ERINBELLOWS1978's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ERINBELLOWS1978 ERINBELLOWS1978's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Hooray for small victories.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607197 So I lost another 2 pounds.... <BR> Its not a lot to scream about but I look at it chicken weight, lol. <BR> If you look at 2pounds of chicken and then think wow that just melted off my body. Its ALOT to scream about. I did a total happy dance. I'm now 8 pounds away from my first 50 pounds. I think back a year ago when I decided this was the last time I would start this journey and I have lost 42 pounds since then. Life has been incredibly hard since then and I have struggled to maintain and... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 12:57:44 EST Adventures in grocery shopping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600132 So Friday night my husband decides he wants to go grocery shopping. We get to the store and he proceeds to get chips, cookies, ice cream, hot pockets, corn dogs, and pizza bites. I mean REALLY. Could you buy anything less healthy....so of course I pull major attitude and express my concern with his choices and we get into a major fight. UGH. <BR> Granted I was the one to cave and let it go. As always I will continue to fight this health battle on my own. It's so hard to eat healthy with ... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 13:06:24 EST What a year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593568 So I have been in a reflecting kind of mood. I was thinking that I lost and kept off 40 pounds I will not put back on. Yes I'd like to loose another 40 and I think I will, but its the learning to maintain and not sabotage myself when I get close to a goal that is a challenge for me. The eating well, exercise, drinking water. All the major changes I can do. The really big change is my reaction to stress, upsets, and life in general. I am a binger, I have always been. I get sad, happy, bored, y... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 12:41:22 EST Where in the have I been... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516753 Usually when I fall off spark for a few months, I come back having gained weight, with the attitude, I'll start over...This time I have lost 20 more pounds and I'm here to reconnect, continue my journey. <BR> <BR> Since moving, I have become a stay at home mom and caregiver. My family convinced me to quit my job. So I did. There is so much to do at the new place, that I just dont have enough hours in the day. I dont watch TV anymore, I have a few shows that are a must, so they go on th... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 08:47:51 EST HLC Spring into Summer Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5355225 So glad to have another challenge....here is the Main challenge.... <BR> <BR> Being healthy isn't just about the scale. It is about body measurements and accomplishments, both on the scale and off, too. So, let's take a look at where we are in our fitness at the start of the challenge by completing the following fitness tests: <BR> <BR> Drill 1 - Number of Crunches in 2 minutes <BR> Drill 2 - Number of Push-ups (Choose on: against the wall, knee, full body) in 2 minutes <BR> Drill 3 - Wall-... Mon, 13 May 2013 13:29:09 EST Overwhelmed....again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349877 Ok so I have no idea how I have managed to maintain my weight loss thus far. Over the last few months I have not got in any exercise whatsoever! I have been eating OK> Most days I eat crappy and then I get back on track the next day. So i'm sure my body is just as confused as I am. <BR> <BR> I am moving at the end of this month, so I know the packing, the cleaning, the organizing is helping to maintain whatever I have taken off. It's not true exercise, but I am exhausted by the end of ... Wed, 8 May 2013 13:10:16 EST New Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327578 Well I have crossed the first 20 pound mark! Wow! I've lost a total of 22 pounds and I'm still trying to really see it. I know my pants look ridiculous on me. The sag and hang and I can take them off without unzipping or unbuttoning them, but I still cant see the slimmer me. What is wrong with this picture! I know If I got some new pants I'd see it, but I cant afford new pants and I dont think I'd want to buy any right now anyway, because I'm still loosing. Ugh. I'm in such a weird place... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 12:10:57 EST The end of an 8 week challenge...reflection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310227 Well We have come to the end of the best 8 weeks ever! I made some wonderful connections on my team! Watched as we all struggled, pushed hard, failed, succeeded and grew as women! <BR> I am so proud of myself and the ladies on my team! <BR> <BR> When I started this challenge I had a goal to do a real push by the end and what do you know....I can now do 5 REAL MAN pushups. Still not able to beat my brother, but damnit I can at least not look like a fool next to him. <BR> I really pushed ... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 13:33:17 EST Week 7 Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291265 St. Patrick's Day always reminds me of spring, so I'm reminded of spring showers , thunderstorms , and the rainbows that they bring. Are you ready for spring? Don't know about you all, but the biggest thing I need to do is some cleaning. That being said, that is our challenge for the week: <BR> <BR> Earn one point for every minute you spend cleaning/organizing your house, car, office. Count cleaning and organizing of friends' houses, cars, and offices, too, if you're a motivated clean... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 14:34:17 EST 3 pounds away from my second goal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282659 Well this last week I have surprised myself again. I lost another pound after the plateau! I'm feeling great. I have lost a total of 17 pounds. That's only 3 pounds away from my second set of 10 pound goals. I'm almost to my first 20 lost! Amazing. This last week, I surprised myself in regards to my fitness level. I walked/jogged 3 miles in 35 minutes, I ran for 6 minutes without stopping, I'm up to 4 real pushups. I am doing things I NEVER have been able to do. With only 17 pounds go... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 14:21:57 EST Week 5 Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282649 Last three weeks of the challenge. We're doing great!! We've lost over 450 pounds and are burning up the chat boards with support. This is fantastic. Are you ready to for a new week? Extra motivated and have some new things to add to the routine from last week? Here are the challenges: <BR> <BR> Team Challenge: Count and report all of your fitness minutes. So far this challenge, we have worked at adding cardio time then adding in strength training. Now it all counts. Earn one point for ever... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 14:16:00 EST Week #5 Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273737 Team Challenge: Let's ensure we keep as many people as we can!! Visit your team mates, from your team and the team as a whole. Encourage them to stick with it. You may do this by visiting other teams and posting to their chat thread, visit their Sparkpage, post to a blog, issue challenges to pass on... The possibilities are endless, but we have one goal: Let's keep our motivation going!! <BR> <BR> For each instance of encouragement through the above-mentioned ideas, earn five points. You ma... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 02:43:32 EST Squashed that damn plateau!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272827 Well this is a VERY successful day for me. In the first time in a very long time I have made it past the plateau. This date will go down in history! I did not quit. I worked harder and made a real and conscious effort to break thru my stopping point. I did it! I lost 2 pounds!!! I have lost a total of 16 pounds. 4 more to go to my first 20 pounds lost! 4 more pounds to where I was when I got pregnant almost 2 years ago! The first time in a very long time when I can say that I am very dam... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 13:58:57 EST The dreaded plateau!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264955 So I have entered my danger zone. I have stayed the same now for two weeks. No gain. No loss. Just same. I'm maintaining my 14 pound weight loss. Yay for that, HOWEVER I am not at my goal. I have a very long way to go. This is what happens every time I do this. I go strong until I stop losing weight and get frustrated and quit. I do the same thing day in day out. I eat well, drink my water, stay away from fast food, fatty food, bad food and exercise and I stay the SAME! SAME SUCKS!... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 16:20:01 EST Week 4 Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263498 Week 4 challenge: Earn one point for every 10 strength training reps you do in a set. One point is 10 push ups or 10 squats or 10 plyometric excercises (jumping jacks, burpies, etc). One set is not 7 crunches and 3 bicep curls. <BR> <BR> Bonus Challenge: Since calories in vs. calories out is the equation for losing weight, it is important to track or keep tracking our food. Earn 10 points for the bonus challenge for every day you track your food. <BR> <BR> Ok so for this challenge. I thi... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 14:06:55 EST Week 3 Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255032 Ok so here is the challenge for Week #3 <BR> <BR> Your challenge is to track your food. For each day you track your food, earn 10 points. If you are within your calorie range, earn five bonus points. That gives a possible 105 points for the week. <BR> <BR> Ready for the bonus challenge? Many of us struggle with drinking water or drinking enough water. If this is you, this bonus challenge is for you. Like the 10-minute fitness challenge, it has two possible parts. <BR> <BR> 1. If you don'... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 15:06:26 EST Week 2 Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246472 If you are regularly exercising, your challenge is to do 10 extra minutes of fitness, whether it be cardio, strength training, yoga, Pilates, stretching, etc. For each day you add an extra 10 minutes to your fitness routine, earn yourself 10 points, for a total of up to 70 points for the week. <BR> <BR> Then there is the bonus challenge: Planning <BR> <BR> Being healthy and changing habits take time, effort, and planning. The bonus challenge is to look ahead to NEXT week (week 3 of the ch... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 13:40:30 EST Wowza!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246466 So I step on the scale today expecting a decent loss, maybe a pound as I know I should be hitting a plateau at some point. I freaking lost 3 pounds!!! I'm down a total of 14 pounds! That's incredible! I'm so freaking excited! All the hard work I've put in is really paying off! I've never seen such results. It's amazing what happens when you actual believe in yourself and dedicate to the change in life! I'm so happy today! I'm going shoe shopping this weekend! Hahaha Mon, 11 Feb 2013 13:32:54 EST VICTORY!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238873 For any of you that have been following my blogs, you know there is a killer walk I take by my house. Today, my husband is home so I'm not doing my Bob/Jillian today. I said I'll be back, going for my walk. I got the the bottom of that second hill and I said I'm going to the top of the second hill today. I did, AND THEN I said I'm going to the end of the freaking road! The road dead ends at the top of another killer hill. I did it! I pushed hard and reached the top!!! I was literally on ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 14:28:32 EST HLC Week#1 Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236539 So here is the challenge this week: <BR> Goal Setting: <BR> 1. What are your goals for this challenge? What do you want to accomplish (doesn't specifically have to be weight related) over these next 8 weeks? <BR> 2. How will you go about reaching those goals and work toward those accomplishments? What do you need to do to make them happen? <BR> <BR> It took a lot of journal time for me to come up with a goal that does not involve the scale! Granted in the next 8 weeks I would like to loose... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 02:57:30 EST 10 pounds!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235793 Well It's not official until I weigh in tomorrow, but I will be good today so I can see that number again! I have lost the first 10 pounds! I am so damn proud of myself! In horor of these 10 pounds I put on a pair of jeans that have not properly fit me in ages, I can button them now without sucking in or jumping up and down. I put on a favorite shirt that actually looks great now. I put on my make up and did my hair. Why? So I can look in the mirror and really see how wonderul I look. Gra... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 14:08:09 EST Week #4 and I'm happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228875 Well this marks the end of the dreaded week #4 and the beginning of week #5 <BR> I have lost a total of 8 pounds and I could not be more proud of myself! I have had a great experience this time around. I have made so much better choices when faced with challenging eating situations (going out to dinner, birthdays, get togethers...) <BR> <BR> I have exercised consistantly at least 3 days a week. More when I havent been sick! I'm so proud of these damn 8 pounds I cant even express! I'm two ... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 13:56:45 EST MOnday Blahs... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227285 Well today is Monday...The weekend went well. I had an indulge day for the month. Big family get together and I ate yummy food. I have decided that I will have an Indulge day once a month where I dont count calories for that day and eat what pleases me. I didnt gorge, I just ate food I have been staying away from- pasta, potatoes, creams...It was heaven. I felt good after I ate. I didnt feel guilty or HEAVY. If that makes sense. <BR> <BR> Today my favorite aunt arrived right on time ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 14:21:57 EST 7 is a great number... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217383 7 is one of my better numbers in all areas of my life. I was born in the 7th month, my lucky number is 7 and I have lost 7 pounds!!! Whoo hoo. It doesnt seem possible. I have lost 7 pounds by myself. I'm very proud of this number. I am more than half way to my 1st 10pound goal. I have decided to group my weight loss in groups of 10. Easier to attain this type of goal and easier to block off on a calander/tracker system. I cant wait to see how I will begin to feel once the other 3 pound... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 17:13:05 EST Feeling tired... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211739 Well this week is almost over and I'm just exhausted. I have a darned cold since Monday and I am finally starting to feel better today. I only exercised Sunday and Monday this week. I did about 15 minutes of a BL DVD today and about died! My body is still so tired from being sick. Not to mention the 10 month is still sick too so...BLAH. I have been able to eat extremely well and flush my system with water this week. So I'm hoping the compensation of eating REALLY well and the extra wate... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 15:20:18 EST What an amazing two weeks... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207005 Today is the beginning of week #3 for me. I am proud to say I have lost 5 pounds. Me! I have lost 5 pounds. Not some crazy diet, nor a pill, shake or surgery! I have been disciplined, but flexible in my eating. I have worked out at least 4x a week. I have enjoyed the working out. It helps to break down walls and fears that I have held around me and helps me gain confidence in myself. I have another blog where I have been talking about this personal journey of weight loss. I have recei... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 15:58:49 EST Today equals success!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197081 I am here to say I have had a small success! I have pushed past the fear of failure and accomplished something I didnt think I could do! I went for my normal walk up a hill by my house. I got to the top, my legs and ass were screaming, I could barely breathe! I DID NOT STOP! I pushed past that tippy top of the hill and pushed another block to the base of another INTENSE HILL. I did it! I made it, I did not pass out and I my legs did not cramp or fall off! I then kept up a great pace down th... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 14:03:11 EST Hardwork...Step #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195302 Today is day number 7 in my journey to a better, healthier self. So far I am proud to say I have done great! I am starting to feel better and my skin looks amazing! LOL One thiing I forget to notice is my skin, when I eat better and dont drink soda! In my journaling I am realizing that Hard work is definately going to be a step for me. In working thru my other steps I realize that It takes hard work to get thru them. It takes work to look at yourself and realize that you have to accept yo... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 15:32:55 EST Accountability... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5190176 Here is my step #2...Accountability. I was thinking that most people think this as a punishment or restrictive action. To be accountable for one's actions usually describes someone in trouble, has done something wrong. I'm not going to think this way any longer! I dont want to feel that I'm in trouble or that I'm being punished for my actions. I want to hold myself accountable for the GOOD that I am doing. I want to celebrate that I am making changes. I want to be accountable for making... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 14:20:10 EST Acceptance... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188374 So I began journaling yesterday and trying to come up with "steps" to get to the root of my eating situation and actually try to start changing my life. I have learned that my first step will be Acceptance. Accepting the fact that I have a problem and it needs to change is where I have begun. I have accepted the fact that I am overweight. I have accepted that I do have a problem. A fixation, an obsession, an addiction. I also have accepted the fact that I am human, I am not perfect, and... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 14:39:28 EST Here we go again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186326 Well here I am again, back at Spark, needing loose so much weight. I dont understand mentally why I cant do this. I do so well and then I completely fall off and gain everything back. I workout for weeks at a time, loose a good 10 pounds, hit a plataeu, have one bad meal and I give up. Do I not want to be healthy? Do I not want to loose the weight? Do I want to continuously fail and give myself a reason to over eat and feel bad about myself? Why do I continuously punish my body and my sou... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 14:10:54 EST Week #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4785860 Ok so the first week is over and we are on week#2. I cannot believe I lost 5 pounds! I did nothing this last week! LOL - I've been eating great and drinking a ton of water. Well and breast feeding! I guess it's true what they say about breastfeeding! I am very pleased. It helps that I'm eating well. I'm not perfect, but I am really trying to be careful about what I'm puttin in my body, so that my little man is getting what he needs as well. I will start exercising slowly this week. I wa... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 16:00:42 EST Adjusting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4779040 Well life with a newborn is all about adjusting. I feel as if there is just not enough time in the day to get done what I need to get done. I'm not as tired as I thought I'd be. Then again, I didnt think I'd have a newborn that would sleep 5 hours a night eithr. Breast feeding is so time consuming. I wasnt able to nurse either of my girls, so this is both a wonderful surprise yet frustrating experience. I am constantly feeding this boy of mine :) I find it hard to find time to even show... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 11:25:37 EST Welcome back Erin.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4773812 Well I'm back! It's been almost 3 years since I've even been on Spark! I just had my son not quite 2 weeks ago and just looking at him is all the motivation I need. I pick my girls up from school and I know I need to begin to be an example for them, a role model, someone to belive in. Right now I'm just not! We dont do any outdoor activities, no family excersise and that's just WRONG! My husband is FINALLY on board with gettig healthy. I dont know if it's because he's almost 40 or that he ... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 13:12:29 EST It's been awhile... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2304837 Well it's been a while since I've done a blog...so I figured it was time <BR> <BR> I am so close to closing the 4th set of 10 pound goals I have. <BR> Just so you know I have 10 sets of 10pounds I want to loose! <BR> I have 5 more pounds to go to have lost 40lbs! I can see the light <BR> I have discovered this last few weeks that I LOVE doing laps in the pool. <BR> I do rather hard and vigorous laps too! Not just lazy back and forth. <BR> Head down, legs kicking hard, heart pounding l... Mon, 10 Aug 2009 22:43:55 EST Becoming a non smoker! It sucks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1978115 Well as of yesterday I am a NON SMOKER! Damnit! I enjoy smoking. Well I enjoyED smoking. I love it with my coffee in the morning. While have a few cocktails w/ my friends. Well I decided that enough is enough. I need to quit for a lot of reasons. One...It's just bad for me. PERIOD. Goes against everything that I'm trying to do here. Two: My girls. I need to be here for my girls and I cant be if I'm dead from cancer by the age of 50. I want grand babies and the whole thing. I nee... Thu, 16 Apr 2009 11:10:29 EST Gone fishin... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1926128 Well the weekend was great and horrible at the same time. Does that even make sense?? <BR> <BR> So I had a lot of running around to do on Saturday. Went shopping for the BBQ on Sunday and then had to go to a track meet for my sister (spent 3 hours sitting in the hot sun w/ a screaming 2 year old-SO NOT FUN) <BR> <BR> While I was out shopping at CostCo(kind of like Sam's club but better) I found a really cute shirt. Makes it look as if I have a waist. It was an XL-Not a 1x or a 2x and I... Mon, 30 Mar 2009 12:01:29 EST Goal Item http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1793223 Ok so the girls on my team and I have decided to have a "Goal" Item. Mine happens to be a size 16 pair of white dress pants. I can honestly say I can put them on and button and zip them. But that is about it. They are so tight in my butt and my legs, my middle too, but not as much. My goal is to have them fit and have the legs drape, not hug my thighs. I will post a picture of me in these pants once a month until they fit perfect and then I will buy a hot pair of shoes and a hot top to ... Thu, 12 Feb 2009 12:50:44 EST One down and 11 to go!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1759440 Well January is over. I lost a total of 3 pounds this month. Not a total disaster but not a great success at all. I'm rather disapointed w/ myself for the lack of exercise I had. I did some at home and made it to the gym a few times over the course of last month. My eating tended to be great. I got all my water in and was able to get a lot of fiber in my diet thru food. I did have one really bad day-DAMN PMS, but one day out of 31 isnt bad. <BR> <BR> Here is my goal for February-I w... Sun, 1 Feb 2009 13:42:18 EST Success-it tastes wonderful!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1710678 After two weeks of struggling w/ exercise, but eating well and drinking TONS of water I did it!! I lost 3 pounds!! Whoo hoo!! I was so nervous and scared I wouldnt loose anything or end up gaining!! So frusterating! <BR> <BR> My biggest struggle is to exercise. That is going to be my focus these next two weeks. These next two weeks I need to be able to get in exercise at least 3 days every week. It's so hard. I feel as if I spread myself so thin. I really need to just suck it up a... Sat, 17 Jan 2009 18:32:34 EST A New Year!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1643426 As I sit here and reflect on the year past, I am not happy with my progress. I can see the mistakes I've made and the problems I've had in dealing with my weight. I know what not to do, and yet that's exactly what I seem to have done. As of today: Friday January 2nd, I will do what I can in order to not repeat the same mistakes. I will try and make better choices, get off the couch and DO SOMETHING!! <BR> <BR> This year I will try and participate outside of my house!! I will take the ... Fri, 2 Jan 2009 11:15:24 EST Never ending frusteration!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1615724 It's been awhile since I've blogged and I really need to release!! <BR> I cant believe our house sold in 4 days!! We put it on the Market on Thursday December 4th and it sold Sunday December the 8th!! Un-freaking-believable!! I then had to go scowering san diego county for a 5 bedroom/at least 2bath that had a bathroom accomodating for my dad. He's got to be able to either sit down in the shower and take his prosthesis off or wheel his wheelchair in the shower!! I looked at about 15 hom... Thu, 18 Dec 2008 12:14:44 EST Week#2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1558653 Well last week was great!! I lost 1.5 pounds this last week whoo hoo!! I have a plan for this week and I'm hoping for another pound gone. If I can just keep up the one pound a week then I will for sure loose this weight and keep it off for good. It will take me a long time, but I am totally ok with that. I am totally ok with it taking a year for me to loose the last 60 pounds I need to loose. If I can take it off slowly and CORRECTLY then IT WILL NEVER COME BACK ON!! <BR> <BR> I have... Mon, 10 Nov 2008 13:24:03 EST Waking up-Pissed off!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1546487 Well this is it!! I'm pissed. At myself!! I have been having a pitty party for months now! I have come to realize that my family is hopeless in supporting what I want to do. They are selfish and want me home 24/7; they refuse to eat healthy; they refuse to do any physical activity. So guess what...I'm going to be selfish!! I'm going to go the gym after work-even if it is at 830 at night!! I'm going to buy healthy stuff at the store wether they eat it or not. I'm going to MAKE them see ... Mon, 3 Nov 2008 12:15:36 EST Setting goals for myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1499429 Well I had a total meltdown yesterday. Thanks to lovely PMS. I walked in my room, looked in my closet and totally broke down. All I could see were clothes that I hate(which I dont) and clothes that are too tight(which they're not) and I lost it. I couldnt remember that I used to wear a size 22 and am now in an 18, I couldnt see the 32 pounds I've lost just the fat I still have. It reaked havoc on my brain yesterday. I looked great by the time I went to work, but I still just had a "fat" ... Tue, 7 Oct 2008 10:31:50 EST Here is to a very challenging week!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1434472 Ok everyone...Today is Monday and the first day of Team San Diego's challenge. I've really planned A LOT of exercise for myself. I usually only get about 20-30 minutes per day and I've planed at least 40-60 minutes of exercise per day!! I can't NOT do this because I've made a promise to myself and my teammembers to commit and do this-Not to mention I want to WIN!! Hahaha.. <BR> <BR> I have to drink 6 20oz bottles of water every day to make my goal for water. I usually drink 4-because tha... Mon, 1 Sep 2008 13:33:14 EST Another good day-so far!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1426025 Well today is Wednesday. So far this week I have done rather well. I'm sore as hell!! I've worked out pretty hard Monday and Tuesday and every part of my body hurts!! Especially my abs and my butt and thighs!! It hurts to sit down and pee!! hahaha...But it's a good sore! I've missed this burn in my body. It's such a good feeling, I cant wait for my husband and my dad to leave for their days so I can workout. I'm doing the ON-Demand thing again. I cant stand going to the gym, it's too... Wed, 27 Aug 2008 13:19:18 EST Progress is a must http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1421769 Well today is Monday and another new beginning. I have realized I really havent been trying with my fitness. I have finally got my eating under control and it's time to get my butt moving on a regular basis. I did a 45 minute workout today and it felt wonderful. I forgot how much I like to sweat! LOL. I did my measurements today as well. I'm down so much. I'm down .5 inches in my neck, and a whole inch in each my waist and hips!! Whoo hoo!! I love that! Granted it's been a while sin... Mon, 25 Aug 2008 14:12:00 EST Needing distraction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1414244 Well I have been distant from the site for a few days. I have had such an emotional weekend and past few days I haven't had a chance to really post, track, or concentrate on myself. <BR> <BR> Over the weekend, my dad had an episode. He has been sober for 21 years 8months, 16 days and Sunday morning I woke up at 2 am to the sheriff's pounding on my bedroom door because my dad had fell on his way into the house, fall down drunk. He got sick all over himself,not to mention my floor, and wa... Thu, 21 Aug 2008 11:16:12 EST Looking ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1392053 Well this last week has been GREAT. I ate so good and enjoyed what I ate. I was able to drink my water and not think about it. I didnt "workout" per say, but I got my butt off the couch and MOVED. I took the stairs at work, I parked futher away in the lot so I could walk farther into work, I went swimming with the kids, walked on the beach-participated in LIFE!! And I lost 2 pounds this week!! I was so proud on Friday-Friday's at work are Floating into Fridays with rootbeer floats-one of... Sun, 10 Aug 2008 12:16:16 EST