FABLEMAKER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FABLEMAKER FABLEMAKER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I'm Not Addicted to Apples http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323750 I have struggled with my weight my entire life. The doctor who delivered me told my mom to put me on a diet the day I was born weighing 10 pounds 12 ounces and I have been on a diet ever since. The result of this life long diet is this- I am morbidly obese and obsessed with food. No matter how hard I try I cannot seem to stay on track. I crave sweets and soda and chips and crackers. I have told myself for years that I am a food addict, and that unlike most addictions I cannot simply stop beca... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 09:44:33 EST pregnancy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4190059 Tomorrow I will officially start my second trimester of my second pregnancy. I am so happy about this. We are expecting another little boy in October and there was a time when I really did not think that I would get to add a second child to my family. My weight was extreme, and I did not feel that I could survive a pregnancy- literally. I am still very overweight, but I am considerably smaller than I was when my son was born eight years ago. I am so looking forward to being a mom with more en... Mon, 25 Apr 2011 18:17:32 EST Proud of myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4091457 I have not been feeling well at all lately and exercise has become a real challenge. I just made myself go for a short walk. According to my pedometer I walked for 16 minutes and just under 2000 steps. It is not much but I am really proud of myself for accomplishing it today. I still do not feel great, but I have slightly more energy than I did 16 minutes ago and I am much happier with myself. Plus I can go home tonight and rest, knowing that not only did I eat well for the day, but I got at... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 18:22:11 EST weaving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4040788 I have completed two small weaving projects this month and I am very excited. <BR> Turns out I still really love to weave! I have my loom warped for a third project and I just need to translate the pattern that I am working with to written instructions that I can follow. <BR> My first project was a simple threaded in pattern- essentially just diamonds, but the second one I did was butterflies. I was really pleased with the way it turned out. The project that I am working on now is knotwork w... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 09:18:42 EST getting through winter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4001581 I find it much more difficult to work out in winter. <BR> I have managed a 15 minute walk today- Just a little bit outdoors and mostly in the corridors of the large hospital I work next door too. Tonight I plan to ride my exercise bike for 20 minutes. <BR> Part of my struggle is that I have been sick pretty much all winter with a cold, sinus infection, cold etc. It is really hard to get in any aerobic acativity when I cannot breath! <BR> <BR> I know that Spring is coming and the world will ... Tue, 8 Feb 2011 16:03:29 EST ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3899506 I gained two pounds this week. I am trying to not be upset about it- some fluctuation is natural right? But it is discouraging. I really want to loose 50 pounds this year and I am not off to a very good start. <BR> I still struggle with night time eating and with not getting enough fruits and veggies. It is hard to eat a lot of fruits and veggies since I had gastric bypass surgery- 4 and a half cups is HUGE, even spread out over the course of the day, and some of my favorites make me sick if... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 08:45:27 EST choosing reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3864277 I believe that we truly make our own reality. I believe that I am responsible for every component of my life and the problems I face are the ones that I have created. I am therefore choosing to redesign my outlook on life. Instead of worrying about how much weight I have to loose and how much debt I have and how many problems I face at work, I am going to focus on how much weight I have lost and how much better I feel as a result. There is a lot to go but I am on the right path and know that ... Mon, 27 Dec 2010 09:05:30 EST Winter Solstice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3855705 Today is the winter solstice and this is a very significant date in my life. First, today is my 13th wedding anniversary and I am happy to say I am more in love with my husband each day. He is my best friend and my strongest supporter. <BR> <BR> This is also the longest night of the year, and that always fills me with hope. The sun starts to get stronger after today, and there is a little more light to enjoy. I do not do new years resolutions but I cannot help but think of all I want to acc... Tue, 21 Dec 2010 11:35:05 EST Winter Solstice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3855704 Today is the winter solstice and this is a very significant date in my life. First, today is my 13th wedding anniversary and I am happy to say I am more in love with my husband each day. He is my best friend and my strongest supporter. <BR> <BR> This is also the longest night of the year, and that always fills me with hope. The sun starts to get stronger after today, and there is a little more light to enjoy. I do not do new years resolutions but I cannot help but think of all I want to acc... Tue, 21 Dec 2010 11:34:59 EST did not make my goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3801269 and I am sad about it. Instead of 40 pounds I set out to loose last July, I lost 21. I really wanted that 40 pounds. Still, 21 is slow but steady weight loss. It is hard to complain too much. If I can just keep loosing a pound a week I will be happy. I just need to remind myself that it is not about a particular date or time frame, it is about continuing to improve my health. Tue, 23 Nov 2010 08:50:45 EST cranky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3753424 I am not happy today. <BR> I ate horribly this weekend. Three days of really bad choices. I am really regretting that now. Plus my paycheck came and the company paid me less than half of what I was owed. Now I will have to spend the week fighting with them and who knows what the end result will be. I have decided to quit that job. The extra money has been nice but I am literally working from the time I get out of bed in the morning until the time I go to bed at night. I rarely have even 15 mi... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 08:53:56 EST another weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3747997 So I weighed myself again this morning and was 2 more pounds down from yesterday. I actually think that today's weight is more accurate because I had weighed myself over the weekend and was three pounds down at that point. So, I am counting the two extra times. I generally weigh myself about three times a week. I expect some fluctuation but Friday is the date that I normally count for my weekly weigh in. I just hope I am not fooling myself. <BR> My doctor put me on prescription vitamin D thr... Fri, 29 Oct 2010 09:22:41 EST week two assessment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3745729 2 more pounds down. This week was harder, even though I was allowing myself more calories. I know there are lots of strategies to avoid halloween candy, but I do not seem to be very good at employing them! Still, when I have been feeling pretty poorly, I will definitely take a 2 pound weight loss with gladness. <BR> Still feeling anxious today. My check did not come at all so I am even more worried about that. I have a million things to do tonight and half of them cost money so I really hope... Thu, 28 Oct 2010 08:43:11 EST anxiety http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3743694 I am feeling very anxious today. I recently went off some anti-anxiety medication and I am really struggling. My mood has been all over the place and consequently so have my eating habits. I am not sure how to correct this. The medication was nasty stuff and I will not go back on it. Plus my husband and I are thinking of having another baby and I would prefer not to be on any drugs during pregnancy. <BR> I am expecting a pay check from my second job today and the company has shorted my check ... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 10:40:47 EST hmmm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3730357 Well, the calorie restriction worked better than I could have imagined. I lost six pounds this week. Since I was only cutting about 700 calories a day I am a bit puzzled by this, but also (cautiously) happy. I think I will aim for 1600-1800 calories a day this week and if that goes well, I will just stick at that level for a while. I did not find 1500 to be that much of a challenge. The only thing I did was modify the amount of calories I drink (I love fancy coffee drinks!) and cut out my ev... Thu, 21 Oct 2010 09:21:09 EST stuck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3715483 I just cannot seem to lose any weight. I have not dropped an ounce in the last month. I think that starting tomorrow (It is too late for today) I am going to decrease my caloric intake to 1400-1600 calories. That is less than I should have according to all of the calculations that I have looked at but I am hoping to kick start my metabolism. I will reassess in a week.... Thu, 14 Oct 2010 15:57:12 EST I am proud of me today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3595856 Yesterday I made my caloric goals. I have really been struggling and so this morning I called my former health coach and set up an appointment for tomorrow. <BR> I am extremely lucky in that my employer offers free health coach services and if my coach refers me to any of the health and fitness classes that are offered at the university I get to attend for free. I am hoping to enroll tomorrow in a fitness course. I am really proud of me for being proactive and getting help. It is not somethi... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 09:44:48 EST Goal for Disney World http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3404693 I am going on a two week vacation in December to Disney World. I am crazy excited about this trip but I have a very definite weight loss goal that I would like to meet before I go. <BR> I am hoping that by posting this here and promising that I will post how close I get (I mean that I have met my goal!) in the week before Thanksgiving I will have added motivation. <BR> So here it is. <BR> I will lose 40 pounds by November 25th. <BR> Wish me luck! <BR> <BR> Tue, 6 Jul 2010 15:37:52 EST New Years resolution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2661088 I do not really believe in New Years resolutions. Waiting for an arbitrary date to start something new and good for you seems very much like putting off something that you are not really committed to so that you have an excuse not to start TODAY. <BR> That being said, I am very excited about 2010. I feel like this is going to be my year to start the rest of my life in the best way possible. I am 4 months out from my gastric bypass surgery. I have been doing pretty good with exercise but I th... Mon, 28 Dec 2009 10:06:42 EST midlife changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2292317 Today is my 35th birthday. That seems very strange to me. This morning my wonderful husband and son made me breakfast in bed- one egg, half a strip of bacon and a low carb banana muffin that I made with almond flour. It was incredibly sweet and they are trying very hard to be supportive. I am on an extremely restricted diet right now because on Monday I am having a gastric bypass. <BR> It has taken me a really long time to get to this point. For a long time I swore that I would never have s... Thu, 6 Aug 2009 09:25:22 EST grief and getting healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2188763 It has been nearly two weeks since one of my close friends died. She was 32 (would have been 33 in 2 days). She worked all her adult life to loose weight and stay in shape. She was one of the most health conscious people I know. She suffered from terrible migraine headaches and had been out of work for most of the last few months. This had caused her to gain a bit of weight due to a suddenly sedentary lifestyle, which combined with a change in medication, caused a pulmonary embolism. <BR> <... Mon, 29 Jun 2009 09:19:37 EST frustration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2031250 Why do I continue to fail? I believe that I a can make any reality I want. I believe that focusing on all that I have and all that is good in my life is the best way to succeed. <BR> I am morbidly obese. I have been overweight literally since the day I was born. I may always be obese. But that does not mean that I have to wallow in chocolate and ill health. I am capable of living a healthy life, of making healthy decisions for me and for my family regardless of my weight. <BR> I am going to ... Mon, 4 May 2009 10:37:28 EST I will never give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1425397 It has been so long since I have allowed myself to write anything. I so wanted to be able to say that I had lost weight. I have struggled and struggled all year to no avail. I do have hope though. I am seeing a surgeon in October about gastric banding. This is so exciting (and scary). <BR> I am still doing all of the things that I set out to do, but the weight is just not coming off. <BR> I refuse to give up. <BR> Wed, 27 Aug 2008 08:55:29 EST Time flies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1067646 I cannot believe that it has been a whole month since I last posted anything. <BR> My weight has not changed, and my blood sugars are actually up a little but I am not letting that discourage me. <BR> My son and I have both been ill with the flu and now strep, and it is hard to improve your overall health when you are dealing with temporary illness. <BR> Spring is coming though, and I can feel that revitalizing freshness in the air. Today it is actually warm enough to go for a walk outside.... Tue, 11 Mar 2008 10:49:40 EST 2 steps back 1 step forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1001773 I have not been adding anything here because I do not want to post about negative things. Negativity seems to be all that I have going on in my life right now. The five pounds I lost in January I gained back in the first week in February. I was completely shocked as I thought I was doing fine. <BR> I am terrified to step on the scale now, becuase I have been highly stressed out and letting my sweet tooth soothe me. <BR> Yesterday we had our taxes done and found out that we owe thousands. I ... Mon, 11 Feb 2008 12:41:12 EST weigh in day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=978029 So I did my weigh in. I am down five pounds. My goal was six, but I am not going to complain. Every pound gone improves my health. <BR> My goal for February is 9 pounds. Since I lost half that amount in the second part of January I think this is very doable. <BR> I have plans tonight that include more eating then is probably healthy but I will keep my goals in mind and I have the whole month of February to do the things that I want to do for my health. <BR> Fri, 1 Feb 2008 14:31:12 EST speed of time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=965986 Last week went really fast. In fact, the entire month has gone really fast. It seems that ever since I had my son time has gone by at the speed of light. <BR> Some days it feels really wonderful, like I am moving towards goals that I really want to achieve. Other days I just want time to slow down for a while so that I can enjoy all of the good things that I have right now. <BR> In any case, I find myself still very motivated as January comes to an end. Although my quest for improved health ... Mon, 28 Jan 2008 11:49:04 EST start of a new week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=948094 Well, my weekend certainly did not turn out like I had planned. My son woke up with a sore throat on Saturday and we took him to the doctor- it was strep. Yuck. But he was amazing about the whole thing. He never complained. We started him on antibiotics right away and spent Saturday playing on the computer and watching movies. Sunday, after he had been medicated for 24 hours and was no longer contagious, we took him to the children's museum and let him play for an hour or so. <BR> Unfortunat... Tue, 22 Jan 2008 09:29:23 EST weigh in again and happy weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=937547 Well, I weighed myself again today. I have lost 1 and 1/2 pounds of the two that I had gained. Not as much progress as I wanted after a week and a half, but really pretty healthy. <BR> I still want to loose six pounds this month though, and that is seeming less than likely. <BR> I guess I will take what I can and keep moving forward. Ultimately, I do believe that slow and steady wins the race! <BR> <BR> On an even happier note, it is Friday, I have Monday off from work for Martin Luther Kin... Fri, 18 Jan 2008 11:43:02 EST good mood http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=934063 Last night I went to bed early and I was in a great mood. It is almost the weekend, my post dinner BG was 125 and we are planning a family vacation for March which I am really looking forward to. <BR> Today I woke up to snow and even though I know it causes travel problems for people and shoveling is no fun and it is cold and wet etc. etc. etc., all I saw was how pretty it was. There is something very nice about being warm and cozy inside on a cold winter day. It would be lovely to be home ... Thu, 17 Jan 2008 09:55:14 EST One step back, two steps forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=914748 I gained two pounds. I do not think that this was a gain in muscle mass, I think-I know- I have not been eating well, particulary in the evenings. <BR> For once though, I am not letting this upset me. 2 pounds is reversable. Over the last year, I am still down around 60 pounds. So I have set a new goal for just this month, which is to release (I do not like to say lose- it has virtually all negative conotations and this process is all about getting healthy so I am trying to remove that word... Fri, 11 Jan 2008 10:59:31 EST One good thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=908131 My five year old son is definitely on his way to being overweight. He is not as heavy as I was at his age, but he is not at a normal weight either. <BR> I have begun to notice something really wonderful however. I have been doing a great job with my exercising lately. I ride my stationary bike for 20 minutes every day and just try to stay more active in general. Yesterday my son asked that my husband and I start waking him up earlier in the morning because he wanted to go downstairs and jump... Wed, 9 Jan 2008 10:23:14 EST Trying not to be discouraged http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=904262 Today I am struggling. I did not do so great on the foods that I ate yesterday and I have not lost any weight in a couple of months now. I am just desparate to make this happen- to get control of my life back and to improve my health. I do really well all day. I eat breakfast, lunch , and a snack and by the time I get home my blood sugar is perfect but I am exhausted and starving. I swear my brain shuts off as I try to find something to eat. It is like that every day. <BR> Today I have my who... Tue, 8 Jan 2008 09:29:50 EST Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=900291 Why does it feel like there are more Mondays than any other day of the week? This morning, I woke up to a cloudy sky and a headache. I really did not want to get out of bed. But I have a child to take care or and a job to get too, so sleeping in was definitely not an option. So, I got up, got ready to go, and even managed to make a fairly healthy breakfast and lunch. Probably not enough food for the day over all, but it is better than succumbing to fast food and other junk, so, even though it... Mon, 7 Jan 2008 09:21:35 EST new years resolution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=888265 My new years resolution started a bit before new years, but it is the third and I am, of course, still very motivated. <BR> I am trying to take this one day at a time. The road to better health is a long one for me. I am in very poor condition for a 33 year old-but my health is improving every day. <BR> I had a middle of the night epipheny about a week ago. I have all of the components of a really good life. I have a husband who, after ten years of marraige, is still my best friend. I love h... Thu, 3 Jan 2008 08:57:59 EST