ERIN1128's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ERIN1128 ERIN1128's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 144: Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6366086 Tough week - Kate started therapy and it hasn't been easy, but I think we're making progress. Monday was mostly filling out paperwork (insurance forms and stuff for us, assessment forms for Kate). She did really great, and was fine all evening, then had a huge hourlong meltdown at bedtime which was pretty awful. It was tough getting her back there yesterday but they're really amazing - Paul went in and talked to one of the therapists and she brought the office dog down to the car and had K... Wed, 24 May 2017 13:02:46 EST Day 142: Big Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6365220 Missed my blog yesterday, oops! Will have to catch you all up. <BR> <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday morning I got out for a good bike ride. It was already 70 at 8:30am! Definitely a hot one. I rode up through Discovery Park and found a pretty little crossing: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e0eb20c7-8711-491a-9ee2-030930eb27c1.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think next weekend I'll throw my bike on the rack and drive up to Discovery Park - the trail is so pretty... Mon, 22 May 2017 14:08:42 EST Day 139: Fun Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6364459 My brother was here visiting for a couple days, and last night my dad and his girlfriend came over and we all had dinner in the backyard. Our first outside dinner of the year, it was sooooo nice. Paul picked up some corn on the cob at the store on the way home and it was excellent! Surprised us, seems a little early for corn. I LOVE corn on the cob, I wish we could eat it year round! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Today we all went wine tasting up in Amador County. Just a perfect... Sat, 20 May 2017 19:35:53 EST Day 138: Looking Foward to the Weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363983 Paul is finally back on the exercise track today (he had a basal cell removed from his face last week), so he took the pooch for a walk today and I got a yoga workout in. Felt great, I really have not been going about stretching lately. <BR> <BR> <em>414</em> <BR> <BR> So happy it's Friday! Busy weekend ahead, but fun busy. <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> My brother came into town yesterday for a few days (he lives in Seattle). He flew in late afternoon yesterday and had din... Fri, 19 May 2017 13:25:25 EST Day 137: The Dog's in Charge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363585 Got a good walk in with the pooch this morning, about 2-1/2 miles. She's so funny...she was acting poky for the first part of the walk, but then when we hit the big loop she headed right to go all way around the loop, instead of left to go the short route. She always knows what she wants! The dog's in charge. <BR> <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> When we were walking, I saw a bunch of Comcast/Xfinity workers unloading coolers and stuff at one of the picnic areas. Looked like a company pi... Thu, 18 May 2017 14:02:23 EST Day 136: Morning Workouts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363141 Ugh, I'm dragging today. But I got 7 miles in on my bike this morning! Beautiful morning for a bike ride. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/88725ca2-c793-402e-b483-123fa59cb04e.jpg"> <BR> <BR> One of the reasons I like morning workouts is that it's so lovely and peaceful at 6am. Granted, it's a lot easier in spring than in dead of winter when it's cold and dark! But as hard as it is to drag myself out of bed at 6am, I love getting it out of the way first thing. ... Wed, 17 May 2017 13:31:19 EST Day 135: Wacky Weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6362771 The pooch and I got a good walk in this morning - she was raring to go after a couple days off! <BR> <BR> <em>338</em> <BR> <BR> I got another bike ride in yesterday morning, which brought me to 50.6 miles for May - halfway to my goal! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> The weather is soooooo weird here....it's been pretty cool the past couple days, and when I was out at lunch just now, it was sprinkling! So bizarre! Usually we're into the 90s by now. Though it's supposed to hit ... Tue, 16 May 2017 17:07:19 EST Day 134: Mother's Day and a Milestone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6362261 Never posted yesterday, oops. Never exercised yesterday either, though I was so sore from everything I did Saturday, I think I needed a rest day! My hams are still feeling it - I think I was really throwing my weight into it when I was yanking out those big overgrown plants, didn't realize I was working quite that hard. Can't believe I'm still sore! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday we went to the Whole Earth Festival in Davis for a couple hours. it's really fun - kind of a... Mon, 15 May 2017 12:54:09 EST Day 133: Pooped! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6361492 Wow, has this ended up being an active day...a little more than I'd planned! <BR> <BR> <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Starting off, I got to sleep till 7:30 - woo hoo! Paul picked up his parents at the airport last night, and they decided they just wanted to get home and sleep in their own bed, so they didn't spend the night here after all. Which meant we were back to one dog, which makes for better sleep for all of us! <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> I took Bam-Bam for a good walk this ... Sat, 13 May 2017 17:50:26 EST Day 132: Rock Star Parenting ;-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6361042 Got a good bike ride in this morning, so now I"m at 43.8 miles for May - almost halfway to my 100-mile goal! <BR> <BR> <em>332</em> <BR> <BR> So, we had a real fun dentist appointment for Kate yesterday...really made me feel like a rock star parent...is the sarcasm coming through? <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> So, this was her first dentist appt since she got braces. She's been slacking a lot on the brushing, and she drinks way too much fizzy water, and some soda, but we've go... Fri, 12 May 2017 12:45:08 EST Day 131: Creature Features http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360637 Scotty (my in-laws' dog) was super restless again last night, kept pacing around the bedroom. Argh...I'm a light sleeper, and he just kept waking me up and/or keeping me awake. Then at dawn, I heard him scratching away at something so I made him get up on the bed with us. But then I kept hearing the scratching, and I realized crap, there's something in our bedroom! Aieeeee! <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> So at 5:30 I finally woke Paul up - who of course had been snoring through all... Thu, 11 May 2017 12:20:44 EST Day 130: Breakthrough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360246 Oy, what a long week. So, Monday morning, Kate was "too sick to go to school, " despite swearing to us last week that this week she would start going to school full-time, period. So on Monday morning we made a deal with her - you make it to every single class the rest of this week, or we seriously talk therapy. She said okay. <BR> <BR> Well, yesterday she went home early. When we questioned her last night, and specifically asked her if had been feeling anxiety, she said very firmly that ... Wed, 10 May 2017 16:04:37 EST Day 129: Exercise Is Good for What Ails You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359784 Got a horrible night's sleep because Scotty (my in-laws' dog) just would not settle down...kept pacing, sneezing, thrashing around, jumping up on our bed, etc. etc. etc. Paul, of course, snored through the entire thing. <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> So anyhow, the last thing I wanted to do when the alarm went off, was get out of bed and exercise. But I knew it was no use trying to roll over and go back to sleep because no way would the dogs give me any peace. I really don't get ho... Tue, 9 May 2017 14:36:37 EST Day 128: Productive Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359297 We had a very bad morning, Kate-wise, which I really don't have the oomph to write about so I'll spare you all. <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Let's talk about yesterday - I forgot to blog! Busy day, but I was happy because I really wanted to whack down the to-do list this weekend and I definitely accomplished that. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> To start, I took a bike ride. I decided to check out the rose gardens at Capitol Park and McKinley Park, which are absolutely AMAZ... Mon, 8 May 2017 12:48:49 EST Day 126: Busy Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6358553 Well, my goal for the weekend was to whack down the to-do list, and I've made a good dent so far! This morning we took the dogs for a good walk, then after breakfast we sent a good hour or so pruning back the jasmine, which had completely engulfed the gutters and was starting to take over the roof. Even though we crammed the green waste bin completely full, you can't really tell the difference between the before and after pics, LOL! <BR> <BR> before: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.... Sat, 6 May 2017 19:14:36 EST Day 125: Thankful for Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6358054 Thanks to everyone for your comments on my blog yesterday. This anxiety thing has been a very tough road. Kate told us last night that she is going to start going to school full-time next week, and we asked if she thought she could handle it, and she said "I have to, because otherwise you're going to make me go to therapy." Sigh....she's really struggling this week and I just can't believe that she'd rather live like this than try to get help, but the kid is incredibly stubborn. She went ... Fri, 5 May 2017 13:25:46 EST Day 124: Tough Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6357675 This has been a really hard week. Kate seems to be suffering a relapse and hasn't made it to school much this week. We're not sure exactly why...it seems at least partially to do with the fact that she's struggling a bit in math right now, and had let her homework pile up. We've addressed that, but she still didn't feel up to going to school today. <BR> <BR> We had a terrible evening on Tuesday....Paul's parents had come down in the afternoon (they were leaving on vacation early Wed, f... Thu, 4 May 2017 16:12:46 EST Day 122: I Want To Ride My Bicycle, I Want to Ride My Bike... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6356709 Any Queen fans out there? <BR> <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Well, it was a day late, but today I officially kicked off May Is Bike Month! Got a 7.8-mile ride in this morning. I'm loving that I can ride during the week now, since it's light so early. <BR> <BR> <em>332</em> <BR> <BR> A friend challenged me to ride 100 miles in May, and I took the challenge since I want to hit 100 miles (at least) anyhow! I actually had to increase my goal last year because I hit it early. Here's ... Tue, 2 May 2017 14:22:36 EST Day 121: Monday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6356227 Such a beautiful day! I actually overdressed when I took Bam-Bam for a walk this morning because I'm not used to it being warm at 6am! Felt great to get out, after not having time for a workout on either morning over the weekend. <BR> <BR> <em>311</em> <em>338</em> <BR> <BR> My goal for this week is to clean up my eating. I've been getting into some bad habits - too much snacking, not making the best lunch choices, etc. I had a big salad today to start! <BR> <BR> <em>551</em> ... Mon, 1 May 2017 16:19:35 EST Day 120: Wildflowers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6355757 I have been dying to get out and see some wildflowers, as they are out in force this year after our incredibly rainy winter following years of drought in California. Finally managed it today! We met up with friends at a place called Jepson Prairie Preserve. It's only about 45 min from my house (near Dixon, for you local types) and it's owned by the Sonoma Land Trust. We did a docent-led walk and saw some beautiful wildflowers! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8a... Sun, 30 Apr 2017 19:27:43 EST Day 119: A Day at the Salon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6355311 Well, I spent most of today at the salon. Not as fun as it sounds, believe me, LOL! Kate went from red to hot pink, which took FOREVER. I dropped her off at 8am, came back at 9:30, and we didn't leave till after 12:30. When we got in the car I asked her if 5 hours was really worth it, and she looked at me like I was crazy and said, "yeah! Life is too short for boring hair!" Words of wisdom from the almost-13-year-old. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/254baecd-... Sat, 29 Apr 2017 20:49:02 EST Day 118: Almost May is Bike Month! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6354782 I'm loving these longer days...I got to go for a bike ride this morning, woot! Up till now I've been saving bike rides for the weekends, when I can go later, but now it's light enough at 6am that I can hop on my bike during the week. (Don't worry, I still use my lights, because it's pretty gray out at that hour). Anyhow, I got almost 7 miles in, and now my legs are feeling it! I was a little surprised at how much, but then I remembered that I did some running yesterday for the first time ... Fri, 28 Apr 2017 12:47:44 EST Day 117: Back to Running! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6354419 OMG, I actually ran today! I just looked at my log and the last time I ran was March 28th. Lordy, that's waaaay too long. But I slept really well last night, and for once didn't wake up feeling like man, I need another three weeks of sleep, LOL! So i decided to go for it. Nothing major, just run 2 min, walk 2 min, for a total of 12 min of running (2.3 miles total). But it's a start and surprisingly, it felt pretty good to get back to it. <BR> <BR> <em>363</em> <BR> <BR> In a weird... Thu, 27 Apr 2017 17:28:26 EST Day 116: Bad News, Good News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6353854 Busy week, haven't had a chance to blog in a couple days. Lots going on. <BR> <BR> The bad news is, you know how I've been waiting for the other shoe to drop, because Kate has been doing so well? Yeah, well, it dropped last night. And the worst part is, we should have seen it coming, we could have headed it off. But we just didn't catch the red flag. <BR> <BR> She's been reading "I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings" by Maya Angelou for her Language Arts project. Now, I read that book a LON... Wed, 26 Apr 2017 14:21:25 EST Day 113: Busy (in a good way) Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6352491 Such a beautiful day today! Yesterday it got all gray and bleary, but today the sun is out in force. <BR> <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> I went for a bike ride this morning, and had company - Paul came with me! We almost never exercise together, but I took Bam-Bam for a long walk yesterday so she didn't really need a walk today (though of course she was very annoyed when we both went off without her). Paul is really liking his new bike - he's been riding to work several days a week. We ... Sun, 23 Apr 2017 17:18:21 EST Day 112: Mellow Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6351966 Annoyingly, I woke up in the middle of the night with a headache because my neck was acting up, sigh...particularly annoying because I actually went to the chiropractor on Thursday, sheesh. (I've been rear-ended twice, so I have a lot of back and neck issues.) I would doze off, then wake up with my head and neck hurting. Ugh. By 6:30 I gave up and headed out for a long walk with Bam-Bam - I figured maybe moving would help, since laying in bed obviously wasn't doing me any good! <BR> <BR>... Sat, 22 Apr 2017 12:10:34 EST Day 111: It's FRIDAY, Peeps!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6351632 Life is good! It's Friday, it's a beautiful day, I'm going to get outside for lunch today, I'm going to leave on time, and I'm going to have a weekend. WOOT! Other than a long hearing next Tuesday, I get a breather now for a few weeks, which I badly need. <BR> <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> I actually got out for lunch yesterday to go to the chiropractor (definitely needed) and to run a couple errands. I stopped at Fleet Feet to look for something to hold my phone while I'm exercising..... Fri, 21 Apr 2017 15:42:52 EST Day 109: Light at the End of the Tunnel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6350733 Yesterday was a tough day, on many levels, and I didn't get home from work till nearly 8:30. Ughhhh. Super tired today, but I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. <BR> <BR> <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Kate had another good day at school yesterday. I found out yesterday that state testing starts next week, so it's a good thing we're getting her back on track. it's hard, with her having been out so much, I'm really out of the loop on everything. Plus, this school is pretty... Wed, 19 Apr 2017 16:12:49 EST Day 108: Gumpy Puss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6350257 Man, I am just so stressed and grumpy this week. I don't know if it's just everything catching up to me, or PMS, or what. (Is it possible to get PMS when you basically don't get a period anymore? No idea). Anyhow, if I can just get through to Thursday, I will get a breather and be able to get weekends off again, and work normal hours for a while. Really looking forward to that! <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Had a bit of a parenting fail last night, though it worked out okay in th... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 15:40:03 EST Day 106: Happy Easter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6349304 We're not religious or anything, and Kate's a little old for the Easter Bunny, so there's really no Easter celebration going on in my house today. My mom always used to make a big ham dinner on Easter, which I'd love to do, but neither Kate nor Paul is big into ham. Oh well. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Anyhow, we did give Kate a gift bag full of some stuff, which I think she liked - she was kind of doing the teenage "I'm too cool for this" thing this morning. Eye roll. But I don... Sun, 16 Apr 2017 13:08:21 EST Day 105: I Need a Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6348964 Tough week...work is crazy, though once I get through next Thursday I'll have a bit of a breather for a few weeks. I need it! Lots of friends posting FB pics of their spring break vacations this week...just makes it that little bit harder to be holed up in my windowless office. <BR> <BR> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> I'm taking today off work, though Paul went in for a couple hours. We dropped my car at the dealer this morning - normally we avoid getting work done at the dealer, but a piece ... Sat, 15 Apr 2017 17:59:46 EST Day 102: Plugging Along http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6347607 Got a nice walk in with Bam-Bam this morning before the rain hit. Oy, I am sooo tired of rain! We're usually done with it by April, but it just doesn't want to go away this year. Which is good, of course, in terms of ending our long drought, but sheesh, enough already. <BR> <BR> <em>257</em> <BR> <BR> Had a fun little meeting this morning with a young woman who works at my dad's assisted living place. She's a social work major, about to graduate, and she wants to get her MSW but she... Wed, 12 Apr 2017 16:20:53 EST Day 101: Quiet Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6347097 Such a blessedly quiet week at work. I could be jealous of all those folks who get to take time off this week (it's spring break for the local school district and for the Legislature), but instead I am grateful that I can come to work in jeans every day, get out for lunch (though today I'm eating at my desk because I have to leave early), and get a lot of work done because I'm not constantly getting interrupted! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> It's all a balance. Yes, I have to do so... Tue, 11 Apr 2017 15:23:18 EST Day 100: And the Moral of the Story Is... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346575 I forgot to share yesterday, my parable about why you shouldn't procrastinate! I have my workout stuff in two drawers in my closet - we have a walk-in closet (heavenly!) that we have decked out with an IKEA closet system. Anyhow, for a good month or so now, I've been having trouble closing one of the drawers...I knew a shirt had somehow gotten behind the drawer, but I just haven't been wanting to deal with wrestling the drawer out to retrieve it. <BR> <BR> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Well, ... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 14:32:46 EST Day 99: Loving my new Toy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346032 Well, I just got back from a 10-mile ride on my new bike!! I'm loving it! I definitely need to move the seat down a tad, because I felt like I was having to reach a bit in full extension on the pedals, plus I was on my tippy toes whenever I stopped at a light. But otherwise, it feels great. More cushioned than my old bike, and I like where the handlebars are better (less splayed out than my old bike). I felt like I was coasting more too, though that's probably not good from an exercise ... Sun, 9 Apr 2017 13:51:04 EST Day 98: New Toys http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345666 I recently - to my surprise - came into some money after my beloved Aunt Joan died. We put most of it away for practical things like Kate's college fund, but I wanted to spent part of it on something special for myself. I finally decided to replace my nearly-10-year-old bike. I think Aunt Joan would have approved, since she spent many years getting up at the crack of dawn to go swim laps at the Y. <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> <BR> <BR> Anyhow, we finally went bike shopping today. Paul nee... Sat, 8 Apr 2017 17:37:59 EST Day 96: A Big Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344668 Well, today is the big day....the transportation funding bill that we've been working on for more than two years, will be voted on! I hope hope hope hope hope that it passes...I really think my entire office will have a nervous breakdown or quit if we have to work on this thing any longer, we are soooo done with it. Fingers crossed! <BR> <BR> <em>381</em> <BR> <BR> Anyhow, last night Paul and I had Speaker Series tix - Julia Gillard, who was the first female prime minister of Australi... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 12:43:20 EST Day 95: The Fun Never Stops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344309 Never got a chance to blog yesterday! Our committee hearing went ridiculously long, till 6pm, ughhh. Waaaay too many hours of sitting. I'm trying to use my sit-stand station a lot today to help make up for it, my back is definitely not in good shape. <BR> <BR> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday morning I got a good yoga workout in, felt great! And my hips didn't bother me as much last night so it must have helped. Not sure if my arthritis is kicking up or it's back-related, but my hips... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 17:56:36 EST Day 93: Workout + Yardwork = No-No http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343331 So, you know I have said in the past that I learned the hard way not to work out on days where I'm also going to be doing a lot of yardwork? Remember? Yeah, well, apparently I didn't. So yesterday I did a 10-mile bike ride, and then spent a good hour and a half planting and weeding. Oh, lordy....despite sitting in the jacuzzi for a while yesterday evening, when I got up in the middle of the night to pee I could hardly get out of bed, I was so stiff and sore! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <B... Mon, 3 Apr 2017 19:51:49 EST Day 92: Making Your Own Energy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342742 Yesterday, I felt like I had trouble getting going all day. I lazed in bed, then lazed over breakfast, skipped the workout, etc. So today I decided okay, I need to just get up and go. So I did! Got a 10.2-mile bike ride in - BEAUTIFUL spring morning on the river! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/fac6fea1-9c8b-437b-90ab-d15f8bf6e455.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> Then I came back and hydrated up and had breakfast, and then I tackled the yards. We bought a bunch of flowers at... Sun, 2 Apr 2017 14:44:10 EST Day 91: April! Spring! Sunshine! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342357 Dang, it's April already! And it's a GORGEOUS spring day. Paul and I went to Lowe's this morning and loaded up on flowers...I'm soooooo excited to get them all planted tomorrow morning! We haven't bothered planting for the last several years, with California being in such a terrible drought and all - we basically just focused on trying to keep what we had, alive. But now I've got a bunch of annuals to plant, plus I"m going to rip out the sad-sack remains in our big pots and put new stuff ... Sat, 1 Apr 2017 18:48:36 EST Day 90: Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341753 So, last night we proposed to Kate that she try going to school for a couple hours a day, and she was receptive. (We didn't take the psychiatrist's reco of setting up rewards and penalties, though we did gently tell her that we will hold her accountable to the agreement). <BR> <BR> She's claiming that school "makes her tired," I assume because of fighting the anxiety. But we need to get her back there and maybe this will be a way to transition to full days, who knows. So for today throu... Fri, 31 Mar 2017 13:14:54 EST Day 89: Despair http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341395 Well, Kate had a great first day back at school....then went home sick after two periods on Tuesday...and hasn't been back since. And is completely regressing to the nonverbal behavior that we saw before she went on Zoloft. <BR> <BR> I can't even tell you how hard this is...I am angry, frustrated, sad, depressed, feeling like a horrible parent, you name it. <BR> <BR> We just don't know what to do. <BR> <BR> Paul talked to the psychiatrist this morning, who suggested we set up a "behavio... Thu, 30 Mar 2017 17:59:51 EST Day 87: Hiccups http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340311 Yesterday was kind of an amazing day. You know that expression, it was like a weight was lifted off me? That's LITERALLY how I felt yesterday all day - lighter! I guess I've been even more stressed about Kate than I'd realized. I'm just so happy she made it back to school yesterday! And she had a great day, no issues. And I had a great day at work - even when one or two annoying things happened, I was able to let them slide off me. <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Hiccup today, ho... Tue, 28 Mar 2017 15:32:57 EST Day 86: It's All Good!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6339786 My kid is at school right now and I can't tell you how happy I am about that!!!! Four weeks of independent (home) study appears to have done her in, she's bored and wants to see her friends. <BR> <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> But seriously, the time off definitely did her good, and the zoloft has done wonders. The side effects have really dropped off in the past week, I think all the chemicals or whatever are coming into balance. She was in a great mood all weekend, which was a relief ... Mon, 27 Mar 2017 15:32:04 EST Day 85: Sunday Funday...Mostly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6339213 The radar/forecast couldn't seem to make up its mind about whether or not rain was imminent, and I was in the mood for a bike ride, so I decided to heck with it, I'll just stick to my 'hood and the neighboring one so I can loop back home quickly if needed. Fortunately, still no rain, and I got almost 7 miles in. Not quite as long as I usually do, but I was fighting light winds today and it was kicking my butt! <BR> <BR> <em>332</em> <BR> <BR> Today is my (only) nephew's 22nd birthday.... Sun, 26 Mar 2017 13:02:51 EST Day 84: Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338789 I saw a FB meme the other day that said, "when you're young and you fall down, everyone laughs..you know you're old when you fall down and everyone freaks out." Ain't that the truth! I am definitely feeling my Bam-Bam-induced tumble yesterday - my arm is sore and my hip hurts. Nothing serious, just enough to bother me and make me feel old. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I opted out of a bike ride this morning because of my arm - I figured if driving was bothering me yesterday, gripp... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 12:49:55 EST Day 83: Aaaaaand We're Back "Up" Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338405 Well, once again, the roller coaster has taken us back up. Whew! <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Yep, Kate was great yesterday evening - in a good mood and chatty. So I don't know if the disruptions in routine the prior two nights messed her up, or if she's just going to have good and bad days. But for now, I'm just thankful. <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> When the alarm went off this morning, I woke up, heard the rain, and went back to sleep. Oy, I've been terrible this week... Fri, 24 Mar 2017 15:29:22 EST Day 82: Ready to Get Off the Roller Coaster Now Please http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337896 Well, the emotional roller coaster that seems to be my life right now, continues. <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> The good news is, Bam-Bam the Wonder Mutt has amazing rebound powers - when we got home last night, she was fine! Couldn't believe it was the same dog! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3193c23a-3aff-4a13-a6a7-35dc719718ce.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Thank goodness. Though of course the hard part now will be keeping her calm and low-activity till those stitc... Thu, 23 Mar 2017 15:13:12 EST Day 81: She is Strong, but She is Exhausted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337450 The blog title comes from a meme posted by several friends on FB the other day...really speaks to me right now! <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> Don't get me wrong, I am feeling MUCH better about how things are going with Kate...she is on track to return to school on Monday, and she's actually using the app the psychiatrist recommended (Virtual HopeBox, if anyone is interested). We haven't pushed counseling yet, but we are nudging her to check out the websites of the places the pscyhi... Wed, 22 Mar 2017 15:09:54 EST