ELAINEANNE1's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ELAINEANNE1 ELAINEANNE1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Stressful day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6103086 Been doing quite well on my diet but yesterday was not good. It started early when I forgot my bank cards, then dropped a large tub of yogurt, forgot money for my gym membership and to top it all Michael collapsed in Nottingham , he was taken to hospital and at first they wanted to keep him in but they did let come home. <BR> Thank goodness today has been normal, I went swimming and did 40 lengths not bad to say I was tired. Tue, 23 Feb 2016 16:10:44 EST Weekends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6101297 Since I last weighted myself(January sometime) I have lost 4 pounds mostly in the last week as I cut out most sweet stuff and diet coke(did have a couple), I am keeping sweets stuff for the weekend only, trouble is I visited my mum today and she put too much sweet stuff out and we came back with a tub of Maltesers so will try to resist. <BR> Doing quite a lot of exercise and when the weather cheers up will do more walking, I have a trip to London coming up(Saturday 5th March) but as it is on... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 13:57:28 EST Giving it another go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6058902 I am yet again back on my diet, I find it really difficult to keep positive at times(I am a carer and this gets me down at times) but I do not want to go into my 60's being overweight, I am a nibbler and comfort eater and will do my best to overcome this. <BR> I do a fair amount of exercise swimming, aqua jog, exercise class and walking(when will it stop raining). <BR> My Christmas was quiet but OK(we have no family), I look forward to getting back into my routine again. <BR> Happy New Year... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 12:45:30 EST Not done very well yet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033694 I have had a couple of difficult weeks keeping to my diet and exercise(been hard getting into my stride after the chest infection) but hope I am doing better now, still finding swimming a bit hard but aqua and the gym were both good yesterday. <BR> Rather annoyingly one of my hearing aids is not working, I did go and get it fixed last Friday but he only cleaned it out and said it was working but it is not, I cannot get again to the hospital until the 16th of next month, it is maddening. <BR> ... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 12:56:56 EST Holidays and chest infections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023240 It has not been good recently as I had a bad chest infection and Michael is once again very low. <BR> We did have a good few days away on the Isle of Wight, I visited a Roman Villa and I met some friends. <BR> Michael had been down until about a week before and he went down again a few days after we came back, I have just given up with him as over the years I have tried so many different things and none really work. Now I just think of myself and what I need. I have asked for help and been... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 15:06:19 EST Elaine's health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004464 Well yet again I have fell by the wayside, I have put on a little weight about 3-4 pounds but the main problem is comfort and evening eating. I am restarting my food diary and this morning I printed off some food diary sheets for the BHF web site, I will be doing my best to stick to 1300 calories. <BR> I am to have two hearing aids not the usual ones as they will only pick up certain tones as my main problem is when I am in a group, I am also having pains in my hands but not too bad yet. <B... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 13:36:15 EST Day out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963769 I had a lovely day out in York on Saturday and visited two great places, one being the Quilt Museum and there was a beautiful exhibition of quilts some by Kaffe Fasset. <BR> I also visited the Treasurers House which was fascinating and I had a tour of the attics. <BR> Diet wise I am not doing as well as I would like as feeling very stressed(don't often feel anything else). Just about keeping up with my exercise and I have rejoined a healthy heart class which feels better for me at the moment... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 13:17:52 EST Having problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5955440 Once again not been on for a while. We went on holiday in mid June and it was really good, we had a week in Torquay and then I went on a day trip to the Cotswolds. But Michael has not been in an up mood very much recently and feel lucky that we did manage to go on holiday. <BR> Unfortunately I put on 4 pounds over this time and now I am having trouble losing it again which is mostly down to comfort eating I believe, I have kept up my exercise routine. <BR> I would love to go back to Weight ... Sat, 4 Jul 2015 14:32:58 EST Hello Everyone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924307 Yet again I have let myself down, I have gained a few pounds mostly though comfort eating, I know it is bad but just cannot help myself. I have been exercising(when Bank Holidays allow it) and I try to go 2-3 a week, I am doing well with swimming as I mostly do 34-40 lengths with i think is good, before hand I go to the gym and do about 40 mins to hour. <BR> Thu, 7 May 2015 13:29:56 EST I did not realise it had been so long http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880506 Unfortunately for the last 2+ weeks I have a chest infection so not done much, I did go swimming a couple of times but could only manage 30 mins, I have not followed my diet at all and I have done some comfort eating. <BR> I have decided that I must get back to my routine and diet but it will take a few weeks, I am worried that I may put all the weight I have lost over the last 2-3 years and I don't want that. From tomorrow I am doing my food diary again as it is a big help. Sun, 22 Feb 2015 12:17:13 EST I'm still around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817805 I am still here and thought I had better add to my blog. Life is still the same for me but I try to keep busy going to the gym and swimming, not doing much walking at the moment as the weather is so damp and miserable, I am also wary of going some places on my own as not so many people out. <BR> I am sill struggling weight wise but am am determined to get to my target of 10st 7lbs before my 60th birthday in 2017. Stress is my downfall but I am staying positive. Sun, 16 Nov 2014 14:47:21 EST Trying again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796843 I am yet again starting my diet. I just not have had the motivation to bother much for the last 3-4 months, I really need to get back on it as I weighed myself last Friday and I had put on a pound I no it does not sound like a lot but 1 becomes 2 then 3 so need to nip it in the bud now. <BR> I am doing swimfit and swimming on Tuesday and Friday it is aqua fit and swimming and I walk about 45 mins everyday to the village and back and sometimes twice. <BR> I don't think my diet is too bad, I j... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 13:21:14 EST Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784842 I would like to thank everyone for the support as you have given me renewed energy. <BR> I mostly struggle because of my caring role which I have been doing for well over 10 years now. <BR> Over the last 2-3 years I have lost over 2 stones(it is probably nearer 3) which has been helped by being given a grant for a gym membership which I really enjoy especially the swimming, I am not using the gym at the moment as the pool I usually use is closed for repairs so I am using another leisure cent... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 15:00:24 EST not good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783509 I am not feeling all good and feel just like giving up, weighed myself yesterday which has not helped as I had put on a pound, need something yo give a bit umph. Sat, 20 Sep 2014 13:09:58 EST so tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781796 I did not sleep well last night which is why I have not done so wel today Wed, 17 Sep 2014 17:02:43 EST Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779751 No change still struggling with everything, mostly with my husbands mental health problems but that has an impact on everything else including my eating, I have been trying really hard to overcome my comfort eating but I keep having bad days. It is the same with diet coke drinking, I did manage to go with out for a week but then felt really stressed so gave in. <BR> I still going to my aqua classes but not the the gym as they have closed the pool at my usual leisure centre for repairs, I am a... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 15:54:06 EST Holiday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733137 We have just come back from a weeks holiday in Torquay(for the Americans it is on the South coast of England) and we had a great week. the hotel, food, weather and the coach company were all good. We visited Plymouth, Exeter, several beautiful churches, had a ride on a steam train, visited Agatha Chisties holiday home, a model Village and several great museums. <BR> The only problem was the taxi coming home they forgot about us and another couple but a quick phone call solved the problem. <... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 14:02:17 EST Holiday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717840 Not really sure what to say as every time I am on here I seem to be moaning but I am usually a happy sort of person, I don't seem to be coping as well as I use to. <BR> My main problem is Michael's mental health is my main problem as find I get tired so easily now and he takes a lot out of me, also when he is like this I get nothing back from him, <BR> I had a melt down a couple of weeks ago when a friend let me down over a ticket(London trip) that I thought that I had sold her, the next time... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 12:21:04 EST Good Times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702861 I have 2 brilliant days out in the last week the first was to Bakewell on Monday and the weather was very hot, I love to walk around the market, I also went up to the small museum and the church. <BR> My 2nd trip was to London yesterday, we did have some heavy rain on the way down and a couple of showers while there but it did not spoil the day, me and a friend went to Camden Market(a little disappointing as there was a lot of new age type stalls) but I was pleased I went, we then went to Cov... Sun, 25 May 2014 14:36:55 EST To my friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691379 I had what was to be my last counseling session today but it has been extended by one week which is good. <BR> I have not lost any weight, well I did but then I put it back on but at least it it is still a lot less than I was, I am trying my best to stay on track but it is not easy as I feel so low and very stressed, I am trying to stay positive so I keep telling myself that I will lose it. <BR> Michael was up for nearly 10 weeks so it is even more disappointing that once again he is very de... Fri, 9 May 2014 14:56:18 EST Meal out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679481 We had a meal out yesterday of fish chips and mushy peas which was lovely, we usually go to a cafe run by Mencap and some of the services users serve in the cafe. <BR> We then went to see Dial M for Murder which was very good. <BR> I hope that you understand that it is just a slight blip in my diet plans as I am still very determined to get there but probably later rather than sooner. <BR> Thank you for all the support. <BR> <em>247</em> <em>252</em> Thu, 24 Apr 2014 12:34:42 EST Swimming and weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677828 Hi <BR> I have today been swimming and I managed about 30 lengths and I then weighed myself and I am now 11st 5lbs which is the lowest I have been for some time, My weight loss is slow but think I will reach my target of 11st by my holiday in late June, I will then set a new target of 10st 7 lbs for Christmas. Tue, 22 Apr 2014 11:10:25 EST Busy Bsy Busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659369 I have had a busy few weeks as Michael is on some new tablets and they really seem to be helping. We have changed our car for a Smart car which is great and so economical, We have had a trip to The Workhouse at Southwell (National Trust) which is a fascinating pace to visit and last week we had a trip to the theatre to see a comedy play, this is plus our normal routine of my groups and Michael going to MIND. <BR> I just have to get back to my diet now as for the last few weeks I have let thin... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 14:09:06 EST Good Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650062 Over the last week I have had several good days and I just hope Michael can keep it up. He is getting a lot of help now from the mental health team and has a CPN. <BR> I had a great last Thursday in Chesterfield, mostly just looking around, it was a lovely sunny day and then yesterday I did a similar thing in Peterborough and again it was so sunny and quite warm. <BR> Been to aqua jog and swimming this morning and also weighed myself and I am now 11st 6 lbs which is a loss of about 8 pound s... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 14:59:44 EST It is nearly spring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644622 yet a again it is a while since I was here, I have had a bad few months but hopefully now that Michael is on some new tablets things will improve. <BR> I have managed to lose a few more pounds and I am convinced that I will get to my goal weight of 10 stone in time for my 60th birthday in 2017(hope to do it before but I am in no rush. The new group is helping but unfortunately the lady who started it has not been around so much as her husband has cancer. <BR> I am starting to see a differen... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 15:46:30 EST New group going well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606190 I have now been to the new group twice and along with <em>252</em> it is helping, it is just good to have someone local to me who want to lose weight. First week I lost 1 and a half pounds but last week I put half back on but did not do as much exercise as usual. <BR> I am now doing about 12 exercise and gym classes every month plus walking(the weather has been awful so not done as much as I would like) <BR> I am drinking more water, keeping a food diary, eating very healthily. <BR> Mich... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 13:23:38 EST New slimming group http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5586920 We have started a new slimming group in our village, it is just a group that we run ourselves and as it is held in a local Christian centre where our craft group is held it is free. We will have a weekly weigh in, a food diary to record our eating habits and we can swap recipes and advice. <BR> I am all for any support I can get, my starting weigh is 11st 12 lbs which means that I put on a couple pounds over Christmas which is not too bad seeing as I was not as active as usual. Today I was ... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 13:05:51 EST Hoped I was doing better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582885 I have not yet weighed myself since Christmas but my eating is not doing too badly and I have cut right down on diet coke. <BR> I wanted to be able to go to the gym and swimming tomorrow but Michael's CPN is coming so may not be able to make it and on Tuesday I am going for my mammogram on Tuesday so not be able to go for a walk. I did manage to go for a walk this morning and did 14000 steps. <BR> I have been feeling very sick again which I believe is a migraine. Sun, 5 Jan 2014 11:36:16 EST Doing well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564250 I am doing well at least that is what the nurse at my GP's says, I had my asthma check last Tuesday and my breathing is the best since 2006, my weight is down 10 pounds and she says to keep on whatever it is that I am doing. <BR> I wonder if anyone who looks at my page would do me a favour and look at this page by Laura LLEARYEITNIEAR she has not been on long and not many people are reading her page so I would like to give her a bit of encouragement, Laura has done a brilliant video and it is... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 13:30:36 EST Normal life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546156 Well once again I have not been following my diet but my weight is staying steady, I am still going to the gym and aqua jog and I am going to apply for respite money again so I can get the yearly membership. <BR> On Sunday I am going to Harrogate for the knitting and stitching show, the trip is free apart from a bit towards bus fare and we have been putting away a little every week for spending money(I have about £50 pounds) but I do not intend to spend much as I have plenty of yarn. <BR> Mic... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 13:10:42 EST Thanks to all my SPARK friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534939 I would like to thank you all for the comments, I don't know the results yet but I have been given hope. <BR> Other news, I am still struggling with Michael but Lets Talk Wellbeing(NHS) is helping a little, I have to be stronger and start saying no as I am told that I am being manipulated a lot and this is what is getting me down so much, he is not trying to do anything and I am letting him get away with this so I am going to stick up for myself more. Thu, 7 Nov 2013 13:29:52 EST Mum http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530958 Hi all <BR> Well still things are not very good as Michael is still down but it did manage to go on a nice walk this morning. <BR> Other things are not good either as I phoned my mum yesterday and she has a breast problem(her words not mine), she has been to hospital and is waiting for the results so at the moment I am trying not to panic and think the worst. Getting over to see mum is not easy on my own as it is 4 buses and at least 3-4 hours travelling time. <BR> I am trying to keep my di... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 13:12:42 EST Computer working http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517030 Well I found out that there was no problem with my computer, I usually leave such things to Michael but decided last night that something must be done, this morning after my brekkie I switched it on to find that there was never a problem(touch wood) don't know why it locked up but at least it is OK now. <BR> The non holiday I had earlier this year still bothers me so again I have taken action and contacted something called Lets Talk Wellbeing, it is run by the NHS but it is self referral, I ... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 13:58:47 EST Computer problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515306 Well once again it has been awhile but this time it is because of computer problems, it just locked up one day and I don't know why, unfortunately My husband is on a low once again(he <BR> Blames the computer which is rubbish) I am thinking of taking up to the computer shop. <BR> Well once again diet wise things are up amd down but I have lost some weight recently (when I get stressed I eat) and I am still going to the gym and aqua jog and also walking when I can. <BR> I have treated myself t... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 15:17:27 EST Doing quite well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472608 Over the last 3 weeks I have lost 6 pounds <em>43</em> and hopefully I will have lost another when I weigh myself tomorrow at the gym. I has not been easy but I believe my new Samsung Galaxy Android is helping as it is easier to log my calories and workouts on my apps. <BR> Yesterday I went swimming and swam over half a mile and today I went for a walk(about 6.66 kilometers) luckily I live in a semi-rural area with lots of walking routes. <BR> <em>252</em> Sun, 1 Sep 2013 13:07:45 EST Good news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452910 I have been to the gym today and I weighed myself and it is another pound gone, I just hope it carries on so I can get to my target weight and I would like to start the New Year at my ideal weight of 10 stone. <BR> <em>386</em> <em>41</em> <em>252</em> Mon, 12 Aug 2013 13:22:10 EST It has been too long http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448687 I did not realise that it had been so since I had been on here, I have not had a good time recently, first Michael was down for 10 weeks which really got to me then he was up for a month and in that time he was on the go most of the time. Things started to go wrong a couple of weeks ago but the end really came last weekend when we had new carpet put down and unfortunately the fitters marked the wall( we had had it decorated a few days before) Michael really flipped when he saw it and blames m... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 10:57:38 EST Pamper Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396483 I have had a lovely day today as I went to a pamper day for carers, I had a hand massage and my hands are lovely and soft. I also did some painting, I painted a mug, bowl, and a tile, I also did a painting of a butterfly, it's not good but I enjoyed doing it. There was also a lovely buffet and I probably ate too much. <BR> My copy of the Spark Solution arrived today and I intend to start afresh and stay positive to get to my target weight. I know I do enough exercise but my stress levels... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 15:52:22 EST Up date http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372770 I am sorry to say no there is no one who could come in, my mum does not know of my problems and anyway is not well enough to help. <BR> I hate to ask friends as most of them seem to have there own problems and Michael is so particular in what he wants but thank you for the ideas. I know Michael does not cooperate with the doctors so it is partly his own fault but I find they will not do much to help, there is a crisis team but when you call them they cannot come out straight away until they... Thu, 30 May 2013 16:14:12 EST Holiday cancelled http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372427 It looks as if we won't be going on Holiday as Michael's depression has got the better off him, I have been in tears most of the day as I was relying on the holiday to give me a much needed boost. I have been finding so difficult to cope since about Christmas time, I had counseling which helped but it finished a few weeks ago and I just do not know what to do now. <BR> I have said I will help Michael as much as I can but he won't even try, it is not the waste of money(about £500) but the fac... Thu, 30 May 2013 10:34:44 EST It is nearly holiday time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364623 We are off on holiday a week on Saturday and I am really looking forward to the change as it seems to have been a long time this winter especially with the weather not being that good. <BR> My sleeping is rubbish at the moment, I know it is down to stress and I have tried all sorts of things but nothing works in the long term, I am on tablets but they don't seem to work very well either so I am going to talk to my GP. <BR> Pleased that at long last the weather seems to picking up and my garde... Wed, 22 May 2013 13:15:26 EST Holiday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5353179 It is only 3 weeks to our holiday and to my disappointment I am still the same weight as I was in January. I believe it is down to stress but I am still hoping to lose weight just not in time for my hols. <BR> My husband Michael has depressive periods of up to 8 weeks with about 2-3 weeks up and I find this very hard to cope with, when he is down he will not eat properly, wash or dress in that time. <BR> I think because I spend so much on my own I probably eat more than I realise, I do try... Sat, 11 May 2013 14:33:57 EST Food Diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327638 I am still struggling weight wise, I keep restating my food diary and then not bothering to do it, think motivation is the problem and also evening comfort eating but I am just about managing to control it. I had a chat with a health and fitness expert yesterday and she thinks that I am doing nothing wrong but could up my exercise a bit which I shall try to do. <BR> I am still determined to try and lose the weight as I am not ready to give up just yet. <BR> Not sure why but my back is aching... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 13:09:41 EST I have restarted my food diary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5315888 I have once again start doing my food diary, I have 7 weeks before I go on holiday and would like to get below 12 stone which is only 2 pounds(not so daft as it sounds as I am having difficulty losing weight), ideally I would like to lose 6 pounds but I am wary of setting a target. <BR> Not really sure why I cannot lose the weight as I walk everywhere and go to the gym and do at aqua jogging once a week and some weeks I go swimming. I have cut out nibbling and try to eat sensibly. <BR> <e... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 13:00:05 EST I am back on my own computer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5298260 At last I am back on my own computer(thank goodness). everything is good at the moment. We are finally getting some home maintenance done, Wednesday we had a new door and bathroom window fitted and tomorrow we have a couple of decorators coming to give quotes for the bathroom, hall and kitchen. <BR> I am still going to the gym and aqua jog but having difficulty losing the weight(I am doing my best not to nibble), I still believe I will get there sooner or later but it is not easy. <BR> I do... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 13:28:54 EST Cancer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272792 I found out on Friday that a friend of mine has lung and breast cancer, she is keeping positive but it is terminal. I have known her for 15 years and will really miss her when the end does come (not something I am thinking about at the moment. She live in Norfolk and luckily I was able to go and see her on Saturday but she has already been in hospital for 3 weeks. <em>39</em> Mon, 4 Mar 2013 13:39:23 EST I'm failing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267148 I feel like I am failing, once again I have stopped keeping my food dairy and it is weeks since I lost any weight. I am still keeping up with my exercise and I am not doing any comfort eating but I am feeling stressed and very tired. <BR> I am not sure what to next or even if I can keep to the diet for much longer. <BR> <em>39</em> <em>230</em> <em>252</em> Thu, 28 Feb 2013 11:24:12 EST Not a good week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231739 I have been feeling really down this week and it has not been helped by my gas boiler breaking down yet again, it is going to cost £300 to get fixed. It led to a big argument on Wednesday morning with my husband as I just cannot remember numbers very well, he called me stupid and I called him back the same but it did upset me a lot he did apologize. Not sure why I bother with anything as Michael's ups and downs are really getting to me. <BR> On the up side I started counselling on Tuesday a... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 13:00:56 EST Don't like this weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215248 I don't want to wish my life away but I wish it was spring as this snow means I don't go out as much, I feel so much better if I go out even if it only for a short walk. <BR> I hope to be able to go to the gym and aqua jog tomorrow if it does not snow again. <BR> I am starting counseling on Tuesday and I am hoping that it will give me a bit of a boost as I still feel as if I am struggling. Diet wise I am not doing as well as I would like(last night I gave in and had a several things I should... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 08:41:53 EST Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5185796 Well I am pleased that Christmas is over and I can get back to normal(not sure what normal is) once again. I put 2 pounds on over the holiday but I am now back on the diet and determined to get to goal whenever that maybe. <BR> I did managed to get to the gym over holiday twice but as it rained a lot most of the other times I was inactive. <BR> I am still feeling low but try to keep busy and not think about any problems to much. <BR> My weight now is 170 pounds and would like to get rid of... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 10:21:50 EST