DSPRTLYSEEKINME's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DSPRTLYSEEKINME DSPRTLYSEEKINME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ All Around DONE... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2160940 I've been absent around the community for a bit now. To my dear friends, I apologize. I think, between the challenges our family has been going through and my sometimes obsessive zeal in this arena, I ended up burning myself out. <BR> <BR> I'm back, but not to the degree that I was in the past. I'm done being the fat girl. I'm done being the mom that does not make herself a priority, but I'm also done being the weight loss zealot that I feel I became. <BR> <BR> I ate and drank my weight... Thu, 18 Jun 2009 08:58:04 EST Just keep swimming... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2129252 Finding Nemo is currently one of my youngest daughter's favorite movies. We get to watch it over and over and over and over some more. lol One of the things that has been sticking my mind lately, though, is Dory's song. 'Just keep swimming...' It's perfect for me right now. <BR> <BR> I started out like a ball of fire this week. I was exercising. Cardio and strength. Watching what I eat. In my defense, I have been doing really quite well with the food, all things considered. <BR> <BR... Sat, 6 Jun 2009 22:24:21 EST Really??? WOW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2085278 I've been in a bit of a funk this week. My motivation has been really pretty low. I haven't really been watching what I eat, didn't start back to exercising until Wednesday, and I haven't been keeping track of my water consumption. <BR> <BR> I was dreading today being that it was weigh in day for the SSI Challenge. But I did it and ended up weighing less than I did last week! Not by a lot, of course. 1.2 lbs, but to say that I'm shocked is an understatement. I thought I would have gain... Fri, 22 May 2009 16:59:29 EST A Bad Week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2066582 It has, admittedly, been a bad week for me. Wednesday started it off, I guess. It had been a challenging afternoon, so we did pizza... and 'Mega Fries'. *sighs* I helped to finish the pizza off on Thursday. Thursday night, I had one slice with a salad, which I did pair with a salad. <BR> <BR> Yesterday wasn't too bad... to start off with. I had yoghurt with granola early in the morning, oatmeal late morning, pasta with sauce that was chock full of veggies mid afternoon, and more yoghur... Sat, 16 May 2009 08:41:40 EST Ups and Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2037981 This week has already been a bit of a rollercoaster, by my standards, at least. A couple months back, we added a new bill to our already existing bills. This one, however, is a positive step toward the future that we hold before ourselves. Our plot of land in Missouri... Unfortunately, we hadn't changed our spending habits to accommodate this new bill, which has resulted in a bit of financial difficulties. Not playing the blame game or trying to figure out how we came to this point... J... Wed, 6 May 2009 08:16:01 EST Walk to Rivendell http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2035631 I have started this many times, but it always seems to fall by the wayside. This week, I'm beginning to keep track of the miles that I go between jogging in place and stepping. Might as well continue to, and make my way to Rivendell while I'm at it. <BR> <BR> What am I talking about??? <BR> <BR> <link>home.insightbb.com/~eowynchallenge/W<BR>alk/walk.html </link> <BR> <BR> Kind of 'geeky', I know. But, I never professed not to be a geek. LOL <BR> <BR> So, here I go... It's 397 miles... Tue, 5 May 2009 13:26:41 EST Intangible Improvement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2027298 For the past few May Days (aka Bealtaine), we have joined a group of our friends to trek up this steep and immense hill. Once up there, we commune with nature and feast. The past two years, I nearly killed myself trying to get to the top. Yesterday was the day for this annual trek, and I can definitely attribute the fact that I did better than in years past to all the work that I've been doing the past few months. <BR> <BR> Granted, I did have to stop and catch my breath a few times, but... Sun, 3 May 2009 08:24:08 EST Babysteps for Me and My House http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2019037 I've been active with SP for a little over three months now. In that time, I've lost 10 lbs. Not toooo bad for the time invested. What I've gained, though, is so much more important. Through babysteps, I've begun to develop better lifestyle habits. <BR> <BR> Shhhh... Don't tell... but I was hungry and had a bit of a sweet tooth last night and decided to 'splurge' a bit. This was quarter to 9:00. It had been a long draining day, and in truth? I was seeking a bit of comfort food, which ... Thu, 30 Apr 2009 07:51:42 EST More Musings... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2010542 This is a thought that was SPARKED by one of the wonderful comments made on my last blog entry because it was something that I was just recently discussing with my daughter. <BR> <BR> Not in an effort to point fingers or place blame on anyone, but... where do you think your old perceptions where food and exercise are concerned stem from? <BR> <BR> I know with me... My dad was one that had a very high metabolism when he was younger. He could eat anything and as much as he wanted and not ga... Mon, 27 Apr 2009 13:29:01 EST Something Fun... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2008063 Screen names. They're, quite often, a fun way to express ourselves. Sometimes a visual way for us to say to others 'this is who I am'. They are not always clear to others, though. Especially, if the screen name has to do with an inside joke that one has with friends and family. So... with that in mind, how did you come up your own screen name? What is its significance to you? (If your screen name is really obvious, please just keep in mind that this is directed at all Community members... Sun, 26 Apr 2009 17:54:09 EST Maybe I'm Weird... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1999049 ... Well, I learned to accept that long ago. lol But one thing I've been noticing as I continue along this journey to the new me? I've been running my hands over my body a lot as of late. Now, don't get me wrong... It's not meant in a lewd or crude manner, as it might sound, but I'm really beginning to notice changes. Granted, evidence isn't showing in the scale as much as I would like, but my body... it is a changin'! <BR> <BR> I'm feeling muscles tightening up and bones that were seemi... Thu, 23 Apr 2009 09:56:56 EST 3 Months! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1992070 <em>517</em> <BR> <BR> I just realized this morning that yesterday was my 3 month sparkiversary. Well, that is - at least - since I returned and actually became active within the community; since I really got serious about getting healthy again. <BR> <BR> Even then... I really didn't start seeing results until I joined up with the Spring Into Summer Challenge and my Hotties teammates. <BR> <BR> Now, there's no stopping me. Well, only myself, of course. And she and I bicker back and ... Tue, 21 Apr 2009 08:55:10 EST One More Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1985594 ... and then I promise to get caught up with everyone as I feel I should! <BR> <BR> So... yesterday didn't go as well as I planned, but I know that it could have been MUCH worse. I ate more at the party than I had intended, but not nearly as much as I would have in the past, I believe. And, the fact that I did (eat more than I had intended) did show me how far I have come over the time that I've been really active with SP. <BR> <BR> There was a lot of rich and some fried food there last n... Sun, 19 Apr 2009 08:19:47 EST So Far, So Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1983217 Not a whole lot of time this morning, but wanted to post a quick update regarding the recent 'food challenges' I've been facing and will face still tonight and tomorrow. <BR> <BR> So, Wednesday was my daughter's birthday... I slipped a bit that night, but was pleased to discover at weigh-in time yesterday, I've lost 2 pounds this week. Granted, one of those pounds was a pound that I had gained back the week before, but even then, I'm still one pound ahead and back in 190-ville and Onederla... Sat, 18 Apr 2009 07:59:15 EST Hurdles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1975623 I'm going to try this again... the first time I did it, I lost it in the vastness of internet space. lol <BR> <BR> So, the next few days... probably throughout the weekend is going to, likely, pose a bit of a challenge for me. Today is my daughter's birthday, and the tradition is that the person of honor gets to pick out their birthday meal and dessert. I'm thankful that some of her favorite foods are healthy ones! <BR> <BR> She has decided that she would like to have Mexican food for her... Wed, 15 Apr 2009 14:54:29 EST My Pampered Princess Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1972294 I was very surprised to discover yesterday morning that I was the Pampered Princess of the Day. The congratulations and well wishes really helped to put a bright smile upon my face, and I made certain that the day *was* for me. <BR> <BR> Something came to mind this morning, though. Why do I have to wait for such a thing to occur in order to treat myself? What is it within me that makes me feel as though I need permission to pamper myself? <BR> <BR> Oh, for certain... Since I started thi... Tue, 14 Apr 2009 14:53:07 EST For the Frugal Minded... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1964164 I've been delving into the SparkRecipes quite a bit lately and came across somethings that I thought I would share... <BR> <BR> Earlier in the week I made ( <link>recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-detai<BR>l.asp?recipe=581264 </link> ) Chicken Caccetori. I changed it up a bit, including using chicken breasts instead of chicken patties. I put half a breast per person on a bed of fettucini and covered them with a bit of the sauce. I ended up having quite a bit of the sauce, which was chuck fu... Sat, 11 Apr 2009 19:39:57 EST Not a Successful Week in the Books... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1962872 Spring Break. Everyone's home, and I'm 'off my game' in more ways than one. Where I'd been doing cardio 6 days a week, I think I only got three in this week. Not to mention, I'm eating more, I think. Granted, I've felt as though I've had more time to cook healthier meals for us... Last night was 'pizza night'. My eldest son was in charge of the pizza. Dh gave him the money to go to Wal-Mart (right down the block) and buy it. He came home with Supreme pizzas on garlic toast crust. Yep... Sat, 11 Apr 2009 08:09:19 EST A Celebration of Life... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1960272 We're soon off for a day at the beach. The 'sun bunny', born and raised (Southern) California girl that still lives within me can't understand how I can possibly be going to the beach when there is a chance of... *gasp* rain. lol But, I must remind myself that I was a Northern California girl long before a Southern, and, therefore, remember that any day is a good day for a trip to the beach. The crashing waves upon the shore. The birds gently gliding on the breeze... Yes, that's what I'm... Fri, 10 Apr 2009 08:02:48 EST Proud of Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1944282 We hosted a baby shower yesterday for some friends, which I was slightly concerned about because there was cake involved! But, I did really, really well. I had planned to just have a small piece of cake. When it came down to it, though, I didn't even have that. When I sat down with my small piece, which I willingly said I would share with my little girl... I ate two small bites that she left left behind. So, I didn't completely 'deprive' myself. I got a taste, but didn't sabotage all t... Sun, 5 Apr 2009 08:43:36 EST Just need to regain focus... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1936634 That's what I keep telling myself. I just need to regain focus. The weight didn't descend from the skies and slather itself on my body overnight. It's not going to come off overnight. <BR> <BR> We're going about this in a healthy manner. This is something I need to remind myself of too. Dh just reminded me, too, that 2-4 lbs a month is a healthy amount of weightloss. Too, this is less about weightloss than it is about exchanging my previous lifestyle for a more healthy one. Again, som... Thu, 2 Apr 2009 11:35:32 EST Alcohol Intake... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1934604 I've REALLY reduced my alcohol intake over the years. In my experience, the next morning - contending with kids - just doesn't make it worth it. Until a month or two ago, I'd still have a glass of wine in the evenings. That was until I started getting very serious about getting healthy and shedding this extra weight. <BR> <BR> When I started getting into the habit of drinking 64 oz of water a day, I found it difficult to remember to drink much else. Tonight, though, I decided to have hal... Wed, 1 Apr 2009 19:46:36 EST April Showers Bring Summer Pampering Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1934035 For this month's Pennies for Pampering Challenge... <BR> <BR> Step 1. <BR> <BR> Exercise at least 30 minutes 5x a week <BR> Drink at least 8 8oz glasses of water a day <BR> Make good choices each meal <BR> Eat more fruits and veggies <BR> Lose at least 8 lbs <BR> <BR> Step 2. <BR> <BR> One penny for every minute of exercise <BR> Ten pennies for every glass of water consumed <BR> Ten pennies for every meal where good choices are made <BR> Ten pennies for every serving of fruit/ve... Wed, 1 Apr 2009 16:05:51 EST Until... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1930091 Things were really going pretty well today. I got part of dinner going in the slow cooker this morning. I've updated things here on SP. I've been making good choices with regard to my food. I increased my exercise time by five minutes today. I even got the house under control and laundry caught up. The day's been going quickly by, and I'm feeling good about it. That was until... <BR> <BR> I went to switch the laundry. Pulling it out of the washer, I began putting it into the dryer, o... Tue, 31 Mar 2009 13:53:55 EST Weekends Can Be Evil... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1922413 This is something that I was already discussing in the blog of one of my cherished Spark Friends... Figured my response was the length of a blog entry, anyway, so... I'd add to it here... lol <BR> <BR> We generally get together with friends at least half of the Saturdays each month and everyone brings stuff to share. I've gotten better at 'running interference' when everyone meets at our place. I've limited desserts to one family only. That way, we don't have EVERYONE bringing them. <BR>... Sun, 29 Mar 2009 09:32:42 EST Getting Easier... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1912319 When I first looked at the goals for this week in the Spring Into Summer Challenge, I was slightly concerned. I'd been working on being consistency in the first phase of the Spark Diet by just trying to get 10 minutes of cardio in a day, and I wasn't doing terribly well with that. So, when I saw that we had to get 30 minutes in for five out of seven days, I really was concerned that I was going to let my teammates down... <BR> <BR> What I'm finding, though, is that it's getting easier to g... Wed, 25 Mar 2009 15:38:23 EST So Surprising... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1909317 When I first learned about SP, back in July of last year, I thought this was a great idea, but I didn't take full advantage of all it has to offer. In all actuality, I'm really a pretty shy person, not at all the social type. So, I didn't get involved. <BR> <BR> That was last time, though... <BR> <BR> I returned to SP last month, my determination firm, and while it was seemingly against my nature, I made an effort to reach out to others. I'd tried this on my own many times, and I didn't ... Tue, 24 Mar 2009 17:29:44 EST Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1899139 PROMPT: Besides weight loss, what other goals are you pursuing (or have you successfully met)? Walking without a wheelchair? Getting off medication? Running a marathon? Share your BIGGEST goals! <BR> <BR> The lifestyle change and, therefore, weight loss is all part and parcel to a larger goal for me. I'm working to be the best me that I can be. <BR> <BR> This encompasses many areas of my life with spirituality being a very large portion of that goal, as well as getting healthy. Sat, 21 Mar 2009 09:07:44 EST Rolling with the Punches... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1897201 It's been a difficult day. I'm not good at being 'the bad guy'. Granted, I'll do it when necessary. Standing my ground with the kids is not in my nature, either, but, again, I do it when I have to. Afterward, though, I end up feeling horrible in silence. <BR> <BR> We have three kids, ranging from (almost) 3, (almost) 12, and 15. I'm having the most difficulties with the 15 year old right now. About 'what?' isn't as important, I think, as is the baby step I've made. <BR> <BR> In the pa... Fri, 20 Mar 2009 13:00:17 EST Good Weather! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1890224 The weather has started taking a good turn on this end. The girls played out in the backyard, and we even got out into the yard to do a bit of garden prep yesterday. <BR> <BR> Today, I'm sending my son outside for his Life Skills class to start getting his garden prepared for planting. Might do a bit of preparation in the front myself later. Perhaps while the wee'st one is taking a nap... Want to move the mints to a more confined area this year. <BR> <BR> And that's my 'really no point'... Wed, 18 Mar 2009 09:54:56 EST ACTION PLAN: Spring into Summer Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1887054 - To exercise (at least) 10 minutes a day for the purpose of establishing the habit <BR> <BR> - Drink (at least) 8 cups of water a day, EVERY DAY <BR> <BR> - Meditate 15 minutes a day, EVERY DAY <BR> <BR> - Write 30 minutes a day, EVERY DAY (whether it be a blog entry for AToG or on story) <BR> <BR> - Spend 1 hour a day, EVERY DAY on lessons <BR> <BR> - DON'T eat after 8:30 at night <BR> <BR> - REMEMBER: It's all about moderation! And tomorrow's a brand new day!! Tue, 17 Mar 2009 10:13:30 EST Plum Tuckered Out... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1836823 We had out-of-town friends visiting for the past few days. Naturally, we had to do a bit of site seeing. Ack! I'm worn out! lol We spent all day in Philly on Thursday and ALLLLLLL day in DC yesterday. Definitely got my exercise in for those days and then some... <BR> <BR> I did pretty well with drinking water on Thursday, but yesterday, I'm afraid, I didn't do as well, which I ended up paying the price for by the end of the day. Those nauseating headaches are no fun in the least. <BR> ... Sat, 28 Feb 2009 08:36:38 EST Weighed in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1816893 For the Positive Mental Attitude Team, the goal is only weigh in once a month... I've been doing WiiFit lately and the Body Test has you weigh in. But I must admit, too, that I have weighed myself on a daily basis in the past. It's definitely a self-depreciating act and one that I'm going to get out of the habit of. After all, the measurements can show you better how you're fairing than your weight, which will go up and down for various reasons... some not related to actual weight gain or... Sat, 21 Feb 2009 08:24:22 EST