EBEAMS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EBEAMS EBEAMS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What I've been up to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6368013 Been a long time since I've been on SparkPeople. Heck, it's been a long time since I cared to even try and think about my ever growing waistline. I really just didn't care ... until March when I stepped on the scale at the doctor's office and she slid it all the way over to the right on the 150 setting ... and the lever didn't budge. She put it on the 200 slot and tapped it over to 209 lbs. I wanted to bursting tears. I have never weighed over 200 lbs. I vividly remember crying when I w... Mon, 29 May 2017 09:16:21 EST Oh mama ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264668 So ... yesterday totally did NOT go the way I planned it! I decided I'd do a work out in my hotel room yesterday morning. Great thought followed by my next thought of "I'm pretty sure this is going to kill me". Nope ... here today. Hurried around and got out of the hotel early so I could grab some breakfast and hit Walmart to see if I could buy a replacement cord for my work laptop ... yeah, I left mine at home. Headed out to the agency and arrived to find nobody there for class. My b... Thu, 10 Nov 2016 06:44:15 EST Today's plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264164 1. Drink water - all my water 2. Grilled chicken salad for lunch 3. Track food 4. Get up and move around as much as possible. 5. Smile! Wed, 9 Nov 2016 03:41:12 EST Long day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264064 Long drive to the North East today. It rained quite a bit of the way but it wasn't a bad drive. I used some of the time to get my thoughts organized. I'm all over the place mentally right now. I teach tomorrow and Thursday, then head home to do the "100 yard dash" to make sure everything is ready when my boys and grand babies get here next week!!! I would have never imagined they would all be here for our first major holiday since we moved. It's mind boggling! I remembered to track my ... Tue, 8 Nov 2016 21:37:49 EST Steps to success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6263101 That's part of my focus today. What do I need to have in place to be successful and intentional on this course. A daily list would be handy for awhile. Maybe post it on my bedroom wall for when I'm home and then set a reminder in my phone to read it every morning when I'm on my phone? Maybe .... I am going to set my FitBit again to give me an alarm every hour or two to get up and move around. Let's see ... take my vitamins, meds daily, drinking water and tracking food. I think those wi... Mon, 7 Nov 2016 05:15:26 EST A long update on my story ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6262646 Have you heard of the semi colon movement? <BR> <BR> "The Semicolon Movement - “The semicolon is used when a sentence could have ended, but didn't” . It helps serve a a reminder that your sentence doesn't have to end, and you don’t have to end it. Your sentence is not over. Keep living and join the movement." <BR> <BR> I love the semi-colon theory and I've decided to apply it to my current place in my Life. If you are an "old" Spark friend, you'll notice I revamped my Spark Page and clea... Sun, 6 Nov 2016 07:09:17 EST Busy day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6167700 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/1c26f797-582e-40e6-ba08-bae4638ca96a.jpg"> I accomplished much today but still had time to kill about doing nothing for a little while. That's a good day! I buttoned up all my work related stuff from last week and have the stuff for next week's trip started. I like organization! It makes me feel less anxiety. I really just need to pack my suitcase but the clothes are all ready to go! I decided to make 2 bean chicken chili for lunch. I wa... Sat, 21 May 2016 18:15:03 EST First week went okay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6166710 Day 1 was busy with flying and good food choices. Day 2 and 3 had good exercise AND good food choices. Yesterday was no exercise and I ate fried food for lunch and dinner. That gave me a good reminder this morning that fried food makes my stomach hurt and it makes me feel really bloated. I don't like the tummy extension ... :( So, good reminder of why I honor my body with good food. The couple of days that I got good exercise served to remind me of how cool it is to feel my muscle bei... Fri, 20 May 2016 05:43:54 EST Looking for advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163221 I'm looking for advice on how to construct a daily routine that will work for me while I'm home being a home maker or on the road. I am (currently) so overwhelmed by everything that needs to be done to get our home in order (we moved in April 22nd after moving across the country) and unsure about how to successfully navigate the transition from working 50+ hours a week to being a (mostly) stay-at-home wife. We have no children at home and my husband works full time. I'm struggling here ...... Sun, 15 May 2016 06:52:17 EST Chaos ... my comfort zone ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6160795 I'm just going to admit it. I feel the most productive in my life when everything is completely ticking along at lightening speed with no relief in sight. I'm guessing that comes from years of working in a high pressure work environment where there isn't room for error. Living here has been quite an adjustment already. I am struggling to adapt to the slower pace of life and the fact that I am just different. Sometimes the conversations get pretty funny because I know what I'm thinking an... Wed, 11 May 2016 11:48:51 EST It was a good day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155814 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/dc1eae88-337b-4624-a00b-82ae64ac65ec.jpg"> Hubby and I both got official job offers from the places we both want to work for ... With in the same 24 hour period! Talk about uplifting and motivating! :) That takes the cake! All of a sudden, it's easy to not eat much cuz we have 400 hundred things that just "have to be done". Hubby starts work on Minday and my first foray will be on May 16th. My job is solely instructing and assisting. I... Tue, 3 May 2016 21:04:19 EST Starting to calm down a little http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6153812 Shu-wee .... this move has been a butt kicker. Thankfully, we're past the "Where the heck is __________?" (you fill in the blank cuz we couldn't find ANYTHING that wasn't packed in the car with us for the past two weeks. I thought I'd done a great job of keeping an inventory of what I packed in the boxes but it's hard to list every. single. little. thing! :) Don't let me mislead you - I have a lot of boxes still left to unpack but I think the basics are pretty much covered! We've found t... Sun, 1 May 2016 06:55:49 EST What a day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151766 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2d16cd93-4462-4868-9a09-c83357f0fe73.jpg"> Mercy, it can rain buckets here in KY in no time at all! Wow. It's very ... wet. It's rained almost all day which makes it rather interesting! I spent the day emptying more boxes and foing more re-arranging in the kitchen to make things fit. I've thinned down our belongings every time we've moved! I have no idea how we still own so much stuff!!! I was at Lowe's today and picked up more paint chi... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 22:18:46 EST Getting in shape ... by moving! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151025 Oh. My. Goodness! The new house is forcing us to be more active and moving in is DEFINITELY getting us going, going, going! I've had over 12,000 steps a couple of times in the last week. Today will be my "slacker" day and I'm almost to 10,000 steps. In addition to the walking, my stair climbing that is tracked on my FitBit has hugely increased ... and I'm sleeping really well for at least 6 hours a night. That has been AWESOME! <BR> <BR> I posted a blog about some of the things that hav... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 21:29:06 EST The http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6146203 Not our move but ... well, we're pretty good (read: experienced) at the whole packing up and moving it out process. Yesterday we spent a good part of the day helping the folks that are moving out of the house we're moving into. It's my hubby's cousin and wife, so it's family. I haven't decided if that means I'm way more nervous with all the plans I have for the house or not. I almost feel like I'm criticizing them but I'm not! HONEST! The good thing about the moving, moving, moving is... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 06:04:27 EST Thanks for the encouragement! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6145329 This blog entry could be titled "Motivation has arrived". It's one of those blogs where several things could be the subject matter. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I blogged that I wasn't sure whether or not I wanted to pursue going back to work or not. To be honest, my self confidence is still a tad low and putting myself out there is scary. That said, there is a company that I've been waiting to call me that I want to work for. I've been waiting for the call for weeks. Frankly, I'd almost given u... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 23:08:35 EST Passed on the cookies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6144301 After lunch today, our hostess popped Hershey's Ultimate Chocolate Chip cookies into the oven and baked up a batch. Lunch was stew and cornbread - both which were delicious! I am giving myself a high 5 for passing on the fresh baked cookies. I can't say what the rest of my day will bring but I'm 2/3 done with today and my eating/water intake has been great! <BR> <BR> Today starts a really busy week for us. I'm praying in earnest about what it is that I am supposed to do. I'm not sure wh... Sun, 17 Apr 2016 15:43:51 EST What a difference a night's sleep can make http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6143733 I didn't even rest well but this morning while I was in the half in/half out of it state of resting, the thought spoke very clearly into my mind that I needed to just throw away the packages of treats that are open and "call" to me. <BR> <BR> See ... our incredible real estate agent knew we were heading across country on a long trip. Usually she buys her clients a great house plant for their new house but that wouldn't have worked for us. Instead, she gave us a Thirty-One bag stuffed full ... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 19:04:52 EST I'm a doer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6143162 Being a doer is a blessing and somewhat of a curse, all at the same time. I can procrastinate sometimes, depending on what the task ahead is and if I have a clear vision of what the task should be. Right now, my personal vision is to get in our house and get started with deciding how our current furnishing are going to work in that space AND what type of painting and etc I want to do. Waiting another week seems like another life time ... <BR> <BR> Being at my husband's grandma's house ha... Fri, 15 Apr 2016 21:30:23 EST Nothing interesting today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6142406 We did make it to my husband's appointment on time ... LOL ... we are in a part of KY where some of the State is in one time zone and one is in another. We left in plenty of time to make the drive and find the place ... BUT the VA clinic just happens to be in the other time zone, which means it's an hour behind us. We laughed about it. What else can you do? <BR> <BR> Spent some time outside today working on cleaning out flower beds at my husband's grandma's house. I think I'm still havin... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 18:49:15 EST Another day ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6141708 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/451fc4b2-17e0-4731-9f80-d4ab9d8eb602.jpg"> <BR> It was a little chilly this morning but we went out any way. We made 1.3 miles this morning but no running. :( I put on the wrong shoes before I left the house and refused to go back in and change them. I should have listened to my husband, who said just change them! Now I have a blister on the bottom of the heel of my left foot. :( No walking or running tomorrow. Turns out that hubby has ... Wed, 13 Apr 2016 19:57:39 EST Another day done ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6141021 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/44e7cdfb-7418-45be-9829-98f3e36d6b00.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I found this yesterday on Pinterest and I really identified with the simple message that it gives ... It is much better to focus on the "what" than it is to focus on the end result. That might not work for other people but it works for me. I think I wrote in one of my other blogs that I saw something that said "Every time you overeat, you are telling yourself it's ok to be uncomfortable". ... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 21:11:19 EST Team Beams restart! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6139707 We're here. We finished up our road trip last Thursday and have spent the past few days doing the family circle and seeing everyone. Today, they all go back to work and we are kind of on our own. We kicked off this cloudy morning with a short walk (30 mins) and a breakfast that is tracked already. <BR> <BR> Starting over always stinks ... but I saw something the other day that said something to the effect that every time you overeat, you are telling yourself that it's ok that you are unco... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 08:44:04 EST Made 10,000 steps 2 days in a row http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6135360 Woohoo - I got really excited about that last night. Frankly, it's hard to get steps in when you are sitting on your bum for HOURS every single day. Side note: you can learn a lot about a State by the effort they put into their rest stops! <em>211</em> I worked on drinking more water yesterday too. We saw LOTS of rest areas! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a great day of sightseeing in the Badlands National Park. Tim stopped for me several time because I just "had" to tak... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 08:22:13 EST Traveling across the US http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6134557 I'm still here ... except in a totally different "here" in so many ways. We're currently in S. Dakota. We left Idaho on April 2nd and are headed East to start over again. We're traveling by car and taking our time. The trip has been wonderful! It's been a good space ... a vacuum, if you will, to shake off the negative and start planning for the "next". <BR> <BR> Yesterday we checked off one of the things on my grown up bucket list ... We visited Mt. Rushmore and Crazy Horse Mountain. ... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 09:03:04 EST Lots of changes ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6127633 Life is certainly unexpected, isn't it??? When I last blogged, I was already in the midst of what would be one of the most life changing events of my entire adult life. Our agency got a new Chief on January 7th. With new leadership comes new expectations, power shifts ... and unexpected complications. In early February, my direct supervisor launched an "internal inquiry" on me in response to complaints that I was creating a hostile work environment and harassing my subordinates, although ... Fri, 25 Mar 2016 21:14:48 EST ... and then it changes again ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6102339 Meet our sweet baby grandson who arrived this morning! He was 9 lbs 3 oz. His mom is really glad to be done! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5c1bb84d-43bf-439c-a51a-fe230121018a.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I already love hearing my hubby call him "feller" ... Too cute! :) Mon, 22 Feb 2016 20:01:08 EST Change ... the only constant thing in Life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6099736 I'm stuck between here ... <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9f1363b9-93e7-4623-a1ad-7dfb0edc85b5.jpg"> <BR> <BR> and here ... <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/89d5441a-8f1d-4368-96b3-822bdea048d4.JPG"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 19 Feb 2016 10:24:34 EST Moonlighting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6074964 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/98f54359-e44b-4b9a-b054-3b53535fb5f7.JPG"> <BR> I worked late last night at my second "job". I call it that but it's really what I do for fun ... most days! I guess I should call it my "calling". I wouldn't give up my day job to do it all the time again but I love still having my fingers in dispatching, so to speak. I love pouring into the next generation and knowing that I'm doing something that will make a difference for the rest of someo... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 22:40:22 EST Oh dear ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6073002 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a83199a9-cd80-4f8d-86c2-6190c94a15aa.JPG"> <BR> Started out my day with a dentist appointment to get a that tooth that's been paining me on the path to being fixed up. You know the saying "Be careful what you wish for."??? That was me today. I came home, took Ibuprofen and conked out for a few hours to sleep off the pain. I know this is really hard for anyone who knows me well to believe but I have a little mouth. Honest! The said tooth i... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 19:09:04 EST Brand new week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6071768 Ahhh .... the baby shower is finally done! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9e213b2d-2b64-48f5-b11a-4cc60bf6e332.JPG"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c2c8769a-1d65-449c-9aff-9feda7dfcc02.JPG"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9d2957a7-a6a3-4abe-857f-87261be8ef8f.JPG"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/fb1020a6-3de1-482e-8887-9e3a2c567ffd.JPG"> <BR> <BR> I made/crafted everything but the cake and cupcak... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 12:16:42 EST Happy Monday to me ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6067494 (Disclaimer: I have no idea why my photos load sideways ... Sorry!) <BR> <BR> Yes, I know that it is Tuesday but it's my work week Monday ... so there you have it. Thanks for those who commented on my blog on Sunday. Not long after I finished that blog, I got up and started working on stuff that needed to be done. Yesterday, hubby and I load up the trunk of my car and made a trip to the Youth Ranch to donate. Two things were at play there ... I've finally seen the hoarder TV show AND my... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 09:36:43 EST No motivation today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6065765 I have about a billion things that I should get accomplished today but I'm tired. I started going through some stuff this morning to get things organized better (My sister is coming to stay with me this weekend for the baby shower. That means the house needs to be "right".) I cleaned off and organized a set of shelves in my dining room, cleaned out and organized my pantry and got the guest room bed uncovered from the shambles of Christmas past and the Christmas coming in February when my s... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 12:37:17 EST Glad it's the weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6064404 I have been running around like crazy all day long. I worked on (and completed) a couple of projects, then made some good progress on other things that would have slipped through the cracks without some follow up. Bless the people I work with ... I think they dread seeing me show up at their desk. I find I get much better results if I talk with them face-to-face rather than call or email. I'm hard to ignore! :) <BR> <BR> I didn't realize that I haven't eaten very many calories today unt... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 22:00:46 EST I have a story to share ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6063491 You know how you are always hearing that we "plant seeds" today that we may not ever get to harvest? We plant, someone else might water and someone else might harvest? This is a story about that. <BR> <BR> Last year I was approached completely out of the blue by a guy I used to work with years ago to come work with him in a part time capacity. I had no idea why he asked me and never really thought about it until Tuesday night when we were talking before I taught a short class. <BR> <B... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 20:54:50 EST Good day overall ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062552 but, man, was I grumpy. Probably no one else noticed but I did. I was grumpy in my thoughts and my spirits. I was awake from 2 am til 4 am this morning and then fell asleep until 6 am. When I woke up, I was groggy and just felt drug out. I haven't even really felt excited about finally weighing and finding out I lost 3 pounds. <BR> <BR> That said, my eating was good today and I got some exercise worked in by dropping my car off to get new tires on it. I walked back to work --- well, ... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 21:41:06 EST I'm tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061595 We kicked off today with a run. 4:20 am is really early to get up so you can go for a run ... but it's the best investment of my day! I should go to boot camp tomorrow morning but I'm going to see how I feel in the morning. I'm exhausted tonight. I worked all day and then went over and taught a class. All in all it was an okay day but things are still really messy in that one part of my life and that is bothersome to me. I like order. I like predictability. I suppose this is a good te... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 22:18:40 EST Struggling with emotional eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6060500 I have an area in my life right now that is very chaotic. I am like everyone else ... I'm not a huge fan of change and my first reaction is to hunker down and just hide. Sometimes you can't do that. I like it much better when I can but sometimes it just doesn't work out that way. <BR> <BR> Earlier this evening I was prowling the house when my 4 year old inside started wanting chocolate. I couldn't find my husband's stash and I couldn't bring myself to eat the Christmas candy that I saved... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 21:30:45 EST Home again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6059497 It's always nice to go somewhere for a quick break from your own reality. It's even nicer to come back home! :) The bonus of this quick trip was the mattress we slept on last night was phenomenal. We actually took the sheets off this morning to find out what it is. It was heavenly. Guess what we're looking for now ... ??? You got it! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is back to work for a half day since my part time job is cracking up again this week. Yawn ... I think I'd better hit the sack. Even... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 23:33:47 EST The Year of Eda http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6057203 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e0a17ae8-5236-4c70-86e6-f34c2a0a3bc4.JPG"> <BR> <BR> 2016 is going to be a much different year for me. I started over again sometime in November and December ended up being a pretty good month, even through it was very difficult to stay engaged about the holidays. <BR> <BR> Here's what my month looked like on paper. Every day with a "G" on it and the day outlined means I met ALL of my daily goals of taking my vitamins, getting however man... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 17:24:53 EST Looking to set goals for 2016 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6053368 I finally let my hubby in on the fact that 2016 is going to be "The Year of Eda". He was confused at first but caught on right away. I am so very blessed to have such a wonderfully supportive husband who wants whatever I want for myself. If I am content to do nothing, he is content with that as well. If I'm wanting to do a 1/2 marathon, he wants to do it with me. He's such an amazing friend. <BR> <BR> That said, I need to ensure that my goals for 2016 are for myself and that I am dedic... Sun, 27 Dec 2015 11:48:25 EST Made it through Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6053040 Thank you ALL for the Christmas wishes. I appreciate it. Honestly, I don't know when Christmas will be better for me but, for now, I'm happy to make it through that Season without a breakdown. Crying doesn't count as breaking down - not in my book. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I took off my FitBit and just let myself have a day without the pressure to ensure everything was dress-right-dress. I took two naps on the couch yesterday ... and both of the Christmas stop overs went good. My granddaug... Sat, 26 Dec 2015 19:01:36 EST She did it again this morning! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6052232 My hubby and I headed out bright and early to go run at the Rec Center. It was lightly snowing and not even 5 am as we drove away from our very warm, comfy bed. Today was Week 2, Day 1 of the C25K program we are doing. It's been a little frustrating for us to try and get all the "moving" parts of using that app for the intervals for running/walking and a different app for music to help keep a steady pace. One of us is always starting the wrong one first. We haven't figured out which one ... Thu, 24 Dec 2015 19:09:17 EST The power of a compliment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6051604 I woke up around 1 am and was hungry! I haven't ever had that happen before as far as I can remember. I wake up thirsty sometimes but I don't remember waking up hungry. I got up and had some almonds and a banana while I wasted 2 hours of my sleeping time trolling Facebook while I couldn't sleep. I dragged back into bed around 2:45 and just laid there listening to my sweet hubby snoring. Bless his heart, I kept poking him to get him to re-adjust until I fell back to sleep! <em>334</em>... Wed, 23 Dec 2015 09:36:33 EST Not much going on ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6051426 I'm staying on track with my goal to clean one area of my house every day that I'm off. Today was the master bathroom. I don't know why but it makes my heart happy when the master bathroom sparkles. OH, and I've got all the clothes actually hung up or put away ... that's an accomplishment for me! <BR> <BR> Finished Week 1 of C25K early this morning with my hubby! Then it was breakfast with a friend before jetting around the County to deliver edible gifts that I didn't want to linger in t... Tue, 22 Dec 2015 22:50:16 EST Searching for joy in Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6050609 I woke up this morning with a very clear thought in my mind that I am searching for the joy of Christmas. I think that thought process was started by my Spark buddy, ONEKIDSMOM, who blogged a couple of days ago about the "spirits" of Christmas. Her blog touched a part of me that I wasn't aware was there. I always struggle at Christmas with emotions that stretch as far back in my past as I can remember. Right now ... today ... it's messy and a bit sad ... <BR> <BR> The spirit of Christma... Mon, 21 Dec 2015 09:20:46 EST Yes, I survived yesterday ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6050286 ... and no, it wasn't pretty. That said, today is a new day. I'm tracking my calories. I've went for a run. I've drank 7 of my 8 servings of water for the day. I'll go take my vitamins when I'm done here. Heart may still be hurting but my brain is actively engaged to make this the best day I can. <BR> <BR> I'm doing good as far as how the Christmas prep is going. I only have the stocking gifts still to wrap and the stockings to put together. The gifts are all wrapped but I need to pu... Sun, 20 Dec 2015 15:10:50 EST Missing our son ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6049796 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0236e491-3ea5-4eef-ab03-e084f9a8005a.JPG"> <BR> <BR> Our son, Allen, would have been 25 years old today. He would have been cocky, funny and frustrating as he strutted around and proclaimed he was "the man". I still miss him every day. There's a hole in our family that will always be there ... <BR> <BR> Hug the ones you love, whether you like them right now or not. Tomorrow is never promised ... Sat, 19 Dec 2015 12:41:57 EST Best husband ever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6049561 This evening my darlin' and I got ready to head out to a party I was supposed to go to. On the way, he was talking and talking about work and people from his work as my stomach started to hurt more and more. I finally interrupted him and said "I don't want to go to this party. Can we just turn around and go home?". He's so awesome! He found a place to turn around and we were headed back towards home when he said "Do you have your minutes in for the day". Nope, sure didn't. I had no act... Fri, 18 Dec 2015 22:55:53 EST Train wreck of a day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6049066 Ugh ... This was one of those days where it was always on the edge of being a huge mess the whole entire day. I stayed out late last night, which is totally unusual for me, and was sliding into bed at 11:52. That's so abnormal for me on any night but really odd for a work night! I did, however, sleep until the alarm went off this morning. Funniest thing was I was dreaming I was in a waiting area outside of Martha Stewart's office, watching her through slightly parted curtains as I waited ... Thu, 17 Dec 2015 22:01:34 EST