FAIRYANNE3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FAIRYANNE3 FAIRYANNE3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Our Journey has ended with our daughter Nicole. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653610 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1983959815.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Jan 16th 1977 TO March 1st 2014 Nicole was 37 years old. <BR> <BR> Nicole passed away on March 1st. We were able to comply with her wish of dying in her own home. She was surrounded by people who cared for her and loved her. <BR> <BR> Even though she was terminal, her end of time was a great surprise. I would not wish her a second longer on this planet. The cancer had invaded her stomach so eating and even ... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 00:13:31 EST Update on Nicole. Not good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619571 Sorry that it has been awhile since you have heard from me. Things have progress very fast with Nicole in the last weeks, I am afraid that it is all bad news. <BR> <BR> Nicole had a few days in the hospital because we could not get her pain level under control and she was feeling really ill. After some tests etc. They found the cancer has progressed to her stomach. It is very hard for her to eat and drink. <BR> <BR> Nicole is in her home with the boys and with some major drugs she is com... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 15:58:19 EST Up Date On Daughter! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570220 Let me first wish anyone reading this, Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year!!! <BR> <BR> My husband and I have been very busy. With the illness of our daughter she has become a priority. We try and make sure one of us, if not both of us, are with her on all her doctor's appointments and any treatments that she is having. Nicole has been off of chemo since May but since the end of August has been unwell. October she began going to clinic for IV fluids and medications three times a week. ... Mon, 23 Dec 2013 01:34:21 EST Back and making it about ME!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477244 Over the last few weeks I have been thinking about getting back to Spark and back on the healthy eating! <BR> <BR> Well I am back and ready to drop more weight. I should say that in the way of success, I have kept my lost weight off so I have learned maintenance!!! The 50+ pounds I lost has stayed GONE!!! <BR> <BR> Our daughter is doing great. The cancer tumors have stayed the same size. She is off chemo for the moment, she needed a break. Chemo was killing her faster than the cancer!!! An... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 22:35:17 EST Great News. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303530 Our daughter just had a scan and there is improvement. It would appear that the cancer cells have shrunk. Again this is not a cure just a way to give her more time. We are so happy but we also know that we are at the top of a roller coaster ride! <BR> <BR> Doctor is again making adjustment to her medications so she has quality of life in between chemo treatments. <BR> <BR> Thu, 28 Mar 2013 17:32:29 EST 2nd Chemo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276211 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1449944608.jpg">Our daughter at the chemo center with her lovely shawl. <BR> <BR> She did her 2nd chemo treatment today, her sister stayed with her this time. As I mentioned in my last blog she shaved her hair but she is now loosing her eye brows. Her coloring of her skin has a yellow, greenish, gray shade. My other daughter said she now looks sick to other people. I guess she was trying to hide it from people but now there is no hiding. <... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 16:25:50 EST March 3rd Really!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271123 Well here is where things stand for now. <BR> My husband and I are still in Boston, we have a big trip home planned for next week. We have a list of all the things we want to pack in the van so that we can be out of here for the end of May at the latest. If we can get home before this that would be even better. <BR> Because of my medical needs I feel a bit apprehensive with the change of doctors etc. I am one of those people who have to like their doctors and feel comfortable with them. Goin... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 13:07:05 EST Feb 20th 2013. Update. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256930 Here is the latest on Nicole she is holding her own. She has had her first chemo treatment, they are planned for every 21 days. She did not do so bad. Nic said that she had a feeling a bit like being pregnant. Just a low grade nauseous feeling on the second evening. This has lasted about a week, but she was greatly affected by food smells. She had one 24 hr period of "up chuck" but so far so good. The one thing that has happened is that she has pneumonia. Doctor's have an eye on her, she is h... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 01:02:22 EST Two Girls Facing Cancer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224995 Well I had to take a few days off and have been licking my wounds. But I realized I need to get back on track and "do my program" no matter what else was going on. <BR> <BR> On Sunday, one of my daughters friends past away. They have been friends since the kids were about 10. They were best buds! We knew Miss M. was ill, she had colon cancer and she also is/was 36. It was a horrible slap not only for my daughter but for me too. Both girls dealing with cancer, so even in illness they were clo... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 23:03:55 EST My Daughter's Results Are In. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220982 Well Nicole was at the doctor's today, Wednesday 23rd Jan 2013, so this is the news. <BR> <BR> Nicole is very ill. No more surgeries, the cancer has gone to far. They are going to try Chemo, they are doing a resistance test to see if the pills or the IV chemo is better for her. She will start, which ever one is the right one for her, Feb 6th. It may buy her some time we hope a year may be 18 months. If she does nothing, the doctor's time line is 6 months. <BR> <BR> As my husband and I take... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 00:13:41 EST Daughter Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209074 First I would like to say Nicole has her 36th birthday on Wednesday Jan 16th. <BR> <BR> Nicole had her biopsy surgery yesterday ( Monday.) The original cancer was on the right lung. The lobe above the removed one, is now cancerous. ( We knew this.) They also see cancer on her left lung. (New) <BR> <BR> The surgeon took biopsies from the lymph nodes on left hand side to check them. (New) The lymph nodes on the right side were also biopsied. This was the original surgery. <BR> <BR> Even th... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 21:27:50 EST The day I almost ate a donut! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196247 I had been following a healthy life style for a few weeks when this happened. <BR> <BR> I was at my daughter's home over the holidays. My daughter and I are trying to be more healthy and had worked on the holiday menu to have only healthy stuff. Unfortunately a guest at her home "had not got the memo". She had bought a very large box of Tim Horton's donuts. (I have a wicked sweet tooth.) I eyed the box for hours and finally I was going to have one. I worked out the calories and what I would... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 02:28:55 EST My husbands company party. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192548 On Friday night (Jan 4th) my husband's company did there Christmas party. (So much cheaper after Christmas. Its a small company only about 30 people so with all the spouses etc. 60 people.) <BR> <BR> Food wise they had some appetizers. Mostly crab, shrimp, tuna. (I'm allergic to shell fish so did not have any.) They had a pastry wrapped brie with a raspberry preserve. After trying a couple I could not taste the cheese, I gave up. I had one other which was a tomato mozzarella, nice but not w... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 03:07:58 EST Sort of an update on our daughter. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179136 I don't have much news, my daughter FINALLY got a biopsy date. Jan 11th 2013. Surgery is set for 8 am. <BR> <BR> Just a little vent...... <BR> I can't believe that it has taken so long to get a date for surgery. This poor girl has been sitting on pins and needles since she saw this guy. His excuse is they are in a slow part of the year and vacation time etc. Meanwhile this cancer is sitting in the lung. She was told by the oncologist that until they have the results of the biopsy he will not... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 19:33:25 EST Heart Broken! (Re: our daughter) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5167060 We received this news on our return from vacation on Wednesday Dec 12th 2012. <BR> <BR> Well it is official, the cancer is back. <BR> <BR> A little over 17 months ago our eldest daughter had an operation to remove the lower lobe of her lung due to cancer. Doctors said everything went well and she would recover. That did not happen, Nicole had a hard time and never bounced back to where she had been. She was never able to return to work and she was always breathless, tired, and not right. <... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 06:47:11 EST Normal doctors appointment turns rough!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5150822 Well today was a normal doctors appointment and it turned rather rough. My numbers were horrible. My Ac1 is @ 9. I must start insulin. Tomorrow I go to a diabetes educator and learn how to do the shots. I have to say that this came as a surprise I have been holding my own for so many years and even earlier this year my Ac1 went down. Now it is through the roof! <BR> <BR> I have horrible kidney numbers, a enzyme that is liver related that is out of wack. I even have low blood pressure. I have... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 17:22:50 EST November 21st 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5142551 Today is rather a rough day. Our oldest daughter went though a bout of lung cancer just over a year ago. Nicole has never really been able to bounce back from it. Any way today she goes to her Oncologist (cancer doctor) there are 4 lymph nodes that are not showing as normal. One in particular is growing! The Pet Scan next week will show us what we are dealing with. <BR> <BR> Nicole is a mum of three boys, 18, 14, 9. Her marriage has ended and he is so wrapped up in his self that there is no ... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 12:21:18 EST As I turn my back on 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4644541 I am looking forward to the start of a new year. I have high hopes for 2012. I am planning on losing another 50 pounds at least. I have a plan and I plan to succeed. <BR> <BR> This was our year in reflection and things that will go with me and my family into 2012. <BR> <BR> I count my blessings regarding my daughter and her round with cancer. So far she is clear and we hope that will continue. <BR> <BR> The rest of the family is healthy and I hope that this will also continue. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 30 Dec 2011 09:00:17 EST A matriarch is passing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4551208 I met this lady in 1975, she is a Aunt on my husbands side of the family. I was a very shy 19 year old out of my depth meeting his family for the first time. You see my husband is from South America of India descent. Me, I am just a plain old blond and blue eyed white girl. That gracious lady never blinked a eye and I was a member of the family from that second forward. <BR> <BR> Aunty Kaye is a devout Hindu. She lived a very modest life, so kind and sweet and truly a gentle woman. <BR> <B... Mon, 24 Oct 2011 17:03:24 EST Life is better. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4551163 My daughter is doing OK. She had her lower right lobe of her lung removed. The operation was longer than expected and I freaked out in the family waiting room after the op had lasted 2 hours longer than we had been told. Silly really, but I think it is when all the feelings of being out of control and tension of the last few weeks hit me. <BR> <BR> Her recovery is slow and I am worried than she should be doing better than she is. My daughter is doing some rehab stuff to improve her lung cap... Mon, 24 Oct 2011 16:28:34 EST 2nd installment of "Events that can knock you off your feet"!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4318710 2nd Part. <BR> My daughter called me with the results of the biospy. It was positive, she has lung cancer. She is 34 years old single parent with three boys. 17,13 and a will be 8 year old in December. <BR> <BR> I am floored, I just can't see what the future holds for any of us right now. <BR> I am terrified that my daughter will not make it. <BR> I am terrified that I may become the main care giver to her for what ever life she may have left. <BR> I am terrified that my husband and I wi... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 20:33:01 EST Events that can knock you off your feet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4294758 How is it when you think things in life are going along nicely and then along comes an "event" that threatens our "healthy life style". <BR> <BR> I have a very strange/estranged relationship with my oldest daughter who is 34 years old. I can't explain the details of the history but lets just say that she has a huge hate on for me! Today I received a Face Book message from her saying "that she has a mass on her lung and has to have a lung biopsy done this week." <BR> <BR> Please note all th... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 00:56:57 EST Trying to refocus on my healthy life style. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4096424 A fellow Spark person called ***Lisa*** wrote a posting that brought this blog about. <BR> <BR> She spoke about family members that did not take the healthy life style path. Not taking medications as they should for a medical condition. Eating foods that they knew darn well are not healthy. Not exercising etc. <BR> <BR> Oh boy was this timely for me because just last night I had written in my dairy/journal that I was not doing well and I needed to refocus. I have just had a 3lb gain. <BR> ... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 15:20:15 EST Doing Better, sort of! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4088445 Food is still off and I know that I am on a gain this week. <BR> <BR> Getting my head around the death of my cousin is very difficult. He was more like a brother to me. Keith died of an abdominal aortic aneurysm. His death was very sudden. <BR> <BR> I know I have to get back on the healthy life style again, I thought I would be good for tomorrow but my heart is just not in it. To do this healthy life style you need energy and I am sorry but I feel empty. To add the icing on the cake my hus... Sun, 13 Mar 2011 15:13:22 EST Slipping. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4077387 What I know for sure the calorie intake is up and I am maintaining and not dropping. The grasp I had on weight loss is slipping and I don't want to gain back the 40lbs I have lost. I have cut my calories to have a loss next week. <BR> ****************************************<BR>**************************************<BR>************************************ <BR> <BR> Regrets, I have a few, but I'll add this to the list! <BR> <BR> I had some sad news: The death of my cousin back in England an... Tue, 8 Mar 2011 21:41:32 EST The 2 me's! (not a weight issue) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3960926 OK I am laughing as I type this because I wrote this blog a moment ago and I made a mistake and it did not post. I am at home. (This statement will make sense in a moment.) <BR> <BR> No wonder I weigh so much, there really are two people living in this one body! <BR> <BR> At work I am competent, polished, professional business person. I have been told this by many people. In many jobs over the years. <BR> <BR> At home I am a SLOB! I have the kitchen sink full of dishes. I am up to my ... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 21:22:30 EST Visit to the kidney doctor. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3855808 Well just got back from the kidney doctor and because of the bout of kidney stones that I had earlier this year, I have been given guide lines to follow. <BR> <BR> I have a list of foods that I should steer clear off. <BR> <BR> Restrict my caffeine intake. If I choose to have a coffee etc. it has to be small and drink an additional 10 ozs of water to compensate. <BR> <BR> Drink 3-4 liters of water per day. <BR> <BR> I have to return to the doctor in six months. I will have to do a 24 ho... Tue, 21 Dec 2010 12:26:02 EST 40lbs gone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3828477 It is amazing to see the four and zero numbers together. I would like to have lost 50 this year but you know what. If I go diet crazy I will not stick to it. This I have learned about my self, so finding a healthy life style is for me. I am like the little engine that could. Slow and steady up the hill............works for me! <BR> <BR> It has been a long year. I guess I am a slow learner. I have been doing better on my food planning. I need to improve on doing my exercises regularly. I woul... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 20:23:47 EST This is what I know! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3711913 <BR> I have now lost 34 pounds. I know a lot of people don't even see that loss yet because I am so large. This is what I have learned and has made this round of weight loss different.......... <BR> <BR> 1) I know that there IS no magic pill, weight loss is hard work. So put on your big girl panties and just do it! (gentlemen sorry but you can pull up your boxers!) <BR> <BR> <BR> 2) You have to put in the time to exercise and choose good foods, plan your meals and snacks. <BR> <BR> 3) If... Wed, 13 Oct 2010 02:05:00 EST Please don't collect me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3524259 I don't want to upset any one but I need to get this off my chest. <BR> <BR> I got a Spark email saying that a person had made me their friend. When I went to check who it was because I was clueless of this persons identity, I found I had been "collected". This person had 893 friends!!!! <BR> <BR> I don't want to be part of someone's collection. I wish there were a way to decline a friend request. This way it would be an agreement on both parties. <BR> <BR> Now I just feel dirty, I'm out i... Wed, 11 Aug 2010 04:58:10 EST Disappointed. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3422206 Last week Thursday I was to begin a 12 week course. Weight loss and nutrition. Two hours before I was to go to my first class, I got a call and my health insurance won't cover the weight loss part of it. The nutrition education would be fine but anything to do with weight loss or management was a no no! <BR> <BR> We really have lost all common sense when a heart patient with diabetes that has high sugars and a BMI of 52 can't get cleared for a program like this, that is run at a hospital. <... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 01:47:00 EST Healthy Take Out Food......Wendy's salad (NOT) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3386066 Yesterday I was feeling pretty good about myself. I weighed in on a team challenge --- down two pounds. I was picking up lunch to take to my daughters house and we had agreed on Chinese food. On the drive over I am doing the self chat...."why am I going to blow the weight loss with food that I know is not "healthy" think about a better choice, no I deserve a reward," (you all know that line) anyway the "good" wins out and I call my daughter and I told her that I was going to grab a salad, wo... Wed, 30 Jun 2010 12:48:45 EST Out in the open! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3333253 I'm wondering if anyone else is like this or is it just me? <BR> <BR> I have a hard time talking about my weight. I can be shy in other situations but this topic is so hard for me. (Spark has helped me a lot on this.) It's like the elephant in the room that no one talks about. My family never says much about my weight. My husband gets angry before anything else. I think it is because he is afraid I am going to die younger than I should and die before him. I know that is a big thing for him, ... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 13:29:36 EST 299.1 Does that count as under 300! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2967181 I went to the doctor and I am 299.1 <BR> So I am under 300......... <BR> I am proud of myself and I plan to continue but it is such a small edge that a deep breath could put me back in the three hundreds. LOL Sat, 6 Mar 2010 21:37:28 EST Remember This!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=825774 I found this on one of the Spark pages <BR> <BR> * Give yourself enough time to eat—at least 20-30 minutes just to eat the meal. <BR> <BR> * Don’t eat amidst distractions, like the TV, computer, or while driving. (This I need to learn.) <BR> <BR> * Be fully present while you eat. Notice the smell, temperature, texture, color, and subtle flavor differences of each food you consume. (This I need to learn.) <BR> <BR> * Take smaller portions, taking a break before ref... 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