EOWYN2424's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EOWYN2424 EOWYN2424's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My Resolution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6035675 It seems that no matter what I do, I can't seem to lose my belly fat! It is a wee bit smaller but I am STILL not happy with my physique. <BR> <BR> Maybe I am not trying hard enough. Maybe I need to exercise more. All I know is, I have been trying for years but all I have done is gain! <BR> <BR> So, I have made up my mind to try harder. No more indiscriminate snacks, no more excuses, I have to start my daily workouts by 6pm, unless I am sick. <BR> <BR> Also, less fried food, less sweet dr... Sat, 21 Nov 2015 12:04:46 EST Feeling bloated and don't feel up to a workout! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034713 I was planning on getting in a good workout today but felt really bloated and uncomfortable after I ate fruit rojak (a kind on Malaysian fruit salad) ard 3pm. 5pm rolled in but I just didn't feel like exercising because I felt so bloated and full. <BR> <BR> Then me and my Mom went to a local night market ard 7pm. So the only exercise I got today was walking in the night market, a whooping total of 0.87km! Sheesh! I got 2 very big and nice looking custard apples though! At least I think that... Thu, 19 Nov 2015 11:37:27 EST Feeling bloated and don't feel up to a workout! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034710 I was planning on getting in a good workout today but felt really bloated and uncomfortable after I ate fruit rojak (a kind on Malaysian fruit salad) ard 3pm. 5pm rolled in but I just didn't feel like exercising because I felt so bloated and full. <BR> <BR> Then me and my Mom went to a local night market. So the only exercise I got today was walking in the night market, a whooping total of 0.87km! Thu, 19 Nov 2015 11:33:04 EST Can't deny it anymore! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015801 I am getting FAT!!! <BR> <BR> I have been snacking mindlessly too often throughout my days! I have to stop this and watch my portions! I also have to stop taking ice cubes and drinking water when I am not really thirsty! I am already in trouble at the dialysis center! <BR> <BR> I just have to be mindful of what I eat and drink throughout the day! I can't afford to be so careless! And my clothes are getting tight! I am so depressed! Fri, 16 Oct 2015 01:46:12 EST Having a slight flu! Not fun! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015259 I have to rest after posting this! I just feel so run down. I can't exercise either! <BR> <BR> I hate being sick! Thu, 15 Oct 2015 03:15:30 EST Banana Fritters, and other oily fried stuff!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6009645 Sigh! Another day where I can't reach my target weight! The doctor changed my dry weight to 59.5kg, up from 58.5kg. When I completed dialysis today, I was 60.7kgs, bad! But I've been wondering if my weight gain is in fact, muscle. <BR> <BR> Well, when my Mom came to pick me up, she suggested we get banana fritters and other fried stuff! Ooooooooh! So, she parked, and I got down and bought RM3 worth of banana fritters, RM2 worth of fish sticks, RM1 each of fried sweet potato slices and yam s... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 10:14:18 EST Moving Forward without Worries! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6007922 My weight has been climbing up but I'm not any larger and I'm still fitting into most of my clothes. So, I'm not too worried. I wonder is it could be that I'm gaining muscle, as I've stepped up my exercise to include longer walks, body weight exercises and HIIT. I do the HIIT as often as I can because I want to burn more fat. But I do take active breaks in between, in the form of long walks, I usually aim for 5,000 steps at least, 7,500 would be better, if I can, even 10,000 steps. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 09:42:30 EST It fits!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004723 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/68f51f2e-fc80-40ef-99fb-5f760bf95df1.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Hi, a pic of me in my cheongsam as promised! <BR> <BR> Gotta do something about that double chin though! sigh! <BR> <BR> I decided that I was going to wear this to the mooncake party 2 weeks ago. Started to be more careful with what I ate and also exercise! I'm proud to say, that not only does it fit, I had abt an inch of wiggle room. <BR> <BR> Not to be complacent, though, I will continu... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 01:11:31 EST Making a bit of progress but I CAN do BETTER!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003799 I weighed myself before dialysis today and I was 62.5kg. That's slightly better than Monday and Wednesday but I believe I can do better! After treatment today, I was 59.7kg, only 200g off the mark of 59.5kg! This is much better than the previous month where I was lectured by all the staff nurses for lack of self control when it came to water! Last month, I kept owing the machine like 1-2kgs! That is DEFINITELY not good! <BR> <BR> I am aiming to bring my water weight down and I'm also aiming ... Fri, 25 Sep 2015 09:46:50 EST I WILL do this!!!! From now on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5997153 In addition to trying to lose fat for a better physique, I also have to deal with Kidney Failure. In other words, I have to go for haemodialysis treatments 3 times a week. <BR> <BR> As a result, my career has been patchy to say the least. Currently, I'm unemployed and looking for work. I do have a blog where I sell my cross-stitch pieces. The links are in my signature. I am wondering where I can find work online, where I can work from home. I'd rather not have an online business because thi... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 09:52:48 EST Did a 45 minute ab and hiit workout, feeling great! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5986832 My left foot, which I sprained is recovering. I did a few jumping jacks during the warmup. Soon, I can start high impact exercises again! Yippeeee! <BR> <BR> On a related note, the stylish and pricey booty shorts arrived a few days ago. I think I'll test them out by wearing them to workout in tmrw! <BR> <BR> I will blog abt them tmrw! Sat, 29 Aug 2015 11:44:46 EST Got my hair trimmed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980010 I rang my stylist's salon ard noon and made an appt. for 4pm. I reached there ard 30 minutes past 3 and was told by the asst. that I didn't have an appt. This is like the 3rd time this has happened so I kicked up a fuss. <BR> <BR> But my stylist was nice enough to squeeze me in, despite having another appt. at 4pm, which was supposed to b my slot. Well, I am all smiles now bcoz he did a good job. I will post a pic after my color on Thursday. My regular stylist is too expensive for a color or... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 05:53:49 EST It just dawned on me....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978874 that God DOES love me! I came across an old prescription of mine from more than a decade ago. I was shocked to be reminded of how many drugs I was on back then. I also remembered how bad I felt. I had my first depression when I was 14. I had my 2nd depression when I was 18. Both times I felt so bad that I thought I'd never be happy again. <BR> <BR> But God has always been with me. Today, though I am on dialysis bcoz of SLE, I am a much happier person. My last bipolar relapse was in 2003, whe... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 10:55:28 EST I have just GOT to hang in there! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5976597 I really need to mind my portion sizes, watch what I eat, and exercise regularly! No excuses! My weight has been creeping up. It may be water retention from the increase in hormone injections to make red blood cells or it could be post menopause weight gain. I have been on dialysis for 11 years. <BR> <BR> Whatever the reason for my weight gain or change in measurements, I WILL FIGHT IT!!! I WILL NOT GIVE UP!!! I WON'T GIVE IN!!! I MUST SUCCEED!!! Wed, 12 Aug 2015 12:01:46 EST Portion Control is Tough! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969523 There have been many times when I wish I didn't have SUCH a good apetite! I know I have too many snacks in any given day! It's like I am hungry ALL the time! I went to see a renal dietitian recently and we discussed portion sizes. I was so disheartened when I discovered what was a proper portion size for various foods! Esp rice! I will just have to train my stomach to subsist on less food! <BR> <BR> I REALLY have no choice! My clothes are getting a little tighter and my weight keeps going up... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 02:01:30 EST Durian season is starting! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5948986 My Dad bought some good quality durian today. One of the earliest harvests. Durian season is officially July-August. It's now late June, so durians are starting to be sold. But because it's still early in the season, they are expensive! <BR> <BR> I only ate the flesh of 2 seeds (sorry, can't translate any better) and I'm really full right now! I can't wait for durian season to be in full swing! But I can't eat much because of the potassium content! Sigh! It's times like this when it REALLY s... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 06:01:00 EST A Workout Surprise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5948169 I have been a little naughty today! I kept watching youtube vids till I had no time to get a good cardio workout! Well, actually, it was a hot day and I didn't fancy sweating it out. I had a light dinner, then I whipped out an oldie but goodie Pilates DVD! <BR> <BR> In the past, when I've done this DVD, I get a little sweat, and it felt hard. But surprise, surprise, today it felt easy! And I didn't even sweat much! Which means I must be getting fitter! Yay! <BR> <BR> Alright, no nonsense to... Sat, 20 Jun 2015 11:07:39 EST A bad day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947667 I went for dialysis in the 2nd shift today, officially 11am to 3pm. But I went early, and started at 9.30am, I finished at 1.30pm. When the staff nurse came to end my treatment, I realized that one of my tourniquets was missing. I usually have one pair of them. They use one to loop around my left hand so the lines are neat, the other half I just put on the table in front of me. I've been doing this for years, so I didn't think much about it. Until today, I suspect that it was being used on an... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 09:38:15 EST The long overdue report of my Ipoh daytrip! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943735 I went to Ipoh (a small town in Peninsular Malaysia) last Saturday with my Mom and an Aunt. It was fun! I had lots of nice food and we also bought a lot of goodies to eat later! Lots of savory and sweet biscuit thingies! But I am trying not to be greedy. My Mom and me have given away some of the goodies to friends because the more goodies there are in the house, the more we'll eat but it's all sooooooo nice! Particularly the honeycomb cookies! More like a bar and coated with honey! Yummmmm! ... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 22:59:41 EST Adding Tabata Style Workouts to my Fitness Plan! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5936747 I found a whole bunch of these Tabata or HIIT workouts on Youtube! I also some Barre ones! There are so many free workouts that I can keep changing it up to keep my muscles guessing! <BR> <BR> Today, I did a 35 minute Tabata workout. I couldn't do all the reps though, the jumping jacks were particularly tough! I was panting and my throat felt dry. I did take a water break in between though! <BR> <BR> I've read claims that Tabata style workouts burn more fat. I hope so! I was dying at the e... Sat, 30 May 2015 11:24:35 EST My plan! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931177 I will do a workout DVD, take a long walk or do youtube workouts for a minimum of 40 minutes at least 4 times a week. The walks will be at least 90 minutes or 10,000 steps. <BR> <BR> Also, I will watch what I eat, and cut out the mindless munching! I will also strive to give up fast food! <BR> <BR> And if I happen to wake up early that day, I will take a long walk! <BR> <BR> I will quit scrutinizing my belly or I will drive myself crazy! I understand that losing weight takes time. I will k... Wed, 20 May 2015 05:00:19 EST I know I need to work on my character..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929517 esp self control, patience and gentleness. I also need to learn to be more patient with my parents because they are getting old and hence, they are depending on me more and more to help them remember stuff like where they put their keys, glasses, mobile etc. I am working on being more patient and politer to my parents. I want to honor them while they and I are still here, I don't think it's any use visiting their graves (if they happen to go first), and having elaborate funeral rites after th... Sun, 17 May 2015 09:41:13 EST I have to be more patient with myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927471 I have been logging my food here as best I can. I may have skipped a few days but I'm determined to log my food more consistently because it's important that I see how exactly I'm eating. <BR> <BR> I have also been exercising 3 to 4 times a week. I'm beginning to see some definition in my upper abs but my lower abs are still poochy! It drives me mad! How long before I see some positive changes in my lower belly?! <BR> <BR> I was fortunate enough to be in the morning dialysis session today. ... Wed, 13 May 2015 11:01:52 EST Time passes soooo fast!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913278 Seems like only yesterday I posted on my blog. But lo! it's already the following Saturday today! I'm having another lazy Saturday but after this blog, I'm going to do a Pilates ab workout from my new workout DVD that I ordered recently! <BR> <BR> Do you feel that time seems to fly when you're online! I do! I can spend hours just checking email, sparking and surfing the net in general! I gotta allocate more time for needlework! I have several projects I need to finish, including a complicate... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 05:51:42 EST Just a lazy Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909301 I've done nothing all day but spark and surfing the net in general! Saved a few good articles from Prevention.com. I had my Mom for company today but right now, she's at some dinner event with her friends. I'm still sparking but I plan to do some cross-stitch after I'm done here! <BR> <BR> I'm supposed to go to church tomorrow morning but I'm feeling lazy. Plan to cross-stitch till I'm tired then sleep in tomorrow morning! Sat, 11 Apr 2015 09:24:56 EST A Good Day with a slight blimp! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908787 Yay! My new workout DVD arrived today! I can't wait to get started! But first, I will have to make sure that I have fully recovered from this sore throat! Don't want any relapses! <BR> <BR> I got a phone call from one of the nurses yesterday, asking me if I would like to start dialysis earlier (2nd shift), I said sure! I am usually in the 3rd shift. <BR> <BR> So, I got home much earlier today and have been sparking, surfing the net and I have tested my new DVD! It's fab! Can't wait to actua... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 09:35:35 EST New clothes for my devices! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908139 I got new covers for my tab and mobile! The tab is now in turquoise and the mobile is now is light pink. My old covers were getting old, ragged and dirty! Now my devices have new clothes! LOL! <BR> <BR> I also got some steamed peanuts, mini pineapples, and Malaysian fish sticks, called keropok lekor, if you are ever in Malaysia, you have GOT to try it! Personally, I prefer the steamed ones, eaten with sambal belacan, but the fried ones are nice too! I also washed everything down with passion... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 08:14:48 EST I've got some beautiful new heels today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906833 I went to the mall with my Mom today. I'm so happy because I bought a stylish new pair of heels. They are 2 inches high and have sequins! AND they were on sale! <BR> <BR> If buy 2 pairs of heels, you get 90% off. The original price was more than RM200! We got them for RM72! for 2 pairs, so each pair was only RM36! <BR> <BR> My Mom got one pair and I got the other! So happy! Tue, 7 Apr 2015 05:10:06 EST I Will NOT Stress about my Imperfections Anymore! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906167 So I have a belly roll. So my complexion isn't perfect. So I was born short. So I am on dialysis. <BR> <BR> But you know what? I have a loving family, a nice home and some income, even though I may not be rich but I won't starve, that's the main thing! <BR> <BR> I may not look like a supermodel but I will keep eating healthy and exercising! I WON'T stress about my belly roll anymore! There are more important things to worry about like my family's salvation! <BR> <BR> So, I will just do my ... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 03:42:03 EST God Will Take Care of You! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905114 I woke up really late on Friday. As a result, I didn't have time to eat lunch. I arrived in the dialysis center hungry but before I left the house, I packed some fried rice that my Mom cooked, intending for it to be my lunch. <BR> <BR> My friend whatsapped me to ask me to Church for Good Friday service. I will be going straight after dialysis. I was kinda worried about what to have for dinner when out of the blue another patient bought me a burger and coke light. One of the nurses also gave... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 03:05:04 EST Easter Candy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903329 Well, Easter is approaching again! While I do agree the reason for the celebration is Jesus's accession into Heaven but it doesn't stop me from having my annual Easter candy treat. I bought some Caramel Roses barrels, some mini solid milk chocolate eggs and my favorite, 3 Cadbury Caramel eggs! <BR> <BR> I will only have one a day! Happy Easter, everyone! Wed, 1 Apr 2015 05:34:36 EST What a hypocrite! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897359 I had a collegue that was such a hypocrite! I was working as a foral asst. She was a florist. She kept discouraging me from making sales, saying the percentage is too minuscule to even bother but at the same time, she kept grabbing all the sales for herself! My boss, the owner's asst. told me to keep track of all sales, so, like a fool, I kept a running tally of all sales under the florist's name but instead of feeling happy about grabbing all the commission for herself, she had the nerve to ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 06:59:06 EST Lack of willpower or conscious decision? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888589 My Dad wanted KFC today and I will admit, temptation got the better of me and I had what he had, a snack plate, which consists of 2 hot and spicy thighs, one scoop of mashed potato, one scoop of coleslaw and one butterscotch bun. It may not look like much food but I decided to track honestly and it came to close to a thousand calories! What! Just for one meal! <BR> <BR> But I will not dwell on it or beat myself up! I can't turn back the clock! I can only move forward. It was delicious though... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 09:58:52 EST My plan of attack! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887886 1) I will be more mindfull of what I eat - no more mindless munching and I will stop buying snack foods, if I am really hungry in between meals, I will take fruits, veggies and hummus or a pb sandwich, no more cracker type or processed foods! <BR> <BR> 2) On non dialysis days, I will do at least 40 minutes of sweat-producing exercise, either do a workout DVD or youtube videos. I will make it a point to have at least 3 cardio sessions and 2 strength training sessions a week, or a combo of tho... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 04:16:30 EST My new lace dress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887266 Hi, folks, this was the new lace dress that my Mom said was ugly! I wore it to the Chinese New Year party last Sunday. <BR> <BR> What do you think? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2135923840.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1659112470.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thu, 5 Mar 2015 02:36:03 EST Yay for am exercise!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5884580 I woke up about 6:30am today. The sound of my Mom chopping raw chicken woke me up. No complains here! As 1) I seldom wake up early enough for am exercise and 2) I get to watch my Mom cook, which is always entertaining! Yeah! I m weird that way! Lol! <BR> <BR> I went for a 35 minute walk, got in abt 4500 steps, abt 2km. Then did 40 minutes of Pilates on the old desktop afterwards. I use the desktop for my exercise now, mainly youtube videos and DVDs. The DVD player has gone bonkers. Thank God... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 03:34:13 EST New Haircut!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882873 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1645157527.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It looks about the same as my regular trim but it's slightly shorter and a little more layered. Plus, I have bangs again! Thu, 26 Feb 2015 04:21:58 EST Time to get serious with Myself!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880418 I know I've said it before but this time I really mean business!!!!! <BR> <BR> No more mindless munching on junk food, not just for this Chinese New Year season but for every single day from now on! <BR> <BR> And the exercise is to be done according to schedule! I'm making appointments with my computer (DVD player has broken down, so I have to do it on the desktop) and I will make myself exercise at the appointed times! NO EXCUSES! WHEN THE CLOCK SHOWS 5PM OR 6PM, IT'S TIME TO EXERCISE!!! ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 10:28:14 EST 1st new dress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878468 Hi, this is the first of my new dresses! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l211402202.jpg"> Thu, 19 Feb 2015 00:38:56 EST Looking forward to CNY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877811 Already I got 2 ang pows! Really looking forward to getting more! Esp from my parents! I intend to put it in my savings account! Looking forward to good food tonight! I do hope I can still fit into my cheongsam! I have been feasting for days! Heh! Heh! Time to get some exercise! Sigh! <BR> <BR> Lots of fried goodies! I hope lots of guests come to eat lots of it! Or I will be munching too much of them! Self control! Self control! Lol! Wed, 18 Feb 2015 01:17:09 EST CNY officially begins tmrw http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877374 with the big family reunion dinner on CNY eve tomorrow. My family is joining my uncle's family for dinner tmrw! But the feasting has already begun earlier in my house because of all the munchies available. <BR> <BR> I went out for lunch with a friend today and had a good time but now I am a little worried that I may have put on weight! 2 of my new dresses have a little room but not my cheongsam! (form fitting chinese dress). <BR> <BR> I didn't even manage to exercise today because my Mom w... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 10:57:05 EST Thank God for nice neighbors! And a wedding luncheon report! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874491 Sorry I am a little late with the wedding luncheon report that I attended last Sunday! I had to miss church, oh well! The bride was pretty and the food was good! Spiced fried chicken, chicken curry with potatoes, beef rendang tok, fresh nutmeg salad thing, called acar, salted fish sambal, ghee rice and Bidor (name of the town) chendol, a dessert with shaved ice, coconut sugar, chendol, which is a dessert thingy, with coconut milk! It was delish! We had lunch, then took pics with the couple! T... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 11:39:09 EST Wedding luncheon tmrw! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871183 Early night for me tonight! Wedding luncheon tmrw! This means I have to skip church, the wedding is out of state. About an hour's drive on the highway. I am meeting the nurses from the dialysis center along with some other patients at the dialysis center abt 11am. The van will be driven by one of the patients. There will be 12 of us in the van! I am looking forward to a great time with great food! <BR> <BR> I'll let you know how it is tmrw! Sat, 7 Feb 2015 10:46:42 EST Thank God for hummus and carrots! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867609 I am having dialysis right now. I was hungry but not anymore! Just had carrot sticks dipped in hummus! Yummm! <BR> <BR> Quick to prepare and easy to eat! But right now, I am bored! Thank God for my Samsung Tab 2! Saving up for the Tab S but also thinking of the HP tablet PC! Really can't decide between the 2! Mon, 2 Feb 2015 04:12:08 EST Didn't feel like exercising but..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865164 I laced up my sneakers and went for a walk. Before I knew it, I had clocked slightly more than 10,000 steps according to my pedometer app in my smartphone! I didn't even realise I had walked so much. I was just enjoying the cool breeze! <BR> <BR> Got some hummus from the convenience store. Lot's of carrots in the fridge. It's carrot sticks and hummus for tea in the dialysis center tmrw! Yumm! <BR> <BR> Bedtime now! Good night all! Thu, 29 Jan 2015 10:52:25 EST Finding it difficult to forgive myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863703 I have done some things I am not proud of in the past. Terrible in my eyes. The ppl affected have already forgiven me, mostly. But I am finding it difficult to forgive myself. The scenes keep replaying themselves in my mind. I feel so bad! I keep asking myself how could I have done that. <BR> <BR> I prayed to God to forgive me but I still feel bad! Tue, 27 Jan 2015 11:03:19 EST Fabulous Homecooked Steak Dinner! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861385 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1080804273.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I bought a piece of grass fed topside beef for a good price. That one piece was enough for 2 meals! Imagine if you had gone to a restaurant, they would have given you a huge piece (more than one portion) and charged you a premium price. <BR> <BR> I cooked this myself and I would estimate that this steak dinner only cost me about RM10! I marinated the meat with Teriyaki sauce, minced garlic and lots of freshly gro... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 05:54:00 EST Got up early today! Went for a walk! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860809 Got in roughly 4,000+ steps today! Not exercising now though. Just finished dialysis. Not advisible. I've fainted before! <BR> <BR> Tmrw, I am making myself and my Dad grass fed beef steak with garlic potatoes! Fri, 23 Jan 2015 08:01:24 EST Sights from my walk today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860045 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l542960074.jpg"> <BR> <BR> An unusual effect of a sunset. I was stunned by the beauty of God's creation! Unfortunately, this picture doesn't do it full justice. I hope you can see it! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l687854404.jpg"> <BR> <BR> A pretty bunch of purple flowers grown by a neighbor! Thu, 22 Jan 2015 07:11:08 EST Worried abt my parents http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857624 My parents are getting older day by day. They are getting absent minded and my Dad's hearing isn't what it used to be! And yet he still has to continue working because I m on dialysis and can't support myself financially. <BR> <BR> I m worried abt how they cope without me when I m gone! I have been on dialysis for 10 years already. According to medical statistics, I only have another 10 years to live at most! <BR> <BR> Already I have to constantly hunt for my Mom's reading glasses, read fi... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 05:03:15 EST