EBEAMS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EBEAMS EBEAMS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779523 To each of you that sent thoughts, prayers and encouragement. I appreciate it. <BR> <BR> Here's a picture at the commital service at the Idaho State Veteran's Cemetery: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l160270940.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It's been a week and it feels like it's been a lifetime. In trying to sort through everything, I try to keep in mind that it isn't just the past year that has been the hard part ... it's been 3 years of giving a little more and a little mo... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 08:00:33 EST Long day, many decisions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778262 Today was the day ... My mom would appreciate the irony of her services being on Sept 11th. She loved her country, cherished her short time in the service and appreciated the depth of sacrifice some people have given. <BR> <BR> It was a very hard day. The military ceremony was so poignant and sad. I will treasure my mom's flag. It may just be my most prized possession now. <BR> <BR> Things are buttoning up, family is all set to leave in the morning and my house is so quiet that it see... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 23:43:33 EST Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776294 Isn't it funny that the only thing in Life that is constant is CHANGE and yet change is one of the things we struggle with on a daily basis??? We work the cycle of insanity - Doing the same thing over and over but expecting different results - and fear change, hate change, want change, avoid change - all the while wishing things would be different but stay the same? It's confusing! <BR> <BR> Lots is changing for us again. That clash of good and bad that seems to happen in my Life on a re... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 05:35:36 EST Pinning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761599 Sitting here pinning and pinning recipes and thinking about how excited I am that Fall is just around the corner. I've been promising myself for a couple of years that I would work on learning how to make a good soup ... I know - seems like a no brainer but our house didn't really do soup when I was growing up! - and learning how to make yeast bread. I've always wanted to but am a little intimidated by the thought of it. It always looked so complicated when my mom did it. Tasted GREAT but... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 19:03:54 EST Weekend off with hubby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757065 Ahhhh ... it's a rare event in our household when my husband and I have a Saturday and Sunday off together. The last one we had off together was June 21st ... I know cuz it was our 10 year anniversary ... and we moved the whole weekend. We have GOT to figure out how to celebrate better! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> This weekend we did something equally awe inspiring ... Cleaned up and organized the garage at the new house! <em>104</em> Ok, maybe that isn't exactly how I was feeling by... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 19:15:06 EST Good morning, Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756209 I'm still having trouble adjusting to having weekends off ... but committed to giving a "good o' college try" at figuring it out! <em>30</em> Hubby has a rare weekend off as well and I'm delighted he is still sleeping. Too bad he's missing the incredible 61 degree temp that is coming in through the windows right now ... It's wonderful! So happy the temperature seems to be dropping a tad these days. I am not a hot weather fan. <BR> <BR> It was a tough week. I didn't want to work any o... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 09:04:16 EST Too funny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753562 This morning I couldn't sleep so I went into work to find a shirt I need for an event tonight (as I've grown out of the ones I have <em>39</em> ) and to use the treadmill in there. Somehow, I lost track of the time while I was on the treadmill and ended up being late for a breakfast date ... It's always something, isn't it? <BR> <BR> Thank you to all my very sweet, faithful friends who are showing up every day to leave me encouraging words. Know that I WANT to get on your pages and re... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 10:55:18 EST Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752730 My to-do list for today is long but most of it is not work related. That causes me some stress. I have hours of unfilled time this morning (which works out well for me to get my walk in) but no businesses are open that I need to go to. I'm supposing it will all work out in the long run. <BR> <BR> I'm working on creating a "capsule" wardrobe with just basics that I can mix and match across the board. I am happy I have a couple of things already and have been fairly successful picking up a... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 08:23:11 EST Beginning ... again ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752225 Yes, I am tired of starting over ... so I'm guessing that means I need to stop giving up, huh? <BR> <BR> I've got to stop milling around in my life and get some direction again. I know I feel better when I eat right and when I exercise. In fact, I feel fabulous when I feel strong! Right now, I don't feel strong ... <BR> <BR> I can't wear anything in my closet or dresser anymore unless it is blessed with very forgiving elastic. That is a big problem ... especially since I want to presen... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 12:03:10 EST Our son's obit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736140 I put the content in the title so people can choose not to look at it. Thank you all for your prayers, your thoughts, the Spark Goodies and the comments. It is so comforting to know people are lifting us up. Thank you. <BR> <BR> <link>www.legacy.com/obituaries/idahopress<BR>/obituary.aspx?n=allen-beams&pid=17167<BR>2449&fhid=3053 </link> Thu, 10 Jul 2014 15:27:33 EST It never rains ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734036 ... instead it pours ... <em>51</em> <BR> <BR> Very early this morning, we were awakened by one of the Sgts from my agency. Everyone knows you NEVER want to see an officer at your house during the middle of the night ... and this was no exception. <BR> <BR> We found out that our youngest son, Allen (my stepson ... my bonus child) had passed away on Saturday evening at home - was found at home on Sunday - from undetected advanced heart disease. He was 23 years old. He doesn't live in ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 19:18:54 EST Flying by http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732438 What an amazing period of time this is ... <em>40</em> Good, bad and ugly all wrapped together. <BR> <BR> The UGLY? My laptop has died and I can't blog off my iPhone ... BUMMER! And the move ... ugh ... I HATE clutter! I have stuff stacked everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I don't have the time and energy at the same time to accomplish much these days! <BR> <BR> The bad? Not so bad but it is challenging ... but managable. I'm working in both of my positions right now and a litt... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 10:29:37 EST FINALLY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720877 It's official! As of July 12th, I will be in my new position! Gulp ... sigh ... giggle ... all of those are totally how I'm feeling right now. <BR> <BR> GULP - That's a big change! Wow ... I like to be challenged ... I want to grow ... but WOW! <BR> <BR> Sigh - Leaving behind 22 years of one career field to step into a management position outside that career field is nostalgic, no matter how you look at it. I'm going to miss certain parts of dispatching - no question about it! <BR> <... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 19:19:34 EST random ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717497 I am all over the place emotionally these days. Sigh ... so much crashing through my head and leaking tears down my cheeks. It's hard to separate sorrow from joy. <BR> <BR> First and foremost, I am so incredibly thankful my son was not one of the soldiers taken by the "friendly fire" incident in Afghanistan. I knew he was out on a mission but I didn't know about the event when I woke up that morning and sent him a text that read "You ok? I'm praying for you". His response was "commo bla... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 22:29:32 EST Simplifying vs Organizing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713968 I JUST read an article on SparkPeople last night before I blogged about how getting organized is one of the best tools to help succeed in weight loss. This morning I open up an email and there is the title in BIG BOLD letters - Why Simplying instead of Organizing is Better! Boom! There ya go. <BR> <BR> I was thinking last night that I AM organized ... I've got the compartmentalization part of the organization down. I set aside time to shop and cook once a week (same with laundry) and I... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 08:22:52 EST Note to me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713728 This morning in church I was thinking over all the areas in my life right now that I'm struggling with trying to control. My job, my children, my mom, some key relationships in my life ... all of these areas are constantly pressing into my brain. I am sleeping very little on a regular basis as I have imaginary conversations of things I did say, things I wish I hadn't said and things I think I might say if given the chance ... None of which I can control right now. <BR> <BR> It's so easy to... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 21:56:27 EST Good bye to this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713153 Ugh ... I was right. The waiting is the hardest part. I had my oral board in front of a panel of 4 on Monday and my second interview on Wednesday that was one-on-one with the boss. The scheduled 15 minutes turned into 35 minutes because we had such a great conversation. Good news is I'm first on the promotion list. Bad news is he can choose from the top three. Sigh ... the announcement is supposed to be made by June 18th ... <em>40</em> ... I realize that the time will pass exactly ... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 00:06:08 EST Now the wait begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709465 It's going to be difficult to go through the waiting period that is inevitable when you are applying for a new position. Seems nothing can ever be quick AND easy. In all fairness, I suppose it makes sense for a business to make sure they are picking the RIGHT person for the job. <BR> <BR> It was a very intense 10 day period trying to get prepared for the interview. I interviewed tons of people, constructed a resume packet and read A LOT of stuff ... none of which appeared to have stuck ... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 05:26:30 EST Interview tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708365 I'm on the count down. Uniform is hanging in the closet ready to go, resume packets are complete and I think I'm ready for this. I'll let you know how it goes! Sun, 1 Jun 2014 20:49:55 EST Where's Eda ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704124 I know ... I'm MIA again. It can't be helped! See ... there's this job that just came up I want that opened on Friday and I don't have much time to get prepared for the interview. I told someone last night that I feel like I'm cramming for finals in high school again ... except this is much, much more! <BR> <BR> I probably won't be on until after that experience is behind me. My interview is next Monday. I would appreciate any prayers and words of support/encouragement anyone wants t... Tue, 27 May 2014 07:56:23 EST Relieving stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698812 How on earth am I supposed to blog and sound positive when there's no easy way to make my mom's journey into a blessing ... a gift ... a positive anything? Got a call today from one of the Hospice RN's to update on where Mom is. This is how we keep in touch since they can't see her on a day that I am available ... or until they have an opening on a day I'm available. So the news today was not good and my heart hurts. My body hurts. My brain hurts. <BR> <BR> I could sit around for hour... Mon, 19 May 2014 23:11:19 EST Waiting in faith http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698009 There's so much going on right now that it would be so easy to just get all stressed out, throw up my hands and declare "I can't handle this"!!! Except I don't want to live in the midst of stress and anxiety and frustration. Maybe this is where I learn patience and self acceptance while dialing down my stress level. Maybe this is where I learn to stand in faith and wait for God to meet our need. It's definitely time to learn not to react to others when they are stressed out and looking fo... Mon, 19 May 2014 00:00:23 EST Hit and miss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696214 I'm in one of those weeks where there's too much to do and way not enough time. I'm completely exhausted and still have no end in sight! LOL .... isn't that just Life though? My eating is all over the place but my exercise is steady. I'm looking for the blessings in things instead of trying to conquer every mountain. <BR> <BR> We did get the washer and dryer out of the middle of the kitchen ... and I managed to get an "Open House" sign with the date and times showing on it put up at th... Fri, 16 May 2014 08:39:50 EST Interesting day so far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694281 I started off this morning ok ... a little overwhelmed but ok. See, yesterday I got a text from our realtor wondering if he can hold an open house on Sunday from 10 am - 2 pm. O-k-a-y ... in my work schedule time frame that means basically the day after tomorrow. When you work 12 hour shifts, there isn't a lot of time to do other stuff. And goodness only knows how a house that we have basically moved everything non-essential out of can still need SO MUCH time, effort and energy to keep it... Tue, 13 May 2014 15:42:44 EST Not Spark related http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693093 I'm up early cuz I'm still not a good sleeper ... LOL ... guess there will always be something I'm not very good at! As I'm organizing my day (and finishing off my first bottle of water for the day), I'm trying to figure out how to identify the shrubs that are at my new house so I know how to best care for them. The things that are currently planted are not the things that will probably stay there but for now, I need to work with what is in the ground ... with the exception of the ground co... Mon, 12 May 2014 06:32:26 EST Photos of my Mother's Day weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692900 Yesterday, my oldest son brought me lunch to work yesterday. I love him so ... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l92685408.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today, I got this picture from Afghanistan! Caleb, my youngest, is on the far right. I miss him tons ... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l699057219.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today's activities were breakfast and then a 3 hour train ride for my mom and a friend of her's. So blessed by my family and friends ... <B... Sun, 11 May 2014 22:07:32 EST Watch your expectations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692893 In trying to get going on Sparking, one of my tasks was to re-evaluate my fitness goals for the week time period. I had them set pretty high due the fact I was running pretty consistently and exercising almost every day "before" ... "Before" is the period before my mom got diagnosed. I figured that since I'm just getting back into the swing of things, I need to lower my expectations and therefore my goals for the time I would be spending exercising AND the amount of calories I would be burn... Sun, 11 May 2014 21:59:45 EST Brain washed by social media http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692159 Rachel and I got in a 4.5 mile run/walk this morning (YAY us!!!) before I went to work. During our time together, I was asking her if she had seen the trailers for "Am I Perfect" which is a project done by two college girls with a focus on what a significant portion of the female population does or has tried to fit into the "perfect picture" that is presented as "beautiful" by marketing. <BR> <BR> In talking about it, I was groping around for the correct word to describe how incredibly powe... Sat, 10 May 2014 19:25:37 EST I just want quiet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691510 There are days when all I want by the end of my shift is quiet and my bed. Today is one of those days. If I could go through the rest of the day without a phone ringing or anyone needing anything from me, I'd be perfectly content. I'm just totally exhausted. <BR> <BR> We're supposed to go to a get together tonight and I just don't feel like I have the energy to even make an effort to go. Ugh ... why are things so hard??? I'm a grown up and perfectly capable of making my own decisions ba... Fri, 9 May 2014 19:07:44 EST Tough day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690852 It was a tough day to say the least. Thank you, Sharon, for asking how my mom is doing. The answer is she is continuing to decline. Today the scale showed she has lost 15 lbs in 3 months ... that makes 115 lbs since she was diagnosed in July 2013. The cancer is growing slowly in her throat making it more difficult to swallow a lot of foods. Her interest in food is pretty much nil these days. I was struggling with that emotionally for quite awhile until some kind soul did a little counse... Thu, 8 May 2014 21:06:49 EST Buddy time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689699 This morning my friend who is also a Sparker met me for a cold walk at 5:45 am. My day started off pretty fabulous and I feel great! Wed, 7 May 2014 10:57:34 EST Trying to get past the sweets craving. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689124 This is my hardest time of the day. It's 3 pm. I've had breakfast and lunch ... and a snack because I was still hungry. I had a garden salad with some grilled chicken and a piece of string cheese ... plenty of protein ... then I started prowling the kitchen for something else - something chocolate to be exact. I tried to placate my sweet tooth with a 90 calorie snack but that was like trying to put out a house on fire with a spray bottle. <BR> <BR> My plan was to work on getting my go... Tue, 6 May 2014 17:12:33 EST List for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687767 Walk (Make that a slow run!) <BR> Grocery shopping <BR> Cooking for the week <BR> Spend time with Mom <BR> Head to old house and work in flower beds <BR> <BR> Wondering why this is called a day "off" ... <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> ******* Scratch the list ... I got through the run and the grocery shopping before I received a call for overtime. Some things just don't change! ************* <em>250</em> Mon, 5 May 2014 07:46:40 EST It's been way too long ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687575 I can't believe it's been January since I've blogged. <em>40</em> I'd share all the gloom and doom - except I've finally moved past it --- and I don't want to go back there again. I've never been one to struggle with depression but you never know what will be the thing that drives you to the place where you can't care anymore. <BR> <BR> I knew I was in trouble when it finally registered in my brain about a month ago that I hadn't made a list in WEEKS! I am a compulsive list maker ... ... Sun, 4 May 2014 22:48:05 EST A few pictures and an apology http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588491 The apology first .... THANK YOU to all of my Spark friends who still stop by when I post and leave me encouragement! I can't tell you how much that means to me. Everything is so chaotic in my world right now, I can't really even begin to explain it. I'm sorry that I don't get back to you in a timely manner ... please know I think of you often and hold your encouragement and prayers near to my heart. The recent news of one of my Spark buddies getting engaged over the holiday has brightene... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 19:56:33 EST Merry Christmas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571553 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1105904688.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is my Christmas wish for each of you ... That you have enough LOVE to forgive those around you who just can't seem to keep their mouths shut or surrender their own ego on a day when love should abound; enough JOY to make your heart sing to know that somewhere right now in the world YOU are the one person that makes someone else's heart happy; and PEACE in your heart to take you into the new year with the know... Wed, 25 Dec 2013 09:55:14 EST My holiday plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549329 I happened upon a blog today that gave me something to think about. It is by a Hospice nurse who has spent lots of time observing the things people regret the most upon their deathbed. <BR> <BR> <link>www.tommyseilheimer.com/nurse-reveal<BR>s-top-5-regrets-people-make-deathbed/ </link> <BR> <BR> As I read through the list, I was struck by how that could be me if I was facing a terminal illness right now. I would regret not having taken more chances in my life to live authentically. ... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 19:25:40 EST Up early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5547428 Yesterday was exhausting .... and sleep deserted me early this morning. I'm hoping that blogging a bit will get my slate cleared off and my day set so that I won't be weighed down today. That's important cuz I go back to my "real" job this morning at 0600! Yikes! <BR> <BR> While I was on vacation, it was good to get some distance and perspective on my mom's condition. It was very good to shift some of that responsibility to others and let them "carry the load" so to speak, for just a few... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 06:07:40 EST Fresh start .... again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545891 Somewhere, right now, I know someone is giggling with me as you read the title to my blog today. Ahhhhh, isn't having the opportunity to start over ... and over ... and over again a blessing??? Funny how we want Life to basically be static with no ups, no downs, just good things with no bad. "Just give me sunshine, sunshine, sunshine" becomes the basic motto while forgetting that balance is the true key. Too much sunshine will damage us ... <BR> <BR> Having an extended vacation was very... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 08:12:35 EST Found this interesting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532345 I watched this Ted talk segment. It was hugely interesting to me as I'm working on BALANCE in my life. <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6U728AZnV0&<BR>desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DY6U728AZnV0<BR>&app=desktop </link> <BR> <BR> What do YOU think? Mon, 4 Nov 2013 21:04:17 EST Being thankful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531660 I've been thinking on this subject for the past few days. November always spawns a slew of "Thankful" blogs that are numbered by the days - in fact, last year I wrote a month of blogs about what I was thankful for. Little did I know that this year my focus would be narrowed down exponentially. This year I am thankful for each and every day that I am able to spend with my mom. I find that the propensity to fill up my time each day with meaningless stuff rather than quality moments is now u... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 08:32:36 EST Quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530887 I've been quiet again lately ... that's cuz right as I saw the sun start peeking out of the stormy clouds, more unwelcome, unexpected news dropped into my lap. Without getting too personal, I'll just stick with the basics. I get a Wellness check done every year as part of my health care package. This year I got back unexpected news in two areas. I'm currently avoiding going in for my fasting blood work until I get back from vacation so as to avoid any more bad news. May not be the best ... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 11:35:02 EST Thank goodness! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520709 I am finally starting to feel a little like myself again. I attribute it to a combination of things ... first, I've started consistently exercising again by making it a priority to me AND getting my husband involved which motivates and inspires me .... and I see a tapering off of all the appointments for my mom. As far as my calendar can see right now, today was our last day of back-to-back appointments that we had scheduled. Some of the relief from the appointments came from us stepping u... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 21:07:54 EST Thinking out loud http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514450 Sigh ... I have a quandary. I launched my business as an instructor for classes I've designed for emergency services dispatchers in July of this year. In August we found out my mom who lives on our property with us (but not in the home with us) has cancer. Her prognosis at the time was 8-12 months. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I got an email from a department that is wanting to hire me to present 2 - 1 day classes for them. My first paying gig ... and I'm torn as to what to do. I want to chas... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 16:47:39 EST End of the week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511850 So I did good with most of my goals for this first week of October. <BR> <BR> 1. Water - Check <BR> 2. Exercise - 262 minutes for 2065 calories for the week - Check <BR> 3. Being grateful - Ummm ... not sure but I attended some spot-on stress training this week that gave me a HUGE light bulb moment - the day AFTER I had a mental melt down ... sigh. I have changed my approach to some things and when someone says "I'll be happy to __________ (fill in a specific task), I say "Ok". I'm st... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 21:41:39 EST Changes ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510108 I just finished up 2 days of PTSD training for my work. It's now being changed to PTS injury instead of disorder because of the stigma involved with the word "disorder" ... as if something is wrong with the person who has the stress problem. The best news is PTS is treatable if people are willing to seek help. <BR> <BR> As I sat through the classes (2 separate classes, 2 completely different instructors, 2 very different angles) I kept hearing words that were describing how I'm feeling abo... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 19:12:16 EST Oct goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502200 In an effort to get myself back on track, here's my goals for October: <BR> <BR> 1. Drink all my water - EVERY DAY <BR> 2. 30 mins of exercise every day <BR> 3. Practice being grateful <BR> 4. Work on being diligent to organize my days so I take care of myself. <BR> <BR> It's a place to start. Wed, 2 Oct 2013 08:13:38 EST 10 hours of sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486950 Wow ... I am feeling like a new woman after 10 hours of uninterrupted sleep. I forget how important it is to just conk out. I still have tons to do but whatever doesn't get done, just won't get done! Woohoo .... only 4 hours of work today. Grocery shopping this morning before work and then housework/food prep after I get home. It's been a little tricky trying to decide what to stock up on for visitors to eat since we are so "basic" in our eating now. I guess everyone who's coming will b... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 08:17:33 EST Good morning! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484282 Not too much to report on this home front. Wanted to post the link to the Caring Bridge site that is up and going for my mom. I don't have as much done on it as I would like but ... oh well. I'm learning to do what I can, in the amount of time I have and be happy with it instead of seeking perfection! <BR> <BR> Personally, things with my eating and my exercise are starting to come back into balance a little bit for me. Ok, honestly, not eating is not really a problem for me right now s... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 06:30:08 EST Remembering Sept 11th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482438 Hi there .... I've been very quiet lately cuz the news on my mom's cancer was heartbreakingly dismal. We're working through the process of gaining information and deciding what she wants to do at this point ... and I'm not ready to talk about it yet. I'll be posting a link soon to a site where you can choose to follow our journey. <BR> <BR> So here's what I can talk about ... It's my link to the blog I posted on my business website in honor of Sept 11th. God bless all of the ones who lost... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 08:43:00 EST