ERINLINDSAY83's SparkPeople Blog ERINLINDSAY83's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Family Camping! Friday afternoon we picked kiddo up from school, and headed straight for the campground. It's about a 2 hour drive, so by the time we got there and got everything set up, it was basically time to cook dinner, then s'mores, then bed. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We woke up bright and early Saturday morning and cooked some yummy, hearty breakfast over the fire. We headed out to the West Bluff of Devil's Lake t... Mon, 23 May 2016 12:45:32 EST Book Review - "Mindful Birthing" "Mindful Birthing" - Nancy Bardacke CNM <BR> <BR> 4.5 / 5 stars <BR> <BR> I've been leaning towards a natural childbirth my whole adult life. (Yes, even when I thought there was no chance of conceiving, my daydreams of it included a natural birth.) I started reading online stories of natural childbirth, and in one story this book was recommended. When I read things and a book is recommended, it almost always ends up on my Amazon wishlist. ( I have soooo many books at home, and dozens more... Wed, 18 May 2016 18:21:03 EST Chaperoning Youth Camp (Pics) My friend runs a ministry in a near-by city. It is basically "Sunday School" (though on Wednesdays,) where she teaches unchurched kids from ROUGH homes and neighborhoods, about the love of Christ. Every year she takes the kids to a Christian Adventure camp (paid for completely out of her pocket. She just loves these kids.) This is the third year that hubs and I have been the chaperones. It is a very stressful, very exhausting, very trying, but very blessed experience. The kids really know ho... Mon, 16 May 2016 11:03:00 EST Just Dropping By I've been wanting to get started on my gardens at the new house basically since we moved in. There are a LOT of spaces to be worked on. (All of which were completely neglected by the previous homeowners so they are all in AWFUL condition.) I will have to completely dig up grass and weeds to create a new garden area for veggies, the rest will just all have to be redone. <BR> <BR> Yesterday after taking kiddo to school and helping MIL with a few things, I decided to tackle my rock wall. It is... Fri, 13 May 2016 13:14:53 EST Weekend Overview....cuz I'm Bored. :-) Friday I worked my normal 9 hour shift, then was planning on heading to Hubby's band gig. I don't get to see them often, and this pub is typically quiet and not drunk-people-filled. I got ready to head out after work, hopped in my car and about 10 minutes into my 30 minute drive, my normal headache turned into and an absolutely splitting migraine. I decided to keep going, since I'm pretty used to doing any and everything with a pounding headache. <BR> <BR> I got there, opened the door, and ... Mon, 9 May 2016 12:45:45 EST Mother's Day Mother's Day has been rough for me for my whole adult life. Originally, I had been told I wouldn't ever naturally conceive. (Ha! guess God showed them!) So Mother's Day was always a painful reminder that I would never be a "mother." (Granted, even before I got pregnant, I mothered my Step-daughter and somewhat my niece. But as anyone with fertility issues knows, that's just not the same.) <BR> <BR> Then my Mom got sick. She was diagnosed with Advanced Early Onset Alzheimer's at the age o... Sat, 7 May 2016 10:38:55 EST Ali Apologizing So you may recall me mentioning my older Sis, Ali. <BR> Link to last blog mentioning her: <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6144155 </link> <BR> <BR> So although she is saying this nasty stuff about me to younger Sis, Ash, she has started texting me "happy" texts. I texted her Happy Birthday, and she texted me back "Oh thanks! Hope you and the baby are doing well! *heart emoji* *smile emoji* And a few more texts like that. <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 4 May 2016 11:07:12 EST Being Judgmental (And before I even start, just a public service announcement: It is spelled judgmental, NOT judgemental.) <BR> <BR> I think being judgmental is one of the easiest sins to commit. (Granted, I also think people often over -use this term. Disagreeing with someone's lifestyle or choices does NOT make you judgmental, unless you treat them differently or think they are a bad person for what they do. Just as an example...I've seen many people comment on pro-life articles, that the Christians are si... Mon, 2 May 2016 14:31:08 EST Eventful May We've got lots going on next month and are super excited! <BR> <BR> First off, hubs only has ONE band gig (and not out of state!) That in itself is like music to my ears. (Ha, that just cracked me up, him NOT playing music is music to my ears?! Hehe, though he still plays at church 2-3 times a month.) His band is usually booked at least one show every weekend, and usually one out of state a month. (Which steals him away Thur morning - Sun afternoon.) <BR> <BR> Plus, this one gig is one t... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 15:23:19 EST Walking and New Recipes The weather is FINALLY warming up enough for me to get out walking and hiking. It was a LONG winter. Being preggo made me especially antsy to get out and walk, too, to stay healthy for baby and myself. The first nice day I did a 3 mile walk to the store and back. Felt phenomenal! Since then, I take mile walks on my lunch breaks at work (when I actually get a set lunch break and can sneak away from my desk, lol.) Hubs and I also walk to the store rather than drive if we are craving a treat or ... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 15:19:01 EST I Am Not Strong... Small backstory... I started seeing a therapist about 9 years ago when I was in a terribly abusive relationship (physically, sexually, but terribly emotionally.) My employer pays for 10 free sessions a year, so since then. if I'm having issues, I'll go back for a few sessions. Throughout the 9 years, one major thing we've talked about and tried to work on was/is my reaction to people lying about me. (Not only in therapy but also with my friend/Bible Study leader/mentor, as she can also see h... Sun, 17 Apr 2016 10:41:09 EST Finally Some Nice Weather! Well we finally got some nice weather~! 72 and sunny! Woohoo! Spent a few hours in the morning raking by Grandma and Grandpa's house. It is truly a blessing to be able to help them. They mean so much to me. (Plus, I just love being outside.) I swear Grandpa would have me on total bedrest if he could paranoid, lol. Had lunch and some nice conversation then headed home. <BR> <BR> I did some extra laundry so I could hang it out on the line, lol. Yeah , I'm like that. Got dinner... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 19:28:46 EST Anxiety for kiddo Ok, so .... I feel like I NEED to blog, this has been holding my mind captive ALL DAY. (And as my status indicates, since it woke me up at 3:20 am and wouldn't let me go back to sleep.) However, I don't think it's 'safe' for me to blog right now. Kiddo is having an issue that she's pretty upset about. After getting her to talk to us about it, we finally got her to realize that who she needs to talk to is her Mama. And under the assumption that her Mama is checking up on me via SparkPeople (a... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 17:29:41 EST Cold Weather Family Hike Weather has NOT been cooperating at ALL in Wisconsin. Still snowing and miserable. Saturday I just couldn't handle being inside anymore so we bundled up for a hike! (32 degrees but sunny.) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 11 Apr 2016 11:27:10 EST Silly Bug It has been brought to my attention, that she's still at it, lol. So here's one for you, since you can't get enough of me! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I know my life is fascinating and amazing... but you can kindly escort yourself out, and stay there. ( you should have done years ago, and ever since.) Fri, 8 Apr 2016 13:12:29 EST Quick Update Ok! So I am 21 ( and a half) weeks pregnant. I'm eating and gaining weight now. no more nausea or food aversions. YAY! That was rough, lol. Not really having any cravings either, though. I am wanting fruit a lot more than before, but not to the point where I NEED IT NOW! I am unfortunately, still allergic to being pregnant. Yes...for real. ( Original post about it here: <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088476 </link> ) I am soooo itchy. Head to... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 12:44:45 EST Happy Anniversary Hubs! (PICS!) Today is our 2 year wedding anniversary. (Which, isn't quite as important as our 'real' anniversary, lol since we've been together over 6 1/2 years now.) So, instead of going on and on about how fantastic he is (cuz...he really is. Best man I have EVER know Didn't know men like him even existed in the real world! *swoon*) I am just going to post some pics of our favorite times together! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 18:43:26 EST Tidbits From Soul Keeping # 2 I posted the first part of this blog here:<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=6109642 <BR> <BR> So, here are some more tidbits from this Bible Study we are currently working on called "Soul Keeping" by John Ortberg. (Chapters 6 - 11) <BR> <BR> "Anytime I sin, I am allowing some competing desire to have a higher priority than God and God's will for my life. That means that in the moment I have put something on a pedestal higher than God." <BR> <BR> "... Wed, 23 Mar 2016 11:50:26 EST Creating "Realities" "People create their own contrasting realities." This is truth. Not necessarily about everyone, but certainly some people. The problem arises when those "realities" contrast actual reality to a major degree. The problem then, is that the people who create these "realities" then get upset when situations, and especially people, don't align with those "realities." <BR> <BR> Let's say that in my head, I've made it a reality that so-and-so is a terrible singer. (This is just a weird example, ... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 13:52:36 EST Need Opinions Please! :-) For the past 5 years my friend has hosted a women's Bible Study. I've happily attended every one, every week. We are noticing though that our number of attendees has dropped significantly. We are thinking about doing a couples study or just a general study. But, we have only done women's studies. What are some good Bible Studies for a general group? We've typically had a wide range in ages, but never another gender, and we aren't sure what direction to go. If you have done any that you like... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 13:33:30 EST Joy , Healing Presence, Life I've been thinking about things.... lol, I do that a lot. I was realizing that despite all the awful things that have happened to me and my family, and the terrible chronic pain and illnesses we all deal with... I still have joy. (A lot of it!) I've had people comment that I'm as close to Job (Biblical guy...) as they have ever seen in real life. I've had people comment that the things I deal with (and have dealt with for many years now (and will continue to deal with) are more than most peop... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 16:32:25 EST Poor Sis Warning: Rambly and "all over the place." <BR> <BR> So Monday night/Tuesday morning around 4 am I get a phone call from Sis. I can't understand anything, but can hear her gasping for breath and crying. So I tell her to call the ambulance and I'd be right there. I got there about a minute after the cops. Maddie was up, and slightly freaked out, but poor girl is somewhat used to it...when you have a whole family with chronic illness and pain. Sis is on the floor gasping and throwing up with ma... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 12:52:59 EST Life! So, Saturday was moving day! I had to work 8-4 (which ended up being 8-5), so hubby and his friends moved all the furniture and boxes while I was at work! (Got slammed at work though! Whew!) I got done with work packed up a few more things from the apartment (odds and ends and the closet clothes are still there) and headed to the house! Started working on unpacking. I am so blessed to have such a hardworking hubby. He has completely exhausted himself in the past week (working 12-16 hours eve... Mon, 7 Mar 2016 12:48:43 EST Quick Updates, No Pics, Moving Tomorrow! Ok, well. Oh my goodness! I am so overwhelmed and frazzled, lol. Tomorrow is moving day. As mentioned earlier, our closing date being pushed back two weeks, left us with only 10 days to complete everything that had to be done. Definitely not enough time. Plus, I got stuck working tomorrow, on moving day, and no one can switch shifts with me! Gah! Today was our last day to be able to work on the house (hubs has been regularly doing 12-16 hour days, did 18 yesterday. Today, unfortunately, he i... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 13:21:31 EST Tidbits from Soul Keeping I usually wait until I finish a book to review it and post excerpts from the book, but, I'm loving this book so much and underlining so much, I will do it in sections . (Otherwise the final post would be WAAAAAY too long, haha!) <BR> <BR> The book , and accompanying Bible Study, is called "Soul Keeping" by John Ortberg. Here are some of my favorite excerpts from chapters 1 - 5. <BR> <BR> "The most important thing in life is not what you do; it's who you become. " <BR> <BR> "God has yet to... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 16:58:25 EST Renovations Part 2 and the Carnival <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Emma and her posse (new neighborhood friends.) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Drop ceiling is down in the dining room <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Plaster ceiling is down in the dining room <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeop... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 11:30:40 EST Renovations - Blog 1 I apologize in advance to the people who do not care about us renovating our beautiful new house. There will be several blogs about it. I am loving it and so excited about it! <BR> <BR> So, here's the stressful part (besides general house renovations...). <BR> <BR> We were originally scheduled to close on the house on Feb 12th, with a moving date of March 5th. That gave us 3 full weeks to finish everything that needed to be done. Since the closing was pushed back 10 days, we now only have... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 11:30:19 EST Goings on Tomorrow I will be 15 weeks pregnant. Yay! Finally got a little bump, though it basically just looks like I ate too much for lunch. The allergy to pregnancy hormones is a bit more controlled with the Zyrtec, though I am super sleepy all day from it. I'm having crazy bad pelvic pain, like bad period cramps throughout the day everyday. Docs say it's most likely normal stretching pain, but coupled with endometriosis scar tissue and large cyst on my ovary. Not fun. <BR> <BR> Also not fun is m... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 11:28:19 EST Book Review: A Tale of Three Kings "A Tale of Three Kings" - Gene Edwards <BR> <BR> 1/5 stars. <BR> <BR> Either I really didn't understand anything about this book (which is unlikely given that the reading level seemed to be at about a 5th grade level,) or this was one of the dumbest books I've read. I literally do not know what the point of the book was. The cover says "A Study in Brokenness" .... but there was no study of anything. Normal I can recommend that if you have time, you should read even the bad books I read, jus... Sun, 14 Feb 2016 13:14:33 EST Grr! So I got a call from our loan officer yesterday, with yet another list of things the mortgage company wants. (As if the 156 pages I've faxed over haven't been enough...) So I got all the crap together, came up with appropriate documentation and sent it along. If we're lucky, we're looking to close et the end of NEXT week now, rather than this week. If we aren't "lucky" and end up having to switch our entire mortgage, then hopefully we'll close by the end of February. (Kind of stressful given... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 15:11:08 EST Need "Biblical" Advice So I'm coming to the end of my cover-to-cover Bible reading. Each time, I like to read it in a different version. So far I've read it through in New King James, NIV, The Message and NCV. I need opinions on which you would suggest I read next. What is your favorite? Mon, 8 Feb 2016 18:19:53 EST Venting So we've been set to close on the house this entire time, for Friday the 12th. I've busted my butt with paperwork and documentation out the wazoo. So this morning I got an email from our loan officer that now the mortgage company wants more documentation, including IRS transcripts for hubby from the last many years (even though Ive submitted his 2013 and 2014 taxes and such already.) They think that he makes too much money for us to qualify for this particular loan (even though I'm getting th... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 16:04:34 EST Book Review - Evolution: A Theory in Crisis Evolution: A Theory in Crisis - Michael Denton <BR> <BR> 3/5 Stars <BR> <BR> This book is a bit hard to review. It is an amazing science-based book. I like that it basically scientifically proves the impossibility of evolution, but it is not a religious book. (Therefore, all those nutso atheists can't claim religious brainwash or whatever they want to call it. ) It is purely science. <BR> <BR> On that note however, it is a very advanced reading book. Some chapters were easy enough t... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 13:24:56 EST Short! So, I have been itching, head to toe, TERRIBLY since I got pregnant. Using Goldbond medicated itch lotion, no help. On Calritin daily. No help. Scratching. No help. (It feels like a few years ago when some awful human being screwed with my life so much that I got stress hives from head to toe.) NOT COOL. I didn't think much of it, other than how obnoxious and uncomfortable it was. <BR> <BR> But yesterday I took my Sis to the big hospital for some Autonomic testing and had 2 hours in the wa... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 11:20:11 EST Done and Sad Today we finalized the homeowner's insurance policy, which (theoretically and hopefully) was the very last thing that needed to be finished before we can close on the new house! Closing is still set for next week Friday! Eeek! How exciting! We are planning on doing some work (replacing kitchen floors, building pantry, some painting, etc) for two weeks, and will be moving in in the last weekend in February! <BR> <BR> So far things are good with baby. The specialty ultrasound went well, and t... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 13:19:30 EST So Stressed.... So...this pregnancy is ROUGH on me. Instead of gaining weight, I've lost a total of 5 pounds. Not to mention, I look like heck. Sunken eyes, pale, just generally looking icky. I can't eat, still. The thought of eating anything pretty much turns my stomach. (Still cooking nice homemade meals for hubs and kiddo, though!) REALLY hoping this changes soon, as I'll be 12 weeks this weekend. <BR> <BR> We have our Level 2 Specialty ultrasound tomorrow morning to check on those "suspicious cystic c... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 16:34:01 EST Family Weekend and Home Cooking Had a nice weekend with the family. Love it! Friday night after work, I got home and started dinner. It was me, hubs, Emma, Sis and Maddie. We don't go out to eat much....the food is just so unhealthy! (Plus, both girls get a lot of fast food and take-out at their Mom's houses, so we really try to stick to home cooked food. So much healthier!) Anyhoo, made a bunch of quesadillas with cheese, shredded chicken, black olives and red peppers, served with salsa and sour cream. So yummy. Baked to... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 10:25:27 EST Baby Likes to Scare Me... So after getting to work this morning, I noticed I was bleeding. It wasn't "acceptable" pregnancy bleeding, so I called the doc. She asked if I've had any cramping.... well, I have no idea. Because of the other issues, I have been in serious pain with full cramping, basically from my diaphragm to my pubic bone. So, she said the doc could see me after lunch. I called and got someone to cover my shift, meanwhile trying not to flip out. <BR> <BR> Doc did an ultrasound quick. Turns out I have ... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 14:47:58 EST Laid Back Weekend Well, if you read my last blog...the update is....I'm still miserable. I've done everything I can and the docs have no suggestions for me, nothing else they can do. So, I just have to deal with it. Lame. <BR> <BR> But, this weekend hubs had no gigs! that doesn't happen often so I was super excited. Friday night after work we plopped on the couch. And that was it. That is RARE. It was so nice. We just snuggled and watched tv. Probably sounds lame to most of you, but when you don't get to d... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 10:15:06 EST Baby, House, Life! On Tuesday this week, hubs and I set out for round two of house showings to find a house for our growing family. We visited three, and absolutely fell in love with the 3rd house. It is stunning. It is 3 bed, 2 bath, 1800+ sq feet. It is a Historical Society house, so it is in immaculate condition. It has gorgeous molding in every room, around every window. Hardwood floors (original) throughout, but carpet in the bedrooms (just what I would want!) It's in a quiet neighborhood in a quiet city; ... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 13:24:05 EST Been a While....! LOTS going on, not much time to blog. And now? I can't even remember everything i wanted to blog about; pregnancy brain! <BR> <BR> We put in an offer on a house twoe weeks ago, and unfortunately someone else had put in another offer.... cash, so needless to say we didn't get the house. We aren't in any huge rush. It was a gorgeous house and I'm a bit sad, but at this stage in my life I know better than to get my hopes up about anything. We are still looking at lots of houses and I'm enjoy... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 13:28:00 EST Life Updates Ok, a couple weeks ago I blogged about my friend's charity called Helping Hands. Here's that blog... <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6037650 </link> Well, over the past few weeks we got stuff moved into the house. One of those items was my Mom's Ping Pong table. It's been sitting in my Dad's basement unused for over a decade, so I asked if he would donate it! He said fine, but it was up to me to "unbury" it. It was completely covered in boxes, sur... Sat, 19 Dec 2015 09:56:07 EST Book Review - The Case for Christmas "The Case for Christmas" - Lee Strobel <BR> <BR> This one is hard for me to rate.... I give it a 1/5 and a 4.5/5. I'll explain in a bit. <BR> <BR> Lee Strobel is a brilliant author, most known for his other books "The Case for a Creator" in which he basically scientifically proves the absolute impossiblity of evolution, and scientific proof for creation. "The Case for a Christ" in which he historically proves that accuracy of the Bible and existence of Jesus Christ. He also authored "The ... Wed, 16 Dec 2015 12:54:52 EST I have to Blog..... I am exploding with emotions right now, and if I don't blog, I will probably scream and flail. And given that I'm currently at work, that may be frowned upon. <BR> <BR> So, as you may or may not have picked up on, I found out last week I'm PREGNANT! For someone who was told it'd be incredibly difficult to ever conceive, and who has only one ovary, severe endometriosis and chronic cysts...pregnancy is a miracle for us! We were pregnant in April as well, but that one ended in miscarriage a... Fri, 11 Dec 2015 15:32:30 EST Stuff Sorry, this blog is all rambly and in a weird order.... don't care, lol. <BR> <BR> Sunday, Monday and Wednesday this week I had very mild headaches. I haven't had that many mild headaches in a LONG time. I had a gnarly migraine Tuesday, that sucked. Had a terrible migraine yesterday, but all of a sudden in the evening it just went away! I'm fairly certain taht in the 17 years of daily headaches, THAT has never happened! I went from an awful awful migraine to a barely noticeable headache! Wh... Fri, 4 Dec 2015 10:19:52 EST Book Review: Screwtape Letters "The Screwtape Letters" - C.S. Lewis <BR> <BR> 4.5/5 stars <BR> <BR> This is a quite unique book. It is basically a series of letters from a higher up demon to a lower demon on how to best "win" the human soul. <BR> <BR> I loved this book. My only dissatisfaction is that I wish it was longer and more in depth. However, upon reading the author' s notes, I understand why it is not. C.S. Lewis, as many people know, was a highly Christian man. A quote from Lewis " Though I have never written ... Wed, 2 Dec 2015 20:17:09 EST Hope? Friday after work I had my 5th acupuncture visit. So far I have seen no improvement, but I knew going into it that it wouldn't be a quick fix. It seems I have stumped yet another medical professional. I had some hope, because for 24 hours after my visit, I would have an AWFUL flare-up migraine, then the next 24 hours a very mild headache....then back to normal. I say this gave me hope, because obviously what she was doing had some effect on the migraines. <BR> <BR> Anyways, Friday we spent... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 13:20:37 EST Book Review - Return To Life "Return To Life " - Jim Tucker <BR> <BR> 3.5 out of 5 Stars <BR> <BR> Although a devout Christian, I have difficulties believing that reincarnation doesn't exist. I've bought several books on reincarnation in Christianity to try and help myself wade through the issues. The first book I read on the topic was AWFUL.... here is the review. <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946763 </link> <BR> <BR> This book was not related to religion in any for... Fri, 27 Nov 2015 12:55:04 EST Helping Hands - Need ideas! My best friend runs a ministry called Helping Hands. For the past 8(?) years, she has rented an apartment in a very low income, "ghetto" part of the town. Most of the tenants in the biuilding are on drugs, selling drugs, in and out of jail, etc. Each Wednesday she has a "Bible Study" for all the kids in the building. Most of these kids have had interactions with police, even by grade 6 and even younger. Many have parents in jail or on drugs. The kids have HARD lives. <BR> <BR> (Every spring... Wed, 25 Nov 2015 10:20:14 EST Poor Mark... I've mentioned our friend Mark in prior blogs here and there...but here is a quick recap. Hubby's friend mark, was knocked out of a tree 3 (I think?) years ago, and fractured several vertebrae in his back. He is paralyzed now from the belly button down. He was going through a divorce at the time, and she proceeded with it. He had to find a place to live quickly, that he could afford, so he ended up renting a trailer about 30 minutes from us in a po-dunk little nothing-town. Due to that, or th... Mon, 23 Nov 2015 16:14:07 EST