EBURGITE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EBURGITE EBURGITE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ goal met http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6083002 i walked 10.5 miles this week so far, my goal was 10. <em>244</em> i'm planning to walk some more today. first time i've walked that much in a week since 2014. my reward was a new kindle book. <BR> moving forward.... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 10:36:49 EST fortitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6081344 the definition of fortitude is: mental and emotional strength in facing difficulty, adversity, danger, or temptation courageously. it's not a word i take joy in, but it is a strong thing that helps me keep pressing on. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2ecc78ab-46d0-44dc-9ad6-6b3e340aaf27.jpg"> <BR> when i was young, the world seemed so full of promise. as i've grown older, it seems less so. but i keep pressing on. "sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of t... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 09:38:13 EST great article http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6078564 <link>laurenfowler.co/weight-loss-truth/ </link> <BR> "seven truths about weight loss" "The key to changing your relationship with food or your weight isn’t another diet or workout plan. It’s changing your entire mindset around food and weight." <BR> i appreciate this for so many reasons. mostly because it encourages me to think about a bigger picture...a more important thing.....than the numbers on the scale. i know that if i want to make my life better, i have to change everything abo... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 09:03:20 EST daily http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066520 "people often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily." zig ziglar <BR> it's the every-daily-ness that is necessary. Mon, 11 Jan 2016 08:58:50 EST it's a new month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867119 1/12 of 2015 is behind me. along with 13 lbs. <BR> i'm up to walking 3 miles at a time, so i'm back to where i was last summer. it took a while. i don't feel like i can take the credit for all of that, because a lot of it is just being on thyroid drugs to replace what my body doesn't make. i CAN take credit for faithfully taking my pills every day, and doing what i can to get healthy. <BR> i've been mostly sugar free, with occasional treats. <em>494</em> no where near december le... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 11:58:43 EST another great article http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862992 <link>www.sparkpeople.com/blog/blog.asp?po<BR>st=an_obesity_expert_tells_us_what_rea<BR>lly_works_with_weight_loss </link> <BR> i appreciate so much about this! especially the idea that we should be focusing on our lives....NOT making our weight loss/exercise the center of our life. it's a healthy balanced view that will help us do this for the long-haul, not just the short-run. and his views of the scale (that dratted thing!!!!) are definitely worth incorporating into our life-change ... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 13:23:07 EST 9 questions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861581 <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutriti<BR>on_articles.asp?id=2011 </link> <BR> i just read this article about finding the best eating plan for LIFE. it's different for all of us, and as long as we expect one size to fit all, we'll be sorely disappointed. we have to figure out what our body needs, and then take care to supply that. this article nails it on the head, i think. if i can't find an eating plan i can stick to for the rest of my life, i will keep yo-yoing. <BR> since i wa... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 12:15:01 EST progress is good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847805 i'm moving along. up to 2 miles walking, now. i'll keep increasing slowly, until i can resume my 3 miles/3 times a week. i don't know if it's the drugs, or walking, or avoiding sugar, but i've dropped 6 lbs. i know to not expect this kind of loss to continue, but i'm THRILLED that i've reached the 10% mark, already. moving on.... <em>342</em> Tue, 6 Jan 2015 15:23:01 EST better living through pharmaceuticals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843184 it's been a rough year and half with health issues. first a bone spur, add in some stress, and top it off with hypothroidism, and i'm back up to 230. i've been on synthroid for 3 weeks, and i'm feeling more energy, clarity and LIFE than i have in months. i'm hoping this means i can actually take off more weight for good! i'm back to walking, and i will choose to be content that i walked 1.5 miles, rather than bemoaning how far i used to RUN! <BR> it's a new year. i've walked 3 times in ... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 19:21:45 EST baby steps.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544777 19 minutes on the bike.....slowly recovering and my heel is holding up. <em>244</em> the time of rest was good for me. <BR> i'm continuing to work on re-wiring my thought processes. i really appreciated this article: <link>www.mayoclinic.com/health/self-estee<BR>m/MH00129 </link> i skimmed over it, and was like, "yeah, i get that, move on." then i slowed down, bookmarked it, and keep looking at it. repetition is a good thing. <BR> Mon, 18 Nov 2013 22:57:24 EST back in the saddle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543810 <em>332</em> <BR> i'm finding my way back from the brink....riding my bike and doing gentle dancing. the heel is holding up so far.....i will keep pedaling along and working my way back. <em>198</em> Sun, 17 Nov 2013 21:34:28 EST changing my mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542745 i have realized that unless i change how i think about myself, and how i talk to myself, i will never find peace, nor will i win this battle. <BR> it feels as if life is sort of like "groundhog day," in that i keep coming around to the same things over and over and over, until i get them right. for as far back as i can remember, i have felt fat. unlovely. unacceptable. a size 7, or 10, or even 14 isn't "fat." fluffy, maybe, <em>20</em> but not the horror i see it as. i live on a dish... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 14:30:21 EST moving on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541991 today is day three of a fresh start. fall down seven times, get back up. so i'm getting up again. working my way back to where i was. i wish i didn't have to, but i would rather work hard to get there than stay where i am. <BR> i was diagnosed with a bone spur under my achilles tendon, so the doc said no more running. that was a huge blow, and i've spent most of time since that diagnosis throwing my form of a tantrum. it's time to get over it, put my big girl panties on, and work on fig... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 14:10:17 EST it's a new day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5440827 it's challenging to be honest about re-gaining part of what i've lost. <em>15</em> the pounds were creeping on, but the last few months, they've just piled on. 4-1/2 years ago, my husband lost his job. he opted for re-training, since the newspaper business was tanking. he's in the medical field now, with a new job. if you've never experienced long-term unemployment, there's no way i can adequately explain the toll it extracts. it's been an emotional roller coaster. he applied at a... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 09:48:04 EST food for thought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411460 <link>www.komonews.com/news/health/When-ea<BR>ting-healthy-becomes-dangerous-2131938<BR>71.html </link> <BR> this is an interesting article. i'm going to ponder this for a while. eating healthfully is challenging, and it does sometimes mean social situations are difficult. i guess any good thing can turn bad, right? Fri, 5 Jul 2013 11:32:59 EST back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372387 there are a lot of challenging things about apartment life, but i really appreciate having a free fitness center. i go 3-4 times a week, and have logged 13 miles so far walking, on the elliptical and cycle. yesterday, i was cycling away...feeling a sense of accomplishment, taking my chubbies for a ride, jiggling away, but knowing those chubs will be fading. then a skinny gal walked in. ARRGH the internal dialog that went on isn't worth repeating, but i know some of you could re-create my s... Thu, 30 May 2013 10:02:27 EST three months and three days since the last blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358479 i ended my last blog with "i'm excited to see what the year will bring." it's been a challenging few months. <BR> we are no longer in washington state...we now live in texas. it wasn't a place i'd ever dreamed i'd be, but you gotta be where the jobs are. my hubby & i relocated at the beginning of may. <em>40</em> <BR> amidst the stress of it all, i re-gained some poundage. i am getting back on track, and things are turning around. the great news is that i have retained some of my go... Thu, 16 May 2013 11:15:16 EST running again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249408 the snow finally melted, so it's safe to run again, and not a moment too soon. december and january were pretty low fitness months, and it showed with weight gain, but i'll be taking it off as i resume running, and training for my next half-marathon. <BR> i ran 3.47 miles in 43 minutes. <em>364</em> plus a few! i know that's not a great time for a young whipper-snapper, but for a 52 year old woman who just started running 11-1/2 months ago, i'm pleased! <BR> i'm excited to see what the ... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 17:19:50 EST impossible? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241578 it only seems impossible until it's done. <BR> nelson mandela <BR> the journey from impossible to done might take a looonnnggg time, but it's worth it. which is why short-term goals are important, right? <em>211</em> Thu, 7 Feb 2013 12:49:34 EST better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240069 do the best you can until you know better. then when you know better, do better. maya angelou <BR> i love this! i need to just do what i can, and keep learning and growing. Wed, 6 Feb 2013 10:51:12 EST mistakes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238742 If you're not making mistakes, then you're not doing anything. I'm positive that a doer makes mistakes. <BR> John Wooden <BR> <BR> i guess that means all my mistakes are good things, right? <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Tue, 5 Feb 2013 12:43:02 EST new phase http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227527 i dropped over 100 lbs. did really well keeping it off for over 6 months--i bounced up and down about 5 lbs from day to day, then winter arrived. between snow and ice, it was very challenging to be outside, so my output went down, even though my input stayed the same. then i had a tooth abscess...blech. then a death in the family. throughout all the yuck, i gained some back. i just wasn't running fast enough, and it caught up with me. i refuse to beat myself up, or throw a pity party, bu... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 17:29:02 EST rest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224616 i've been thinking about rest a lot lately. pixie-licious posted a great blog: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223095 </link> <BR> i appreciated that i'm not alone in my quest for balance. <BR> it's been a rough couple of months, physically and emotionally. there were times i wanted to push myself to keep up my exercise, but my body just wouldn't let me. it's hard to know when to push and when to rest, and my inclination is generally to pus... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 16:44:18 EST 9 days later.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221565 i had a tooth removed last week. i didn't realize how cruddy i really felt until i started to feel better after it was gone. what i thought was a serious case of the winter blahs, was my body fighting the infection. i'm starting to feel like myself again...got some serious exercise in yesterday..dancing, walking and jumping. it feels great. i know i can't make up for a month of little exercise, but all is not lost. moving forward..... <em>312</em> <BR> <BR> ps....i just read an artic... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 11:49:21 EST fully alive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220059 i watched "ken davis: fully alive" on netflix instant view yesterday. i have enjoyed his humor for years, but this is definitely a must-watch if you're a fan of his. as always, he has lots of humorous anecdotes, with thought-provoking stories as well. he lost weight, did a triathalon, (not an iron-man, he said it was a styrofoam man), and is learning to LIVE fully. if you've got netflix and an hour or so watch it. if not look him up on you-tube. i laughed and cried, learned more about ... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 12:00:13 EST update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217272 my father-in-law passed away the night of my last blog. his memorial service was yesterday. life will find a new "normal" eventually. there's always emotional stuff to process, and family drama and/or trauma around these kinds of things. i still have weight to drop, but i can see the progress i've made, and how different my life is.....i didn't use the excuse of grief as a "free-for-all" pass to eat sugar or other unhealthy things. i stuck with my normal "diet:" 8-12 glasses of water, a... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 15:42:27 EST challenging times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202075 it's one of those "get in, buckle up, hang on and shut up" times. sometimes life takes me on a ride that's scary, out of control, and just plain not fun. there are times when i can tell myself, "just throw your arms up in the air, yell 'wahoooo' and pretend it's a roller coaster." for now, i'm just white-knuckling it, and waiting for this particular ride to end. <BR> my father in law was diagnosed with leukemia new year's day, and he just days to live. it's a lot to take in, and take on,... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 11:52:22 EST sharing a fun post from 1MYSTERY_LADY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198708 a spark member posted this: what have you lost <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197622 </link> and it just blows my mind to think about pounds we've dropped in comparison to daily objects. <em>9</em> <BR> i've lost a 2 month old horse. <BR> i found this chart: <link>www.disabled-world.com/artman/publis<BR>h/height-weight-teens.shtml </link> <BR> i've dropped the average weight of a 12-13 year old kid!!! <BR> it's an interesting way... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 11:58:45 EST last day reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182397 2012 is done for all practical purposes...i lost more weight (even though i gained some back); ran at least 5 <em>364</em> s, and a <em>366</em> ; traveled over 700 miles running, walking or <em>332</em> , hiked, forever left the obese category, shopped "normal" size stores all year (which hasn't happened since the mid 80s); felt better than i have in decades; became nearly unrecognizable to those who haven't seen me for a couple of years; i'm continuing to transform how i think about my... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 14:46:39 EST gratitude journal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180780 i've seen posts on facebook lately about having a gratitude jar. i love the idea of a beautiful vase holding colorful tidbits of goodness, but i think i'm going to go with a journal instead--it will fit into my life better, and still accomplish making thankfulness a daily habit. i'll keep it simple, limit my entries to one sentence, and practice intentional gratitude. <BR> there are other things i want to accomplish in 2013, but this is my first "resolution." i'm excited about this one. Sun, 30 Dec 2012 11:15:48 EST and yet another light bulb moment.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5160250 <em>189</em> of the day <BR> i realized this morning that i'm still waiting for a "moment" to arrive when i've got it all under control...i'm not eating to much, or too little, i'm exercising the right amount, and it's all wonderful. it's odd when i realize i've been operating under a false assumption; in this case, my assumption is that i'll discover a magic formula that i can follow for the rest of my days. i feel pretty foolish putting it in print, but exposing it to the light will hel... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 13:43:07 EST twinkie diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151762 <link>www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=eve<BR>n_dietitians_have_a_vice_bidding_adieu<BR>_to_hohos </link> <BR> i have not heard this news before today, that you can eat twinkies, ho hos & ding dongs and still lose weight. maybe last year, this would have thrilled me, but it honestly made me want to....ummm...toss my cookies, today. i guess that shows i've made a lot of progress. but i still feel a bit gastrically unsettled. <BR> i'll stick with a balanced diet rich in veggies and health... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 14:39:12 EST fun size http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5146992 i visited some friends i haven't seen in a while. both of the gals commented on how "little" i am. i said, "i don't feel little," and one of the guys said, "you're 'fun size.'" it cracked me up. i'd never heard that before, but apparently it's an expression that's been around. i'll be smiling about that for a while. every time i walk past those packages of little candy bars, i'll remind myself NOT eating them will allow me to BE fun size. <BR> all that said, i hope this isn't a deroga... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 11:03:55 EST happy thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5143249 wishing you all the best today--health, gratitude, love and joy. do something fun. do something active. <em>361</em> Thu, 22 Nov 2012 08:07:16 EST thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5141480 for decades, i've wanted that "norman rockwell" holiday....lots of family, great food, happy people, memory-making, laughter, sharing across the generations. i don't have that with my family, or my hubby's family, and it's not happening with the next generation, either, as they are too far away. the longing for what "could be" is a huge joy-stealer. so i'm just going to embrace my not-normal-ness, and start celebrating in ways that reflect who i am. <BR> i'm excited about making new trad... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 11:54:23 EST looking for the right word...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5138325 i just listened to a spark people radio episode...the host talked about "releasing" weight. i kinda like that. i don't like the term "losing" weight, because i haven't LOST anything....i've changed how i deal with food and exercise, and those behaviors have enabled me to DROP 105 lbs. i didn't misplace anything, and i don't want to find it. release is still is a bit passive for me, because this journey has been very active and extremely intentional...it's a day-by-day, sometimes minute-by... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 11:23:29 EST best quote i've heard in a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5135060 TORTISE110 posted a blog yesterday: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133873 <BR> here's the quote: "When we force ourselves to connect against our heart's desires, we create false, resentful relationships; when we disconnect from the people who deplete us, we set them free to find their tribes while we find ours." <BR> i just love that! thanks tortise Wed, 14 Nov 2012 10:43:00 EST smaller size !?!?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133028 i needed to do some shopping for winter clothes. i've been having difficulty keeping my pants up, but i just blamed it on my "funnel" shape. i found out i needed a smaller size of jeans. i am beyond shocked--i don't think i've been in a size 10 since 1982 or 1983. i am shocked for a few reasons....first i never thought i'd fit into that size again. second because when i was a size 26, i thought a 14 would be grand, and lastly because even seeing myself in a size 10, i still am very unhap... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 16:52:50 EST foundational article http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5128493 <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivat<BR>ion_articles.asp?id=729 </link> <BR> i just re-read this article. it pretty much sums up the changes i've made in the last 22 months. moderation. progress, not perfection. changing how i think about myself, food and exercise. realizing doing the same thing and expecting different results is insanity--i'm done with the crazy merry-go-round. <em>244</em> realizing this is a moment-by-moment, baby steps kind of journey, slowly and consist... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 13:21:07 EST push ups http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5124765 last week, i committed to adding regular strength training to my fitness plan. i just completed the one minute push up test. <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness<BR>_articles.asp?id=1113 </link> <BR> i did 27 modified push ups. the last time i tested, i only did ten, so i've improved. i didn't go down to 3" from the floor, but i went down far enough to work those muscles, but good! ouch! it's a start. i'm going to keep working at this until i can get down to three inches fro... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 11:19:45 EST one word just for fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5117873 Not as easy as you might think! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers. <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? <BR> purse <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> supportive <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> silver <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> gone <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> scary <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> love <BR> <BR> Your dream last night? <BR> forgotten <BR> <BR> Favorite drink? <BR> water <BR> <BR> What room are you in? <BR... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 11:56:33 EST new chapter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5116624 i've been working on maintenance for a while, just taking a bit of a break from calorie-restriction to evaluate where i am and how things are going. i lost 107 lbs, and my weight is pretty much staying there, but i have noticed from day to day, week to week, there is about a 6 lb variation....it goes up, and it goes down, with no real pattern or anything. i believe that means i've learned how to eat for my body's needs. it sounds so boring and unimportant to say that, but it's HUGE for me.... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 10:51:39 EST gravity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5096422 <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivat<BR>ion_articles.asp?id=104 </link> <BR> i just read this article. it's a good one. this sentence gets me: "Gravity should not be able to wield that kind of power." <BR> i've lost a lot of weight--over 1/3 of my former self. i completed a half marathon (something i NEVER would have imagined myself doing). i'm in the best physical shape ever, i weigh less than i have in over 25 years. but that scale can still devastate me or thrill me. it sho... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 11:46:26 EST 1st post half-marathon run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093923 i rested for a few days after the half-marathon. yesterday, the air was too unhealthy to run. it was marginal this morning, so i went before it got worse. did 2.45 miles in 28 minutes. i've been training for distance, so i haven't pushed the speed. today i decided to go faster. i've never run that fast in my life! <em>312</em> i've shocked and impressed myself. less than 11-1/2 minutes/mile. just, wow! <BR> when i started running, i did it just to prove something to myself. somew... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 11:37:05 EST success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090195 well, i did it! <em>366</em> complete before my 52nd birthday. <em>244</em> happy dance. <BR> my training plans were slightly derailed due to to the smoke, but i did it anyway. i decided to just go at a pace i thought i could sustain. i walked less than a mile of the course, which was much better than i thought i could do. there weren't too many hills...i walked some fo them, because it seemed like a good time to break, anyway. i hit the 8 mile mark and realized i was going to make ... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 15:52:53 EST running again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5084366 i ran 4.02 miles in 51.24 minutes. <em>198</em> it was soooo nice to be <em>363</em> again. it was windy, but i'm pretty sure that's why the air was clear, and the skies were a beautiful blue...in the distance, the hills were shrouded in the smoky icky air that has been hovering in our valley. it's pretty startling to see it so clearly, and helps me understand why breathing has been challenging! <BR> 4 days to the <em>366</em> .....hopefully it won't get cancelled. <em>24</em> Tue, 2 Oct 2012 21:14:26 EST october http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082067 it's a new month. three quarters of 2012 is gone. time has flown by. i may not be where i'd hoped to be in terms of weight loss, but when i evaluate all that's gone on this year, i am content. would i be more content if the scale said what i planned? i'm going to guess i wouldn't. if i weighed 20 or 30 lbs less, i think i'd still be struggling with the same issues--am i good enough, thin enough, healthy enough? in all honesty, i don't think i could ever say "yes" to the first two, using... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 11:40:24 EST half-marathon plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080581 my first <em>366</em> is 6 days away. the unhealthy air has limited my training plans. i've struggled with a really bad attitude...feeling frustrated with being unable to run, and being unwilling to move to a different indoor activity...that adds up to crankiness because of lack of exercise. it's just generally been an unpleasant few weeks in the smoke all around. <BR> yesterday, the air cleared, so i went out to see if i could do 10 miles, walking and running. i did it--10.38 miles in... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 12:49:13 EST fire again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057948 at last report, there were 95 fires burning in our county and the next. air quality prohibits running, yet again. i will persevere. so, indoor activity it is. <em>46</em> Thu, 13 Sep 2012 17:03:39 EST rookie running mistakes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050288 this week was full of foolish things i did. <em>363</em> without hydration, and having to cut my run short. on my 7 mile run, i ran over half of it on a trail, and i haven't done hardly any trail running...it was much harder, so i walked about a mile. running mid day when it's the hottest (it's been cool in the mornings, so i kinda forget how much it heats up later). i've had equipment malfunctions. <BR> on the up side, i've learned a lot. i choose to take the view that i'm eliminati... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 22:00:52 EST