EBEAMS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EBEAMS EBEAMS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6008245 Well, sleeping didn't go any better last night but I made it home safe and sound today. I popped out of bed and was on the road in 15 mins! Had a little reality check at the gas station where I filled up. I'm "usually" always alert to my surroundings and watching for people who are coming by me or my car but this morning a guy made it into my "bubble" before I knew what was going on. He asked me for a couple of buck to pay for his gas. He looked like a harmless college age kid and I almo... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 21:46:47 EST Day 24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6007700 Ok, I'm done now. As much as I enjoyed learning and networking, I'm exhausted from lack of sleep and my body is NOT impressed with all the food I've been eating that's not normally part of my eating plan. Even when I "fell off the wagon", I still stuck to a lot of just plain food rather than fancy stuff. I have heart burn from lunch that wasn't helped by whatever was in the gravy at dinner. Of course I'm in a foreign land (i.e. not home) and have not heart burn stuff with me. Guess I'll ... Thu, 1 Oct 2015 22:55:06 EST Day 23 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006951 Hmmmm .... this traveling stuff calls for more pre-planning and organization. I'm not sleeping, I'm sticking to oatmeal for breakfast, salad for lunch and then dinner ... well, that seems to vary with the place everyone wants to go. <em>24</em> One more day tomorrow and then it's time to head home. I'm ready already ... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 19:01:41 EST Day 21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005841 It was a good day even though it was a long drive. We got up this morning and walked a couple of miles before I headed out. All told, I have over 11,000 steps on my FitBit for the day. I'm happy. Eating stayed on the right track today, even though it wasn't what I expected. <BR> <BR> One day down, and 4 to go. I can do it! Mon, 28 Sep 2015 22:14:09 EST Day 20 - Relax Mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005244 Today was a really nice, relaxing day. I spent some of the day getting all my stuff packed ... clothes bag, computer bag, snack bag .... and my purse cleaned out. I'm organized and ready but still worried I'll forget something I just "have to" have. Like I can't just go buy it ... I'm silly sometimes. <BR> <BR> Hubby and I are going to hit the Rec Center early in the morning and then I'm off. I need to do errands as I zig zag my way out of town. Have I told you about the fund raiser I'm... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 00:08:15 EST Day 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004678 LOL ... I was j-u-s-t about done with my blog for today and ... yep, I erased it. Sigh ... Oh well ... I'm done. My Spark People fitness trackers says I've burned 1244 calories today and my FitBit says I've traveled 7.78 miles today. I'm tired. <BR> <BR> My eating was pretty good but I let myself get way too hungry between breakfast and lunch. I need to work on eat several small meals. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow's another day to excel ... :) Sat, 26 Sep 2015 22:37:46 EST Day 18 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004159 Yesterday we learned that a dear friend had passed away on Monday from cancer. The funeral was last night. That was hard, very, very hard. When we got to the church, the lady who lost her husband asked me if I would be willing to sing and I just couldn't say no. It was really scary and the song I picked was one of the two that I could remember all the words to and sing without music. Turns out it was "Supper Time", which is an old gospel song that I love. My mom and I used to sing it to... Fri, 25 Sep 2015 23:21:41 EST Grumpy Day 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002985 Ugh .. another night with very little sleep. It was so frustrating! I couldn't fall asleep and then I woke up at 1 am. I got up from 2-3 am and put in some work time since that's what was chasing around in my head. I went back to bed after 3 am and hubby's alarm went off at 5. Sigh ... no boot camp as I was barely cognitive to get ready and get to work. This morning I'd be in the middle of a sentence and lose my train of thought. Sigh ... It was very frustrating! <BR> <BR> Tonight I a... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 22:20:01 EST Day 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002359 Today was one of those put your nose to the grind stone and just get through things. Ugh ... those days are necessary but so ... deflating. I prefer days that are more structured and organized. <BR> <BR> My eating was good today until we encountered a time hiccup this evening and ended up going out for dinner. I never even thought about making a healthy choice. Good thing is I don't consider this a failure but more of a learning experience. i can do better next time. <BR> <BR> Right ... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 22:17:26 EST Day 14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001565 The two week mark ... NICE! in 7 more days (theoretically) I should have my new habits established and a part of my "normal" routine. Now if my life would be "normal" and "routine" that would help out tremendously! <BR> <BR> Hubby and I usually have Mondays off together so we did a few little things around the house today. He worked on his homework for class tonight. We BOTH went to Boot Camp this morning. I figured since I woke up feeling fabulous and actually able to move, that would ... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 15:56:23 EST Yesterday and Today in Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000996 Rachel and I ran/walked our way through the Harvest Classic yesterday. Surprised me that I could do it. We did 30 seconds run, 90 seconds walking. It worked out really well. I won't lie ... I was so sore from boot camp that I whined A LOT yesterday. After the race, I had to really, really, really evaluate if I need to sit down AT ALL because my thighs hurt so stinkin' bad! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/bc0f2f76-4b9a-439f-bf28-af6ea829ac22.JPG"> <BR> (Sorry ... I... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 19:46:33 EST Day 12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000159 Blogging early cuz it's a crammed pack day. Already done grocery shopping for the next week and have (almost) everything put away. Heading out in 20 mins to get Rachel and her daughter. <BR> <BR> In my quick run through Walmart this morning, I picked up a cardigan and a knit dress that were both marked $9.94. When I got to the check out, the dress ran up at $3.00! SCORE! Great, comfy new outfit for $14 bucks! Love it! Have a bunch of traveling coming up so light, easy to pack, easy t... Sat, 19 Sep 2015 09:50:07 EST Day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999899 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2167c4eb-6e02-4eb6-9d3e-ebf8f0a4cfd1.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Whew ... doggies ... What a day (so far)! Just logged my food that I've eaten so far today and my calories in are showing at 1119 while my exercise is showing at 1166 with a combination of boot camp this morning plus my FitBit feedback. I'm not hungry either. Not sure if that is good or bad. I've been monitoring my hunger levels through out the day and when I started to get hungry, I ate... Fri, 18 Sep 2015 20:18:33 EST Day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999334 Double digits!!! Yay!!! This will be a short blog tonight cuz I'm just plumb tuckered out! I crammed a lot into today and stretched my brain, not my legs. My eating was actually really on the low (very low) side of the calorie scale but I'm full and that makes the difference. <em>334</em> Lunch was chicken breast with quinoa and broccoli. Can't beat that! <BR> <BR> I've been pretty entertained the last two days as I've perked up after getting on the scale. I don't feel overwhelme... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 20:33:39 EST Day 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5998808 Perspective is everything, isn't it??? I've been avoiding the scale ... I ALWAYS am afraid to climb on that stupid thing. It is like it has it's own power to crush me ... or it seems like it. After being "off the wagon" for so long, I was totally avoiding it COMPLETELY. In the past 9 days, I've made small, consistent changes to my routine and my eating that, frankly, have been pretty easy. At our staff meeting today, they were passing around frosted animal cookies which are usually my fa... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 22:05:23 EST Day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5998137 Recap from yesterday - I was really nervous but the class went well (I think). The majority of the participants were receptive and engaged ... There's always one in the crowd. <BR> <BR> Today was a busy, busy day. I have 12950 steps on my FitBit which translates to 5.22 miles and there's still about 3 hours left before bed! Woot Woot! I'm giving myself a gold star <em>8</em> for fitness today since I had a walking meeting in the parking garage today (ingenious) and then I actually l... Tue, 15 Sep 2015 20:34:26 EST Wading through nerves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5997445 I said in one of my first blogs that so much has changed since I was active on Sparkpeople before that it's hard to even remember everything. I guess I'll share them as they come up. Like my second job ... I know, I know ... I finally have a job with a great schedule, no overtime per se and holidays off (first time since I started working in 1985) and ... I find a second job. It works for me because my second job is my passion ... sharing knowledge with others!!! NO .. I didn't say opinio... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 18:29:48 EST The problem with who we see in the mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5996556 I believe we spend too much time believing the lies we tell ourselves when we look in the mirror. The reflection that we see is just that ... a reflection, a flat - none dimensional - reflection of our appearance - NOT of who we are. We believe that the reflection is how others see us as well and that's a lie. This morning I got on Sparkpeople early because I want it to be something I'm truly integrating back into my "normal" routine. In checking the comments on my blog from Day 5, I was ... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 10:47:02 EST Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5996282 Busy, busy, busy ... over 5 miles on my FitBit before 10 am (Yay!) and then it was housework, laundry, grocery shopping and craft. I watched a movie while I was folding several loads of laundry. OH ... and I finally vacuumed - I've told you I abhor vacuuming, right? I don't even know why but I do. I told Rachel this morning that I was very sure the vacuum police would be at my house any day now ... Thankfully we have no kids and no pets, so it's just us. I got it done ... and when my hus... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 21:53:02 EST Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5995577 Today was a really difficult day emotionally. I have successfully avoided hearing TAPS being played since 9-11 of last year when my mom's services were held at the VA cemetery. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5c774aa1-c2e8-47e7-a1d7-b50ff2c2f317.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I attended a 9/11 remembrance ceremony this morning at our local fire department. It was a lovely event but the very first note of TAPS caught me off guard and that was it. The rest of the day has been a... Fri, 11 Sep 2015 18:06:57 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5995004 Let me start by saying "Thank YOU" to all my old Spark buddies that have been here, leaving encouragement, comfort and wisdom. It has been very good to "see" you all again! I missed you! <BR> <BR> As for today, well, it has been a good eating day. I was very mindful of internal chatter that was busy all day long. It was trying to convince me that I "needed" to stop somewhere and get myself a "treat". The main focus was a pumpkin scone at Starbucks but anything gooey and good would have... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 19:37:37 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5994321 Today was not a stellar day. I woke up feeling really full, then ate breakfast about 3 hours after getting to work, got re-immersed in my work and surfaced again with the feeling of starving. I know it's not real. I know there's no chance I'll starve today ... or even this week but my brain was having none of it. My son texted me while I was in "food hunting" mode and we went out to lunch. Good thing is I want to spend time with my son ... bad thing is I ordered my usual order of Mandari... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 19:31:54 EST Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5993613 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/84d39551-a7a2-46c9-941b-22cc9c2cb3b8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Breakfast: Fresh fruit <BR> Lunch: 1/2 order of grilled chicken salad with ranch dressing on the side <BR> Snack: BeVita crackers <BR> Dinner: Fish, veggies and salad <BR> <BR> Exercise: Walked with my Spark buddy, Rachel, at a local mall. <BR> <BR> Hungry level: Good this morning but this afternoon was very difficult. I crave sugar ... candy, cake, frosting ... cookies. I drank wa... Tue, 8 Sep 2015 19:02:53 EST Time for change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5993067 It's hard to believe that yesterday was the 1st anniversary of my mom passing away ... and the 14 month anniversary of our son's passing. We've survived most of the 1st --- holidays, birthdays, letters in the mail, people asking how they are and the anniversary dates. Sometimes, it's seemed like time was speeding by, especially as significant dates were approaching but, most of the time, it felt like that period of time drug on ... like trying to swim in a pool filled with jello. It was me... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 23:15:51 EST Run Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950485 I started walking with my Spark buddy again for 2 - 3 mornings a week several weeks ago. As we've walked and talked, I've found that I feel better. Earlier this week I told my hubby I was ready to start running again. Funny thing was I told my hubby one day and my Spark buddy told me she had started running again the next day. Life is funny! <BR> <BR> It was 4 am when the alarm clock went off and frankly I wanted to do something bad to the person who had set it. I was thinking more like... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 21:23:00 EST Surprise! I'm here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928039 Yesterday turned into one of those surreal days where you feel like you were run over by your life and you are not q-u-i-t-e sure what happened. <BR> <BR> When I ate my breakfast yesterday morning, I had a sharp pain in my neck that made it uncomfortable to chew but it wasn't a "stop-the-day" type thing. I did notice a little swelling but it was the size of a small pebble and I wasn't that concerned. Until I ate again and the pain was still there and the swelling was getting more noticea... Thu, 14 May 2015 11:12:22 EST Ugh ... what a week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5925974 I'm not complaining ... or maybe I am but wow, what an incredibly hectic week. I started out strong but by Friday, I was dragging. This week isn't looking any better ... in fact, it looks more hectic and frantic. <BR> <BR> In order to attempt to combat my feeling of being overwhelmed and overcommitted, I'm going to work out first thing in the morning. And I'm not committing to ANYTHING next Saturday and Sunday. NOTHING except what I WANT to do to relax. <BR> <BR> First though, I've ... Sun, 10 May 2015 20:43:07 EST Need some real rest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923326 I am not sleeping well at all. I keep having nightmares and my sleep hasn't been solid, deep or restful for several nights in a row now. Tomorrow is a 16 hour day if I don't get up and go run in the morning ... an 18 hour day if I do. As of this minute, I'm too tired to even think about getting up and going to do anything before I absolutely have to. Yet, I know that I want to stick to my plan ... it's confusing. Maybe I should accept that the plan for this week was flawed from inceptio... Tue, 5 May 2015 22:01:07 EST Enjoying a down day ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5921982 Yesterday my hubby and I got our storage unit completely emptied, swept and signed off. We're no longer paying rent on a place to keep things we don't have room for! We do have a pile of boxes in our garage that need to be gone through and lots of organization needs to happen but, as of yesterday, we now have our belongings all in one place. <BR> <BR> This is important to me because my side of the family is overly blessed with the gift of keeping everything. And yes, I really mean everyth... Sun, 3 May 2015 19:49:10 EST Run day #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920970 Ahhh .... I did it! I completed all three run days this week as planned! <em>224</em> I found some more motivation to put on my wall so I see it first thing in the morning ... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l934167608.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think this is one of the wisest things I can remember. Weight gain happens so insidiously quickly and, for the most part, unnoticed (i.e. ignored in my case). Somehow, my brain thinks two weeks of eating (fairly) clean ... Fri, 1 May 2015 19:32:09 EST Fueled by competition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920413 So ... I have this little problem. I'm a perfectionist who always wants to be the winner at everything. I'm not a braggart, I just want to be FIRST place ... Always have, probably always will. <BR> <BR> I joined this 14 day challenge through the work fitness program and it's on! Last night I was NOT in the top 5 people on the team and that just can't happen! I don't know that I can match or surpass the number of steps some of those ladies posted (over 28,000 for on day) but I can at leas... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 20:47:03 EST I'm Grumpy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919366 I am struggling with some things that are not under my direct ability to control and it's making me really grumpy. My natural communication style is calm, collected and compromising but I don't want to be any of those things right now. <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> I'm going to bed so I can sleep it off. Tomorrow morning I'm going to roll out of bed with a smile and go for a run ... <BR> <BR> Good night! Tue, 28 Apr 2015 22:46:41 EST Measurable progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918373 So, I didn't have the courage to get on the scale when I started over again this time. I'm content to go with what I had in my tracker from the last time I adjusted my weight ... and that means the scale reflected a 2 pound loss this morning! It's a little weird that it didn't excite me when I weighed - maybe cuz it was 4:15 in the morning and we were heading out to go on a little run. <em>331</em> That's ok cuz I'm super excited now! <BR> <BR> I love that the first weigh in is "rein... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 08:22:56 EST God's word is always on time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918021 The message this morning was on finding our joy in God rather than in our circumstances. I so needed to hear that. I needed to be reminded that there is still a place I can carry my brokenness to and be filled up. I know that trials are given to make us stronger and to increase our character ... I believe that God is more than able to see me through any trial I face. Sometimes I just need to be reminded. <BR> <BR> I'm declaring this day a victory already. It's almost 2 pm and I've track... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 15:40:58 EST Struggling today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917605 It's one step forward and two steps back. My exercise has been good today but I'm really, really struggling with eating. Mother's Day is quickly approaching and that makes me very sad. Last year we took my mom on a train ride with a friend of her's to celebrate what we knew was her last year with us. Sigh ... this year is going to be so very hard to get through. <BR> <BR> I want to go to my cupboard and gobble down EVERYTHING in there! I have some small candy bars that we got in a baske... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 19:18:57 EST What a day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917201 Whew ... I'm plumb wore out! Started early and accomplished 98% of what was on my to-do list today! Woohoo ... laundry - done; grocery shopping - done; cooking for the week - 98% done (I still need to cook some meat and make buffalo cauliflower bites for my darlin); bedding all washed up, housework done to include cleaning both bathrooms AND getting all of the mopping and vacuuming (which I abhor) done .... That thrills me! I love a clean house. It looks good, it smells good ... it makes... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 21:55:34 EST My attitude needs work ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916567 There are certain things in life that make all of us happy ... but not all of us are made happy by the same things. There's also the difference between knowing and doing. Take for example (for me), running. I do not LOVE the process of going back to the beginning and working my way up to being able to run for X amount of minutes continuously. YES - I do wish I had not let my weight and health slide but that's hindsight now. As I was pounding my way around the track this morning with my d... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 19:32:39 EST Ready to go ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916049 ... forward ... I'm ready to go forward. I took off this weekend and spent time with just my sister up in northern Idaho. I love my sister. She is sweet, kind, level headed, financially smart, just retired and what I want to be when I grow up. She gives everyone the best she has to give and can stand up for herself without the other person even realizing they've been had. I so want to be her .... but I'm not, I'm me. <BR> <BR> We stayed up the first night and talked till midnight. On S... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 22:19:27 EST Eureka! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904382 ... or "Wow, you can find motivation in the most unexpected places"! <BR> <BR> Back in January, I made a couple of medical appointments that that I couldn't get scheduled in for until today! Busy medical facilities around here! Anyway, I wasn't really thinking about the whole weighing and measuring thing cuz it was annual maintenance type stuff, not medical issues type stuff. So ... when the nurse says "Hop up on the scale so we can weigh and measure you", my response was "How about we go... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 19:07:18 EST one step forward, two steps back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902584 Today I did not take enough food to eat and I walked quite a bit. My FitBit says over 13,000 steps and I'm just plumb tuckered out. When I got home from walking with my friend, I was totally in hunting mode and I way too many calories, although it wasn't really "bad" food since I don't keep that stuff in the house. Still, I'm disappointed in knowing that my craving got the best of me. <BR> <BR> Back to the drawing table for better coping mechanisms ... sigh ... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 21:44:05 EST Where'd the weekend go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901962 Wow! This weekend went by way too fast. I had a good time with company that came into town for an overnight stay. I had a good time hanging out with my hubby. Today, we spent time helping the couple that came to stay with us move their son out of his apt. I felt like I got a lot of steps in but my FitBit says no. Oh well ... Tomorrow is another day. <BR> <BR> I've got a busy week ahead and am hoping I can remember everything to get done. Where are my lists??? <BR> <BR> Hope you've ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 22:26:09 EST Time for a nap! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900762 We rolled out of bed this morning at 4 am and were at the Rec Center at 5 when they opened. Yawn ... we got 30 mins in and headed back home. I did 2.5 mins walking and 2.5 mins jogging at a slow pace. That worked better. I was still wore out by the time we started for home but it was good. <BR> <BR> So far today I've completed the grocery shopping, some of the cooking, all of the laundry (to include folded/hung up and put away AND most of my housework. I still need to vacuum but ... it'... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 17:05:48 EST Another week done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900327 I'm currently working a 4-10 shift so Thursdays are usually Friday for me. It was a great relief to clear my desk before leaving this afternoon so I can arrive to an organized, clean work area on Monday. It still feels weird to have an office. <BR> <BR> I didn't go to the Rec Center today but have been fairly active with things that needed to be done. I just almost at 10,000 steps on my FitBit, which will earn me 15 activity points on the wellness website that tracks that. I am plannin... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 22:38:09 EST It's always something ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899624 Today I hauled out of bed at 4 am and went to the Rec Center with my darlin'. He's been working on getting back into running as his schedule allows and he enjoys running in the mornings if he can. I had a flash of inspiration and decided today was my day to start running again. Here's a few things I've pondered on all day long .... <BR> <BR> 1. Yes, it is very hard to breath while you are running. Start slower and run for less time. <BR> 2. Running needs to be a gift to myself, not a ... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 19:13:21 EST Thought for the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898603 I know what food I'm taking but not sure yet about when I'm going to be working out (I should go get dressed right now and go). There's a meeting this evening my hubby and I want to attend, so this evening is out for working out. I could just take my shoes and a pair of socks and walk on my lunch hour ... or I could go right now. I'm attempting to talk myself into getting dressed and heading out into the rain but I'm snuggled up in front of the fireplace, nice and warm and finally getting ... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 06:54:29 EST Another day in the books http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898473 Ugh ... I typed today until my wrists were going numb! Whew ... that was a big bummer! I rarely got out of my chair or even tuned in to what was going on around me. MMMMM ... that's not gonna work! The saving grace was my hubby was still wanting to go to the Rec Center when he got home from work, so off we went. I'm over 11,000 steps on my Fitbit, closed out at 1472 for calories and I'm sleepy. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow ... Tomorrow is another day to try again but for now, I'm content handling... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 22:39:24 EST Great day for a new beginning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897756 Sundays are still very difficult for me. Maybe they always will be. In the time I've been gone (this go around), we suffered another loss in our family. My son and daughter-in-law lost their unborn baby on the day that marked 8 months since our son died and 6 months since my mom passed away. I just don't understand ... I may never ... <BR> <BR> Things are changing in my world again with my husband moving to a new job. His first day is tomorrow. Everything about it great ... almost ...... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 21:03:37 EST I'll keep starting over ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897119 as long as I keep giving up ... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1528808476.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sat, 21 Mar 2015 18:21:26 EST Sure way to kill a good morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866541 The scale ... sigh ... Yes, I'm pouting and I'll admit I am. I haven't weighed for a couple of weeks cuz I want to make sure that I'm not obsessing about the scale and my weight. That said, I climbed on and I was up a pound. <em>28</em> Right after I felt like screaming, then I felt like this <em>46</em> right up until my husband tried to help talk me through being so disappointed and I felt like <em>234</em> except more not happy. <BR> <BR> Now I've had a couple of hours to... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 13:26:31 EST More unscientific fun stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864763 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1960577544.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here's what I'm talking about on the FitBit feedback. I love knowing that I've only burned (approximately) 1900 calories for the day. I know I've been going, going, going and my steps/mileage show that BUT my calories burned show another piece of the puzzle. <BR> <BR> I like graphics ... they help me a TON! Wed, 28 Jan 2015 20:22:24 EST