ELISAJANE57's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ELISAJANE57 ELISAJANE57's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Decisions... I wish I could make up my mind! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628406 I have had a lot of struggles lately. I have even felt some depression creeping in. I'm struggling to find some hope and just hold onto it. I'm lucky my DH puts up with me when I'm such a crazy hormonal mess. The biggest thing really dragging me down is that I have secondary infertility. I never imagined how devastating and heart breaking it would be to find out I can't have anymore kids unless I can afford medical intervention. I starting seeing a doctor in July, after a year of trying... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 14:03:42 EST What a frustrating year it has been for me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566944 I haven't posted a blog on here in a while. I think it's because I have been down a lot and didn't want to drag anyone down with me. I know there have been lots of positive things to reflect on this year. I know I am very blessed for my life and my health. I'm very blessed to be in a good marriage and to have two healthy and happy children. I did accomplish running my first half marathon this year and I do want to run in another one. I will run another half marathon someday and I will p... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 01:44:34 EST After 13+ months... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5468455 My DH and I have been trying to have another baby since last July! I hit my all time low weight and was working hard to maintain it and keep up my healthy lifestyle. I was able to conceive my other babies without much intervention. I was 30 pounds overweight when I got pregnant with both of them. I though I would be pretty fertile being at a healthy weight finally. I was dead wrong. In fact I have been waiting for several months for my monthly curse to return but it never has. I finall... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 01:16:07 EST I'm a half marathoner now!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432172 I want to say a big <em>304</em> to all my Spark friends who inspired me to sign up for this race. For a long time I thought this distance was impossible, but then finally I made it a dream to run one someday. I live in Utah and we celebrate the 24th of July as Pioneer day with fireworks, parades and races. I was browsing through races a couple months ago and saw the Deseret News Half marathon and for some reason it just jumped out at me. I kept thinking about how much I wanted to sig... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 17:48:17 EST I did it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399719 I literally just signed up for my very first half marathon. I'm so excited and scared! I only have a month to train. I have already researched some training plans though I and I think I can do this. I think I will tame the competitive beast inside me for this and just focus on finishing and enjoying the run. I'm doing the Deseret News Half Marathon on 7/24/13 in SLC. We will be running down a canyon road and most the run is downhill. I had such a beautiful outdoor long run yesterday t... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 00:26:39 EST Weekend recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376168 I have been so weak with my eating on weekends and I want to get better! I'm afraid I failed myself again this weekend. I'm starting to develop some bad eating habits that are so hard to break. Since I started this journey, I have always had a cheat day. Sunday is my only cheating day, but for some reason I have started cheating on Saturday as well. I fell out of my weight maintenance range back in January and it's been a battle since then. I want so badly to get back down to the 130's ... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 00:06:02 EST Free from the scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358123 I used to be a scale addict. I would weigh myself first thing every single morning. It was usually exciting though. This was back when I was slowly and steadily losing at least 0.5 pounds a week or more. A year ago I ran straight into a plateau face first! I knew I was at a healthy weight. I felt good and was okay with my body but I still wanted to lose just a little more. I have not been able to conquer that plateau. Instead of getting frustrated I am embracing my body for what it is... Thu, 16 May 2013 01:52:29 EST It's a new month... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5342714 A new month means it's time to stop slacking and get things right. I'm determined to pick myself up and fight for this healthy lifestyle that I have been working so hard on. Exercise is not a problem at all, unless I'm exercising too much. Sometimes I think I might be but I try to back off if my body tells me to rest. My weekly exercise routine is usually, step aerobics 1-2x a week, bodycombat 2x, bodypump 2x, CX works 2-3x, running at least 10-15 miles, and having one easy workout day wh... Thu, 2 May 2013 01:04:31 EST I'm not a quitter! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310759 I'm still here and still plugging along. I gained some weight for some reason starting at the end of last year. It's not a lot of poundage but it's still frustrating when I was doing so good maintaining between 135-137. Luckily my clothes still fit just fine. I do have a couple pairs of pants that are a little tight. I do obviously take the blame. I know I have struggled and been relaxed at times with nutrition. I always drink tons of water and focus on getting enough protein and 5+ se... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 22:35:14 EST I'm still around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257314 I know I haven't posted a blog in quite a while but I'm still here. I still log in to Sparkpeople everyday. I still track my food and exercise every single day too. I have been very discouraged lately though. I hit my dream weight last year of 135 and was maintaining between 135-137 for a few months. I still wanted to lose just a few more pounds, with a goal of maintaining in the lower 130's. I guess it was just too hard for my body because as of right now I weigh more than I did a year... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 10:16:05 EST I faced the scale this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189802 I finally got on the scale after a couple weeks of not weighing in. I'm a couple pounds above maintenance. I know I ate bad but it must have been worse then I thought. It's time to face reality and get working. I made a goal to lose 5 pounds by March. That would put me at the lower end of my maintenance range. Yeah I'm frustrated by the gain. At the same time I'm glad it's small and I'm determined not to let it get out of control. <BR> <BR> The good things I did last month were exer... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 10:25:21 EST A new year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187358 I wanted to post a blog on the 31st or the 1st so I could write out my goals. I know I have resolutions but I haven't put them in writing. When I think about my life there are so many things I can improve upon in every area of my life. I know we all have work to do. My life has changed so much since I went part-time at work. You would think it would be an easy adjustment, but going from working the same schedule for 8 years to doing something new is quite a change for me. My new schedu... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 00:34:55 EST Just some goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179442 My body went into maintenance mode this year around the end of March and it was okay. My BMI is mid range for my height and weight. I know I am healthy and fit but I still have a dream of losing just a couple more inches from my waist and possibly about 10 more pounds but I'm kind of stuck. I actually exercise more then I ever have in my entire life but I have not been as good with my eating. I'm completely dedicated to eating at least 5+ fruits and veggies. I only drink water. I make a... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 01:03:28 EST Physical therapy dropout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5159847 I haven't posted a blog in a while so I thought I would make an update. I started getting a pain in my right leg this last summer. At first it was just hip pain that would come and go. Then I noticed a tightness in my hamstring on the right side. For a while that would come and go but now I feel it everyday. Sometimes I really feel it after a long run. Now I just feel it all the time. I went to physical therapy for 3 weeks. The PT said that if I didn't improve after two weeks that he ... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 02:02:31 EST Goals for November http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5123393 Yikes! I can't even believe that we will be celebrating Thanksgiving in less than 3 weeks! I really want to survive this month and the following month and stay strong. My chocolate and sweet tooth addictions are just as rampant as ever. I manage to stay within my calorie range but I still feel guilty with the sweets that I ate for the day. I'm having a hard time figuring how to enjoy a little less of them. I just don't want to give them up. I put my kids to bed at night and then I just... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 09:53:07 EST Goals for the week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091033 I will be on my seven days off this week and I thought I would put my goals in writing and hopefully that will help me achieve them. There is a newer gym that opened up locally that I have heard some excellent things about. The biggest plus is that they have childcare and the childcare has fitness programs for kids. I'm so excited by the idea that when I go to workout my kids will be getting good exercise too instead of watching a movie or sitting on the floor with a toy. I'm definitely g... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 09:34:22 EST Stalled out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089854 I just had my birthday last week and I finally got a decent HR monitor so I could finally see a better estimate of how many calories I'm burning with my workouts. I had no idea that when I wore the chest strap that cardio machines will pick that up and you can see a continuous monitoring of your HR as you exercise. I have been wanting to get a HR monitor for a while because I have been feeling like I'm not burning as many calories as before in my aerobics classes at the gym. When I run I f... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 10:42:54 EST Never give up, never surrender!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5072518 Live by those words if you are ready to commit to a healthy lifestyle and become the fittest person you can be. I stole that slogan from the game show Wipeout. There was a contestant who shouted those words all the way through the courses. She didn't win, but she still came across to me as a very determined and strong woman. I'm going to make it my new motto. <BR> <BR> I hit my goal and am not really trying to lose any more weight. Right now I'm committing to stick with healthy eating a... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 08:21:02 EST Summer Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5043734 I'm in shock that we moved from August to September. I do love Fall, but I'm really going to miss all the warm days and all the fun things you can do outside. I love boating and swimming all summer long. I hate being cold and I hate driving in snow. I guess there is nothing I can do but accept that the seasons are changing and enjoy all that Fall has to offer. The best part is Halloween at least. My hubby and I love that holiday. In fact we went to a Halloween store yesterday and had t... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 10:06:19 EST 10 years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031648 This is not a blog about my healthy lifestyle or fitness goals. I really just needed a place to reminisce. I just realized that at this exact time 10 years ago I was 18 years old and really just starting out life on my own. I was just starting my freshman year of college and I moved 2.5 hours away from home. I really can't believe it has already been 10 years since I started my own life away from my family. I am not even close to the same person I was back then. I have had to grow up so... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 12:20:10 EST I had a binge and I'm okay with it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013211 I totally ate myself into cookie oblivion last night and I don't feel guilty about it. I have several reasons why. I plan this every week, so I'm not binging based on emotion. I really look forward to it. I just love baking a fresh batch of cookies...and yes I love the cookie dough too. I think I bake the cookies more for the cookie dough then anything else. Yes I know it shouldn't be eaten raw but I don't care. I didn't get on the healthy lifestyle bandwagon to just eat nuts, seeds an... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 09:10:27 EST I think I'm sold on adding yoga to my weekly workout routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5011139 http://search.womenshealthmag.com/vignette<BR>/wh/search.jsp?q=yoga+for+everday+athl<BR>etes <BR> <BR> I just read this article and it got me thinking about all the soreness I have been dealing with and I totally agree. Yoga has so many great benefits. I really do like yoga and if it helps me become a better runner then I'm all for it. I try to run at least 3x a week, ST 3x a week and do some cross training as well, like kickboxing and step. Now my new goal is to add in yoga for at least... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 16:47:26 EST I made myself younger with Sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4997748 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l521657158.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I was looking through old photos and came across one that looked like a good before photo. I have a photo editor software on my new smart phone that I played with it and came up with this. I want to explain each photo here. <BR> <BR> My before picture was taken back in July 2007, almost exactly 5 years ago. I was only 23 years old and had just graduated from college with my Bachelor's degree as a clinical labor... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 10:20:38 EST I had a great week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4991443 This past week was a really good one for me. I have felt good about my eating everyday this week. I even ate out one day at a restaurant with mainly high calorie options. I found a healthier salad and had them put the dressing on the side. I was feeling kind of negative the last couple weeks. I was making it through the birthday parties for both my kids and wanted to be good around the cake. I just wanted one small piece. I found out that when I am around cake I can't just have one sma... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 09:38:11 EST I don't want to be stuck anymore! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4974365 I'm doing my best to just stay the course and be consistent everyday. I track my food every single day still. I exercise just about every single day too. Even on my rest day I like to sneak in a little extra activity like a family walk or at least 10 minutes of exercise that wont break too much of a sweat. On my exercise days I strength train just about every day focusing on different areas of the body. I have a goal to run at least 8 miles a week and I usually run about 10-12 miles a we... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 10:47:41 EST New goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4968320 I might be taking it down a notch soon..that includes taking a break from all my racing that I have become so addicted to. I am still running a 5K next weekend but that might be the last one for a while. My DH and I are keeping this a secret, but I feel I can share it on here. We are planning to add another child to our family. I feel crazy about doing this, but I'm excited at the same time. I think I'm in a good place in my life and in the best shape of my life to be able to have a heal... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 08:47:28 EST We have good runs and bad runs.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4956177 I ran my second 10K race yesterday for the local rotary club. I was excited to do another one since I like a good challenge and that for the most part I usually run at least a 10K or more for my long run every week. I thought I would be ready. My body was just not cooperating . I made it through the first half and I was already exhausted! I want to blame it on the heat. I actually do most my running indoors on a treadmill and it was getting warm on my race. I felt like I just hit a wa... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 09:52:26 EST Addicted to competition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4945958 I just signed up for my second 10K this year. My original goal at the beginning of the year was to do at least one 10K, and that was my only goal. So far this year I have ran in 2 5K's, 1 10K and I just completed a novice triathlon. I just love how I feel when I race. I get such a rush and I feel so good about myself after I cross the finish line. I'm running my second 10K on July 4th as part of the festivities for that day. I'm seriously considering training to do a half marathon, poss... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 09:44:24 EST Always second place, hopefully first someday.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921387 I have been doing a lot of racing lately. I did a Color me Rad 5K on 4/28/12. It was just a fun run so they didn't time anybody or post results. I did time myself though and finished in 23:23, my fastest 5K yet. One month later I did my first 10K. My goal was to get below 50 minutes and I did with a time of 48:30. I was second place for women and 11th place overall. My company had a 5K on Saturday and I got second place again for women. The funny part was that the girl who did beat m... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 10:18:31 EST My true 1 year Spark Anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4907112 I accomplished my big fitness goal for 2012, a 10K. I finished second place for women and 11th place overall. That means that I outran a bunch of guys too! Yeah! My time was 48:30. It has been an amazing year so far. I haven't lost a ton of weight, in fact I think I have only lost about 7-8 pounds. It's alright because I am at a healthy weight and really only trying to improve my fitness level. I realized that today is the day a year ago that I resolved to start tracking everything I ... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 09:33:03 EST 10K in 10 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4883837 I'm getting nervous for my big race. Yes I know it's not a marathon, but it will be the farthest distance I have ever ran. I know I can do it, but I'm still nervous. Right now I run a few times a week, runs ranging from 3-5 miles. I know I can handle it, but I think I'm going to be more happy when the race is over and I finish, alive. I'm sure my body can handle 6.2 miles. The furthest I have run is 5.5 miles and I got really sick afterwards. I think I figured out why though. I ate t... Wed, 16 May 2012 09:23:29 EST Fitness is my anchor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4872495 I had a really bad morning. It should have been a great morning, the first day off of seven days. I feel like everything in my life is so uncertain right now. I wish I could just up and quit my job. I'm working in my career. I have a Bachelor's in clinical laboratory science and my official title is a medical technologist. I though this was the right career for me. It is a career in the medical field where I help patients by running tests on blood and various body fluids. I am miserab... Tue, 8 May 2012 14:46:19 EST I have made a decision.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4866451 I lost a good deal of weight with SP, about 53 pounds to be exact. I was 190 to begin and anything below 160 is considered a healthy weight. My original goal was to just get to healthy weight. I doubted that it would even be possible. When the weight started coming off I decided to revise my goals. In high school and college I was a healthy weight but stuck in the 150's. I always wanted to lose more weight. I made it a goal to hit the 140's. Once I was in the 140's I decided on 135. ... Fri, 4 May 2012 14:21:21 EST Embracing the lifestyle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4851412 I just realized today that it's been almost exactly a year since my little family flew out and went on a Disneyland vacation. I made a before and after photo and the before was on that vacation. I really don't like any of the pictures I am in for that trip. I was overweight, unhappy and feeling hopeless. I was a member of Sparkpeople but I hadn't been utilizing the tools properly and when I did use the food tracker I was not honest. I didn't really want to know how much I was eating. It... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 10:36:13 EST The dangers of not listening to your body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4846243 I had a really big scare yesterday. I scared everyone around me and I scared myself. I thought I was going to pass out and wake up in the ER. It was all because I didn't listen to my body or common sense. I had to work a 10 hour shift yesterday. I normally get in to work at 5am, so my only time for exercise is when I get off work. I normally run on a treadmill but I decided recently to add outdoor runs to my routine. It has been staying fairly cool in Utah lately so I have been able t... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 08:35:57 EST The tame your sweet tooth challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4840562 Weight loss has been slow...really slow since I got below the 140's. I think one of my hang ups is the fact that I love sugar. I have been portioning it out and eating within my calorie range, most days but I know it's my weakness. I feel like I need chocolate and I do enjoy some sugar here and there. I'm just fearful that it could be my downfall and hinder me from maintaining my weight loss. I read an article on Sparkpeople recently that you don't have to have the mindset that there are... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 08:34:30 EST The outdoor bug! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4818818 Winter has melted away at last and now it's time to play outside. I know some people who don't even go to the gym when it gets warmer, but I still plan on doing most my workouts there. However, I keep thinking how nice it would be to do some of my runs outdoors instead of the treadmill. The biggest thing holding me back from running outside is my kids. I refuse to run with a jogging stroller. I want the full experience of just running and feeling free. <BR> This last Saturday I left t... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 15:51:18 EST Fess up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4802456 I feel like a Sparkpeople success story. I went from being an overweight person who felt like I could lose with just exercise alone and wondering why it wasn't working to who I am now. Now I have learned that to lose pounds, it doesn't happen just in the gym. In fact the majority of the work happens in the kitchen. Once I started really tracking food and counting calories the pounds just flew off. In the first 6 months of following the Spark plan I lost 42 pounds! After all the crazy w... Sat, 24 Mar 2012 10:33:38 EST I'm just not that strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4778782 I just got back from a 3 day cruise on Monday and it was a blast. My hubby and I left the kids with my family and we just got to enjoy being together and having fun as a couple again. I told myself I was going to be strong and I was going to have a plan so I wouldn't eat too much on the trip. I tried really hard on the first day, but I just gave up on the last two days of the trip. There were buffets all day, lots of yummy desserts and ice cream whenever I wanted it. i missed being able ... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 09:06:52 EST Going on a trip http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4757589 I'm going on a cruise this week and leaving Friday. My hubby and I are so excited, especially because it will be just us. My family will be taking care of Thing 1 and Thing 2 while we are gone for 4 days. I'm sure we will miss them like crazy, but it will be so truly awesome just have some pure alone time. We were married for over 4 years before we had our first baby and there are times when I remember our newlywed time and my heart just aches for it again. We are coming up on our 8th we... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 09:05:55 EST A progress report, how I'm doing right now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4753007 A year ago I was a member of SP but wasn't following the program, I was just wandering around sort of lost. I was the heaviest I have ever been in my life (excluding my final pregnancy weight) hovering in the 190's. I desperately wanted to be back in the 150's. And just have the BMI calculator say that I was healthy. I felt like I had a healthy body but I knew the health wouldn't last as I go older, especially since my risk factors would be increased for any potential disease I might be p... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 10:31:20 EST Hitting new milestones all the time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4733540 I hit the 130's this week..well barely since I'm at 139, but I'm really getting into losing those vanity pounds. Really, a healthy weight for me is anything below 159 because I am 5'7. It's not that I'm striving to be "skinny" but now that I have found a program that really works, why not at least try to lose a little more. I'll admit it, I want to look sexy. I think I have accomplished fit and healthy, but now I'm ready to add sexy to that list as well. The awesome thing I find with be... Sat, 11 Feb 2012 10:04:44 EST PRK experience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4724805 I made it through the first rough days and I'm more then ready to get back to my old routine. I'm seeing well enough that I can function. I got PRK done on both my eyes last Thursday, Feb 2nd. I'm on day 5 and the first 3 days are supposed to be the difficult ones. PRK is like the more well known LASIK. I went for a free consultation to see if I could get LASIK last October. They told me that I couldn't due to thin corneas but that there was a laser correction procedure called PRK. It ... Mon, 6 Feb 2012 09:41:09 EST Scratching my head.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4702981 Wow, I haven't had a month this slow since last Spring, before I really starting living the Spark lifestyle. I think I've lost maybe 1 pound this month..maybe. I think I've lost a pound, then two days later I'm back up again. Being on a plateau is not the end of the world, I'm still hopeful I will break free, but I don't know how to end this slowness. My fear is that this is it, this is the lowest weight I can get my body to go. It's not terrible, but I really had high hopes of lost a fe... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 10:18:35 EST Day #2 of breaking the daily weigh-in habit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4683905 It has been a hard habit to break..but I needed to do it right now. I was getting too frustrated watching all the weight fluctuations with no progress. I don't know how much I weigh right now and it's not bothering me..too much. I do have two problems with not doing a daily weigh in: When I do have a weigh in day I am terrified! I'm so worried what the scale will say and I feel like I did when I was wondering how well I did on an exam in college. The other reason is that I'm a control ... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 10:05:18 EST Plateau, plateau..go away!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4680162 I feel like I"m stuck right now and so frustrated. I'll come back with a more positive attitude later. Right now I feel like complaining. I really am the meanest person to myself. I beat myself up at least once a day, then I have a hard time taking compliments. I really am super happy that I lost 53 pounds last year and that I have a BMI of about 22.5. But that was last year..this year I am just stuck so far. I haven't been this stuck since last August when I was completely stuck at th... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 12:39:57 EST Project Zero results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4673526 I had my final weigh in at work for the Project Zero contest they did over the holidays. I was so nervous, I knew I had lost 7-8 pounds according to my scale, but I know scales are so different. The idea of the contest was to not gain over the holidays and you would get some kind of healthy living book if that was accomplished. They also had a raffle to win a kindle if you lost at least 5 pounds. I got on the scale and it said I lost 7pounds so I"m in the raffle. I was hoping that I have... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 10:37:29 EST This week's goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4650738 I don't always post a blog about my weekly goals but some weeks I really need to when I have too much on my plate. I'm finishing up my last day of work out of seven, then I will have my seven days off starting tomorrow. This week will be insane because my brother is getting married and I am going to help out with the wedding. My new sister-in-law asked me to be a bridesmaid and I'm excited to wear a pretty dress, even more excited that I will look good in it because I have lost a bunch of... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 10:10:28 EST Last day of the year with stats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4646141 What an awesome year it has been for weight loss! It's been a fairly decent year in other aspects as well, but really just the idea that it is possible for me to lose weight is the greatest gift I could give myself in 2011. Here are some stats from my progress: <BR> <BR> SW: 197.8 BMI: 31.0 Pants: 13 (kind of tight) 15 (a little big) <BR> CW: 144.4 BMI: 22.6 Pants: 9! (I may even try on some 7's next time I shop because 9 is getting big.) <BR> Total weight loss: 53.4 pounds... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 09:40:04 EST 2012 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4639912 This is officially the first new year in many years that I am not making it a goal to try and lose weight and just feel completely hopeless about it. Even last year I was just wishing to be a healthy weight and wasn't really following the SP plan. That all turned around last June and right now I"m the lightest I have ever been. My own weight loss goal really is to lose no more then 10-15 more pounds and that's only if it feels good, I look good and I can maintain it. I'm not going for ski... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 10:43:52 EST