ERINLINDSAY83's SparkPeople Blog ERINLINDSAY83's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Song Ok, so I just have to post this..... Hubs is in an Irish Band. He is a brilliant musician. (Singer, drummer (was in the Marine Corps Band as a professional percussionist,) taught himself mandolin, bass, piano/keyboard.) He also writes music. So the band transitioned from a cover band, to also performing originals. Hubby wrote a song for me and it is beautiful. <BR> <BR> Lyrics: <BR> <BR> "Who I Am" <BR> <BR> I search for your face in my dreams <BR> 'Cause even there I want you next to ... Sun, 25 Sep 2016 17:13:25 EST Life Well, tomorrow Elleanor Elizabeth will be 7 weeks old. What?!?! How is that even possible?! Anyhoo, I have to go back to work in a week. Breaks my heart. I left Ellie with my Sis for 3 hours while I had a doc appointment and ran a few errands and I missed her soooooo much! I normally work 12 hour shifts, but I'm going back for half shifts for a few weeks just to ease into it. I can't imagine not seeing her for that long! (It's so weird... a few weeks before I had her, I was telling hubby tha... Sun, 25 Sep 2016 16:17:34 EST My Beautiful Baby! Miss Elleanor Elizabeth...aka, the Duchess! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.s... Tue, 20 Sep 2016 12:27:24 EST Labor and Delivery - What else can go wrong? Friday August 5th, I went to work. I was feeling pretty awful, but I'm never one to call in sick if I can avoid it. I was having contractions and a lot of back pain, but nothing 'regular.' I made it through my shift rather miserably. Went home and walked to the diner and store with hubs and kiddo (almost 2 miles,) having contractions on/off the whole time. <BR> <BR> Saturday I had contractions again all day, about 10-15 minutes apart, and still considerable back pain. Sunday we went to chur... Wed, 17 Aug 2016 18:23:53 EST Hopefully Last Update Before Baby! So last week, at 38 weeks, I had my cervical check with OB. I was barely 1 cm dilated, 50% effaced, baby at station -2. Not bad. I was happy with that. Yesterday I had my 39 week check, hadn't felt much over the past week to signify an dilating, but was still hopeful. I have been so uncomfortable and just want baby out. (Feet HUGE and swollen, all the way up to my groin, as well as face, fingers, etc. It's all super painful, and you'd never know that until you feel it. Only sleeping 4-5 hours... Fri, 5 Aug 2016 13:15:46 EST Camping, Kiddos, Life Well, at 37 weeks pregnant, I've been too fatigued to blog. Working 12 hour shifts (with some extra shifts thrown in there) is REALLY tiring, lol. (Not to mention ongoing daily migraines...especially bad the past few days.) <BR> <BR> So, last weekend, hubs and I took his kiddo and my niece camping for the last trip of the season. (Usually we go through end of September/early October, but camping at 36 weeks pregnant is pretty tough as it is, lol.) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.spar... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 13:38:19 EST Book Review: "Dorie: The Girl Nobody Loved." "Dorie: The Girl Nobody Loved." - Doris Van Stone <BR> <BR> 5 out of 5 Stars. <BR> <BR> This was a beautiful book; heartfelt and well-written. It is relatively short (155 pages) and super easy to read, but well worth it! It is a wonderful story of hope. I didn't really underline anything, not for lack of content, so I can't share any excerpts. But, do take my recommendation and read this book! Wed, 13 Jul 2016 16:22:53 EST Book Review: "Unanswered" "Unanswered: Lasting Truth for Trending Questions" - Jeremiah Johnston <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> 1.5 out of 5 stars. <BR> <BR> <BR> So utterly disappointed with this book. When I saw this book (and accompanying study guide,) I was super excited. It seemed to fit me to a T! I am the one always asking the tough questions; the questions the we "aren't supposed to ask." The book touted answering those tough questions. <BR> <BR> Although the book brings up all the topics (Suicide, demon possess... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 16:00:15 EST Baby Celebration I HATE baby showers (and bridal showers, lol.) I had a few people who really wanted to throw me one, so I obliged, so long as it wasn't a "baby shower." We had a baby celebration yesterday. It was coed, just eating and visiting and NO awful baby shower games. It was lovely! Here are a few pics! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Sisters! <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 11 Jul 2016 12:26:23 EST Weekend in Michigan My family headed over to Michigan this weekend to celebrate the 4th of July with my Aunties (and Uncles.) Dad, Sis and niece Maddie went over Friday morning; I had to work Saturday morning, so we left Saturday afternoon. It is about a 5 hour drive, but it's a nice drive. (I made Emma a huge road-trip scavenger hunt to try to keep her occupied a bit on the drive. Road trips are tough on 7 year olds!) <BR> <BR> We got there Saturday around 8:30 their time. We hung out at Aunty Pammy's house un... Wed, 6 Jul 2016 16:07:02 EST Book Review: "Everyday Blessings" Book Review: "Everyday Blessings: The Inner Work of Mindful Parenting" - Myla and Jon Kabat-Zinn <BR> <BR> 1 out of 5 Stars (maybe 1 1/2 stars if I'm feeling generous...) <BR> <BR> I was literally counting the pages until I was done with this book. This book came as a recommendation (as most of my books do...) from the previous book I read about mindful birthing; which I really enjoyed. <BR> <BR> This book really did very little to explain the concept of mindfulness. So, unless you know a... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 11:49:20 EST Camping and Upcomings! So hubs and I went camping this past weekend for the last time (for a long time to come,) as just the two of us! We had stayed at this park in the past, but we had both come down with something and the weather was cold and rainy, so we ended up packing up and leaving early. We went to Wildcat Mountain State Park. <BR> <link> </link> <BR> it is a beautiful area, so we were excited to head back. Getting closer to the weekend, I noticed how HOT the temps... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 17:57:33 EST Weekend 32 weeks pregnant! Eek! Finished painting the nursery on Tuesday. I got impatient with hubby's busy schedule, so I put the crib together myself as well, lol. What can I say?? Nesting? lol. Curtains are on the way and the bookshelf is almost ready. Then, baby's room is ready for her arrival! Yay! <BR> <BR> Tonight after work were are headed up to lake Auburn. Our friends have a cottage there. We will have dinner together, then head out on the pontoon for a sunset ride with drinks and desser... Fri, 17 Jun 2016 14:10:12 EST Goings- On Just a quick update of what's been going on! <BR> <BR> I've still been working on my rock wall garden a TON. Those previous home-owners really made a mess of it. It is starting to look nice, but it has been a pain in the butt. (And back... hours and hours of weeding.) I planted some creeping sedum in the areas that I'm totally done weeding, that has already started spreading. I'm also working on an area that was just lawn/weeds and digging that up to make it a veggie garden. I won't get an... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 19:01:28 EST Book Review - " Before Love Dies" "Before Love Dies " - Larry J Russell <BR> <BR> 3/5 stars <BR> <BR> I'd call this a "basic guidebook to Christian relationships." It has some great info, but it also has a lot of common sense and fluff thrown in there. (Although, perhaps common sense to me, is not common sense to someone else.) Hubs and I have a wonderful, happy relationship; I can't imagine a better spouse for myself. But this book was quoted in another book I read, and as is typically the case, it instantly went on my Ama... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 20:42:03 EST Family Camping! Friday afternoon we picked kiddo up from school, and headed straight for the campground. It's about a 2 hour drive, so by the time we got there and got everything set up, it was basically time to cook dinner, then s'mores, then bed. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We woke up bright and early Saturday morning and cooked some yummy, hearty breakfast over the fire. We headed out to the West Bluff of Devil's Lake t... Mon, 23 May 2016 12:45:32 EST Book Review - "Mindful Birthing" "Mindful Birthing" - Nancy Bardacke CNM <BR> <BR> 4.5 / 5 stars <BR> <BR> I've been leaning towards a natural childbirth my whole adult life. (Yes, even when I thought there was no chance of conceiving, my daydreams of it included a natural birth.) I started reading online stories of natural childbirth, and in one story this book was recommended. When I read things and a book is recommended, it almost always ends up on my Amazon wishlist. ( I have soooo many books at home, and dozens more... Wed, 18 May 2016 18:21:03 EST Chaperoning Youth Camp (Pics) My friend runs a ministry in a near-by city. It is basically "Sunday School" (though on Wednesdays,) where she teaches unchurched kids from ROUGH homes and neighborhoods, about the love of Christ. Every year she takes the kids to a Christian Adventure camp (paid for completely out of her pocket. She just loves these kids.) This is the third year that hubs and I have been the chaperones. It is a very stressful, very exhausting, very trying, but very blessed experience. The kids really know ho... Mon, 16 May 2016 11:03:00 EST Just Dropping By I've been wanting to get started on my gardens at the new house basically since we moved in. There are a LOT of spaces to be worked on. (All of which were completely neglected by the previous homeowners so they are all in AWFUL condition.) I will have to completely dig up grass and weeds to create a new garden area for veggies, the rest will just all have to be redone. <BR> <BR> Yesterday after taking kiddo to school and helping MIL with a few things, I decided to tackle my rock wall. It is... Fri, 13 May 2016 13:14:53 EST Weekend Overview....cuz I'm Bored. :-) Friday I worked my normal 9 hour shift, then was planning on heading to Hubby's band gig. I don't get to see them often, and this pub is typically quiet and not drunk-people-filled. I got ready to head out after work, hopped in my car and about 10 minutes into my 30 minute drive, my normal headache turned into and an absolutely splitting migraine. I decided to keep going, since I'm pretty used to doing any and everything with a pounding headache. <BR> <BR> I got there, opened the door, and ... Mon, 9 May 2016 12:45:45 EST Mother's Day Mother's Day has been rough for me for my whole adult life. Originally, I had been told I wouldn't ever naturally conceive. (Ha! guess God showed them!) So Mother's Day was always a painful reminder that I would never be a "mother." (Granted, even before I got pregnant, I mothered my Step-daughter and somewhat my niece. But as anyone with fertility issues knows, that's just not the same.) <BR> <BR> Then my Mom got sick. She was diagnosed with Advanced Early Onset Alzheimer's at the age o... Sat, 7 May 2016 10:38:55 EST Ali Apologizing So you may recall me mentioning my older Sis, Ali. <BR> Link to last blog mentioning her: <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6144155 </link> <BR> <BR> So although she is saying this nasty stuff about me to younger Sis, Ash, she has started texting me "happy" texts. I texted her Happy Birthday, and she texted me back "Oh thanks! Hope you and the baby are doing well! *heart emoji* *smile emoji* And a few more texts like that. <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 4 May 2016 11:07:12 EST Being Judgmental (And before I even start, just a public service announcement: It is spelled judgmental, NOT judgemental.) <BR> <BR> I think being judgmental is one of the easiest sins to commit. (Granted, I also think people often over -use this term. Disagreeing with someone's lifestyle or choices does NOT make you judgmental, unless you treat them differently or think they are a bad person for what they do. Just as an example...I've seen many people comment on pro-life articles, that the Christians are si... Mon, 2 May 2016 14:31:08 EST Eventful May We've got lots going on next month and are super excited! <BR> <BR> First off, hubs only has ONE band gig (and not out of state!) That in itself is like music to my ears. (Ha, that just cracked me up, him NOT playing music is music to my ears?! Hehe, though he still plays at church 2-3 times a month.) His band is usually booked at least one show every weekend, and usually one out of state a month. (Which steals him away Thur morning - Sun afternoon.) <BR> <BR> Plus, this one gig is one t... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 15:23:19 EST Walking and New Recipes The weather is FINALLY warming up enough for me to get out walking and hiking. It was a LONG winter. Being preggo made me especially antsy to get out and walk, too, to stay healthy for baby and myself. The first nice day I did a 3 mile walk to the store and back. Felt phenomenal! Since then, I take mile walks on my lunch breaks at work (when I actually get a set lunch break and can sneak away from my desk, lol.) Hubs and I also walk to the store rather than drive if we are craving a treat or ... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 15:19:01 EST I Am Not Strong... Small backstory... I started seeing a therapist about 9 years ago when I was in a terribly abusive relationship (physically, sexually, but terribly emotionally.) My employer pays for 10 free sessions a year, so since then. if I'm having issues, I'll go back for a few sessions. Throughout the 9 years, one major thing we've talked about and tried to work on was/is my reaction to people lying about me. (Not only in therapy but also with my friend/Bible Study leader/mentor, as she can also see h... Sun, 17 Apr 2016 10:41:09 EST Finally Some Nice Weather! Well we finally got some nice weather~! 72 and sunny! Woohoo! Spent a few hours in the morning raking by Grandma and Grandpa's house. It is truly a blessing to be able to help them. They mean so much to me. (Plus, I just love being outside.) I swear Grandpa would have me on total bedrest if he could paranoid, lol. Had lunch and some nice conversation then headed home. <BR> <BR> I did some extra laundry so I could hang it out on the line, lol. Yeah , I'm like that. Got dinner... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 19:28:46 EST Anxiety for kiddo Ok, so .... I feel like I NEED to blog, this has been holding my mind captive ALL DAY. (And as my status indicates, since it woke me up at 3:20 am and wouldn't let me go back to sleep.) However, I don't think it's 'safe' for me to blog right now. Kiddo is having an issue that she's pretty upset about. After getting her to talk to us about it, we finally got her to realize that who she needs to talk to is her Mama. And under the assumption that her Mama is checking up on me via SparkPeople (a... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 17:29:41 EST Cold Weather Family Hike Weather has NOT been cooperating at ALL in Wisconsin. Still snowing and miserable. Saturday I just couldn't handle being inside anymore so we bundled up for a hike! (32 degrees but sunny.) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 11 Apr 2016 11:27:10 EST Silly Bug It has been brought to my attention, that she's still at it, lol. So here's one for you, since you can't get enough of me! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I know my life is fascinating and amazing... but you can kindly escort yourself out, and stay there. ( you should have done years ago, and ever since.) Fri, 8 Apr 2016 13:12:29 EST Quick Update Ok! So I am 21 ( and a half) weeks pregnant. I'm eating and gaining weight now. no more nausea or food aversions. YAY! That was rough, lol. Not really having any cravings either, though. I am wanting fruit a lot more than before, but not to the point where I NEED IT NOW! I am unfortunately, still allergic to being pregnant. Yes...for real. ( Original post about it here: <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088476 </link> ) I am soooo itchy. Head to... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 12:44:45 EST Happy Anniversary Hubs! (PICS!) Today is our 2 year wedding anniversary. (Which, isn't quite as important as our 'real' anniversary, lol since we've been together over 6 1/2 years now.) So, instead of going on and on about how fantastic he is (cuz...he really is. Best man I have EVER know Didn't know men like him even existed in the real world! *swoon*) I am just going to post some pics of our favorite times together! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 18:43:26 EST Tidbits From Soul Keeping # 2 I posted the first part of this blog here:<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=6109642 <BR> <BR> So, here are some more tidbits from this Bible Study we are currently working on called "Soul Keeping" by John Ortberg. (Chapters 6 - 11) <BR> <BR> "Anytime I sin, I am allowing some competing desire to have a higher priority than God and God's will for my life. That means that in the moment I have put something on a pedestal higher than God." <BR> <BR> "... Wed, 23 Mar 2016 11:50:26 EST Creating "Realities" "People create their own contrasting realities." This is truth. Not necessarily about everyone, but certainly some people. The problem arises when those "realities" contrast actual reality to a major degree. The problem then, is that the people who create these "realities" then get upset when situations, and especially people, don't align with those "realities." <BR> <BR> Let's say that in my head, I've made it a reality that so-and-so is a terrible singer. (This is just a weird example, ... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 13:52:36 EST Need Opinions Please! :-) For the past 5 years my friend has hosted a women's Bible Study. I've happily attended every one, every week. We are noticing though that our number of attendees has dropped significantly. We are thinking about doing a couples study or just a general study. But, we have only done women's studies. What are some good Bible Studies for a general group? We've typically had a wide range in ages, but never another gender, and we aren't sure what direction to go. If you have done any that you like... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 13:33:30 EST Joy , Healing Presence, Life I've been thinking about things.... lol, I do that a lot. I was realizing that despite all the awful things that have happened to me and my family, and the terrible chronic pain and illnesses we all deal with... I still have joy. (A lot of it!) I've had people comment that I'm as close to Job (Biblical guy...) as they have ever seen in real life. I've had people comment that the things I deal with (and have dealt with for many years now (and will continue to deal with) are more than most peop... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 16:32:25 EST Poor Sis Warning: Rambly and "all over the place." <BR> <BR> So Monday night/Tuesday morning around 4 am I get a phone call from Sis. I can't understand anything, but can hear her gasping for breath and crying. So I tell her to call the ambulance and I'd be right there. I got there about a minute after the cops. Maddie was up, and slightly freaked out, but poor girl is somewhat used to it...when you have a whole family with chronic illness and pain. Sis is on the floor gasping and throwing up with ma... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 12:52:59 EST Life! So, Saturday was moving day! I had to work 8-4 (which ended up being 8-5), so hubby and his friends moved all the furniture and boxes while I was at work! (Got slammed at work though! Whew!) I got done with work packed up a few more things from the apartment (odds and ends and the closet clothes are still there) and headed to the house! Started working on unpacking. I am so blessed to have such a hardworking hubby. He has completely exhausted himself in the past week (working 12-16 hours eve... Mon, 7 Mar 2016 12:48:43 EST Quick Updates, No Pics, Moving Tomorrow! Ok, well. Oh my goodness! I am so overwhelmed and frazzled, lol. Tomorrow is moving day. As mentioned earlier, our closing date being pushed back two weeks, left us with only 10 days to complete everything that had to be done. Definitely not enough time. Plus, I got stuck working tomorrow, on moving day, and no one can switch shifts with me! Gah! Today was our last day to be able to work on the house (hubs has been regularly doing 12-16 hour days, did 18 yesterday. Today, unfortunately, he i... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 13:21:31 EST Tidbits from Soul Keeping I usually wait until I finish a book to review it and post excerpts from the book, but, I'm loving this book so much and underlining so much, I will do it in sections . (Otherwise the final post would be WAAAAAY too long, haha!) <BR> <BR> The book , and accompanying Bible Study, is called "Soul Keeping" by John Ortberg. Here are some of my favorite excerpts from chapters 1 - 5. <BR> <BR> "The most important thing in life is not what you do; it's who you become. " <BR> <BR> "God has yet to... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 16:58:25 EST Renovations Part 2 and the Carnival <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Emma and her posse (new neighborhood friends.) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Drop ceiling is down in the dining room <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Plaster ceiling is down in the dining room <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeop... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 11:30:40 EST Renovations - Blog 1 I apologize in advance to the people who do not care about us renovating our beautiful new house. There will be several blogs about it. I am loving it and so excited about it! <BR> <BR> So, here's the stressful part (besides general house renovations...). <BR> <BR> We were originally scheduled to close on the house on Feb 12th, with a moving date of March 5th. That gave us 3 full weeks to finish everything that needed to be done. Since the closing was pushed back 10 days, we now only have... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 11:30:19 EST Goings on Tomorrow I will be 15 weeks pregnant. Yay! Finally got a little bump, though it basically just looks like I ate too much for lunch. The allergy to pregnancy hormones is a bit more controlled with the Zyrtec, though I am super sleepy all day from it. I'm having crazy bad pelvic pain, like bad period cramps throughout the day everyday. Docs say it's most likely normal stretching pain, but coupled with endometriosis scar tissue and large cyst on my ovary. Not fun. <BR> <BR> Also not fun is m... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 11:28:19 EST Book Review: A Tale of Three Kings "A Tale of Three Kings" - Gene Edwards <BR> <BR> 1/5 stars. <BR> <BR> Either I really didn't understand anything about this book (which is unlikely given that the reading level seemed to be at about a 5th grade level,) or this was one of the dumbest books I've read. I literally do not know what the point of the book was. The cover says "A Study in Brokenness" .... but there was no study of anything. Normal I can recommend that if you have time, you should read even the bad books I read, jus... Sun, 14 Feb 2016 13:14:33 EST Grr! So I got a call from our loan officer yesterday, with yet another list of things the mortgage company wants. (As if the 156 pages I've faxed over haven't been enough...) So I got all the crap together, came up with appropriate documentation and sent it along. If we're lucky, we're looking to close et the end of NEXT week now, rather than this week. If we aren't "lucky" and end up having to switch our entire mortgage, then hopefully we'll close by the end of February. (Kind of stressful given... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 15:11:08 EST Need "Biblical" Advice So I'm coming to the end of my cover-to-cover Bible reading. Each time, I like to read it in a different version. So far I've read it through in New King James, NIV, The Message and NCV. I need opinions on which you would suggest I read next. What is your favorite? Mon, 8 Feb 2016 18:19:53 EST Venting So we've been set to close on the house this entire time, for Friday the 12th. I've busted my butt with paperwork and documentation out the wazoo. So this morning I got an email from our loan officer that now the mortgage company wants more documentation, including IRS transcripts for hubby from the last many years (even though Ive submitted his 2013 and 2014 taxes and such already.) They think that he makes too much money for us to qualify for this particular loan (even though I'm getting th... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 16:04:34 EST Book Review - Evolution: A Theory in Crisis Evolution: A Theory in Crisis - Michael Denton <BR> <BR> 3/5 Stars <BR> <BR> This book is a bit hard to review. It is an amazing science-based book. I like that it basically scientifically proves the impossibility of evolution, but it is not a religious book. (Therefore, all those nutso atheists can't claim religious brainwash or whatever they want to call it. ) It is purely science. <BR> <BR> On that note however, it is a very advanced reading book. Some chapters were easy enough t... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 13:24:56 EST Short! So, I have been itching, head to toe, TERRIBLY since I got pregnant. Using Goldbond medicated itch lotion, no help. On Calritin daily. No help. Scratching. No help. (It feels like a few years ago when some awful human being screwed with my life so much that I got stress hives from head to toe.) NOT COOL. I didn't think much of it, other than how obnoxious and uncomfortable it was. <BR> <BR> But yesterday I took my Sis to the big hospital for some Autonomic testing and had 2 hours in the wa... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 11:20:11 EST Done and Sad Today we finalized the homeowner's insurance policy, which (theoretically and hopefully) was the very last thing that needed to be finished before we can close on the new house! Closing is still set for next week Friday! Eeek! How exciting! We are planning on doing some work (replacing kitchen floors, building pantry, some painting, etc) for two weeks, and will be moving in in the last weekend in February! <BR> <BR> So far things are good with baby. The specialty ultrasound went well, and t... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 13:19:30 EST