EDDYMEESE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EDDYMEESE EDDYMEESE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 21/66 - stuck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673914 Well, yet again, I have to begin by thanking everyone who was so supportive on my last blog and to apologize for taking so long in doing the "thank you" rounds. The seasonal sickness hit me for Round 2 like a ton of bricks. I have seriously not been this sick in years. I guess for someone who only gets sick once every few years, it was overdue. <BR> <BR> JOB <BR> Well, after careful consideration, I've decided to take the meeting with the bosses. I think resigning before this meeting and... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 22:25:21 EST Day 14/66 - need advice! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668576 So the moment of truth has arrived. <BR> <BR> I reached out to my "new" employer and they can take me on in May instead of June. <BR> <BR> That means, I can give my notice at the "old" job at any time. <BR> <BR> Here is the kicker: they want to have a talk with me and as of now it is set for Saturday night. <BR> <BR> Do I go to dinner with them, let them tear me down a bit more and give my notice next week? Or do I give my notice tomorrow and forget about the meeting? <BR> <BR> On the on... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 22:09:18 EST Day 13/66 - live for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667764 "If you want the world to slow down, just live for today" <BR> <BR> Thank you, again, to everyone for being patient with me - I've had a lot of great comments on blogs and my pages + awesome goodies and I'm just starting to respond! <BR> <BR> Boy, this illness really caught me off-guard. I was completely fine and then woke up Saturday morning with a terribly sore throat and the chills. I went to work and then straight home. I slept all day Sunday and went to work on Monday. I've spent a... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 22:44:28 EST Day 7/66 - Zumba, cleaning, kitty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663120 Boy, oh boy, did the house get cleaned today! It feels so good. I finally emptied out the giant, 100-gallon fish tank and moved it out of the way. I couldn't get it out of the door, of course, but I posted it on Craigslist and I hope someone takes it. Unfortunately, moving it damaged my wood floor, which I didn't notice until I was done. Of course, the floor is yet unfinished, so hopefully the damage can be fixed when we sand and paint the floor this summer. <BR> <BR> I also moved furn... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 01:05:32 EST Day 5/66 - not much happening + April http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661328 Work was pretty ok today. My schedule started out pretty empty and it ended fairly full, but nothing bad, no horrible emergencies. Generally speaking it is a bizarre feeling being at work and knowing that I'm not staying. The things that usually bother me no longer do. I'm getting sad about the clients that I'll no longer be seeing - the ones with whom I've really bonded. <BR> <BR> I read an interesting veterinary article just in time. It basically talks about NOT getting attached to cl... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 00:13:18 EST Day 4/66: can I make this day go away? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660382 I really, really, really wanted something good today. Something not allowed. Something not Paleo. Pizza. Pasta. Whatever. I thought about it and thought about it and finally decided to do it. I've been good, I want something yummy, and I can have it. Can I have it and move on? That's the real test. <BR> <BR> Well, I've said it once and I'll say it again: there is a REASON for why I feel so freaking good on Paleo. My "yummy" was "yucky" and now I just wish I could make the day disapp... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 22:05:45 EST Day 0/66: Zen day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657326 What a fantastic way to end my 2.5 weeks off before going back to work tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Stray kitty - neutered and possibly has a home. We'll see. He recovered great and is just a wonderful boy! <BR> <BR> I'm prepared for work tomorrow - clothes out and bags packed to stay with my folks until Saturday. <BR> <BR> I took a two-hour nap followed by a WONDERFUL bath. I don't exactly have the kind of bathtub that says - soak in me! It is generic and old and if I don't clean it constantly... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 21:12:32 EST Vacation coming to an end...boo. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656641 So I had a pretty full day. I toured a gym and signed up. Yay! They have evening Yoga and Zumba and even with my current job I should be able to get there a few times a week. When I start the new job, it'll be easier as they are just down the street from the clinic! I'm going in on Sunday for my weigh-in, body fat, etc. I'm not nervous about it: it is just a starting point and not a measure of my worth. The lady was really sweet and called me "itty bitty" (ITTY BITTY? Ha!). I know she ... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 00:00:26 EST Kitty needs a home - OREGON http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655602 I got up yesterday to open the front door for my cat, thinking it was Wall-e meowing outside. Instead, I was surprised to find this little red head. I gave him food and he was very affectionate. He's young, maybe 8-9 months old. He has two little dangling accessories at his back end. <BR> <BR> I sat for a while stroking him, debating what I should do. If he belongs to someone but just got out, do I have a right to snatch him up and get him neutered? I thought about the thousands of kitt... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 18:04:25 EST Got it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655574 Job is a done deal and I am SOOOOO excited! The offer was more than I expected and I am thrilled. The plan is to start June 1st. I'll give my notice on May 1st. If they kick me out there and then (which they will), I can either take the next month off or start at the new place straight away. They don't need me in April, they could make do without me in May but they need me in June. So yeah, if I needed to start in May, I could! <BR> <BR> The only downside is that it is not at the locat... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 17:06:19 EST Short check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654967 Made food for DH at took it to his work. <BR> <BR> Had to really hold back on buying things for the house - I don't want to spend money on decorative things until we do some repainting this summer. Then...game on! I have a lot of ideas! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a big day for me...going to talk about a possible job. It looks like we'll actually be ironing out details. I hope it is a good offer. I'm nervous about giving my notice at work, but I'm ready for a change. I can't keep up with th... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 23:32:15 EST Nice day and gym tour http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654052 Today has been really nice out. It is still pretty cold at ~55 degrees and my little, old house isn't well insulated. But the sun is shining and the dogs have been out all day. <BR> <BR> I bought a heather plant at Trader Joes today and a little pot of tiny roses. The roses are now next to my bed - flowers make me smile. The heather is for the outside. I probably should have gotten another few pots. I'll do that later this week, I think. <BR> <BR> I'm having trouble with cravings afte... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 17:26:53 EST Back from vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653248 First of all, thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday, responded to my blogs, sent me goodies or wrote on my page! I was trying to not fall into SparkLand on vacation with the family, so avoided it almost completely. But...I'm back. Whew. <BR> <BR> Vacation was good. It isn't like I went anywhere crazy - just Iowa to visit family. <BR> <BR> Food was not good. It started out ok: salads, eggs, lunch meat and almonds at home. I avoided some of those major ones - like the torti... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 13:11:23 EST Birthday tomorrow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646625 Tomorrow is my 34th birthday and I have a lot to be thankful for: <BR> 1 - my husband <BR> 2 - my parents who are supportive and loving <BR> 3 - my brother, who makes me laugh endlessly <BR> 4 - Shandi is doing well despite the cancer <BR> 5 - the dogs and cats are all happy and healthy <BR> 6 - therapy has done a lot to help me feel more level and stable <BR> 7 - I am now a knitter! <BR> 8 - I have been a Veterinarian for almost 2 years and I feel like I've been doing a good job <BR> 9 - I'm... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 01:00:41 EST Beck Day 25 + FlyLady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640649 Identify sabotaging thoughts - I'm going to bring up some of the most common sabotaging thoughts I read in blogs, because I share the same yet while I can try to boost others to see that their sabotaging thoughts are just that, I'm incapable of doing the same for myself...so I hope I'll gain some perspective here for myself. <BR> <BR> "I'm doing everything right and I've *only* lost X pounds" - the bottom line is that we lose the weight. Would I like to lose 3 pounds a week and be at my goa... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 17:00:11 EST Beck Day 24 - deal with discouragement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640028 Ok, well, I think we all know about the discouragement that we start to feel once the new diet isn't shiny and new anymore. <BR> <BR> I think the most helpful recommendation Beck makes is: focus on what you can do today. <BR> <BR> Otherwise, she basically says to remind yourself why you're doing this and to try to realize that you're not suffering 24/7. Anyway, I liked the idea of focusing on today. Every time we start to think about how many pounds we still have to lose, it is an opportu... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 01:19:39 EST Beck Day 23 - counter the unfairness syndrome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638136 They bring pizza to work and everyone attacks it, washing it down with a big glass of cold Coke and taking care of that sweet tooth with a warm, chocolate chip cookie. <BR> <BR> Sabotaging thought: it isn't fair that everyone else can eat what they want. <BR> Sabotaging thought: I've been doing really well, it isn't fair that I can't reward myself with my favorite foods. <BR> Sabotaging thought: I've been having such strong cravings, it isn't fair to have to feel so deprived. <BR> <BR> Pu... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 23:38:05 EST Gratitude in photos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637812 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1179510957.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This photo is from one of my favorite nights. It was after my brother's wedding and we had all gone out a few nights later (the night before they left for Hawaii) to the Portland City Grill. We were there with family that had come out from Israel and we had a blast. We're very close and it was bittersweet. Well, it was about midnight by the time we headed home. My father was driving one car, SIL another, and ... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 15:57:41 EST Turning 34 this month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637360 I am just about the last person to have any issues with getting older, but I'm having a hard time with this one. I always thought I'd be done getting my life together by 35. I'd have the education, the house, the two kids and I'd start to work toward my other dreams, like traveling. Well, you know what they say: you make plans and God ROTFLHAO. <BR> <BR> Paleo is going really well, although I seem to have stalled in the weight department. It seemed to be melting off for the first 2 weeks... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 01:58:36 EST Becoming fat-adapted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634490 What does that mean? <BR> <BR> <link> <link>www.marksdailyapple.com/what-does-it<BR>-mean-to-be-fat-adapted/#axzz2uSRDcFDI </link> </link> <BR> <BR> <link>www.marksdailyapple.com/what-does-it<BR>-mean-to-be-fat-adapted-part-2-qa/#axz<BR>z2uSRDcFDI </link> <BR> <BR> What does that look like? Start with 50 g of carbs if you're sedentary, 100-150 g if you're very active. Obviously I need to start with 50 g of carbs per day, since I do work on my feet but I'm not exercising yet. <B... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 15:17:01 EST I can't let it stop me from living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631987 I had a very pensive week. <BR> <BR> Let's just say that I was in a better place, but not quite sure how to continue to hold on to it. <BR> <BR> It started with a bucket list. <BR> <BR> It started with a bucket list, because when I sat down to really think about it, I realized that life can be what I make it. I can do ANYTHING. <BR> <BR> I DON'T HAVE TO SUCCUMB TO DISAPPOINTMENT. <BR> <BR> I have never wanted, nor dreamed of, a typical life. For some, it is their dream: a house, fami... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 22:07:22 EST 2/19/14 - lazy day off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628749 Breakfast <BR> Chopped Liver, 1/2 serving <BR> Grapes - Raw, 2 cup <BR> My Nescafe, 2 1/2 serving <BR> <BR> Lunch <BR> Mushrooms & Onions - Sauteed W/ Olive Oil, 0.33 cup raw <BR> Brown Eggs - Egglands Cage Free - 3 eggs <BR> <BR> Dinner <BR> Chicken Breast, 6 oz <BR> Squash - Acorn, raw, 6 oz <BR> Butter - Salted, 1 tbsp <BR> Cranberry Sauce, 2 tablespoons <BR> <BR> Snacks <BR> Grapes - Raw, 2 cup <BR> My tea, 1 serving <BR> <BR> Total: 1,552 <BR> Daily Goal: 1,200 <BR> Remaining: -3... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 22:18:55 EST A whole lot of thoughts... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628364 SparkPeople: I love you. I feel like I'm slowly and steadily building a network here and I'm enjoying the socializing, especially since I am avoiding Facebook like the plague. I seem to have more in common with most of you than with 99% of the people on my Facebook page. I also have Google+, but can't quite seem to get into it. I think SparkPeople is the perfect replacement. So, thank you! <BR> <BR> Friends: I don't know. Ever since the blow-up with my "best friend" (I'll call her B), ... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 13:01:46 EST Good few days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625235 Work - Well, it's been a few days. I had a few good surgeries last week, most notably a digit amputation. I really like these kinds of surgeries...spays, not so much. It was also a really bad week. I diagnosed far too many horrible diseases and put down far too many beloved pets. So much badness. It is such a gift that we can offer our pets humane euthanasia. Giving them this gift of taking away their pain is amazing. It is amazing with how many people I bond over a euthanasia. They ... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 02:12:06 EST Day 1 Paleo and back to Beck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622707 I just happened to be watching TLC's My 600-pound Life and two things hit me: <BR> 1) the lady is talking about how hard it is to lose weight with so much junk in the house and how badly she wants it - I'm looking at the kids at her table - all overweight. Why are they continuing to eat that way while the mother is undergoing bariatric surgery? Isn't she sending a message that it is ok to gain that much weight because you can always have surgery? Why isn't this mother taking charge of what ... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 23:23:15 EST Just for fun :) Mostly from MUSE - love them! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622377 Suddenly, I'm in the mood for good music...here are some of my favorites: <BR> <BR> Other Lives - I bet 99.99% of you have no idea who they are, but they are incredible! <BR> <BR> <link>youtu.be/33nX8ZZK9sU </link> <BR> <BR> Ok, well, this one is actually a funny video, and I did not laugh the first time I saw it, but it is really funny and I love the song "Sail" by AWOL Nation, so google the song for the rest of it :) <BR> <BR> <link>youtu.be/Awf45u6zrP0 </link> <BR> <BR> Then, o... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 14:42:13 EST Finally home! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5621855 Yep, I was supposed to go home last night, but at 8 pm, when I was finally done with all of my charts and the last to leave, my car started making a funny sound. I guess that's what I get for driving to work in the snow during Snowmageddon when everybody else is phoning it in. The entire plastic, "thingy" under the car was torn out and dragging. So 30 minutes later the car was parked at the mechanic's and I was back home with my parents. I did not pull ALL of my hair out, but some of it. ... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 00:14:35 EST Snowmageddon and better day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619777 Yes, we call it "snowmageddon" in Oregon even when we only get a light snow flurry, but this time it was for real! <BR> <BR> It is now day 6 of being stuck at my parents' house, although to be fair, I was here voluntarily for the first few days. Didn't expect Snowmageddon to keep me from going home. Paleo seems like a distant dream and my long-ago childhood...not so much. I love my parents dearly, but this is just bringing back so many memories, lol. They've been fantastic and I have no ... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 20:45:52 EST Depressed today...a lot of TMI...infertility stuff... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5618308 I'm having a really bad day with a lot of triggers...I was all set to read blogs and be super positive, but I just can't do it. <BR> <BR> My friend texted me today a photo of "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" and asked if I thought it was a good book because she's sick of using condoms. This is the same friend who has randomly texted and asked me if it's okay if she and her husband did it and would she get pregnant (supposedly she doesn't want to right now). Um. Thanks for texting your st... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 00:48:58 EST Fun day at work + snow + my fitbit is ALIVE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617470 Today was my long day at work - start at 10, end at 8. I don't really think these new hours are working, but whatever. <BR> <BR> I arrived at 9:20 - another downside of these hours. I still have to get to work a bit early most days, and rather than take the time to get situated and catch up on a few charts, work is immediately in my face, people need answers, want me to call someone back, etc. On a normal day, we arrive at 8:30 and see appointments starting at 9. So we have that 30 minut... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 02:15:13 EST Good day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616509 Today was another day spent with my parents and we had a nice time. I got up early, at around 7 am. My dad was surprised, but I'm not sure why. I've always been a morning person. I don't particularly enjoy sleeping in, although sometimes my body demands it. We didn't do much all morning, but went for a 4 mile walk with the dogs when it finally warmed up to about 30 degrees. It was great. The pups were very happy, although Blue is very sore, poor baby. Shandi, older and with cancer, is... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 01:39:49 EST Wherefore art thou, Paleo? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615305 Ok, I know excuses aren't allowed so I'm taking full responsibility - it is Day 4 of February and I haven't started Paleo, yet, and I'm not sure when I will. I wanted to go 100% on Feb. 1, but I didn't. I'm making better choices, but they are low-ish carb only, and certainly not Paleo or primal. I probably should have made it a goal of transitioning to Paleo over this month, not going cold-turkey on the first. <BR> <BR> I feel like I'm already failing because we're a week into February an... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 19:47:44 EST Beck Day 21 - get ready to weigh in! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613506 Apparently I'm supposed to step on the scale for the first time tomorrow. So much for that. <BR> <BR> So here is Beck Day 21: <BR> <BR> What does weighing in do for you? <BR> - it allows you to celebrate and build up your confidence when you've lost weight <BR> - it keeps you honest if you've gained weight <BR> - it helps you stay committed to the program <BR> <BR> But be careful, weighing yourself can erode motivation more than it helps IF YOU STEP ON THE SCALE WITH THE WRONG MINDSET.... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 23:19:47 EST Eureka, philosophy and science http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613161 I've spent the last few days with my family again, hence the lack of blogging and being social. My parents returned a few months ago from Las Vegas. They've been away from Oregon for about 5 years, I think. It's because of my dad. He's a worker. He's 71 this year and finally got laid off from his job for good. For years now, it would seem that the job he was on would be his last, but always they'd get another bid and he'd keep working. He worked as a contractor for Intel for a long, lo... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 15:27:28 EST Getting on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610725 Did ok today - opted out of bread at our clinic lunch and went with self-made lettuce wraps with roast beef! Fewer calories and no carb slump! But I did go a bit overboard with the chips :/ <BR> <BR> Looking forward to Paleo. My dad made a great meal tonight - mom had fried up some eggplant so he used the leftover oil (tiny bit) to sautee onions, garlic, butternut squash, brocolli and black beans - it was smoky and rich tasting. YUM. They keep kosher at home so don't eat meat/chicken be... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 00:11:36 EST Oh, why not...all about ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609645 A is for Age: 33 - turning 34 in March <BR> B is for Booze: not really, but I enjoy wine tasting sometimes <BR> C is for Car: VW Golf diesel - although my dream car is an Audi and I will have one some day <BR> D is for Dad's name: Michael <BR> E is for Ego: Yes, but not in a bad way <BR> F is for Favorite song or music: all over the place - Bob Marley, Nina Simone, Tracy Chapman, Pearl Jam (love Eddie Vedder's new stuff), Oasis...I could go on and on. <BR> G is for Goof off thing to do: ... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 21:40:43 EST Beck Day 20 - get back on track and February plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609222 Ah, what a fitting day to pick back up on! <BR> <BR> A recap of the last 19 days of Beck: <BR> 1. Record the advantages of losing weight - I've set this up on my Start page under goals and am reviewing daily <BR> 2. Pick two reasonable diets - Paleo/South Beach combo <BR> 3. Eat sitting down - mostly, I'm doing this...it's the eating while cooking or when starving that's the problem <BR> 4. Give yourself credit - I certainly don't do this enough <BR> 5. Eat slowly and mindfully - better when... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 13:15:00 EST It's a fertility kind of week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608779 Yeah, I'm just having one of those weeks. <BR> <BR> It's all about the fertility issues. <BR> <BR> I've told my therapist that I tend to focus on one problem at a time, lol. If I'm feeling good about work, I'm usually obsessing about my (in)fertility. If I'm feeling good about money, I'm hating my job. LOL. <BR> <BR> This week is just one of those times - the preggos are coming out of the woodwork. People I didn't even know were trying (what? they didn't send me a memo?). Anyway...h... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 01:05:36 EST Breakdown - trying to stay positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607131 I've had a really strange week. I don't know if it's just PMS, or something, but I always get really negative and moody right around ovulation time. So much hinges on that one day a month and it seriously stresses me out. I hate this. <BR> <BR> Over the last few days, I've seen more and more baby announcements and pictures on Facebook than I've wanted to see. I left Facebook for a reason, and I've regretted coming back on a daily basis. First it started with people messaging me if every... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 12:00:53 EST Moving on...and a recap of the week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602811 ...to a few new Beck tasks. I was going to spend a week working on eating slowly, etc., but I think there are more important tasks to revisit: <BR> <BR> Create time and energy - create a schedule for the day and stick to it <BR> <BR> WORK DAY - get up @ 6:00 am - drink coffee, eat breakfast <BR> 6:45 - 7:30 am - yoga, exercise <BR> 7:30 - 7:45 am - get dressed, put on make up, hit the road <BR> 8:30 - 6:30 - work, write up charts, try to leave at 6:30 <BR> 7:30 - 8:30 pm - clean, get cloth... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 22:15:34 EST Nice day off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601737 Stayed in bed until about 10-11 am, which felt great. I drank my coffee and watched some Netflix. Then, I started cleaning. I got my cupboards in the kitchen all done and the rest of the house just regular cleaning. I really wanted to do a super deep clean, but...I did spend a lot of the time on the kitchen, and it needed it. A lot of things I skipped because I started to feel like it would take too long, so I'll probably do it next week when I have 4 days off. <BR> <BR> Food was not gr... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 22:11:59 EST unwinding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600736 There's nothing better than coming home knowing that you have two days off of work. I wish I was willing to spend calories on wine, because a nice glass of good red wine right about now would just seal the deal. So....relaxing.... <BR> <BR> Today was so insanely slow, but I got all of my charts done and I was able to run an errand at lunch. That also meant that I was hungry for lunch, so I got something quick and cheap. Not what I'd usually want, but money is really tight right now and I... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 23:56:32 EST Beck Day 18 & 19 - Sherlock! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599078 Ah! I had such a good night last night. I left work, went straight to my parents' home and together with my brother watched the ENTIRE third season of Sherlock (BBC). It was AWE-SOME! <BR> <BR> But...I also fell asleep without blogging, although I did log all of my food and stayed within range. <BR> <BR> So here's a little catch-up: <BR> <BR> Day 18 - change your definition of full <BR> Oh, how true. The more you eat and the more you gain weight, feeling not only full, but stuffed, bec... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 15:06:36 EST Beck Diet day 17 - control overeating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597595 Beck defines overeating in two ways: <BR> <BR> 1) If you eat any food in a greater quantity than you had planned. <BR> 2) If you feel full partway through your meal but continue to finish it anyway, leading to a feeling overfullness. <BR> <BR> So the recommendation is to try the following exercise: put more "planned for" food on your plate and also put unplanned food on your plate....then, just eat what you planned for. <BR> <BR> A) that seems like a waste of food <BR> B) I don't overeat ... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 01:21:05 EST Beck - Prevent Unplanned Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596516 The plan recommends a NO CHOICE response card. <BR> <BR> Here is a link to SEAJESS' blog about Beck day 16, which actually finally prompted me to get the Beck book online. <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485840 </link> <BR> <BR> It pretty much echos everything I'm feeling right now, although I am feeling pretty in control these days. I definitely feel like the NO CHOICE thinking is easier when you remind yourself that you really aren't ... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 00:37:18 EST Beck - Monitor Your Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595370 Ok, so this is the week that I'm supposed to actually start a diet, although I'm happy to say that I started tracking 2 weeks ago instead of waiting until today. Yay! <BR> <BR> The gist is to track food, even things you don't plan to eat. I've been really good these last 2 weeks, logging everything. I've even gone back and added in foods that I ate at night when I broke down hungry. I did consider not logging them, but then I thought about how many times I've told someone else to just lo... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 00:04:25 EST Beck Day 13 & 14, week 2 in review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594150 Day 13 - overcome cravings <BR> <BR> I'm going to expand this one to "overcome cravings when you're bored", lol. <BR> <BR> Anti-craving Strategies: <BR> 1) Label it - talk to yourself - tell yourself it is a craving or it is boredom. If you're truly bored, no amount of food will fix that. <BR> 2) Stand firm with yourself - if it is a craving only, you will not eat <BR> 3) Don't give yourself a choice - cravings are emotional, do not give yourself a choice <BR> 4) Imagine the aftermath of g... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 22:52:37 EST Will catch up tomorrow... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593037 Too. <BR> Tired. <BR> Going. <BR> To. <BR> Bed. Mon, 13 Jan 2014 23:22:25 EST Day 12 - Beck - Practice Hunger Tolerance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591800 This one kind of makes me laugh, because the task is to basically skip a meal to see how it makes you feel. Well, I pretty much skip meals daily. <BR> <BR> On work days, I often don't eat anything until dinner. Sometimes I have lunch, but I can't say I'm usually hungry - it's just something to do if I have the time to leave work. I always want to get away, so apart from going and spending money on random stuff, it seems easier to grab lunch. When the weather is nice, I went on walks, bu... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 23:34:47 EST Beck Day 11 - hunger vs. desire vs. cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590775 Ok, I honestly don't feel like starting to rate my hunger levels, even though I know that I'm supposed to follow every Beck Day and do all of the tasks. The fact of the matter is, I know when I'm hungry and when I just want something to eat and the problem right now is that I'll eat regardless of the situation. Even if I know it's a "desire" or a "craving" - I'll acknowledge it and still indulge, because I'm tired of spending my days worrying about what I can and can't have. <BR> <BR> Th... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 23:28:45 EST