EVRLNGFOO's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EVRLNGFOO EVRLNGFOO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ downward spiral http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674339 i'm out of control! i have to stop this now! <BR> <BR> whiskey showed up last night. i was going to have 2 drinks. turned into many more than that. now i'm sitting here eating a hot pocket cursing myself and my lack of willpower. <BR> <BR> why am i slipping? i was doing so well. why do i keep doing this to myself? <BR> <BR> why does alcohol have so much power over me? why do i allow this to happen over and over? i know i'm not an alcoholic. i could easily become one. that scares me. i d... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 11:59:05 EST self-sabotage, please go jump off a cliff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673551 gah! where did it come from? i was doing so well, i was going along, feeling great, minding my own business. then bam! self sabotage reared it's ugly head! i suppose it's been around for a week or two and i've been denying it's existence. making excuses, hoping to ignore it and it would go away. nope. it's demands to be confronted, so here goes. <BR> <BR> i thought it was a TOM issue, but as i look back into last week i realize it's more than that. if you read my last blog (thank you for al... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 12:01:18 EST not a great week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669836 i'm hoping my weigh in tomorrow doesn't reflect how bad this week was. maybe i'm just being paranoid? TOM is on the horizon, so i'm fearing a water weight gain from that. here's my week in review: <BR> <BR> saturday: went to a bbq. didn't eat too horribly, but i drank more than i intended too. once again, alcohol rears its ugly head. <BR> <BR> sunday: it was an ok day. nothing great. <BR> <BR> monday & tuesday were ok, but i ate a couple things i shouldn't have and forgot to track at lea... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 13:02:52 EST holy shrinking shanna! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667399 i can't believe i'm finally succeeding at this! i left the 240's far behind, never going to see that number again! i rushed through the 230's and now i'm going to quickly make my way through the 220's. that's right! i did it, i made it to the 220's at my weigh in last week. i have onderland in my sights. <BR> <BR> i'm so proud of myself! <BR> i've lost 15 pounds in 5 weeks. <BR> i'm swimming in my work pants <BR> my appetite, cravings and eating habits are all under control. <BR> i lost 5... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 13:00:09 EST 10 more for 10 lbs. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661160 to continue my list from a few weeks ago. here are ten more things i learned over the latest 10 lbs. <BR> <BR> 1. invest in yourself. you are worth it. <BR> <BR> 2. get into a exercise habit. <BR> <BR> 3. veggies and fruit! aim to eat at least one at each meal and snack. <BR> <BR> 4. protien! it's a lifesaver! <BR> <BR> 5. hardboiled eggs: best snack EVER! <BR> <BR> 6. get your family involved. the added support does wonders. <BR> <BR> 7. buy a fancy lunchbox. <BR> <BR> 8. don't ... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 20:23:15 EST 10 lbs gone and goodbye 230's? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657227 i'm doing really well these days and realized i haven't updated in awhile. i started weight watchers at the beginning of the month. i had been avoiding it for so long due to monetary reasons. one of the biggest reasons i love sparkpeople, it's FREE! but free wasn't working for me. i have done ww in the past and lost about 40 lbs. which i obviously gained back. anyway, i figured if i wasn't going to invest in myself i wasn't going to get anywhere. and the money would probably just go to junk f... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 17:49:47 EST the incredible edible egg http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644600 i don't think i've heard that slogan in awhile! <BR> <BR> in one of many diet/fitness/nutrition books i've read i read a snack idea that was 2 hardboiled eggs. i also read that you should eat a protein and a carb together to get the biggest reward. with this in mind i always plan to have 2 hardboiled eggs and a fruit for my morning snack. it works great. holds me over til lunch most days. well today i forgot my eggs! eek! i don't do well if i get too hungry between breakfast & lunch. i deci... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 15:19:47 EST 25 for 25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640708 i love reading these lists from other spark members and have always intended to do one of my own. i realized with 25 lbs lost i can do one! i said good-bye to the 240s this morning. sure, it's only one lb away, but that's good enough for me. i will NEVER see that number AGAIN! <BR> <BR> so here goes, 25 things i've learned from losing 25 pounds: <BR> <BR> 1. water water water! even if you can do nothing else healthy, drink water. <BR> <BR> 2.track. good, bad, ugly, on target or not, wri... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 18:45:28 EST lent goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639577 i love making goals for lent. it's a great time to renew yourself, your new year's goals, challenge yourself and really dig deep and push yourself. i like that it's an allotted amount of time and you're not alone in making a goal. like new year's goals, you're not alone. it's also a good amount of time. it's longer than a month, but not so long that you feel deprived if your goal was too lofty. like the tradition of giving up meat. that's a tough one for a lot of people. my previous lent vice... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 13:58:25 EST 5 lb loss overnight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627393 ah, thank goodness! the scale was very scary yesterday. i knew it would be. busy, crazy, hectic weekend. tom water retention. water retention from too much "bad" food, not enough water intake and whatever else causes water retention. i always know when i'm retaining cause my fingers get all "fat". when i clasp my fingers i can feel they're puffy. <BR> <BR> i noticed about friday that they were getting puffy. saturday i drank a gallon of water, today is day 4 of drinking a gallon(if i drink ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 13:15:02 EST feeling better today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615917 thank you to all who read and responded to my blog yesterday. i feel better after writing it, sleeping on it, tracking, thinking, etc. i was feeling helpless yesterday. i have been stuck in this rut for so long it's difficult to imagine that there's an end somewhere out there and eventually i will reach it. <BR> i did well tracking yesterday as well as today. i'm over on calories both days, but i know why. hopefully tomorrow goes better. still haven't weighed myself this week. i will have to... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 12:39:02 EST nearing 5 years: mental breakdown and reflection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615096 i was just going through my spark teams and leaving the teams that were inactive or didn't fit in with my lifestyle anymore. i really need to become more active in teams (and the community in general). i ran across my sp class team. i joined sp in may of 2009. i remember the day i joined. i had been reading the amazon reviews on yet another crash diet book and someone recommended sp in their review. so i checked it out. i signed up right away (it was free!) and dove into the communities. i lo... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 14:57:46 EST february goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611492 my new year's goals have been going fairly well. i have been sick with one cold or another since the beginning of the year. i had a cough so bad i couldn't workout, even very low intensity, without having a spastic coughing fit. then the cold moved into my head and i got a sinus infection that caused an ear infection. sheesh. once my cough became somewhat better i had so much sinus pressure in my head i could barely move. i still have a bit of a cough and my ears are still popping when i blow... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 19:39:03 EST 2014: lets get this party started http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5572429 they say if you start planning your new year's resolutions early you will be more successful. i have found this true with all my monthly and yearly goals. if i plan well, my rate of success is much better. i can give up soda if i allow myself to chug it non-stop the week leading up the cut-off date. just tell yourself one more than you're done. have a plan, plan well and be strong. here we are the week before the new year. it's time to start planning! <BR> <BR> i started planning back in oc... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 17:10:58 EST 1 month down, 11 to go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5556971 i did my one month weigh in and measuring this morning. lost 4 lbs (eh) and 11 inches overall! woo hoo! writing those measurements down and comparing them to the numbers from a month ago was so amazing! i have never tracked measurements before and now i know why it's so important! the numbers on the scale just aren't reflective enough of all the blood sweat and tears we go through on a daily basis. they say it's a bad idea to weigh yourself daily, and it's so true! your weight can fluctuate s... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 17:26:03 EST 30 days to change a habit, follow up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555214 about a month ago i posted this blog: <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531999 </link> <BR> <BR> i talked about some of my bad habits and how i was going to work on them. i realized a very bad habit was drinking soda. i realized it's a gateway drug for me. i leads to eating sugary food, over eating and drinking. when i drink soda i want some rum in it. i realized soda was the root of a lot of problems and a lot of bad habits. <BR> <BR> my ... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 16:02:49 EST ugh, toxic people http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550781 i'm in such a bad mood! i didn't work out this morning and i'm wondering if that would have helped my mood. i have no way of knowing. i think i'm bored with my work out. i was going to wait til next wednesday to start jillian michael's 30 day shred, but i may need to start earlier. since it's too darn cold to walk during lunch i don't feel as though i'm getting a good enough work in out lately. so tomorrow that changes! <BR> <BR> now, back to my bad mood. long story. my brother married this... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 13:48:50 EST survived the weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544278 every day last week i got up at 4 am to work out. this is a major accomplishment for me. i've struggled with this for years. i'm not sure what clicked in my brain a couple weeks ago, but it has completely changed my life. all for the good! saturday i decided to wing it and not set my alarm. i knew i'd be awake before 5 anyway. i woke up at 3:30. so i worked out. sunday i was going to do a rest day and play with the wii. dd decided to wake up every couple hours throughout the night and when sh... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 12:04:16 EST a quick check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539261 everything is going so well! i'm doing awesome! i feel amazing! <BR> <BR> *no booze for a year is going really well. so far it's been easy. that's probably the biggest reason i feel so great. <BR> <BR> *i had soda once last week. i feel as though i've conquered the habit, but constant vigilance and all that. <BR> <BR> *i've decided, for the time being, to weigh in monthly rather than weekly. i don't want to step on the scale and get discouraged by it not moving enough. or moving in the ... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 13:36:22 EST i think i finally have this figured out! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533092 after 4 years of using sparkpeople off and on i think i have finally figured out my weight loss problem. i learned a lot about myself in the past couple weeks, and months even. many of you may have read my previous blogs and seen some of this self-discovery. i think i narrowed it down yesterday. i must have because i feel completely enlightened now and feel like a weight has been lifted. i feel as though i am going to accomplish this and i won't be holding myself back anymore. i feel like i f... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 15:55:18 EST 30 days to change a habit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531999 i read this article and found it very ineresting. i also wanted to share it with everyone here. plus i wanted to post it so i could have it handy. <BR> <BR> <link>www.attunefoods.com/blog/2013/10/30-<BR>days-to-kick-bad-habits/?utm_source=ea<BR>ting-rules&utm_medium=referral&utm_con<BR>tent=kick-bad-habits-in-30-days&utm_ca<BR>mpaign=brandam </link> <BR> <BR> this is going to be a bit of brainstorming. i have a few bad habits i want to kick and i think in the end they are all related t... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 13:39:32 EST no booze november day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531942 i've been trying to not drink as much lately. i know alcohol is one of the main reasons i'm overweight. but i keep falling into habits that make me want to drink. like sunday afternoons. so it's very difficult to cut out alcohol. i've decided to not drink booze in november. the holidays are so difficult. shopping, stress, work parties, family parties, big meals, parties and constant treats at work. obviously december is going to be way too difficult to attempt this, so november is good practi... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 12:48:50 EST me vs. the anorexic co-worker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529486 my co-worker, who is very sweet, has decided to lose weight. her dad just died and i think she's going through some emotional stuff and losing weight is the thing she had decided to focus on. no biggie, not unusual at all. except that her plan is to do this by eating one meal a day. i cringed when i heard this and told her that's the worst way to lose weight. i tried to explain how her metabolism works and that eating every 3 hours is the best way to keep it going. she said, i don't care, i'v... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 18:26:00 EST my a-ha moment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527580 i was reading a blog by 111butterfly111 this morning. it was eye opening! <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527058#c<BR>omments </link> <BR> <BR> hopefully that link worked. <BR> <BR> anyway, as i was reading the blog i was like, holy cow! that makes so much sense! then i started getting a little choked up. I can blame that on pms, right? she talks about taking care of a young child and why wouldn't she take care of herself with as much c... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 16:15:21 EST friend me, follow me, like me! (and i'll do the same) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520468 I like to get to know my spark friends through other outlets aside from just spark so i thought i'd share my other social hangouts with you and hope that you'll share with me too! if you don't want to post your info here feel free to sparkmail me. <BR> <BR> facebook: <link>www.facebook.com/evrlngfoo </link> <BR> facebook page (this one i use to share my weightloss journey and motivational stuff): <link>www.facebook.com/poundsquasher?ref=h<BR>l </link> <BR> twitter: <link>twitter.com/g... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 14:44:35 EST i vow... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514544 ...to not drink soda for the remainder of the year. <BR> <BR> to not drink alcohol again until thanksgiving. Tue, 15 Oct 2013 19:34:22 EST tracking! i hate it! but it works... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489534 once again the scale didn't show a loss. i should at least be losing water weight. the drastic reduction in calories from booze alone should make it move a little. so i reflected. what did i do wrong last week? i didn't eat horribly, but not great either since i was sick and didn't make a proper menu or shopping list. my water was intake, but not perfect every day. <BR> <BR> so what do i need to work on: drink the correct amount of water daily (84.33oz minimum) and tracking. <BR> <BR> mon... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 18:03:09 EST goals for the rest of 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481696 1. make a huge dent in the debt pile <BR> 2. practice yoga <BR> 3. make yoga & pilates a regular part of my daily life <BR> 4. remove all processed food from my life Tue, 10 Sep 2013 13:34:30 EST the eye opening moments of being sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481666 ugh, i was sick. i don't get sick. it just doesn't happen. but then it did. friday i left work early and spent the next 8 hours praying to ralph. my first thought, food poisoning! cause i don't get sick. then it my state of nausea, i go through what i had eaten in the last few hours. it wasn't a pretty picture. i had fallen off the wagon... <BR> <BR> my week was going so well! then wednesday my mom texted and said she got a ton of olive garden from work and to come over for dinner. olive gar... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 13:00:38 EST i'm hungry. why?! help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467988 this is one of the things that mess me up. i always get hungry between meals and don't have enough snacks. which leads to compulsive snacking. <BR> <BR> here's what i've eaten today: <BR> 6:00: 2 eggs scrambled with spinach and feta. whole grain english muffin with 1 T peanut butter. almond milk. pineapple. <BR> <BR> 9ish: banana & green tea <BR> <BR> 10:30: apple with string cheese. <BR> <BR> here it is 11:30 and i'm hungry. getting a headache hungry. i don't go to lunch til 1. i'm neve... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 14:37:04 EST scale woes part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467068 after writing my last blog, yes the one from like 2 minutes ago, i updated my weight on sp. my last recorded weight was from 2/25/13. i have successfully gained 19 pounds in 6 months. what an eye opener. <BR> <BR> i'm pretty ashamed. when i had my baby 13.5 months ago i promised myself i would lose the weight and get in shape for her. i wanted to be a healthy momma and an inspiration to her. i even promised her i'd lose the weight. and here i am slowly gaining weight. <BR> <BR> this has t... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 17:56:58 EST wtf, scale! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467051 ok, i haven't weighed myself in like 6 weeks. probably more. i didn't like the number that appeared the last time. then i lost control. and well, here i am today. at the heaviest weight i've ever been. i knew the number wouldn't be pretty this morning, but i had to see. i needed to know where i'm starting since i'm getting back on track today. ahhhhh, it was so ugly! <BR> <BR> the damage is done. i am focused and have my goals to work on this week. i now have 97 pounds to lose. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 17:34:00 EST hopping into the shallow end on monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464146 still hanging out here in the wadding pool. i'm doing pretty well. i'm not craving sugar so much anymore. that's a relief! i haven't snagged a cookie off the cookie plate in 15 days! my work has fresh baked cookies in the waiting room. chocolate chip. that's where the good part ends. by "fresh baked" i mean they are warm out of the oven. before the oven they were ball shaped pieces of frozen dough. they are otis spunkmeyer and so delicious! as long as you eat them when they are warm. once the... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 14:36:10 EST in the wadding pool (aka, back on track) day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455234 i walk during my lunch break. i go about a mile and a half down to the river and back. it's a nice walk and i really enjoy it. sadly i live in a place with 4 seasons so i can only do it 3-4 months out of the year. i like it cause i get some exercise in during the day and i get to think without any distractions. yesterday i was thinking about where i'm at and where i need/want to be. i have a long way to go. i'm not ready to step on the scale as the last time i did it was the scariest number e... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 15:53:08 EST back on track day #5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454146 well i'm still at it. things have been far from perfect. day 1 went well. ate well, no soda or alcohol. day 2 wasn't as good. i knew it before hand though. i went to a luau complete with roast pig on a spit. no way was i missing out on that. sadly, the food that went with the pig wasn't great. baked beans, cole slaw and cake. not a veggie in site. aside from the dressing soaked stuff in the slaw. dinner was leftovers from friday night, so i ate a decent breakfast and dinner. i did drink alcoh... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 15:28:30 EST back on track day #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5450182 so far so good! <BR> <BR> breakfast was eggs scrammbled with spinach and black beans with cantaloupe and a whole wheat enlish muffin. <BR> <BR> i didn't stop on the way to work. woo hoo! <BR> <BR> got to work and someone had brought in a box of krispy kreme donuts. they were all plain so i wasn't even tempted. *phew* <BR> <BR> my plan is to walk at lunch as often as possible while the weather allows. i had a contact lens issue this morning and spent my lunch getting replacements. no wal... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 18:08:56 EST picking up the towel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448948 about a month ago i took a break from spark and everything diet related. well, attempted anyway. you all know how easy it is to not think about food and health when you've been studying, living and breathing it for so many years. <BR> <BR> first off, thank you all for you wonderful comments on my last blog. i really apprecaite all your thoughts and concerns. <BR> <BR> i've worked out a better food budget, and can hopefully live within it. i'm still trying to find the time to workout. <BR... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 14:36:12 EST throwing in the towel. for awhile, anyway http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423175 i've been on sp for 4 years and i've been gaining and losing the same 10 lbs the whole time. obviously not sp's fault. there are a lot of outside circumstances hurting my efforts, or keeping me from having any efforts. <BR> i have serious money problems right now, and for the last 4 years. plus some. i've been trying to fix it, but it's a vicious cycle. as is weight gain and loss. i've always had the mindset that i'll focus on my weight cause that is the one thing i can control. apparently ... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 14:54:08 EST i've been doing it all wrong! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393467 i've always known i have a fear of success. i am constantly sabotaging my efforts. whether it's with booze, bad food, skipped workouts, etc. i've never known what to do about it. one day i was walking at lunch (i love my lunchtime walks! aside from weather i have no excuse to not do them) and realized i'm a self-saboteur. when i got back to my office i quickly googled this concept and learned that it is real, it's very common, it happens with weight loss all the time and there are ways to fi... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:05:56 EST hello, my name is shanna and i'm a self-saboteur http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386136 "Behavior is said to be self-sabotaging when it creates problems and interferes with long-standing goals. The most common self-sabotaging behaviors are procrastination, self-medication with drugs or alcohol, comfort eating in the face of weight concerns, and self-injury such as cutting. These acts may seem helpful in the moment, but ultimately undermine us, especially when we engage in them repeatedly." <BR> <BR> for the longest time i thought i had a fear of success, which i'm sure i do, bu... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 18:27:46 EST day 6 of no booze june and a water woo hoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380600 so far no booze june has gone pretty well. i'm six days in and haven't wavered. sunday was the most difficult day. i like to drink sunday afternoon, and i really struggled to not drink this past sunday. saturday was easy. it was the first day, i was tired from friday and wasn't in the mood. it's been real nice all week and i love to sit on the deck with a beer and a book or magazine and drink in the evening. i was too busy tuesday for it to be an issue. last night i wasn't home, so it wasn't ... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 17:39:09 EST no booze june! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370715 <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=60296 </link> <BR> <BR> i decided to start a one month challenge. no booze in june. simple, yet challenging. i need this! i drank so much over the weekend. i always do well staying on plan, working out, eating well, etc. then the weekend comes and i drink. and drink. no more! i'm not drinking in june to prove to myself that i can do this. i can save some money, still have fun and, what do you know, lose weight! i will p... Tue, 28 May 2013 19:11:09 EST can't vs. don't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5277509 in the past month or so i've read at least 2 articles about saying "don't" when you are trying to abstain from something. such as, chocolate. if you are trying to not eat chocolate and someone offers you some you say "i can't eat chocolate" or you are hungry and dying for chips and you tell yourself you can't eat carbs. you're just depriving yourself of something and then you want it even more. if you get yourself into the mindset of i 'don't' you will be more successful. tell yourself you do... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 13:46:06 EST march goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268767 i'm gonna keep it simple, but still challenging: <BR> <BR> 1. no soda <BR> 2. visit spark daily <BR> <BR> i know #2 probably seems easy, but being that i haven't been here regularly since july it will be a challenge. <BR> <BR> so far so good on both goals! Fri, 1 Mar 2013 15:45:37 EST 223! holy moly! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263508 i've been bouncing around the 220's for years. i haven't been below 223 in a very, very long time. got on the scale this morning and i was at 223!!!!! i realize now that i thought i'd never actually get below 224. i feel so motivated right now! i know it's too early to say, but i'm gonna say it anyway: i never want to see 224 again!! in a few weeks i hope to be able to say i never want to see the 200s again! <BR> <BR> i remember when i first got to 175. as in, gained my way up to 175. i sai... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 14:12:36 EST it's time to begin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260356 So this is what you meant <BR> When you said that you were spent <BR> And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit <BR> Right to the top <BR> Don't hold back <BR> <BR> i just heard "it's time" by imagine dragons and it always give me a little chill when i hear it. it feels pretty uplifting and motivational. so i thought i would consider it for my motivation playlist. then i read the lyrics. not quite motivating for weight loss. the line, "i'm never changing who i am" doesn't really ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 18:55:34 EST HELP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259116 i feel so helpless and overwhelmed. i feel like i can't suceed, i have no motivation and i'm never going to lose weight. i feel as though i have no self-control. i want to eat and eat and eat. when i did i lose self-control? i used to have great self-control. i went a year without soda, a year without fast food. i've given up various things for months, weeks, etc. my big issue right now is sugar. i am way too addicted to sugar in all its forms and can't seem to control myself. so i gave up su... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 18:41:00 EST the skinny rules (bob harper) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5135130 finally got a copy of bob harper's latest book, the skinny rules. i had planned on getting this book when it came out but time, money and baby got in the way of that plan. so i have missed any and all reviews that may have come out or been discussed here when it was first released. if you have any opinions of the book please let me know. <BR> <BR> i plan on adding one new rule each day until i have all 20 rules going on in my life. <BR> <BR> today i am working on rule #1 which is drink a g... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 11:41:50 EST body type diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5101903 while on pintrest yesterday i saw a pin posted by shape magazine about the 4 new body types, or something along that line. there was a picture of 4 different overweight people. i thought it very interesting, saw myself in one and decided to look further into it. this wasn't an article about the usual body types like when magazines showed you what kind of skirt or style of jeans will fit you best. this was real! this was beyond the apple and pear shape. reading more into it i discovered that i... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 22:22:05 EST i'm finally ready http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092718 ok, here goes! wish me luck! <BR> <BR> the baby is now 3 months old. our lives have established a bit of a routine. i'm back to work, so a bit more income. i feel ready to change myself for the better and lose all this weight so i can be the mom i want to be for my daughter. <BR> <BR> the baby weight is long gone, so now it's time to get in shape and tackle the weight i've been struggling with pre-pregnancy. <BR> <BR> here are my goals to accomplish that: <BR> <BR> 1. work out at 4 am (... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 13:27:06 EST