ERINLINDSAY83's SparkPeople Blog ERINLINDSAY83's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Six Years Tomorrow will mark 6 years since the day hubs and I 'fell in love'!!! (Went out to lunch, as friends, and were basically inseparable after that.) <BR> <BR> We've been through A LOT. We've dealt with his ex, HATING me for no reason, treating me like crap, talking down about me to anyone who will listen, and for the first few years following hubs to his band gigs and crying/begging him to come back to her. It's been trying. (Still is, as we are co-parenting...) <BR> <BR> Also dealt with a... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 10:26:28 EST Bored, Q's! Would you rather go into the past and meet your ancestors or go into the future and meet your great-great grandchildren? <BR> ~Wouldn't that depend on my ability to have chlidren? <BR> <BR> Would you rather have more time or more money? <BR> ~Personally, money. I have enough time. But, if I could give hubby more time, I would choose that so we could see each other more! <BR> <BR> Would you rather have a rewind button or a pause button on your life? <BR> ~Pause. No point in rewinding things... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 11:35:08 EST Beauty of Normalcy My husband is a busy, busy man. Add into that equation my odd work schedule and having 2 kids with us, part time, and I really don't get much quality time with him. We get a "date night" maybe every couple months....? We see each other a few hours a week, usually in passing, and frequently with a child. (Not complaining; love the time we get to spend with his daughter and my niece.) <BR> <BR> Well this weekend we found ourselves with time together. He didn't have to work, he wasn't teachin... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 11:38:20 EST Yesterday So this entire week, I've had an awful migraine. Cannot get it to go away, no matter what I take or do. ( I worked an extra 12 hour shift on Tuesday as well, so I'm sure that didn't help anything. ) I'm used to having a headache everyday, but this week's has just been exceptionally bad. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I was off, but had Miss Emma all day. Not a problem, she's a good kid, but I had a lot of stuff I was supposed to do. <BR> <BR> The day started off with a dentist appointment, which ... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 10:25:52 EST Weekend in Indy/Best Hubs Ever! Hubby's band books a 3-gig weekend in Indiana (Lafayette and Indianapolis) every 6 weeks. (We are from north of Milwaukee.) I've never made the trip down, because they leave Thursday morning and I work Fridays. This past weekend my schedule got messed up and I had Friday off, so I decided to head down with them! <BR> <BR> We left Friday morning (the Thursday night show was cancelled due to construction, so just two shows this trip.) It's typically a 4 hour drive to get to the hotel in Lafaye... Wed, 5 Aug 2015 09:44:45 EST Life On Friday, I updated the Team Page for our family's Walk To End Alzheimer's fundraising page. <BR> (Here it is if you want to peek!) <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> It was's always hard when I think about Mom. Often, something will trigger a great memory of her, but I soon find myself in tears, knowing I won't get to make any new memories with her. Age 54 is too young to die, especially from Alzheimer's. It's been almost a year since she passed ,... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 13:32:41 EST Book Review - "Respectable Sins" "Respectable Sins" - Jerry Bridges <BR> <BR> 5/5 Stars! Wow!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> This is a must-read for any and every christian, no matter where you are in your walk with Christ. The book guides us to think about the things we do/think/say on a regular basis, that are sins, but are generally ignored by Christians, because they don't seem as "serious" as other grievous sins. <BR> <BR> When I do book reviews, I like to include excerpts; phrases that I've found myself having underlined. ... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 17:48:41 EST Weekend in Pics! <img src=""> <BR> Friday night, hubs' band played at the local airport, that was having a Wittmann Fly-In. (Kind of a pre EAA party.) I brought both of the girls to see the show after work. They got to look at a bunch of airplanes, see them all taking off and landing, and listen to a super fun band, dancing the night away! <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 20 Jul 2015 09:18:10 EST BFFs Short note: I was talking to a friend at work yesterday. She said she had been looking at all our pics (me and hubs) from our camping trip. She said "I love looking at the pics you post about all your trips. It's just fun to look at them. It seems like you guys are just absolute best friends always having fun!" <BR> <BR> *smile* <BR> <BR> That's because, get this, we ARE best friends, and we ARE always having fun together! It's nice to hear that our love is so awesome and apparent that peo... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 12:39:34 EST Copper Falls - Day 4 Day 4, Saturday...was one of the best days of my LIFE. It was prefect. (WOuld ghave been a bit better had hubs not had to go get the truck fixed and could have slept in and had a big breakfast with me, but, oh well!) We headed out to Saxon Falls. (About a 45 minute drive from the park.) This was my favorite falls when we went in 2013, so I was super excited to head back. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is a ... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 16:17:25 EST Copper Falls - Day 3 Friday we woke up and, as expected, were pretty sore from the extensive hiking trip we did the day prior. We decided to hang out at the campground for the day. Copper Falls state park has a nice little beach. After a big breakfast of bacon, sausage and eggs (we love cooking over the fire!) we headed down to the beach. We layed around for almost two hours, just relaxing and soaking up some sun. Twas spectacular! <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 13 Jul 2015 15:14:06 EST Copper Falls - Day 2 Day two, after a hearty breakfast of Corned Beef Hash ove rthe fire (yum!) we decided to head out to Superior Falls. It is about a45 minute drive from the park. The walk down to the shore of Lake Superior from this parking area is SUPER steep. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> We spent a bit of time hanging out on the shore. It is a "beach" of rounded rocks. Of course Josiah spent a lot of time skipping rocks. (He's f... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 14:41:10 EST Copper Falls - Day 1 Every year hubs and I take one "big" camping trip. Usually 3 nights, 4 days somewhere. This year I booked 4 nights, 5 days up at our favorite park, Copper Falls. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It is about a 6 hour drive for us. (People grimace a bit when we tell them that, but we love the drive. It is very scenic and we just enjoy each others' company, so the car ride is pleasant! <BR> <BR> We got to the park around 3p... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 13:26:42 EST Such a bad Christian.... I've posted before about my short-comings as a Christian, and I'm sure I will continue to do so. Because, simply stated, I am a very flawed human. <BR> <BR> So this blog needs a bit of a preface... <BR> <BR> We switched churches in 2013, after my attending the previous church for about 15 years. (This is where I met hubby.) Hubs polayed on the praise team for almost 10 years. We were very active, attending Bible studies, volunteering at church functions, etc. <BR> <BR> We were approa... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 11:39:15 EST Giving Up Well, blah blah blah, headaches everyday for 16+ years, blah blah blah. <BR> So I've been seeing a new chiropractor for a few months now. Shortly after I began seeing him, my neck started to get sore (much more than usual, and differently.) It's so stiff and tight and sore it's VERY difficult to drive. I have to turn my whole torso to change lanes or turn and such. I mentioned it to him reight away and we both agreed it was just a temporary thing; my muscles are getting "angry" as my spine ... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 19:06:37 EST Camping - Pics! We took the kiddo camping this weekend. I had to work until 5 on Friday, so we left around 6pm Friday evening. Headed up (just over an hour drive) and got set up right away. (Sadly, in that time I realized I forgot the bag with all of the stuff in it for Emma to do, including a nice big camping scavenger hunt that she was excited to do, and her flip flops! Parenting fail. Ugh.) <BR> <BR> After we got the site set up , we walked back a few yards to the cliff edge that was just behind the si... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 10:45:40 EST Completely Random Brilliant Idea I go to Physical Therapy twice a week to try and treat neck pain caused by or causing (doctors still can't figure any of it out) the daily pounding headaches. I went to counseling on/off for many years as a result of a very abusive (physically, mentally, sexually, etc) relationship I was in shortly before I met hubby and a nutcase stalker that harassed me for many years. <BR> <BR> My PT is basically just deep tissue massage to try and get some of the muscles to chill out after I see my chi... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 15:56:25 EST Headaches, Camping, New Book Update on the headaches....having a lot of ups and downs (weeks at a time they seem to be waning, then the next few weeks they seem worse than usual.) I'm thinking this could be historically how they've been, and I'm just paying more attention to them than I ever had, in hopes of finding some way to tame them. Unsure. For now, still seeing Chiropractor twice a week and Physical Therapy twice a week, abstaining from Apsartame, and taking several mineral and herbal supplements. (Meanwhile, I f... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 13:40:33 EST Dad's Birthday and a Hike - Pics From April through October, my Dad stays permanently (aside from coming home for doc appointments,) at his camper inWaupaca (WI.) We head up to visit him when we can. (It's much easier for my Sisters....I don't get up there too much... what with having a full time job and a family, lol.) Anyways, his birthday was June18th, and Father's Day of course, so I scheduled my Physical Therapy and Chiropractor appointments (every Tuesday and Thursday for me...ugh) for early in the morning so I could m... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 10:49:53 EST Book Review - "Reincarnation: The Missing Link in Christianity" My introduction.... I am a devout Christian. I was raised in the church, stepped away to make my own decisions, came back and never left again. Mainstream Christianity has no room for the ideas of reincarnation. However, having read several stories of reincarnation , where small children are able to identify people and places in detail that they've never met or been to, I am not convinced that reincarnation isn't real. (Whoa.....major double negatives going on! ) <BR> <BR> I decided to look... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 16:26:36 EST Hiking - Pics Went out for a short hike after work today. Ran into a few animal friends! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 12 Jun 2015 21:33:31 EST Low Budget Fashionista..... For 3 years now I have done a Low Budget Fashion Blog. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I've been super stressed lately, and the desire to do the blog is waning. <BR> <BR> On Friday last week my purse was stolen (maybe I'll blog about that later...if I feel like it, lol) and in it was my camera. I use the camera to take the photos for my blog. I use my camera exclusively for these pics. I rarely use my phone to take pics ever, my camera is with me AT ALL ... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 10:26:16 EST OCD, PL, ADD I feel like people toss around terms WAY too much sometimes. <BR> <BR> For example, so many people say "Oh I'm so OCD about this." or "Oh my OCD is kicking in." OCD is a real, diagnosed medical condition, and people just casually applying it to themselves because they are passionate about things or like things organized in a certain way is just annoying to me. It seems like someone who actually has the disorder would be offended by people just casually using the term, because they are actu... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 11:22:54 EST My Pride - Follow Up Last year on this day I wrote a blog about some MAJOR pride I was dealing with. I wanted to revisit to see how I've dealt with it. <BR> Here is the blog: <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709999 </link> <BR> <BR> Well.....since the blog, several more nasty things happened; Mom died, I had a miscarriage, and a few other obnoxious 'personal' things. <BR> <BR> So, how am I doing? Perhaps slightly better? Often I have people say their head hur... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 13:09:17 EST Camping - Pics! Given my husband's insanely busy schedule, (I literally have to black out weekends with him many, many months in advance, ) this weekend was our first camping trip of the season. (We usually go out a bit earlier, but, oh well!) We headed to Willow River State Park in Wisconsin. <BR> <BR> Friday morning, after my Sis picked up my niece (who spends a few nights a week at our house,) we got set to head out of town (7 am.) We set out on the 5 1/2 hour drive early, and quickly saw the rain cloud... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 21:48:56 EST Zoo Field Trip Yesterday was my step-daughter's school field trip to the zoo! She'd asked me a few weeks ago if I would go with her. (Parents are welcomed and encouraged, not just as chaperones.) I didn't have to work, so of course! She was so excited to see me show up at school! It was sweet. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Checking out the penguins! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Fri, 22 May 2015 11:13:37 EST Camp Timber-Lee 2015 ..See the previous blog for explanation of this camp and the kids who attend....! :-) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is the group we had this year. Ages 2nd - 10th grade. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Carpet ball is a HUGE deal at this camp. I've never seen it or heard of it anywhere else, but the kids (and chaperones) love it! <BR> ... Mon, 18 May 2015 14:41:24 EST Camp Chaperones My closest friend Kristin runs a ministry called Helping Hands. She rents and apartment in a complex in the "ghetto." Every Wednesday she holds a "Sunday School" class and brings Christ into this area for these kids. She has a group of about 20 kids that come regularly. She holds the Sunday School in the main living area. In the bedroom, she has a "store". She takes food and clothing donations. When the kids notice they don't have food or clothes at home...they are welcome to "shop" and take ... Fri, 15 May 2015 11:44:18 EST Neurologist Update Last week I went to the neurologist. My fourth neurologist in a long line of specialists trying to fix my issue of daily headaches/migraines that I've been dealing with for 16 + years. (Peruse previous blogs for snippets of things I've tried (basically everything.)) <BR> <BR> Back up just a sec... The night before the appointment, I had begun to have second thoughts about going. Through regular chiropractoc appointments and religious at-home physical therapy strecthing, I had gotten my d... Wed, 13 May 2015 14:14:59 EST In Tears... My Sisters and I were raised in the in church three days a week, every week. I stayed in that life (well, church once a week, fell away for a short time, but never really abandoned the lifestyle, just the building, if that makes sense.) Both sisters fell away. Throughout the years I came back stronger than ever, I attend church every week, (to a point that if I miss it I feel weird all week.) I read my Bible almost daily. I attend Bible Study weekly, and have homework from that d... Fri, 8 May 2015 15:36:44 EST Yesterday Not a special blog...just a recap of yesterday.... struggles with new meds, and goings on. <BR> <BR> Well, to update, I saw a new neurologist on Tuesday (my fourth, in a long line of specialists to try and fix the daily headaches.) He decided to put me back on Topamax, a drug I had tried several years ago, but had gone off of, but couldn't remember why. I may remember why now... <BR> <BR> After just one pill, I no longer like soda. I'm not a huge soda drinker....I drink one soda a day. But... Fri, 8 May 2015 12:06:22 EST Lots of Random Thoughts and Much Gratefulness. Ok.......hopefully you all got to check out my laughing blog I posted last week....still giggling about it! <BR> <BR> First things first , I just need to brag on my step-daughter! <BR> <BR> This girl is such a go-getter! Emma is so smart and loves having fun and being creative. If she wakes up before us, instead of turning the tv on and plopping on the couch to watch mindless cartoons, she gets out her painting supplies or writes a book. So awesome! <BR> <BR> She LOVES being outside! We... Mon, 4 May 2015 13:42:20 EST Have to Laugh.... So, I've been wanting another piercing for years now. I have 8, but I just like them. I recently saw an article saying that Daith piercings have given relief to a handful of people suffering chronic headaches/migraines (because they are on a certain pressure point) ! Well sign me up! It certainly isn't guaranteed by any means, but if nothing comes relief-wise, at least I've got a cute new piercing! <BR> <BR> So I go to the piecring place yesterday and I have the article printed up, with th... Fri, 1 May 2015 16:16:45 EST Q's Who is your hero? <BR> ~Paul....? As in, the apostle Paul. To go from persecuting Christians to teaching about Christ seems like it would have been hard (embarassing?) but he did it! <BR> <BR> If you could live anywhere, where would it be? <BR> ~On a lot with a lot of land outside of Chattanooga Tennessee! Someday....! <BR> <BR> What is your biggest fear? <BR> ~Death of loved ones. Already lost my Mom tragically. I can't handle any more! <BR> <BR> What is your favorite family vacation? ... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 14:43:45 EST Well they say the 1st year of marriage is the toughest.... Well they say the 1st year of marriage is the toughest for any couple, regardless of outside circumstances. Right now, I feel the need to swoon publicly. <BR> <BR> We had our 1 year wedding anniversary on Easter Sunday (April 5th.) We are happy as can be! I mean like..... disgustingly in-love, mushy, puppy-love happy. We've faced challenges that many couples don't have to deal with in their first year... (if ever.) <BR> <BR> Since we got married we've dealt with: <BR> <BR> ~My Mom's dea... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 17:04:40 EST Miscarriage Well labs came back and I officially miscarried my little bitty baby. Tough news to swallow after basically being told since I was 18 when I had my first pelvic surgery that it'd be extremely difficult to conceive. ( I have severe endometriosis and chronic ovarian cysts, and even had had one of my ovaries removed.) <BR> <BR> It's actually been 2 1/2 weeks since I officially miscarried (when the severe pain and cramping happened, though I didn't think much of it because my body is bunk and I... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 19:08:02 EST Kinda Freaking Out So I found out this morning I'm pregnant! Eee!!!!!!! Been wanting it for a long time. I was told it would basically never happen given my history. I have one ovary, severe endometriosis, and chronic ovarian cysts. Basically my stuff is covered in scar tissue and conception would be near impossible. SO...whoa!!!!!! <BR> <BR> Buuuut, I've been bleeding for 2 1/2 weeks (not good...) with pelvic pain and crazy pain during sex. <BR> <BR> So, I had the blood test...they think I'm either 4 wee... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 15:25:46 EST Now THIS is talent! Whoa.... this here is my cousin...just have to brag on her! <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> This is her audition for some hula-hooping team... mesmerizing! Mon, 13 Apr 2015 21:58:48 EST My God Performing Miracles!!! worth the 8 minutes to watch! (Have your tissues handy!) <BR> <BR> <link><BR>absolutely-crushed-heard-result/ </link> Fri, 10 Apr 2015 12:28:06 EST More bad new and a bit of good news..... OK, long story but I will try to keep it short. In the end of 2013, hubs set up a business with an accountant recommended to him by his coworker/business partner. Fast-forward to November 2014... this accountant died so we searched for a new accountant. With the referral of my Dad and Sis, we found a new guy. Turns out his former accountant had set up his business completely illegally (as well as done last year's taxes illegally) without us knowing. So this year instead of getting a few thou... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 14:55:27 EST Easter Weekend Wow..... what a fantastic weekend!!!!! <BR> <BR> I had to work my normal Friday shift , so i missed the two Good Friday Services at our church. Hubs and I decided to go to our old church with kiddo to worship and remember as a family. (Which is sweet since DH had been at our church from 10:30 am until 5:30 pm, between practices and services as a member of the worship team.) I always enjoyed the Good Friday service at our old church anyways. One of the songs sung was "Nothing But the Bloo... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 10:59:41 EST Medical Bills Need to vent!!!!! <BR> <BR> I am drowning in medical bills. It's frustrating for a few reasons... <BR> <BR> 1.) I work for one of the largest medical systems in WI, and my insurance SUCKS, so I end up paying a lot out of pocket. Not ok! <BR> <BR> 2.) I have yet to ever be helped by all these services that I'm paying for! I wish there was some money back guarantee. SO I pay Out of pocket about $2000 for one round ( I had two total) of Botox for the migraines, for example. It gives me NO... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 09:23:31 EST Here's Why I'm a Bad Christian.... Here's Why I'm a Bad Christian.... (not that this is even close to the only reason...., lol.) <BR> <BR> I know I should not think like this, but I do. I need to ask God more and more to help me overcome these thoughts.... <BR> <BR> I am so annoyed every year to see churches fill up on Easter and Christmas. How awful does that sound?! Let me explain though.... (not that it makes it any better, but it might make sense at least.) I get annoyed, thinking "You don't come to church all year, ex... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 20:51:51 EST Smack Some Sense Into Me! Here's the backstory: <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895311 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> Well, in life I tend to be a major optimist . (To the point that it bugs some people....oops!) Well lately I've just been so unbelievably frustrated and in pain that in the area of the headaches, there is no hope, no optimism. I try to look at my blessings instead, but it's hard. Yes, I know I have SOOO much to be grateful for, but it's just not fair to h... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 11:51:04 EST Can't Stop Crying.... NEED TO VENT!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> As a recap...I've had a headache or migraine every day for 16 years. No exaggeration. I've spent tens of thousands of dollars, been to every doc and specialist I can think of, tried basically every med, every diet, every therapy out there. None of the docs can figure it out. IT'S GETTING OLD!!!! <BR> <BR> Well for the past few weeks ( 2 months?) they have been worse than usually. I sit at work and just randomly burst into tears , in a mixture of pain an... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 14:27:50 EST My Poor Sister My Sister has Lupus that won't respond to any medication or treatment. This is what she deals with every day.... <BR> <BR> <link> </link> Wed, 18 Mar 2015 10:51:36 EST Lessons to Learn My heart is just EXPLODING for Josiah. Throughout the day yesterday, I was just thinking about how it takes a special person to be married to someone with chronic pain or illness. And Josiah (DH) was raised that way because of his mother (who was chronically ill through most of his life), so I am truly blessed. And later in the evening I got the full view of just how wonderful a man he truly is, not just to me, but in general. Like…I tear up thinking about it. (It’s also a story of incredi... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 10:31:40 EST ???'s What is your hot-button....what instantly pisses you off? <BR> ~Abortion. Without a doubt. <BR> <BR> What do you want to do once you retire? <BR> ~I'd love to own a lot of land in Tennessee.... and "vacation" there for a month in spring and a month in fall...but do it totally "Little House on the Prairie" style... long-term camping, I guess. Volunteer for Alzheimer's and Lupus fundraising events , as well. <BR> <BR> Did you have braces? <BR> ~I did indeed, only for a year. Soooo gratef... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 19:20:00 EST Forgiveness Quote Just happened upon this in my new book and thought it hit the nail on the head. <BR> <BR> "My homespun definition of forgiveness is simple: Remembering the past without the pain. If it brings up painful memories, it isn't over yet." <BR> <BR> "Mortals that we are, it is obviously very difficult to totally erase something from our memories. We do remember the past . But if and when we can remember it without pain we have succeeded in forgiving." Fri, 6 Feb 2015 17:41:19 EST New Tattoo! (Pic!) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I got my tattoo today in honor of my Mom who passed away in September of Early Onset Alzheimer's. <BR> <BR> "What the mind can't remember, the heart never forgets." <BR> <BR> <em>520</em> <em>382</em> <em>46</em> <em>129</em> <em>46</em> <em>382</em> <em>520</em> Thu, 5 Feb 2015 20:23:36 EST