DUFFSMOM's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DUFFSMOM DUFFSMOM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Hanging On - Some Days Are Easier Than Others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5394132 Have struggled a little bit today. Stayed on plan but it was not as smooth as I would like. But have stayed within my point range. My husband brought home two boxes of granola. Granola!! Like little nuggets of heaven in a box. It is a brand I love, Sunbelt. But I have not had any--it is just too many points and is not worth it. <BR> <BR> So tomorrow will increase my fluid intake and make sure that I am getting enough. I tend to get hungry feeling when I am just really thirsty. <BR> <... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 00:27:51 EST Will Wonders Never Cease... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390007 Been plugging away at my plan and by golly it is working. Today I saw some real movement in the scale. 327 and I am very happy. Can you imagine being excited to be 327? It is all relative, isn't it? <BR> <BR> This is when I wish I could travel back in time and visit with my young self and say, "My dear, one day you will be thrilled to be DOWN to 327 lbs." Maybe it would make me think before shoveling in all that comfort food! Maybe... <BR> <BR> So my plan is to soldier on, continue t... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 13:44:15 EST Broke The First Barrier http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389618 Well plugging along, slow but steady. Finally broke the 330 barrier. My last successful weight loss plan was 7 years ago and I started at 330. This time I started at 345....so finally I am just below where I started the last time. <BR> <BR> Gotta keep at it. Sat, 15 Jun 2013 01:45:56 EST Needs Must http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386928 I really love this WW program but I have to say I am not exactly burning up the trail with regard to weight loss. But I won't give up. <BR> <BR> I think when WW tells you that you don't have to count veggies and fruits - they don't intend you to gorge yourself on them! Ya think?!?! <BR> <BR> So need to pay attention to things a little more. I hve lost 14.6 pounds but sure want to get under 330 and right now am at 330.4 and it just wants to hang on! But I will keep at it. What is that ex... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 12:26:37 EST Oh My - Big Sigh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375606 Today is weigh-in day and the loss is not there and I am discouraged. Not "quit" discouraged. No, I have to continue. <BR> <BR> But I had a good week, did I what I was supposed to do, Had one minor slip up but it wasn't really bad in the overall scheme of things. I never was outside my point range (WW). <BR> <BR> So this week my reward for doing what I know I need to do, walking away from things I know are bad for me and certainly not weight-friendly is under a half pound loss. I am full o... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 13:18:22 EST Tomorrow - Weigh in for Week 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375030 Well, tomorow is my end of week 3 weigh-in. I have my doubts. The first two weeks were good, lost a lot of fluid and I suppose a bit of weight for an 11.8 pound loss. This week has felt different and I can't explain it. I have been on my plan each day with one slip up last night - but I logged it faithfully and it wasn't really a serious slip. I didn't eat a cake anyway. <BR> <BR> I suspect I am getting too much food on my WW plan. I am allowed 44 points. But that is figured for someone my... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 21:42:38 EST Can it ever be too late? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372835 Here is a wake up call for those of you with 50 pounds or more to lose. Don't give up. I gave up, gave in, fell off...whatever the terminology--then I wallowed in it for 6 years....SIX YEARS!!! <BR> <BR> In 2007 I lost 60 pounds and my entire life changed. I was still fat, but I could move, and loved it. A speck of dirt on my car? No problem, I just went out and washed it. Granddaughter's wading pool dirty? No problem, we just scrubbed it together. It was wonderful. <BR> <BR> Friends, tha... Thu, 30 May 2013 17:56:15 EST Did You Know...? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3952613 Did you know that while all portions are not created equal (thank you DebbieDay for that wonderful BLOG) that calories are. <BR> <BR> Did you know that if you eat 500 calories of cake and 500 calories of green beans, your body says, "hey there's enough here to make some fat." <BR> <BR> I have been trying again to get some of this weight off before I am crippled and my legs just flat decide not to get up with me in the morning. I'm being funny, but the pain is not. So I foolishly thought ... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 12:05:07 EST Finally Some Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3879994 Fear is a funny thing. It can a lot of stress, panic, health problems. But in this instance, it is motivating me to change. <BR> <BR> Sparkfriends, I am finally scared. I have been gaining weight, thinking this is stupid, knowing one day I would finally begin again. Then I got scared. I'm not afraid of dying, or having a heart attack. But I am afraid of living my life in a wheelchair, or confined to my bed because my legs have just finally given up because they cannot carry the weight a... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 11:28:06 EST Oh Crap, Here We Go Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3873865 Am trying again. Weight is up to 337 and I am miserable in my own skin. <BR> <BR> Leaving my daughter's on Christmas, I had to have her tie my shoes, I was so stiff. Then I couldn't get myself to step up into Eric's truck he had to give me butt assistance to get in! Then I was so frustrated, like huge turtle on its back, I didn't have the energy to snap the seatbelt into the buckle. <BR> <BR> It was a humiliating but profound moment. So here we go again--I had stopped trying. <BR> <img... Fri, 31 Dec 2010 10:47:33 EST Isn't This A Nasty Battle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3235312 The battle goes on. Some good days, followed by a host of bad ones that manage to undo the good ones. <BR> <BR> My biggest concern and primary focus needs to be my legs. Walking is increasingly difficult and I cannot stand longer than 5 or 10 minutes without horrible pain in my legs and back. No need to look too far as to whose fault and responsibility this is....yes mine. But why isn't that knowledge enough to get this old body moving in the right direction? <BR> Sun, 16 May 2010 14:04:33 EST The Walk of Shame :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2880851 Okay--somedays are just icky! <BR> <BR> Do want to share a sort of convoluted victory. Those that know me, know I struggle with compulsive overeating. Yeah, well.... Went to the store today, hurting pretty good from the fibro. And it is Valentine's day and the bakery had this huge M & M cookie, frosted with my biggest weakness, bakery frosting. And when I say huge, I mean the diameter of the biggest pizza Pizza Hut used to sell called the New Yorker. <BR> <BR> Yep, big frosted cookie,... Sun, 14 Feb 2010 15:37:18 EST Rerun or Haven't I Said This Before? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2797706 Hello there ---am trying AGAIN. I'm tired, I feel like cr@p and am trying again. <BR> <BR> Wish I had just a touch more faith in my own word!! Tue, 26 Jan 2010 01:23:27 EST Ummmm..that's nice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2779865 Too often I come here to complain, or moan, or whine. Just wanted to share a good day. I was so busy that eating was a secondary concern. Got a lot done at work--all those little piddly jobs that we put off. And I had a good food day. <BR> <BR> So duffsmom mark your calendar, by golly you had a good day. Thu, 21 Jan 2010 23:54:36 EST Pleasant Goings On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2454099 It seems when I BLOG, I tend to come here to lay out the things that are wrong--with me--with life in general. Just wanted to share something at the other end of the spectrum. <BR> <BR> I am at a point in my life right now where I am feeling quite content. Oh the weight is still a burr under my saddle so-to-speak--but other things are just very nice right now. I love my job and we have used the extra money to accomplish a lot of things around our home that have needed fixing. That feels ... Mon, 5 Oct 2009 12:58:16 EST Relieving Pressure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2443004 Still a struggle. I have found out a couple of things; things I have always known but have come to the forefront in the last few days. The more I agonize over my weight, the more I want to eat. The more I talk about weight loss, the more I want to eat. <BR> <BR> Nothing sends me into a feeding frenzy faster then a group hug with people who are trying to "get jazzed" up about losing weight. I think this stems from my being an only child and a loner. I tend to have more fun doing my own t... Thu, 1 Oct 2009 01:05:03 EST Am I Becoming Hypochondriacal? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2316769 Ok I'm going to whine. I am saying that right off the bat so anyone reading and see that word and say--ugh I'm not reading this and who could blame them? <BR> <BR> This fibromyalgia is kicking my a$$! I've had symptoms since 1991, but this last year the pain is absolutely stunning. Everything hurts and what is strange is that it actually feels like an open wound, it is that sharp and raw feeling--like a blister on your foot but you have to keep walking. ouch ouch ouch. <BR> <BR> Although... Fri, 14 Aug 2009 23:44:24 EST Incidious Sneak Attacks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2280835 I've been thinking--like you do and it has occured to me that some of my bad habits that I had set aside came back, but not with a loud announcement--but a slow, steady silent attack . <BR> <BR> Oh no, I could spot the obvious kind of attack and steal myself for it. No, my bad habits are sneaky and they peck away at me, little by little until --poof--they're baaccckkkkk! <BR> <BR> It's like deciding that too much caffeine gives you a headache. So you stop caffeine and all is well---after... Sun, 2 Aug 2009 16:28:29 EST Suggestions Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2223872 I have come to a conclusion and this is not really about the weight. I looked in the mirror the other day (while I waited for my one pair of pants to finish drying) and did not like what I saw in terms of grooming. <BR> <BR> Oh I am always clean--absolutely will not leave the house without a shower, clean clothes and mascara. But I am in dire need of some nicer clothes. <BR> <BR> I am always waiting. I don't want to buy clothes at this size--gosh I'll wait until I am smaller to get clothi... Mon, 13 Jul 2009 00:39:57 EST Think I'll Blog... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2209336 Think I'll BLOG this end of the day instead of later. <BR> <BR> This way I will predict the day instead of lamenting the day. <BR> <BR> I'm going to have a good day--oh yes I am. I feel sick, I feel tired and I feel a little depressed. Ok Pat, what would fix those things. Let me think. <BR> <BR> 1) Eating right would help <BR> <BR> 2) Thinking right would help <BR> <BR> 3) Making the health of my body a priority would help <BR> <BR> 4) Moving on a daily basis would help (not just the... Tue, 7 Jul 2009 10:42:51 EST To Celebrate is to Eat--WHY? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2205181 Well a couple of years ago when I started Spark, I developed a number of healthy habits. One of which was to think of celebrations in a different way and not as an excuse to eat or have foods I otherwise would pass on. <BR> <BR> Yes, as I said "a couple of years ago." <BR> <BR> We hosted our daughter's family, daughter, son-in-law and those miraculous granddaughters. We had burgers, hot dogs, brats and various and sundry other things. I know we should have barbecued chicken breasts but ... Sun, 5 Jul 2009 23:10:57 EST The Guilt That Keeps on Giving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2195016 I have no idea why I feel such guilt at the slightest drop of a hat! I am an honest person, do not steal, do not cheat--and unless someone wearing a purple pup tent asks me how they look--I try not to lie. <BR> <BR> But I always seem to be ripe for the laying on quilt--by ME. <BR> <BR> We needed a new printer at work. I researched prices, reviews, cost of cartridges and finally chose an HP all-in-one wireless printer. It arrives and WILL NOT INSTALL PROPERLY ANYWHERE. After several days o... Wed, 1 Jul 2009 11:08:33 EST Computer Woes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2182892 I have a very addictive personality--and I am sure none of you are surprised by this. I don't drink because having had alcoholic parents I can see the writing on the wall. Instead I turned to food. <BR> <BR> But, I also find that my computer is fitting into that same catagory. I log on and come here to Sparks, read my groups posts, check things out, then head to Yahoo and read the news, then do email--oh back to Sparks to see if anyone has posted--then back to Yahoo, what news did I miss?... Fri, 26 Jun 2009 12:59:21 EST Oh Man...!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2175416 You know I've had two good days and the weight has not dropped off. WOW! <BR> <BR> Funny how when I behave, I expect instant results. Darn, I guess I will have to stick with it a few more "days!" <BR> <BR> Passed on Taco Tuesday at work. That is huge because Marty and I usually do Taco Tuesday--we have for almost a year now. They go down to .80 each on Tuesdays--pretty good deal. <BR> <BR> So as I promised myself I am doing my best and am hoping to make it second nature. Tue, 23 Jun 2009 20:13:08 EST A New Beginning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2168413 Well as if you all haven't heard this before--I begin again. <BR> <BR> Was sitting doing some ink coloring yesterday, watching the True Blood series on my little laptop and was happy as a clam doing so. The phone rang, got up and I swear one leg wouldn't work. Could not make it to the phone --everything was stiff and did not want to move. So enough already! <BR> <BR> I'm in the mood and am going to make the most of it. I am going to do what I did before and make small sustainable changes ... Sun, 21 Jun 2009 10:51:49 EST General Observation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2167763 I love Sparkpeople and I love all of the people that I come in contact with here. <BR> <BR> This BLOG is NOT directed at any of my friends, nor the people I share a group with. But rather directed at an odd comment I received from a stranger and have deleted. She meant well, but assumed too much from a BLOG or two I had written. I tend to write very dramatically, but in reality I am not a drama queen in my daily life. I am rather stoic, and reserved, keeping much to myself--until pen hit... Sun, 21 Jun 2009 00:04:26 EST A Beautiful Evening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2160319 Thank you so much for the wonderful kind supportive comments on my last BLOG. <BR> <BR> What a beautiful evening! It is partially cloudy and the sun is behind the clouds making them look brilliant. We had a rainy day and while I really would love sunshine all day long--the up side is that I don't have to water the garden--the sky did it! <BR> <BR> It was a long tedious day at work. The house the therapy center has moved to is a hundred years old. So there was an electrician there toda... Wed, 17 Jun 2009 23:26:40 EST Oh Brother--! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2154320 Yeah, last entry was not compulsively eating. Which is a good thing. But watchout, it is lurking right there and as soon as I drop my guard--WHAM! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I ate a bag (no not a small single serving bag--the kind people buy to have at work and they last for days) of PeanutButter M & M's. Felt like cr*p. We were out in the garden, Eric working, mowing, weed whacking. Me sitting in a chair because the fatigue is so severe that I can barely move. Oh funny how I moved enough to... Tue, 16 Jun 2009 00:47:33 EST Is it Really Going to Be June Already? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2110904 Can't believe how fast the nice days are whipping by. <BR> <BR> An update. Have not lost any weight but have stopped compulsively eating at this time. I can go to the store, get what we need and not top off my drive home with an entire box of Oreo Cakesters (which by the way are a cruel cruel creation), <BR> <BR> Have been moving more to get the stiffness and pain out of my legs and knees and by golly it is working. You know it is funny--logic dictates that if something hurts when you mo... Sun, 31 May 2009 23:51:05 EST Sitting Here Red-faced http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2005629 Yes, I am sitting here red-faced and feeling a bit of shame actually. <BR> <BR> Our high school is having a 40 year reunion and I have been in contact with the gal planning it. I knew her somewhat in high school and we email now and then. No, I would not go. 1) didn't like high school 2) most of my friends when to other schools 3) it is in California--cannot afford to jaunt off to California and finally, oh and most jarring 4) I had a body that didn't quit in high school 118 lbs. tops--uh... Sat, 25 Apr 2009 16:47:06 EST Thrown Off My Schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1980237 I went to work today at 10:45, so I ate breakfast at about 10am. Then I normally will eat lunch at 1pm. This schedule works well for me. <BR> <BR> So when I got to work today, my boss, Marty had a small crock pot with BBQ beef in it and cheese rolls for us to eat. It was a very nice gesture. But she was hungry at 11am, and we sat down and ate. Could I have said, thank you but I will wait a little while to eat....well theoretically I could have...but I did not. <BR> <BR> So ate lunch wa... Fri, 17 Apr 2009 01:31:19 EST Interesting Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1976864 For some reason work seemed kind of surreal today. Ever have those kinds of days? Went to work like always but things seemed strange--like I would not have been surprised if someone tapped me on the shoulder and woke me up from a dream. <BR> <BR> Went to the doctor today. He told me a couple of things I knew and reassured me of a couple of things I was concerned about. <BR> <BR> He said I have fibromyalgia which from reading and studying it, I knew but wanted his confirmation. It has g... Wed, 15 Apr 2009 22:34:40 EST Brief http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1971493 Let's just sum up yesterday but not saying anything about it, shall we? <BR> <BR> I WILL have a better day today. I am feeling a little panicked about the absolute need to get myself under control and the inability to do so. <BR> <BR> ----sigh------ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 11:02:18 EST Is There a Sodium-free Ham? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1968472 This will be brief, and anyone who had the big family dinner may well be able to identify with this. <BR> <BR> We have a lovely group--but the talking was loud and I am not used to the chaos anymore. we had ham--of course so I do not need to post a picture of the Pillsbury Doughboy face, fingers, and ankles! <BR> <BR> Am feeling down today, not sure why but am sure it will pass as our routine returns to normal. Eric is a pastor so the Lenten Season and Easter Week are very intense for him... Mon, 13 Apr 2009 12:37:56 EST Yogurt Covered Raisins are Evil! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1964506 Okay I have already had a slip up. Went to the store and did well until I saw the bag of yogurt covered raisins. Eric and I have been buying a trail mix that has yogurt covered raisins in it. I have a serving in the evenings and it is quite a treat. <BR> <BR> But today, oh my gosh, look at that--an entire bag of the white, plumb little devils--I'm sure they dove into the cart. <BR> <BR> Ate half the bag, 540 calories, but the mini victory is that I stopped and saved the other half of the... Sat, 11 Apr 2009 22:33:21 EST It Looks a Little Overcast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1957653 I don't see the sun, but I am not going to let that affect my day. <BR> <BR> As a dear SP friend often says, I have planned what I will eat, and I will eat what I have planned. The planning helps me tremendously. It is also one of my problems in doing this long term is that I hate planning my food--it has me thinking about food even more. <BR> <BR> But--I'll deal. <BR> <BR> Down another 1 pound (fluid I know, but I will take it.) My legs are still full of fluid, so this may continue to... Thu, 9 Apr 2009 10:13:18 EST Another Day Under My Very Large Belt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1953226 Day 7 of behaving. I like it, although when those old habits hit, they hit hard and sometimes I want to eat just because. I head towards the kitchen and have to remind myself that, No, we aren't free feeding anymore. *big sigh* <BR> <BR> The good weather is a a little bittersweet. On one hand the weather is wonderful and I want to get out and do gardening and things (those from cold areas know this is not plausible until June1 for planting). And on the other hand I am reminded that if I... Tue, 7 Apr 2009 22:20:47 EST Still kicking! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1950152 Went to the grocery store and DID NOT buy anything I shouldn't. Talked to myself again, Prepared for how I would feel when I got there, and how I would handle it...and I got through it. <BR> <BR> Took a short nap after dinner and woke up and was absolutely restless with the need to eat something--and it was NOT genuine hunger. So I had a couple of sugar free popsicles and the feeling passed. Actually I didn't realize it. I was working on the computer and it dawned on me that the feeling ... Mon, 6 Apr 2009 23:49:28 EST Little Victories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1946764 I'm slowly waking up. I am beginning to take notice of my food, my portions and things like that. Today I went to the grocery store after church. I was so hungry. Heading to the store is my worst moment. The thoughts in my head make no sense when I want to binge--but at the time it makes sense to me, enough to convince me to eat something I shouldn't--just one more time. <BR> <BR> Today I had a talk with myself this morning and planned for the way I might feel, and the way I might WANT t... Mon, 6 Apr 2009 01:50:25 EST Umm...failure is very humbling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1925752 Well--ummm...what to say. My last entry was in December, entitled, Still Trying. <BR> <BR> I have "still tried" myself up to about 310. I would weigh this morning, but I put my shoes on. Cannot really explain why after moderate success, I have let this happen. <BR> <BR> For a while it didn't bother me. The food was important enough that I was willing to set aside the fear and guilt and enjoy. And I have, but gradually old habits have become common place again and I spend way to muc... Mon, 30 Mar 2009 10:28:36 EST Still Trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1608719 <BR> Hello kids! <BR> <BR> Still trying, if it were not for everything having sodium up the WHAZOO I might be okay. Am doing okay, getting some good habits under my belt again. Am actually able to go to the store and NOT get some kind of goodie--which had become a nasty habit again. Am becoming more conscious of what is going in, how often it goes in and how much. <BR> <BR> One thing I have learned is that getting back on track is a multi-layer process, just like anything else. But am ... Sat, 13 Dec 2008 10:30:07 EST Trying Like Crazy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1605423 Hi all, <BR> <BR> Trying like crazy to get this buggy back on track. Have lost a tiny bit but not quite down to my ticker yet. Hopefully soon. Am really giving it a go. Wed, 10 Dec 2008 20:21:09 EST Another Day, Another Pan of Brownies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1579484 Yes, the title says it all. Had a minor frustration yesterday, got a bit miffed and boy did I show everyone...I ate 3/4 of an 8 x 8 pan of brownies. Sometimes I have to wonder at my maturity level--LOL <BR> <BR> Sun, 23 Nov 2008 11:26:16 EST Hey Blog Friends... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1571081 Just checking in and saying hello. Am excited as I am going to work tomorrow. Marty (former therapist, current employer) bought me a new file cabinet and oddly enough that excites me. She wants me to be happy. And I am, but am still struggling with the Medicare billing. They simply ignore us and we never know what it is we did wrong, we just fall into the big abyss that is the government. Sigh... <BR> <BR> I've set up a nice office in the reception area. I use the term loosely as the ... Mon, 17 Nov 2008 22:48:38 EST Love this Quote http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1570223 Am reading the book Shrink Yourself, Break Free From Emotional Eating Forever, by Roger Gould, MD <BR> <BR> This quote in Chapter 1 cracked me up--because it is so darn true <BR> <BR> "When I buy cookies I eat just four and throw the rest away. But first I spray them with Raid so I won't dig them out of the garbage later. Be careful, though, because that Raid really doesn't taste that bad.--Janette Barber <BR> <BR> ummm such a kernal of truth there! Mon, 17 Nov 2008 14:00:46 EST Another Day--YAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1551516 Heading into the end of day 5. Went to the store which for many months has been my downfall, thinking when I got there--what shall I have? Today I was solid and just kept my head down and got what I needed. <BR> <BR> I'm praying I can keep this up, I need it. Wed, 5 Nov 2008 22:52:27 EST 4 Days Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1549637 Hey hi, <BR> <BR> Have gotten back on track and have stayed the course for an entire 4 days LOL! <BR> <BR> Actually I am feeling pretty good about it. <BR> <BR> SaturdayI got on the scale and just about slid back off in a dead faint and that was it--I said, I'm done! <BR> <BR> The past year I have slipped and slid further down the hill--much like a snowball gathering steam and growing bigger and bigger as it heads for the valley. <BR> <BR> Saturday I hit the valley and was amazed and... Wed, 5 Nov 2008 00:13:13 EST Hello Sparkbuddies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1520869 It's been a while and I have no excuses, but wanted to catch up. Things are fine for the most part. The depression has lifted and I am really enjoying my new job and learning a lot. The Medicare billing has been the hardest--following the manual step by step and still not having the claims acknowledged is frustrating. But I will get it!! <BR> <BR> Now as to weight--ummm---okay that is not so good..I have the desire to eat everything in sight. I'm not down, upset, stressed or excited abo... Sun, 19 Oct 2008 19:56:33 EST Hello there Bloggers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1375297 Hello guys, <BR> <BR> I am still here. I would say things balance out, a few good days, followed by a bit of a fall, and up again and off into the battle once again. <BR> <BR> Been busy outside trying to make headway in the thistle patch also known as a garden....using the term loosely!! <BR> <BR> Hey I got a job. Part time going medical billing for someone I know. She is going to pay me $14 an hour to do her insurance billing with a review in 3 months. I asked for $12 and she said it ... Fri, 1 Aug 2008 23:47:24 EST Ahhhh--the sound of a big sigh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1325833 (I reread this BLOG--okay I know it makes very little sense but I needed to get it out) <BR> <BR> Yes, a big sigh. Went to counseling today. I sure like this gal. Not sure the value of going because we sit there and commiserate over our compulsive eating problems...which is nice if we were gal pals out to lunch, but I was hoping for something more. Guide me please!!! <BR> <BR> I do a lot of self-therapy, ask myself questions (when home alone of course) and often I am shocked, stunned, a... Thu, 10 Jul 2008 21:07:23 EST