FATHINSN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FATHINSN FATHINSN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Oct 2nd: Instant Headache & Fever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6007940 Maybe I should just let the tears flow. The reality of my grandma passed away when I heard the news last night felt more real when I dropped my parents to the airport. Then the terrible headache and sudden fever came this morning, making me felt so helpless alone at home. I still try hard not to cry because once I started, the tears will hard to stop. The effort probably creating the headache. I just wanted to curl up, remember all good memories of my grandma even though I'm closer to anothe... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 10:09:21 EST Oct 1st: Began New Month With Sadness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6007309 My grandma has passed away. Thu, 1 Oct 2015 09:44:03 EST Sep 30th: Rumbling Stomach Solution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006643 After a long talk with a new doctor - I decided to try the new clinic quite close to my office - apparently my stomach rumbling problem was from my stress. Something about the stress triggered my body to cause more gastric acid that caused my stomach had "active" action and caused gassy problem. <BR> <BR> Yes, I admit that I'm getting more stressful these days, I guessed because our company is restructuring and I've no idea what is my status whether I will remain or let go. Then, that issue ... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 08:12:18 EST Sep 29th: A Bloated, Gassy, Stomachache Human http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006113 Or simply put, food poison LOL I think I got a mild version but it still annoyed me. Good news is no heavy puking or diarrhea. Bad news, my stomach is swollen with unbreakable gas; no burp or fart that can help release the bloated feeling so either I use a giant pin to poke hole through my stomach or I can use remedies like ginger tea, crunches, etc :D To make my things even more interesting, my right leg started to "vibrate" again, that weird throbbing feeling on and off past few weeks, I t... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 10:42:01 EST Sep 28th: Being A Realistic In Love? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005480 I had an interesting conversation over lunch with a friend. I shared my mock date experience on last Saturday. She was supportive if the mock date could lead to actual dates but she also warned me. How I need to be more realistic on the guy I will fall in love and spend my life with him. In our society, especially for the older generations, couple from different races or religions are usually frown upon. Add with the fact the guy is much younger than the girl, such a good recipe for disaste... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 10:42:01 EST Sep 27th: Happy Birthday, My Friend Sarah http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004876 Today is my friend's birthday. We had a small group celebrating her birthday tonight at an Indian restaurant :D Two friends helped coordinate a scrap book contained birthday wishes. I did crane origami pieces; one crane contained a personal letter to her :D <BR> <BR> Also a surprise: each of us who attended the dinner received a gift from the birthday girl! She gave everyone a bottle of alcohol drink but for me, dark chocolate, as I don't drink alcohol. So sweet of her :D She said as we as t... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 10:40:56 EST Sep 26th: A Mock Date http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004394 A friend who I haven't met yet in person came to my town for a short break this weekend (for his cousin's wedding and a festival). We always had conversation online and couple times on phone so I was curious about him in person. <BR> <BR> So we planned our meet up and it was sort of a practice date as last date I had was about 10 years ago (I told him and he agreed to play along LOL) To sum up, it was a good mock date :D <BR> <BR> First, we needed to meet. I told him to find me playfully an... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 10:48:41 EST Sep 25th: The Hazy Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003744 We had quite hazy day here at my place. Still visible enough to drive but once I out from my car, the air smelled like smoke and felt like I was walking in a cloudy dream state, haha. It was also the day after a public holiday so the mood was also quite hazy, haha. Even my computer wasn't working at its normal speed and kept disconnected from our office network. <BR> <BR> A hazy Friday from every angle LOL Fri, 25 Sep 2015 08:16:25 EST Sep 24th: Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003138 Today is Eid Adha, one of events in Islam. Early morning, Muslims will gather at mosques and perform Eid Adha prayer together. On the previous day, we are recommended to do a voluntary fast but I didn't do it because I still on my period (having period means can't do fasting in Islam). On today and the next three days, we are encouraged to do our Qurban (hence at my place, we called it Hari Raya Qurban) then distribute the meats among poors and neighbours :D <BR> <BR> On the same day, it's t... Thu, 24 Sep 2015 07:37:19 EST Sep 23rd: Crying and Felt Hopeless http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002681 After just 3 hours of sleep, I suddenly woke up then I started to cry. I remembered my past heartaches then I cried more because I think my heart is getting more pains because of Mr Puzzle. I cried back to sleep. I cried when I ate my breakfast. I cried at my work desk. I cried while texting. I cried when I ordered my drink. I even cried when I was walking! I felt so lost as if the biggest part of me is starting to disappear. I felt myself drifting away. I felt my inside getting crushed slo... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 11:14:05 EST Sep 22nd: I've Reached My Limit ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002010 ... so it's time to take a break. <BR> <BR> I did Ultimate trainings more than the regular two days per week since, I think, two weeks ago. When someone in our group wanted to do training other than usual schedule, I always joined. Whether I brought extra exercise clothes or I would play in my long skirts. <BR> <BR> My legs are aching right now, my shin splints haven't gone away, my calves are so sore. I'm also started to get bruises like I used to have when I first joined. I had two collis... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 11:01:15 EST Sep 21st: When I Failed My Vow On 1st Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001305 I felt I was overload of too much of Mr Puzzle. Either information directly related to him or my Ultimate team kept mentioning his name hundreds times or too many things reminded me of him. I think the whole universe has team up to drive me crazy LOL <BR> <BR> So, I vowed that this week, I will skip any Ultimate training, just to rest my mind, heart and body from him. As he became more of a delicious temptation in the training, I need to have a breather or hundreds. <BR> <BR> But an experie... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 09:10:43 EST Sep 20th: When I Tried To Be Natural Around Mr Puzzle ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000738 ... then I found out that I left ALL of my money at home and had to borrow some from the guy I like to pay one glass of iced syrup lemon. He probably thought: <BR> A - "what a scatterbrain girl" while kept a poker face <BR> B - that I tried to get him pay for my drink <BR> C - that I making excuse to borrow money from him so that we had temporary link as long as I still haven't paid <BR> <BR> I don't like being in debt nor making others in debt to me. So having this very rare situation with ... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 10:44:47 EST Sep 19th: Strategy Planning Training http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000156 Today, fourth day of Ultimate training. First time I had training four days straight, from Wednesday to Saturday, haha. The first day was practicing throws and games. Second and third were practicing throws only. Today was practicing throws, drill and blocking strategy. <BR> <BR> The drill was a diamond shape where we learned on short throws and cuts. First we did backhand for few rounds then forehand for more rounds. One guy disagreed on the effectiveness of this drill so him and the coordi... Sat, 19 Sep 2015 09:39:54 EST Sep 18th: Being Haunted By Mr Puzzle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999688 Everwhere I go, anything I see, books that I read, posts in media social and even in old movies, there will be something remind me of him. <BR> <BR> I'm currently at a book marathon where this one series has 10 books and on 8th book, there was a character with same name. That character sadly get killed by werewolves. <BR> <BR> When I was Facebook surfing, I found an article about a British man who was knighted and he forged his own sword! Again, Mr Puzzle and the British shared same first n... Fri, 18 Sep 2015 11:27:51 EST Sep 17th: Out of Control Vs In Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999141 I learnt a valuable lesson about things that I can and can't control during a talk from a consultant company which deals with restructured organization. Why spend endless energy and getting so stress out towards things out of my control when I can use that priceless energy towards things I'm in control and be more happier :D <BR> <BR> Let's see ... <BR> * I can't control on what people will say about me BUT I can control on how I will response (negative or positive way) <BR> <BR> * I can't ... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 11:53:04 EST Sep 16th: Happy Malaysia Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5998533 A bit of history lesson: 16th Sep 1963 was when Malaya (now are states in West Malaysia), Singapore (left Malaysia few years later), Sarawak and Sabah joined to form a new country, Malaysia. 31st Aug 1963: Sabah got independence from British. 22nd July 1963: Sarawak got independence from British. 31st Aug 1957: Malaya got independence from British. Why there are West and East Malaysia? Because both are separated by South China Sea. East Malaysia also in Borneo Island, third largest island i... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 11:56:02 EST Is There Other Alternatives For Exercises? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5991989 I'm feeling so down this week. I think my exercises routine is not agreeable with my parents as they want me to back home before sunset: <BR> - they might be worry about my young lady's reputation and safety. <BR> - to them, I look like I much prefer to exercise instead of going home early so that I can go the mosque with them <BR> - if i go home early, I can help more home chores like getting the laundry from drying line or help with cooking. <BR> - how I look like wishing for my independenc... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 10:35:27 EST Sep 2nd: I'm Curious Not In Love/Lust/Crush http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5989582 I think whatever I feel about Mr Puzzle is only curious not love nor lust nor infatution. There is no need to dig deep as it will confuse me more and I'm still relearning being human and alive and there are so many things I want to know. <BR> <BR> I'm curious why he stirred this weird feeling of wanting to know more about him. I'm curious on if I can coax laugh or smile from him and only because of me. I'm curious why I always want to lean on his touch when we do group huddle - he's the only... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 11:47:57 EST Sep 1st: A Happy Event After Many Bad Things :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5988758 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/46f6d312-8028-4ece-bd85-0b235fa90364.png"> <BR> First, trapped in heavy traffic at route that usually has less. It was first day back to work after 3 days weekend so energy level started to decrease. <BR> <BR> Second, I found out about the guy I like that he's currently in no mood to date. Looks like I don't have any chance so I will stay as secret admirer or a stalker or try to open my eyes to other guys (the last one will be hardest to do as... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 10:59:06 EST Aug 31st: A Funny Dream About Mr Puzzle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5987967 I was pondering about a guy whether my feeling was infatution, lust or the Big L on previous night. Lo and behold, he appeared in my dream - starting to invade my safe haven, too! <BR> <BR> I dreamed that we both in a hostel room, somehow he became a roommate (which is very unlikely in reality LOL). And what roomies fight about? A blanket which we both didn't want to let go! Of all type of imaginations about a guy who I'm still confuse on my feeling, I dreamed something so childish, haha. <... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 09:49:30 EST Aug 25th: Return To Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5984408 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ac63dc66-916a-4907-9220-c3e4504f1cc7.png"> Since before Ramadhan this year, I've stop my running plan. I did run in Ultimate but that's different, hehe. Today, I return to the battlefield with Maroon 5; venue was Taman Bulatan (loosely translate as Roundabout Park), quite pretty with lots of trees for shades and several elevated ground as small hills. I did 3 rounds, total 2340 metres. The plan was to do 10% less time of previous round. But ... Tue, 25 Aug 2015 09:44:38 EST Agent Ilsa Faust (Mission: Impossible Nation Rogue) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978848 Today, I went to town to have my personal time alone; I guess as an Introvert, I much prefer spending time with myself instead of get dragged by others, even to my favourite places LOL One of activities I did was watched a movie, " Mission: Impossible Rogue Nation". *cue MI soundtrack, dum dum dum <BR> <BR> It was full of actions, funny lines/responses and some heartbreaking moments; couldn't say much as it will be spoiler alert, hehe. But one thing I can say is my country is mentioned, haha... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 10:12:49 EST Aug 15th: The Jigsaw Puzzle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978393 (Warning: This is a tale about a guy ...) I've known him for several years but he was just another guy among hundreds I've met in my life. No extraordinary feat that make him outstanding among our peers. No gorgeous look that make you keep sneaking another look but he still pleasant to look. Someone who you can have polite conversation but no further seeking to know him deeper. I first knew him at work and he always wore an unreadable expression. He always looked serious and I became half s... Sat, 15 Aug 2015 12:30:40 EST Aug 10th: I Wonder What To Be Thankful Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5975243 Yesterday, a session with my therapist told me that I need to look at the positive side from no matter how bad things are or else, my life will be full of negativities and I will not find happiness. I also read some articles on how to find happiness and fall in love with life and the common advice is to feel gratitude with what I have in life, no matter how small they are. Fine, let's me try these advices by today's experiences and memories ... with my sick sense of humour, of course! I'll l... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 10:50:18 EST Aug 9th: A Simple Compliment Brighten Up My Week :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5974618 Yesterday, went to Ultimate training at nearby beach. The session already started so I hang out with friends while waiting for my turn to swap in. Then a guy said he knew why dogs and spiders were attracted to me; I smelled nice. Wow, that simple comment made my crappy week much better :D Last week, I was told by both my mom and supervisor about my loudness, hyper-active and tendency to ask questions at inappropriate times. Then when I asked a colleague earlier this week, she also said that ... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 10:27:14 EST Another Aug 1st Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970236 A close friend - a confidante I called him - once told me that those who don't know me think I'm strange but those who understand me think I'm unique. Unfortunately, I think most of people around me think I'm strange, that I'm so difference that what is expected. I don't know if it's culture, if it's because of gender. <BR> <BR> I was told that my laugh is contagious, that I made the work atmosphere more cheerful. But now with different team, I keep been told that I need to tone down my laug... Sat, 1 Aug 2015 10:55:42 EST My Measurements After About Half 2015 :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970167 Since January 2015, I have my ups and downs for my measurements but I think things progressing well, yay! I'm aiming to try get healthy combination of food, rest and activities and I think I'm getting there about 70% as I'm still having problem with my sleep <BR> <BR> Since early 2015, I joined a sport group; playing Ultimate somewhere nearby my office (no problem going there after work!) and I was introduced to the activity by my colleague (I hate acting happy mingling with crowd so having ... Sat, 1 Aug 2015 08:53:00 EST Aug 1st: Bye Present Me, Hi Future Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969766 Enough comments about my true personality, I need to change. I had a review at work and even though my supervisor was satisfied with my performance, my behaviours had lots to be remarked. Such as I laughed too loud, I expressed my response too much to bear, I was inappropriate at work small talks, my questions were not suitable. When I told my mom, she agreed that behaviours are unacceptable. <BR> <BR> Yes, I have to agree with both of them as I don't hold back myself around people. Well, th... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 12:44:47 EST May 2nd: How To Kill Curiousity?!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920809 Sometimes I hate that I'm always dying with questions. Heck, if I'm at point of actual dying, I'll probably use my last strength to fire questions LOL <BR> <BR> I especially hate it during of after group workouts; my tongue is much looser, I have little control on what I'm going to say so I will ask A LOT and worse, I spill too much about myself. Like on Wednesday, in a Frisbee game, while doing throwing practice. A guy who I barely knew and including that day, only twice seeing him but some... Fri, 1 May 2015 12:30:04 EST Apr 30: A Stupid List of Pro's & Con's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919706 This is a frustration, vent-out blog about a person so stop reading if you don't want to know more. Else, I guess you are too curious. <BR> <BR> I read somewhere that to not liking someone too fast is to find the person's weakness or things that you don't like. So let's start with Con's: <BR> #1 His voice alone can disturb my attention <BR> #2 He hasn't say he likes me more than a friend <BR> #3 He's almost 10 years younger <BR> #4 He probably tortures cats for fun <BR> #5 He''s not hairy en... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 13:26:01 EST Apr 20: Back to Running, Learn Proper Form http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914492 Today, I returned to one of the scariest things in my life: RUNNING! <BR> <BR> A colleague planned to have a running session today but I asked him first if I should join as I'm still a slow runner. Apparently, people who would join his session were known as fast, strong runners *gasp. So, he suggested I did my own plan and he showed me how to do good running form - with diagrams he Googled and with his fingers movement. <BR> <BR> So, after work and it was getting so close to sunset, I did ... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 10:42:18 EST Apr 15: Getting More Steps By Running In Frisbees! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912344 Since I joined again Frisbee game on Wednesday 8th April, I get average steps more than 7500 steps (my goal is to get daily at least 7500 steps). Those days that I got more than 10K steps were days that I played Frisbees; 8th April I got 12179 and 11th April I got 11262 :D I think I enjoy running more in games compare to jogging in the park or in a jogging group. Maybe the excitement of the games caught me off guard and my mind was too busy focusing on the games instead of I kept thinking whe... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 11:16:15 EST Mar 21: Doughnut Maroon 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896896 Whenever we made homemade doughnuts, usually I will be kneading the dough and mom will cook them. Today, however, as my mom wasn't around, I had to do from A to Z *gasp! <BR> <BR> I'm in Maroon 5 mood lately so I played, their songs from album "It Won't Be Soon Before Long", sang along lyrics that I knew while I knead, pinch, twist and finally cooked my doughnuts :D Dad did complain the loud music when I cooked LOL <BR> <BR> The result: slightly crunchy doughnuts served with hot tea but the... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 08:54:42 EST Mar 20: Yay, Still In Weight Range http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896418 Every Friday morning, I will check my weight using a scale at my office (a colleague brought it and he left it when he moved). Today, I'm happy to report that still in the safe zone :D And as nearly always, one colleague who's in the same cubicle as the weight scale always be my witness of joy or sad and I always told him to not sneak peak LOL <BR> <BR> Well, the scale is a little bit cheating because it's not quite accurate and we have to keep calibrating it manual, haha. Fri, 20 Mar 2015 10:31:33 EST Mar 19: It Felt So Good To Giggle With Others :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895779 I rarely had a girl talk about how hot a guy is because I always feel a bit awkward talk about guys with girls because I feel like I'm like this too-itchy girl compare to them, haha. Funny thing is, it's much easier to talk about other guys with my guy friends LOL <BR> <BR> Anyhow, after work, I drop by to an aunt's house because I heard from Dad that she suffered some pain after did some housework and Dad suggested I visited her to see how she's doing. She was doing better but she wanted to... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 09:24:25 EST Mar 18: Playground 5-min In Our Office Ground, Yay! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895148 Every Wednesday, I play Ultimate Fresbies with bunch of friends - colleagues and always new faces. But today, we play at grassy field just next to our office building, YAYYYYYYYYYY!!! It's a site of old building that was demolished years ago and there are plans to do something about that ground. For now, we have security clearance to play our games at that field :D <BR> <BR> It was big crowd, even bigger than two weeks ago, wow! 24 players, mix of old and new faces. I still thought myself as... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 10:00:57 EST Mar 17: Another Sleepy Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5894576 Honestly, I think most of my blogs revolve around I'm being sleepy LOL And as I'm being honest right now, most of the time it was because I kept falling asleep outside my bedroom then around midnight, either I woke up myself or my very concern mom woke me up - don't want nubile young lady falling asleep unprotected in the living room :D <BR> <BR> Today, I tried to take short nap after about 10-min after sort-of light lunch. But it was interrupted by loud male voices, uhuh. Strangely, I had d... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 11:18:39 EST Mar 16: The First 7 Days of Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893816 Last week, I started using again my pedometer - luckily the battery still ok, hehe. I wanted to start tracking again my steps as part of starting again being active (well, other than do weekly Ultimate Fresbies). Maybe that's why I'm easily get depressed, I'm not active anymore. <BR> <BR> Today, I made a graph based on the steps. Not surprisingly, weekend was lowest steps because I spend more time in bed or couch, sleeping or watching tv series, haha. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 09:10:30 EST Mar 15: Another Lazy Being Lazy LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893257 Last night, I slept late because of watching back-to-back tv series via DVD (I missed the episodes so many times so I decided to buy the DVDs). So, today, woke up late but surprisingly, not later than 10 am - I would think that if I slept at 4 am, I would wake up closer to noon! <BR> <BR> So, I thought to myself, yesterday I had my lazy day, today I need to start my laundry early instead of much later. It was sunny, a good laundry day, should take this good weather for do laundry as early as... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 10:01:19 EST Mar 14: Tv-Fest Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892672 What I love to do when I'm alone and on weekend - tv marathon! Just switching tv channels when a series or movie finished. I stopped long enough to eat my breakfast and lunch, hehe. There are lots of tv series and movies that I missed during weekday so I usually take the opportunity of weekend to watch them :D <BR> <BR> Now I know how potato couch feels like, haha. <BR> <BR> What I'm thankful of: sunny day today! <BR> My good point: my love for my cats :D Sat, 14 Mar 2015 08:17:41 EST Mar 13: Most Favourite Work Day So Far In 2015! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892166 Friday March 13th, I think I love this work day so far in this year! It's Friday (my favourite day because the spelling started with the same alphabet like my name, hehe), I like odd number and anything with number 3 (so Friday 27th might be my next favourite day LOL). <BR> <BR> I woke up one hour later than I usually do on work day - on the last snooze of my alarm *gasp! But because I overslept slightly, I think I felt much more rested, haha. So, less headache, more chirpier :D Then when I ... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 09:41:25 EST Mar 12: The Day It Was Easy to Park LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892155 One of small pleasures in life is to get parking space easily or at least, the type you like, i.e. parking at corner :D And on that day, March 12, THREE TIMES I got parking spaces easier than I usually had! First, was at my office - I got this one parking spot that at end of row so at least, one side of my car is safe from getting scratched from another car when someone opened their door too wide. Then when I went to a supermarket looking for something for my mother, just few minutes into the... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 09:16:06 EST Mar 11: Such A Crazy Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891036 First, I woke up later than I usually do because I turn off my alarm (turn off hp = turn off alarm, hehe). I became so snappish, uhuh. Then I spend about 2 hours preparing for a training session (I'm the trainer, horror oh horror!) then I did the training session in such a quite cramp time period (the best time should be a day but due to hard to find nearest available room with our company's WIFI connection, I had to use a room that only available half day). And the participants were more tha... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 10:41:18 EST Mar 10: Great Hang Out With A Friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890378 A friend-colleague (you know, friend that you met as colleague first then become a friend, hehe) is having three days course in my office area. She's based in another city so it's hard to see her in person so we usually chat via online. Today, after her class finished, I met her (honestly, I barely remember her exact feature as I usually lost my memories on either faces or names, hehe) and wow, it felt like last time we saw each other just yesterday instead of months! You know that feeling wh... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 09:48:31 EST Mar 09: A Good Discussion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889826 Starting today, I'll try what my therapist suggested me to do: <BR> - write down what I'm thankful of <BR> - one of my good points <BR> - not putting too much emotion in work <BR> <BR> So, I did the first two earlier this morning, wrote down first things came in my mind. As for the third point, I tried to keep that in my mind, especially in my discussion with my supervisor. Like my therapist said, ask for help for issues, get things clearer on what I need to achieve for task goals. Interesti... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 11:34:30 EST Mar 08: Another Interesting Weekend :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889104 I had an appointment, first session with my therapist (recommended by my doctor when it was apparent that I some issues inside my head, haha). It was nice to talk to someone who's a complete stranger and yet, give advices that I can take. He said that I have problem with authority, based on my connections to my parents, which brought all the issues at work, having problem with my sup and boss. He also said that I shouldn't see things in black-and-white, try not get into either side of extreme... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 09:05:41 EST Mar 07: Shopping Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888533 I nearly didn't able to go to town all by myself but I really, desperately need to get out from home (mom drove me insane because her friends from Hajj would come over in afternoon and she wanted everything in the house spotless). I was tempted to let Dad helped me to do the banking for myself because I hate to go to bank and possibilities of chit-chat about "when are you going to get married?" <BR> <BR> Anyhow, did my bank activity and escaped from the bank barely unscathed from the usual m... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 08:12:01 EST Mar 06: First Time Hiking Famous Local Hill ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887950 ... but I only did few steps when I reached wooden set of stairs that lead to long, long way down the steep path. There was a rope and my friend showed me how to climb down but I felt like I wanted to lie down and scream, "NO NO NO". I think I panicked at that moment, haha. <BR> <BR> Next time, I will try at least down a set of the wooden stair because I chicken out, hehe. Fri, 6 Mar 2015 07:46:15 EST Mar 05: I Was So Sleepy Even In My Own Class! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887440 Just imagine being so dead tired that even while teaching people you felt so sleepy?!! Today I wanted to just go sleepy as early as possible when I went home. <BR> <BR> Guess what? Tonight had some crazy fireworks - pretty yet so noisy! It died when it started to rain heavily but the rain didn't last long enough because once it was getting lighter, the noise was even more crazy! <BR> <BR> I did fall asleep at the living room because it was more quite but my mother didn't want me to sleep t... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 10:25:38 EST