EOWYN2424's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EOWYN2424 EOWYN2424's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What a hypocrite! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897359 I had a collegue that was such a hypocrite! I was working as a foral asst. She was a florist. She kept discouraging me from making sales, saying the percentage is too minuscule to even bother but at the same time, she kept grabbing all the sales for herself! My boss, the owner's asst. told me to keep track of all sales, so, like a fool, I kept a running tally of all sales under the florist's name but instead of feeling happy about grabbing all the commission for herself, she had the nerve to ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 06:59:06 EST Lack of willpower or conscious decision? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888589 My Dad wanted KFC today and I will admit, temptation got the better of me and I had what he had, a snack plate, which consists of 2 hot and spicy thighs, one scoop of mashed potato, one scoop of coleslaw and one butterscotch bun. It may not look like much food but I decided to track honestly and it came to close to a thousand calories! What! Just for one meal! <BR> <BR> But I will not dwell on it or beat myself up! I can't turn back the clock! I can only move forward. It was delicious though... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 09:58:52 EST My plan of attack! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887886 1) I will be more mindfull of what I eat - no more mindless munching and I will stop buying snack foods, if I am really hungry in between meals, I will take fruits, veggies and hummus or a pb sandwich, no more cracker type or processed foods! <BR> <BR> 2) On non dialysis days, I will do at least 40 minutes of sweat-producing exercise, either do a workout DVD or youtube videos. I will make it a point to have at least 3 cardio sessions and 2 strength training sessions a week, or a combo of tho... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 04:16:30 EST My new lace dress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887266 Hi, folks, this was the new lace dress that my Mom said was ugly! I wore it to the Chinese New Year party last Sunday. <BR> <BR> What do you think? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2135923840.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1659112470.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thu, 5 Mar 2015 02:36:03 EST Yay for am exercise!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5884580 I woke up about 6:30am today. The sound of my Mom chopping raw chicken woke me up. No complains here! As 1) I seldom wake up early enough for am exercise and 2) I get to watch my Mom cook, which is always entertaining! Yeah! I m weird that way! Lol! <BR> <BR> I went for a 35 minute walk, got in abt 4500 steps, abt 2km. Then did 40 minutes of Pilates on the old desktop afterwards. I use the desktop for my exercise now, mainly youtube videos and DVDs. The DVD player has gone bonkers. Thank God... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 03:34:13 EST New Haircut!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882873 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1645157527.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It looks about the same as my regular trim but it's slightly shorter and a little more layered. Plus, I have bangs again! Thu, 26 Feb 2015 04:21:58 EST Time to get serious with Myself!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880418 I know I've said it before but this time I really mean business!!!!! <BR> <BR> No more mindless munching on junk food, not just for this Chinese New Year season but for every single day from now on! <BR> <BR> And the exercise is to be done according to schedule! I'm making appointments with my computer (DVD player has broken down, so I have to do it on the desktop) and I will make myself exercise at the appointed times! NO EXCUSES! WHEN THE CLOCK SHOWS 5PM OR 6PM, IT'S TIME TO EXERCISE!!! ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 10:28:14 EST 1st new dress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878468 Hi, this is the first of my new dresses! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l211402202.jpg"> Thu, 19 Feb 2015 00:38:56 EST Looking forward to CNY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877811 Already I got 2 ang pows! Really looking forward to getting more! Esp from my parents! I intend to put it in my savings account! Looking forward to good food tonight! I do hope I can still fit into my cheongsam! I have been feasting for days! Heh! Heh! Time to get some exercise! Sigh! <BR> <BR> Lots of fried goodies! I hope lots of guests come to eat lots of it! Or I will be munching too much of them! Self control! Self control! Lol! Wed, 18 Feb 2015 01:17:09 EST CNY officially begins tmrw http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877374 with the big family reunion dinner on CNY eve tomorrow. My family is joining my uncle's family for dinner tmrw! But the feasting has already begun earlier in my house because of all the munchies available. <BR> <BR> I went out for lunch with a friend today and had a good time but now I am a little worried that I may have put on weight! 2 of my new dresses have a little room but not my cheongsam! (form fitting chinese dress). <BR> <BR> I didn't even manage to exercise today because my Mom w... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 10:57:05 EST Thank God for nice neighbors! And a wedding luncheon report! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874491 Sorry I am a little late with the wedding luncheon report that I attended last Sunday! I had to miss church, oh well! The bride was pretty and the food was good! Spiced fried chicken, chicken curry with potatoes, beef rendang tok, fresh nutmeg salad thing, called acar, salted fish sambal, ghee rice and Bidor (name of the town) chendol, a dessert with shaved ice, coconut sugar, chendol, which is a dessert thingy, with coconut milk! It was delish! We had lunch, then took pics with the couple! T... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 11:39:09 EST Wedding luncheon tmrw! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871183 Early night for me tonight! Wedding luncheon tmrw! This means I have to skip church, the wedding is out of state. About an hour's drive on the highway. I am meeting the nurses from the dialysis center along with some other patients at the dialysis center abt 11am. The van will be driven by one of the patients. There will be 12 of us in the van! I am looking forward to a great time with great food! <BR> <BR> I'll let you know how it is tmrw! Sat, 7 Feb 2015 10:46:42 EST Thank God for hummus and carrots! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867609 I am having dialysis right now. I was hungry but not anymore! Just had carrot sticks dipped in hummus! Yummm! <BR> <BR> Quick to prepare and easy to eat! But right now, I am bored! Thank God for my Samsung Tab 2! Saving up for the Tab S but also thinking of the HP tablet PC! Really can't decide between the 2! Mon, 2 Feb 2015 04:12:08 EST Didn't feel like exercising but..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865164 I laced up my sneakers and went for a walk. Before I knew it, I had clocked slightly more than 10,000 steps according to my pedometer app in my smartphone! I didn't even realise I had walked so much. I was just enjoying the cool breeze! <BR> <BR> Got some hummus from the convenience store. Lot's of carrots in the fridge. It's carrot sticks and hummus for tea in the dialysis center tmrw! Yumm! <BR> <BR> Bedtime now! Good night all! Thu, 29 Jan 2015 10:52:25 EST Finding it difficult to forgive myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863703 I have done some things I am not proud of in the past. Terrible in my eyes. The ppl affected have already forgiven me, mostly. But I am finding it difficult to forgive myself. The scenes keep replaying themselves in my mind. I feel so bad! I keep asking myself how could I have done that. <BR> <BR> I prayed to God to forgive me but I still feel bad! Tue, 27 Jan 2015 11:03:19 EST Fabulous Homecooked Steak Dinner! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861385 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1080804273.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I bought a piece of grass fed topside beef for a good price. That one piece was enough for 2 meals! Imagine if you had gone to a restaurant, they would have given you a huge piece (more than one portion) and charged you a premium price. <BR> <BR> I cooked this myself and I would estimate that this steak dinner only cost me about RM10! I marinated the meat with Teriyaki sauce, minced garlic and lots of freshly gro... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 05:54:00 EST Got up early today! Went for a walk! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860809 Got in roughly 4,000+ steps today! Not exercising now though. Just finished dialysis. Not advisible. I've fainted before! <BR> <BR> Tmrw, I am making myself and my Dad grass fed beef steak with garlic potatoes! Fri, 23 Jan 2015 08:01:24 EST Sights from my walk today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860045 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l542960074.jpg"> <BR> <BR> An unusual effect of a sunset. I was stunned by the beauty of God's creation! Unfortunately, this picture doesn't do it full justice. I hope you can see it! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l687854404.jpg"> <BR> <BR> A pretty bunch of purple flowers grown by a neighbor! Thu, 22 Jan 2015 07:11:08 EST Worried abt my parents http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857624 My parents are getting older day by day. They are getting absent minded and my Dad's hearing isn't what it used to be! And yet he still has to continue working because I m on dialysis and can't support myself financially. <BR> <BR> I m worried abt how they cope without me when I m gone! I have been on dialysis for 10 years already. According to medical statistics, I only have another 10 years to live at most! <BR> <BR> Already I have to constantly hunt for my Mom's reading glasses, read fi... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 05:03:15 EST Just got myself a curling tong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856956 Haven't got the hang of it yet though. I just need practice, then I'll have va-va-voom hair for special ocassions! It's a vidal sasson travel sized curling tong. It looks so cute! Cost abt RM98 though! I think I'll go practice curling my hair now........ Sun, 18 Jan 2015 08:42:42 EST Upset stomach along with a cold! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856188 Sigh! This is just not my day! Not my weekend more like! Can't exercise and my belly isn't getting any smaller! Ppl are starting to comment on my rounded appearance! Not good! Not good at all! <BR> <BR> All I can do is keep trying but it upsets me that ppl keep commenting! These things take time! What do they expect? Sat, 17 Jan 2015 04:46:12 EST can't stop sneezing! i think i have a cold! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855506 I think I got the bug from my Dad. He's been coughing for days now. My Mom can't stop sneezing too! The weather is bad! Lot's of ppl are sick! I hope I recover soon! Lot's of exercise planned but I can't do it atm! Rats! Fri, 16 Jan 2015 03:29:21 EST Frantic & Worried http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854810 The nurses in the dialysis center I go to have been remarking how much fatter I look. I am also aware that though my clothes still fit, I am developing a big tummy problem. It wasn't so bad in my 30s but now in my 40s, it's pretty bad! I can literally pinch 4 inches when I sit down! <BR> <BR> My weight is slowly creeping up but I didn't exercise much today because it was raining out and my exercise room is being used by my Dad who has a flu. He is sleeping in the spare room, where I usually ... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 06:48:02 EST Very disappointed with myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852330 I keep telling myself to keep my weight down, to drink less, because I am on dialysis but I keep failing! My weight keeps going up! Even the nurses have started to notice and are remarking on my rounder face and belly fat! <BR> <BR> I had worship duty yesterday, so I had to go to church on Saturday too for practise. I saw the huge jug of iced coke zero and I just had to have some! I really have to make up my mind to drink less but I just love ice cold drinks! Who doesn't? <BR> <BR> I just h... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 02:52:02 EST Some Undeniable Facts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849349 People my age with similar educations are now earning big bucks, having luxurious/nice homes, driving nice/fancy cars and having steady/good jobs. <BR> <BR> I may be on dialysis but there's nothing wrong with my brain. My main weakness is, I'm too sensitive and easily offended. This has been used against me to oust me of many jobs. I never stay long in one position, and because of that, my disability pension is chicken feed because it's 60% of my last drawn pay, which isn't much. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 09:49:52 EST Taking it one day at a time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847341 I know my recent blogs have been negative. It's true, I do feel this way but I've decided to change my way of thinking to be happier. I've decided to count my blessings instead of focusing on what is wrong in my life. <BR> <BR> I have good eyesight, good enough even at my age to do fine needlework. I thank God for my eyes because I can't imagine not reading! I love reading and cross-stitch as well as crochet! I have wonderful parents who support me and love me. I have a brother who... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 06:33:35 EST What must I do?! I just never had a choice!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846285 I have a huge problem! I just can't seem to keep my weight down! Esp on a Monday! I keep going to the dialysis center with a 4kg or more weight gain. Mostly, it's because I drink too much water. It's just sooooo hard! I wish I never had SLE and I had normal, functioning kidneys but it's much too late for me. <BR> <BR> I have been dealt some bad cards and I am not happy with them! What makes me so miserable is I had no choice in the matter. Lot's of ppl have unhealthy diets but they just gai... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 04:31:36 EST Thinking of this cut! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843504 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1477014175.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What do you think? Does this cut suit me? <BR> <BR> I sure will miss my longish hair though! Fri, 2 Jan 2015 01:48:33 EST Am I Expecting too much? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842571 I recently acquired a pedometer app on my mobile. It's very handy because it tracks my steps fairly accurately while going easy on the mobile's battery! I'm very happy with it! At least now, I'm aware of how many steps I take. <BR> <BR> Previously, I only walked for 30 minutes but after I got the app, I realized that I wasn't doing enough. In order to hit 10,000 steps, I have to walk for a total of 90 minutes. And I realized I wasn't walking briskly enough, I only hit a 33 minute mile! I jus... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 08:40:48 EST Just found another online fitness instructor! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839718 <link>www.joannasoh.com/30-mins-cardio-cor<BR>e-interval-burn-belly-fat-beginner-adv<BR>ance/ </link> <BR> <BR> I think this workout really kicks butt without being too taxing. I watched it once through and this is what I aim to be doing next morning. I plan to go to bed early tonight and waking up early to do this! <BR> <BR> I didn't really sleep well last night, so I felt too tired to attempt this today. Hopefully, I'll get a good night's rest tonight, then I plan to do this tomorrow m... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 07:29:05 EST Feeling a little down because Christmas is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839117 Who else feels like that? Every year it's the same! Starting around October, the malls start playing Christmas music and the Christmas deals start, everything feels so jolly, esp in the malls. Everything feels so festive, even restaurants offer special Christmas deals. <BR> <BR> Churches everywhere put on Christmas plays, there are parties to go to etc. Then around the 26th or the 27th, everything winds down, and another Christmas season is over! <BR> <BR> I don't know about you but I alway... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 03:01:48 EST Time to get SERIOUS with myself!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835758 I am not waiting till January 1st! I am starting NOW!!! <BR> <BR> I will track every single bite of food, even if it's only a little mouthful! <BR> <BR> AND I will make sure I exercise every Tuesday, Thursday and the weekends! <BR> <BR> This is because on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I have dialysis. I am REALLY not a morning person but if I can, I will also try slotting in morning walks in addition to my regular evening workouts! But if I can't wake up in the mornings, I will still make ... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 08:15:30 EST I MUSTN'T Give Up!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831730 I am having a really tough time atm. Every single thing I eat or drink becomes extra weight! You see, I am on dialysis and it's a real struggle to keep my weight gain to less than 3kgs, especially during weekends! Because it's 2 days instead of the usual 1! <BR> <BR> My heart is getting weaker because I almost always extract more than 3kgs. 3kgs worth of food and drink really isn't much, especially on hot days when you just HAVE to drink! To make matters worse, I have practically stopped uri... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 04:01:43 EST I hate my life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827309 Why did I get SLE?! My Uni friends only put on weight but why did I have to get sick?! I know many worse ppl than me so why did God single me out like this!? I have been on dialysis for 10 years bcoz of SLE. I watched my diet like a hawk after my SLE diagnosis in 1997 but my kidneys still failed anyway after abt 7 years, I started dialysis in 2004. I have a friend also having the same form of SLE but to date, she still doesn't need dialysis. Why can't I b like her?! To make matters worse, my ... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 03:37:20 EST Just had a girlie day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822780 In honor of the church Christmas party this Saturday, I had a pedi with nail art on all my toes as well as a facial today. This is my long awaited treat. I haven't had a facial in years and the extraction hurt a bit! <BR> <BR> I now have Christmassy nails! <BR> <BR> Check it out! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/9/l298261718.jpg"> Tue, 25 Nov 2014 11:34:23 EST Of appetites and all that..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813959 I am on dialysis but I still enjoy eating and even fantasize about my next meal often. This can be disastrous if it causes me to overeat. I have to force myself to stick to proper portion sizes! <BR> <BR> I thought I was unfortunate until I met someone who couldn't eat, and I mean literally! She gets hungry but can't stomach beyond a few mouthfuls because of nausea, while I have the opposite problem, having a huge appetite but trying not to overeat! <BR> <BR> And that's not my only problem!... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 04:57:26 EST Back to the drawing board! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808599 After a disastrous few weeks where I haven't managed to extract all excess water from my body (I'm on dialysis), I have decided to get serious with myself. This is because I can't extract as much as I want now because my blood pressure keeps dropping towards the last hour of the 4 hour dialysis treatments. <BR> <BR> This is bad news, it means that I have breathing difficulties and anxiety attacks toward the last hour of treatment. The anxiety attacks mean a few hours of discomfort after dial... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 10:35:38 EST A pedometer in my mobile! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804471 Did you know you can download an app into your mobile that acts as a pedometer? You don't have to buy a separate device anymore! Isn't technology wonderful? If you have an android phone like I have, just go to playstore and search for pedometer! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> The one I use is stepwalk. So far, I m loving it! It is quite accurate. Now I am certain to get my 10,000 steps in! So far, I have been clocking in a little over 10,000 steps during my walks! The number of steps displayed keeps... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 11:29:40 EST Proud of myself today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802042 I honestly didn't feel like exercising. It was raining cats and dogs in the evening, well nearly every evening now. Malaysia is now in its monsoon season. So, I couldn't go for my usual walk. <BR> <BR> Instead, I popped in a DVD in my computer. The DVD player in the hall has broken down, so now the spare room and the computer is where I do my workouts now. I did a 50 minute Latin Dance workout. I didn't dance as well as the instructor but I got moving. I was sweating by the end of it! <BR> ... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 10:15:11 EST My belly roll is driving me NUTS!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799640 But what can I do? I don't have the stamina and fitness to run. So I walk, mostly for an hour or so 2 to 3 times a week. I also try doing mat Pilates about twice a week, for 30 to 40 minutes. But I still have a belly roll/muffin top. It drives me mad! <BR> <BR> I also watch what I eat but I have to admit, my diet isn't perfect but when I do snack, I keep it to below 300kcal and reasonably healthy. I also watch my portion sizes. <BR> <BR> As for sleep, I sleep quite well most nights but ocas... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 05:41:34 EST Bad week...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796744 I wanted to take a walk on Thursday but ended up chatting with friends. Friday, I had dialysis as usual. Normally, I don't exercise after dialysis. Saturday, I was busy. I had a prayer meeting early in the morning, then singing practice, a short rest, then a chronic illness support group meeting. I didn't sleep well despite going to bed early on Friday and Saturday night. This morning I had to wake up early because I had singing duty in Church. When I got back, I just felt so tired that I spe... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 10:03:35 EST I HAVE to do this!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793175 Hi, I am a dialysis patient and I am trying to lose weight! I have to stop the constant snacking and extra meals because truth to say, I have been putting on weight! Not a lot but enough to give me a belly roll! Even worse, I am in the top 3 of interdialytic weight gainers in the dialysis center I go to. This means the weight increase for my meals and drinks in between treatments. <BR> <BR> I really need to control myself. Today, after the weekend, my weight increased by 4.3kgs! This won't d... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 05:38:51 EST Stuffy nose! NOT fun!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789453 I've had a slight flu since Friday, scratchy throat and stuffy nose too! Not fun! Not fun at all. Because of that I'm taking a break from exercise and my belly roll is STILL there, ever present evil entity! I HATE my belly roll! I wish I could just take a knife and get rid of it but we all know that's not possible. <BR> <BR> I have been walking and doing Pilates regularly but it is STILL there! Sigh! It makes me want to scream, esp now that I have flu and can't do anything! Tue, 30 Sep 2014 01:44:55 EST Perservered thru a 60 minute cardio session! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772351 I did a 60 minute Jane Fonda aerobic dance workout yesterday afternoon. It was abt 4:30pm. I had a Bible study at 8pm but had to get ready by 6:30pm to car pool with a friend. <BR> <BR> When the clock showed 4:30, I told myself : "just do it!". So, I turned on the workout on my PC and just danced away! There were times during the workout when I wondered if it would ever end but I was determined to finish it and I did! I was sweaty and very satisfied by the end of it! <BR> <BR> I took a refr... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 03:57:12 EST I just don't understand it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770872 I have upped the cardio, and started easing into a regular Pilates routine, with the exception of last week bcoz of flu.....and yet, I seem to have put on a whole kilo in the space of 2 weeks! <BR> <BR> I just don't understand it! I have also been watching my portions and taking a lot less junk. The strange thing is, my clothes all still fit! <BR> <BR> What's happening? I feel very desperate right now! Mon, 1 Sep 2014 04:18:59 EST This is just sooooooo hard! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767755 I just can't believe it. I put on 5.7kg over the weekend! I am on dialysis and that is a massive weight gain. All I did was drink a little extra water. I also drank some coke while shopping with a friend on Sunday. <BR> <BR> I am just beside myself with disappointment! I am so mad at myself! How can I keep my weight down? Stop drinking altogether? Most of the other patients in the dialysis center have little weight gains of below 2kgs! I just don't know what to do! Wed, 27 Aug 2014 00:25:32 EST Saddened over former friend's selfishness! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764654 I had a close friend who was recently pressuring me to invest heavily in this referential affiliate scheme. While I understood where she was coming from, she just didn't or refused to believe that I just didn't have the money! <BR> <BR> I told her I needed more time but I was shocked at her pushiness and beligrence. She even asked me to sell my white gold cross that was a present from my Mom. I told her I couldn't possibly do that because it was insulting both my Lord and my Mom. But she too... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 03:03:59 EST Counting My Blessings! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762448 I used to blame God and moan and complain constantly because I am on dialysis but now I realize how wrong I was. True, I have a disability but I have also been very blessed. I have my 5 senses, my 4 limbs, my eyesight is still good enough to do my beloved needlework, I have a roof over my head, regular meals everyday..... I could go on! Really. You just have to pause and reflect when you feel down. <BR> <BR> God has indeed been faithful to me. I am only sorry it took me so long to see it! Mon, 18 Aug 2014 21:43:27 EST God works in mysterious ways....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752619 I was supposed to be on church worship duty next Sunday, the 10th of August but I misread my calendar and thought I was on duty yesterday. Turns out that the female vocalist for yesterday didn't turn out at all, both on the practise Saturday and service on Sunday. No phone call either. <BR> <BR> So, maybe God made me misread my calendar so that service would go on smoothly. However, I am still on duty next week. But I don't mind! I enjoy singing for the Lord! Mon, 4 Aug 2014 03:03:19 EST God will take care of you! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743136 I just bought 3 nice hairclips last night at the local night market. I was about to put them with the rest of my hair accessory collection when a still, small voice said to me : "surely you don't need so many hairclips, give one to your friend! Surely you can spare one! Don't be so selfish!". <BR> <BR> Apparently, the said friend has been wanting a hairclip because she doesn't have enough of them. So, you see, God cares and looks after EVERYONE, no matter how small our needs! Mon, 21 Jul 2014 03:36:37 EST