FADEDONE's SparkPeople Blog

Creating a new account

Mon, 6 Dec 2010 10:59:05 EST

I think i've decided to create a new account + ditch this one since I feel like thinking about my previous successes is putting me in a rut. I feel like I can give up + stop here + that's just not ok.

Anyway, will go through + add some people + try to leave a link to my new one here in case others want to find me. Details to come. :)

1st week - check-in :)

Thu, 7 Oct 2010 15:10:39 EST

Wow, so it's been a week. Spiffy.

For a first week, I really haven't done half bad. On Friday I got up, weighed in, took measurements + ate a healthy breakfast. Went for a long 4 mile walk that afternoon. Not too shabby! Oh + the weigh-in was a happy one. I was expecting to weigh around 215 on October 1st but I came in at 212.8. Wow. So i'd lost like 3 lbs with my pre-start healthy foods. YAY!!

Anyway, while I haven't worked out every off-work day like i'd...

October 1st - D- DAY!!!

Thu, 30 Sep 2010 21:27:23 EST

So i've been gearing up for starting this journey fresh. Updated my Spark page, got back in touch with a few great people on here + committed myself to some final 2010 goals. Borrowed some health + diet books from the library + i've been psyching myself up for this.

Tomorrow is October first + gives me 3 months left to make something of 2010. I'm going to weigh myself, take my measurements + work out. Then i'm going to plan a game play for the next week.

GROUP...

Much needed update / Stuck

Mon, 17 May 2010 09:34:07 EST

Soo....i'm kind of not with the program anymore. It's been over a month since I logged food & my exercise has been entirely inconsistent. I've a new job (librarian!) that qualifies as an amazing workout sometimes (shelving days are epic win) but I shouldn't just let that be my only workouts. I'm kind of at a loss how to move on from here. I'm terrified to gain back what i've lost. (I'm pretty sure i've gained 3-5lbs but hopefully I can reverse that.) Am debating joining weight watchers...

Press Play

Sun, 4 Apr 2010 15:03:11 EST

Greetings + Happy April! :)

I'm afraid i've been diet-afk in the last week. Wasn't really my fault....had something bizarrely wrong with my stomach that I couldn't seem to fix. Most of the time I didn't eat alot, so that helped, but I was generally unable to exercise. Boo! I did try too but I kept feeling like i'd throw up so eventually I submitted to my body + let it heals itself. Am not 100% yet, but the problems seem to be lessening. Hope so. I really don't know what was ...

I definitely still live. :)

Sun, 21 Mar 2010 10:37:43 EST

I was noticing that my last Spark entry, over a month ago, was about 'diet tragedy.' Figured that wasn't exactly the most encouraging legacy to leave her, so i'm fixing it. haha. About due for an update anyway. :)

I can't believe March is 2/3 over already. Wow. 2010 is going faster than I could ever have believed if I hadn't seen it. It's a little worrisome for dieting plans because I haven't made much progress this year. Maybe 7lbs? lol. Still, that was winter & now it's sp...

Diet Tragedy ftl

Sun, 7 Feb 2010 22:38:05 EST

Soooo....you know those 1500 calories I burned yesterday? Today I gained them back. :P I swear I tried to be good! Low-sugar oatmeal for breakfast, low fat 6" sub for lunch + dinner, ONLY 6 boneless buffalo wings + a tbsp of light ranch during the Superbowl.

So wherein did the Tragedy Lie?

DUN DUN DUN

I swear people, i'm really good when it comes to DQ but our branch just opened up agai...

The hardest 25.

Wed, 3 Feb 2010 13:05:20 EST

Since i've been more casual re: my sparking, etc lately I haven't blogged much. Thought i'd toss up a quick one to motivate myself. If I ever have a computer with a web cam I may try video blogging lol. But then i'd probably be like 'omg, my face is scary!!' and never post it. XD

ANYWAY, the title reflects my thoughts lately. I'm here at 225ish (i think i'm fluctuating within 2lbs) and while i'm trying to eat healthy 75% of the time, there are those days where it doesn't happe...

Update and mini rant :P

Tue, 26 Jan 2010 00:14:08 EST

So up until this last week, i'd been doing GREAT with my new refocusing. I was exercising every day of the week (partly due to the awesome strength training I get done while watching playoffs) and eating very healthily. WIN! However, since then my healthiness is taking a nose dive. The irony is that it's not even due to poor decisions or laziness. Boooo.

For the last week or so i've been RIDICULOUSLY hungry. I've not been starving myself and, as far as I know, i'm getting p...

Winter blues, progress and hope.

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 13:05:59 EST

Greetings & happy Friday. :)

So i'm sitting here pondering where to go from here. Ever since May graduation, my life has been in this deepening rut. Emo, but true lol. Admittedly it's more of a perspective rut than anything. I have a very hard time grasping onto a dream, a hope, a goal because I don't want to be disappointed. Without work to distract, I spend too much time thinking about past failures and my own insufficiencies. Weight loss was a dream I held onto...AM holdin...

Weight, self-confidence, and boys...

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 21:40:42 EST

So i've been pondering alot lately re: how self-esteem relates to the way people look vs how they FEEL about themselves. Admittedly my self-esteem is not the best in this period in my life, partly for physical reasons & partly due to the stresses + limitations in my life. So when I write this entry, I'm trying to work through stuff in my own head. Feel free to agree/disagree/comment on what I say.

I've been overweight all my life. Pre college I was also reasonably shy and ant...

Finally an Update

Wed, 9 Dec 2009 09:15:59 EST

Hey friends, sorry i've been so missing for the last several weeks. I ended up out of town longer than planned and, honestly, since being back i've had little motivation to exercise or count calories. That being said, I actually LOST a couple lbs over Thanksgiving, so yay! I find myself at 233 which isn't the worst number in the world...nearly 30lbs off. Sure it should be more, but i can accept it nonetheless.

I think that's where i'm at now focus-wise. I wish i'd done better a...

Met goals, VA "vacation" and the common cold.

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 12:50:02 EST

As of early Tuesday morn i'll be off to Virginia to visit the college I graduated from + the friends I (sadly) had to leave behind there. Very much looking forward to these next 2 weeks & to seeing people for the first time in months. :)

However there are a couple downsides - #1 i'll be sleeping on whatever floor or couch that's available...probably floors. So that should make things interesting. and #2 I just started catching a cold. -_-; Of all the terrible luck! Knew...

Strength Training -- need help!

Tue, 3 Nov 2009 22:50:21 EST

Ok, confession --- I haven't done strength exercise in a REALLY long time. Once in awhile i'll pick up the light dumbbells for one of my exercise videos, but overall...nada. I'm so ashamed. Yet, like so many other things, I'm not ashamed/motivated/whatever enough to actually DO it. Earlier this summer I would always always do the weights, etc while I watched tv. The summer sleeveless shirts were huge motivation. But now...

I could really use some suggestions for how to get...

Needing a bit of encouragement

Mon, 2 Nov 2009 10:36:28 EST

Just a quick entry to ramble and to ask for a bit of a pep talk, lol.

I'm starting to think i'm at another plateau and am quite disturbed. All I need to make myself happy is to lose 2-4lbs before the 17th and my trip. Yet the scale isn't budging. I know in part it's because my exercise has been cut back some. Still did nearly 4 hours last week but it was over span of 3 days due to running errands, etc. So this week I need to get that back in gear. Plus, though staying in rang...

Pain, bakesales and anime.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 22:39:52 EST

Before I digress waaaaay off into my random ways, IM UNDER 240! I'd felt like this moment would never come, so right now I feel kind of like a rockstar. XD I don't look much skinnier and right this moment I don't even feel healthier, but man does it feel good to drop to that next 10-lb tier. So yea, thanks to those who cheered for me! :)

So...pain. You would think that losing weight would make my body feel amazing right? I think it does, except the rest of my body is still con...

Hating our previous selves.

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 15:16:55 EST

When I lack motivation, I Spark-browse. I click on those ever-present 'motivator' pages and the chain link of inspiration begins. A blog entry here, a "before and after" pic there and, most of the time, pretty soon I'm all psyched to go exercise and eat a salad. Sure I feel kind of like a stalker browsing so many random Spark pages XD but it works! Plus i'm pretty sure everyone does this - so we can all be creepy together. haha.

Now I say "most of the time" because not ever...

Can't seem to get below 240...

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 14:57:02 EST

Decent day overall, but i've been pondering this diet stuff and i'm honestly at a bit of a loss. I've been floating within a pound of 242 (241..243..) for the last 3 weeks now and honestly i'm just getting fed up. Thought I had broken out of my rut but there's been 2 or 3 bad eating days lately due to family and stress-levels. In general and on most days I eat very healthily and regularly exercise...so it's not like i'm completely blowing this....just a few bad meals. But yea, seems like...

Food and family.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 22:29:48 EST

I'm sure we all have one of these entries -- "Help! My Mom/Dad/Grandma/pet hamster is being a bad influence on my diet. What do I do?" so it's time I write mine, lol.

Living with Dad is really good for my dieting habits. He's gone during the day most of the time, so I can exercise in peace. Then his daily diet is usually sandwiches, salads and low-fat soups. During summer he's an ice-cream fiend and a terrible influence in that way, but now that it's cool that's not really an...

Sports bra drama....dun dun DUN. (lol)

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 19:07:33 EST

First off, today is my 3 month anniversary on Spark people! And today the scale officially is going DOWN again. The first 2 weeks of October were total standstill even though I was eating ridiculously well + exercising soooo much. As i've said before, I think I simply wasn't eating enough. o.o whodathunk? So i'm relaxing my calories (just a bit....well..except for today lol) and hoping that helps. Also looking into this calorie cycling thing. Anyway, yay for 3 months on here + now O...

Cant seem to hit my calorie quota

Thu, 8 Oct 2009 01:03:01 EST

So....i'm having a VERY unexpected problem. I've mentioned that i've hit a mini plateau (10days now + no weight loss :/ ) so my goal was to jack up my calories a bit to see if I can convince my body to start losing again. Easy, right? Oddly enough, no! I cant seem to get up to the usual minimum 1200c let alone my intended 1350. And it's not like i'm starving myself....I eat full meals and snack healthily if needed. But the pattern of eating i'm in these days is simply VERY healthy. ...

Mini-update

Tue, 6 Oct 2009 19:53:16 EST

So, noticed a few weight-loss related things today that I thought i'd ramble/commentate/rant about. :P I mean, they give us unlimited blogging options right? It keeps me entertained. lol.

So...things not fitting right. The 20w jeans are, overall, alot more normal-comfortable than they have been. yay for that! On the downside...other clothing items fit bizarrely. A shirt I bought and never wore because it was too snug at the stomach.....definitely fit beautifully today EXCEP...

Loneliness = chocolate

Sat, 3 Oct 2009 20:19:53 EST

lol, i'm going to try my best not to whine in this entry. But i'm writing this b/c I thought maybe I could get some advice from folks who have better suggestions than chocolate. :P Ones that dont equal weight gain!

So yes -- the weather here in Ohio is really dreary right now and i've been stuck inside by myself. Mix that with me having no car to fix said traction. Mix that with me knowing NO ONE in this damn state except my parents. And then mix that with my Dad being out on...

Discouragement & HOPE

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 18:21:41 EST

First of all, a quote I found that I loved:

Be not afraid of going slowly; be afraid only of standing still.
- Chinese Proverb

I really like that ALOT because it is VERY true. When I look towards winter I know that my current success will just NOT happen. No I don't plan on giving up, but Ohio winters (especially when dad is laid off work in December/January/etc) are NOT motivational to health. My family had always hibernated a bit when the cold hit -- warm meal...

End of Sept. thoughts

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 19:37:22 EST

So, this weekend hasn't been the best. I've been sickish since Friday and it's been so irritating. Every once in awhile I get these epic stomach aches and aches/body weakness for absolutely NO reason. I'd understand if it was PMS or if I wasn't taking proper care of my body...but I am. o.o It's bizarre! Anyways, that's been a royal pain & I am REALLY looking forward to when I stop hurting so I can spend my day being productive rather than lying in bed. However, Dad DID talk me into a w...

Flail aerobics, biking, and the art of calorie counting.

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 12:19:44 EST

First of all, favourite quote of the week:

[Instructors like Denise Austin and Kathy Smith make a 40-minute work-out look like a well-rehearsed stage production of A Chorus Line. Me, I turn it into the Tasmanian Devil hunting Wabbit. Arms and legs flail willy-nilly. Elbows jar at rakish angles. Feet kick in random convulsions. Forest creatures flee in my wake.] www.cabbagesnkings.net/2009/06/aerob
ics-for-hopelessly-uncoordinated.html

LOL. love it. ...

Exactly 3 weeks

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 15:39:01 EST

Today I realized that it's exactly 3 weeks until my major goal date (Oct 11 - birthday lol) and wanted to write myself a bit of a check-in blog. The date being so close is a little sad and a little exciting. Sad because I know i'm not going to hit my original 25lb loss goal. I've lost 15lbs so far...so yea 3 weeks isnt going to give me 10lbs haha. I wish...but yea. Still, it's exciting that I HAVE made some progress. Currently I think I just want to get below 240 before then. That's a...

Throwing the scale out the window

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 13:57:03 EST

Just a quick mini-rant. :P

Does anyone else have trouble with their bathroom scale being consistently INconsistent? This morning when I stepped on the scale it read 248.4. I thought "Ok. Bit of water weight making me weigh more. Thats ok'" but I stepped on once again just to be sure....247.4. oooook. I tried the scale in my dad's room. 250.5 Huh?! This seems to be a frequent occurance. Both scales give me different numbers depending on when (and how) I step on them. ...

Fighting a battle of wills

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 23:13:25 EST

I should be in bed asleep so I can get up tomorrow and tackle the TONS of things I've been procrastinating. :P But yea....mini ramble before I sleep. (or more likely crawl in bed with LOST & then not be able to sleep for distraction haha!)

I find it both interesting & frustrating that losing weight is not about calories or exercise so much as it is a battle against one's own will. Eating healthy is, overall, really easy for me. Not because I dont love junk food....but because ...

New Strategy -- update! :D

Fri, 4 Sep 2009 20:21:20 EST

So about 2 1/2 weeks ago I posted an entry about how I wasn't seeing much weight loss. I decided to bump up my exercise + see if it helped. here's a link: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j
ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=2325686

So anyway, YES! it did help immensely. It's been hard to do 45 mins 4x/week but I usually manage the 45 at least 3 times...and sometimes I do make it. Sometimes I find myself going over. :) The effort has made a huge difference, imo. I'v...

New Attack Strategy

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 11:46:07 EST

So i've been at this almost exactly a month and while overall i've seen about 5lbs drop...that was in the first 2 weeks - water weight? I haven't seen anything since. irritating! However, I want to stick with this so I did a bit of research. I think I wasn't exercising enough - well I was doing 30+mins 3x week. But I read somewhere you should do an hr 5x week? o.o scary! Not sure my body or schedule can do that. However, i'll meet it half way. I'm bumping up my exercise to at le...

help! - junk food cravings!:O

Sun, 9 Aug 2009 23:23:47 EST

Just a mini vent about diet + food.

My younger brother was in town all of last week. Love the kid + miss him dearly these days. So yea, epic fun. However, my part-Italian blood associates family bonding with FOOD. So while he was here I kind of fell off the wagon. I did exercise (more than usual!) and tried to calorie count. Sadly the salts + sugars I normally would prevent myself having access to....yea...definitely ate them. I had a DONUT. Ohmyword..I haven't had a don...

Metabolism Boost

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 16:39:11 EST

Saw this elsewhere on the forums + figured I'd post it here for myself (and whoever else happens across it). Not sure how legit these are, but I figure it can't hurt, right?
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Here are 9 super-easy ways to boost metabolism from this weeks Women's World covergirl Tosca Reno.

1.Drink coffee-
The caffeine in two cups of coffee super-charges fat-burning during exercise by up to 31%.

2.Eat an early breakfast-
Every meal stimulates metabolism, so...

creates blog

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 16:52:18 EST

I'm a terrible person for doing this for the 25 sp, but haha oh well. I want them. I shall legitimately blog in the future. ^_^

EDIT -- ok, sticking some motivational facts on this to make it legit. Plus I didn't feel like creating a new entry so soon. haha.

1) Personal fitness trainer Kelli Calabrese MS, CSCS, ACE, notes that every pound of muscle in our bodies burns 35 calories a day, while each pound of fat burns just 2 calories per day.
Source - http://www....