EMFRAPPIER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EMFRAPPIER EMFRAPPIER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ February Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235857 I haven't blogged here in a while. I'm a lot more consistent at <link>www.fitem.blogspot.com </link> <BR> <BR> But, I thought I would share my goals for February here. <BR> <BR> I've been doing a lot of running lately, and that has been my focus. However, some seriously cold weather a couple weeks back made my longer outdoor runs impossible, and I got into a routine of lifting and speed work on my treadmill. (and Zumba, of course) <BR> <BR> I've found that I am really enjoying this ro... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 15:01:49 EST Questions, Questions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225444 I saw this on another blog, and thought why not? I like that it's based on healthy living <BR> <BR> 1. What did you eat for breakfast? <BR> Oatmeal w/ raspberries - so yummy and filling!! <BR> <BR> 2. How much water do you drink a day? <BR> <BR> About 12 cups most days <BR> <BR> 3. What is your current favorite workout? <BR> <BR> A combo of a ladder workout on the treadmill w/ the sprints separated by strength exercises <BR> <BR> 4. How many calories do you eat a day? <BR> <BR> 13... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 10:30:07 EST My Review of Coach Nicole's Total Body Sculpting DVD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206756 I was excited to receive SparkPeople’s Total Body Sculpting with Coach Nicole DVD in the mail. I love Coach Nicole’s style of training and really enjoyed the SpakPeople 28-Day Bootcamp DVD. <BR> <BR> Total Body Sculpting is a great DVD. The workouts are easy to follow, fun, and really get your heart pumping. It offers three 20-25 minute workouts as well as a 5-minute warm up and cool down, so you can mix and match your workouts depending on your mood. <BR> <BR> I love the variety on this D... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 13:23:34 EST A New Step for the New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184233 I find myself in a really interesting place at the beginning of 2013. After a month of stalling, I have created my own personal training business, Happy Body Fitness --- <link>www.happybodyfitness.weebly.com </link> <BR> <BR> It's just a beginning, and i know it needs work, but I am excited to be starting this new chapter in my life. I posted my first fitness challenge on facebook, and it is going better than I expected. You know when you try something new and scary, and you picture the w... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 15:44:31 EST CERTIFIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153656 <BR> I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I finally took my ACE Personal Training Certification yesterday, and I am thrilled to say that I am official!! This whole process has been really interesting. I decided to get certified because I love working with my trainer and wanted to help people feel good about themselves. My entire outlook has changed since I started seriously working out, and I want give others a chance to change as well. <BR> <BR> I've been incredibly lucky during this... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 14:27:54 EST Adventures With Detox http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5132495 It's been over a month since I wrote a blog here. I've been super busy and focused more on my daily fitness/health blog at : <link>fitem.blogspot.com </link> <BR> If you want to stay up to date with my fitness adventures, go there. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> My newest adventure is about gaining control over my diet. I've lost a lot of weight over the last few years and kept it off (92lbs), but I haven't lost any weight in over a year. While I am comfortable with my body and know I am incr... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 09:39:02 EST My Daughter Is Awesome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093046 I just want to say how proud I am of my daughter. She is six and in her second year of tae kwon do. Today they did sumo wrestling, and she was partners with the biggest boy in the class (she's also the only girl in her group). She did not back down for a second. It was so amazing to see her determination. She's strong and confident, and I am so happy about that. I was painfully shy for most of my life, and I felt totally powerless. I feel that through tae kwon do my daughter is being taught t... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 18:12:19 EST Some Much Needed Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087583 It's been forever since I blogged here. Mostly because my life has become insanely busy, and I am trying to blog daily here: <link>fitem.blogspot.com </link> <BR> <BR> I did have a bit of a break through the other day, and I wanted to share it here. Mainly because I know the people here can appreciate it, and also because I know I can write about it honestly here and not offend any one that I know in my real life. <BR> <BR> I've been pretty stressed out lately. Our new schedule is hecti... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 08:59:05 EST What I Did Instead Of Binge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049655 I've had a pretty rough morning. I'm still very sick, but I had to bring my darling daughter to soccer practice. While there I ran into the toxic friendship that I can never seem to escape, and we had a conversation that immediately brought up a lot of old, insecurity issues for me. I'm not sure why this one person affects me like this, but it's honestly not worth thinking about. <BR> <BR> I want to talk about what I did. <BR> <BR> I was pretty upset by the time practice was over and we wer... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 11:31:29 EST Haven't Blogged In A While http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5042435 It's been forever since I blogged here. I've been busy maintaining my blog <link>fitem.blogspot.com </link> <BR> <BR> Here is part of my latest blog, which is about my long run yesterday. 9 miles turned into 12, and it was great! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Sunday, I went for my long run, and it was amazing. I left a little later than usual, but it was still cool outside. I was cold when I started running. Fall is on its way, and I am so excited. It is my favorite time of year for running. Br... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 12:38:13 EST 50 ?s http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4987375 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> My mom's aunt Evie <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> A week ago? My TOM <BR> <BR> 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? <BR> I do. It's messy, and only I can read it :) <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? <BR> Don't usually eat it, but ham, I guess. <BR> <BR> 5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? <BR> One girl & one boy! They're the best. <BR> <BR> 6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? <BR> Definitely. Though not m... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 07:04:19 EST A Really Good Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4982654 I had almost forgotten what a really good run felt like. The last few runs I've done have been okay. Mostly enjoyable, but nothing spectacular. I haven't been able to run as often as I would like due to schedule issues and 4 nights in a row of boot camp, so I've been trying to do 10 miles on the weekends. I still have time before the HM, but I want to make sure my legs stay conditioned for that distance (or at least close to it). <BR> <BR> On Saturday I decided to go a little shorter. I had ... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 06:02:34 EST Then & Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4966865 Last night I spent an hour sprinting with the other boot camp ladies. Again I found myself thinking about the differences between my first boot camp and this one. <BR> <BR> Then: I was shy, insecure, and afraid of making mistakes. I hid in the back row and didn't say much. I dreaded diagonal sprints because we had to go one at a time, and I was afraid of people judging me. I got passed by a lot of people, and I felt bad about going slow. <BR> <BR> Now: Last night I purposely stood beside th... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 09:34:41 EST Boot Camp Revisited http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4963619 Yesterday was day one of Keely's 6-week boot camp. It started right after my Zumba class, so my legs were already a bit tired. Still, it was a great class. We started with plyometrics, which I always find challenging. It was awesome to realize how much easier they are now. <BR> <BR> I met Keely at a boot camp two years ago, and the rest is exercise history. I had been exercising consistently for a year and had dropped about 60lbs. It was incredibly challenging, but I loved pushing myself. I ... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 10:03:07 EST Zumba love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955582 Here's a blog about how Zumba changed my life. I'd copy it on here, but I'm too exhausted from my Zumba class <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> <link>from262.blogspot.com/2012/07/zumba-z<BR>umba.html </link> Wed, 4 Jul 2012 21:00:50 EST Progress and Looking Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4948070 I’m back! <BR> <BR> This week has been a great one. The marathon was a month ago, and I am finally feeling recovered. I feel energized and excited to workout, and I’ve started really pushing myself again. <BR> <BR> I had an amazing lifting session on Wednesday. We’re lifting heavy for the first time in 8? months, and I am psyched to be back at it. My strength has diminished since I started serious marathon training, but after only 2 weeks I see my strength returning. It felt great to push m... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 18:40:36 EST Leaf Peeper Half http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4934340 Ever since the marathon ended, I’ve been feeling adrift. I’ve been exercising consistently and eating well, but I’m lacking motivation and purpose. I’m definitely the type of person who needs goals. I try to always be working on different projects and challenges, and when I don’t have one, I get a little antsy. <BR> <BR> While training for the marathon (especially during the long runs), I knew I wanted to run a few half marathons after I was done. I really enjoy 12-mile runs, and at that poi... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 08:40:22 EST First Long Run Since The Marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929393 Today I attempted my first long run since the marathon. My body is slowly recovering, and I started thinking about how much I wanted to do a longer run. I missed having that time to think and relax. A good long run is like moving meditation, and I haven’t felt that since my 16-mile training run. The distances above 16 were too draining, physically and mentally, to be enjoyable. <BR> <BR> My 16-mile run was a great one, and when I started craving a good distance run, it was the first one I th... Sat, 16 Jun 2012 20:49:57 EST Recovery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4925868 I had no idea when I began training for a marathon that the recovery from it would take so long. My trainer would tell me about trying to do normal exercises after her marathons and not being able to, but I thought she meant the week after. Nope. Turns out it takes a month for full recovery, and I have been discovering just how fatigued my muscles are. <BR> <BR> I tried lifting with my trainer. We did our old program. The one I’ve done so many times I could do it in my sleep. I expected cert... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 07:49:26 EST What's Next http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4907357 I have to admit, I’ve been having some post-run blues this week. I have been completely focused on the marathon for 3 months. Having such a huge goal kept me focused and on target with my workouts. Now that it’s over, I’m feeling a little listless. I’ve taken this week to recover. I’ve been walking every day, and today I finally feel normal again. <BR> <BR> That means it’s time to start thinking about new goals and summer plans. <BR> <BR> When I started talking to other people about the m... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 12:08:45 EST My 26.2!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4902921 ** I originally posted this on my personal blog. I can't get the pictures to upload here, so if you want to see pics, go here: <link>from262.blogspot.com/2012/05/my-262.<BR>html </link> <BR> <BR> If you don't care about pictures (and don't care if it doesn't entirely make sense) read on! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> My 26.2 <BR> <BR> I did it!!!!!! (insert hobbling happy dance here) <BR> <BR> I was surprisingly not nervous on Sunday morning. I slept well and woke up a little befo... Tue, 29 May 2012 14:26:27 EST Embracing The Taper http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4898513 This week has been great. I’ve heard a lot about taper week, and I decided to go into it with my head in a good place. The plan was to be on point with my eating, hydration, sleeping, and (most important) to keep my thoughts positive. <BR> <BR> It hasn’t really been that difficult. I’ve been feeling great physically. I feel as ready and prepared as I can feel considering that I have never run 26.2 miles. I feel confident that I will finish it, even if I have to walk. I’m also really, really ... Sat, 26 May 2012 07:21:17 EST Bring On The Marathon!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4888754 I love a good run. 10-mile runs are my favorite, and that’s what was on the menu today. I was really looking forward to this run. Not only was it a nice, “short” run, it is the last long training run. Next week I’m running the one that matters, and I am so excited. The nerves are a lot better now. I’m really looking forward to the marathon. I have decided on two race day goals: <BR> <BR> #1 Finish it. <BR> #2 Enjoy the experience. <BR> <BR> No pressure. I’ve worked hard, and while I know it... Sat, 19 May 2012 16:37:41 EST Leg Cramps And No Worries http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4880525 If nothing else, I am consistent. <BR> <BR> I've found marathon training to be very interesting. I did really well with 2 weeks at each distance until I got into the higher mileage. Once I got past 16 miles, I started developing a pattern of having a really good long run one week, followed by a terrible second run at the same distance. It was frustrating at first, but I've gotten used to it. I'm starting to think about how I would train differently the next time I do this (though that won't ... Mon, 14 May 2012 09:35:18 EST It's All About Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4876841 I was thinking a lot about perspective during my last long run. The moment of realization is so interesting. It seems so obvious once it’s happened, and you can never look at something the same way again. <BR> <BR> When Andy drove me 22 miles from my house, I had one of those moments. I had him drive me to the closest gas station for a pit stop before I began my super long run. The gas station was almost the exactly 26.2 miles. I’ve been kind of freaking out about the length of this race, an... Fri, 11 May 2012 10:17:59 EST 22 Miles and a Great Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4870381 This week has been pretty amazing. It started out badly. I was feeling really down after my failed second 20-mile run, and the first couple days were rough. I was full of self-doubt and convinced that I was completely stupid for ever thinking I could run a marathon. Not productive with only a month before the race. <BR> <BR> The reason this week has been so amazing is that when I was at my lowest I found a lot of really great support from my friends. So many people have told me that I can do... Mon, 7 May 2012 11:27:26 EST Getting Out Of My Head http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4864157 Yesterday I had a great lifting session with my trainer. It wasn't great workout-wise. It was good, but I've been taking it easy until the marathon is over. Both of us are ready to switch up the routine and can't wait to start lifting heavy once I'm done training for the race. Only (gulp) 24 more days... <BR> <BR> My lifting session was great because we got to talk, and I always find new inspiration from talking to my wonderful trainer (she's also one of my best friends). Her advice througho... Thu, 3 May 2012 06:27:20 EST Wind Is My Nemesis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4860572 I usually try to keep my blogs positive, but honestly, I’m having a hard time doing that this time. This weekend was messed up, and my training did not go well because of it. I planned to run Saturday morning, but when I got up it was snowing and incredibly windy. I decided to gamble and see if Sunday would be better. <BR> <BR> One positive about this choice was that I was able to go to GOTR practice and brought my daughter with me. Everyone is great about letting her participate even thoug... Tue, 1 May 2012 06:20:39 EST Hobbit Shuffle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4849356 This past Saturday was a milestone in my training. I ran 20 miles! It started out really well. The weather was perfect – 50 degrees, overcast. I was feeling good about the run, and my knee wasn’t bothering me as much as before. I tried different shoes this time after my last 18 gave me huge blisters, and they were comfortable, though not as supportive as I wanted. <BR> <BR> I ran basically the same route as my 18. It took me through town and out to a farm stand 10 miles away where I turned a... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 07:26:28 EST The One I've Been Waiting For http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4839408 On Sunday I ran my second 18-mile run, and it was everything I was hoping it would be. This past week has been stressful. Lots of stuff going on and my grandma’s funeral was on Saturday, so I spent the week on a strange emotional rollercoaster while trying to keep up with all of my usual responsibilities. It was pretty draining, but throughout the week, I was determined to view my next long run in a positive light. <BR> <BR> I was actually really looking forward to it. I knew I needed some ... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 13:31:48 EST I Love Yoga http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4828709 So, after a week of feeling awful, exhausted, and sore, I finally decided to do some yoga. I've missed my usual class for the last 2 weeks and decided that a little more stretching would be helpful, and I was so grumpy this morning I knew I needed to do something to relax. <BR> <BR> I had a million other things to do this morning, but I told myself to stop making excuses and popped in my Biggest Loser Yoga dvd. Half an hour later I was calmer, my muscles felt good, and my knee didn't hurt. M... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 12:38:51 EST Hello, Rebellious Em http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4827249 Confession: My body is tired. I'm into the long training runs, and it is a lot harder than I thought it would be. My rebellious side is showing up and whining a lot more. "I don't want to do all this running. I don't want to slack on my other workouts. I'm sick of carbs. I'm sick of not losing weight. I'm tired of giving up half of every weekend for pain. Etc." <BR> <BR> Yeah, not fun to battle with this one. <BR> <BR> I know I have to do this. I am 7 weeks away from the marathon, and I am... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 14:51:38 EST Shout Out To My Hubby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4820133 Sometimes I am so focused on my own journey and struggles that I don't notice the effect it is having on the people around me. Lately, though I've been noticing changes in friends and family members that I know have been sparked by my own actions. It feels good. It is that feeling that makes me love being a Zumba instructor and really look forward to getting my ACE certification. <BR> <BR> My biggest success has definitely been my husband. He grew up in a household where exercise and nutrit... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 11:14:33 EST Too Many Hills And A Confession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4818130 I did my 18 mile run on Sunday, and it was tough. I chose a route that was probably 75% uphill. After my initial 3 miles of hills, I was in the zone and ready to go. It was a pretty run, past a lot of farms. The weather was cool but dry - no rain or snow, yay! I climbed a steep hill that went right past a farm that had 4 peacocks. They are gorgeous birds, but I had never heard them make noise. One of them was completely fanned out and screaming at me. It was a strange sound that definitely pu... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 08:58:14 EST Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4810111 This week has been annoying. After my last long run, I knew that I had overtrained and had to do something to help my legs before my next one. My trainer suggested cutting out extraneous workouts and going easy in my Zumba classes. I wasn't happy about it, but I did it. <BR> On Monday, my knee was still a little sore - not like I hurt it but from going down some really big hills on Saturday - so, I took it easy. I was supposed to have my Zumba class that night, so I wasn't worried about not g... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 06:21:07 EST They Can't All Be Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4805009 I did my second 16 mile run this weekend, and it was brutal. My trainer thinks that I have been over-training this last week, and after Saturday's run, I have to agree. My legs were tired. My whole body was exhausted, but I dragged myself out of bed and decided I had to do it. <BR> <BR> I am a creature of habit. I like my pre-run routine, which involves a nice, quiet morning and some relaxing until I finally feel like I just have to get out there and run. But, this weekend my daughter had a ... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 06:44:39 EST Sweet 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4796290 16 miles!!!! <BR> <BR> On Saturday I increased my mileage to 16, and it actually went pretty well! I had some anxiety about running this distance. Not sure why, but it seemed like an impossible run. I was scared to do it, and then, of course, so glad that I did. <BR> <BR> It started out in heavy fog, which was a new experience for me. I was really glad to have my weird, bright orange, reflective vest! I couldn’t see oncoming cars until they were about 15 feet away. If they didn’t have their... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 07:34:47 EST New Plans, Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4785333 So, after about 2 weeks of feeling totally out of control, emotionally eating, and skipping workouts, I am back to my normal self. Who can't handle major stress? This girl apparently. And, that's okay. I'm pretty good at letting the little things go, and while it would be better to continue taking care of myself when the big stuff happens, I'm not perfect. It's what you do after you fail that counts. <BR> <BR> I've made a slightly new plan. Really it's just the things I did when I lost weigh... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 10:50:30 EST 14 Miles & Applause!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4781017 I did my second 14 mile run today. I was a little apprehensive because my foot was a little achy. I've been icing and stretching, but I was still worried. The other run was, off and on, quite painful, and I didn't want to do it again. Of course after thinking of the many "reasons" I should skip the run, I was ready to go. I like that. Even when I try to get out of it, my body wants to go. <BR> <BR> The run went really well. It's weird, but I've had a much easier time increasing to 14 miles t... Sat, 10 Mar 2012 18:19:46 EST Crying Yesterday Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4776815 Yesterday morning while I was getting the kids ready for school, I started crying. As I blogged before, my grandmother had a stroke on Friday, so crying has been pretty normal for the last week - but yesterday was different. It didn't have anything to do with my family or anyone else. I was angry and hurt, and the only one to blame was myself. <BR> <BR> I spent 6 days allowing myself to wallow in misery, to eat ridiculous amounts of not-good-for-me-at-all foods, to not track, and no exercise... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 06:42:37 EST Crossing the Half-Way Point http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4772146 Yesterday I ran my first 14 mile run. I had been pretty nervous about it. Something about crossing the halfway mark makes it all feel more real, and I was worried that it would not go well or that I would have to walk. I chose a different route this time. It has more rolling hills but nothing massive like my usual route. It was a really beautiful run that took me through a couple small villages, and on the run out I had Jay Peak (a gorgeous mountain) in front of me. <BR> <BR> My ankle has be... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 15:32:00 EST What I Learned On My Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4759118 Yesterday was another 12 mile run. Next week I go up to 14, and I have to admit I am a little nervous. Something about crossing the halfway mark makes me nervous, but I'm also feeling a little excited. I feel pretty comfortable with 12, and I'm ready to challenge myself again. Plus, whoa, I am comfortable with 12. Does that mean I can actually become comfortable with larger distances and maybe, actually can do this marathon? <BR> <BR> Anyway, my run was originally scheduled for Saturday, but... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 06:52:17 EST Training With A Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752585 When I started exercising and eating well, I had one goal - lose weight. This has been a good motivator for me for 3 years, but it's kind of a never-ending type of goal. I will eventually get to my goal weight, but even then there is maintenance. I've made healthy changes to my lifestyle that I know will last for the rest of my life, but some days the "lose weight" goal just isn't enough. <BR> <BR> I always looked at exercise as something I had to do. Burn calories, work my muscles, get my e... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 06:19:00 EST Reborn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4749198 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l63618396.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is totally where I am at lately. My body is strong. I no longer obsess about the number on the scale. I no longer beat myself up for an indulgence, and I don't let it throw me off course for the whole day (or week or month). <BR> <BR> I have become focused on new goals. Things I never thought I could do. Things that seemed like ridiculous dreams a few years ago. <BR> <BR> 3 1/2 years ago, I was 263 pounds, m... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 09:47:38 EST What I Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4743525 **This gets pretty personal, so if you're expecting my usual up-beat kind of blog, you have been warned** <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> This week has been a real roller coaster. My emotions have been all over the place and my stress has been through the roof. <BR> <BR> This was supposed to be my relaxing week. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I struggled through every day and did everything that needed to be done. Our lives are usually hectic, but this week was even more so because of Valentine's day parti... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 13:47:26 EST I've Stopped Caring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4741243 Losing weight and getting healthy and fit has made me care more about a lot of things - myself, other people, my job, etc. My heart is so full now that some days I feel like it might just burst. I try to focus on these things daily because it makes me appreciate my life and realize how lucky I am. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I realized I had stopped caring about a couple things. Really stopped caring. Not the "I don't care..." when in the back of my mind I really still do. <BR> <BR> I don't care a... Thu, 16 Feb 2012 06:24:26 EST Not All Victories Are Food/Health/Exercise Related http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4734427 I admit, I am pretty obsessed with my health, with exercise, and of course with food. Lately it seems like I have been focused solely on my new goals, eating clean, and exercise. <BR> <BR> And, that's a good thing. <BR> <BR> But, that's not all there is to life, and sometimes I have a hard time seeing past it all. Losing weight, getting healthy, training for a marathon - these are all huge, life-consuming things, but some times stepping back, relaxing a little, and enjoying something else ... Sat, 11 Feb 2012 22:36:59 EST Jumping In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4728319 Yesterday was a big day for me. Nothing overly exciting happened, and it wasn't anything that anyone else would have noticed. But, for me it was huge because I just put myself so far out of my comfort zone that I am still filled with butterflies this morning. <BR> <BR> Thanks to our tax return, I was able to do 2 things that I have been wanting to do for quite some time. <BR> <BR> 1. I signed up for the marathon!!!!!!! And, I am a complete bundle of nerves and excitement. It's one thing t... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 06:18:18 EST Meditation In A Snow Globe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4723101 Yesterday I went for my first solo long run, and it was amazing! As I started out, the snow was falling and our road hadn't been plowed, yet. The snow was ankle deep, and I was questioning whether or not this was a good idea. Luckily, the next road I came to had been plowed, and running got a lot easier. <BR> <BR> My first challenge came at mile 1 in the form of a huge hill that rose steeply for about a mile and a half. I knew it was going to be tough, but I hadn't planned on the snow. My fe... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 09:07:32 EST Going Solo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4719820 I have a plan for Saturday that I am so excited about, yet I am also a little nervous and apprehensive, too. This week I have really started focusing on my goal of completing a marathon at the end of May, and I decided to do my long runs on Saturdays when I have time and my husband can watch the kids. <BR> The thing that is exciting and scary about this, is that it will be my first solo long run. My trainer has been guiding me and pushing me when I needed it. She's waited for me and encourage... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 06:37:39 EST