EDDYMEESE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EDDYMEESE EDDYMEESE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 53 - Beck day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744868 Today I have a helper with my blog. Bruce was clearly searching for attention so I set him up next to me on the desk. This is totally normal, people. <BR> <BR> Work was ok yesterday - I got my August schedule and was again disappointed. I keep telling Zvika that I just need to let it go, focus on working and negotiate a better schedule at my 1 year review...but I still find myself getting all worked up. I made the mistake of voicing my frustrations to my colleagues and now I'm feeling ba... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 10:34:15 EST 53 - Beck day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744111 Yesterday I woke up with a hideous headache and spent the day nursing it at work. I was on surgery all day, so it was nice to not have to talk to too many clients, although I had to have the other surgery person do the only dog spay we had. It was a slow surgery day. My eyes kept crossing and I wasn't up for major, intra-abdominal surgery (by the way, despite spays being done routinely, it is far from routine!). After all of the surgeries were done, rooms were pretty slow. It was a good ... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 10:01:34 EST 52 - Beck day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743333 Yesterday was another successful day. Food was 100% Paleo and work was great. I did figure out that I get paid salary rather than by hour - I thought my salary was for 45 hours a week and anything I did extra would be more money...but it isn't. That's ok. Like everyone else has said and has done - at my 1 year review I'll negotiate better hours, more pay, etc. Not worried about it now. I'm working a lot and learning a lot. <BR> <BR> Mentally my head was clear most of the day and I didn... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 10:09:26 EST 51 - Beck day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742621 I feel like I have to start this blog out by sending out thanks - thank you to everyone for sticking with me over the last few weeks and months, even when I haven't been able to reciprocate as I'd like to. I can slowly feel myself starting to stabilize again and I look forward to continuing to catch up with what you've all been up to! <BR> <BR> Shout out to the Argentina football team - Germany really earned it but boy, oh boy, did Argentina put up a fight! Great job :) <BR> <BR> Yesterda... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 10:05:04 EST 41-50 - numbers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742189 All kinds of numbers are bothering me right now... <BR> <BR> The number of pounds I've gained back. <BR> <BR> The number of days I've been away from SP. <BR> <BR> The number of days I haven't gone to the gym. <BR> <BR> The number of hours I've spent in bed or sitting on the couch. <BR> <BR> The number of pints of Butter Pecan ice cream I've had in the last few months. <BR> <BR> The number of binges I've gone through in the last few months. <BR> <BR> The number of times I've sworn to "g... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 16:01:51 EST 30/31/1/2/3/4/5/6/7/8/9 - ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735243 Too much time has passed. <BR> <BR> A lot of badness has happened. <BR> <BR> The dark has been difficult to see through. <BR> <BR> Just taking it one step at a time and making an effort to come back here to at least check in. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is well. Wed, 9 Jul 2014 10:20:15 EST 29 - busy Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728644 Kitty with a terrible dog bite on her foot <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> German shepherd with a very deep laceration on her foot caused by sheet metal, severing important tendons and ligaments <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> A puppy with a broken femur <em>42</em> <BR> <BR> A dog with bloat after eating 1.5 pounds of frozen, unrisen bread dough (which was literally rising in his warm, moist stomach) <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> Great, crazy day! <BR> <BR> NSV - went to the gym before work despite tr... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 22:22:16 EST 27/28 - gym isn't so bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727979 I've gone to the gym every work day for the last few days. Nothing happened - I survived each day, the apocalypse didn't arrive, a meteor didn't hit...I guess I can get up a bit early and not suffer too much, lol. <BR> <BR> I used the reclining bike today and it felt good on my butt! But I'm probably going to have to go even earlier because I think I need to give myself time to rinse off before work, otherwise I worry about getting too sweaty and I'm not pushing myself so much. <BR> <BR> ... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 21:42:46 EST 26 - SPAY AND NEUTER YOUR PET! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726753 Work was great. Tomorrow is a day off and then back to work Saturday-Thursday (OUCH). I had some "difficult" clients today (aka FRUSTRATING). One lady came in just to check if her MALE DOG was neutered (our clinic neutered him 1 year ago so we have a surgery report) and then kept asking me if I'm sure! UGH. I finally told her: "I know a testicle when I feel one, and I don't feel one". That shut her up. She wanted me to check because he was mounting her intact female. <BR> <BR> Well, I ... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 23:48:24 EST 25/26 - the damage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726214 I finally got up the courage to get on the scale and measure the damage I've made in the last few months that I've been inconsistent: 4.4 pounds gained. I'm back up to 186.8. Time to make that number go down. <BR> <BR> I went to the gym yesterday and it felt great. I meant to lift weights because I'm worried about my ankle, but the Argentina-Nigeria game was on...so I watched that. I'm pretty excited about it because Argentina is my team and they are doing so great! <BR> <BR> I am now h... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 09:16:42 EST 24 - slow day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5725223 First of all, I find it really creepy and annoying that the ads on SP are all about pregnancy and adoption for me. Yes, I realize that this is not coincidence, it is because of what I'm searching for on Google. But still, it is SUPER ANNOYING. I get on SP to try to keep my feelings in check and I have to see a big pregnant belly or sales on baby clothes. Can't they just place "it'll be ok" ads for me? Ugh. <BR> <BR> Today I worked at our southern-most location in Salem, which means that... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 22:51:30 EST 21/22/23 - trying something new http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724400 So I had a bit of an epiphany at work - one of the doctors said "I wish I could look hot and still eat whatever I wanted and never work out". Now, I know we all feel that way. But I looked at her - maybe 5"5, cute athletic body, obviously toned - not a skinny minny, just healthy. I thought to myself - here is this woman who has decided that she will accept nothing less than "hotness", why do I allow myself to accept only "not hugeness"? She drives as far as I do and works as hard as I do.... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 20:28:06 EST 17/18/19/20 - nothing new http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722483 Not much going on. Work is great but I get home exhausted every day. It'll take time to get used to it again, but I'm loving it. I've seen more and done more in 2 weeks than I did in 2 months at the previous place. Someone told me today that this clinic collects damaged veterinarians and patches them up, lol! <BR> <BR> Mom and Dad are settling in and it doesn't quite feel real yet. I'm feeling very anxious about going back too and spend much of my time trying to figure out how to get it... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 00:17:53 EST 14/15/16 - Ole Ole! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719118 Time off from work means time to watch the World Cup and I am loving it! My choice teams are Argentina and France - I'd love to see them in the finals together! <BR> <BR> Yesterday my SIL and mom got pedicures. Mom cried. In just over 24 hours from now they'll be far, far away. I'm planning a trip to Israel in March, but the difficulty is I don't want to buy tickets while we're trying to get pregnant....although if history continues to repeat itself I might as well buy those tickets :( <... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 13:00:14 EST 13 - nothing new http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717552 Work - not happy with my July schedule. No weekends off and almost no back-to-back days off (i.e. work, off, work, off, work, work, work, work, work, off, work, work, work...etc). But, lot's of people are on vacation this month, so that's why the schedule is bad. I just need to keep reminding the powers that be about my ideal schedule and I'm told in time it will get as close to it as possible. I will remain patient. <BR> <BR> Paleo - going well, but overdoing the nuts and I am NOT plann... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 00:00:40 EST 11/12 - jeans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716393 Yup - I'm wearing dark-wash jeans to work. I am VERY happy. <BR> <BR> Zvika's work situation APPEARS to be improving - he was paid almost appropriately for last month (he thought he was getting 2% of profits but he only got 1%). He's in Seattle now for training and to take a test he needs to pass to be a Finance Director. He's a bit angry because it was all last-minute and they didn't get him registered and he couldn't take the class yesterday. He's still there and hopefully they'll be a... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 10:09:18 EST 9/10 - yesterday and today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714821 Yesterday was a difficult, emotional day. I wasn't smart - had breakfast but didn't take lunch. 13 hours after breakfast, I was STARVING and obviously didn't feel like cooking and obviously nothing sounded good except for..Chinese food. It wasn't amazing, but it hit the spot. <BR> <BR> Today should be pretty normal at work. I was on surgery yesterday and it went well. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I have a day off. I'm going to see my OB/GYN to discuss progesterone supplementation until I go to s... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 09:34:09 EST 8 - rough day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713624 We had it out pretty good yesterday and today. It is absolutely true that we take our anxieties out on the people we love most. He doesn't know how to deal with my grief and I get sick and tired of the "it'll be ok" mantra. <BR> <BR> Today my parents are completely moved out of their house and my shop is now full of their stuff. I told my mom I felt like the soundtrack from The Jeffersons should have been playing as we loaded up the new-ish sofa and the flat-screen TV. LOL. <BR> <BR> Af... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 19:05:23 EST 7 - dashed hopes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712927 Well, another pregnancy goes down the drain...that makes #4. We have an appointment on July 18th with the specialist to discuss IVF or other options. I'd especially like to know why he believes IVF would work if I've already lost 4 (and maybe more). What can you do...at least the bad part has started and should be pretty quick, then we'll be able to try again in a few weeks. <BR> Sat, 7 Jun 2014 16:27:59 EST 6 - day off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712041 I have Fri/Sat/Sun off - I haven't had a proper weekend from work in 2 years and certainly no weekend to speak of during my 4 years of vet school. <BR> <BR> Plan: <BR> <BR> Friday - rest my darn ankle. It had been feeling good for a week and last night, POP, out out went while standing in the kitchen and now it is swollen and stiff. UGH. Once my COBRA kicks in from work, I have to go to the doctor. I'll spend the day cleaning and probably reading. So many people at work are reading Ro... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 11:16:18 EST 5 - better day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711209 I had a paleo breakfast yesterday and felt much, much better yesterday. Breakfast it is, I guess! <BR> <BR> Work is going great - I feel like I have PTSD from my previous job, lol! I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, but people seem truly relaxed. A couple people sit and read a book while waiting for appointments, the old crotchety male vet reads TMZ all day long (lol) and half the time there is a half-naked woman on the screen, others cruise FB on occasion, etc. Not that people ar... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 10:23:57 EST 4 - surgery day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710416 I had to pop Ibuprofen all day long. Holy COW. I feel like I've been on vacation for 2 years and I'm just now starting to work. I did more surgeries in one day than I would have done in 1-2 weeks at the old place. During the craziness - laughing, joking, people having fun, light-hearted banter, people helping people, people playing with kittens, smiles and hard work. <BR> <BR> Love it. <BR> <BR> But yesterday kicked my butt. I did not eat breakfast (as usual), thinking I'd eat my HB ... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 10:09:36 EST 3 - first day of work (yesterday) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709608 So fun fact: I'm always early, never late. So I got to work far too early and started my first day with an emergency seizing dog at 7:40, I euthanized him by 8 am. UGH, what a start. <BR> <BR> Everything went great - the docs are very nice and we do doctor work (I no longer have to put in my own charged, fill meds, etc.). The staff is clearly spread thinly and overworked - isn't that true of all medical fields, though? Not that I'm complaining as a doctor, but we couldn't do our jobs if ... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 09:59:19 EST 2 - tired! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709402 Good night! Tue, 3 Jun 2014 00:18:54 EST Back at it - Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708305 I'm calling this blog "Back at it - Day 1" because I feel the need to work on a streak. I'd like to get to Dec. 31 without breaking down - I need to log in daily to blog, log my food and stay on plan. There are 214 days until Jan 1, 2015, so that is my goal. <BR> <BR> It has been a looooong week. I've spent the entire week with my parents, which is why I went MIA. They are leaving on the 17th and I wanted to devote 100% of the week to them. We didn't do much. I'm pretty sure I gained 2... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 19:10:50 EST Where I am now... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701123 Monday was my last day at work and I left in a bit of a "huff" <BR> <BR> I had a lot of time to ruminate over the last few days and I came to the following realization: they never quite appreciated me for the compassionate, caring and hard working person that I am. Given as that is the case, it was and never would have been, a good fit for me. I am capable of more than being barely adequate (which is how I think they saw me). Really and truly realizing and accepting this is helping me to ... Thu, 22 May 2014 23:26:14 EST Last day at work and everything in front of me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698833 Today was my LAST day at work and I was, yet again, so ready to go. Everyone asked me if I'm excited, nervous, etc...but as somebody who was moved about frequently, I don't mind saying goodbye and I honestly felt nothing. Some are true friends, so I see no reason to miss them as I plan on seeing them again. Others I was lukewarm about and they about me...the rest I completely hated and am sure they hated me so I don't care about them one bit. <BR> <BR> At the end of the day I was accused ... Mon, 19 May 2014 23:46:59 EST Devoted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5695235 That's my goal. I am devoted to ME, MYSELF and I. <BR> <BR> How? <BR> <BR> 1) Minimum 10 minutes of exercise per day <BR> <BR> 2) 100% Paleo, no exceptions <BR> <BR> 3) Log all food, no exceptions <BR> <BR> Why? <BR> <BR> 1) Because I'm worth it <BR> <BR> 2) Because I'm worth it <BR> <BR> 3) Because I'm worth it <BR> <BR> So recap today: <BR> <BR> 1) Exercise 10 min - cleaned house vigorously while dancing <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> 2) 100% Paleo - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> 3) Log ... Wed, 14 May 2014 21:49:25 EST Goal Board http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694167 Ok, let's see. It is May 13. I am almost done with old job (last day is May 19), starting new job on June 1. I have been absolutely terrible about everything lately. I'm feeling emotions making me overwhelmed again - the unknowns. I know I have a tendency to obsess about the future and everything that is completely out of my control. I need to refocus my energies on the things that I absolutely can control: my health and weight. I've been writing a lot of "I need to be better" blogs, b... Tue, 13 May 2014 12:36:11 EST Day 39/66 - ugh, pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687486 UGH - I think my body is broken. My neck. My hip. My left ankle. Do you ever feel like you are about to just fall apart? <BR> <BR> 15 more days...15 more days. That's NINE working days. Work has been fine, nothing special. I'm telling clients as I see them. It has been touching to have people seem so bummed to see me go. It's a good feeling. <BR> <BR> I bought a pair of 14 pants at Old Navy. I've been wearing 16-18. The 14s fit me like a glove. <BR> <BR> Overall the last week ha... Sun, 4 May 2014 21:02:27 EST Day 36/66 - Paleo Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684813 Ok, well, it isn't like I completely went off of Paleo, but over the last month I have had a few pints of ice cream, some cheetos, a few Tony's frozen pizzas, a grilled-cheese sandwich and here and there a bit of something I'm not supposed to have: some barley, beans, etc. <BR> <BR> The effects of these digressions are: 1) fatigue 2) my ongoing sickness started after my first break from Paleo 3) I no longer feel like I'm slimming down (you know, that feeling...not just what you see on the sc... Thu, 1 May 2014 10:48:56 EST Day 32/66 - plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681846 I feel so emotional lately, I don't know why. Oh wait, I do...can we all say: P...M...S...? I don't completely mind it because if find it quite cathartic to cry over just about everything. So this blog will be full of aches and pains and plans and you know... <BR> <BR> Work/Vet Life - a lot of emotions have come up this week. I saw a client the other day whose daughter is finishing her second year of vet school at OSU. When I first met her, she was just about to start (that would have b... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 19:30:19 EST Day 29/66 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679886 Long day at work but a few good cases. So ready to move on. <BR> <BR> Not much to report. Still raining. <BR> <BR> <BR> Goals met: <BR> Track food - <em>248</em> <BR> Paleo - <em>248</em> <BR> Blog - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Goals for tomorrow: <BR> Track food - <BR> Paleo - <BR> Blog - <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l178615004.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l575864521.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 00:18:17 EST Day 28/66 - rainy day off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679012 Nothing much to report today. It has been raining again all week. I've kept the windows slightly open today to listen to the rain, but it is otherwise cold and dreary. There is something I really like about a cold and dreary day, but it makes me highly lazy. I have a pot of soup I've been grazing on all day. It is cold enough that I even had to turn on the heat. <BR> <BR> I don't have a whole lot today :) <BR> <BR> Have a great rest of the week, everyone! Wed, 23 Apr 2014 21:53:07 EST Notice given! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678213 So after all of the anxiety and soul-searching (and yes, avoiding the world and burying my head)...I finally gave notice. I decided to give notice BEFORE our meeting last night and I did that. They still took me out to dinner to discuss things since they think it will help me in the future. Some things I accept, some I take with a grain of salt. I won't go into detail. That negativity is behind me! But they didn't yell or scream and the didn't make me pack my bags, lol. I don't feel li... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 21:23:43 EST Day 21/66 - stuck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673914 Well, yet again, I have to begin by thanking everyone who was so supportive on my last blog and to apologize for taking so long in doing the "thank you" rounds. The seasonal sickness hit me for Round 2 like a ton of bricks. I have seriously not been this sick in years. I guess for someone who only gets sick once every few years, it was overdue. <BR> <BR> JOB <BR> Well, after careful consideration, I've decided to take the meeting with the bosses. I think resigning before this meeting and... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 22:25:21 EST Day 14/66 - need advice! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668576 So the moment of truth has arrived. <BR> <BR> I reached out to my "new" employer and they can take me on in May instead of June. <BR> <BR> That means, I can give my notice at the "old" job at any time. <BR> <BR> Here is the kicker: they want to have a talk with me and as of now it is set for Saturday night. <BR> <BR> Do I go to dinner with them, let them tear me down a bit more and give my notice next week? Or do I give my notice tomorrow and forget about the meeting? <BR> <BR> On the on... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 22:09:18 EST Day 13/66 - live for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667764 "If you want the world to slow down, just live for today" <BR> <BR> Thank you, again, to everyone for being patient with me - I've had a lot of great comments on blogs and my pages + awesome goodies and I'm just starting to respond! <BR> <BR> Boy, this illness really caught me off-guard. I was completely fine and then woke up Saturday morning with a terribly sore throat and the chills. I went to work and then straight home. I slept all day Sunday and went to work on Monday. I've spent a... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 22:44:28 EST Day 7/66 - Zumba, cleaning, kitty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663120 Boy, oh boy, did the house get cleaned today! It feels so good. I finally emptied out the giant, 100-gallon fish tank and moved it out of the way. I couldn't get it out of the door, of course, but I posted it on Craigslist and I hope someone takes it. Unfortunately, moving it damaged my wood floor, which I didn't notice until I was done. Of course, the floor is yet unfinished, so hopefully the damage can be fixed when we sand and paint the floor this summer. <BR> <BR> I also moved furn... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 01:05:32 EST Day 5/66 - not much happening + April http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661328 Work was pretty ok today. My schedule started out pretty empty and it ended fairly full, but nothing bad, no horrible emergencies. Generally speaking it is a bizarre feeling being at work and knowing that I'm not staying. The things that usually bother me no longer do. I'm getting sad about the clients that I'll no longer be seeing - the ones with whom I've really bonded. <BR> <BR> I read an interesting veterinary article just in time. It basically talks about NOT getting attached to cl... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 00:13:18 EST Day 4/66: can I make this day go away? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660382 I really, really, really wanted something good today. Something not allowed. Something not Paleo. Pizza. Pasta. Whatever. I thought about it and thought about it and finally decided to do it. I've been good, I want something yummy, and I can have it. Can I have it and move on? That's the real test. <BR> <BR> Well, I've said it once and I'll say it again: there is a REASON for why I feel so freaking good on Paleo. My "yummy" was "yucky" and now I just wish I could make the day disapp... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 22:05:45 EST Day 0/66: Zen day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657326 What a fantastic way to end my 2.5 weeks off before going back to work tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Stray kitty - neutered and possibly has a home. We'll see. He recovered great and is just a wonderful boy! <BR> <BR> I'm prepared for work tomorrow - clothes out and bags packed to stay with my folks until Saturday. <BR> <BR> I took a two-hour nap followed by a WONDERFUL bath. I don't exactly have the kind of bathtub that says - soak in me! It is generic and old and if I don't clean it constantly... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 21:12:32 EST Vacation coming to an end...boo. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656641 So I had a pretty full day. I toured a gym and signed up. Yay! They have evening Yoga and Zumba and even with my current job I should be able to get there a few times a week. When I start the new job, it'll be easier as they are just down the street from the clinic! I'm going in on Sunday for my weigh-in, body fat, etc. I'm not nervous about it: it is just a starting point and not a measure of my worth. The lady was really sweet and called me "itty bitty" (ITTY BITTY? Ha!). I know she ... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 00:00:26 EST Kitty needs a home - OREGON http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655602 I got up yesterday to open the front door for my cat, thinking it was Wall-e meowing outside. Instead, I was surprised to find this little red head. I gave him food and he was very affectionate. He's young, maybe 8-9 months old. He has two little dangling accessories at his back end. <BR> <BR> I sat for a while stroking him, debating what I should do. If he belongs to someone but just got out, do I have a right to snatch him up and get him neutered? I thought about the thousands of kitt... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 18:04:25 EST Got it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655574 Job is a done deal and I am SOOOOO excited! The offer was more than I expected and I am thrilled. The plan is to start June 1st. I'll give my notice on May 1st. If they kick me out there and then (which they will), I can either take the next month off or start at the new place straight away. They don't need me in April, they could make do without me in May but they need me in June. So yeah, if I needed to start in May, I could! <BR> <BR> The only downside is that it is not at the locat... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 17:06:19 EST Short check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654967 Made food for DH at took it to his work. <BR> <BR> Had to really hold back on buying things for the house - I don't want to spend money on decorative things until we do some repainting this summer. Then...game on! I have a lot of ideas! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a big day for me...going to talk about a possible job. It looks like we'll actually be ironing out details. I hope it is a good offer. I'm nervous about giving my notice at work, but I'm ready for a change. I can't keep up with th... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 23:32:15 EST Nice day and gym tour http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654052 Today has been really nice out. It is still pretty cold at ~55 degrees and my little, old house isn't well insulated. But the sun is shining and the dogs have been out all day. <BR> <BR> I bought a heather plant at Trader Joes today and a little pot of tiny roses. The roses are now next to my bed - flowers make me smile. The heather is for the outside. I probably should have gotten another few pots. I'll do that later this week, I think. <BR> <BR> I'm having trouble with cravings afte... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 17:26:53 EST Back from vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653248 First of all, thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday, responded to my blogs, sent me goodies or wrote on my page! I was trying to not fall into SparkLand on vacation with the family, so avoided it almost completely. But...I'm back. Whew. <BR> <BR> Vacation was good. It isn't like I went anywhere crazy - just Iowa to visit family. <BR> <BR> Food was not good. It started out ok: salads, eggs, lunch meat and almonds at home. I avoided some of those major ones - like the torti... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 13:11:23 EST Birthday tomorrow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646625 Tomorrow is my 34th birthday and I have a lot to be thankful for: <BR> 1 - my husband <BR> 2 - my parents who are supportive and loving <BR> 3 - my brother, who makes me laugh endlessly <BR> 4 - Shandi is doing well despite the cancer <BR> 5 - the dogs and cats are all happy and healthy <BR> 6 - therapy has done a lot to help me feel more level and stable <BR> 7 - I am now a knitter! <BR> 8 - I have been a Veterinarian for almost 2 years and I feel like I've been doing a good job <BR> 9 - I'm... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 01:00:41 EST Beck Day 25 + FlyLady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640649 Identify sabotaging thoughts - I'm going to bring up some of the most common sabotaging thoughts I read in blogs, because I share the same yet while I can try to boost others to see that their sabotaging thoughts are just that, I'm incapable of doing the same for myself...so I hope I'll gain some perspective here for myself. <BR> <BR> "I'm doing everything right and I've *only* lost X pounds" - the bottom line is that we lose the weight. Would I like to lose 3 pounds a week and be at my goa... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 17:00:11 EST