FAITH2BWELL's SparkPeople Blog FAITH2BWELL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Getting Better Well The good news is things are getting a little better, Not what I would like to see but it is better than it was, There is still a lot going on around me with family issues ect.. but I'm getting my focus back on me. The Month of Feb was a really trying month but I will not focus on the would've could've should've thinggy. Inspite of everything, and me eating so wrong, I did manage to loss a pound, Now someone may say that all? Yeap that's it, But that pound is one of 14 that I need to los... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 01:46:28 EST Really? I have to ask, I really need to vent, at the same time I keep telling myself who want to hear all of my drammer? really. So I try to think positive inspite of what going on around me. Although these thing effect my progress, I'm determind to get the focus that is much needed and move on. I know I can do this, I can and will do it. I hope for change real soon. tommorrow is another day. Mon, 10 Feb 2014 00:25:20 EST Feb is here now what? Ok it is another month. Jan didn't go as I would have like for it to. I'm thinking that I've started thinking like I did two years ago, I don't know why. I did set my mind to it and I went from 221.8 lbs down to where I am today @ 165.0. Ok it wasn't easy but I did it, I don't know why I'm finding myself with that same mindset. It is as though I'm struggling with doing what I already know to do. I just need to really stay focused on getting back in the direction that I need to and just go for... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 22:21:04 EST Woops <em>20</em> Ok I'm two days late starting one of my challenges. The intake of food has not gone well. I'm going to blame it on loosing the focus, ( I Think). Today is another day I'm hoping to get going. This can be done, and I'm going to do it. Fri, 3 Jan 2014 04:12:23 EST Preparing For The New Year... Ok I've been sitting at the computer off and on just about all day, Going over what I would like to change, challenge or just try to do for myself as the new year approches. Being my job is still the same and I can't plan my day like most, I have decided to just do what works for me. I'm the one that the saying doesn't apply to (one size fit all). It has been so hard trying to find the help that I need. However being apart of a team and having buddies does seem to keep me interested in what I... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 19:35:42 EST Me after some weight loss.. <img src=""> <BR> I'm on the left. Daughter and I This pass June at Six Flags In Atlanta Ga. Had a great time being able to keep up with everyone. Just want to keep it up. Wed, 11 Dec 2013 23:58:45 EST I'm Going To Do It... <BR> I'm sitting here thinking about a lot of things. One being the fact I have found myself with to many irons in the fire lol. I do have a lot going on right now. Not bad but it can be a bit much sometime. <BR> <BR> Over the course of the year I have lost 63lbs I was close to my goal of getting down to 150. Well at this time I thought things were going well enough to stop smoking. Which I have, but if you guess that I 'm gaining weight, you would be right. I think the thing that is both... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 23:51:42 EST Mixed Feeling? <BR> well I guess it could be called that. I have not blog for a little while, so I thought I would this morning. Just to say what I feel right now. I have came off the meds that contain sterriods. I was not happy with all of this weight that I manage to gain. It was not the taking of the pills it was the eating that followed. I can't believe where I am. but I'm not going to allow myself to stay in this place. I will have to take the time to plan out another soulation to get this weight off.... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 02:09:17 EST I've been somewhat slow... Ok I haven't been on for a while. And Im probley forgotten by now. This is usually how it is when I JOIN groups ect... It's not the groups tho, It's me and my timing. How I long for a normal life sometime. <BR> <BR> Nothing perfect. I know this. I'm still struggling these day. more now than before. I manage to lose 20 lbs. however in one month I gain them all back, Needless to say I was so unhappy about this and I somewhat just lost interest. <BR> <BR> During this time I looked at myself a... Wed, 23 May 2012 02:01:43 EST Hello To All My Fellow Sparkers... It's been a little while since I've been active. So much has happen and so many things going on. None of the less I've always been a fighter, and I always say this too shall past and it does. <BR> <BR> My weight loss efforts has been a joke. Yet again I have taken the time to look at everything and once again put things back into perspective. I'm now back on track, still a little busy, but I thought I would come here to say hello to all that see this blog. and to say that it is my hope that... Wed, 29 Feb 2012 22:25:57 EST The First Day Of The Year... Today started out really good, I'm ok with it. Been home for a while, Now it is time to go back to work. This is good too. However I wonder how I will do, yet I'm not stressing about it. <BR> <BR> I had to much stress the last month of last year, One of my goals is to bring those level back down. at the same time keeping focus on making healthier food choices including getting back to drinking that water like I should. I,m still much better from that strain in my back that caused problems f... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 23:37:16 EST Feeling Much Better <BR> wow I'm setting here browsning ect... Just thinking and thanking God for what he is doing for me.I'm feeling so much better after my last blog, and I'm looking forward to setting goals for myself. I've decided that 2012 is going to be a great year for me. With that said here's to all that may read this. <BR> <BR> <BR> Happy New Year. Fri, 30 Dec 2011 01:23:59 EST Just When You Think All Is GOING WELL....... <BR> well all was going well. My last blog was about the event I spear headed for my mom, Things where going good at time then bad at other time. <BR> <BR> The day of the event. Just sent me into a mode I don't think I've ever been in. There would be time I would just forget what I was suppose to be doing. so much so that it was beggining to scare me. <BR> <BR> My family used to have a gospel singing group. and we were one of the special presentation for the evening. Well I had helped wit... Wed, 28 Dec 2011 00:13:49 EST Tell Me Why... I have been hung up here for the past couple of weeks. I have been through some really missed up situations. My stress levels just sored. and I have not felt this bad in a very long time. With this said, It has left me wondering why is it that I allow such things to stop my progress? I mean I've worked hard to get where I am , But it seems I'm never ready for the extra drummer that come up. Although I'm putting things in perspective. The damage is already done. I have an event coming up this ... Wed, 21 Dec 2011 05:06:25 EST Oh No I went to far.... For sure this is the case. I was invited to two events back to back, This is not the norm for me I happen to be home to attend. Well on Thanksgiving day Hubby and I had lunch with his sister and family. Oh did she have it ladi out. Yeap my eyes were bigger than my stomach but I just felt I wanted what I saw. <BR> <BR> The next night we were invited to my hubby aunt (80th) birthday party. Again they had a full meal with that( wow) cake which was just off the chain. I eat again. I guess what ... Sat, 26 Nov 2011 00:57:43 EST One Year Being Here... Oh my how time pass. I just realize I've been a sparker for one year, This tell me, I must enjoy being here, I've been blessed meeting and sharing with others. Here's to another year. <BR> <em>509</em> Fri, 18 Nov 2011 22:26:41 EST A Sunday Evening And I'm stopped for the evening. I'm in Riverside, Ca it is nice weather out here, But I'm so ready to go home, Enought of this road already. I'm being watchful of my eating, I just wish I could come on with the walking, Seems I have it on my mind but getting to point B from A just knocks me off. But I will hang in there, It's got to get better. Here's to hoping all is well with everyone. Sun, 13 Nov 2011 20:37:32 EST My oh my. It's all good... Ok I'm not that active when it comes to writing blogs. However I thought I would tonight. Now I commented on someones blog recently. and they were talking about hating to be in those platues,Well my response was the same. I went on to say I had been stuck for about 3 weeks. While we expect to take the numbers down, I took mine up. I said to myself well we broke the platue. <BR> <BR> I said that to say this. I'm like a lot of sparker here. I fall sometimes on this journey, but I get back up a... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 21:08:52 EST I've Got Awsome Sparker Friends.... Just thought I would say this today. I had a safe travel to and from San Antonio. As you can imagine, it was a sad time for the family. But I knew you guys had done what you said you would do. because I got through the day really well. I pray now for you that you be successful in reaching whatever goals that you have set for yourself. May God bless all of you. <BR> <em>247</em> Sun, 9 Oct 2011 20:55:15 EST Can you say a little prayer for us? I'm needing prayer at this time. I try to think of myself as a woman of strength, Yet there are time when I tend to wonder where it went. For those who don't know, back in 2004 I lost my grandson (6yrs old) to murder. and it has been a long road keeping things in perspective. <BR> <BR> I'm back at the house now, because I recieved a call that my Uncle lost his son to murder, this news open my wound again. The last few days I've found myself eating things I should not be. It's like I'm tring ... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 17:58:11 EST Thanking All Of You For.... Well hello to all of my fellow sparker friends. Let me just take this time to say thank you so much for thinking about me and for the great wishes that you gave me. With my job I sometime seem to get pushed on the back burner. But you guys have made me feel sooooo good. words can not say what I felt when I came online and saw what you all had done. My heart was over joyed and tear of happieness came to my eyes. It was just awsome to read what you sent. My day went really well even though I ha... Mon, 3 Oct 2011 00:00:05 EST My Break Is Over <BR> well I've been home on vacation and then had some extra days I didn't ask for. I have used the time that I had to really focus on eating better, getting in exercise, getting my liquids in and meet my Sept. challenge. as a result I'm feeling much better about myself. Thanks to those of you that's been here for me. <BR> <BR> I'm not leaving, and I'm not quiting. I'm just getting ready to go back to work (smile) This is a whole other ball game, but I willl take my attitude with me and ho... Fri, 30 Sep 2011 01:07:38 EST My September Challenge A Success.. Earlier I got in on a challenge with one of my groups. I wanted to loose 5 lbs for this month. wow they are gone. and I will move on to holding them down. Let's see what Oct brings. Tue, 27 Sep 2011 01:13:27 EST Here's What's Up Ok, I haven't figured how to make use of the trackers for the food and exercise, becasue of my schealue, Meanign not being able to come daily, prehaps I could just write everything down in my journel then submit it. I don't know. However I do keep up with what goes into my mouth, weather it is food or liquids. so far this is working out. I guess if it is not broke don't try to fix it. Anyway I did challege myself with one of my groups and for this month my goal is to loose at least 5 lbs. I'... Wed, 7 Sep 2011 21:09:19 EST A very good day.. Yes it's been a very good day, because I told myself that it woud be. Well it is another day, since I'm probely the only one up right now, In that case I'm talking about Yesterday (Sunday). <BR> I got plenty of rest, Dranked my water, my food intake was right. NO ONE GOT ON MY NERVES... that made it a good day. Here's to better days ahead. Mon, 5 Sep 2011 03:46:33 EST I fail down but getting back up.... Yesterday I really blew it in one set. I did something that I know I should never do. That is. I allowed myself to go all day without eating. for whatever the reason. I should have taken the time to eat .By late evening I was so hungey I could have eaten a cow(LOL) I didn't eat the cow but atet thinsg that I have been staying away from.( Not that I couldn't have choosen differently) I didn't choose wisely. Ok it's another day and I'm up on my game. The day has started out very good. Let me... Thu, 1 Sep 2011 11:35:40 EST Drinking That Water It has been so hot lately, I guess when it get cold I will be saying , it's so cold, Well anyway I have found myself drinking more water than I ever had in a day, I started drinking water because I knew I need to, It was like I was focing myself to do so, But it seems that the more I chose water over soda and juice I find myself drinking more, Then I asked myself could it be just so hot and I really need this water? Eighter way it has been good to get it in. Thu, 25 Aug 2011 23:14:51 EST I Kicked The Buffet Butte Today (Yes) Ok I've already said my life is not the norm. It is a challenge doing those things I need to do and sticking with it. BUTTTTTT. I'm doing great. Today this buffet was larger than the last one. I went in with hubby I've been there twice before, I needed to see how I would do. <BR> <BR> I decided before hand I would not get sucked into the many choices of foods and desserts and salad fixing they had. So I asked for a to go plate. I looked silly setting at the table with it, but hey I didn't ca... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 23:11:30 EST Into MY 2th Week Man I've said that this thing wasn't easy but so far so good. For the first time ever I've been able to stick with something since starting, I feeling like a child with a new toy, My first challenge came today while on the road. I went in to a restrunt at the truck stop, Of course they had a buffet, (I go for that) but the new me said to herself, Self, self said what? I said we are not going to do busy as usual. so here's what I did. The waitress came with the menu, I orderd grilled liver, s... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 19:12:57 EST Still Holding On... It's been a while since I've blog, But I'm still holding on. I'm learning that there is so much to know about eating right, those things it take to get on the healthy side. I said one time in one of my blogs I refuse to stay on the yo yo ride, Yet I found myself doing just that.Again I stop and watched what I was doing.Today I'm really trying to do what I should have been doing all alone. I'm not saying it's all easy or anything like that, but I'm feeling really good about my choices. I'm now... Sun, 7 Aug 2011 15:18:34 EST Doctor's Visit Today I've been having to go to the Dr because for the first time he end up saying I have Hight blood pressure, But today it is normal, I believe it is because I'm watching my stress level. I really try to stay calm, and think on pleasant things. I actually recieved a good report, I just about loss the weight that I had gain. I'm being more watchful of what I eat exspecially when I'm working. I haven't gotten the exercise going, I'm thinking I will get some in while i'm here. maybe I will be able t... Fri, 15 Jul 2011 15:39:28 EST Starting Over Again I'm setting here thinking, a quiter never win, So I thought I must get back up and get into the game. I've came off of my vacation, I didn't do as bad as I thought, yet I didn't do good, but that is behind me, The last two days have been nice. So with that said, I will get my focus on, I hope all is well with you my fellow sparker. <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> Tue, 28 Jun 2011 19:08:39 EST What Da? Well her's my update, I'm very sad to say I'm not doing good at all, That is the bad news, Bad because, I can not find anyone that's in the same boat I'm in, Meaning, I'm a ODR druck driver, I don't have a what you say normal life, as most women my age does. It's just hard to do/stay with goals that I set for myself. Thus I'm much prone to fall back to where I begain,Lord forbid that I start this YO YO thinggy again. <BR> <BR> I have and try to read others post and they do help reading, I kn... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 16:24:09 EST Feeling Good Right Now... Well I don't write a lot of blogs. I just enjoy reading others, But I thought I would say something today. I've been doing really good on the exercises that I can do, I'm still stuck in this platue, Usually this is the time that I would just give up. But for some reason I have it stuck in my mind that, I will break this thing. <BR> <BR> One good thing that has come out of it though is that I'm still two sizes down, so you know that gives me something to feel good about. I stated back on my ... Sun, 10 Apr 2011 21:46:49 EST Shouldn't I be progressing? You would think.... Well I thought I would ask this question in hope that I get some feedback on this one, I have two things going on in my head right now. <BR> <BR> 1. I've been stuck on this platue for to long now, and the thing is, I've been trying to do different things to try and break it. Nothing is working (wow). I've never tried to eat fruit and veggie only, I'm thinking maybe this might help. Then the exercise, I 'm still in theropy and I'm told to walk but only what my body lets me. so this is not... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 23:56:18 EST I do wonder... I'm like many that are still struggling with one thing or another, For me I seem to be just really stuck. I lost down to 190 then gain 5 back every since then (January) I can't seem to loose them. I know I have the issue with my back and all so the exercise that I get are not very challenging. I 'm watchful of what I'm eating. but what I can see happening is on those days that I go over suggested calories intake, which is not everyday, just seem like eating something?(not really sure which fo... Sat, 5 Mar 2011 04:14:26 EST Colonoscopy Results Wow this wasn't so bad, The only thing that got me was the fact that the doctor was running behind, I had to be there for 1;20pm and I was still setting in the waiting room an hour later. You talking about hungery seem like anything that would come to my mind would have been just delightful. I kept looking at tht venting machine, Knowing I couldn' t have anything, It was just killing me, Then they called my name to go back in the room for perparation. look like I was laying there for a very l... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 23:09:42 EST Colonoscopy-OMG Ok I haven't blogged in a while, not that I'm not having my share of drammer, but I'm still raising above the little setbacks and what not. As I set here, I'm getting ready to go in tommorrow for a colonoscopy. So any one that ever had to go through having to drink that Trilyte, knows that I'm not having any fun over here. I was not able to eat any food today and I thought wow, how am I going to make it through the day. I made it through, and I thought why is it so hard for me to drink water ... Sun, 27 Feb 2011 23:47:15 EST When it rain it pours I'm not complaining per say about my life because things could be much worse. However just when it seem that I've gotten this thing down(making right choices) something comes alone and well, slow me down or shall I say hinder my progress. I was in a accident a few months back. I did hurt my back, but I was told that it wasn't broken or fractured, it may have been just sprung or maybe a pulled muscle. <BR> <BR> Now here I'm today, under a doctor who is saying no lifting over 10lb, no standin... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 02:30:39 EST I refuse to give up It is another year, a new day, lot of decissions to make, life goes on. I refuse to give up on getting healthy and breaking old habits. The struggle is, this body wants to get back in it's comfort zone and I don't want it to. Yes I fail here and there and I make no excurses for it. I've been down this path to many time to know that if I allow myself to do so I will give up. I'm getting my mind back focused and being thankful at the same time, I haven't lost any weight and I haven't gain any e... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 20:00:04 EST My first blog for the year <em>41</em> <BR> well this is what's on my mind. I'm sitting here in the hospial with hubby, Thanking God for what he has already done . I thought about where I was in 2010. I thought about some of the blogs that I had read,( the success stories ect..) I concluded that it is a great thing that this site is not base on how much you lose, who lost the most, or how fast it was lost. I say this because I'm sure there are some out there who have thoguht, How is that some can lose faster that ot... Wed, 5 Jan 2011 22:15:35 EST Was it a sugar rush? Well I thought I would just talk about this one, On the morning of Christmas, I recived a call, I was invited to spend some time with my sister and her family. Of course I went because I hadn't planned on doing anything else. <BR> <BR> I got up had a bit for breakfast, I felt pretty good , so much so I decided to do my 45min workout. Now I'm at the point to were I felt like puting the clothes I had washed the day before away, and get this, I did some ironing. That would be my exercise for th... Mon, 27 Dec 2010 02:44:51 EST Twas the night before christmas Indeed this is the case , nothing stirring around here but hubby and I. But it is ok, I think this is one of the few time I wished I was working, (well a little). Yesterday I didn't make really good choices, but I count this as part of my journey. I noticed my scale went back up, but when I look back at it, It was because I wasn't tracking what went into my mouth. Lesson learned here? I need to keep tracking this does help, I'm now back on track with everything, Right now as I type this, I'm ... Fri, 24 Dec 2010 22:10:30 EST Pre christmas party? Ok I will say pre-christmas party as it was something like that. This past saturday I had the honors of hosting the family gathering at my home. I knew the chances for beign home for christmas would be slim to non, so we had it early. <BR> While plans had been made to come together as we all ways do, we pulled names for gifts as there are so many of us, and we know that money is tight ect... But then 5 days before all of this was to happen. I recieved news that my niece home had burned to th... Wed, 22 Dec 2010 01:02:28 EST Picture This Today this blog is about the photos that I have placed here. To begin I thought I would tell you a little about why I chose them. <BR> <BR> (1) The photo with the group was the beginning of really seeing myself where I really was, I attended my sons wedding, I was looking forward to it, I though.t" I won't take anything", I'll find me something when I get there, It was a long drive from Texas to Idoho, So when I got there. Seem there were so much to do and the time just flew. Well I went sho... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 00:51:22 EST My First Entry Well I have been here with SP for a few weeks now and finding it to be just what I need, This will be the first blog I've done, I have so much that I can say, However I'll just start here. Thinking back on my life, I was never a skinny person nor did I have a weight problem, Sure after my kids were born this put extra weight on me, But I was always able to get it off. <BR> <BR> They say that when you get older we start toslow down ect.... and I can see how all of this fit. As for me, It is ... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 02:25:51 EST