was "really fat"; looking back at pictures I find that I wasn't, the doctor's charts told me I was. What that led to was a lifetime of not being satisfied with myself and constantly thinking I needed to lose weight. After years of yo-yo dieting, I finally am "really fat". <BR> <BR> I am fairly healthy (according to doctor's numbers), but I feel awful. My thighs are way too friendly (close) and the flab fe... Sat, 26 Sep 2009 10:59:56 EST Getting Serious about My Goal!! I just weighed in and logged it in my tracker and ran a new date for completion. If I lose 1.5 pounds per week I will be at 162 (which is my first goal) by March, 2010. 162 puts me below obese, which I'm really tired of being!! My daughter graduates in April, 2010 and I really want to look nice for her graduation!! <BR> <BR> So, really time to get moving!! I need to work on a visual this weekend. And put pictures of Tracy's Graduation from high school as well as pictures of my hubby t... Sat, 26 Sep 2009 08:49:14 EST Beach Reflections Just got back from the beach. I had a wonderful time but there's something about the beach that brings to light exactly how big you are. Maybe it's the bathing suit, or the huge unforgiving mirror in the bathroom, or the skinny girls in their bikinis, or the really large people in far too little clothing; whatever it is it has really made me recommit to change. <BR> <BR> I am tired of trying to find something to wear that doesn't bind or show fat. I am tired of struggling to bend in cer... Fri, 25 Sep 2009 20:58:46 EST Trudging along Last week I got a bit distracted with other things and didn't focus as much as I should be on me. I'm not going to say that I'm starting over because this isn't something I want to start and stop. This is my life! This week I will work on exercising more and eating only when hungry. I will work on taking time out for myself. I will try to think before I act. <BR> <BR> On I go! Mon, 7 Sep 2009 21:42:18 EST Time to take care of me!! And I mean it!! This really does sound like abroken record, but once more I'm starting out. <BR> <BR> I'm going to work on eating only when I'm hungry, and stopping when I'm satisfied. I did this years ago with Weigh Down Workshop and it really is great! God designed us to know when and what to eat -- we've just messed it up over the years. Tomorrow I'm starting with a fast to empty my stomach -- get to "absolute empty". And then start listening to my body. The job I have now is flexible enough for ... Sat, 22 Aug 2009 09:06:05 EST Starting Off Again Here I am again. Getting back on track again. Life got busy; I got distracted. I actually lost a little, probably from working so hard to move my daughter last weekend. This past weekend I just rested, which was terribly needed. Now to get back into exercise and tracking. Mon, 10 Aug 2009 05:51:31 EST Week Four - Slight Nose Dive Well I guess that scale got to me more than I thought. I did good early in the week and then my hubby made me mad, daughter wasn't feeling well and time / responsibilties started pressing in on me. I didn't do too badly until Friday. Now it's Sunday morning and my stomach hurts. I didn't even weigh myself yesterday because I just didn't want to face it. UGH! <BR> <BR> Ok, new week! Shrug it off and move ahead. I really don't want to feel like this so right now my nose dive stops -- Pu... Sun, 26 Jul 2009 08:43:47 EST Week Three - Slight Snag but still Running! I had a little disappointment this morning. I gained 3 pounds! I know it's from exercising. As I look back at last year - when I started taking the classes at the Rec Center I gained some weight. Eventually I got frustrated with the gain and started eating badly -- and really gained some weight. It must be my body retaining fluids to mend my tired old joints. <BR> <BR> So what's the answer?! I lose more when I don't exercise, however, I don't look or feel as good when I don't exercis... Sat, 18 Jul 2009 06:28:26 EST Week Two -- Still Doing Good!! Week two went pretty well too! The scale went down 2.2 pounds!! I was amazed because earlier in the week, it had gone up; but Saturday is my "official" weigh day so I'll take it!! I added exercise some mornings; I'll work on making it EVERY morning! I got busy toward the end of the week and didn't get to log in my food; and Thursday's eating didn't include the best choices but evidentally overall I did well. I'm pleased with my progress! I also like this weekly blogging about my progres... Sat, 11 Jul 2009 10:07:20 EST A Good Week One!! I lost 4.2 pounds in my first week!! I ate within range all week and drank more water. I exercised two mornings but walked every evening. This week I want to incorporate more exercise, including strength. And hubby and I are going to start taking a faster walk first and then take Angel on her walk for our cool down. And I want to start working on my Beck book. Off to a Good Re-start!! Sat, 4 Jul 2009 20:58:56 EST A Good Week One!! Oops! It posted twice! Sat, 4 Jul 2009 20:58:46 EST Starting Fresh!! I had a great vacation! Very restful!! But it made it quite clear to me that I need to exercise and take care of myself. I didn't have the stamina that I had last year. I felt tired and whiney. And we're not even going to mention the bathing suit and the huge mirror in the bathroom right across from the shower!! Scary!! <BR> <BR> What I am going to do is let this remind me of why I started this journey in the first place -- To Be Healthy!! Yes, I want to look better, too, but truly if... Sat, 27 Jun 2009 08:22:46 EST Back in a Week! This is really sounding like a broken record! But oops! I slipped again. I didn't gain weight this time, actually lost a few. Just haven't been around SP at all. <BR> <BR> It's been an cooler Spring than we normally get so I've been working in the yard alot, and doing some much needed "Porch Sitting" with hubby and Angel. They should make that an Olympic Event! <BR> <BR> We're off to the beach! It's just going to be me and hubby so I might actually get to rest and relax!! I CAN'T WA... Sat, 20 Jun 2009 08:27:50 EST I'm Back, Baby!! I've been gone far too long and this madness needs to stop! Time to make myself a priority and get myself back to where I was last year -- and much better than that!! So I've changed my Username and edited my Spark Page. I've reset myself back to Stage 1. <BR> <BR> I'm ready to start again!! Wed, 3 Jun 2009 21:26:27 EST Timeline of my journey This is my old introduction on my spark page. I thought I'd keep it but I don't want to use it to describe me anymore. <BR> <BR> I started this journey on June 18, 2007. I made great strides for the rest of that year and ended it with a loss of 40 lbs. !! I was feeling really great and jumped into 2008 ready to take the rest of the weight off. By May I had lost 12 more lbs.! But it was then that I realized that I wasn't going to be able to lose all of my weight by my 50th Birthday, w... Wed, 3 Jun 2009 20:07:50 EST Taking a Little Time Off Just wanted to let you all know that I'm not gone for good. Spring is just such a busy time of year that I'm going to not be able to check in here very much. I'm doing alright and I'm sure I'll be back. I just need to remove the stress of thinking that I need to check in. <BR> <BR> Keep Strong Everyone! Thu, 30 Apr 2009 20:41:56 EST Dusting myself off and Starting Again! They say you aren't a failure for falling -- just for not trying again. So here I am -- starting again! <BR> <BR> I've been trying to figure out if I get depressed and eat -- or if I eat and it makes me depressed. I think the cycle is that I get stressed out and then reach for food -- and the poor food choice is what interacts with my system to make me depressed. Another factor is letting other things get in the way of my exercising -- that makes me tired, which makes me depressed. If ... Mon, 13 Apr 2009 06:30:04 EST Off to a New Good Start! with the help of my Friends!! I am overwhelmed by the outpouring I have received from my Spark Friends!! You people are tremendous!! And I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of the concern, support and love you've all shown to me this week! It truly overwhelms me! <BR> <BR> I have had a pretty good week. Last night I had a little munch but definitely not a binge. And an exciting thing happened! I had two of the candies that I had been binging on all last week and thought were so incredible . . . and I di... Sun, 29 Mar 2009 08:46:57 EST ARGHHHH!!!!! What's wrong with me!! I just feel lost! I feel like I don't care about anything anymore. I just want to sleep and eat. I just keep stuffing food in my mouth. Last night I got a load of fattening greasy food from Burger King and ate so much I had trouble getting to sleep. At that moment I vowed to stop this madness! I'll just try to keep the feeling with me throughout the day. Now I'm going to go make myself exercise. <BR> <BR> I just want this to stop. Wed, 25 Mar 2009 06:05:51 EST Here I Am Again! Here I am again! It's March 16, 2009, and instead of losing some weight I've gained a few more. I've been eating badly and just feeling like I don't care anymore. I don't like that feeling. I'm having trouble getting over the fact that I've gained some of my weight back and have to lose it all over again. I need to get past that. <BR> <BR> So I think I'm going to change my ticker to reflect where I am right now. I'm going to start at 190 and make the ending point 162 -- which is no l... Mon, 16 Mar 2009 06:49:18 EST Stopping Sabotage! I've been spending some time this weekend seriously looking at why I've been sabotaging my efforts to be healthy. I start out fine and by the end of the week or the end of the day, I've blown it. Here are some of the things I've noticed that need fixed and some solutions. <BR> <BR> 1) As much as I like my new job, I need to start working from 8:30 to 5:00 and that's it. No more going in early, no more staying late. I need to start taking my lunch so I pay attention to what I'm eating an... Sun, 8 Feb 2009 19:42:45 EST Enough is Enough! is Enough!! Yesterday I had an awful time trying to find something to wear to work. Things were fitting too tightly and I felt awful!! I don't like feeling stuffed! feeling my skin stretched! feeling sluggish and tired! I like feeling light!! and healthy!! and strong!! <BR> <BR> Time to stop the madness!! I've cleaned out the fridge and pantry and thrown out some cookies and I'm ready to roll!! I'm ready to finish this journey!! I want to wake up on January 1st, 2010, and be able to say -- "I don'... Sat, 10 Jan 2009 08:08:15 EST Ready to Shine in 2009!?! Here we are at the beginning of another year. I wrote out my resolutions and then looked up my goals for 2008; they look pretty much the same. Realistically some of them are things I will always be working on like: spend my time with hubby and become more consistent with devotions (because there's never enough); good things to be working on. But some of them are things I should be accomplishing and moving on from -- like losing this weight and getting my house in order. At least I'm not s... Mon, 5 Jan 2009 06:14:13 EST HELP!! I'M EATING AND I CAN'T STOP!! I have been stuck on munch mode lately and I can't seem to get myself to want to stop! I thought I'd start spilling my thoughts out here to see if I can figure out why. <BR> <BR> First, I felt like since I had been munching out and gone out to eat that I should have a fair amount of water weight gain and I should drop some. When I weighed myself on Monday I hadn't lost an ounce. This set myself up for the spiral. <BR> <BR> Second, I've had an allergy attack topped with a viral infection ... Sun, 9 Nov 2008 07:08:02 EST Wow! How'd I turn 50?! Wednesday was my 50th Birthday! The age doesn't bother me except that I can't quite do all I'd like to do; I tire easier. The thing that does bother me is that I wanted to be at my goal weight by now -- instead I'm still hanging around the spot I've been since March. I seem to be stuck in the 170's! It's not a bad spot; I feel much healthier and can wear size 14s. But I don't want to stay here! <BR> <BR> So how did I respond?! I bought a bunch of junk and ate myself to death! UGH!! I... Sun, 26 Oct 2008 08:19:08 EST Laid off! A New Chapter! I got laid off yesterday at my job. The company has been in financial trouble for years; had a massive lay-off in 2003. I've been waiting for my turn since then; when it finally came it was bittersweet. I am always so pressed for time, it'll be good to have some time off to take care of some things around here. We moved in here three years ago and I still don't feel settled. I'd like to take a few months off on unemployment and get caught up, but with the economy the way it is I can't p... Sat, 27 Sep 2008 09:29:10 EST Pressing Forward to Obtain the Goal! I've been at this for over a year now and I've reached that point where I've gotten a little sidetracked and off course and need to recommit. I've lost 45 pounds and feel amazingly better than I did when I started this journey. I can't even really remember being that big. <BR> <BR> This summer was a busy one with weddings and then getting Tracy ready to go back to college and into her first apartment. I've gotten off track with my eating and my exercise and I can tell. I'm lethargic, g... Sat, 6 Sep 2008 08:47:18 EST My body "rejects" junk! I remember once that my doctor offered to give me a pill that kept my body from absorbing fat; however, he said you have to watch because if you eat too much you'll get diarrhea like you've never seen before. I didn't take the pill; mainly because I don't like medications. However, my body has started doing that itself. If I eat too much or spend a day picking at foods I shouldn't, it rebels! I guess my stomach is smarter than my head! Sat, 16 Aug 2008 08:26:03 EST A "God-incidence" Interesting thing happened at lunch. After church my daughter wanted to go to Arby's for lunch. I usually get one of their salads, which are quite good, however, today I thought "since I've been eating a little more over vacation, maybe I'll start eating well tomorrow and have a sandwich and some fries instead." So I ordered a chicken cordon-bleu which is delicious but well out of the range of what I should be eating for lunch. When we returned home I found that my sandwich was not put in... Sun, 20 Jul 2008 13:07:45 EST A "Skinny" trip to the Beach! Just came home from a Wonderful trip to the Beach! The weather was perfect and it felt really great to be able to put on a bathing suit and not feel like the "biggest person on the beach!" It was nice to have the energy to do the stairs without breathing heavy and take multiple walks on the beach. It was good to be able to enjoy small treats without wanting to keep eating it all. It was wonderful to open the shower curtain without wanting to wretch at the image staring back at me in that ... Sat, 19 Jul 2008 09:06:04 EST Return to Basics! I've decided that the best thing for me to do is to return to focusing on my daily activity, instead of the scale. I get too discouraged if I focus on the number on the scale, so I'm going to focus on tracking my food, being mindful of what I'm eating and exercising daily. <BR> <BR> This means I'm not going to participate in any challenge that requires a weekly weigh-in. I'm also going to limit my time on the computer. Too many mornings when I check into my teams I run out of time to ex... Sun, 29 Jun 2008 21:26:11 EST