EAGLES_WINGS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=EAGLES%5FWINGS EAGLES_WINGS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Overcoming in Spite of Difficulties with the help of the LORD and my delightful friends! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349256 I have had sinus surgery as most of you know. Today was the appointment to check on a potential infection. It seems to be minor and the doctor was overall very pleased with my progress and thought that I was doing better than other patients at this point which was a shock to me. Though, so many people have been praying for me, this should come as no shock. He was also pleased with how well I was keeping up with the nasal irrigation which was to be every half hour and sinus rinse twice a day. ... Tue, 7 May 2013 23:38:58 EST Resetting my Spark Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310927 I have reset my goals to kind of "start over". I am also going to reset my articles and quizzes. I want to get a better handle on things. I am going to try to create a meal plan that will help me straighten up my food intake. I plan to start all motivational articles for beginners again. I want to start from scratch and improve my motivation for weight loss. Hoping this will help me get through this hump. Suggestions and ideas are welcome! Thank you for stopping by to read my blog. May the Lo... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 02:33:24 EST HONESTY; the best policy... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293738 I have been eating too many sweet snacks. It has been hard to stop. I know part of it is addiction, habit. Part of it is stress eating. Part of it is social eating. <BR> <BR> Losing weight is not easy. I have to change behaviors if I want to change the number on the scale and my health. <BR> <BR> The biggest thing for me is the decision that comes when I think I am able to work in the calories or my inner child takes over and wants a sweet treat from the past as well as different coping s... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 13:15:04 EST Changing Spark Name from NY_Karen_2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280144 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l233269465.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> Changing spark name to OnEaglesWings or similar. Have to see what is taken. <BR> <BR> <em>285</em> Isaiah 40:31 <BR> But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. <BR> <BR> I want to remind myself that I can do anything with the Lord on my side! <BR> <BR> You can, too... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 13:27:27 EST Monday, March 4, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272616 Greetings to my friends! May you be well and healthy today. I pray that the Spirit of the Living Lord would uplift and hold you closely as you go about your day today! <BR> <BR> I am venturing out after a very deep sleep and much rest yesterday mixed with some tears for the struggle my father is fighting. He has been battling leukemia for years and now is sick in the hospital with a blood infection. I am praying that the Lord will take care of him throughout the day and the angels be looking... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 11:36:32 EST Looking for the silver lining on a food fest! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263963 I had intense sugar cravings today. Some part of my psyche was determined on sabotage! Calories, what? They don't matter. "I want what I want and I want it right now." The sum total of willfulness! However, I told myself not to stress. The calories were much less than what I used to binge on which is progress even though a twisted progress. lol. But, I really need to look at the silver lining. I got more than adequate water today which now I plan on having more to flush some of the sugar and ... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 21:18:05 EST Dare to be.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262723 “Dare to Be <BR> <BR> When a new day begins, dare to smile gratefully. <BR> <BR> When there is darkness, dare to be the first to shine a light. <BR> <BR> When there is injustice, dare to be the first to condemn it. <BR> <BR> When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway. <BR> <BR> When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back. <BR> <BR> When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some. <BR> <BR> When you’re feeling tired, dare to keep going. <BR> <BR> When times are tou... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 22:54:16 EST LOVE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260036 <em>214</em> <em>26</em> <em>437</em> <em>214</em> <em>26</em> <em>437</em> <em>214</em> <em>26</em> <em>437</em> <BR> <BR> 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 <BR> <BR> New International Version (NIV) <BR> <BR> 4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 12:57:36 EST Insidious Disease; Setting Goals to Overcome! ; Yikes...What a Journey!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255741 <em>40</em> I had some problems with snacking before bed last night. If you saw my feed you would know that I bought yogurt yesterday. I normally buy mostly fat free plain yogurt and I did. I even had to talk to the store manager about stocking more since they had not had it the last time I was there and the next time, only one. I had a coupon for Yoplait yogurt and they were on sale in addition to that. I got 6 of those which I planned to split with my best friend. We got to talking in the... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 05:51:58 EST Insidious Disease; Setting Goals to Overcome! ; Yikes...What a Journey!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255740 <em>40</em> I had some problems with snacking before bed last night. If you saw my feed you would know that I bought yogurt yesterday. I normally buy mostly fat free plain yogurt and I did. I even had to talk to the store manager about stocking more since they had not had it the last time I was there and the next time, only one. I had a coupon for Yoplait yogurt and they were on sale in addition to that. I got 6 of those which I planned to split with my best friend. We got to talking in the... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 05:51:57 EST Update! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249622 The Holy Spirit reminded me of Ps. 91 today. My favorite part of it is where the Lord keeps us in the shadow of His wings. I love that. <BR> <BR> I enjoyed the day with a friend. I had my follow up therapy appointment and it went well. She brought me there and then we had a reasonable lunch at my place and went out shopping for household items and food/nutrients! I did not have any sugary treats at all. <BR> <BR> I had a snack of nuts while running errands. They were really good and bette... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 21:22:19 EST Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248555 I got home from the hospital for treatment on PTSD issues. I had lost focus in my life. I got a lot of help out of treatment and felt better when I came home on Monday evening. Though, I felt overwhelmed yesterday because there was so much to do and I seemed to be moving so slow. I went to a support group in the evening and afterward snacked on some French peasant bread I bought since I seemed to have missed it from some time and made the "bread" mistake. I honestly should not have bread in t... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 04:06:07 EST Sugar Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217859 I have had a bit of the mid-winter blues. Though today, I got out and walked in the snow which was awesome. I think my little spot of the blues has given me sugar cravings. I really want to start planning meals but I don't have much experience with that. I am not sure if I really want to go low-carb. However, I do want to get better at planning healthy carbohydrates into my diet. The only way I can think of doing that is meal planning. I have been somewhat reluctant to do meal planning since ... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 23:20:18 EST Losing Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155148 I had a wonderful Thanksgiving with my family though now since Thanksgiving the carb junkie is out of the bag, I feel like there is baked goods everywhere and I am hooked. I have not been blogging much and I have slipped in a lot of groups and with keeping in touch with friends. All I have on my mind is Christmas, advent, and spending time with family and getting special gifts for my family. I think I really need to sink some more motivation for healthy eating and mild exercise. I have been t... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 20:16:39 EST Bless the Lord, O my soul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5131031 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1256613417.jpg">Psalm 103 <BR> King James Version (KJV) <BR> 103 Bless the Lord, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name. <BR> <BR> 2 Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits: <BR> <BR> 3 Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; <BR> <BR> 4 Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; <BR> <BR> 5 Who satisfieth t... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 22:49:36 EST From Cliffhangers to Happy Dancing! ( : http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5125488 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l479028813.jpg"> <BR> Sometimes with overeating I feel like I am out on the edge of a cliff waiting for the worst to happen. It seems as if I have a problem with overeating or binging, I feel like the world is coming to end. I panic. I don't want to gain weight! I freak out like these people in a haunted house did: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1848174093.jpg"> <BR> Fear has the potential to become a great motivator... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 22:01:32 EST The Key is Willingness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112615 From the AA Daily Reflections book: <BR> <BR> I thought I could use a little of this! <BR> <BR> <link>www.daily-reflections.com/2012/03/07<BR>/the-key-is-willingness-2-4/ </link> <BR> <BR> ...The willingness to give up my pride and self-will to a Power greater than myself has proved to be the only ingredient absolutely necessary to solve all of my problems today. Even the smallest amount of willingness, if sincere, is sufficient to allow God to enter and take control over my problem, pai... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 15:22:38 EST Binging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5111996 I don't know if it is the dark weather and the seasonal changes setting in or if I am going bonkers. I have had three binges this week. One on Sunday and one on Tuesday, I just simply was craving sugar. Then, Wednesday, I went to a food drop off. I am on a very limited budget and I have spent a lot of money on food trying to eat fresh and healthy. I have had problems getting to discount stores because of getting rides. Then, yesterday, I got all these binge triggers from the food pantry drop ... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 04:17:00 EST Synopsis of the Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109155 I have had an interesting day. I have come off of a fibro flare up intensified by T.O.M. . Grateful to be feeling better over the day after a long night's rest, I enjoyed the sunshine and got outside and soaked some of it up spending time with a friend and taking a walk. God granted me a growing sunshine in my heart sufficient to overcome the difficulties of the day. <BR> <BR> I had some help unwrapping some concerns I had with a family visit coming up. I have to prepare for my Mother's 75t... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 22:11:46 EST Lite Coffee for Coffee Lovers Whimsy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5106119 <em>287</em> <em>297</em> <em>271</em> <em>287</em> <em>297</em> <em>271</em> <em>287</em> <em>297</em> <em>271</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1415276065.jpg"> <BR> <BR> For a tasty cold coffee: <BR> <BR> Brew decaf (good Columbian/Central American) beans and chill the coffee in the fridge overnight. <BR> <BR> To a twelve ounce glass put 1/3 cup milk of your choice. I take 1% and you may prefer something different. <BR> <BR> P... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 14:44:44 EST Don't Quit, Hope! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5100516 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l358405833.jpg"> <BR> <BR> When things go wrong as they sometimes will, <BR> When the road you're trudging seems all up hill, <BR> When the funds are low and the debts are high <BR> And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, <BR> When care is pressing you down a bit, <BR> Rest if you must, but don't you quit. <BR> Life is strange with its twists and turns <BR> As everyone of us sometimes learns <BR> And many a failure comes about <BR> When... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 21:35:34 EST Mixed Advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5098205 I got a number of tips from my nurse practioner on weight loss. Some of them were good suggestions and some of them were challenges Some I knew I could not keep due to food addiction. Though one thing that I tried really failed. She suggested graham crackers as a snack. She balked a bit when I told her I had trouble with crackers. She said to me that I needed to have willpower. Now, I have gotten into a bit of calorie trouble with those graham crackers, I knew already most crackers were now... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 00:53:16 EST Roller Coaster Ride. YET landing on my feet!!!: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094458 My emotions have been helter skelter the last few days since my extra fun weekend. I have had a serious surge of feeling overwhelmed, problems with eating sugar lately, and some depression and mood stuff mixed in with physical health problems. I don't know how I can be so up some of the time and then struggle at other times! But, happy to say that although yesterday was a true struggle by evening I felt much better. I had not slept at all on Monday night, probably because of the excitement of... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 20:03:43 EST *The best few days ever~~~~~~! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092078 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/5/l250088588.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The Lord is so GOOD!!! <BR> <BR> I can't begin to say all the special things that have happened in the last few days but I must say that God has brought me near to Him in a way I have never known. I feel restored to the faith I once had and then beyond. I am so pleased to be completely saved from the wreckage of my past. God has blessed me and given me truths, Godly friends and joy! <BR> <BR> My mother is coming ... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 23:39:42 EST Loading up on PHYTOnutrients http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5083877 Today's Lunch: baby mixed colored bell peppers, carrot slices, radishes with a PROTEIN shot of plain yogurt mixed with cilantro, cumin, lemon pepper and dill! <BR> <BR> Yummy! <BR> <BR> Concord grapes and graham crackers after PT. <BR> <BR> Breakfast oatmeal, milk and Concord grapes. <BR> <BR> Feeling good after PT. Initially the knees hurt but I got some ice before I left. <BR> Got some cheery oldies on and will be doing crafts and cleaning this afternoon! With a little paperwork, booho... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 13:57:33 EST Getting Back On Track for October! With Intention! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082364 I have been through a week of being sick and I have veered off the path with my food intake and had lack of exercise. I have had some issues with the seasonal changes around here. A little too much carb intake. I still feel a little off but the carbs won't help me feel better. Need to get some fresh vegies in me! And back on some good proteins! Last week I gained 5 pounds. I will get back on track. I have to make some clear goals and parameters for even when I get blue or sick that I can stay... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 14:36:38 EST Off the Wagon for a Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5076904 All I know is that I feel I went off the deep end with food yesterday. The only thing I can figure out is that I was overtired and made some very poor decisions. But, at some point it became willful. I don't quite know what overcame me but I am going to make a turn around today. I am so grateful that I can get off the elevator here and not slip all the way down. I need to, in spite of my consternation with myself, get back up on the horse and ride again with all intensity to right me. Today i... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 10:13:30 EST Philippians 4:6-8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5072951 Today is a hectic day and I want to remember this verse. Hoping you can get something from it as well. <BR> <BR> 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. <BR> <BR> 8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is love... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 12:45:04 EST The Returnables Shift! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5069399 <em>274</em> I have just noticed that in my meager returnable bag, I have mostly water bottles. Occasionally I reach for the caffeine boost in a cola but I prefer coffee in that case...which actually has some useful antioxidants in it as compared to the bone draining carbonated beverages like colas. <em>222</em> Those pricey sugars which cost so much in empty calories are no longer endured. Cutting back on conventional artificial sweeteners and primarily using stevia. I have learned that... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 15:48:11 EST Let's Do It!!! Let's Make It Happen! Let's Go! Let's Go!!! You coming??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063636 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l502896180.jpg"> <BR> In the last month I have lost 4lbs and the last couple of weeks I have lost 2lbs of fat! I am very happy! Though, from now on the only numbers I will track will be from the nutrition clinic no matter what the scales in the doctors offices are at. Which lately in the last year, all down, down, down! Which is sooo very exciting! But, I am not quitting here! I am pushing forward and hoping that I can push those numbers all ... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 17:39:04 EST Feeling Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058363 I have been trying to adjust to everyday life since surgery last week though my body does not seem to be cooperating. Everything takes more effort than it usually does and I am usually challenged anyway. I don't want to whimper and whine too much but I feel like I am overcome. Since Tuesday night until this morning I slept most of the time. I went out to do some shopping that I needed to do and it knocked the stuffing right out of me. I went to a support group on the urging of friends and it ... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 22:58:12 EST VICTORY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5046495 I am now 31.5 pounds down! Praise the Lord! I am so grateful for the tools here at Spark, the encouragement from friends, the motivational examples here and the Spark teams which have helped me so much. <BR> <BR> I also am having surgery tomorrow and I am believing and having faith that everything will be fine. I thank those who have been praying for me and I am very thankful for it. <BR> <BR> I am so very excited about my weight loss. I am going to step it up and go for the next ten pound... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 01:03:08 EST Took back my will http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5041424 Instead of trusting in God. I worried about my problems and it lead me to overeat. I worried about what I had to eat and finally went shopping and just indulged in crackers and ate the whole box. When I think I am in control of my life, I have to remember where the power comes from. On my own I can not do this by myself. God has blessed me with things that I can do to help my health. When I am not grateful and when I worry, I am not trusting in Him. I need to reexamine my path this past week ... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 16:57:27 EST The refrigerator is not my higher power! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5036699 I don't need to go to the refrigerator to fix my problems! <BR> I don't need to stare vacantly into the refrigerator searching for answers to unsolved problems. <BR> Today I worked through my feelings without overeating or binging! Yay! <BR> That is a big step in reality for me. <BR> I am very happy about it. <BR> I talked to supports, made plans, confronted the situation and prayed for the direction that God would have me go in to allow myself peace of mind and right actions. <BR> Right ac... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 22:25:50 EST Calories Surprise...Oh my! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5012922 I have not made lentils in a very long time and I probably have never tracked them. All I added was broth and carrots. However, I definitely made too much. I thought lentils were low in calorie and what I added was not much more. Yet, I did not check the calories before eating and before making them. What a disappointment. I think that whenever I eat an old fashioned home cooked meal which I haven't made since my pre-dieting days when I used to eat a few bowls of things like that, I need to c... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 01:54:40 EST A Recap: Dad, Sunday, and more! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5012709 Fortunately, Dad is doing better. He seems to be gaining in spirit. However, his wound is oozing and he had to get some more platelets and transfusions and blood proteins. I will talk to him tomorrow and see if he is still coming home Monday or if they have to stop the oozing first. My hope and prayer is that he will be home soon but that the oozing would be taken care of before he leaves the hospital. <BR> <BR> I want to thank everyone for the outpouring of support and lifting up my fath... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 22:02:08 EST Dad's in Hospital http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5007060 My Dad just came out of the hospital due to his leukemia and then I just heard from my sister and apparently he overdid it and now fell and broke his hip. Hoping that he will let himself heal this time. His surgery is tomorrow morning and I will be praying for a good outcome though I have been in my own world today due to feeling rather sick from a bug. Gotta get my head on right and find a way to reach out to my Dad. He's still in the emergency ward. He's a real gogetter and I don't think he... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 17:29:39 EST Good News from Nutrition Clinic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005873 I am on my way to bed but couldn't help but share the news. <BR> <BR> Today, I found out that I gained 5.5 pounds of lean mass which is really awesome. <BR> I also found out that I lost two pounds of fat but my fluid was up two pounds. <BR> <BR> I had been kind of distraught over my difficulties with food choices this week. I didn't know that in spite of all that, I had made progress. <BR> <BR> In fact, I have lost 20 ponds of fat since February, reducing my fat mass as I am learning new h... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 22:41:50 EST BETTER CHOICES WITH THE WEEKEND! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5002770 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l265220418.jpg"> <BR> I am grateful to all who helped me get over the hump this week with a patch of grisly eating habits. <BR> <BR> I have taken some of the suggestions given by other supportive members. <BR> <BR> I have bought some low cal tasty snack packs. Many the 100 calorie ones. <BR> <BR> Purchased a lot of healthy food this week. Look forward to enjoying making tasty choices like the tuna salad I made today and the fruit salad w... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 00:07:50 EST Problem Eating, Emotions and Fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000113 Since the picnic on Tuesday I have been fighting the calories. Each day it is a step better but not healed yet. I am amazed at what an avalanche has occurred this week. I had some anxiety and stress and apparently it got to me to where I was emotional eating. I had been nervous about the picnic for other reasons than food which may have played a role there. I have been worried about money which adds another stressor. The other aspect is that I have been having fat thinking. I have been sizing... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 22:22:44 EST Picnic Pros and Cons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4995673 Tonight I had a bunch of friends over for a picnic. We grilled and had the usual picnic fare. <BR> <BR> My calories went over range but not that bad. I had extra fruit salad after the picnic and some more meat without buns. My carb count was high. <BR> <BR> I did not have any potato chips or much on the side except a very good mac and cheese casserole and I only had a small serving of that. <BR> <BR> Where I went wrong was the soda. I had a soda before and during the meal. I had brought... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 01:00:30 EST Someday Gardening Again? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4992516 Why do I want to lose weight? There are so many reasons to lose. I have been thinking of different modes of motivation. <BR> <BR> My close friend, Susan, is a gardener. She has a beautiful garden outside her apartment that she has started last year. It goes around the edge of her part of the complex. <BR> <BR> I love flowers. Susan's interest in gardening has rekindled my own interest. My family had a nursery and flower shop and greenhouses for many years as I grew up. My Mom and father w... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 02:36:08 EST Revolutionary Times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4990017 I am doing so well with cooking and food prep. Really excited. <BR> <BR> Not tracking for a few days to see how I fly. <BR> Will get back to it very shortly and track away! <BR> <BR> Walked a bit today and got a lot done around the house. <BR> <BR> I have to decided to give up donuts. Whew. I cannot believe that I have come to that decision. I think it is a good one. It will be good for my waistline I am hoping. <BR> <BR> Enjoyed the twilight tonight on the way home from the countryside.... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 00:58:49 EST Scaring up some MOTIVATION! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4983680 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l930329808.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am trying to dig deep to keep going on the upward road to greater health and weight loss. I keep the daily needs in prayer to the Lord Jesus. I will be confident if I do not lose my way. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l630452313.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I want to be there for the kids in my life. From my oldest nephew, Trevor to my youngest niece, Isabel. They keep my focus on the hope tha... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 18:19:48 EST Healthy Living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4978797 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l885363472.jpg"> <BR> <link>www.healthy-holistic-living.com/Defi<BR>nition-of-Healthy-Living.html </link> <BR> I have many health struggles. I long to live a healthy life. No change comes without commitment. Today I want to honor my pledge to improve my life by becoming a healthier person. For me, it starts with simple things like choosing an apple over a chocolate bar. I forget these things some times. I want to have my cake and eat it to... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 07:16:19 EST Presentation, Preparation and No More Cans! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4969080 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l98603577.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is my lunch today. I like cottage cheese with scallions and cherry tomatoes. No more baked beans from a can. I like the welcoming look this image of my lunch dish has. It appeals to me. I want to take the time to make a meal for myself without using the can opener and the microwave. The whole food shift has been good for me. Though my evil twin still likes the treats and I must say that I still add them to my d... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 17:58:05 EST Greedy Emotional Eating Kicking Butt! Gotta turn it around!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4946555 <em>40</em> <em>40</em> <em>40</em> <em>40</em> <em>40</em> <BR> This is the time to turn it around. I have been eating sloppy since yesterday. I regret slippy sliding and sabotaging myself. I need to get a grip. I have been nervous about family trip and I think that is why I am losing it. I need to turn it over and let go of the worry. Worry never got anyone anywhere. I am going to get over it. I am not going to let my nerves get the best of me... As of here it stops. <BR> <BR> I hav... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 16:35:40 EST 22 Pounds Down! and down memory lane with the diet cycle... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4942081 <em>244</em> <BR> So excited!!! I am two pounds away from being under 300lbs. Three pounds away from my 25lb weight loss goal! At my highest I weighed 350. I lost weight before and got down to about 285 where I stayed for a while and than crept up. I was blindly dieting at that point and had gotten down to actually for a moment to 275. But, now I am eating more balanced and healthy and have been working on that for a while. Binge eating less though still struggle a bit. Emotional eating les... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 18:18:21 EST Exercise with Fibro/Getting a little more picky with carbs... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4938361 My fibromyalgia symptoms have increased this week and the weather was very hot and humid affecting my joints. I feel like these are excuses but I am trying to figure out what will work for me. I have some chair exercise DVDs. They are long but I could try to do it twice or three times a week to start. I bought a new one recently which is very cheery. I was in the mood for something that wasn't so solemn as my yoga one. This one is a bit stepped up. I also want to figure out a stretching rout... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 23:54:29 EST Just weighing in my thoughts for the night...good, bad, or indifferent. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4936903 I overate on sweets today. Did not go over my calorie limit but had made some poor choices. Was trying to not have cheat day until Sat. But, T.O.M. starting to come down and whoop me a bit. I really think I need to find better ways to deal with it. Also made a slight caffeine exception today as I did not want to miss my bus at hospital fearing that I would slump off in the waiting room by the door if I sat too long. But, went half and half on caffeine and non caffeine coffee. Last night, I s... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 22:08:28 EST