ERINBEAR1876's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ERINBEAR1876 ERINBEAR1876's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A Glimpse into my Mind today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209925 I was looking through my camera photos this evening when I came upon one I hadn’t shared before, a picture of all my medals from running: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l753630913.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have 2 others, but Kaylee stole them. Anyway, the one on the bottom left (that says Friday Night Fargo 5K) was my first 5K race I had ever run, the race that I ran with pretty much no training. The bottom right medal was for the first half marathon. The bottom middl... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:30:04 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177041 Since my last journal entry, I have gone off and done things on my own a bit, it fits with the blossoming. I would love to go more into it here, but I am not sure that will happen. It's a part of my life that I don't think I ever want made "public" on here. <BR> <BR> I'm going to be brief, because I am recovering right now and really just small tasks like typing wear me out, but here goes: <BR> <BR> I haven't had a binge since November 19. Today is December 26. I call that a win. <BR> <BR... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 20:30:02 EST Blossom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147760 I have an appt with my therapist next Wednesday, but I know I'll be throwing him for a loop. I have made quite a discovery about myself. It has to deal with a very private part of me, and my relationship with my husband. I can't go into detail at all here because it is just TOO private, but I am letting a really deep part of my come to light. Something I thought was too...taboo maybe? for me to even talk about, much less consider doing. <BR> <BR> Not only was my husband open minded about wh... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 22:46:32 EST Thankful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144609 Yesterday was quite the day. I didn't mention it much (or at all) in yesterday's blog because it just felt like it needed to be separate. <BR> <BR> Two days prior to Thanksgiving, I really felt like I was going in the right direction and that things really were/are starting to click for me. I know that there are a lot of challenges food-wise coming up, but it seems there are always challenges like that, so I need to use them to my advantage rather than use it as an excuse to pig out, follow... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 22:09:08 EST A New Mindset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5143667 Whew...so where do I start? <BR> <BR> In my last blog, I talked about reinvention. And it has been a work in progress. It's been so hard. Starting is hard. Making the right choices. I can't believe it is SO hard to do. <BR> <BR> I know it gets better, gets easier as I get used to it, but this last 20-30 days has been rough on me, emotionally and physically. <BR> <BR> I've been sick-ish since about Halloween. I had strep throat, and am still taking antibiotics for it. I see the ENT doctor... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 19:12:14 EST A Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5099227 I have been feeling mighty fine this last week/end. I didn't feel that good on Monday/Tuesday, but a lot of it was picking my way through feeling ravenous (for good reason) on Monday, and then continuing the cycle of eating too much on Tuesday. Since then, there has been a lot of good feelings coming in and bad feelings coming out. <BR> <BR> Corey (DH) told me not too long ago that I should go back to basics, back to what worked for me, what made me happy. <BR> <BR> In essence, go back to ... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 22:43:56 EST Temptation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5097965 I have so many reasons to eat, eat, eat. <BR> <BR> It's someone's birthday. <BR> <BR> Wedding. <BR> <BR> Holiday. <BR> <BR> I'm happy. <BR> <BR> Angry. <BR> <BR> Sad. <BR> <BR> I'm PMS'ing. <BR> <BR> It's a full moon. <BR> <BR> I'm a woman. <BR> <BR> I have a kid. <BR> <BR> I have stress. <BR> <BR> So many reasons!!!! <BR> <BR> Oh, wait.....I'm sorry, those are excuses. Those are rationalizations. They hide the reality, which if the fact that I choose to eat, when I eat, wher... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 20:55:31 EST One Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095887 I have so much I need to blog about, but it seems the only time I have to do this is the few minutes between my daughter finally staying in her bed and me needing to go to bed myself. That is, of course, if I'm not stuffing my face with food. <BR> <BR> Ahem. <BR> <BR> I weighed in at 198.2 pounds this morning, and that was naked, NOT at a WW meeting. Ugh. <BR> <BR> The buck stops here. <BR> <BR> I know what I am capable of, and I need to stop getting in my own way! Like my therapist sai... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 23:09:10 EST My First Marathon, Long Report plus pictures! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092123 The Twin Cities Marathon, my first marathon. <BR> <BR> My training was at about 70%, or possibly less...so I had quite a few doubts, and fears of failing/dropping out, and disappointing people around me, and/or letting down my friend who I ran it with, TJZYSKOWSKI (TJ). <BR> <BR> The reasons for the lack of training were many. I first thought I was having surgery the first week of October, so I wouldn't be able to run it. I stopped training for 2 weeks, then found out the surgery would be... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 00:49:24 EST Long time, no see... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5042253 First of all, I miss you all, and I miss this site. It's like so many things, once you stop, it can take forever to start back up. That goes for SP. SOOO much has happened this summer, and even more will be happening this fall, so there has been a lot of ups and downs. As for my weight, that has gone up, but that isn't my life. My weight does not define me. What defines me is how I live my life, and the people in it. <BR> <BR> That being said, I'm so happy to be "on track" and losing again,... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 10:30:37 EST Avoidance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4915906 Okay, not the avoidance one probably thinks of when they see that title, but it was an avoidance nonetheless. An avoidance of the GOOD kind. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was day #3 of my plan to "overcome binge eating." I already had 2 days binge free before Monday, but Monday was the day I started the new step work I mentioned in my last post. <BR> <BR> I had a "good day" on days 1 and 2 (you assess the day and either put nothing on the bottom if you overate or binged, and good day if you didn't).... Thu, 7 Jun 2012 08:37:29 EST Change in Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4912174 I am not going to go into all the details until I feel...stronger about what I am doing, but basically have changed my goal from losing as much weight as I can, to work on arresting my binge eating. <BR> <BR> It seems like the harder I try to lose weight, the more I end up binge eating. <BR> <BR> So, I am choosing to make my overall health a priority. <BR> <BR> The first part of this, is to only weigh myself once a week, on Mondays...before today, I weighed myself every day. Another is t... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 20:51:18 EST Half Marathon Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4910417 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l99699409.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l178474926.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Yeah, I'm purchasing these two pics, but I guess I just wanted to post these for you all to see! And yes, I can see those 20 pounds, but that's good. Motivation!!! Sun, 3 Jun 2012 19:44:48 EST Plans - Day 1 - June 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4907017 Keeping myself accountable.... <BR> <BR> Plans: <BR> <BR> ~ Got my food plan together for the day which includes breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, small snack. <BR> <BR> ~ Drink 80 ounces of noncaffeinated fluids <BR> <BR> ~ Rest day from cardio (ran 3 miles yesterday) <BR> <BR> ~ Track food and activity <BR> <BR> ~ Take at least two 1-mile walks, strive for 2 (2 on my breaks with dog, 1 longer one with Kaylee this evening <BR> <BR> ~ Keep busy while DH works this evening. Have ... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 08:38:40 EST Goals To Get Me Going....for June http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4906328 First off, I took a bit of a hiatus from here, barely even lurking around except to pop up and chirp about the half marathon and 5K I ran with a lovely, lovely friend (TJDOESLIFE). Although I am not going to apologize for stepping away (I thought it was the right thing to do at the time), I will say I sorely miss each and every one of you. <BR> <BR> So, I am back. With goals. I need goals. I am learning more and more about myself through counseling, making mistakes, etc. and I really do need... Thu, 31 May 2012 19:07:15 EST Fargo Half Marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4888983 Pros: <BR> <BR> ~ Refreshments. My god, they really went out on this race. There was Powerade and water every 2 miles, starting at mile 2. A lot of the supporters who came out to cheer us on brought many things with them too, including orange slices, bananas, watermelon, pineapple, strawberries, Jolly Ranchers, and tissues (which I didn't see but found out later about...could've used about 10 of those!!). <BR> <BR> ~ Community. The first part of this race had a bit less people, but when yo... Sat, 19 May 2012 20:47:31 EST GO FAR Challenge: 5K http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4888967 I will just put this in pros and cons so I can try to remember them all! The Go Far Challenge in Fargo is when you run the 5K on Friday night, and then run the 10K, Half Marathon, or Marathon the following morning. I ran the 5K with TJ (TJDOESLIFE) and Half Marathon with her and her DH, Rob :o} <BR> <BR> Fargo 5K <BR> <BR> Pros: <BR> <BR> ~ The community. I can't say enough about Fargo and the people who live there. People put sprinklers on the side of the street in front of their houses, ... Sat, 19 May 2012 20:26:51 EST Balancing act http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4849421 First of all, thank you so much for reading and commenting on my last blog. It took a lot to put that out there, and I even put my page on private because it would make me feel vulnerable about it (sure, I have a lot of friends on here who can read it, but I am mostly assuming that none of them are my family because they would have made comment a long time ago on certain blogs <em>20</em> ). <BR> <BR> Anyway, a lot of what I have been doing lately has been a balancing act, trying not to do ... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 08:18:47 EST Breakthroughs. Yes, plural. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4846283 I have been doing pretty darned good the past 2 weeks, tracking my food, getting my running in (I did 9 miles last weekend, and 10.3 miles yesterday!!). <BR> <BR> But, on Thursday, I could feel my self-sabotaging self niggling in the back of my head, wanting to pop out and wreak havoc. I wasn't consciously thinking about binge eating, but I was starting to get irritable for no reason, a sure sign that a mood change was imminent followed by inevitably a binge (my coping mechanism...). <BR> ... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 09:18:40 EST Not down and out! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833050 I have been sick this past week, yet again with an acute bronchitis. Lovely! I can work out through a few illnesses, the stomach bug, a regular cold, but not this. Thankfully, due to antibiotics, I finally feel normal today, so I will be attempting to get out and run a mile or two. Nothing too strenuous, but just getting out there. <BR> <BR> In other news, I have been lurking here but that is about it. It seems like I am not active on here, but it's mainly that I can only go on here on my l... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 08:37:26 EST Binge Free Streak - Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4814350 First of all ~ The comments on my self esteem blog were so amazing, and just gave me a glowy happy grin. I love the support I get from you all! I have wonderful friends on here. SP has given me friendships I wish I had when I was younger, but am so grateful to have now. <BR> <BR> On the last blog, I said that yesterday I would get up to go to the gym to work on ST, and also run with my friend I believe (I'm too lazy/tired to check that right now). I did NOT get up in time for the gym becaus... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 00:10:38 EST Inner self esteem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4811396 The last 2 weeks have been rough. I derailed nearly completely. If I went through everything that happened, you would have a novella on your hands and my fingers would cramp from all the typing. Suffice it to say, I am back to where I started again. I was down to 176 when I went to Florida on March 3, and today, March 29, I am 185. The yo-yo effect happened again. <BR> <BR> I have been to my psychologist, and we dug deeper. Basically, I try to feed my outer self-esteem (looking for affirmat... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 21:55:51 EST Belated 7K Race Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4805140 I haven't been on my computer all week, so I didn't even think about writing this blog. There is a reason I have not been on here all week, but that is another blog. <BR> <BR> <BR> This blog is about the race I ran last week in Minneapolis! <BR> <BR> First of all, I really don't many (any) pictures of the race really since I didn't have a phone or camera on me (I had decided to run my heart out to see if I could miraculously PR from last year's time, even though I wasn't in the same shape... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 08:42:23 EST Five Stages http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4778632 Okay, I am not going to call this blog Five Stages of Grief, because that is not what I am going to talk about. Grief, that is. <BR> <BR> This is about the 5 stages I went through to get me back to where I started. Back to where I need to be. <BR> <BR> When I hit lifetime in March 2011, it was like I was set free. I no longer HAD to weigh in every week at WW. I only had to weigh in once a month. And that was okay, for a while. I went through cycles, where I would be "good" for the first w... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 07:37:59 EST Accepting Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752756 Yesterday, my mood as each hour dragged on went south. I could palpably feel depression setting in, and I felt trapped by it. I wish I could point at something going on in my life that could have triggered it, but I really don't have something. Yes, my leg was hurting when I run, but I did something about it. I made a doctor appointment and knew I would just take his advice, whatever it was, and go with it, that I couldn't control it. And, I did find out at that appointment that I just have w... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 08:27:14 EST Throttling back before it's too late... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4750829 Yesterday started out with a workout at Planet Fitness. I decided to just do a bit of crosstraining since I had to go out for a run with the Beginner's Group later in the evening. By the end of 30 minutes on the elliptical, my shin was throbbing. I have been battling shin splints for the past month now. I have tried everything to alleviate them. Stretching, ice, NSAIDs, foam rollers, shoe fitting, orthotics, compression sleeves, pacing, running on less days, etc. I've been told to just keep r... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 08:02:28 EST Steady She Goes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4749009 It seems I have found a good balance, finally. <BR> <BR> I have been eating good, eating MORE than I normally would if I was pushing myself hard (between 1300-1700 calories MOST days and feeling satisfied/full rather than 1200 a day and starving). <BR> <BR> I have been consistently getting my activities/workouts in, but putting on average only 30-70 minutes of exercise in a day rather than pushing to get in at least 90 minutes. I have been only running as much as my training plan says, no ... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 07:58:26 EST An insight... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4747209 I was recently chatting with a good friend on FB, and there were a few points that came out during our conversation that I felt needed to be put in a blog. <BR> <BR> On talking about my bipolar disorder, OCD, etc: <BR> <BR> "When I am in my "high" I tend to obsessively do things, like working out, planning out my weight loss to the ounce, weighing myself every day, planning my runs for the next year, and plotting out everything on the calendar. <BR> <BR> Changing my weight goals every day... Mon, 20 Feb 2012 08:33:10 EST Priorities Take 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4741332 Well. I didn't realize it has been so long since my last blog! <BR> <BR> A couple of weeks ago, I decided to really work on putting myself first as a part of a lifestyle, not just a phase that inevitably stops working. First was putting sleep as #1 as it seems the less I sleep, the more I eat, the less I work out, the more Grey's Anatomy I watch (Oh, McDreamy...you make my heart flutter). <BR> <BR> Also, recently I had a work situation where they noticed my lack of focus (they are able to... Thu, 16 Feb 2012 07:49:03 EST January Recap/Measurements/New picture comparisons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4716201 Weight: 176.4 January 1 <BR> 178.0 February 1 <BR> <BR> Chest (above boobs): 36.5 inches/37 inches (gained 0.5 inch) <BR> Chest (below boobs): 37.5 inches/35 (lost 2 inches) <BR> Natural Waist: 35.5 inches/35 (lost 0.5 inch) <BR> Waist at belly button: 40 inches/39 inches (lost 1 inch) <BR> Hips: 41 inches/39.5 inches (lost 1.5 inches) <BR> Right Thigh: 24.5 inches/24.5 (same) <BR> Right Upper Arm: 13.5 inches/13.5 inches (same) <BR> <BR> Result: Gained 1.6 pounds from Ja... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 10:32:41 EST Review Blog: Coach Nicole's 28-Day Boot Camp DVD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4713236 First of all, before I start my review, I'd like to mention that SP and Target teamed up to sell these DVDs nationwide, so that is where you can find them, and if any of you are planning to buy this DVD, as a SP member, you will get 250 SparkPoints for buying it at Target, and you can also get a $3 off Target coupon at <link>www.sparkpeople.com/28daybootcamp </link> . <BR> <BR> I received my copy by mail about 2 weeks ago, and have since tried 2 different workouts but have navigated through... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 21:57:34 EST What Goes Up Must Come Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4702688 Okay...I had a treat last night. I had a BK ice cream cone, and bought a small fry for Kaylee (I know, healthy right??). I knew I'd go over a BIT in calories, but some days it's really worth it and I knew I'd be at about 1700 calories. Kaylee ended up eating 2 fries, then wanting my cone. So, I gave her my cone, and ate the fries. Before looking up the calories. <BR> <BR> I then inputted the calories, which put me at about 1900 because (oops) the fries were 340 calories! Geez. <BR> <BR> Th... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 08:14:24 EST Heckling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4700845 Yesterday, I experienced 2 teenage boys heckling me, for whatever reason I am not sure of, but no matter as it was obvious (to me anyway) that this was directed at me. <BR> <BR> I was walking through the parking lot to go to the mall, and I had to hitch up my jeans. I am sure that it is not too pretty to watch, but my jeans have gotten looser (oh, yeah!!!) and I am not ready to move yet to my smaller jeans (just don't like that tight feeling and am putting off experiencing that again. Looser... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 10:42:03 EST Hey Everyone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4695679 I know I need to blog more and be more Spark-y, but I have been keeping myself SUPER busy this last week, and that included limiting my online time. I have been tracking EVERYTHING, I have been 100% on my training for the half marathon in May, and soon enough (February 2) I will be registering for my first ever full marathon (Twin Cities Marathon in October)!!! <BR> <BR> So many exciting things are coming up for me (meeting up with friends, going on a mini-vacation to Florida, etc) and I am ... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 19:02:02 EST COLD!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4686451 I was getting up at 4:20 this morning, but decided I could use another 40 minutes of sleep <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> Then, I started my car (thank you remote starter, how I love you) and then got ready. I knew it would be cold this morning as there was a warning about it on my phone, but geez, how easy it is to forget just how cold -8 degrees with a -27 degree wind chill is. BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR<BR>RRRRRRRR <BR> <BR> I wanted to turn right back in to the house and go b... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 10:28:20 EST Quickie Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4682158 I ran 5.5 miles today. Well, I walked part of it :o} <BR> <BR> The last 4 days were rough eating-wise. I could make a bunch of excuse (family gatherings, being sick, getting my third period this month...sorry if TMI), but honestly, hhormones raging or not, I just fell splat on my face. There were quite a few warning signs that this was going to happen, and I didn't REALLY face those signs. <BR> <BR> But here I sit, weighing in at 184.8 pounds this morning. I want to get down to 160 before ... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 13:57:48 EST Cruel Joke http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4671198 Yesterday started out great. I was getting my water in. My food intake was right on. I didn't feel hungry, I felt satisfied. I had put in 4 miles on the treadmill (3 running, 1 walking). I did my ST also. I walked my dog for 1 mile, and then put another mile outside with my DH and dog after work. <BR> <BR> And I decided that, with 700-1000 calories left over for dinner, it would be nice to have Subway for dinner instead of cooking. <BR> <BR> My DH then mentioned the Pizza Ranch, which open... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 11:55:16 EST My weekly weigh-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4668390 Starting Weight on December 26: 182 <BR> Weight Last week: 176.6 <BR> Today's Weight: 178.2 <BR> Projected Weight (for a goal of 160 by March 1): 177.6 <BR> <BR> I am trying to look at my weight loss from many different angles so I don't become discouraged by what SEEMS like a lack of progress. <BR> <BR> First of all, my 6 cookies right before bedtime didn't help matters <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Also, though I am up 1.6 from last week, I am still down 3.8 pounds since Christmas. Also, I am... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 10:58:35 EST So glad the weekend is over... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4667495 I tell you, I am CRAVING the structure that starts back up again on Monday!!!! <BR> <BR> Although I had a much better day today emotionally, I still made some poor choices with my eating. I did track everything, good and bad, which is keeping in line with one of my goals for January (to track 21 days or more). <BR> <BR> I woke up refreshed, and since it was my DH's turn to wake up with our little girl, instead of rolling over and falling asleep again, I got up, got ready for the gym, and r... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 23:36:51 EST Binge of the Past vs Binge of the Present? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4665271 Usually for me binge eating isn't so much what I eat as much as how much I eat of it and what the cause/effect relationship was. Was there stress? Was there a friction in a relationship? Was I sabotaging? Hating myself, or rather how I looked? <BR> <BR> Today early on I designated as a bit of a "cheat" day, or as I called it to my DH, a "lazy day." I still did track everything I had, but most of the tracking was done "after the fact" rather than before I ate it or even right after. <BR> <... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 00:01:31 EST Rested. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4661451 I have 50 minutes of crosstraining on my schedule today, and was planning on doing the elliptical this morning, but because I was up late Sparking (so totally worth it), I decided to do my bootcamp DVD instead after Kaylee goes to my mom's. That will be perfect, since I will be alone and working out will be much better than having a few hours of worrying about binge eating. There is a Sparker who has a binge-free streak going (SLIMKATIE) and she is someone who I really have a lot in common wi... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 09:01:05 EST What Sparkpeople Means To Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4660798 Sparkpeople has been many things for me. It has been a place for support, for airing out things that sometimes I just can't say to anyone in my "real" life, for motivation, for inspiration. It has been a place that I can come to and feel, for the most part, that I am not being judged for who I am. Because on SP I am more myself than I sometimes can be in my personal life. I don't feel like people will regard me as crazy, delusional, stupid, lazy, fat, pompous, etc. etc. <BR> <BR> This place... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 22:41:27 EST My Alarm Clock Knows Me Better Than I Know Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4659063 I had a great day yesterday. I put in 2.25 miles of running (felt to good to stop at 2 miles, but didn't want to overdo it. I put in 2 miles of walking also. I had a pretty decent day at work, even though it seemed to drag on, yet go by fast. Weird day. DH had to work until midnight, so my little girl and I had a night together. We had an interesting dinner of leftover spaghetti and Dora Spaghettios :o} I have been splitting meals with her lately, that keeps my portions in check! An hour or s... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 09:33:02 EST Cutting Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4656566 This is something that I have noticed I have done in the past, but nothing too much that has now become more apparent to me. <BR> <BR> I cut down my husband. <BR> <BR> I diminish his efforts, I correct him on everything that he does wrong (even things that really don't need correction but just aren't up to my standards). I question his parenting more than I should. I make fun of him. <BR> <BR> And this needs to stop. <BR> <BR> He never says anything about this. He is such a good-natured... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 10:33:16 EST January 2012 pictures and measurements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4654151 These are my new "before" pictures as I believe this is stage 2 of my journey. My first stage was losing weight and going from 286 pounds to 160 pounds. <BR> <BR> Stage 2? Losing weight and going from 182 (yes, I gained 22 pounds) to the unknown. The lowest weight I recorded was 158 and that was after the stomach flu so it is hard to count that. <BR> <BR> With this in mind, I took these pictures, as I really wish I had taken a before picture like this when I was at this weight: <BR> <BR>... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 12:52:31 EST Priorities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4650804 I made a choice this morning. I went to bed last night at a stupidly late time, but hey, it was for a good cause! I was Sparking!!!!! <BR> <BR> Anyhoo, I had planned on getting up at 4:45 to hit the gym, but when the alarm went off, I realized that I had only had 5 hours of sleep. In order to get the recommended 8 hours, I needed to sleep until 7:45. <BR> <BR> So, I did. <BR> <BR> I made the decision because I need to have priorities in this journey, and these priorities need to be made ... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 10:32:35 EST PUPPY CHOW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4650048 I went to my family's house tonight for the BIG football game (Giants vs Cowboys) and there were SO many temptations. <BR> <BR> I will NOT list everything that was there, but I chose the few that I love and had my share, which included: <BR> ~ 7-layer dip (half cup) with 7 tortilla chips <BR> ~ 3 bites of a cheese quesadilla <BR> ~ 1-1/2 stuffed mushrooms (the half was basically the mushroom with no filling because I didn't care for the sausage filling <BR> ~ 15 grape tomatoes (yum!!) <BR> ... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 23:47:24 EST Happy New Year to me!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4648073 Well, I already did a blog about my goals for 2012, but I wanted to put a blog in for today because...well, because I want to :o} <BR> <BR> I had so many temptations yesterday, including a dinner at a friends followed by a movie where I was surrounded by their popcorn and Twizzlers, followed by a stop at Green Mill where appetizers were had (Thai egg rolls and coconut chicken) along with drinks, and then champagne to ring in the new year. <BR> <BR> I had a small dinner there, and NO popcorn... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 10:59:40 EST 2012 Goals (well, half of 2012) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4646288 I have thought about this, and thought, and thought. What should I do differently for my goals this year? What should be the focus? How do I make sure I keep these goals in mind and fresh? <BR> <BR> So here is my plan with my various goals, my aspirations but in a MONTHLY format for the first 6 months, with a recap and goals for the other 6 months in July 2012: <BR> <BR> ~JANUARY~ <BR> <BR> Health/Nutrition: <BR> ~Track my foods at least 20 days this month. <BR> ~Drink at least 2 bottles ... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 10:57:00 EST A look back through the year.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4645779 I remember the beginning of this year, and knowing I was on a plateau that wasn't a plateau really (just the sum of my backsliding ever so slightly, but enough so I was maintaining instead of losing). I remember really getting psyched to lose a ton more weight, to run a marathon, and to go on vacation to Cancun. Was 2011 my year to shine? Yes and no. First, I'll go through my goals for the year that I posted last year on January 1-ish and how I did: <BR> <BR> 1. Lose 25 more pounds and/or ju... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 00:21:08 EST