EMMAEKAY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EMMAEKAY EMMAEKAY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Grown-up Problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349916 Man, today I am having some Grown Up Problems™. And they suck! <BR> <BR> I'm not super ready to talk about it with my actual, legit friends and family. I don't know why. I guess because I'm more accountable to them, and the decisions I make will effect them more seriously, and blah blah blah. Maybe I'm just a weenie. <BR> <BR> I'm gonna talk about it here because this has been my "safe place" for the last year and a piece. And you guys are great, and have nothing to lose no matter what I do... Wed, 8 May 2013 13:52:55 EST Regrouping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324100 Ever since March 27th, I've been in kind of a weird... foggy rush? There's so much to fight and so little time to get things done. Our hope waxes and wanes with each new development, and it's so ungodly exhausting to constantly think, "Today! Today's the day we see our baby again!" <BR> <BR> And so far, it hasn't been. <BR> <BR> Sometimes, I wonder if it ever will be. <BR> <BR> Jeremiah had his paternity test done last week, and we got the verbal results on Friday - which are, of course,... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 14:05:37 EST A Little Help? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310684 Hey guys - <BR> <BR> Please go check out this "note" I put up on Facebook for more information on our current struggle with Lily's custody. I am still embroiled in a battle with the state and the mother to try to get Lily out of the state's custody. <BR> <BR> PLUS! It has a bunch of really adorable pictures of my awesome niece. <BR> <BR> <link>www.facebook.com/notes/madonna-kilpa<BR>trick/help-me-bring-lily-home/10151558<BR>004575560 </link> Wed, 3 Apr 2013 21:28:58 EST HUGE news - draaaaaamaaaaa. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304481 If you've been my buddy for a while, you know that my big brother has had some custody issues dealing with his daughter, Lily. <BR> <BR> In November, he discovered that his ex was cheating on him. They had an argument that ended in this woman throwing him down the stairs in front of their child. Cops were called, the woman was escorted off the property. Jeremiah took Lily and left the home because he didn't want Lily around that kind of violence. <BR> <BR> Meanwhile, this woman went to a w... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 14:57:13 EST I wasn't going to update... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5299628 ...because this isn't the photoblog I keep talking about. I feel bad about not making it yet, but I've honestly just been brutalized by work over the last 10 days. My co-workers mother did die on Saturday, so she will be completely out of the office until next week. So that's her work + my work, and THEN we had another two people call out sick today, which means + 2-4 more job duties until they return. My head may honestly start spinning. <BR> <BR> I actually worked through part of the weeke... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 14:27:40 EST Some ME Time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295060 I love going to Zumba. It's essentially the greatest decision I've ever made, for two reasons. <BR> <BR> 1) It gives me and my best friend a chance to hang out twice a week! <BR> <BR> 2) It gives me some MUCH needed "me time." <BR> <BR> Paula and I have a little gab session before the class, and then we cool down together afterward, so we get a nice little hang out in. But then, during class, it's all about me: I'm totally focused on myself and my body and my awesomeness! <BR> <BR> It'... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 13:37:01 EST This is not the blog you're looking for... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293836 Okay, so the big, fun "big pants" blog I was going to do is STILL happening... just, not now. Not til Saturday, probably, because my life is insane right now. <BR> <BR> <BR> Monday, I came into work and discovered that the other CSR was on her way out. Her mom is in hospice and took a very bad turn. So I was on my own all day that day - I work for two newspapers, in two departments each... so it was absolutely insane. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I put in a 12 hour day because the other CSR was ou... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 14:41:06 EST Gonna Take Some Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5287649 My favorite band did a limited (24-hour only release!) t-shirt two weeks ago, and the singer posted a status to Facebook on Wednesday that he put them all in the mail that morning, with BONUS surprises. :3 <BR> <BR> I figure coming from TX to NE, that shirt should be in my mailbox when I get home from work this afternoon. I plan on putting it on imeeeediately and taking some new pictures to do my start/end comparison photos. <BR> <BR> This weekend, the goal is to go donate all my old, huge... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 11:26:20 EST Chest Cold Bleh. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285269 Yesterday, I forced myself to take a day off work to stay home and get some extra sleep because I've been fighting a chest cold for the last week. When I woke up in the morning, I was hot and dizzy. I pretty much knew that I needed to stop. <BR> <BR> I started to get dressed for work anyway, but then I thought - HEY! If you don't get rested today, you're going to have to skip Zumba tomorrow! <BR> <BR> No way do I wanna miss out on my Zumba! So, enforced rest was the theme of the day. I sl... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 12:53:10 EST What I Will Not Stop http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282869 I have been dealing with some frustration in the weight-loss department, as you all know. I feel like this portion of my journey is coming to a close - the portion wherein I'm posting losses every week, steadily moving in a downward fashion toward my "goal weight." <BR> <BR> In all honesty, I have accomplished with a 90 lb loss what I set out to do that day in February 2012. Strengthen my body and free myself of weight-based illnesses, repair my self-esteem, and fix the sexual dysfunction i... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 17:37:48 EST I just want to weigh under 200 lbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278927 IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK!? <BR> <BR> Apparently. <BR> <BR> I'm up 1.5 lbs this week, and I know all the explanations for this: water retention due to muscle destruction, new muscle being built, my body freaking the eff out because of the new program. <BR> <BR> I'm just so TIRED of it all. I'm tired of working and getting no where. I'm tired of not knowing if I'm eating too much, too little, just right. I'm tired of not knowing if I'm working out too much, too little or just enough. I'm tir... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 13:22:34 EST BOOM! One Thousand Calories Burned. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5277304 Yesterday, I accomplished one of my main March goals: to hit 1,000+ calories burned during my one hour Zumba class. <BR> <BR> I finished the hour at 1,002 calories. And as soon as I saw that, I was almost jumping up and down ecstatic. I hollered to my instructor and class buddies, because they also knew about this goal. Every body clapped and was very celebratory with me. <BR> <BR> It was AWWWWESOME. <BR> <BR> That being said, it was NOT easy. I had to hustle like nothing else, throw in... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 11:15:28 EST Cheesecake, Defeated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275790 Last night, C went to a fancy dinner thing for his job. This meant that I got to be lazy about dinner, because I didn't have to worry about cooking for him. So I microwaved one of those Steamfresh bags of broccoli, carrots and cauliflower with cheese sauce and then tossed in a serving of this low carb pasta. (Dreamfields - try it!) And then chopped up a chicken breast. <BR> <BR> This gave me a huge serving of yummy pasta pseudo-primavera for about 490 calories, with three servings of veggie... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 11:18:36 EST What a Week Looks Like http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274319 This is what a week of fitness looks like for me right now: <BR> <BR> <BR> Monday - Walk to work, 60 minutes Zumba w ST = 74 minutes, 1025 calories burned <BR> <BR> Tuesday - Walk to work, walk home, 60 minutes Spinning = 90 minutes, 850 c <BR> <BR> Wednesday - Walk to work, 60 minutes Zumba w ST = 74 minutes, 1025 c <BR> <BR> Thursday - Walk to work, walk home, 60 minutes Spinning = 90 minutes, 850 c <BR> <BR> Friday - Walk to work, walk home, 60 minutes Spinning = 90 minutes, 850 c <B... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 12:29:21 EST Soup and Sleep and Shoes and Stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272681 I feel like I could sleep for years this morning, but I did get some good sleep and relaxation in this weekend. It's kind of working out nicely that I do all of my cardio Monday - Friday and then just a strength day on Saturdays. I get a lot of good rest, which is important when I'm burning something like 1,000 calories a day M-F. <BR> <BR> I get a huge amount of fitness minutes now that I'm walking to and from work every day. I count my walks as fitness because it is a full mile that I wal... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 12:26:16 EST Necessity is the Mother of Invention... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267185 Horrible, horrible invention. <BR> <BR> Bleh. <BR> <BR> This morning, I woke up and remembered that we haven't been grocery shopping in a while. I'm out of bananas, apples, tomatoes, cheese, frozen emergency lunches, lettuce, spinach, milk, eggs, greek yogurt... Okay, so everything. But I still have to eat like a sane person! <BR> <BR> I grabbed a couple Builder's bars (thank god I still had those) but then noticed that I had a container of plain greek yogurt. Technically, I only buy the ... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 12:00:05 EST About a Girl(s heart rate monitor.) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265940 I'm gonna talk about my heart rate monitor today. I will start by saying that it is vital - absolutely vital - because Spark's estimates were WAY off for me. By hundreds of calories per week, most of the time. Especially if you typically do the same kind of exercise, like I used to only use the stationary bike, you need to have a heart rate monitor to know exactly how hard you're working. <BR> <BR> Physical exertion isn't always a good predictor of calorie burn. LOTS of different factors ca... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 12:00:18 EST Holy Burn World! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264812 Yesterday was an epic day for fitness in my house. I started my burn phase yesterday, and it happened to also be one of my days off. I decided to get up and clean house and then instead of sitting around all day, I thought I'd try a little circuit training. <BR> <BR> I set up "stations" in my house. Started with the bike, then two different weight lifty things, then crunches and push ups, then running up and down my stairs. I listened to some good music and repeated that set up for 30 minut... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 14:10:51 EST February Goals, March Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260123 Even though February isn't quite over, I'm still ready to look back and plan ahead. <BR> <BR> My February goals were: <BR> <BR> * Start practicing Yoga. <BR> <BR> Totally nailed this! After watching numerous videos, I decided that it was better for me to just pick 15 poses and do them on my own, at my own pace and timing. It was a lot more relaxing this way because I'm so easily annoyed by video instructors. I've been doing Yoga 3-5 times per week before bed. Whoo! <BR> <BR> * Do more Pi... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 14:14:11 EST High Score! And questions about my heart rate. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258752 I'm a weird flavor of competitive. I don't really compete with others, because what's the point? They're capable of what they're capable of, and I'm capable of what I'm capable of. <BR> <BR> To me, the best kind of competition is with Emma Yesterday. EY is the only person I compete with. I have to prove that I'm better, stronger, faster, smarter than EY every day. Lately, EY and I have been competing to see who can burn more calories in Zumba. I have totally been winning! <BR> <BR> Monday,... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 12:35:52 EST Where Do I Begin? WITH PICTURES! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254923 The last four days have been CA-RAZY! Let's see, where did I leave off... <BR> <BR> Oh, Valentine's Day. C surprised me with the most adorable thing EVER! Ever. As I mentioned before, he and I don't really observe Valentine's day. I always make or give him a funny card, and we usually spend the evening or day together. We don't go in for big gifts, and I've never gotten flowers from him. <BR> <BR> Ever! Ever. In eight years, I've never gotten flowers from him at any time, let alone Valent... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 13:32:05 EST Love Yourself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250272 Happy Valentine's Day, guys! C and I never do anything much for this holiday, mostly because he's not much of a "holiday" person in the first place, and Christmas + my birthday all being within a month really taps him out as far as ideas on what to do with/for me or things to get me. <BR> <BR> Honestly, my birthday was 2 weeks ago and I got everything I needed/wanted except my HRM. I might go out and buy that for myself tonight - we have the money now that our income tax returns are back, a... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 10:46:42 EST Serious Stomach Ache and Fun with Phases http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246390 I've had an awful stomach ache for three days now. I think it's because my "works" are a little stopped up, but I'm not sure how to get it to go away. I've tried stretches, tea, yoga, pilates, slow exercise, fast exercise, pepto-bismol and alka seltzer... but nothing seems to help. It's kind of awful. <BR> <BR> Moving on. <BR> <BR> I'm plotting out a fun little calendar to use for "phasing" my exercise. It's something I've been thinking about for a long time because of the success Grace has... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 12:22:51 EST CAPS LOCK RAGE. Or: Emma Mad, Emma Smash http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242791 UGH. <BR> <BR> I'm so frustrated, guys. I am seriously considering abandoning this ST-centric program and switching back to a high calorie burn cardio program. I wanted to keep it up through February, but I'm so irritated with the fact that I've lost a whoppin' 4 lbs over the last month. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling the pressure of seeing my goal date coming up so soon, just 18 weeks, and if I only lose a freaking pound a week, I won't be there. I won't even be out of the "obese" range by then. ... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 11:56:08 EST "What do you want me to fill it with?" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241548 In nearly 8 years, probably the most flabbergasting thing C has ever said to me was said last night. <BR> <BR> I was getting ready for Zumba class, running late and already kinda peeved at him because one of the pets vomited all over (my side of!) the bed and he had yet to strip the bed or wash the bedding... Who needs to be told to do that? Rrrg. His defense was that he left it alone in case I wanted to see it, knowing that I have an animal medical background and might be able to tell who ... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 12:22:36 EST [Insert Blog Title Here] http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240138 I love that you guys all laughed so hard at the Tyrannosaur imagery from my blog yesterday, and I can't believe that's the first time I've used that analogy here. That's been an ongoing gag between me and my friends for the last year. <BR> <BR> It's pretty well known that I have almost no upper body strength to speak of. Legs? Not a game. Arms... well, it's getting better. But anyway, one night last March, we all decide to arm wrestle. <BR> <BR> I lost. <BR> <BR> Badly. <BR> <BR> To eve... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 11:44:28 EST All the Fun in the World http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238835 Holy dang, I have been trying to post a blog for the last 3 hours and it just. isn't. happening. Work is in chaos, of course. <BR> <BR> Here are the highlights of what I wanted to blog about: <BR> <BR> * Ate awesomely yesterday! <BR> * 8 lb weights are intense on these little t-Rex arms! <BR> * I'm sleepy! <BR> * I can't remember the rest! <BR> <BR> Augh. It's busy, but it's a beautiful day to be alive. Tue, 5 Feb 2013 14:01:01 EST Moooooooving On... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237134 WOOPS! Yesterday was dreadful, nutritionally speaking. I wrote yesterday's blog in an effort to remind myself that I didn't need to eat those stupid nuggets. <BR> <BR> But I did. <BR> <BR> And too much of them. <BR> <BR> And then everything else. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was the first time in quite a while that I've succombed to the whole 'well, the day is ruined now, might as well eat ALL the things!' mentality. It was a massive mistake and one I'm not keen to repeat. I wish I could have com... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 12:34:04 EST Holy Crappy-food Craving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235906 Here's what I'm facing: <BR> <BR> I really, stupidly, love chicken nuggets from McDonald's. They have their Super Bowl special today - 20 freaking nuggets for $4. C is definitely going to get some today, because he has The Metabolism of Thor. I am highly tempted to eat some because it means that I wouldn't have to cook for lunch. I woke up with a severe headache and a sore throat, so the Lazies have me by the throat. <BR> <BR> However, I know these things: <BR> <BR> 1) I will have to track... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 15:50:55 EST AWESOME NEWS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233675 GUYS. <BR> <BR> GUYSGUYSGUYS. <BR> <BR> GUYS. <BR> <BR> C GOT OFFERED THE JOB AT YAHOO. <BR> <BR> SORRY, BRAIN STUCK IN CAPSLOCK. <BR> <BR> HOORAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA<BR>AAY! <BR> <BR> HOORAY. <BR> <BR> Ahem. <BR> <BR> We're not telling everyone until the contract is signed, but all that stands in the way of that is a drug test, which he will pass without question. Anyway, I had to tell some one, and out of everyone, it's been you guys who have really held my hand, so to... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 19:37:31 EST One Year Later! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233217 If you missed my status last night, I'm finally seeing some changes in the ol' organ heap. In the last 30 days, I've lost two inches off my waist, and 2.75 off my hips. My bicep is unchanged, but my body fat percentage has gone from 28.5% when I got back to Sparking full-time down to 27.79. Not too shabby for 30 days of work! <BR> <BR> I also lost a pound this week, which I'm good with. That combined with the inches lost makes for a pretty excellent week. <BR> <BR> Actually, it's been a pr... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 12:38:50 EST Food Scale-y http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231721 So I've been using that food scale that I got for my birthday, and there have been some really interesting results. <BR> <BR> Cereal is spot on. A cup of Chex is 28g, just like the box says! 100 calories. Cool! <BR> <BR> However, two eggs? Totally not 140 calories. Cooked and weighed this morning, my two eggs came out to 85 grams - 120 calories. <BR> <BR> I'm excited to use it to weigh my chicken tonight. hahaha <BR> <BR> <BR> Zumba was fun, and of course, every one I dragged along LOVED... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 12:48:56 EST Spreading the Love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230172 I'm going in for my second Zumba class this week! Paula and I had to do Monday because she has a work-thing tonight, but there are several girls I work with who are interested in it and wanted to go tonight. Who am I to say no? <BR> <BR> Plus, the more I learn the moves, the more I love these classes. They're so much fun. I'm sure I look ridiculous, but I find that I'm not really worried about the way I look. I'm getting a phenomenal, fun workout! <BR> <BR> Last night, C gave me a food scal... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 11:43:01 EST Of Yoga and Birfdayz http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228681 It's my birthday! Woop woop! This is probably the first birthday I've had that I've been excited to embrace, and the first year I've looked back on as one of triumph and growth. <BR> <BR> Have I ever told you that I'm awesome? Because I am. <BR> <BR> I'm also 25 now. Yep, 25. I'm kind of ambivalent to that age, but there it is. <BR> <BR> Tonight, C and I plan on going out for philly sandwiches after my work out tonight. I already have a chicken philly in my tracker for dinner, so I'm pl... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 11:51:33 EST January Goals, February Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226307 It's time to check out my monthly progress and talk about my plans for February! <BR> <BR> January has been a really great non-scale success. I have been steadily losing the weight I gained back during my "off-season." As of Friday, I weighed 226. This week, I should see 224 and be right back where I was. Hooray! <BR> <BR> My January goals were: <BR> <BR> * Get back to full time Sparking. That means tracking, blogging, participating in teams and being more present on Sparkpages. <BR> <BR... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 22:28:19 EST The Frightening Power of the Internet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222957 The internet is a powerful tool, and so integrated into my life and the lives of my peers, that I sometimes forget that fact. <BR> <BR> Last night, I was thinking about the "Choose to Lose" challenge here at work, and I thought, "I should look for some inspirational pictures and quotes for the ladies on my team!" The plan is to send out an email every morning with the day's goals (drink 8 glasses of water! Eat those veggies! 20 fitness minutes!) and a little laugh and a little inspiration. ... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 11:38:55 EST Lrn 2 Zumba http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221561 Hooray! I think I've figured out how to really enjoy Zumba, and I was essentially right about the needing to eat WAY more in the morning/noon hours before class. Then a light dinner. <BR> <BR> The dinner part was a bit of a challenge, because I was ravenous and very carby. I had a thin pb&j sandwich as we were leaving class, which came to 180 calories. <BR> <BR> I did end up going over my range by 93 lousy calories last night. We went to Subway and I had a double chicken chopped salad wit... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 11:46:56 EST Successes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220147 C passed his tests yesterday with FLYING colors. His results came back instantly and not only is he qualified for the position he applied for, but several technician positions above that, all call center positions, all office positions, all their data center positions... Basically, everything CenturyLink does, C can do! <BR> <BR> He was really pleased with himself, and I'm dang proud of him. I knew he was smart and he knew he was smart, but now we have some pieces of paper to back it up! hah... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 12:51:15 EST Busy Tuesday Ahead! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218564 Tuesdays are SO dang busy nowadays! I have work, errands, housework, and TV dates with a cross country friend all on the same day. I gotta learn to reschedule and spread things out. <BR> <BR> Today, I work until 5. After that, I have to run to the store for bananas and protein bars. I'm also picking up a little single serving snack to enjoy after dinner. Then, it's off to Subway for a salad and home to work out. After that, it'll be time to hop online to watch Dr. Who with my buddy Aaron. <B... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 12:09:10 EST From Size 26 to 14 - It is TOTALLY possible! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216998 Yep, this blog is about pants. Kind of. <BR> <BR> Yesterday C's mom showed up to surprise us with some grocery type stuff, and also took us out to lunch and gave me a birthday present. It was altogether pleasant - which isn't always the case with her, but that's the nature of in-laws, I think. <BR> <BR> For lunch, we just went out to one of the little chain places. Sadly, this particular chain doesn't post their nutrition facts ANYWHERE! Ugh, get with the times. Anyway, I decided to have s... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 12:03:18 EST Sunday Fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215729 Yesterday, I hit 4 of my 5 goals. I did make a food plan, but I didn't stick directly to it. I overate by about 300 calories. I was completely STARVING all day, and at least part of it was carb needing because I was b!tchy and shaky. I'm not sure if this is part of new muscle building, and I just need to learn to manage my food better or what the deal was. <BR> <BR> It could also be that my stomach is still shrinking down to "normal" size because I spent most of December over-eating and hav... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 15:09:39 EST Saturday Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214348 Since we didn't go to C's mom's house this weekend, I'm making a plan and sticking to it! Short and Sweet, these are my goals for today: <BR> <BR> 1) Make a food plan. <BR> <BR> 2) Stick to it. <BR> <BR> 3) Do both a ST session and a cardio session today. <BR> <BR> 4) Take down the Christmas crap, do the dishes and vacuum. <BR> <BR> 5) Drink at least 100 oz of water before having any of the diet cream soda we bought last night. <BR> <BR> <BR> CAN SHE DO IT!? <BR> WILL SHE DO IT?! <... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 13:38:44 EST Happy Friday - Week One of ST Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212906 This week has been awesome, and much needed. I've been successfully in my ranges and getting LOTS and LOTS of protein. My nutrition is right back on track, and I have been successfully in the middle of the road every day. I don't forsee any problems coming up this weekend, either. <BR> <BR> I did not get in my core workout yesterday because my back was ungodly sore from Zumba. I am a chesty broad, and there were many jumps. Next week I'll wear more support. All that means, though, is that I... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 11:25:42 EST Adventures in Zumba! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211439 Oh man, guys. Zumba was probably the most fun I've had in quite a while - exercising or otherwise. Paula and I are definitely making this a weekly event, and I've even looped a couple of girls from my work into next week's class! <BR> <BR> It was HARD, though. Some of the moves are a little confusing at first, but after you get the rhythm down, it gets easier. Otherwise, for the moves that were a little harder for me, I just moved along to the beat as much as I could - whether I was just sid... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 11:32:46 EST Swears and Rantyness Within. ALSO CAPS. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209945 I am frequently astounded at the high school level antics of some people that are tangentially in my life. Today is one of those days - I'm gonna rant about it and then be over it because it's so minor and stupid that it's hardly worth the blog space. <BR> <BR> Two years ago, a very Nasty Little Woman worked here. She was haughty, negative, loud, dismissive and rude. She lasted for less than 6 months. Her husband is a delivery contractor with my paper. He is also haughty and rude. <BR> <BR... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:50:23 EST Strength Training Soreness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208348 My new Monday full body bootcamp is, to put it lightly, not a game. I am sore in muscles I didn't know I had, and poses that looked SO simple were actually way harder than I ever thought they could be. <BR> <BR> AWESOME. <BR> <BR> So far, I think this new program will be pretty good for me. Not only am I looking forward to workouts like I haven't in months, I'm really working a lot of muscles in new ways. <BR> <BR> I was hella water-retainy yesterday, apparently. There is a 7lb differenc... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 12:30:29 EST New Exercise Program Starts Today! Woo Woo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206676 Today is the first day of my new toning adventure. Last week was sort of a weird buffer week. After being really out of the whole "Sparkworld" for basically 3 weeks from illness and Shaina's visit, I needed a buffer week to get back in gear. I did exercise 3/5th of my planned times. The week was just really more about getting things back in order after having people over at the house all the week previous. <BR> <BR> I also way, way, way overate Friday - Sunday. No specific reasons why, eith... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 12:38:42 EST Swimming Went Down the Drink http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202046 Yesterday, I was supposed to go swimming with my friend Paula. This... did not go well for three reasons. <BR> <BR> 1) My swimsuit fit me perfectly when I was 260 lbs. Thirty-five pounds later, it decidedly does no longer. Woops! <BR> <BR> 2) The high school swim team had the pool privately for the night. D'oh! <BR> <BR> 3) It cost $10 to get in for two hours! Eeep. <BR> <BR> So, with those three ticks combined, we didn't swim. Bummer! Hopefully when C is back to work, I'll be able to aff... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 11:34:26 EST New Heights http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200688 Yesterday I mentioned that I have hit all my original non-scale goals, and Grace pointed out the obvious: <BR> <BR> MAKE MORE. <BR> <BR> Uh duh. <BR> <BR> Okay, then! Here they are: <BR> <BR> * Buy and be comfortable in a swimsuit without a skirt or cover-up. <BR> * Be able to do 10 legit pushups. <BR> * Shoot for size 12 jeans - a never before seen size. <BR> <BR> <BR> That's it for now, but I'll give it more thought as time goes on. <BR> <BR> Remember to keep moving forward - don'... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 14:27:45 EST I Love You Guys! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198837 Seriously though. I love you guys! I was really nervous about posting that blog last night. I was afraid that you would all be disappointed that I was "giving up" on my original goal of 180, or that I'd be labeled a quitter... Or any number of negative things. <BR> <BR> Instead, I got a slew of "do what's right for YOU" comments. I feel so empowered by your support. It's not easy to reassess and decide on a new goal without feeling like you're messing up or going down the wrong path. But aft... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 13:19:56 EST