FATHINSN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FATHINSN FATHINSN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Another Aug 1st Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970236 A close friend - a confidante I called him - once told me that those who don't know me think I'm strange but those who understand me think I'm unique. Unfortunately, I think most of people around me think I'm strange, that I'm so difference that what is expected. I don't know if it's culture, if it's because of gender. <BR> <BR> I was told that my laugh is contagious, that I made the work atmosphere more cheerful. But now with different team, I keep been told that I need to tone down my laug... Sat, 1 Aug 2015 10:55:42 EST My Measurements After About Half 2015 :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970167 Since January 2015, I have my ups and downs for my measurements but I think things progressing well, yay! I'm aiming to try get healthy combination of food, rest and activities and I think I'm getting there about 70% as I'm still having problem with my sleep <BR> <BR> Since early 2015, I joined a sport group; playing Ultimate somewhere nearby my office (no problem going there after work!) and I was introduced to the activity by my colleague (I hate acting happy mingling with crowd so having ... Sat, 1 Aug 2015 08:53:00 EST Aug 1st: Bye Present Me, Hi Future Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969766 Enough comments about my true personality, I need to change. I had a review at work and even though my supervisor was satisfied with my performance, my behaviours had lots to be remarked. Such as I laughed too loud, I expressed my response too much to bear, I was inappropriate at work small talks, my questions were not suitable. When I told my mom, she agreed that behaviours are unacceptable. <BR> <BR> Yes, I have to agree with both of them as I don't hold back myself around people. Well, th... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 12:44:47 EST May 2nd: How To Kill Curiousity?!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920809 Sometimes I hate that I'm always dying with questions. Heck, if I'm at point of actual dying, I'll probably use my last strength to fire questions LOL <BR> <BR> I especially hate it during of after group workouts; my tongue is much looser, I have little control on what I'm going to say so I will ask A LOT and worse, I spill too much about myself. Like on Wednesday, in a Frisbee game, while doing throwing practice. A guy who I barely knew and including that day, only twice seeing him but some... Fri, 1 May 2015 12:30:04 EST Apr 30: A Stupid List of Pro's & Con's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919706 This is a frustration, vent-out blog about a person so stop reading if you don't want to know more. Else, I guess you are too curious. <BR> <BR> I read somewhere that to not liking someone too fast is to find the person's weakness or things that you don't like. So let's start with Con's: <BR> #1 His voice alone can disturb my attention <BR> #2 He hasn't say he likes me more than a friend <BR> #3 He's almost 10 years younger <BR> #4 He probably tortures cats for fun <BR> #5 He''s not hairy en... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 13:26:01 EST Apr 20: Back to Running, Learn Proper Form http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914492 Today, I returned to one of the scariest things in my life: RUNNING! <BR> <BR> A colleague planned to have a running session today but I asked him first if I should join as I'm still a slow runner. Apparently, people who would join his session were known as fast, strong runners *gasp. So, he suggested I did my own plan and he showed me how to do good running form - with diagrams he Googled and with his fingers movement. <BR> <BR> So, after work and it was getting so close to sunset, I did ... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 10:42:18 EST Apr 15: Getting More Steps By Running In Frisbees! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912344 Since I joined again Frisbee game on Wednesday 8th April, I get average steps more than 7500 steps (my goal is to get daily at least 7500 steps). Those days that I got more than 10K steps were days that I played Frisbees; 8th April I got 12179 and 11th April I got 11262 :D I think I enjoy running more in games compare to jogging in the park or in a jogging group. Maybe the excitement of the games caught me off guard and my mind was too busy focusing on the games instead of I kept thinking whe... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 11:16:15 EST Mar 21: Doughnut Maroon 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896896 Whenever we made homemade doughnuts, usually I will be kneading the dough and mom will cook them. Today, however, as my mom wasn't around, I had to do from A to Z *gasp! <BR> <BR> I'm in Maroon 5 mood lately so I played, their songs from album "It Won't Be Soon Before Long", sang along lyrics that I knew while I knead, pinch, twist and finally cooked my doughnuts :D Dad did complain the loud music when I cooked LOL <BR> <BR> The result: slightly crunchy doughnuts served with hot tea but the... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 08:54:42 EST Mar 20: Yay, Still In Weight Range http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896418 Every Friday morning, I will check my weight using a scale at my office (a colleague brought it and he left it when he moved). Today, I'm happy to report that still in the safe zone :D And as nearly always, one colleague who's in the same cubicle as the weight scale always be my witness of joy or sad and I always told him to not sneak peak LOL <BR> <BR> Well, the scale is a little bit cheating because it's not quite accurate and we have to keep calibrating it manual, haha. Fri, 20 Mar 2015 10:31:33 EST Mar 19: It Felt So Good To Giggle With Others :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895779 I rarely had a girl talk about how hot a guy is because I always feel a bit awkward talk about guys with girls because I feel like I'm like this too-itchy girl compare to them, haha. Funny thing is, it's much easier to talk about other guys with my guy friends LOL <BR> <BR> Anyhow, after work, I drop by to an aunt's house because I heard from Dad that she suffered some pain after did some housework and Dad suggested I visited her to see how she's doing. She was doing better but she wanted to... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 09:24:25 EST Mar 18: Playground 5-min In Our Office Ground, Yay! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895148 Every Wednesday, I play Ultimate Fresbies with bunch of friends - colleagues and always new faces. But today, we play at grassy field just next to our office building, YAYYYYYYYYYY!!! It's a site of old building that was demolished years ago and there are plans to do something about that ground. For now, we have security clearance to play our games at that field :D <BR> <BR> It was big crowd, even bigger than two weeks ago, wow! 24 players, mix of old and new faces. I still thought myself as... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 10:00:57 EST Mar 17: Another Sleepy Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5894576 Honestly, I think most of my blogs revolve around I'm being sleepy LOL And as I'm being honest right now, most of the time it was because I kept falling asleep outside my bedroom then around midnight, either I woke up myself or my very concern mom woke me up - don't want nubile young lady falling asleep unprotected in the living room :D <BR> <BR> Today, I tried to take short nap after about 10-min after sort-of light lunch. But it was interrupted by loud male voices, uhuh. Strangely, I had d... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 11:18:39 EST Mar 16: The First 7 Days of Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893816 Last week, I started using again my pedometer - luckily the battery still ok, hehe. I wanted to start tracking again my steps as part of starting again being active (well, other than do weekly Ultimate Fresbies). Maybe that's why I'm easily get depressed, I'm not active anymore. <BR> <BR> Today, I made a graph based on the steps. Not surprisingly, weekend was lowest steps because I spend more time in bed or couch, sleeping or watching tv series, haha. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 09:10:30 EST Mar 15: Another Lazy Being Lazy LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893257 Last night, I slept late because of watching back-to-back tv series via DVD (I missed the episodes so many times so I decided to buy the DVDs). So, today, woke up late but surprisingly, not later than 10 am - I would think that if I slept at 4 am, I would wake up closer to noon! <BR> <BR> So, I thought to myself, yesterday I had my lazy day, today I need to start my laundry early instead of much later. It was sunny, a good laundry day, should take this good weather for do laundry as early as... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 10:01:19 EST Mar 14: Tv-Fest Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892672 What I love to do when I'm alone and on weekend - tv marathon! Just switching tv channels when a series or movie finished. I stopped long enough to eat my breakfast and lunch, hehe. There are lots of tv series and movies that I missed during weekday so I usually take the opportunity of weekend to watch them :D <BR> <BR> Now I know how potato couch feels like, haha. <BR> <BR> What I'm thankful of: sunny day today! <BR> My good point: my love for my cats :D Sat, 14 Mar 2015 08:17:41 EST Mar 13: Most Favourite Work Day So Far In 2015! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892166 Friday March 13th, I think I love this work day so far in this year! It's Friday (my favourite day because the spelling started with the same alphabet like my name, hehe), I like odd number and anything with number 3 (so Friday 27th might be my next favourite day LOL). <BR> <BR> I woke up one hour later than I usually do on work day - on the last snooze of my alarm *gasp! But because I overslept slightly, I think I felt much more rested, haha. So, less headache, more chirpier :D Then when I ... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 09:41:25 EST Mar 12: The Day It Was Easy to Park LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892155 One of small pleasures in life is to get parking space easily or at least, the type you like, i.e. parking at corner :D And on that day, March 12, THREE TIMES I got parking spaces easier than I usually had! First, was at my office - I got this one parking spot that at end of row so at least, one side of my car is safe from getting scratched from another car when someone opened their door too wide. Then when I went to a supermarket looking for something for my mother, just few minutes into the... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 09:16:06 EST Mar 11: Such A Crazy Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891036 First, I woke up later than I usually do because I turn off my alarm (turn off hp = turn off alarm, hehe). I became so snappish, uhuh. Then I spend about 2 hours preparing for a training session (I'm the trainer, horror oh horror!) then I did the training session in such a quite cramp time period (the best time should be a day but due to hard to find nearest available room with our company's WIFI connection, I had to use a room that only available half day). And the participants were more tha... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 10:41:18 EST Mar 10: Great Hang Out With A Friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890378 A friend-colleague (you know, friend that you met as colleague first then become a friend, hehe) is having three days course in my office area. She's based in another city so it's hard to see her in person so we usually chat via online. Today, after her class finished, I met her (honestly, I barely remember her exact feature as I usually lost my memories on either faces or names, hehe) and wow, it felt like last time we saw each other just yesterday instead of months! You know that feeling wh... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 09:48:31 EST Mar 09: A Good Discussion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889826 Starting today, I'll try what my therapist suggested me to do: <BR> - write down what I'm thankful of <BR> - one of my good points <BR> - not putting too much emotion in work <BR> <BR> So, I did the first two earlier this morning, wrote down first things came in my mind. As for the third point, I tried to keep that in my mind, especially in my discussion with my supervisor. Like my therapist said, ask for help for issues, get things clearer on what I need to achieve for task goals. Interesti... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 11:34:30 EST Mar 08: Another Interesting Weekend :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889104 I had an appointment, first session with my therapist (recommended by my doctor when it was apparent that I some issues inside my head, haha). It was nice to talk to someone who's a complete stranger and yet, give advices that I can take. He said that I have problem with authority, based on my connections to my parents, which brought all the issues at work, having problem with my sup and boss. He also said that I shouldn't see things in black-and-white, try not get into either side of extreme... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 09:05:41 EST Mar 07: Shopping Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888533 I nearly didn't able to go to town all by myself but I really, desperately need to get out from home (mom drove me insane because her friends from Hajj would come over in afternoon and she wanted everything in the house spotless). I was tempted to let Dad helped me to do the banking for myself because I hate to go to bank and possibilities of chit-chat about "when are you going to get married?" <BR> <BR> Anyhow, did my bank activity and escaped from the bank barely unscathed from the usual m... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 08:12:01 EST Mar 06: First Time Hiking Famous Local Hill ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887950 ... but I only did few steps when I reached wooden set of stairs that lead to long, long way down the steep path. There was a rope and my friend showed me how to climb down but I felt like I wanted to lie down and scream, "NO NO NO". I think I panicked at that moment, haha. <BR> <BR> Next time, I will try at least down a set of the wooden stair because I chicken out, hehe. Fri, 6 Mar 2015 07:46:15 EST Mar 05: I Was So Sleepy Even In My Own Class! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887440 Just imagine being so dead tired that even while teaching people you felt so sleepy?!! Today I wanted to just go sleepy as early as possible when I went home. <BR> <BR> Guess what? Tonight had some crazy fireworks - pretty yet so noisy! It died when it started to rain heavily but the rain didn't last long enough because once it was getting lighter, the noise was even more crazy! <BR> <BR> I did fall asleep at the living room because it was more quite but my mother didn't want me to sleep t... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 10:25:38 EST Mar 04: Ultimate Frisbees Time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886750 It's Wednesday and it was time to play Ultimate Frisbees! There were quite a number turned up, probably double-up the usual number! At first, about 10 including myself and we use about a quarter of football field (that's soccer field for you Americans though maybe football's and American football's field are about same size?) Then more and more people came and we end up to 16 people so we used three quarter of the field. <BR> <BR> I always have lousy endurance so at the first goal, I was dea... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 08:34:41 EST Mar 03: Strategy Oh Strategy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886037 After cried worth seven seas last night, today I woke up with crazy headache due to bad sleep. And lots of dry heaves and finally, vomit. But I also thought, why gave up easily? Besides, they want me open up and tell them about my issues. And they want to know my exact job so tomorrow I'll review every details with my sup. Even if we have to go through over and over again till we puke. <BR> <BR> Ok, I have throwing up whole time because I have problem with my sleep many months. Tue, 3 Mar 2015 07:39:34 EST Mar 02: Now I Know How Worthless Feel Like http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885304 After a review with team lead, direct supervisor and HR rep for our department, I felt so worthless and confused and I tried so hard not to break down. In previous review, they said my rating was pro-rate because I'm a new staff (sounds like a normal thing). Then in today's review, they said because my rate is low, I need to go through a 3 months improvement plan where I need to improve both my performance and behaviour. <BR> <BR> First part: Performance, I was so deeply confuse with what th... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 06:58:46 EST Mar 01: Losing Kgs and Inches http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5884653 Compare to 1st February, measurement on 1st March showed I lost some kgs ad inches. I was quite surprise but maybe not much surprise because I've been losing appetite since I started to get sick in mid February. <BR> <BR> Here's my measurement: <BR> Weight = 58.7 kg (Jan 3rd = 58.4"; Feb 1st = 59.6") = going up then down <BR> Bust = 34.25" (Jan 3rd = Feb 1st = 34.5") = going steady then down <BR> Waist = 29" (Jan 3rd = 30"; Feb 1st = 29.5") = going down then down more <BR> Butt = 38" (... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 08:20:30 EST Feb 28: Mmmm, Finally, Ice-Cream! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5884061 I was sick for ages (well, actually, about two or three weeks, hehe) and one of things I had to skip was ice-cream. Cold and cough don't mix with ice-cream *crying a river. <BR> <BR> So, today, I feeeeeeeeeel so good, after a nice night nice sleep and no more lasting headache from previous day and most importantly, I don't have sore throat and sniffle which I thought will last longer :D So, before I somehow get sick again, I use this opportunity to eat vanilla-chocolate ice-cream and I sprin... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 04:54:56 EST Feb 27: A Whole Day of Headache & Dizziness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883661 Hmm, maybe a combo of sleep deprived and cafe food made my head hurt. If I slept late on previous night, I will take nap during lunchtime. I think since last week's Wednesday night that I'm starting to have terrible sleep. It was a night full of strong sound and light of fireworks. And apparently Chinese New Year celebration lasts 15 days so expect 15 nights of fireworks, yikes! Thought it getting lesser and weaker, phew. And the bad news, even thought I felt better last week, I think I'm sta... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 10:15:26 EST Feb 26: Lots & Lots of Red! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883022 This month, I bought lots of red clothes, yay! Sort of my mission of the month - get red blouse, red sweater, red dress, red shirt, haha. The only thing I haven't found any courage to try is red pants/jeans. Red skirts are fine but red pants feel like I really want people to see my legs LOL I like the idea of red pants but to actually wear it is still a long, long journey ahead. <BR> <BR> Here's to Red! <BR> <BR> Thu, 26 Feb 2015 09:38:57 EST Feb 25: 50-min/Day, 5 Day A Week?!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882366 I just read an article about how much exercise you need to lose weight: <BR> How Much Exercise Do You REALLY Need to Lose Weight? <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/blog/blog.asp?po<BR>st=how_much_exercise_you_really_need_t<BR>o_lose_weight </link> <BR> <BR> From the article: <BR> "ACSM has published new physical activity recommendations in the journal Medicine & Science in Sports & Exercise. Overweight and obese individuals are more likely to lose weight and keep it off if they exercise for ... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 09:31:46 EST Feb 24: Happy Birthday To Friends! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881758 I know lots of people but close friends are very few. One friend that I consider quite close had her birthday today - Happy Birthday, Ejan! And four days earlier, another close friend's birthday - Happy Birthday, Herma! I wish I can do something special for them but I don't think I'm good with gifts and lately, I've been thinking to give them and another close friend (who also a cousin, hehe) pretty bracelets that I've found online :D <BR> <BR> On other story, I had bad stomach today. After ... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 10:58:48 EST Feb 23: Creaking Body While Exercises, haha http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881007 After quite a while since I did exercise, I did some squats and lunges today. Nothing too intense, just 5 reps for each squat, forward lunges, reverse lunges, squat with hop, side lunges. But I kept hearing this creaking sound like rusty door hinges, haha. <BR> <BR> I guess that's a sign that I need to keep my body active instead of being lazy and lying in bed all day, reading or watching movies LOL Mon, 23 Feb 2015 09:10:46 EST Feb 15: So Sad No Chocolate Feast Yesterday :P http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875987 Hehe, oh, well, at least I have time to get better, no terrible cough disturbing my sleep anymore :D <BR> <BR> Instead, I spend yesterday mostly reading a romance novel, Change of Heart, by Jude Deveraux. It contains two parts of love stories, the first part was actually already published as novella years back and I think the author rewrote that part. At night, I watched the first two episodes of True Blood 5th season (I just gave up finding similarities between the tv series with the book s... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 04:37:25 EST Feb 10 & 11: Countdown To Chocolate Feast - 4 & 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873731 I'm terribly sick, lots of coughing and dizziness. Yesterday, was trying to be strong enough to fight but I had such bad day with negative vibes pilling on me. Today, after several nights of barely able to sleep with bouts of coughing, I felt so weak, I just wanted to sleep even on my office floor LOL I also cough so hard that I puke a little. <BR> <BR> Heck, why do I still not sleeping and writing here? Oh, I remember why; everytime I lie down to sleep -on my back or either side of my body ... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 09:11:13 EST Feb 9: Countdown To Chocolate Feast -5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873093 Pro & Con being Single - holiday trip <BR> <BR> Pro: I can plan mine whenever I want, wherever I want. No domestic quarrel spoiling holiday mood. <BR> <BR> Con: I wish I can go to somewhere romantic with significant other even if just beach trip at out town :D Tue, 10 Feb 2015 09:49:04 EST Feb 9: Countdown To Chocolate Feast -6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872359 Pro & Con of being single - personal time <BR> <BR> Pro: Lots and lots of personal time! I don't have to worry or feel guilty that I want to spend time all by myself. Yeah, I have my parents around but they have each other and whether I'm around or not, it's fine with them but it's much fun to have all three of us spend fun time together :D <BR> <BR> Con: Sometimes it does feel like I have too much of personal time that I think maybe I need to spend alone time with one significant other. (b... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 09:07:30 EST Feb 8: Countdown To Chocolate Feast -7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871681 Pro & Con of being single - watch movie <BR> <BR> Pro: I can select whatever movie that I want to watch, whatever time slot and I can eat whole bucket of popcorn without worrying the others don't wash their hands, hehe. And I don't get irritated when my movie buddies keep using their phones when watching or leave before end of the movie (yeah, I had experienced both, so distracting because I know the person. I don't mind strangers with their phones because I most probably will not watch othe... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 08:37:13 EST Feb 7: I'm A Vampire? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871096 LOL ok, that was just a joke. But something with my tendency to avoid glare from sunlight, be more active as the day turn to night and how I always slightly anemic, I fancy myself as having part of vampire bloodline, haha. <BR> <BR> Though, I usually cringe at sight and smell of blood, so there goes my theory flies away, hehe. Sat, 7 Feb 2015 08:27:24 EST Feb 6: How I Try Making Study More Interesting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870539 I usually hate studying unless it involves maths - love doing calculation so I love subjects Maths, Accounts and Physics, hehe. So, now I'm in a study program in my company and there are lots and lots of reading AND it's more self-study instead of formal classes (I'm quite good at absorbing what teachers taught in class, something about freakishly class concentration?). So, after several failed attempt to not fall asleep every time I read (LOL), I found a technique that works well for me. <BR... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 08:43:49 EST Feb 5: A Sacred Agreement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869840 Today, after my trip to a land rig as part of the three days of a course, I was called by both learning coordinator to drop by to see them (they were having a meeting when they saw me passed by). And I was like a deer with headlights, felt trapped, haha. <BR> <BR> First, they asked me about the trip and I said it was better than last time as I had the opportunity to visit more places on the site and saw actual activities happened so close. Then they asked me about my study, similar with the ... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 06:53:11 EST A New Boost Of Study Energy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869220 Today, I spoke with our department learning coordinator about my study progress. I admitted to him that I hate failing, I don't want my failure will cause problem with my work. So, yeah, I know all are excuses of not studying continuously but after failing another exam (and retake twice and failed twice!), I felt dishearthened to pursue this study. <BR> <BR> Well, as we were being direct with each other, the coordinator said that if I don't try, I will never know if I will fail. He and the o... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 08:48:27 EST Feb 3: I'm An Awkward Social Girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868515 Sometimes, I wonder if I'm a hardcore Introvert. Being around people, including my family, makes me feel so drained, it's like whatever energy and happiness that I have are leached out by people. I think I'm pretty good with chatting with people but most of the time, I laugh when most people (or none) don't, I just babble nonsense to try fill up silence, I'm very bad at asking people out (whether with friends or people who I'm attracted to) and most of time, I feel like an unwanted person in ... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 09:38:39 EST Feb 2: Who Knows Commercial Exercise Can Be So Sweaty! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867767 Today, my plan was to do as many Kettlebell Swings as I can during commercial breaks. I got three breaks and I push probably harder than when I used timer! In about 10-min, I got 420x swings, yay! Nice burn feeling at my legs, abs and arms :D Tonight will be really good sleep, very relaxing because of the commercial breaks swings but I do hope I will not dream of exercising - that will be tiring, restless night! Mon, 2 Feb 2015 10:01:48 EST Feb 1: New Month But I Kinda Hate February LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867051 Uhuh, it's February. It's a nice month, like other months, but there will be lots and lots of lovey dovey air - advert, tv series, special show, promotions at malls, etc etc. I love romance but because I'm single, I feel like I'm this weird one in February, haha. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, the best part about Valentine season - lots and lots of special-edition chocolate! Romance movies (looking forward to rom-com, not those sad-ending romance, hehe). Sun, 1 Feb 2015 10:12:14 EST Jan 27: Football Shoes. Smoothies. Pizza? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863602 The first two, I felt so proud of myself, like good rewards or something healthy to end the day :D But I mix in 3 slices of pizza and one piece of cinnamon twisted roll, both from Pizza Hut. Well, I have lost my appetite for more than seven days and today, I felt so ravenous and pizza from Pizza Hut is the first thing I dreamed, I craved, I salivated, haha. And baked goods with cinnamon is so irresistible! <BR> <BR> The football shoes (or in American, maybe soccer shoes?), they are the pair ... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 09:10:46 EST Jan 26: No Appetite More Than 7 Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862713 Since last week, my appetite is decreasing slowly. I enjoy food less and lesser. My taste buds feel not familiar to me. I don't feel like I want to eat. <BR> <BR> So, it's no surprise when today, my tummy felt weird, like grumpy and complaining. I had diarrhea first then constipation. And to rewind back days before, weekend I felt so weak and didn't want to eat, just want to sleep and read. So, I did checkup with a doctor (so embarrassing when the doctor who was a guy, poke on my bare tummy ... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 06:46:56 EST Jan 25: Happy Birthday, Niece! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862002 It's birthday of one of my nieces :D <BR> <BR> I wish I can be there in person to wish her happy birthday or send a birthday present. But I'm not really good with picking birthday present, haha. When I was in primary school, I always gave novels to my friends and when I was in secondary school, I gave frame pictures. And the few people I gave birthday present at work, I gave dark chocolate. <BR> <BR> So, in short, I've no idea what to give people birthday present LOL Sun, 25 Jan 2015 06:50:48 EST Jan 24: Hook Up With A Book http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861454 The first thing I did when I woke up was pull the curtain, let the sunshine through my bedroom. I was so motivated to start my day with lots of things in my weekend chore list :D <BR> <BR> Then I saw the book I read before I slept last night and next thing I knew, I spend whole morning and most afternoon finishing the book! I did other things but everything except reading the story was blurry activities. <BR> <BR> When I finished the book, I realized it was pointless to do anything else tha... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 08:58:58 EST