FIGURE_1's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FIGURE%5F1 FIGURE_1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Needing a new challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081858 I'm so down today. Saturday was the Impi challenge, which myself and my team have been working for for months. It was also far too easy. And slow going with injuries in the team and bottlenecks. <BR> <BR> With my running been stalled a bit with a bout of tonsillitis before I was going to go for a(nother) PB for a half marathon and a bit of a lousy week in terms of gym last week, I feel like all the wind is out of my sails. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 09:41:13 EST So frustrated by my bicep and endless advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5001867 I have tendonitis in my right bicep. I've had it for quite a while now. It seems my muscle may also be torn. I'm in pain by the end of every day and have taken to wearing a sling to ensure I don't put strain on the arm through daily activities. <BR> <BR> And daily activities are exactly what strains it... driving is really sore, putting my seatbelt on, carrying the kettle, working with the mouse, typing on my cell phone... <BR> <BR> But to hear all my (very frustrated) friends, you'd... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 11:53:36 EST Binging and hording, linked mentalities? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4847916 This blog is a bit more philosophical than most. I live with the world's biggest hoarder, she is trying to change her ways, but how can she really when she may get find use for everything that she has. And anyway, each object is of great emotional significance (especially that great find in the junk shop). Okay, I'm overstating the case, I've seen reality programming with far worse, far, far worse. But the mentality is there. <BR> <BR> I confess to some hoarding myself... But as it is ma... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 10:55:59 EST Sculpting muscles to give my body form http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4800912 I find myself making more decisions about workouts based on the body I want to end up with. Like, I want a more pronounced cleavage, so more chest excercises, particularly pec deck. My shoulders to pop more than my traps, so more presses... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l361878936.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What helps a lot is I've befriended a trainer at the gym. Who trains me a bit and spars with me (boxing), but also provides me with great advice for when I’m not t... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 07:35:11 EST Transforming slowly... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4788560 So I haven't posted a blog in a while. No reason to, really. Not feeling particularly strongly about anything. Transformation is ticking over nicely, but no dramatic losses. My back and shoulders are attracting lots of complements and are looking pretty good, as are my biceps. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l889009011.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l658879315.jpg"> <BR> You can see my biceps there. <BR> <BR> I'm doing more tr... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 08:08:51 EST Privacy, please! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4681354 I don't know whether some of this is because of curiosity what, but I really would like a bit of privacy back. It's my body. Since losing weight, people don't seem to respect that as much. I'm tired of people thinking I'd appreciate it, or it is acceptable IN ANY WAY to guess my body weight or my clothing size. Or ask me what it is. <BR> <BR> On Christmas eve, for instance, a guest at my party (a friend of my sister's) was guessing my weight, another friend (a very obese one) asked me wh... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 01:16:25 EST I earned this, it wasn't a magic pill or a quick fix http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4661161 I was in Cape Town recently for New Years, with a friend. We were trying on dresses for new year's. I am looking at smalls, my friend is looking at larges based on the fact that the clothing is small. No, I'm probably the most unobservant person when it comes to other people's sizes, but I was surprised. <BR> <BR> I've been very inspired by this: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l499363592.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As I tried on dresses, they all looked good (of course, I kn... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 03:14:33 EST Starting to feel a bit of a pro at the weight training http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4632470 I'm a bit of a natural climber, when I got to do it for the first time, there was such a click. My friend who took me (not prone to flattery) said that I was the best novice female climber he'd ever seen. I'm not naturally strong. <BR> <BR> It was 3 years ago that I decided I wanted to do my first pull-up, and I've been consistant in my workouts, but still felt a bit of a clutz at the gym. But no more, now I own that bitch, I'm fearless, I don't feel like I'm on public display, like bef... Tue, 20 Dec 2011 08:43:34 EST Keeping on keeping on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4614808 So, I've started and am through phase 1 of Jamie Eason's LiveFit trainer and have begun to really get into it. Having done so many dynamic full body training programmes, HIIT and that kind of stuff, it is a big change. Using lots of machines as opposed to dumb bells and bar bells is strange for me. <BR> <BR> But a big source of motivation is the fact that it is a 12 week transformation programme, that there are instructions for every week, and honestly, that it is demanding so much from m... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 11:47:24 EST Whining over, down to work! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4523812 Week one without alcohol... yay, and there's been plenty temptation. But it really is not worth busting my arse in gym and eating so clean all the time to drink on the weekends and evenings and undermine all my work. <BR> <BR> I'm also tired of excusing my body, I hate my own whining voice. <BR> <BR> I've started on Jamie Eason's diet, not work outs yet. I'm not sure that slow carb wasn't working for me, but I really was getting tired of the lack of carbs, or probably more accurately lot... Fri, 7 Oct 2011 09:21:05 EST Alcohol, fat loss and sugar issues I'm developing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4506088 For someone who has no sugar in their diet, alochol means sugar rushes of note. My sister's boyfriend could actually see me rushing. But it's also making me more sugar and sweet stuff in my diet (even through I don't drink sweet alcohol). So gradually more sweet stuff is crept into my diet and now I even want my coffee sweet! <BR> <BR> I need to correct this, but I'm also going to give up alcohol right after this Saturday, which is a huge day. <BR> <BR> There, I said it in public, I can't... Tue, 27 Sep 2011 05:33:30 EST Single life, drinking and losing the same weight again and again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4496056 As much as I'm aware that drinking every weekend is not doing my fatloss efforts any good, I'm really enjoying my singlehood and the partying. My pragmatic brain is wondering if there is any way to incorporate drinking into my diet plan, but I doubt it. As a result, every weekend I swell up to 58kg (one was 59kg) and only get back to around 57 or 56 by the Friday. Grr, annoying, but I'm really having a good time and I'm trying to keep an eye on this. <BR> <BR> I do try only drink on one da... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 04:11:37 EST I'm really bad at losing weight, but... and final countdown to bikini Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4463663 I am pretty weight stable, lose it soooooo slowly, (although, apparently 1 day of eating what I want to once a week for 2 weeks, is enough for me to gain 3kgs really easily). Again cheat days fail me! <BR> <BR> But I'm weight stable, in that I don't gain lots of weight over a month, then wake up and curse myself... part of which the constant monitoring and self-evaluation I do. I notice people around me fall into the trap of thinking that they they are off diet and will start again soon. ... Sat, 3 Sep 2011 04:54:11 EST Pulling back a bit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4439966 So, in my last blog I mentioned I'd be taking a week's break from the weight training. But I haven't acknowledged my 'race to the bottom' mentality about my diet. Despite being on Slow Carb, which doesn't prescribe low calories, and does prescribe a weekly cheat (day or meal), I have been trying to cut calories down and feeling guilty about things that I'm allowed (like cottage cheese). <BR> <BR> This is in addition to doing my IF, so I've just been too hard on myself probably, and for no ... Sun, 21 Aug 2011 13:55:14 EST Feeling a bit rudderless http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4434069 So, myself and my boyfriend broke up, which isn't a good thing (and may lead to me changing my nickname) but what I really, really miss, is my climbing partner. He was my climbing partner. You get into a rhythm with your partner (and to be honest, I relied on him to remember things for me). <BR> <BR> Now I'm climbing with a friend who is a novice and realising that a good, reliable climbing partner is a rare thing. It's specially nice to have a life partner as a climbing partner and dec... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 06:10:49 EST Say what? Body fat is down, but eating has been terrible! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4395595 Week three-ish on slow carb... started with some principles, had conferences, took a while to nail down, got sick (hence the three-ish weeks) and my body fat is down. Thing is, from my perspective, after a calorie based approach for so long, I think my eating has been terrible... Even from a slow carb perspective it has been less than perfect. <BR> <BR> I've also being picking up the weight training... going more to the gym, rather than training at home, where I have lighter weights. <BR... Sat, 30 Jul 2011 10:25:05 EST My secret: How I've changed so much and am younger now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4374319 Today I went to a health shop that I used to frequent as it was opposite my work and saw a friend who works there that I haven't seen in a while. He is Congolise and an absolute flirt, and very exuberant. <BR> <BR> He kept asking me how I've changed so much, lost so much weight and look younger than I did. Yay! I needed the pep up today. <BR> <BR> Well: <BR> It started actually many years ago. I was 68 kg and terrified of 70kg (my dad weighs 70kg - okay, now 72kg). I'd been active... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 08:49:36 EST Grrrrr.... It seems I've put on weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4362385 It seems I've put on about 1kg, okay, 800g, it's been a difficult 2 weeks because I've had a workshop for 5 days, followed by a 4 day conference, with some menstural bloating in the middle. <BR> <BR> A post-mortem on the gain is the following: <BR> * severe dehydration probably meant I ate too much. Not only dehydration from not taking enough fluids, but also from being stuck in venues where heating meant that they were really dry. <BR> * being so tired that I ate too much just to feel more... Thu, 14 Jul 2011 12:22:28 EST I'm an accountability whore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4348600 One thing about me, that actually gets me to do stuff, is being able to say I've done it. That's why I write reports to my doctoral supervisors about the process I've made any particular week (actually, been bad at that lately, forgotten lots). <BR> <BR> I'm full of ideas, like to plan and strategise and restrategise and refine my thinking and sometimes in all this, implementation is a little lacking. And circumstances change and the goals I've set aren't really an issue any more. Like, m... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 01:55:44 EST Me in new pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4340376 Here is me in my new running tights. All very excited to shed more using some 4 hour body principles. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l135804203.jpg"> <BR> My mirror has been personally checked and signed off by my dogs, as you can see. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l540036308.jpg"> Mon, 4 Jul 2011 11:47:10 EST Complacency = dangerous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4332157 I've been getting complacent, eating too many protein bars and too little vegetables. I like what I see in the mirror, and although I know that I want to cut my body fat still more, I am more sunny optimism than "this is the plan". <BR> <BR> And the next two weeks are only going to get worse as I have a workshop followed by a conference. <BR> <BR> So, I'm moving my goal down (as planned), reading the four hour body and taking pictures of all the food I eat (no that I know what I'm going ... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 07:14:15 EST Modelling good eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4301901 Now that I'm looking slender and people that know me know that I've lost weight, I feel like everything I eat is being monitored. <BR> <BR> My aunt, with whom I live has lost a huge amount of weight, 13kg by no longer eating the crap she used to. It has been a huge change for her. But everytime I cook, she wonders down and asks me what I'm cooking. And I eat a lot of bad stuff (although not huge amounts of anything bad): <BR> * beef; <BR> * soya milk; <BR> * lamb (quite a bit of it); <B... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 04:35:59 EST Reached goal weight for the year, now what? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4289549 This blog is very naked, I've exposed the lies I've told myself and the figures I've avoided putting on spark page. <BR> <BR> At the beginning of the year I made it my goal to get to 56kg or 20% body fat, (apparently they are not the same goal, but I never double-checked). I got there and passed there as of yesterday. But I'd already moved my goal to 55kg. <BR> <BR> I moved my goal down to 55kg based on the fact that it was my sister's goal (who is taller than me) and my aunt's (who i... Fri, 10 Jun 2011 09:09:33 EST Encouraging, not judging others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4250738 I've been meaning to write a blog for a while about how people are so judgmental about weight loss. I did kinda mention in the last one that different things work at different stages. But so many people have their bible and you follow it you will succeed. And so much is not helpful and overly complicated. <BR> <BR> But that aside, someone else may not be where you are. My aunt has lost over 10kg by avoiding wheat and milk. That makes no difference to my weight (although it did after the... Mon, 23 May 2011 11:18:48 EST Straight calories in and out working for me at the moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4208947 Even though I stalled at my weight loss and got myself injured, which screwed up my training, I've been losing centimetres. And I've eventually got over my 58kg sticking point. <BR> <BR> I've found that different things work at different times for me with weight loss. At the moment, it's straight calories in versus calories out. <BR> <BR> My brain has adjusted to eating portions that are right for me (very different from what average restaurant portions are). 200g is way too much meat fo... Wed, 4 May 2011 05:33:36 EST Unpleasant marshmallow surprise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4159818 I have not been running for the past three months while I attend Portuguese language lessons in the evenings. My running group runs on Tuesday and Thursday mornings and I had shuffled my week around to get these in. The Portuguese lessons meant no more shuffling was possible. <BR> <BR> But I do strength training four times a week and HIIT once. <BR> <BR> But none of this tones me the way running does. So my marshmallow surprise is my squishy thighs without the running. <BR> <BR> Luck... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 05:32:14 EST Determined in the face of obsticals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4123053 I woke up this morning 2 kg heavier than 2 days ago. It happens to me about half the time before my period. Sometimes I have a nice little surprise when the bloating goes down that I've lost weight, often not. <BR> <BR> But I'm determined to lose this week. I'm on the precipice of under 58kg and I really want to get there. In fact, my goal is 57,5kg this week. And there is no objective reason why I shouldn't. <BR> <BR> So despite the fact that I have lots of work, I am depressed (I bl... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 04:40:06 EST A reality check and what positive attitude can accomplish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4075083 I don't generally do this, chat about non-fatloss related stuff, but I'm feeling thoughtful at the moment. <BR> <BR> I'm a pretty chipper person, I'm more of a 'cup is full' kind of person (when it can possibly not be), this is not the best attitude when making life decisions, because I tend not to plan for the future as much as maybe I ought. <BR> <BR> Like the financial cost of the divorce, or the cost of taking a year to do my doctorate or working for NGOs. And like not having enough ... Tue, 8 Mar 2011 03:53:03 EST March fatloss goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4054670 Most of the lurgies are gone, so I'm back working out and eating properly. In my experience health and fatloss are connected, I gain weight when unhealthy and lose it when I get healthier. <BR> <BR> For this month, I want to continue with a half a kilogram loss a week to be 58,5kg by the end of the month. This factors in the weight I've gained when I was sick (a little over a kilogram). <BR> <BR> I'm hoping to lose more slowly this time, I shed too much too soon last month. I want sust... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 14:30:31 EST Remembering why I picked up my bad eating habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4043408 I'm housesitting for my parents at the moment. And doing this while being sick and home most of the time has given me plenty of time to think about my eating habits and how they formed. <BR> <BR> I put on quite a bit of weight as a teenager, was never obese, but I went from slinky to curvey probably quicker than I ought to have. One of the reasons was that I was soooo hungry all the time (isn't every teen). But I realise, staying here, that everything here is an encouragement to snack. <B... Thu, 24 Feb 2011 06:31:09 EST Time for a re-think of goal weight? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4031524 With my flu-addled brain 2 days ago, I tried to figure out if I have 10 pounds left to lose (working and thinking in metric, definitely doesn't help). I don't at my current goal. But I will, at some point need to change my goal. <BR> <BR> I looked at my lean body weight (honestly one of the most useful things I ever calculated) and added the body fat percentage I'd like to have and I got 53kg rather than 56kg. I get down to 58kg pretty easily, I know from past experience and still have ... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 00:54:57 EST Non-obsessively shedding the pounds. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4026897 I've been reading a lot of stuff by Brad Pilon, and am very influenced by his assertion at people eat obsessively. I've found that when I obsess the most, I actually eat more. Specially eating 5 or 6 meals a day does not work for me, it ends up being too much food. I also do enjoy a good sized breakfast. Dieting actually puts us out of touch with our bodies and our own signals to eat or not. <BR> <BR> However, a free-for-all approach also means too much food. <BR> <BR> My lean boyfriend ... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 01:50:16 EST Success! Back to my pre-encephalitus weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4021437 I've had to do some rethinking of my strategy. Firstly, I found out that the detox involves yet more supplements. I'm tired of living off ultrameal, so I'm scrapping it. Besides, I don't think I really need to detox, my diet is pretty clean as it is (besides the coffee) with no gluten, no dairy and very occasionally some processed food. Secondly, with my doctorate and language lessons, with the classes I have to give, I don't have time to run twice a week. So I'm reluctantly giving it up.... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 01:58:43 EST How come some make it and other's don't? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4003140 I've been thinking lots about how some people seem to make their weightloss goals and so many more don't. Thinking through why this is: <BR> <BR> 1. The goal posts shift. The more you lose, the more you realise that you can lose. There is no particular perfect weight. I mean my lean body mass is somewhere in the 40's (kg). <BR> 2. Life happens - stressful life events, illness, lack of time, lack of energy. These things throw you. <BR> 3. The wrong programme - I was so frustrated to ga... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 07:38:50 EST Sometimes limited weight gain is a win, when it could have been worse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3996809 Over a week on a cruise ship eating the best I could without feeling too deprived and I've put on some weight. Not much, but some. <BR> <BR> I've decided that it is a win, because it could have been much worse. I gained a little over a kilogram. This was despite the drinking and the fact that bread was the only thing that made me feel human the one day because of the seasickness. And I suspect that gluten is still making me bloat. And probably some portion size explosion. It became r... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 03:40:04 EST Quick inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3961704 I have been doing a few calculations. Calculated my lean body mass a while ago, then my Basal metabolic rate and based on that how many calories I should be consuming to lose weight. There's a number of ways to do it, I just googled it. Sparkpeople was not very far off. <BR> <BR> I can consume between 1000 and 1500 calories for weight loss. Amazing how little that is, right? In fact, eating 5 or 6 times a day, unless it's veggies makes it practically impossible to get it within those limi... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 04:34:45 EST Nailed it! Tough jump and hang and pull yourself up on left hand. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3946337 Nailed a particularly tough move (for me) yesterday. Being short by the standards of the people who set up the climbs, I have to jump from a bent leg over an wedge that sticks out and grap the next grip with the left hand. I did it. In fact, I got as far as this guy there who was very competitive and superior. lol. <BR> <BR> I'm so energized by climbing yesterday. This is where I really feel my body composition changing... Power to weight ratio and technique is everything. Nailed some ... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 05:36:19 EST Flat tummy, short top http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3936107 Saturday was the best! My efforts paid off and I went out in a "school uniform" with a tied top that showed off my flat tummy. <BR> <BR> Here's a pic: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l677822861.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Not that I don't have far to go, my tummy not really being the place I store my fat. <BR> <BR> But it's so nice to have the layers of fat falling away, be fitting into my clothes and feeling sexy again. I wanted to go out, and was excited about finding a sex... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 06:41:26 EST Weekly goals reached, in fact monthly weight goal achieved. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3923720 I've reached my weekly weight goal (and my goal for January, actually). So I'm very happy. And I see I've gained some muscle mass since the last time I was this weight. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> Now I'm left with this conundrum, do I revise my goals down, or do I keep them where they are? And an imperative, I'm really bad with giving myself the rewards I've earned. I will be going to get the lipgloss I promised myself today. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 14 Jan 2011 06:22:46 EST Name change to Figure 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3920022 I've changed my name to Figure 1 to reflect my intended shape. I have a really skinny boyfriend, and I would never like to look like a 10 together. Not even a 18, or more likely, given the height difference, a 16. <BR> <BR> Hence the name change to Figure 1. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> I've been stressed lately and eating too much, so I'm eating no solids today before a meal before climbing. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l864632979.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thu, 13 Jan 2011 00:41:52 EST How strict? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3908911 My diet has been, if anything, less strict than it normally is. I'm bored with the same meat all the time - I can't eat chicken, turkey is never available, venison and ostrich has got really expensive. I try avoid pork (on the basis of I shouldn't be eating anything as smart as a 3 year old child). My nutritionalist likes me eating lean lamb, which I do eat, a lot. And I typically eat fish (of some sort) for lunch. <BR> <BR> Considering how dairy is making me bloat (and sick), protein item... Mon, 10 Jan 2011 06:04:18 EST Okay, I admit it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3899232 I've been trying to block the fact that I had gained more than 2 kilos from myself, so that the extra 2 (sometimes verging on 3) kilos were not featured in my calculations, so I'd give myself no credit for losing them and not really notice when I gained them back. Kind of just excuse them (as bloat) and generally hate the fact that I wasn't making progress. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping having admitted this is going to help me set more realistic goals. (I did factor them in to my goal for January... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 05:52:20 EST Ich will! (I want) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3895401 My new slogan, and the title of a song I'm really enjoying (can't understand the most of rest of the lyrics) but this is an excellent song to exercise to and motivate me. <BR> <BR> I've been working on my photo gallery to motivate myself. I can't bring myself to upload images of myself that I don't like. But it has motivated me so much to do it. ich will - I want. No matter what the obstacles. <BR> <BR> I don't want to ever again panic about what I'm going to wear when I go out or hav... Thu, 6 Jan 2011 01:43:54 EST Setbacks be damned! And ambitions for January 2011. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3887218 I've had one setback after the other in my weightloss journey over the last few months. <BR> <BR> Firstly, there was the digestive problems that resulted in weekly gain of between 2 to 3 kilograms. <BR> <BR> Then, just as I was finally coming right, my nutritionalist put me on lethicin which brought back the digestive problems. <BR> <BR> Then, I started a new diet with loads of casein. I'm allergic to casein, but I thought that wouldn't matter, after all, the diet is developed by a nutrit... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 05:06:13 EST Taking pride in smaller things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3784836 I can do very little about my low stomach acid above what I'm already doing. I've gained weight because I've been sick. But I can watch what I eat, take my supplements, and the weight will come off. <BR> <BR> A huge set-back for me is the move from concentrating on my digestion to my liver, it involved taking lethicin which brought back all the digestive symptoms, including the weight gain. I contacted my nutritionalist and she took me off the supplements. <BR> <BR> But what I can do is... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 09:58:51 EST My current workouts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3745499 I've switched up my 3 day programme to a 4 day programme and started running again. (Although, not this morning - it was pouring and it was bad, because I'm not afraid of rain). <BR> <BR> And I am challenged. The new programme has more cardio in it and more exercises that recruit many different muscles. I'm really sore after workouts (which I love). So here's my training schedule: <BR> <BR> Monday: <BR> Weight training <BR> 15 minutes cardio <BR> <BR> Tuesday: <BR> 1 hour run (8 to 10 ... Thu, 28 Oct 2010 04:17:59 EST getting there... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3727662 The thing with that encephalitis is that it really knocked me for a six. Affected all my organs. It has had me so depressed because I have not been digesting my food properly, especially any protein. That means it sits in my gut, attracts bacteria and I get bloated. And gain weight. 1 1/2 kilograms every weekend (when I eat less overall, but bigger meals). <BR> <BR> But supplementing with betane has changed this so much (under the guidance of my nutritionalist). I don't feel nauseous ... Wed, 20 Oct 2010 07:15:12 EST So easy to get off course http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3701146 I thought that my diet was pretty clean. At least it was before the encephalitis, but because just eating anything was the goal (I had no appetite), that's lurked in the back of my mind - that I can eat anything. And my portions have been increasing and increasing, to boot. <BR> <BR> Whereas, I was to proud not to gain weight from 2 weeks in London, a couple months ago, I've been gaining weight back home. <BR> <BR> But with noting everything I'm eating I'm doing better. I also acknowle... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 09:05:56 EST I have a problem with fat... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3691688 I used to have an addiction to milk, I kicked sugar soooo long ago, fast food has never been much of an issue for me. But I have a problem with fat. I crave fat, healthy fat, yes, but fat nonetheless. <BR> <BR> I love nuts, nut butters, seeds... healthy fat, yes, but fat. I made one of my goals to only have 2 portions of nuts a day. Most days I've gone over. And gone over my fat limit (as arbitrarily set by spark people, which I don't agree with). <BR> <BR> Everyone has fat sensors... Mon, 4 Oct 2010 14:07:19 EST Maybe a genetic defect after all... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3681276 My nutritionist called to see how I'm doing. An I have to say I'm feeling so much better than I did a week ago. She put me on a vitamin B supplement that has a kind of vitamin B2 (folate) that is particularly easy to adsorb. <BR> <BR> Her hypothesis is that I don't absorb Vitamin B2 properly, which is governed by a gene. This has a knock-on effect that makes absorption of other minerals difficult. <BR> <BR> I think I'll need to do some reading about this... I'll let you know what I... Thu, 30 Sep 2010 05:17:12 EST