EBIELOU's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EBIELOU EBIELOU's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 10 Pounds Lost & LONG day ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762749 I have lost 10 pounds since last Wednesday! I am stoked. Even though I am 245 now, I know that I am headed in the right direction. I have the focus that I haven't had in several years. it's time to get back to the person that I am meant to be! <BR> <BR> I have to teach an Abs Class and Pound Class today. That might not be a lot to some people, but this is after teaching my students and sitting through a meeting with administration followed by 2 interviews for a new teacher at my school... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 09:13:19 EST Back & Fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760724 Yeah, it's time to really get back on track. When, I look at pictures of myself now I get disgusted because 2 short years ago, I had hit my goal weight. Now, I'm fighting with my weight again. To top it off, I'm a fitness instructor. I've lost 5 pounds this week. <BR> <BR> I actually ate off of the skinnylicious menu last night at the Cheesecake Factory. It was so hard to do because my boyfriend ate fried shrimp and fries. He's such a loser lol! <BR> <BR> Sat, 16 Aug 2014 07:56:03 EST And He Answered... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632419 So, I have spent the past couple of months trying to figure out why I am gaining so much weight. I've cried and I've prayed. I've prayed and I've cried, and I have finally received an answer that arguably came from the very mouth of God. <BR> <BR> Why have I gained all of this weight even though I am working out at least 2 hours a day now? <BR> <BR> It's because I'm eating like the 300 lb Ebie!!! <BR> <BR> Wow! What a revelation. It doesn't matter how much time I put in at the gym, I a... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 11:00:55 EST Over & Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629048 My life has literally spiraled out of control. I find myself almost 100 lbs heavier than my lowest weight; however, toned and lean. I find myself going through another divorce and begging God to allow me to go back to the person that I use to be. I do realize that I am the only human being that can make these choices that I make every day, and I'm ready to choose life! It is time to stop playing the victim and actually get back to being me. Thu, 20 Feb 2014 09:53:59 EST Day 2... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573089 Well this morning was crazy! I woke up at 7:15 and had to get ready to go to POUND class! If you don't know what POUND FITNESS is you should definitely check it out and find a class! It is amazing! I did a 45 minute POUND Class, and then I headed to the gym for some cardio and oh goodness...LEG day! Super excited that I'm back on track! Here's my before pictures to start this journey! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l601450952.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 13:35:18 EST 251...is not okay... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5572303 Who is this person that I've become? <BR> <BR> I hit snooze when my alarm goes off in the morning. I eat foods without caring. I not only eat a piece of cake, but I will eat the entire cake. I am obsessed with food again. <BR> <BR> I don't care about the number on the scale. I don't care that I can't fit into any of my clothes. I have become my old self again. <BR> <BR> NEWSFLASH: <BR> <BR> Just because you have this.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 13:22:02 EST Wow...It's Been A While http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525477 It has been a while! So much has happened in my life besides the dreaded weight gain. I've officially hit that point to where I'm like enough is enough. I have gained back 70 pounds, and it's time to take it off again! <BR> <BR> I have gotten married, moved to a different town, got rid of stress on the job, and have a family. That's most of the things that I have been praying for; however, it's not okay for me to put my health or myself on the back burner! <BR> <BR> So today is the d... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 11:33:11 EST Why Do I Keep Doing This To Myself? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500133 I keep going back and forth! For the first time since going back to work in August, I made it to the gym 5 days in a row last week! This week, I commit to the gym & eating right! I've lost down to 153 pounds, and I weighed a whopping 223 this morning! I will get back to where I want to be! Day 1 pictures! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1305813287.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1592989081.jpg"> Mon, 30 Sep 2013 10:06:38 EST THE COLOR RUN - BIRMINGHAM http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475855 I had so much fun this weekend at the Color Run! I was already dreading it because it was raining. It just showed me how things go full circle. I signed up last year and didn't do it because it was raining, but I just think the rain made it better! I might go and do one in Atlanta at the end of the month, but oh boy was this fun! The other lady in the picture is one of my Zumba Queens who is soon to be a Zumba Instructor. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l11... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 15:08:55 EST Weight Watchers Points Plus Member http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466607 Well, here I go. I'm going to try weight watchers. I have been anti-weight watchers my entire journey, but with so many people being adamant that it works, and some of my friends trying it out. I'm going to try it myself! Wish me luck! Mon, 26 Aug 2013 09:52:12 EST New Life... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5453898 Well, the amazing guy that I spent the last year missing is finally back in my life. We're not sure where we are or are not headed, but it is nice to spend time with him and be a part of his life now. I can't wait to see what the future holds for me. He decided that I should focus on a certain goal. I chose to use a size 4 jeans for my goal. I will not get on a scale until I can fit those jeans and they look good on me! I'm determined and ready for this! I start school at the Universit... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 11:30:41 EST First Day Back At Work!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445387 Okay so today is my first day back and work, and 2 more hours until my work day is over and all I can think of is...is it nap time? <BR> <BR> So at this moment...this baby is being drank for "go-go" juice.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1984468359.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I'm going to teach 3 Zumba Classes tonight and then I'm going to call it a night and get up and do it all over again! <BR> <BR> Mon, 5 Aug 2013 14:28:56 EST A View Into My Life... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441013 So this summer, I have went through some radical changes. I feel like I've lost my "spark" again. It was crazy to try to put on my shorts from last summer and they were squeezing my thighs. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? My size 6 body ballooned back into a size 12!! GRRR...Well that's enough complaining! I vowed that today was a fresh start! <BR> <BR> I'm now a self-proclaimed vegetarian. It's only my first week, but thanks to Morning Star...I know it's possible for me to make it with this ki... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 12:03:35 EST Time to Get Back on Schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439821 It's time for me to get back on schedule with logging on to here and checking with everybody! I go back to work Monday, and it will make it easier so here we go! Wed, 31 Jul 2013 13:04:13 EST 21 Days to a New Me! Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402590 Okay, so my day 1 was amazing! I can't believe that I actually stuck to the plan! Woke up a whole 4 pounds lighter eating low carb! Loving my low carb lifestyle! Can't wait to see the results at the end of the 21 days! Wed, 26 Jun 2013 15:11:49 EST It's Time to Put in the Work! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384711 So as I write this blog, I have been moving since 7 AM, and still haven't gotten my workout in. The good news for me though is that I have stuck to my eating plan for the first time in months! It is time for me to put the work in and finally once and for all lose my weight and begin to help others on a one to one basis! <BR> <BR> The plan is to do Rockin Body at 3:00 PM <BR> <BR> Zumba is going to be great tonight! I can't wait to get my party on with my ladies. <BR> <BR> Then after... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 15:03:29 EST Realization (pics included) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362092 Wow...you know the picture that you have that made you realize you are fat and wanted to change your life? Well, I had that experience all over again. The difference is that it's not my heaviest weight. So, I took these pictures at the gym and was like, oh it's okay. I can work on this, but when I went out on my date Saturday and he took a side picture of me, I almost didn't recognize myself. <BR> <BR> I couldn't believe that I have allowed myself to spiral out of control again. I had a... Mon, 20 May 2013 10:18:15 EST 80's Zumba Night Fun!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357347 On Monday, my co-instructor and I hosted an 80s night themed Zumba class! It was a lot of fun! here a a few pictures that showcase the awesome dress up day! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2121819648.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1270027688.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l858128060.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l726865346.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Fun times! I can't wait to do an... Wed, 15 May 2013 11:29:59 EST It's REALLY time for a change! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339333 So I went through this dramatic transformation this weekend to get back to myself! I had stopped feeling good about myself. I had stopped dressing up for work. I had stopped loving me, so I vowed that this weekend, I would prepare to get back to the me that I love! So this morning, I came to work with my nails and toes done. My blonde hair is back, and I am dressed up and looking and feeling good. <BR> <BR> Last night, as I was grocery shopping, I ran into one of my friends, and we vowe... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 11:05:18 EST Finding My Way Home... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320916 Wow. I've got to get back on my weight loss journey. I feel as though for the last year I have just been complacent where I am! Why? I never reached my goal, but I am not as big as I was before either. It is time to get back to tracking. It is time to get back to exercising. It is time to come back home! Fri, 12 Apr 2013 14:12:55 EST Disturbing Facebook Post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256111 This morning when I woke up to use the restroom, I took a scroll through my facebook newsfeed. I was disturbed by the comments under an image that was posted of a woman breaking out of her old self. Pretty much, it looks like when the Biggest Loser Finalist bust through an image of their old self. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> A lot of negative comments were on the picture. Most of the women were upset because they don't want to be "skinny." I like being BIG was the overall theme of a lot of t... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 11:27:58 EST Best Date Ever! (pics included) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254741 I have really been blessed in regards to meeting another great guy, who is definitely into being active! Yesterday, he took me to the Georgia Aquarium for my Valentine's Date since it was in the middle of the week! I am just lucky to have met him and have him in my life right now. So here's pictures of our journey in Atlanta at Olympic Centennial Park, World of Coke, & the Georgia Aquarium <img s <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l241766233.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 11:04:15 EST February Goals & Starting Point http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233454 It's a new month! I start the month 8 lbs down from my weight in January! So 195 is my February starting weight. Here are the pics. I hate my stomach, but I love the definition beginning in the stomach area on the sides! I must have worked my obliques! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/0/l800277566.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1035243315.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Goals: <BR> 1. Drink 64 ounces of water day! <BR> 2. Do not go over ... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 15:46:24 EST Daddy...I fight for you:) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223184 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1929819273.jpg">Today is a very emotional day for me. On this day 18 years ago, my daddy passed away. This man meant a whole lot to me, and he gave me the best 9 years that he could have given his baby girl. He was and is still my rock, and I wake up every morning and fight my body because of him. On January 25, 1995, my dad passed away from having a massive heart attack. He always had heart problems, and when I started my journey it wa... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 14:14:19 EST Letter to Read After Binge Eating... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221866 Found this on on myfitnesspal... <BR> <BR> <BR> "HOLY ****! I'VE EATEN SO MUCH! IM GOING TO BE OBESE" <BR> I bet you're thinking that. I know I have. But I read this and it put my mind at rest. <BR> <BR> "Ok. <BR> <BR> Stop. <BR> <BR> Take a deep breath and put your thinking cap on. <BR> <BR> I’m going to hit you with some wisdom, ok? <BR> <BR> Take your weight loss calorie goal, and just toss that number out the window. We’re not going to talk about that right now. We’re going t... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 15:46:56 EST Scale-Back Alabama & Veggie Eater? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218439 So today is the weigh-in for the statewide contest Scale back Alabama. When I hopped on the scale today, I was so pissed at myself! 200 pounds? GRRRRR. <BR> <BR> This week I am trying something new. I am done with the meat for a week! Let's see how this goes! <BR> <BR> Starting pics for scale back Alabama are posted below! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l92910816.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1121292079.jpg"> Tue, 22 Jan 2013 10:44:40 EST Another Great Weekend (pics included) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218429 I love being active now! Saturday, I decided to try a different instructor's class. While, it wasn't my favorite instructors class. I ended up having soooo much fun anyways! <BR> <BR> Although Josh and I aren't boyfriend/girlfriend, we still like to hang out. He's become such a big part of my life that it's hard to just give up the fun that I have and choose being lonely and depressed again. Sunday morning we went on a hike and oh boy...we came to a obstacle. To cross the creek or to... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 10:39:51 EST My Own Worst Enemy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210131 I am my own worst enemy. I have to continually remind myself of this all of the time. <BR> <BR> Look at the pictures below. This is what I see when I look at the pictures. <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. I am still fat. <BR> 2. I'm not pretty enough. <BR> 3. This process is on the fourth year, and I am still not at goal. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l394661713.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1218187051.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What I need to r... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 13:53:21 EST I MET a GOAL! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208190 Last night, I was laying in the bed and told myself that I could run without stopping, and if I did I would reward myself with a new Zumba Tank! Well the verdict is...... <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l661524293.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I bought my new tank top!! yay me! Can't wait to wear it to Zumba next week when it comes in the mail! It's fun to do something that I've told myself that I can't do anymore. Tue, 15 Jan 2013 10:58:10 EST Amazing Weekend (Pics included) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206535 So if you read my status updates at all, you know that I was sooo excited about the Glow in the Dark Zumba Party in Columbus, Georgia this weekend! After taking a half-day off of work and driving 2 1/2 hours on Friday, I can definitely say it was worth it! <BR> <BR> This is what it looked like from the stage on the inside of RAM Fitness. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1935871753.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here's the Flow Party Pics! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpe... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 11:24:43 EST I FOUND my SPARK! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188536 I am so happy to say that I have found my spark again! I lost it for an entire 6 months, but now it's back and I am so glad! I just did 40 minutes of Zumba with my students, and now it's off to the bookstore and Starbucks for a little treat, and then I'm off to eat some Chick Fila and back to my favorite instructors Zumba class! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1915588362.jpg"> Thu, 3 Jan 2013 16:17:03 EST 2013 GOALS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178737 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l573322441.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> 2012 was bittersweet! I saw my lowest adult and teen weight! I gained 50 pounds back beyond that! However, 2013 is going to be my year! I am ready to blast this fat and look as good as Jen on my birthday!! Fri, 28 Dec 2012 11:46:16 EST 170 pounds gone forever....(Progress Pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172023 It's been 3 years since I committed to this journey! I am not by any means at my goal weight, but just look at the progress that I have made so far! I'm not the best eater. I don't hit my maximum heart rate everytime I go to the gym. I mess up, but I am still successful. I don't have to hit my goal weight to be a success. I am a success because I lost 1 pound! That being said, it doesn't matter whether you've lost 1 pound or 100 pounds. If you lost a pound, you are a success at your j... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 12:10:45 EST Back On Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5168953 Yes! I made it through the weekend and I am 4 pounds lighter than Friday! I'm really excited to be back to my sweating self. I have upped my calories to 1800, and I am going to set a goal of losing 1 pound a week instead of the FANTASTIC 2! <BR> <BR> I started the 28 day bootcamp program again, and I can't wait to see the results of living right! Good Monday everyone! <BR> <BR> I'm going to plan out the rest of the year and January and do a little Zumba and cook for the first time sin... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 10:14:14 EST Truth Is... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5166601 Truth is...I don't have my relationship with food all figured out. I binge ate yesterday. 3 donuts from Walmart, and a WHOLE ENTIRE CHEESE PIZZA from Little Ceasar's. Was I upset about it last night? Heck yeah, I was upset about it. I was even upset at my 4:30 AM weigh in. I weighed 200 pounds again. <BR> <BR> REALLY? I worked my butt off literally to be at a lowest of 159 this year to gain 41 pounds and be back at 200! This can and will not happen! Today is the day that I take ch... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 15:26:35 EST Another Fantastic Sunday (pics included) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163181 Wow. What a crazy weekend. I ended up going to spend time with the Joshie Sunday which resulted in a pretty amazing day! <BR> <BR> We started the day going on a hike! (What an amazing way to start a date huh? The entire walk was uphill and resulting in an amazing destination called the House of Dreams!) <BR> <BR> Here are some pics of our hike! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l704810819.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l306351958.... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 11:31:58 EST The Start of the Bizzy Plan (pics included) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155829 Here are my before pictures of the third round of the Bizzy Plan:) <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l261951320.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1142558510.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I look forward to seeing this 21 days all the way through! I have had some pretty amazing results on the plan! <BR> <BR> Can't wait to share the end results! Let's get it! Tue, 4 Dec 2012 10:41:43 EST No More Excuses - Pics Included http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5146971 This weekend was awesome. I did not hit my Thanksgiving goal weight, but I had a great Thanksgiving and did some active activities. I have met a new guy, and he is devoted to his body just like I am. He works out everyday and we include some type of physical activity on every date that we go on...Here's a picture of my Joshie! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/8/l488640333.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I have been watching The Biggest Loser Season 13 this weekend too. W... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 10:51:35 EST The Ugly Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5140328 There are many ugly truths that I have had to face in the past couple of days. Some of them aren't even about me, but they are more about the perceptions of other people. It is always easy to look at somebody else's journey and tell them what we perceive they are doing wrong. So here is the ugly truth about my journey. <BR> <BR> 1. I still "cheat." <BR> <BR> Yeah, I know this is supposed to be a lifestyle change, but the one thing that keeps me from binging is knowing that I can eat... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 11:22:36 EST Confession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133885 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l711823171.jpg"> <BR> <BR> See that face? It looks happy, but the truth is for the past 2 months, I have been anything but happy. Yesterday, I made a conscious effort to change this! I went to Zumba, and my instructor was genuinely concerned about my well being. We had an awesome talk before the class and she even let me choose a song for the set list. I had fun sweating! Yesterday is the first day that I have ate right for an entire d... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 10:43:24 EST The Dilemma of the Afternoon Workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5124753 I know that I want to workout today, but I am trying to decide between hitting some machines by doing cardio or going to Zumba class. I haven't been to Zumba in a long time, and I hate dancing. The other part of me just wants to hook up my Wii to the TV and play Just Dance. I could also go to my old gym in my hometown and walk on the treadmill for an hour. DECISIONS, DECISIONS, however; they have to be made! Mon, 5 Nov 2012 11:14:07 EST Why do I not still feel small? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109902 Okay, I have lost almost 200 pounds, but when I look in the mirror I still see the 300 lb version of myself. Does anybody have a remedy for this? I have days when I'm okay with how I look and other days, I am disgusted:( <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l590519240.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l647404486.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1698306964.jpg"> Tue, 23 Oct 2012 12:20:38 EST Am I Comfortable? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5108298 What a crazy weekend. I always screw up my hardwork on the weekends when I go home. My only explanation is that I am putting myself back into the environment that I got fat in. I stayed at my mom's this weekend. I ate fried chicken for the first time in YEARS! I couldn't believe it. Not only did I eat fried chicken. I had several glasses of sugary kool-aid! YUCK! <BR> <BR> I'm concerned with these out of control eating habits. I don't want food to keep dictating my life to me. I de... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 11:10:18 EST Found A New Running Route! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093858 I have moved towns. Yeah, it's just one town over, but the possibilities are endless! Here's a look at my new running route and me of course! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l326587327.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l992728891.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l874517216.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l593293708.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 10:45:52 EST 10 Pounds Gained... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091200 Wow. I have gained 10 pounds in the last week. That's what will happen to you when you aren't tracking and just don't care. <BR> <BR> I stopped drinking water. I stopped working out. I stopped living the lifestyle that I have worked so hard to change. Why? <BR> <BR> Because I don't have it all figured out. I need to stick to what I know and stop getting upset over things I cannot control. <BR> <BR> Here's to finding myself again... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 11:40:01 EST 183 pics! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5073201 Man oh man...183 this morning! Can I please bust into the 170s again this week! Here are my beginning of the week shots! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l286334646.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l654716229.jpg"> Mon, 24 Sep 2012 15:51:59 EST Back At It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063492 Well, I am making small goals to get these last few pounds off. For my next 5 pounds lost, I am going to get a Mani/Pedicure:-) <BR> <BR> I also signed up for a 5K for the month of October so it is time to start running at least 30 minutes every single day. <BR> <BR> Can't wait to hit my goal weight! Mon, 17 Sep 2012 15:39:22 EST I have got to do better! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5055803 Wow. I am still on my journey; however, not blogging for weeks upon a time is not going to cut it for me. I have committed September to making myself happy with life again. I can't believe that I let myself get this miserable with life in general. <BR> <BR> So heres to doing better! <BR> <BR> Positive Things Going On In My Life: <BR> -moved to a new apartment <BR> -Relationship with Christ is back on track! <BR> -Still weigh under 200 pounds <BR> -Comfortably in a size 6/8 <BR> -Starti... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 10:15:29 EST So you think you can't do it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5035860 So many times we look at the amount of weight that we need to lose instead of focusing on the journey itself! I will tell you if I can do it so can you! This is not my complete journey, but here is from my last birthday to this birthday! Size 18 to a Size 6. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l190028212.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Moral of the story? IF I CAN DO IT...SO CAN YOU! Wed, 29 Aug 2012 10:17:09 EST It's Been A While http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5032955 It's been a while since I've felt whole. In fact, I don't even feel whole right now, but I am ready to get up and start picking up the pieces to this thing that I call life. This summer left me feeling desolate. I realize now that the thing that I wanted most with Mike is probably not the best thing for me. Why should I want a guy so bad that it makes me cry at night? The guy that is for me is simple just going to want me. <BR> <BR> I've continued working out. I have continued eating r... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 10:30:23 EST