EBEAMS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EBEAMS EBEAMS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Where'd the weekend go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901962 Wow! This weekend went by way too fast. I had a good time with company that came into town for an overnight stay. I had a good time hanging out with my hubby. Today, we spent time helping the couple that came to stay with us move their son out of his apt. I felt like I got a lot of steps in but my FitBit says no. Oh well ... Tomorrow is another day. <BR> <BR> I've got a busy week ahead and am hoping I can remember everything to get done. Where are my lists??? <BR> <BR> Hope you've ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 22:26:09 EST Time for a nap! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900762 We rolled out of bed this morning at 4 am and were at the Rec Center at 5 when they opened. Yawn ... we got 30 mins in and headed back home. I did 2.5 mins walking and 2.5 mins jogging at a slow pace. That worked better. I was still wore out by the time we started for home but it was good. <BR> <BR> So far today I've completed the grocery shopping, some of the cooking, all of the laundry (to include folded/hung up and put away AND most of my housework. I still need to vacuum but ... it'... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 17:05:48 EST Another week done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900327 I'm currently working a 4-10 shift so Thursdays are usually Friday for me. It was a great relief to clear my desk before leaving this afternoon so I can arrive to an organized, clean work area on Monday. It still feels weird to have an office. <BR> <BR> I didn't go to the Rec Center today but have been fairly active with things that needed to be done. I just almost at 10,000 steps on my FitBit, which will earn me 15 activity points on the wellness website that tracks that. I am plannin... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 22:38:09 EST It's always something ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899624 Today I hauled out of bed at 4 am and went to the Rec Center with my darlin'. He's been working on getting back into running as his schedule allows and he enjoys running in the mornings if he can. I had a flash of inspiration and decided today was my day to start running again. Here's a few things I've pondered on all day long .... <BR> <BR> 1. Yes, it is very hard to breath while you are running. Start slower and run for less time. <BR> 2. Running needs to be a gift to myself, not a ... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 19:13:21 EST Thought for the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898603 I know what food I'm taking but not sure yet about when I'm going to be working out (I should go get dressed right now and go). There's a meeting this evening my hubby and I want to attend, so this evening is out for working out. I could just take my shoes and a pair of socks and walk on my lunch hour ... or I could go right now. I'm attempting to talk myself into getting dressed and heading out into the rain but I'm snuggled up in front of the fireplace, nice and warm and finally getting ... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 06:54:29 EST Another day in the books http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898473 Ugh ... I typed today until my wrists were going numb! Whew ... that was a big bummer! I rarely got out of my chair or even tuned in to what was going on around me. MMMMM ... that's not gonna work! The saving grace was my hubby was still wanting to go to the Rec Center when he got home from work, so off we went. I'm over 11,000 steps on my Fitbit, closed out at 1472 for calories and I'm sleepy. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow ... Tomorrow is another day to try again but for now, I'm content handling... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 22:39:24 EST Great day for a new beginning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897756 Sundays are still very difficult for me. Maybe they always will be. In the time I've been gone (this go around), we suffered another loss in our family. My son and daughter-in-law lost their unborn baby on the day that marked 8 months since our son died and 6 months since my mom passed away. I just don't understand ... I may never ... <BR> <BR> Things are changing in my world again with my husband moving to a new job. His first day is tomorrow. Everything about it great ... almost ...... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 21:03:37 EST I'll keep starting over ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897119 as long as I keep giving up ... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1528808476.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sat, 21 Mar 2015 18:21:26 EST Sure way to kill a good morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866541 The scale ... sigh ... Yes, I'm pouting and I'll admit I am. I haven't weighed for a couple of weeks cuz I want to make sure that I'm not obsessing about the scale and my weight. That said, I climbed on and I was up a pound. <em>28</em> Right after I felt like screaming, then I felt like this <em>46</em> right up until my husband tried to help talk me through being so disappointed and I felt like <em>234</em> except more not happy. <BR> <BR> Now I've had a couple of hours to... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 13:26:31 EST More unscientific fun stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864763 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1960577544.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here's what I'm talking about on the FitBit feedback. I love knowing that I've only burned (approximately) 1900 calories for the day. I know I've been going, going, going and my steps/mileage show that BUT my calories burned show another piece of the puzzle. <BR> <BR> I like graphics ... they help me a TON! Wed, 28 Jan 2015 20:22:24 EST LOVING the FitBit feedback! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863212 I opened up my email today and found this! <BR> <BR> <link>static0.fitbit.com/images/badges_new<BR>/386px/badge_lifetime_miles26_2.png </link> <BR> <BR> It's a "marathon" badge for completing 26.2 miles in steps that have been tracked on my FitBit. Hopefully that works so you can see it. If not, oh well. It was just pretty exciting to me! <BR> Mon, 26 Jan 2015 19:22:04 EST Mulling over counseling again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862605 Today was a rough day. I'm determined that I am going to get the scale moving in the downward direction and I'm finding myself a little grumpy with nothing in particular as thoughts creep into my mind to tempt me. I wonder how long the ol' brain has been tricking me? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2061321219.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have a feeling that the mind has been in control for way longer than I want to even acknowledge. Moving on, today I regressed in my j... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 23:59:22 EST FitBit game changer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861704 Seeing is believing and it's so much easier for me when I can SEE what I'm actually doing! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l699122627.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That was at 11 pm last night and that means I traveled an unscientific 7 miles yesterday during the course of my day. <BR> <BR> This works for me! I went to sleep happy, happy, happy! Sat, 24 Jan 2015 16:55:07 EST Processing ... processing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860821 You know that thing you see on your screen when your computer is loading something and it's taking "forever"? My brain has kind of been doing that as I've been working towards setting goals for the rest of the year and figuring out how to fit my healthy new life style into my very crowded life. The excuse goes like this "I don't have enough time in my day already! How am I going to fit (fill in the blank) in too???!" as I start to rationalize why I can't do this. Ahhh ... mind set ... it ... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 08:18:27 EST Dreamed about Mom last night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858963 I had the best thing happen last night ... well, actually just before I woke up this morning. I was in this weird dream where I was in a camping environment but I don't know that I was necessarily camping. Things were very disorganized and people didn't care. I was going from here to there and all over, trying to get things organized and trying to meet the needs of the people who were there. Finally, I had gone into the bathroom by myself and (even weirder) was watching a teeny tiny turtl... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 19:06:37 EST Food and me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857622 Wanna find out how dysfunctional your relationship with food is??? Schedule a fasting blood lab! I'm up at 2 am in the morning and already thinking about how I'm going to "make it" til probably around 11 am without eating. <BR> <BR> It's times like these when I have those tiny break throughs that give me the most insight into myself. I'm obsessed with food ... with when I'm eating again. I'm addicted to sugar and processed foods, although my heart longs to not be. In one part of my mi... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 04:47:52 EST Made quick pickles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857432 ... sort of. I snagged a recipe out of the paper about 3 weeks ago for making "quick pickle" radishes and carrots. I got most of the stuff I needed last week and the final ingredients on Friday. So, tonight I figured I was just going to go for it! I cut the recipe in half since I have no idea if I will like the carrots and radishes ... first mistake. It says at the end to fill the jar with enough liquid to cover the veggies - Nope, can't do that. <BR> <BR> Oh well ... you live and lea... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 21:21:53 EST Week in review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856459 This is the ever evolving inspiration wall in my bedroom. It's the second thing I see in the morning. It keeps me focused on what my short term goals are for 7 days at a time AND I keep bits and pieces of wisdom that speak to my heart to stay in touch with my emotions. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1535478300.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The stars are my goals for the week. This week, they were: <BR> <BR> Log into Spark People <BR> Exercise x 3 <BR> Drink Water <BR> B... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 13:21:28 EST Day 16 of plank challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856086 Whew ... Day 16 is 2 minutes! I didn't think it was bad at all but last night at 1.5 minutes, I thought that was torturous. Goes to show how each and every day is individual and, really, is a snapshot of where you are RIGHT now. Tomorrow will be different, yesterday was different. Yeah, one bad day can't be the end of the fight. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow morning it's a run with my hubby and Sunday we're planning on some racquetball. Other than that, I need to get my nose in my computer and de... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 22:13:35 EST Random things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854639 Here's the plank challenge we've been doing. We are at day #14. Whew! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/5/l251818712.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here's my motivation for 2015: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/5/l557423818.jpg"> <BR> I posted this same thing the other day but it wasn't very clear. I think I've decided to break these items down to one a month. During the month, I want to work on introducing these principles fully into my day to day life. I thi... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 22:09:22 EST Found it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853072 I love this! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l609750087.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And this one: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l644203590.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I watched Sick, Fat and Nearly Dead 2 last night and I was stunned to hear the statistic that we are bombarded with about 200 food choices every day but we are only aware of about 30-40 of them. Oh ... my ... goodness! Listening to them talk about how the thought process happens in the brain... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 22:10:17 EST Little steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852195 It's been an interesting day in my brain today. For the first time in a very long time, Sunday wasn't depressing. Today I did several things that made me feel good. I heard a wonderful sermon and thought on how blessed I am to have my faith, my rock, my safe place to be when things don't make sense or are hurting my soul. I also did something new for exercise. I haven't played racquetball in probably 15 years. I used to be kind of good at it. I used to really enjoy playing. Today my h... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 21:58:14 EST Tools for success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851323 Here's the tools I've put in my tool box to help me succeed: <BR> <BR> My mission statement for 2015 - Respect who I am RIGHT NOW and move towards my goals. (Sorry it's hard to read. I'll repost it tomorrow with all the verbiage.) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1123906223.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Christmas gift for son: Gotta learn how to use this thing! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l493194317.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Love for my feet! Alw... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 20:36:08 EST Focusing on positives http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850620 Today I accomplished at least one thing that I have been wanting to tackle ... sorting out all the ribbons, bows, gift bags and wrapping paper that gets to be such a HUGE mess every Christmas. I troll Pinterest on a VERY regular basis (much to my sweet hubby's chagrin) and I work very hard to use the really great ideas that other people have already tried -- especially for organizing. <BR> <BR> A few days ago, I found this great Pin for organizing the wrapping stuff. There are lots but t... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 21:01:27 EST Glad it's my Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849756 Whew! This was a long week! I so enjoyed my time off from the office. I worked some from home but going back to full immersion was ... WOW. I might need another week to acclimate again! <BR> <BR> Good news! I'm on track to meet and exceed my goals for my fitness minutes and calories burned for this week! Woohoo ... and I stepped on the scale this morning and was down 1.6 lbs. It's not much but it's my party and it doesn't take much to make me happy! I was also super happy to have no ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 20:08:34 EST Today ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848998 Today it was a difficult day for personal reasons that had nothing to do with my work. It was just ... hard. One of the parts I was startled by was when I had a skin damage screening done and the health care lady told me I have some damage on my nose, under my eyes, on my cheeks and that I already have "patching" on my forehead. I know next to nothing about skin damage. I will be researching it ... and figuring out if I need to contact a dermatologist ... and ... my spirit is just tired. ... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 21:31:43 EST Today was a blah day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847974 I just typed out my whole negative blog and deleted for good stress relief. Hope you had a wonderful day!!! <em>334</em> Tue, 6 Jan 2015 19:50:51 EST Making food for a week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846967 Side note first: I got settled into my desk this morning and it hit me like a tidal wave. I was having a very intense craving for candy. Because I'm working hard on feeling emotions as they come, it took me by surprise how strong the urge to find and consume candy was. I am hoping it is residual from all the holiday goodies AND the fact I left my breakfast at home, which me my brain THINK I was going to starve ... but I already had back up. I wish I could say it helped but it didn't! ... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 19:46:19 EST Planning for success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845436 So, Week 1 is in the bag (so to speak) and it's been a good time of transition. It wasn't stress free, it wasn't perfect but it was good. I was sitting in my recliner last night, flexing my ankles when my husband asked me if I had a cramp. I told him "No, it just hurts but it hurts in a good way that makes me happy". I like happy .... <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Some of the small changes I've added in this week are so simple it makes me smile to just think about them. Instead of starting... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 09:17:49 EST Great start to the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844985 My hubby and I went to the Rec Center again this morning first thing. It was Day 2 of a 30 day plank challenge and, right now, that was easy. 20 seconds - no sweat. However, it was after we did Day 1 of a Couch 2 5K running program after our new Garmin Forerunner 10 watches (that we got for Christmas from our son) would NOT find our location so we could use those instead. It was pretty frustrating and almost de-railed the whole thing BUT we figured out a work around instead. <BR> <BR> To... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 18:18:08 EST What if ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843810 My husband and I started our day off at the local Rec Center, thanks to the generosity of our soldier son. Caleb purchased a punch pass for the Rec Center when he got here in early December and then promptly got completely distracted by a lovely young woman who took up all of his time. When he wasn't with her, he was waiting for her to get off work. So, hubby and I are the proud owner of his punch pass that still has 18 visits on it ... or it did before we went over there this morning! ... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 11:43:57 EST Happy Day #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842829 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1393181730.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This morning I bit the bullet and stepped on the scale. Minor victory there IF you go by the oft repeated mantra that when people gain weight back, they always end up gaining what they lost and then some. I did not. I am 12 lbs under what I started at when I first signed up for SparkPeople several years ago. Does that mean I'm happy about it? No ... but I was really scared to get on the scale. <BR> <BR> This... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 12:39:15 EST 2014 in the rear view mirror (very long) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841772 I was laying in bed early this morning thinking about the past 12 months. Wow ... what a difference 365 days can make. I feel like this was a decade, not a year and I am desperately ready to be D-O-N-E! Here's the story of 2014 ... <BR> <BR> January - My mom had 2 weeks of radiation for throat cancer. It just about killed her. My mom was one of the strongest women I've met - and I don't mean just physically. When I was young, I remember watching my mom push cows around in the barn whe... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 08:42:16 EST Not what you are expecting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841581 I was going to blog on the personality test that my hubby and I took but I found something I'm more interested in to blog about. I'd much rather tell you about my adventures today. <BR> <BR> I started off my day with my yummy veggie/fruit smoothie on my way to breakfast with my girlfriend from high school. We hadn't seen each other for a week or so and it's always uplifting to talk with her. Because I had just downed my smoothie on the way to breakfast, I ordered some yogurt and granola b... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 22:28:46 EST What a difference attitude makes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840413 Yesterday was a good day. I paid attention to what I was eating and drank more water than I have been. I want to invest in a good water bottle that I love to encourage myself to drink, drink, drink. I have my eye on a really pretty glass one. Maybe today I'll order it! <BR> <BR> Anyway, I ended up getting dressed to "go out" yesterday afternoon and noticed that one of my rings is already easier to slide on my finger. I'm not saying that miraculously I lost a bunch of weight over the pas... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 08:55:45 EST Balancing between UGH and Ohhhh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839697 Ugh - The holidays have been very difficult on too many levels to explain. Plus, who wants to ... suffice to say that the highlight of my holiday season was having our soldier boy home. He got back from Afghanistan in mid-November and arrived here at home on December 5th. Like usual, we don't see much of him but it's nice to get a hug about once a day at least! <BR> <BR> Ohhhh - I did finally schedule some time off work. I don't go back until Jan 5th. During the first part of my vacatio... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 06:44:53 EST I can ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810215 I tell myself that a lot ... "I can ... ". Sometimes it helps me get with the program and sometimes I'm saying one thing while my brain is totally calling me a liar. Quitting isn't easy, starting isn't easy ... good thing Mama always said "Life isn't fair or easy". She was pretty smart. <BR> <BR> So .. Day 1 again ... kind of like people who claim to be 25 years old for 25 more years. I guess it all equals out in the end! <em>211</em> Mon, 3 Nov 2014 19:12:56 EST Grief is sneaky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806293 Usually Sunday is my tough day to get through but this morning I was laying in bed, waiting for gal I'm sharing the hotel room with to wake up, and my mom floated into my mind. Instead of the really harsh, sickening memories of her passing that I've been grappling with, this morning it was the soft, sweet memories of small snatches of conversations, kisses on the forehead, long talks and smiles that have to last the rest of my life. <BR> <BR> Another stage of grief, I suppose. This one s... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 11:27:52 EST Had fun today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806056 Started this morning out with a walk in the very chilly dark. Good walk ... Had a good day of training even though not all of it makes sense yet. Even at that, at least I understood some of it when it came to the areas that I'm most familiar with. Then, after we were out for the day, my co-worker and I drove about 10 miles to Deception Pass to take some pictures and enjoy the beautiful area! We got in a second hike down to the water and watched a seal playing just off the shore. I think ... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 23:57:16 EST More training http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804928 Long drive ahead for today. I'm heading to the Whidbey Island area of Washington. Got my day started with a great healthy breakfast, have healthy snacks and water for the ride AND planning to have a simple chicken salad while on the road. One day at a time ... one decision at a time! <BR> <BR> Keep me in your prayers for traveling mercies and for the Sunday blues to be short and on the sweet side today! Sun, 26 Oct 2014 08:57:41 EST Howdy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804759 It's been a long, long journey but I think I'm starting to level out again. I think the past 2 years have broken just about every single belief I had about myself but not my faith in God. I think the path to being put back together has been hard. It's been humbling, it's been exhausting, it's been sad ... Through it all, I've clung to the truth that God loves me and promises He won't give me more than I can handle. Tomorrow will be 7 weeks since my mom got promoted to Glory, 15 weeks sin... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 22:41:33 EST Sundays ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800948 I am still in the stage where I measure my losses by weeks ... and Sunday is the day Allen and Mom passed away ... Sundays are hard for me. <em>51</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Sun, 19 Oct 2014 15:23:48 EST Last week in Salt Lake City http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793863 I had a great time learning last week in Salt Lake. The conference was 4 days of work related classes and fun. I was delighted to get my records administration certification after having to take the test twice. I'm such an over achiever that I beat myself up LOTS between when I didn't pass the first time (I FAILED!) and when I took the test the second time. Humbling but good for me. <BR> <BR> Our keynote speaker was Jeff Skiles who was the co-pilot for the plane that crash landed in the ... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 07:16:51 EST What a day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787617 LOL ... thankfully my good mood continued into today even through my sleep last night wasn't as great. It was still okay. I feel like I got good, deep sleep until my darlin' got up during the night ... Yawn. <BR> <BR> Today was one of those days where all day long you are just kind of going from train wreck to train wreck with a smile plastered on while you tell yourself "This, too, shall pass". The capper was my sister-in-law calling to tell me that they are not going to be able to get... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 22:41:12 EST Mental changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787033 It's very interesting to me that just starting back running I already feel better. I feel like my posture is better, my core tighter and my attitude is brighter! It helps that I got 7 hours of straight sleep last night which is more than I've gotten in a long, long time. Amazing how much sleep helps. I've never been a good sleeper but wow, what a difference a good night's sleep can make. <BR> <BR> Today I had a great day at work. Honest! I walked a few blocks to a lunch date, went up a... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 22:00:28 EST Day 3 of getting back to running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785741 So ... it's not as hard to get back to as I thought it would be but ... it's not what it used to be either. Interval running right now, every other day, at a pretty slow pace is keeping my knees happy. Nothing hurts overly much after any of my runs. I'm thankful. <BR> <BR> Tue, 23 Sep 2014 21:25:39 EST Slowly ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784198 I'm working on finding a balance to everything on my plate right now. I find it humorous in an objective way that having more free time is causing me more problems right now than when I had too much to do and not enough time. The difference (in my opinion) is the amount of emotional and mental stress that has been lifted away. Processing through the grief, especially when I am in two different points in grieving, is hard enough. Add all of the other STUFF and I'm kind of mentally shorting... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 17:37:59 EST Friday, Friday, Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783071 Happy Friday, my friends ... Hope you have a fabulous weekend planned! Fri, 19 Sep 2014 16:06:42 EST More training ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781419 Today promises to be a long day with a different class today followed by a meeting. The meeting is my first one with the whole crew of ladies that I supervise. The intent when I planned it was to give them a little insight to who I am and how I operate. I intended to whip up a PowerPoint, use some hand-outs and a little humor and win them over with short term and long term goals for our division. Now, I just want to spend a few minutes laying out my work history for them, my expectations ... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 07:04:19 EST Reality can't wait http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780779 I got about 3 (maybe) hours of sleep last night. Today I'm headed back to my real life ... sort of. I'm going to some training that finding was the equivelent of finding the golden ticket in Charley and the Chocolate Factory. I don't want to go. I feel like I'm taking deep, gulping lungs full of air and still can't breathe. <BR> <BR> My preference would be to crawl back into bed and pull the covers over my head. My reality is that I'll meet my walking buddy for a nice, brisk, wet walk... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 07:06:27 EST