FABGRAMMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=FABGRAMMA FABGRAMMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Ups and Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5547014 well it has been a while since I last wrote a blog. things have been moving along, weight is still up and down, getting over the broken relationship. I have tried to stay committed to the loss weight but seem to let life get in the way of loving myself enough to keep on track. Today is a new day after weigh in and have said this is it, stay committed. I had not planned on getting involved with anyone after my last relationship, but God seems to think someone should cross it. So once again I h... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 14:13:52 EST Key http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484997 saw a quote the other day that said, don't leave your key to happiness in someone else's pocket. Well think i have been doing that unconsciously,. Went on a road trip last month for a few days before returning to work after being off for a month. I had gone for a visit in Winnipeg, Manitoba where my sisters live. The day I was to leave I decided I needed a reminder that I can make things happen for myself. I had my passport with me so instead of coming home the same safe usual route......I w... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 23:00:09 EST Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442573 Life seems to be throwing me a lot of curves lately, thought I was back on with my ex-boyfriend since he asked for a second chance. We were to go on holiday this month, but 3 weeks ago he threw a curve and caught him in his betrayal mode. been bummed out and having a pity party, plus so much happening at work cannot get on track. Well finally said enough is enough....only i can make my life happen the way i want it...it is about choices and I chose to take him back and now deal with the outco... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 18:27:23 EST Been awhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386126 Well its been awhile since my last post...having some up and downs, just can't get motivated...my sciatica has been acting up and it is so painful to move in the morning, until I pinched that nerve, used to get up and do my walk first thing in the morning and I have not been able to do that. Used to feel more energized if I was able to do a morning exercise, but can't get it in until the afternoon and sometimes have no time. Something needs to happen and I know it starts with me.....but haven... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 18:13:42 EST Starting Fresh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5331718 Well we are nearing the end of month 4 of the year 2013, I still am having a lot of emotional up and down days but need to get those under control. i have been away from spark people site for a while and not posting regularily...have to do that. I started here and it helped so need the help again. I will start with only logging into the group I started with, once back into the routine will start posting on the others. I am doing it for me and no one else....I need to keep this in mind all the... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 12:15:42 EST Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251582 Well we are 2 weeks into the month of February and I have been keeping on track as much as possible. Hurt my lower right calf and was painful to walk, but did it real slow and lots of soaking in the tub. Have some emotional ups and down still going on, but get into those inspirational quotes and carry on. I was told once that I am an optimist and find the positive in every bad thing that happens along my life journey and will continue to do that. Feeling very slim today despite the scale and ... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 12:22:39 EST backslide http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231861 Well looks like it has been a while since I wrote on here. Well I had a back slide and the month just flew by. back at it again, this month has been a up and down flow of emotions, after 2 years of dating and almost getting married, everything has come to a standstill. Very hard to take and especially not knowing where everything is coming from. The BF wants space to think of what he wants, well what about what I want, not going to hang around and wait too long especially since he is the one ... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 14:39:28 EST continuing the climb back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197608 Well had set my alarm for 6am this morning trying to get back to my old routine before work. Did not get out of bed till 6:30 and was just going to start my 1 mile walk when the phone rang and it was my daughter calling to ask if I could pick up the GD for school. Well a quick shower and had to skip the mile, eat a quick breakfast, throw a fairly decent lunch together...warm the car and head over to the other side of town to pick her up. If it wasn't for the cold weather and snow I would ha... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 20:10:12 EST A long time coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195598 Well I was surprisesd to see that it has been almost a year since I wrote anything on this page. I did a back slide and now back to getting on track. Life has dealt me a rollercaoster ride and time to get off. I neglected myself and need to be kind to me again, no regrets just starting fresh. Hope anyone reading this has a Happy New Year and stay healthy. Mon, 7 Jan 2013 19:06:28 EST Second last day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4712431 Well it is the second last day before January is over. I feel that I have been doing a good job overall being honest about the food intake. Started adding more salad to my eating plan and if I don't eat it everyday than I try for alternate days. Last weeks weigh in was a positive reinforcement as the scale moved downward...just a little but it was a loss. Our group has a voluntary fine for those who gain ( .25 a lb ) and at the end of each month the person who lost the most gets the kitty.... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 13:59:43 EST 2 weeks in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4682280 Went to weigh in last Wednesday and was glad to see the scale moving downward. Really putting an effort to watching how much I eat, still not doing regular exercise But feel that will come in time. I don't have a lot of energy right now and that is part of the problem. I have started writing in my journal and being honest with everything I have eaten, I know that chocolate lave cake I had last night was not good for me, but took away the chocolate craving I was having. This week I will go out... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 15:06:10 EST First weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4660352 Well had my official weigh in for the year 2012, it was a little higher than I though so now we know were to start. Added more fruit in the meals these first few days, watching portions and started back to walking tape. Son bought a new filtered water system, helping with the new changes, Have a great week. Thu, 5 Jan 2012 19:33:11 EST Starting off the New year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4651215 Well reading my last blog, it has been a few months past. Time of reflecting and making some changes and they start with me. Started January 1st on the right track...got up early, did the few chores I had to do while house/dog sitting. Went home to see my sons girlfriend before she left to fly back home, it was a cold windy day.....snow blowing everywhere. My son had a 4 hour drive to get her to her flight and another 4 hrs to come back home, wished them a safe trip and told him to call when ... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 12:51:24 EST The last day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4512663 Today ends the month of September, followed my plan thru the month except for last week, veered off track for a while and the scale showed the results. I did not loose the amount I aimed for but did take off a little over 2 lbs and for me that is better than nothing. Slow and steady will be my new motto. I journalised most days but missed a few, so we know what happens there...YOU OVER EAT..... Well no sense crying over spilled milk as they say, now to move forward from here. have a fantasti... Fri, 30 Sep 2011 20:03:36 EST A new month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4460892 Today is September first, I am starting off fresh, enough of the slacking and just getting by. Joined a team challenge and will post everyday, made a bet with my BF that I will exercise everyday and if I don't I have to pay him a dollar. Trying to save so I can go on a holiday and every $1. counts and don't want to be giving it to anybody but me. packed a good lunch this morning, up early as I couldn't sleep so did a 2mile WATP DVD, good breakfast and deep breathing before going off for the d... Thu, 1 Sep 2011 15:00:10 EST Refocus #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4426721 Well it has been a month and I am back to the YoYo diet and the scale shows it. My motivation has slipped but continue to start fresh every morning. Stopping would be failure and as long as I start each day with effort and the mind set to log what I eat, time will show me what is wrong. Feel tired most of the time and have started my iron pills, I know at one point that I was anemic and this is how I felt. Family matters have improved so that is not what is affecting my mood right now. Workin... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 19:36:47 EST Refreshed and refocused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4348002 Well it has been a long time since my last blog. I have been real slack with keeping up my plan to loose the weight. In June I decided to take a 3 week holiday away from work and my family, a friend invited me to go with him to visit his mother and the area that she lives. My life was too fast passed and it was running me down and I couldn't see it. Others were seeing that I was living my life based on how my daughter and grandchildren felt and wasn't thinking about my own feelings. On this h... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 20:14:48 EST back slide http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4167548 Well it is a long time since I blogged, and you can tell. I have gained 10lbs back and struggling to take it off, will go down 2 lbs and put it back on again. I know what I am doing wrong, just can't seem to get the motivation to change the situation. I have to make the time and get back to spark people, log into the teams and get the support I had going. I am going on holiday in June and want to be able to walk around and site see, so need to get those legs of mine built back up to doing wal... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 10:54:43 EST busy week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3860883 It has been a busy week getting ready for Christmas, the new baby and mom are doing great. Grandma got to hold him more when they came for a visit on my day off and sang Christmas carols to him while I moved around the room with him. He des not seem that heavy for his 10.8 weight, or could it be grandmas arthritis has improved that much with eating healthier and getting exercises. have really been watching what I have been eating and have lost a few ponds again this week. The new boyfriend is... Fri, 24 Dec 2010 16:08:28 EST Well he is here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3852026 I have not been back to blog as much as I had hoped. It has been a busy 9 days, the Christmas season is upon us and had all my plans laid out as to what I would accomplish on my days off last week. I was going to have 3 whole days to do things...right....well on the 15th my daughter went in to labour and grandma had to throw all her plans out the window because she now had 2 children to take care of...my daughter is a single mom....the father of the new baby is in the picture but does not liv... Sun, 19 Dec 2010 10:44:38 EST Feeling Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3835459 Have started back on my healthy eating routine again since my last blog...have gone off it now and then but have not punished myself for it. The fruit and veggies are getting back into the menu but the exercise is slow in coming. I have started back on my multi-vitamin supplement and the energy is starting to return. The relationship is still happening and I think I have a handle on giving everyone time that they deserve...it was all about putting limits. That is limits on what I can do and h... Fri, 10 Dec 2010 00:34:13 EST Tine to get back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3805427 It has been a long time since I wrote a blog, I have been gaining a few pounds back because I have not been able to get myself organized. I have been on my own for 10 years, a few dates in between but nothing that was permanent. Recently I have met someone and it feels like a fit, it is a little hard to give everyone the time they need and have time for my new relationship. With my swing shifts I am feeling a little over run and have not really followed a plan. I know this is a real lame excu... Thu, 25 Nov 2010 12:28:07 EST one week in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3315660 Well it's one week in and I was able to follow some of my plan, only thing I didn't accomplish was weighing/measuring all my portions, Can do a better job this week coming. Posted into the nutrition planner, better contact with teams is still needed. Plan this week is to schedule a couple hours a day for computer time. Tue, 8 Jun 2010 23:32:44 EST Refocus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3281115 Well it is time for me to set things straight this weekend. I know that I have not paid much attention to my goals and part of that is because my life is all cluttered. This weekend is house cleaning time......and I don't mean my dwelling, I mean my body. In two days a new month starts and with it a new me. Sunday I will clean out cupboards of junk food that I have bought ( I say its for the grandchildren, but eat it myself) so what is not in my cupboards I can't eat, and they don't really n... Sat, 29 May 2010 23:59:21 EST Worry about myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3216523 It has been a long time since I last blogged, a lot has gone on these last couple months. I find myself being consumed by everyone else's problems and fall easily into the care taker mode. It is a role I am very familiar with, and put myself in the back ground. The exercise has been lacking and am finding it hard to get back into the routine I had started for myself. My food journal has been buried under a pile of papers in the back room. My daughter had started seeing a previous boyfriend... Mon, 10 May 2010 23:38:40 EST Time to Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3015761 It has been a long time since I put anything into words. It has been a busy three weeks, my SIL had her surgery, is at home and we have been to the city to see the Cancer Support Team for a treatment plan. A call came today and we need to be back in the city (4 hour drive) on the 22nd for more tests before treatment can begin. This time we know what we are in for and where we can stay will pack some healthier meals instead of eating in restaurants. We will stay in the Tamarack House and it h... Thu, 18 Mar 2010 15:05:23 EST Back in the right direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2918829 Well it has been a rough month for myself emotionally, in my last blog I wrote about my sister-in-law being diagnosed with breast cancer and has now had her mastectomy. I would have taught that when you are diagnosed with any form of cancer it would make you think about changing the way you take care of your body. She has not quit smoking and in fact was outside having a smoke the very next day after her surgery. She is at home now and is consuming the same amount of alcohol as she did befo... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 16:40:16 EST mental motivation block http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2847607 Well working the night shift, than off for the weekend. I had brought a couple of quilting projects with me last night to keep me occupied as it is quiet in the residence right now and I needed to stay awake. I could not get motivated to start anything just kept thinking of my sister-in-laws bad news yesterday. She had been complaining about being sore under her left arm pit, swollen etc since last summer, in December I had made her go see the doctor, I had said if it is that sore you need to... Sat, 6 Feb 2010 08:29:55 EST Weird weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2785636 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/1/b419946133.jpg">It is saturday and it is raining outside, not god weather for this time of year up here in Northern Canada....the roads are real slippery, I have one more week off from work, my body has gotten the much needed rest it deserved from those rotating 12 hour day/night shifts. Emotionally things are coming into focus, death of someone you are close to leaves you physically and emotionally drained and not having a lot of time to proce... Sat, 23 Jan 2010 12:22:21 EST Day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2717468 Well I have slacked off with the exercise..no energy when I go to nights, I know I am having an emotional burn-out and just sticking it out for one more shift. Excuses- EXCUSES...None are good enough. Remembering that I am in control of my emotions...brought an exercise video to do tonight...plus will log into the bootcamp videos and try to modify the ones I know that are to hard on my body. Will see the Rhuematologist next week and see how my progress is...hope no more increases to the medi... Fri, 8 Jan 2010 23:38:38 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2686319 Day three into the new year, So far I have been on track with keeping a journal of how I feel emotionally. It is a work day today and having trouble getting in the days challenges as it is a residential setting and no time on my own as I was too achy with my RA to do it before work. Will have to do it when I get home from work. Lots of moving around, but nothing that gets the heart pumping. Packed a nice nutritious lunch and supper as I am here for 12 hrs (since 8 this morning)....veggies for... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 15:32:53 EST Getting past the Holiday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2670471 Well another Christmas season has past and we are all recuperating from the extra goodies that were floating about and into our tummies. I know that I have not been making a lot of good choices and need to get of the couch and get moving. My pity party is over and I am ready to hit the new year with renewed energy..Life happens and this to shall pass, reminding myself that a healthier lifestyle is what I choose to do for me, so do it. I will start off slow, taking on too much I know will jus... Wed, 30 Dec 2009 23:55:41 EST Trying to get into the spirit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2626008 Well the funeral for my co-worker has past, but the numbness is still there. I know I did not eat sensibly this last week and it showed at weigh in at my TOPS meeting. I am feeling that I would like to be off for a while, but can't afford to stay home. I am taking on too much and need to slow down, am not able to make the time to get on SP and track everything that I need to and see where I am going wrong where the eating is concerned ...have been doing my own menu plan instead of following t... Fri, 11 Dec 2009 00:34:26 EST Emotions do control eating habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2594496 The last 2 days have been hard for me, my co-worker, shift change partner and friend for 22 years had been diagnosed with bladder cancer in June. It was late in the stage when it was caught and she has spent the last 5 months in the hospital. She lost her battle yesterday morning, someone brought donuts to work in the morning as everyone gathered after hearing the news.....I work in a Crisis Shelter for Assaulted Women and Children, so emotions run high most of the time. I ate two donuts befo... Sat, 28 Nov 2009 22:03:41 EST One week in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2542003 It is one week into the new month, I feel a whole lot better lately, my RA isn't so active and can move a lot better. I have stuck to my plan of doing Leslie's WATP video every morning.....even though some mornings I haven't wanted to, but have more energy after doing it. Sleeping well and even wake up before my alarm goes off, so that is the next step, to get out of bed instead of waiting for the alarm to go off, because I find I feel more tired if I lay there and wait for it to tell m... Sat, 7 Nov 2009 12:35:56 EST Month gone by http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2520840 This past month I have come to discover my own agenda and how I had been sabotaging my weight loss goals. My main focus was on the amount of calories I had in the day and not really the nutrition value of the items I was eating. In the last few weeks I have been giving it a real conscious effort to really look at my meal plan and make better choices...using both the spark menu plan and my own taste for food. I have lost a little each week and look at it as a good thing and not whine about onl... Fri, 30 Oct 2009 16:22:55 EST Re-energized http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2492624 I am back from my weekend retreat, didn't know what to expect when we got to our destination as we were given the directions how to get there and that was it. I had gone onto the website to get a general idea of the layout of the "Ranch"we were going to. Well they were obviously old pictures of when it was first established or had just had a fresh coat of paint. The rooms were the size of a hotel room with 8 bunks in them, and made for small persons...the mattress's were 6inches thick, not t... Tue, 20 Oct 2009 00:25:36 EST Retreat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2480612 Well I am off today to a weekend retreat to learn more about healthy eating and food exchanges. It is going to be exciting and informative, will return with a new attitude and motivation. I know I have not been giving it my best effort and need to change that frame of mind...it will also do me good to do something just for me and no family tagging along...just never seem to be able to do that. I keep slipping into the habit of others first, me last. gotta run and get dressed or I will still b... Thu, 15 Oct 2009 08:26:28 EST squeaked trough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2384544 Well I am back home and had a great visit with my sisters in the city. Didn't go to many restaurants but my older sister feels she needs to cook these big meals when I come to visit. I feel they over eat myself and have never really eaten a lot at each meal,(my downfall was not choosing healthy) But she is a meat and potato girl ... LOL. The first day I arrived though she made home made chicken soup with whole wheat noodles. She said she made it for the oldest sister who has no teeth and refu... Wed, 9 Sep 2009 00:50:55 EST Having good days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2340570 Well I have been having some good days lately....had been feeling a lot of fatigue for a while, no energy. Not sure if it was the new medication I am on for my rheumatoid arthritis or not as that is one of the side effects. Today I was busy getting things ready for my great nephews baby shower, another nephews birthday party......didn't eat a lot of sweets....small portions of cake. In the evening my grandson stayed over and we had to make muffins because he bartered with is Aunt who is a hai... Mon, 24 Aug 2009 01:09:51 EST feeling good today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2232770 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/7/9/b796147666.jpg">Well my arthritis has been acting up because I over did it with the gardening and painting and all the cleaning. Didn't take much breaks in between and am paying for it now..real achy. On the other hand I feel great because at weigh in the scale went down a few pounds, so the hard work paid off in the long run, BUT now I need to do light jobs for a few days to rest up. Got a lot of compliments at the meeting about how I am lookin... Thu, 16 Jul 2009 00:15:24 EST Trying to stay connected http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2203335 It has been a while since I have put anything down on paper and can see myself slipping back into old habits. putting myself last again..July 1st has come and I know I need to get back into some of the team challenges, did not join in June..big mistake, need that push and accountability. Started writing everything I eat in my daily journal and in the nutrition section of sparks..Now to get the exercise back on track..keeping busy everyday, de-cluttering my basement and major house cleaning Bu... Sun, 5 Jul 2009 02:33:11 EST Back sliding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2114252 well I have been on a back slide for the last few weeks, will need to revisit the first step. I have had no motivation what so ever. I am getting back into the challenges, that at least gets me accountable to log in, will set up a schedule for computer time once a day to make this possible. REMEMBER AND REMIND MYSELF THIS IS FOR ME....NO ONE ELSE...PUSH ME TO DO BETTER, WRITE IT DOWN <em>231</em> <em>125</em> Mon, 1 Jun 2009 22:06:21 EST staying in check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1918422 Well it's been a few days and I am staying on track, I am on my 2 days off after my night shifts and of course the second morning after the last shift is the one I feel most tired at so decided to sleep in just a little this morning. I can't really say I slept, more like just rested in bed and did a few exercises on the bed to get my joints loosened up. Just as I was finishing my breakfast my sister-in-law called over and said she had coffee on, so I went over for a couple cups. She lives ... Fri, 27 Mar 2009 14:42:03 EST Getting back to journaling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1907167 Well it has been a while since I wrote anything down. have been in a funk for a bit, got some new info on the RA, and one thing I didn't know is we can suffer from depression so it was not just all the things happening at work. it has been a busy place, a little short staffed due to deaths in my co-workers families, know how they feel .. been there a little over a year ago. When I was first afflicted with the RA a good 23 years ago,all I did was find a bit of info on it and get into a specia... Tue, 24 Mar 2009 00:33:06 EST Time management http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1801172 Well I am finally getting it down to a science and have only concentrated on three teams goals. That is more realistic for me with the 12 hr days I put in at work. I don't like sitting at the computer to long, so my main goal was to huddle each day and I have done that. I have started back to my WATP DVDs and I can tell my energy is coming back. I had gained a few pounds a week ago and felt disappointed in myself, BUT after I told myself why I gained, picked myself up and got started again wi... Sun, 15 Feb 2009 20:23:36 EST GETTING IT TOGETHER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1785491 Well I'm finally getting it together, the previous week is behind me, shake it off and get moving and look ahead. Made some me time for myself this past weekend, and now I'm rejuvenated and ready to get back on track..started off good today, did my 30 minutes of cardio, threw in laundry and since the washer is in the basement got in some steps also. De cluttered my kitchen counters and went through all the stack of papers/magazines that were piled on my couch from last week when I was DEPRES... Mon, 9 Feb 2009 23:14:03 EST Emotional eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1774423 Well today I have admitted to the fact that I have been letting my emotions control my eating. It has been a terrible month at work. We have lost 2 employees in the last month, 1 the month before. I work in the helping field and become attached and care about the woman I work with. I know that these workers are gone because they have not followed policies which caught up to them and required they be let go, BUT it is the feeling of betrayal that hits you. I had such a headache last night whe... Fri, 6 Feb 2009 00:11:08 EST Starting over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1729195 It's been almost a month since my last blog, have been using my nutrition tracker BUT have been going over my allowed calorie range. Haven't made the best choices, sabotaging myself and just having down in the dumps feeling. This past week I have kicked myself in the Butt, changing the bad habits I fall into. I have been talking the talk But not really walking that walk, if you know what I mean. I tell everyone that I am taking it off slow and am okay with that, But than I don't stay on that ... Thu, 22 Jan 2009 18:08:09 EST Counting my blessings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1628664 It's been a while since I posted, my internet was fixed at home and I was just getting back into checking in everyday when I decided to take a little trip. I was going to Winnipeg ( a 4 1/2 hr drive) to deliver gifts and get a short visit in and maybe - maybe some last minute shopping. I never made it to Winnipeg, an hour out of town I hit black ice and my car fish tailed all over the highway, I wound up in the ditch against a rock cut, tail end of the car hit first. We were lucky my grandaug... Mon, 29 Dec 2008 01:39:01 EST