ERIGUST's SparkPeople Blog ERIGUST's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Turning forty..... I thought I would take a few moments to write tonight, my heart is feeling a little heavy. I always feel this way before my birthday but today it's a little stronger. I don't k ow wether or not I'm ready to say goodbye to the thirties, they've been good, a lot better than my twenties! I got married, had my two beautiful children and found a lot of success in my career. I also gained a whole lot more confidence and just general ease. I think I'm happier too! I have mixed feeling about turning ... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 01:30:27 EST Feeling good!!!! Day two of calorie counting, plus no/low sugar. I have a bad headache which is typical when I give up sugar. But I have more energy! Today I used it to get through an intense 12 hour work day. I was an still am a little bit hungry all day. I have to see if its because I'm just USED to eating more or if I didn't have quite enough calories. I pre planned all my meals and snacks today so it made it super easy. I know I need to enter my food on the "calorie counter" but it takes so much time! <B... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 02:07:37 EST Food log I had a nice day, once again very average food-choice wise. I can't seem to really get back in the hang of things! I'm. It's concerned about my tummy, I now seem to have a "tummy-tummy", the kind that shows a little through shirts and dresses. Even at my chub jest my stomach was never a problem. I don't want this to get worse! I'm not wearing have my clothes now because I DETEST stomach poppage. I took a lengthy walk and a bike ride today. <BR> <BR> Two eggs w)salsa <BR> Smoothie-almond mi... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 01:06:08 EST Food log Today was a average, was gone at work eleven hours and now it's time to clean the house! No exercise. <BR> <BR> One cup 2% Greek yogurt, 1 tbslp plum jam <BR> Figgy buckwheat scone <BR> Green salad with peaches, goat cheese, and almonds and a vinegrette <BR> Light 12 ounce blended coffee <BR> Banana <BR> 4 small plates sushi <BR> 6 chips with salsa <BR> 10 cherries Wed, 14 Aug 2013 01:25:10 EST Food log Today <BR> <BR> Two eggs <BR> One cup fat free Greek yogurt <BR> Nectarine <BR> <BR> 3 cups spinach, half cup baked chicken, vinegrette <BR> Handful nuts/seeds/dried fruit <BR> <BR> Apple <BR> Handful nuts/seeds/dried fruit <BR> <BR> Eight ounces carrot juice <BR> Smoothie-almond milk, spinach, tablespoon peanut butter banana <BR> Wed, 31 Jul 2013 00:45:54 EST Today This weekend was tough. I had my niece and nephew plus my own children, it was so hectic and crazy! I stayed on track for the most part (minus a tortilla chip here and there!) I was aware of my food choices and did not overeat. My husband helped with the kids so I could go on a run this morning. I'm stil feeling committed, but I do know that real life means real food, not diet food so I just have to work around that. I'm really hoping for a loss this Tuesday when I weigh in at TOPS! Mon, 20 May 2013 02:04:07 EST Today Last night sparks site was down so I didn't get to log but it was a good day. Today was pretty good, not perfect. I am so sore from working out and I love it! I can't wait until exercise is a habit again. I'm feeling positive and excited about the future. <BR> <BR> Exercise: one hour step and sculpt class <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> 2 eggs, one fourth avocado <BR> 3/4 bagel with light cream cheese, 3 bites vegan peanut butter bar <BR> Nonfat Greek yogurt, one tsp. raw honey, strawberries <BR... Sat, 18 May 2013 01:25:33 EST Day 3 Day 3- I'm feeling good, trying to still not put to much "energy" (mental) Into what I'm doing, just do it. I tend to over think everything and feel overwhelmed. I worked a ten hour day, I'm exhausted, I haven't had any cravings yet but I know they'll be coming! ToMorrow is a birthday party and I want to make sure I'm staying on track (no dessert) <BR> <BR> Exercise: one hour "nightclub experience" zumba <BR> <BR> Food log- <BR> <BR> Bowl of steel cut oats, chopped dates, coconut 1 ... Thu, 16 May 2013 01:35:15 EST Today-feeling good Soo..I don't want to focus so much on numbers right now. Not my weight, not how many days ive been doing "good"....I just want to take it one day at a time. I realism one of my problems is that I hyper focus on the details and if it's not "perfect" I give up. I don't want to give up anymore, I just want to do my best every day, even if my best once in a while is not so great. Today I weighed in at TOPS, I am UP two and half pounds. But not for long! I don't want to think about the numbers or... Wed, 15 May 2013 01:46:58 EST Toay's been a while science I've been on here and boy does it show! I am SOO tired of slipping backward and all I go do is put one foot in front of the other and make my health a priority like I have in the past. I didn't realize how easy it could be to slip back I to old bad habits. I just feel so much better when I take care of myself and I miss my Spark community! I will food journal and get on here every night to be accountable for my day <BR> <BR> Excercise: one hour of "nightclub... Tue, 14 May 2013 00:45:00 EST Today Feeling was a good day. Tomorrow is my first official weigh in at TOPS in three weeks. It will reflect the sins of the holidays I'm sure but I won't let it discourage me <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> <BR> Oatmeal with coconut and peaches <BR> <BR> Two eggs/one egg white <BR> One piece whole grain toast w)tsp. butter <BR> One grapefruit <BR> <BR> Green smoothie-spinach, cherries, one fourth cup tart cherry juice, nonfat Greek yogurt <BR> <BR> Grilled chicken, quinoa, black beans <... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 00:45:33 EST Today, a little tough. I got through the day successfully, I survived some serious cravings without giving in, I am so glad. This really is for the long haul and if I start over thinking it I will get overwhelmed. One day at a time! I chose my health today. Tomorrow I will also choose my health. I am grateful. <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> <BR> One egg, two egg whites <BR> Two pieces bacon <BR> One grapefruit <BR> <BR> Grilled veggies <BR> Grilled chicken breast <BR> Green salad <BR> <BR> Green smoothie (spinach, ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 02:13:41 EST Today The new year got off to a great start, I was able to run in the mornings since my husband was off work (to watch the kids) etc. Now I'm back to real life, I'm back at work and back to being exhausted. I guess I have to admit if it doesn't happen in the mornings it just isn't going to. I sometimes feel like just getting through the day is an accomplishment all on its own. I notice how when I have time off work I have so much more energy, it's not my imagination! Today was extra hard with my ... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 00:30:59 EST Food diary Another weigh in scale says I've gained. Even after three parties where I turned continuously turned down dessert/pizza, etc. I guess doing "good" is fine but I think I payed more attention to what I WASN'T eating than what I was. Like today, I had a small slice of pizza because I didn't manage my time well and was desperate while shopping. I didn't give that two thoughts but spent all Saturday pouting cause I couldn't have the pizza at the party! Time to food log to put it out... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 00:55:23 EST Today Down 1.6 pounds at TOPS. Things went really well today food wise until I found the stash of Figgy buckwheat scones leftover from my birthday brunc, but all in all pretty good. I am concerned over my lack of activity on work days. Standing on my feet all day leaves my body so tired I can hardly wait to get kids to bed to just sit. I think the only solution is to get up earlier and I can hardly get up as it is. I need to find the motivation. <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> <BR> Steel cut oats w)chia... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 23:51:29 EST Food log Today, I let myself get too hungry. I impulsively ate the dark chocolate power berries. It was an average day in terms of food, but very very busy. No gym :( <BR> <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> <BR> Steel cut oats w) one tsp. Jam and chia seeds <BR> Banana <BR> Salad wrap with chicken, bacon, very light dressing <BR> Green smoothie (probiotic coconut water, spinach, cherries, pineapple) <BR> Greek yogurt w) 1 tsp. Raw honey <BR> 3 bites barb q chicken 3 bites roasted squash in coconut oil <BR> Da... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 01:16:09 EST Food log I am deciding to switch my attitude...I was not looking forward to my birthday, I used to love them but as I get older it's not quite the same! Yesterday I turned 39, and I am going to use this as an opportunity to make this the best year yet! I want to be my fittest ever at 40! Admittedly I am not a fan of aging but I can honestly say I like myself so much better at this point in my life, I'm happier and a whole lot smarter. I want to be the best I can be, independent of my age. This is a gr... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 01:40:00 EST Today Going to food journal....felt like it was pretty okay. Had an unplanned bowl of cereal tonight but other than that I feel good about choices. I did find that I got TOO hungry, which I'm trying to avoid and than that's when I had the cereal. Feeling a little down today. The last day of my life I'll be 38. <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> <BR> Egg scramble w)spinach, broccoli,onions,corn and red pepper sauce <BR> One and half pieces of whole wheat sourdough toast with very light butter <BR> Half diet... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 01:02:53 EST Paying attention to how I feel... Oh how I love the feeling of not being "full!". I practiced being conscious of my eating and kept my portions small, and ate when I was hungry. What a difference it makes. Everything tastes so much better and I don't have that bloated feeling. Two days of feeling good, one day at a time! I had a nice workout this morning on the elliptical and a walk around the zoo with my little boy. <BR> <BR> Food journal <BR> <BR> Steel cut oats with PB2 and 1 tsp. Jam <BR> Two eggs <BR> Two whole grain ... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 00:12:20 EST Today .....a giant cookie bouquet arrived today for an early birthday present from a client! It was beautiful but of course I immediately thought "help!". I brought it home to share with my family and was perfectly fine having two bites. Phew! That was close. Today was a good day, full of healthy food but unfortunately I did NOT make time for exercise. Right now I am so exhausted I'll have no problem going to bed early and tomorrow I don't work so I can hit the gym. <BR> <BR> Food log ( PB2 is pe... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 22:20:22 EST Spark...sorry I strayed! Soooo...I have been on here sort of off and on. I weighed in at TOPS today...146!!!!!! I can barely face it. All I can do is get back on track RIGHT NOW. I packed my food for tomorrow and am going to bed early to work out in the morning. I have been lazy these last several months, tired of making good choices all the time but I am paying the price. I dont like how i feel! My exercise is so sporadic because I feel so drained and my feet hurt SO bad after I work I never seem to really work out... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 00:39:24 EST Food log Today was my sons first OFFICIAL day of kindergarten, and I promised my self it would be a new Start for me as well. It means going to bed early, it means gym days on the mornings I dont go to work. I really want to focus on being organized and balanced in my life. I have always worked late hours 10 to about 7 or later) and now I'll work a lot earlier and get off by five. I CANNOT believe I have to get up early for the rest of my life!!!!! Aaaack. My sister says she doesn't feel sorry for me... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 00:42:20 EST :) Saw my baby off to school....bittersweet but I love how excited he is! I have stayed committed, two days so far and no treats (sugary treats). I feel so much better, no garbage in my tummy! I have found myself devouring popcorn every night (air popped) with grass fed butter and nutritional yeast...YUM. I read an article on how healthy popcorn is (polyphenols?) and now I'm hooked, I just keep my portion size sensible. <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> <BR> Bowl of oatmeal with dried fruit/coconut <BR... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 02:06:27 EST :( Tomorrow my baby starts kindergarten and I have had a heavy heart all day. I've been so excited for this next stage for so long but yesterday that excitement turned into a lump in my throat. Everything will change, no more weekday trips to the zoo, children's museum or just a walk to the coffee shop. We will be getting up early. I will have even more commitments and obligations. There is no turning back time now, he is officially a grade schooler! The whole thing is bittersweet and I feel lik... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 16:49:59 EST Food journal Long day at work and my feet don't hurt! I wore Birkenstocks as a tester and it worked! They don't exactly go with my outfits......I am still NOT back in the game completely, but man oh man am I ready. I just sat down for the first time today (11:00 p.m), there has been a lot of added stress lately, not over the top but still stressful. My husband and I have decided to send our sweet Elliot to a private school (the one I attended) and there are so many hidden costs outside of tuition! It make... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 02:26:58 EST Not good. Today I weighed myself and I have gain seven pounds. I can tell, I feel "bloated" and not great. It's not like I went crazy and started eating treats, I think I just "relaxed" my eating and stopped being as active. I'm feeling really discouraged. Nothing to do but admit my mistakes and start correcting them. Feeling disgusted with myself but I know this can happen, and does happen. I am NOT regaining this weight. No way. Nothing is worth that. Excited to start moving my ticker again. I'm stay... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 01:37:46 EST Today I am off balance, and have been for a little while. I'm proud to say I have practiced good portion control and have eaten very little refined foods. My weight has not changed. My weight just doesn't seem to budge! I know it's because my exercise is so sporadic. My sleep is sooooo messed up, and I know it's because of increased anxiety. I need to focus on stress/anxiety reduction. I know that through meditation/prayer/EXERCISE I will accomplish this but I just feel behind on daily life obligat... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 02:05:38 EST Food log Five weeks until class reunion...I am more determined than ever to see my goal of 135 by then. I have gained a couple pounds in the last few months but should be able to reach goal shortly if I stick to my food plan. My farm share starts this week so I don't know how that will affect things. I don't believe in anything to restrictive or hard core or even actually "dieting" (yuck) but I am planning on cutting out sugar and bread. I always see results fastest that way. <BR> <BR> 2 pasture rai... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 02:21:57 EST Food log Today we celebrated my sweet Camerons baptism (cake!) and spent all day cleaning afterwards. My eating was not great, but I did pass up free donuts (twice!) tomorrow I commit to 1)GREENS 2)exercise. <BR> <BR> 1) two farm eggs <BR> 2) chicken breast/green salad with veggies <BR> 3)pineapple, blackberries <BR> 4) banana whipped creme cake <BR> 5) green smoothie (probiotic coconut water, spinach, celery, strawberries) <BR> 6) one cup nonfat Greek yogurt with strawberries 1) 1 tsp. Honey/ 5 alm... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 01:08:20 EST Food log Today I did not get enough vegetables, had a long work day and for some reason just feeling extra tired. I'm going to bed early, I think it's from standing on my feet all day in my cute boots (normally I Wear sensible shoes) just feel wiped out. <BR> <BR> 2 farm eggs <BR> One cup nonfat Greek yogurt/10 strawberries/ one fourth cup homemade granola <BR> 9 pieces of sushi (did not eat all the rice) <BR> Green smoothie (probiotic coconut water, spinach, mango, strawberries) <BR> Burrito (whol... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 01:03:14 EST Food journal Coming back from vacation, where I eat more/not as good as my non vacation life. I need to journal my food for awhile to stay on track. My 20 year reunion is in 6 weeks and I haven't quite gotten it together. I hoped to be 128 by then, but still haven't gotten to goal of 135. I just keep gaining and re losing the same two pounds. It's ridiculous! I have been loving my BARRE3 workout video. I also have been increasing my running. Emotionally I'm in a semi frazzled state, which is pretty typica... Sat, 23 Jun 2012 02:45:19 EST Feeling a little weak... Wow. It seems to be all I can do just to manage to have only a few "no no" foods, instead of staying Way completely. I know there are bigger, more pressing issues in the world than what I ate in a day so I don't want to give this more energy than it deserves but it bothers me I can't seem to just "buckle down" and eat to lose rather than just maintain like I am doing. I guess I will just keep pushing forward and eventually I will get to "that place" where it just is easier. I know it ebbs and... Thu, 31 May 2012 02:24:41 EST Food log I went to TOPS today and lost two ounces this week. I don't know why I can't seem to move further, to get to goal. Except maybe I just can't diet anymore and this is where my weight seems to settle on my "whole foods" eating plan. I can cut out the occasional treat but I just don't seem to be doing that lately. I admit, I just don't want to give up my good food but I know that I need to do something to get to goal (Im so close) I have been running early in the mornings, as much as I hate to g... Wed, 30 May 2012 01:48:18 EST Great way to exercise when you have little kids I always find it difficult to exercise when my husband is gone and I have my two year old and five year old with me. I try not to use the gym with them if I don't have to, they dont like to go to the childcare there and to be honest my time with them is precious, so Anything I can do with them is great. Today was so fun! I've gotten my five year old excited by my pedometer, we make bets on how high we can get the number. Today we did "sprints" we ran from point A to point B for a set amount ... Mon, 21 May 2012 01:10:54 EST Today, food log Food log <BR> <BR> One piece nitrate free bacon <BR> One egg <BR> 7 strawberries <BR> Two "light" soft tacos from taco bell (desperate) <BR> 8 once whole milk latte <BR> Banana <BR> 16 ounce green smoothie (kale, coconut water, green grapes, celery) <BR> Wild caught salmon with one piece Ezekiel bread <BR> Baked sweet potato fries with coconut oil <BR> <BR> Went to an all day TOPS convention, very inspiring! The guest speaker was an amazing man who walked across the country and documented ... Sat, 19 May 2012 01:43:20 EST Food log I don't feel great about today but at least I did not eat any processed foods. Everything was healthy but I think I could have eaten less. So much harder to get BACK on track than I thought! I am going to get up before everyone else to go running tomorrow, not my favorite but I love having it done with and out of the way! <BR> <BR> One cup puffins cereal w)skim <BR> Two eggs from farm <BR> Spinach Salad with crumbled bacon, smoked salmon and homemade honey mustard <BR> Too much dried cocon... Fri, 11 May 2012 01:37:32 EST Food blog... I feel like I am gaining weight. I have not been to TOPS in three weeks, I miss it! I feel overwhelmed and anxious to NOT go backwards. I haven't even hit my goal yet! I will food blog as much as possible. I saw my doctor today for my insomnia issues and he basically prescribed me everyday exercise. I need to get up really early and do this but with all my sleeping issues it's so difficult. But I know once I'm in the regular habit it will really help. <BR> <BR> Food blog <BR> <BR> Two eg... Tue, 8 May 2012 22:45:35 EST After vacation I had a wonderful four day visit with an old friend in colorado. I got way off track with my eating. I had good intentions and did manage a couple runs and some healthy groceries but still ended up way off my plan. I had bagels, ice cream, and beer. I SOO missed my green smoothies and regular food. I recognize that this can happen but not change anything. Maybe I gained a pound or two? I plan on eating so healthy I will never find out! It was a good reminder of how much better I feel with my ... Thu, 3 May 2012 02:13:29 EST Being blog BEING I did not overeat. I felt satisfied, not full. I felt nourished. I had a good day. It felt good to hit the gym, even though I've lost a lot of stamina from this two week head cold that has now passed. I attended my sons spring program, I resisted the brownies and other treats but ended up eating five (dairy, wheat free) "healthy" fig newtons. It could have been worse. I really wanted the chocolate chip cookies! I felt pretty balanced today. Every day is an opportunity ... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 00:58:31 EST Food I am really focused on laying attention to how I feel after I.....1) overeat 2)eat processed junk 3)don't have enough veggies 4)eat treats. I swear I am so hypersensitive, it's a joke! And the better I eat, the worse I feel if I stray. This should be enough to motivate me, right? Well, it SHOULD be. Today was a good day. I never became starved, I was never full, and basically felt good all day. <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> <BR> One grass fed egg <BR> 32 ounce green smoothie (drank throughout th... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 01:41:17 EST Feeling balanced.... Today I made a conscious effort to make good choices and I feel good. I woke up tired from not enough sleep but went to the gym after work (which I would normally skip when I am sleep deprived) and amazingly, the workout made me feel much better. My goal is to get better sleep at night and I know that following a basic routine will help. I cooked a great dinner and did not snack afterwards. I drank 48 ounces of green smoothie throughout the day (Swiss chard, celery, green apple, coconut wa... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 00:43:36 EST What can I say? What can I say? I have been so off balance for the last few weeks, I just don't feel good. I am sooooo ready to get back on track! I know that there will be "off" times, and I can just move forward. Practice the little tricks that win me success to begin with. I cooked/prepared all my food for work tomorrow. Packed my gym bag. Cleaned the house so I FEEL calmer. My anxious energy keeps me awake, and makes making good choices the next day (when Im exhausted) so much harder. I SOOO want to get ... Wed, 21 Mar 2012 02:12:47 EST Today was a little harder... Everyone in my household, including me, has a nasty cold and it really gets in the way of life. To be fair, I have hardly been sick at all this winter, I think this is my first cold and before my "lifestyle change" I constantly felt run down and had a weak immune system. I feel so much stronger and healthier now. Even this cold is not half as bad as they used to be. I had my first chocolate cravings, resisted, but ate more calories than I wanted. I felt really hungry today, I feel like I'm a... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 00:56:12 EST 3rd day, no treats, no problem! Still single mom until husband returns, Im managing, but this makes me really appreciate him and is a great reminder of how much easier/nicer it is when he is here. It's also good for us to have a little time apart, and miss each other. One of my goals this year is to take time to Be grateful for my blessings, and my family is my number one blessing. I do not take them for granted. I've been trying to focus on a "heartier" breakfast and lighter eating throughout the day. So far so good, ate... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 01:20:26 EST Day two, no treats I was SO HUNGRY this morning, truly hungry, nit just wanting to eat. I tried to be careful the rest of the day. I did have another scone this morning, maybe not a great choice. I'm a single mom until my husband returns next week, it's hard! I give credit to people who have to do it on their own every day. <BR> <BR> Food blog <BR> 2 grass fed eggs <BR> 3 nitrate free extra lean bacon <BR> <BR> One Figgy buckwheat scone <BR> Banana <BR> <BR> Bowl of amazing tomato soup <BR> One piece whol... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 01:36:01 EST Today I'm starting lent with giving up treats. I want to do this. It is a choice that helps my health but I want it also to impact me spiritually. I also commit to praying more and not missing church on weekends. I have such a sweet tooth that this is something I know will challenge, no desserts until Easter day. <BR> <BR> Food blog <BR> <BR> Two grass fed eggs <BR> One fig buckwheat scone (while not a "dessert" I am allowing myself one a week during lent) <BR> One fabulous bowl of roasted curr... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 01:12:05 EST Food hangover Yesterday I woke up feeling so hungover and awful. I had only consumed ONE beer so I didn't understand why? But then I released how MUCH I ate, and how late it was (midnight, donuts, chocolate, Chips and salsa). I spent all of yesterday drinking wag, green smoothies and eating small amounts of while food, and stopped after dinner. I woke up feeling great! AND I even spent a late night out with the girls! (no alcohol). This really is a a lesson learned. There is nothing I dislike more than a h... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 00:35:07 EST Food blog Okay, here goes! I weighed in today, I'm down 1.6 pounds but I'm not REALLY down since I was up two pounds last week. No gym today, just a long day at work and housecleaning. My presentation on alternative flours and there health benefits was a success at TOPS this morning <BR> <BR> Food log <BR> <BR> Half cup hot oat bran with small amount of berries and nonfat yogurt <BR> 3 tiny sweet potato muffins <BR> <BR> Bowl of green soup (all veggie, pureed and sprinkled with cheese) <BR> <BR> Or... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 23:18:46 EST Today I am not sure how today went...I will food blog and then decide. I will say that I didn't feel quite as all-day hungry like as did yesterday, yeah! I went o zumba which was a treat! I get weighed tomorrow at TOPS and fingers crossed I'm down! <BR> <BR> Food blog <BR> <BR> Green smoothie- spinach, carrot, celery, nonfat kefir, acai berry juice, mixed berries, banana chia seeds <BR> <BR> Egg/one slice nitrate free lean bacon/ 3 bites carrot zucchini muffin <BR> <BR> Egg white and veggies/on... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 02:09:01 EST I hate diets I hate diets....they just don't work for me. The only thing that has ever worked is just lifestyle change. But BEFORE the lifestyle change I had to actually CHANGE my LIFESTYLE. That meant mostly cutting out processed foods. It means smaller portions. It means increasing veggies and adding them when I could. It meant skipping dessert or having just a few bites. It means fitting in more activity than before. I have been pretty spoiled in this lifestyle change, eating what I want within reas... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 00:48:11 EST