FIERCE_FABULOUS's SparkPeople Blog FIERCE_FABULOUS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community no one said life would be easy So, I went to the gym Friday and Saturday night. Did cardio and a little strength training. I've been feeling tired lately and I forced myself to go and workout hoping it would boost my energy a bit. My doctor switched my anxiety medication about 3 months ago and I've gained over 20 lbs since then. I have NEVER been this heavy. I decided to step on the scale Friday morning and I was SHOCKED when I saw the number on the scale. I figured I had gained a couple of pounds but not THAT much. <BR> ... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 00:29:39 EST self awareness The last week, I have become self aware. And I am trying to stay that way. Familiarity with actual hunger is key. Trying not to eat out of boredom is key. Drinking water is key. Lots of stuff to remember. But I know that I can keep this up. I've lost almost 7lbs in one week. <BR> <BR> This is insane. Losing 6.6lbs in one week is insanity. I haven't been to the gym or worked out ONCE. <BR> <BR> I've been reading "The Life You Want" by Bob Greene. Lots of inspiration and great info. I think... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 21:13:19 EST School's out for summer! PHEW!! <BR> <BR> It has been a VERY long year for school. I have just wrapped up the summer semester and doing great! Currently an Honors student with a 3.8 gpa. Feeling great about that! Just have to maintain that grade now! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Started Body by Vi again since yesterday. Going strong so far. I also got quite a bit of exercise the past two days. Last night I went with my girls to see some fireworks. We had to park literally a mile away from the park. So I was pushing ... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 00:18:23 EST a new outlook So! Since Lent started, I gave up bread, pasta and sweets which has given me a bit of motivation to eat just a little healthier. I had become SO SO addicted to cookies that I gained 8lbs in the last 2 and a half months. The first few days were tough. But since it is now out of my system, I could care less that I have 3 boxes of girl scout cookies in the pantry. <BR> <BR> I actually gave some to my kids yesterday for a snack and didn't even have an ounce of temptation to eat one! =o0 I know,... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 22:29:43 EST me and sugar are frenemies =/ How does a girl stop her sugar addiction?! I have never been this bad with sweets, EVER. I guess it's true what they say, the more you eat it, the more you crave it. I am especially addicted to these lemon cookies from a local produce market, holy moly they are delicious. BUT I have been controlling myself, I only had two with my coffee today. =) My only question is how do I stop eating them all together? lol I don't know if I can quit cold turkey. Fri, 4 Jan 2013 16:16:53 EST So far so good Today is day one of Body by Vi, and although it isn't as great tasting as I expected, I will continue to experiment with it, and use the recipes online to find something I like. I still have 300+ calories left for the day to use up... And I have already had one shake this morning, lunch after school, a snack, and now I have to have my shake again. This stuff is definitely filling, and I am going to try the strawberry cheesecake recipe. I think that will help me hit my calorie requirements. I ... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 19:52:25 EST 1st Birthday, September Goals & Body by Vi (pics) I haven't posted a blog in a minute. I need to post my goals for September. August was a bust. But that's okay, I refuse to dwell on what I did wrong, and focus on what I did right. I didn't meet any of my goals for August. Life got way busy, and that's ok. <BR> <BR> Goals for September: <BR> <BR> 1. 10 cups of water EVERY day <BR> 2. EXERCISE 4 days per week <BR> 3. School (going back after almost 2 years) <BR> 4. Body by Vi Shakes twice per day <BR> <BR> I will post these goals on my fr... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 22:01:57 EST Life: OWN IT, GOAL MET! and NEW YORK! (pics!) Today has been fantastic. I gave myself a kick start last night at the gym, and I was DAMN FREAKING proud of myself. <em>334</em> I had made myself a goal of being able to jog/run for 5 minutes straight by my birthday in November. WELL!!! Last night I was SOO pumped at the gym! I seriously don't know where all my energy came from!!! I think it might of been the mini vaca we took over the weekend in New York that helped to recharge the batteries. <BR> <BR> So I did almost 30 min on the ell... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 13:45:16 EST August Goals So, it is August 7th, and I need to set my goals for the month. <BR> <BR> 1. Lose 5lbs <BR> 2. Drink 10 cups of water a day <BR> 3. Exercise 3 days per week <BR> 4. Plan my meals and track EVERYTHING <BR> <BR> These are totally attainable and doable. I need to get back to the basics. I haven't been doing great with food lately. I have been lacking the motivation to keep on track. I still have been going to the gym 2-3 days per week. Last week I only went twice. I have my elliptical sitting... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 10:58:01 EST why can i not stay on track lately? Lately, I have been doing horribly with food. I am still exercising about 3 days per week, but not eating as I should be. I have been under so much stress with school and kids and health that I just keep shoving food in my mouth for comfort. I have been stress eating, craving sugar, eating when I am not hungry, just shoveling food down my throat. I did almost an hour of cardio last night to try and make up for all the food I consumed yesterday. Yesterday was bad with food. Like BAD. So I know... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 18:22:44 EST i cant find my magic wand so much going on lately, school, health, kids, everything else. i went today to meet with an advisor at Wayne State and pretty much ended up with more stress. I have been thinking about changing majors, and if I do so, that will screw up one of the classes I have taken in the past and I will have to retake it. Plus it entails much more pre-reqs to be taken, and I won't be able to finish them by Fall 2013 to be able to start the program. At another University, there aren't so many pre-reqs but... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 20:25:26 EST eat, eat, eat some more I want to keep a positive mindset. I want to stay on track with eating. I want to be healthy. How come it doesn't come as easy as just giving into it all? How come its so damn hard to be good? How come its so effin difficult to NOT eat 5 chocolate chip cookies? Why the HELL does temptation need to be so tempting?? Why is it so easy to fall 10 steps backwards after working so hard to get 2 steps ahead? So many questions, and no answers. <BR> <BR> I finished off the rest of my calories about ... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 17:45:03 EST keep on keepin' on hana I have been wanting to blog lately, really. It has been a while since I have gone so long without blogging. I open up a blank window and I seriously don't know what to blog about. I don't wanna bore anyone with my health problems, or family drama, this is not the place to do it.. as far as weight related stuff well... I dunno... just haven't been too motivated lately to do anything. I DID join a gym. I felt like I needed to up my ST... and trying to figure out how to do it with 10lb dumb bell... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 13:42:30 EST little miss perfect? not really... Negative self-talk has affected me greatly. So much that I suffer from depression because of it. I get down on myself about everything. How I haven't finished college yet, how the hell I let myself go so badly, how unhappy I am with my everyday life, the list goes on. <BR> <BR> If I didn't use negative self-talk I probably wouldn't be stuck in this damn fat suit, I probably would have finished college a long time ago, I wouldn't be on a gazzillion medications for depression and other crap I... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 14:41:09 EST Stretchmarks, Feet, & Lips Gosh, what do I love about my body... <BR> I know my body still loves me, even though I have mistreated it for so many years. But, it has no choice right? Its stuck to my head and I am stuck to it, so we obviously have to work together to achieve perfect harmony. <BR> <BR> I think I have pretty cute feet... lol. They get me from point A to point B when needed. They help me walk, jog, play with my kids, exercise on my elliptical, wear classy high heels, dance, move, and just about everythin... Wed, 27 Jun 2012 08:52:41 EST Vitality Challenge: Belief Narrative So many times throughout the day, whenever something doesn't go as I would like it to, thoughts of feeling like things will never get better come flooding into my brain. It is time to change up my attitude a little bit. I need to start believing that it WILL get better. I WILL reach all of my goals. And I MUST find serenity in the things that I have no control over, and keep peace with the things I can control. The longer I procrastinate, the longer it will be before I become a happier and he... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 19:49:39 EST Vitality Pre-Challenge Prompt I am a little behind on doing this, I have had a hectic past 2 days so I am going to try to catch up, =/ sorry!! <BR> <BR> Pre-Challenge Prompt Goals: <BR> Self Love Goal: Everyday I am going to write down in a journal 5 things I am thankful for, and 5 blessings I have had in my life. I chose this because everyday I become so overwhelmed and become so angry and irritable with everyone and everything going on in my life. I need to start thinking positive to learn to maintain a positive attit... Tue, 19 Jun 2012 16:41:09 EST talk about self control! This week is flying by. I have been pretty busy and things aren't slowing down any time soon. I went to a dinner party on Tuesday night, and did frickin awesome with food. Dessert time was the worst... there was SO much cake, and sweets, and tortes... holy cow I was like wth am I going to do dessert time? There was cheese cake, pudding cake, black tie mousse cake, dark chocolate drizzle cake, rum balls, mini tortes, OMGosh my head was spinning. But just the thought of the amount of calories a... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 15:04:40 EST ridiculed for my efforts The weekend ended nicely. It started off a little rocky but i made it through. Friday I babysat which wasn't so fun, but oh well. Friday evening I went to a carnival with my two older girls. We went on a ferris wheel... I am not a huge "ride" fan... Cedar Point was scary for me. As we circled around the first time I was looking at the metal framing... big mistake <em>29</em> {~me wanted to throw up LOL After that I knew better than to do that again. Saturday, I helped my in-laws clean their... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 20:20:44 EST reverse engineering Oh goodness me, here I go... <BR> <BR> 2 years ago, I lost 40lbs in 6 months. this year.. 20lbs in 6 months. Ya ya i know you are all going to say, "but hana, that is about 3lbs a month, that is great/normal/bla bla bla" <BR> <BR> Like.. is it because I am nearing 30 years of age? Is it because I am not giving 100% to this? I am trying. I have my off days, but I truly and genuinely am trying. I read YOOVIE's most recent blog today. It made me think, a lot. What am I doing wrong that my body... Sat, 9 Jun 2012 01:00:14 EST breakdown UGH... <BR> <BR> The last week I have been doing great with my goals. Not frustrated about that. Its more life stuff than anything. My kids drive me nuts. They drew ALL over their bedroom walls, ALL over the coffee table, they broke the charger to my HP Touchpad, they fight all day long, don't listen to me more than if the walls were talking to them... My baby has been sick the last 4 days. She's fussy, crabby, not eating, not sleeping, she broke out into some crazy rash last night, I had t... Thu, 7 Jun 2012 12:01:36 EST simple things make me happy It is the end of day 2 of this week and so far, I am sticking with my goals! Today is the second day in a row I went outside on my bike, <em>334</em> although unfortunately my knee hurts like hell right now. I've tried icing it, pain patching it, elevating it, and nothing is helping, =( I also got my water in the last two days plus more!! 9 glasses yesterday and 11 today! And must I say WOW I had to pee like ALL DAY LONG!!! And not a little tinkle either! Like Niagara Falls! (LOL!) It was ... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 23:12:21 EST it's all about where you're going My weekend was okay. Saturday I ended up babysitting my nephews until around 530pm. By then I was practically bald and in need of anger management... when my sister came to pick them up, she was going to drop them off at our moms, and I gave her my older two to take with her, LOL. I needed a break. So, me and Teresa stayed home, I cleaned up the nuclear disaster in my house, and we went out for a joyride for a bit. It was nice to have peace and quiet. I went to pick up the girls around 9ish a... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 18:24:18 EST jogging This week literally flew by! I can't believe it's Friday already, AND its the first of June! SHEESH! Half way through the year already???? That is INSANE!! <BR> <BR> So far the day has gone great! =) I had a great breakfast, spent some time with my lover husband (lol), went for a jog in the rain =) and just had lunch... Greek yogurt with granola and fresh strawberries and my afternoon coffee. MmMmMmMm.... <BR> <BR> Here's a pic of the scenery I enjoyed while outside... <BR> <img src="htt... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 13:24:24 EST Kickin' off summer with a BANG I have been thinking about my June goals this morning, and I wrote them all down. First I will go over May... My goals for May were: <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> Lose 5lbs (Lost 5.2lbs) <BR> <em>42</em> Go on a date with DH, didn't happen =/ <BR> <em>194</em> drink 8 glasses of water daily, did pretty well with this but not everyday =/ <BR> <em>319</em> burn 3000 calories weekly: I did great the first 3 weeks of the month, burning a total of 10,298 calories, but last week I hit a rough pa... Wed, 30 May 2012 14:13:48 EST not too crazy or lazy weekend (edit:before/after pix) the weekend was ok, not too crazy, not too lazy... i didn't do much... didn't expect to, lol. <BR> <BR> We went to see part of a soccer tournament on Sunday. It was packed with people. I didn't stay too long, it was pretty hot out. I left my husband there and I went with my girls to my parents house to visit for a bit since they were nearby where we were. Yesterday I stayed home most of the day. My baby didn't get much of a nap Sunday, so I wanted to make sure she got a good nap in yesterda... Tue, 29 May 2012 11:21:22 EST 22.5 inches GONE since January! Last night I realized I haven't measured in over three weeks. I decided today was a good day to check em out. I am down another 3.25 inches since 5/3/12! =) And that totals to 22.5 inches gone! YAY me =) I am down a half inch in my midriff, waist, and calves. And down a quarter inch in my chest, arm, and thigh. And I am down ONE inch in my hips!! YAYYY!! <em>9</em> WOW how I need to shrink my butt! <BR> <BR> So, I shall keep on pushing forward. I am trying not to let earlier this week kee... Fri, 25 May 2012 17:36:42 EST Update and Weekend Plans.... Just an update from my last blog. I had some more lab work done, still waiting on the results. Unfortunately, I have to wait until next week Tuesday! <em>24</em> I also need an ultrasound done on my liver to check for any abnormalities. So... its whatever... <BR> <BR> No specific plans for the weekend. Might go to the beach on Monday. Prob not but maybe. My husband works all weekend besides Sunday and he has a soccer tournament that day, so Sunday is a no go to spend time with him. =/ Mon... Fri, 25 May 2012 13:31:39 EST *WARNING* too depressing to read =( just random blah-ness today... <BR> <BR> like i said a few blogs ago, i scheduled an annual physical with my doc, mostly great news, but one thing in particular has had me rather upset today... the morning started out great, then the walls caved in around 1130am. i am hoping that everything comes out okay. been drowning in a lot of ugly emotion today. anger, sadness, frustration, depression... it definitely got the best of me today. i feel like if it isn't one thing, it's another. just when... Tue, 22 May 2012 22:52:30 EST exercise is my job The first two days of the week have gone well. Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I do hardcore JM and elliptical. Tuesdays and Thursdays I do lighter activity. Yesterday I mowed the lawn and I wore my HRM and burned 350 calories in 32 min. =) I also went for a quick 10 min bike ride last night with my daughter, but I don't know how much I burned so I didn't log it. Today JM and elliptical is scheduled but I am SOO tired today. =( It's 12 noon and I am yawning like it's 12 midnight. <BR> <... Wed, 16 May 2012 12:27:46 EST Gym time and a HUGE NSV!! =) =) The weekend so far has been crazy! Busy busy the last couple of days. I am hoping to kick back and relax tomorrow. Hopefully... =| <BR> <BR> I spent the night at my moms last night, and we spent some time together today. My older brother was going to go to Planet Fitness, and he took me along as a guest. =)) When we got there, I was so excited, lol. I really miss going to a gym to workout. And going with my brother was super cool. I had a lot of fun with him. I did 2 minute sprints on the t... Sat, 12 May 2012 21:53:08 EST LIFE adjustment =) Every once in a while, whenever I have the time to myself (which is VERY rare lol) I like to sit back, look out the window, and enjoy the natural physiology of nature, the sky, the weather, the relativity. How the trees sway with the winds of a strong storm. How a squirrel can do serious air time from one tree branch to another. How the tiny little "helicopters" that fill my back yard spin down to the ground. How mother nature keeps everything just as perfectly as God intended it to be. <BR> ... Wed, 9 May 2012 18:42:05 EST #workinthatbodyout Workout Song of the Day!! =D Jillian Michaels: DONE 470 cal burned <BR> Elliptical: DONE 428 cal burned <BR> Water: 4 cups so far, 4 or more to go <BR> <BR> Doing great so far besides the fact I have YET to eat and its 1230pm... <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I have absolutely NO appetite... I ate some almonds after JM Shred... but now I don't feel hungry... but I am going to have to force myself to eat. I gained a pound this week... =( And I know it is from not eating and working out like a maniac. Its so dumb how if I eat ... Tue, 8 May 2012 12:35:18 EST attitude adjustment i'm going to try and kick the bad feelings to the curb this week and keep truckin' along. the scale is a piece of crap. lol i just want to be healthy. and if i lose weight along the way, well then great. at this point, i have become so obsessed over the scale, i'm letting it get the best of me. after weeks of battling the same 2-3lbs i'm done. here is to a new week and a new attitude. Mon, 7 May 2012 10:15:04 EST feeling distraught, distressed, disappointed.. any other d words i can use? SERIOUSLY?!?! WHAT. THE. F!!!!!!!!! =/ <BR> <BR> I got a new replacement scale through warranty from Homedics a couple of weeks ago... this thing SERIOUSLY is broken... IDC if it was new. The damn thing is broken. Sat, 5 May 2012 09:39:19 EST life is too short, love and appreciate what you have Its Fridayyyy!! (already!! wth?) It seems like the older I get, the faster my life is flashing before my eyes. <BR> <BR> The week flew by, and I feel like I have done well this week with food and exercise. I just hope the scale reflects that. I did measurements yesterday just to see if there's a possibility of lost inches since the stinking scale is being a d**k... yes it's a guy, LOL. <BR> I'm down another 2.75 inches in my hips, thighs, and boobies =) YES!! <BR> <BR> Summer is hittin' ... Fri, 4 May 2012 11:44:47 EST Shopping REALLY is good therapy the morning is going great so far, did the elliptical, burned over 600 cal. weigh in is typically on mondays. i sneak peaked on the scale earlier, and i am happy. =) i just hope that this sticks and i stay on track. if all goes well i hope to lose 2lbs or more by monday. =D <BR> <BR> I need to set my goals for May: <BR> <BR> - burn 3000 calories per week doing JM and the elliptical <BR> - WATER WATER WATER WATER WATER WATER WATER!!!!!! <BR> - lose 5lbs <BR> - go on a date with my husband ... Wed, 2 May 2012 11:58:26 EST RIP Last night I found out there were 3 deaths in 24 hours. Two suicides, a young man and a man in his 50s, and one fatal car accident. I was not related to two of the three. But regardless, I am so sad for these families and what they are going through right now. I lost a cousin in NY back in December 2011 to suicide. A bright, good hearted, lit up the room kinda guy, gone. Completely by surprise. There isn't a day that passes that I don't think about him. And now, the loss of two young men in t... Tue, 1 May 2012 10:17:50 EST Post Workout Smoothie (or smoo-dee as my 4 y/o calls it lol) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Mango Orange Banana Strawberry Smoo-dee <BR> 1/2 med banana <BR> 1/2 med orange <BR> 2 large strawberries <BR> 1/3 cup mango pieces <BR> 1/4 cup Trop50 Orange Juice <BR> <BR> Combine all ingredients in food blender, or my personal fav the Magic Bullet (best investment ever!) and blend for about 20-30 seconds (in MB) or until blended in blender. This was SOOOO good!!! And only 144 calories =))) <BR> <BR> 143.7 cal... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 15:04:58 EST havent had a depressing blog in a while, why not I REALLY need to get out of the house. Alone. No kids. I've cleaned. I've done laundry. Kids are fed. Dinner isn't done yet, but what's the point... my husband never comes home at a certain time anyway, so I'll just eat alone. I was so hyper this morning, did 35 min on the elliptical after SP Live meeting, burned 600 calories, was feeling good. Then, after finished my "chores" that NEEVERR ENDDDD =| I find myself staring at iTunes bored out of my mind, playing on Instagram, bored out of my mi... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 18:45:35 EST dont talk slick or imma have ta' terminate ya already got the elliptical in, i needed to take a break though, lol i was doing intervals on it and my legs are jello right now haha. gonna do JM Shred Level 2 after i post this blog. its been a good day so far, the kids are behaving (thanks gawd) im listening to good music today, i am feeling upbeat, i stepped on the scale earlier, no change since monday. D: sucks. <BR> <BR> but i still have til monday, so i hope to keep up on my workouts and food. here is my post elliptical workout pic...... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 13:05:36 EST Food/Me/Pics =) I took a couple of pictures of the food I cooked today and yesterday. OMGosh so YUM!! =)))) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Oatmeal with raisins, pecans, and half a banana and FF milk for breakfast yesterday. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Fresh Stir Fry Veggies =)))) omgggg this was SOOOO good!!! <BR> <BR> I took a couple of pics of the babies =)) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 15:18:30 EST GRRRR grumble grumble! snarl! growl! I decided to not eat meat for this week to try and see if it would settle my stomach issues... well, I am happy to say, yes, I am not going within 30 minutes of eating. Thank you Lord Almighty! I'm going to stick with it. I am not even tempted to eat meat. Although, if I come across chicken breast I kinda miss it for a minute, at least, lol. <BR> <BR> Anyway... I was having an AWFUL day yesterday with my kids. I was SOOOOOO fed up with their misbehaving and fighting I nearly broke all my te... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 11:18:46 EST choosing forks over knives for the next week After blogging about my stomach issues this morning, I thought about what I have been eating to make my body rebel against me. Every morning I start my day off with a coffee, while watching Ellen (my FAVORITE), then I eat breakfast. Typically oatmeal, or egg whites, or home made whole wheat pancakes. Today, I was watching Ellen, and she had a chef on with her that was teaching vegan style cooking. For those of you that don't know, Ellen is a vegetarian. The food actually looked like it would ... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 15:37:44 EST My weekend, and the occasional TMI blog post How was everyone's weekend? Mine was busy as usual. We always either have company, go somewhere, or I am cleaning, cleaning, laundry, cleaning, cleaning.... Saturday my sister came to visit with my nephews, we hung out, made breakfast. She made a fruit, yogurt, and granola parfait. OMGosh it was so good!! Then, after having 4 kids run rampant around my house, my sister went home, and I cleaned house. My floor was a mess! I have hardwood floor throughout my house, and it is a lot of work to wa... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 12:31:59 EST thinking out loud... just because lol I am not the type who has witty sentences to type into a blog. I am not poetic whatsoever. I don't get 50+ comments on my blogs. I don't know how to put words together that flow like a song or some other form of literature. <BR> <BR> I actually suck at writing, didn't like it in high school, college, and I don't like it now. But what I do know, today, versus who I was in the past, is that I am a different person. I have matured. I have lost friends, and didn't gain any. I confirmed a few en... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 14:57:53 EST SBS challenge 12" lost! (pics/measurements) So I tried Sports Bra Sparkies 6 week challenge. I did well with inches. And, as I looked at the after pictures, I am disappointed, I don't see much of a difference. And I lost 4 inches in my abdomen. I just don't see it, lol. So, here are the measurements from the start (3/5), and finish. <BR> <BR> Chest: down .5" (YAY!!!) lol <BR> Midriff: down 3.5" <BR> Abdomen: down 4" <BR> Waist: down 1.25" <BR> Hips: down .5" <BR> Arm: down 1.25" <BR> Thigh: down 1" <BR> Calf: no change =p <BR> <BR>... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 11:27:51 EST I LOVE NSV and SP and SF and LIFE!! I had a doc visit to my hematologist for my blood thinners yesterday. It was make or break day. He gave me 3 months to lose 15lbs. Unfortunately, I did not make the 15lb mark since January. So, I was trying to figure out what I could do to show him the progress I have made. And I realized that I could show him the amount of inches I have lost since then. I entered my measurements on the SP tracker. And I printed out the reports and showed them to him. <BR> <BR> So... I am officially off blo... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 11:03:47 EST SP Live, Easter, Pleasantly surprising measurements =) (tons of pics) Well, I must admit, the last week I have been lazy. irresponsible. and, lazy. I haven't worked out in one week. I didn't do very well with food over the weekend. Friday and Saturday I barely ate anything because I was so busy getting ready for Easter. Sunday, I ate cake, and chocolate. But, I didn't eat only twice that day. Yesterday, I ate maybe twice. I had cake again. I didn't track my food. I still have leftover cake in the fridge. And, after I give my daughters each a slice, the rest is ... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 10:51:36 EST goal dress my goal dress. OMG I love this dress. I want to be able to fit into a size 20 by Fall. Yup. I will do it. I can do it. I need to stop flooding my mind with negative thoughts and emotion. I have been so down. My husband has worked for 3 weeks straight. He worked all day yesterday, came home to eat dinner, and left again and worked all night and came home at 730am. He is a walking zombie. I am so sad for him. <em>39</em> I miss him being home more often. But, he is working to support his fami... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 00:36:31 EST