EBWHAT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EBWHAT EBWHAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Weekend Struggles :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639559 Grrrrrr <BR> <BR> Okay some major setbacks. <BR> <BR> Binged on chocolate for two days in a row, and didn't log yesterday at all really. I think the major problem happened on Saturday. I woke up early and ate a normal breakfast, but then I had to run around to de-rig at a venue that I had performed at the night before, which was really stressful because the train wasn't running and I had to take a couple of other trains and a cab and walk a bunch. Then I went straight to a hair appt, wh... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 13:42:43 EST 2nd weigh-in day! One full week of working hard. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635999 Fridays are my day, and I am 117.4! <BR> <BR> Last Friday I was 120.0! That's down almost 2 pounds for this last week of eating right. And it hasn't been perfect but I haven't given up so that's great! <BR> <BR> Things I've accomplished - <BR> <BR> Not drinking alcohol at all! <BR> <BR> Drinking water everyday! <BR> <BR> Staying under 2100 calories everyday (and the majority of the days in my range of 1200-1700). <BR> <BR> I really think that not drinking alcohol has been they key to... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 10:58:03 EST Small victory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632372 Yay! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I waited too long to eat. My friend got us free tickets to see Kanye West (which, by the way, was amazing, he totally met all my expectations and his rant was epic! At one point he was simply listing nouns. He also talked about his therapy sessions where he is coached on talking like a normal person and not a meglomanic. He also referenced his friendship with Oprah. And he had a throne made out of hot white girls dressed like 1980s performance artists with pantyho... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 10:16:00 EST Restaurant FAIL! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631208 Grrrrr..... <BR> <BR> <BR> Setback already?? YUP! <BR> <BR> I went out to a restaurant with a friend to catch up and chat, it was really lovely because we hadn't seen each other in a while - we talked about all the normal stuff: how weddings are so strange, absentee fathers, civil war enthusiasts, poles (various types), etc. It was really great! <BR> <BR> BUT - I tried to choose a healthy item from the menu, it was a noodle place and I knew I didn't want a mess of noodles, so I got marin... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 22:33:33 EST Drinking water again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629681 WATER. <BR> <BR> Oh my gosh, why did I stop drinking water? What the eff was I thinking? <BR> <BR> So I'm back on sp. Again. This time I'm going to use it less for the social aspects and more for the tracker, I'm using the nutritional tracker on my phone. <BR> <BR> Why am I back? Because I was on the cover of Metro two days ago, it's a new york daily mag, and I looked SO HUGE!!!! <BR> <BR> Gah! So I'm back. We'll see for how long. <BR> <BR> I just want to lose weight so that I can be ... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 22:58:03 EST I think my calorie intake goals are too low http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398120 I dunno, 1550? Really? I'm finding that really hard to stick to. I have absolutely no evidence that this is unhealthy but isn't the bmr for a woman my age around 2000? Plus I burn over 1500 calories a week. Plus I don't think that my weight loss goals are that aggressive. I dunno, I'm hungry and confused. <BR> <BR> Almost as confused as I am when I watch that new Miley Cyrus video. Which I CANT STOP watching. Whhhyyyyyy?! <BR> <BR> Also, we're losing our space for real. September 1st we... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 09:34:49 EST The vaguely terrifying future. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396476 I just learned that we have lost our lease on our space. It's a creative home for a vibrant community of aerial artists and it's both the source of a lot of my income (as I teach there) but also the most magical place I've ever been a part of. It's an underground theater, it's my sewing studio, it's my inspiration, it's my playground, it's my party. I recently became a partner in the space and it feels a little bit like something was ripped out of my heart and trampled on. I can only hope ... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 15:41:57 EST A healthy cheat day is a tracked day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5391954 Yesterday was Sunday and I spent the day socializing. I had lunch with a friend and then went to a picnic with some other friends. I munched pretty much the whole day and did not pay strict attention to what I was eating. Making good choices was in the back of my mind but I didn't deny myself all the little delicious things I wanted. They were all healthy, whole foods, but perhaps a little high in salt and fat. I totally ate that organic salami AND the organic dark chocolate with toasted c... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 11:57:04 EST Is that really how you spell wildebeest? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389503 I needed to eat today soooo bad. I didn't have a big training day today but then I was starving to the point of crying and punching my best friend in the face (jk she's the best I would never) and then I suddenly remembered that I often get hungry like a wildebeest the day AFTER I train. <BR> <BR> I trained really hard on Wednesday (1.5 hours doubles trapeze, 1.5 hours handstands, 1 hour lyra, plus three hours teaching) and Thursday and today I did train and rehearse for about an hour and ... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 22:44:25 EST I went insane and now I get to quit drinking for a month without social censure. Score. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388879 After my last blog I went completely insane and started mainlining tequila and then blacked out. <BR> <BR> I know I have an issue with alcohol because occasionally I cannot stop myself before I get to that point. It maybe happens three times a year. The last time it happened was my birthday in February, after which I quit drinking for a month. <BR> <BR> I intend to do the same thing this time and quit drinking for a month. Part of me thinks I got so blasted because I wanted an excuse ... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 10:00:30 EST Pain sux. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383596 I've had a horrible migraine all day today, it's only just now starting to abate. Migraines usually make me throw up and this one did too so as a result all of my food intake and tracking is all off. <BR> <BR> I started out the morning by going with my husband to the coffee shop to get iced coffee really early, and I had a banana for breakfast (resisting muffins and croissants and all other delectables calling me from the pastry case) but then on the way home I got the telltale shard across ... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 17:22:59 EST Body dysmorphia dreams and subsequent realizations. Not happy ones per se. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382496 On Friday I was looking at facebook photos from a show that I am in and in several of them I have visible belly rolls. Partially they are protruding because I was wearing a pair of tights that cuts right under my belly, but seeing them really freaked me out. I was affected so deeply that I had a terrible body dysmorphia dream two nights ago. <BR> <BR> In the dream I was on a gig, and my friends K and D were there too, and we were all asked to take off our shirts. I don't remember by who... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 14:02:15 EST Im really upset right now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4990019 I'm really upset right now. Not because I overate, but because I'm confused and sad and I don't know what I'm doing with my life. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I feel like this whole obsession with weight loss is a cop out. It's an easier thing for me to put my energy into than figuring out what will make me really happy. The bonus is that if it's successful, it's an easy way to project to the outside world that I'm doing all right, that I'm happy, successful. It's like the real life equivalent of... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 01:01:21 EST OMG what happened last night!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4980884 AAAHHHH!!!! <BR> <BR> Why did yesterday get so terrible!? It started out so awesome! I had vegan overnight oats for breakfast (so healthy <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l362016265.jpg"> <BR> This is a slightly different version than the one I did before, it's vegan! But I think the milk I used (the delicious almond coconut blend stuff) didn't combine well with the banana, it kind of separated. I'll try a different version next time. <BR> <BR> And then I did some c... Sat, 21 Jul 2012 19:42:24 EST Crunchy cooking funtimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4978661 I made overnight oats! <BR> <BR> They were kind of watery - because I didn't have the right ingredients. I used 1% milk, oats, chia seeds and a little bit of agave, which was kind of a combination of several recipes, but the next batch I make will probably be vegan and include bananas, which should improve the texture. I ate them anyway though, because they were delicious. Look! I took a picture - just like a real blogger. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l57114... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 01:10:31 EST Doin it doin it well enough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4977154 Today I rehearsed and trained quite a bit so when I came home I was so freaking hungry! <BR> <BR> I'm trying really hard to pack healthy food with me when I go out but I'm finding that the cooking and preparing is taking quite a bit of work. <BR> <BR> Like today, breakfast was super easy, I killed off the rest of a box of Optimum Power cereal. (I like it but I think it has too much added sugar, I know it's natural sugar but, beetch please, anything that tastes that sweet cannot be great f... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 02:28:16 EST