ERINSPGOM's SparkPeople Blog ERINSPGOM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It's 10:58 ... do you know where your calories are? Mine are .. well I don't know. I had a few too many to keep track of today. Spaghetti is my downfall apparently. And I was so hungry and in a hurry from school that I didn't measure. Bad me.. Bad bad me. I'd smack my own hand, but .. eh. <BR> <BR> It wasn't too much over. Just have to fine tune and regulate myself. Of course, since It's that time of the month, so of course I'm craving carbs and sweets and.. I need my SP app back. I did so much better when I could look at my totals at any gi... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 02:07:04 EST A penny for your thoughts This week was VICTORIOUS!! I feel accomplished. I feel proud. Even though I went over on my calories twice this week, I know where I went wrong. I know what I have to change. I know what I have to give up, and I'm honestly surprised that it was as easy as it was. This next week is going to be a challenge in and of itself, thanks to mother nature. I am thinking I need to sit down and write myself a solid plan of action BEFORE the cravings/temptations/irritation set in, that way I'll preemptive... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 03:02:54 EST So, on a Tuesday... I love that the Biggest Loser is back on. LOVE it. I think watching this show over the years has helped to shape the person I'm becoming. I also think that Bob's words tonight will reverberate in my head whenever I feel tempted. Tempted to quit. Tempted to give up. Tempted to eat what I shouldn't. Bob Harper looked at Mike and said that he wanted him to remember how much his worked out sucked, and how hard it was. The man was clearly in lots of pain, discomfort and completely worn out. I mean... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 23:53:24 EST So thankful.. I know this isn't the month this usually pops up, but I am so grateful that I have people in my life that care. Not just about me, but FOR me, and help me on this journey of mine. Even in the smallest of ways, they.. you.. are helping me. Encouraging words, understanding, those not so gentle pushes when I don't feel like logging on my food tracker, or even getting up off the couch. <BR> <BR> 2013 is my year. I'm tired of taking a backseat to other things, other people. It's my own fault, bu... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 17:02:50 EST Again, again.. Again, here I am saying I'm back and ready to make the changes I need to make. If I follow my track records, then this should be the time! It took me several attempts to quit smoking, so I am going to again begin the road to a new, healthier me. <BR> <BR> I am going to set simple goals. I think I focused to heavily on a goal weight, or a goal number. This time, I will focus more on entering healthier things into my life. The rest will get here when it gets here. It seems to me that I was try... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 17:26:44 EST Moving forward. Well.. here I am again. Kicking myself in the pants a bit as well. I see everyone's successes, and I just shake my head because if I'd have dug in my heels too I'd be moving right along with my own success. Alas, it's my own fault. I let life sneak in and my old habits blindside me. Of course I did this ever so willingly, because if I really would have put up a fight, I'd be at least a few pounds lighter. Actually, I think I gained all that I had lost back. Bah. <BR> <BR> Again, this is my... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 23:46:28 EST Whoops So.. between switching states, riding a greyhound and general screwing up my tentative grasp on emotional stability.. I've neglected sparkpeople. And in doing so, I've again, allowed myself to fall back into my "old habits" .. Ice cream twice in one day is a big fat no no that keeps me both big and fat. <BR> <BR> But I have come to the conclusion that I have no willpower. None. I say that 'Oh, not going to eat after 8..' Then come 8:15, I'm rooting around in the cupboards trying to find som... Thu, 3 May 2012 02:15:51 EST This week.. .. was a lazy week. Had a road trip to GA with a friend of mine. I haven't been back east for a couple of years, and I haven't eaten at a Waffle House (yum!) for about four. I love waffle house. Eating once there .. I thought I could handle that. But of course I didn't eat just once. I ate at five different waffle house locations. Five. Not to mention the snacking in the car and the eating various things here and there. Top that off with very few mins of exercise the entire week, and ... I'm ... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 13:53:13 EST Potpourri.. <BR> So I've totally slacked the last couple of days. Both in getting my tushie off of the couch, for the most part, and logging things in the journal, and on here. I'm not going to freak out about mentally going through a roll-a-dex of things I ate, things I moved, and things I didn't move. Tough cookies for me. <BR> <BR> Moving on. .. <BR> <BR> I did manage to get out of the house though, went to the park the other day with my friend and her munchkin. Even though I didn't get up and ru... Fri, 6 Apr 2012 01:50:49 EST Tested. Today my "Jillian Jr" and I decided that we were going to start running. I've never in my whole life ever trained for running. It didn't take me long to remember why I don't like running. <BR> <BR> We started off at a slow jog on a .16 of of a mile track. (16 laps = 1 mile) Made it a full lap and a half without stopping. Slowed to a walk. Every time we got to the start, we'd job for as long as I could manage it. Five minutes into this the muscles on the outside of my calves just tightened ... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 23:53:01 EST Couple of days off.. Bad me. A couple days away from SP and I'm eating things I shouldn't eat in portions that shouldn't have made it to my plate. I have totally and 100% figured out that I'm an emotional eater. Or .. maybe I'm not and I'm just using it as a tool to enable myself and help drive away the guilt. <BR> <BR> Well.. except this time there's no guilt. I'm not going to beat myself up for being human. :) What would we be if we didn't have mistakes to learn from, right? So back on the wagon I go. Plus s... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 02:13:36 EST Because I can. . Haha.. 500 fitness minutes in a month. I never thought I'd go from gold medal couch potato to moving and shaking it 500 minutes in a month.. And LIKE it. Haha. I love the energy boost I have. It's not alot.. but it is enough. There's more to come, too. I just know there is. All of this aching and hurting and using muscles that haven't been used in heaven knows how long... it's totally gonna be worth it. <BR> <BR> ... That just made my day. I needed that. I was feeling down because of so... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 03:19:58 EST Tomorrow is another day.. I'm pretty disappointed in myself this last week. Although, I've been getting to the gym quite a bit, and enjoying (yes, enjoying) some kick butt work outs, I'm eating waaaay too many calories in my day. <BR> <BR> That's a little counterproductive, no? Ugh. <BR> <BR> It's really my own fault. I have no one else to blame but myself. It's sooo easy to indulge when there's things like going out for Pizza and Chicken Flautas for supper. .. Soo easy to conveniently "forget" to add up totals be... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 02:50:25 EST My Jillian... Haven't been to the gym in a few days. My friend was out of town and since she's who I rely on to get there, I didn't get to go. Ah well. Her 4 year old kept me a little busy though. And we wound up playing some Just Dance 2 and some Zumba, well an attempt at Zumba anyway, for the Wii. <BR> <BR> It was rather cute his little self jumping around and trying. He wound up sitting on the couch after about five minutes. And I got 2/3 of the way through the beginner workout, and huffing and puffin... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 14:43:26 EST Upon self reflection... ... I find things are changing for me already. For the first time in my life, I'm going to a gym and using the equipment, not just looking around and feeling uncomfortable. I still feel a little uncomfortable, considering I'm constantly in there next to fit Soldiers, however I realize that I'm there next to fit Soldiers. haha. <BR> <BR> Ten pounds. Gone. It feels really good to see those numbers go down. And my motivation has never been stronger. My determination is not going to waver. I wo... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 12:42:27 EST