DSBRIDE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DSBRIDE DSBRIDE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034654 I am on day 3 of my new challenge and this should be a piece of cake for me but I'm finding it so hard. I have no energy, I'm so tired and I'm so hungry all the time. I've tried increasing my foods with healthy items so my sugar is still really good but my weight has gone up so I must be eating too much. I feel like such a mess when I should be feeling better. I had gone thru a great period of time when I wasn't hungry at all, I lost weight and had lots of energy. I wish I knew how to ge... Thu, 19 Nov 2015 09:19:39 EST New Challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033844 Today I saw a friend joined a new challenge and thought this is just what I need. I have been slacking with everything that has been going on but now it's time to salvage the rest of the year and also to get the help I need to go thru the holidays. I invite my friends to join me in the new 10 minute challenge and if anyone wants a buddy for support and encouragement, I'm available. <BR> <BR> From what I understand it involves doing at least 10 mins of exercising per day and everyday there ... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 19:58:20 EST Italian funeral http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6031418 We laid Mom to rest yesterday and as typical at an Italian funeral it was a day of eating. We went directly to the restaurant from the cemetery followed by coffee/cakes all afternoon and then supper.and more snacks. It was a great send off and Mom would have been so proud. Naturally I partook in everything without guilt as a sort of cheat day. I learned that my favorite jelly donuts no longer taste as good as I remember and I learned after the first bite, if I don't like something, I'm no... Fri, 13 Nov 2015 09:15:08 EST 42 years! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6029616 Today is my anniversary, 42 years. It's been up and down but mostly up and turned out to be the best decision of my life. He's my partner in crime, we do everything together like best friends. When I see the newly married now a days still having boys or girls night out, I wonder if they'll still be together 42 years from now. We are old fashioned and I'm proud of that because it worked for us. We treasure our time together as we know all too well how short that is and how it can end in t... Tue, 10 Nov 2015 03:15:03 EST RIP Mom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6029131 It's been a very trying weekend. On Friday we got a call from the hospital that Mom wasn't doing well. We spent Friday and Saturday with her making happy memories. On Sunday, she was unresponsive all day and passed away that night. You would think knowing what was coming would make it easier but it doesn't. My only solace is that she's no longer suffering but now is at peace. The next few days will be difficult but it's something we all go thru. My Dad is 93, they had been married for ... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 08:07:34 EST New month working to a new me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6025227 Here it is November, where did the time go? October was a great month for me. Everything came together and my life settled down. I've been doing so well eating and pretty good exercising, so to show for this, I've lost 16 lbs! I know there is room for improvement but even if I don't do any better, I can live like this and be very happy. October had 3 birthdays and a homecoming celebration and I made it thru. November has just has my anniversary on the 10th and of course Thanksgiving. I... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 08:42:34 EST The aftermath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021903 I had a great birthday weekend and celebration of my husband coming home. I was surprised that I only gained a lb thru this all, but getting back on track yesterday, I was able to quickly shed it again. How great it feels to be able to celebrate in moderation without totally ruining all my hard work. It shows I can still lead a happy life and a healthy one too. This was a balance that I could never achieve before. Most of all, I was satisfied both mentally and physically and my sugar num... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 07:39:16 EST It's my birthday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020815 Today is my birthday! It's a big one, 65! I go on Medicare, woo hoo! <BR> It's also a great month for a turn around which I have done. It was time to take back my life. I've had a miserable, unhealthy year but that's changing and I see an up cycle happening. I'm feeling better and I got the best birthday present ever when my husband came home yesterday. He is using a walker but it's only temporary as he gets stronger everyday. I see him fighting his way around the house and I resist ... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 09:57:06 EST Down 14 lbs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6018095 Today the scale was my friend that made me so happy. I'm down 14 lbs since Oct 1st! I knew clean eating would work but I didn't think that I could not cheat on this and so far I haven't. I don't expect such big numbers to continue but having these under my belt have given me enough incentive to keep going. I've only been hungry a few times but having the right foods in the fridge and then actually choosing them has made the feelings pass. <BR> <BR> I cooked a beautiful turkey breast in m... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 09:49:04 EST Best present ever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6017439 Yesterday I visited hubby and saw him walk for the first time since all this happened. I saw his struggles and the determination it took to make this happen. It hit me hard and brought tears to my eyes. How small my weight loss battles are compared to his battle to walk. He's lost almost 25 lbs in his effort to get better, sitting there he looks like a picture of health. His legs are no longer swollen but instead so shapely that any woman would be envious. He is the only one that really... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 09:02:17 EST Best present ever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6017437 Yesterday I visited hubby and saw him walk for the first time since all this happened. I saw his struggles and the determination it took to make this happen. It hit me hard and brought tears to my eyes. How small my weight loss battles are compared to his battle to walk. He's lost almost 25 lbs in his effort to get better, sitting there he looks like a picture of health. His legs are no longer swollen but instead so shapely that any woman would be envious. He is the only one that really... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 09:00:57 EST More clean eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6016916 I can't believe Oct is going so well for me. If I were a pessimistic person, I would be waiting for the other shoe to drop but since I'm a very positive, optimistic person I'm enjoying my new found life. I've been clean eating since the first of this month and I've lost 10 lbs! The amazing thing about this is the new mindset. Perhaps it's my situation or everything I've gone thru to get to this point but the temptations have been few and easy to overcome. Best of all I haven't felt hungr... Sun, 18 Oct 2015 09:42:44 EST Experiment results are in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6014837 Well, I tried something and it did and did not work. I wrote about using productive work instead of formal exercise and here's what happened. It did work in the sense that I was able to see my accomplishments. That made me feel great. I cleaned out a lot of stuff and it really looks nice. It did not work as it didn't lower my sugar numbers like formal exercise and weight loss has slowed down to almost nothing. So my experiment showed me that in my case, I need to do formal exercises. I... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 09:58:04 EST Party was a success! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6014261 Hubbys birthday party was a big success. He loved his meatball birthday cake and ate it for his dinner, it was a real treat, a taste of home. My daughter brought balloons and a banner that we hung in his room and everyone stopped in with birthday wishes and to share his meatballs. See, we can have a party, have fun, and not need sweets to do it! <BR> <BR> My daughter has been working with a personal trainer who designed a program just for her with diet and exercise. He is just beginning ... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 09:54:15 EST Hubbys birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6013672 Today is my husbands birthday. I was hoping he would be home for it but he's not. I now hope he's home for my birthday on the 25th. I know he's working hard. So since he can't come to the party, the party will go to him. I know his diet is limited so instead of a birthday cake, I made him his favorite food of meatballs and put them in a pie plate. I bought a "Happy Birthday" design with a clown candle holder and will put it on the top. I also made sauce for dipping if anyone wants it. ... Mon, 12 Oct 2015 10:21:49 EST Being productive! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6011078 I decided to start doing something productive in my second week of clean eating. There is a lot of heavy cleaning work to be done around the house and since hubby can't do it, I either have to or pay someone to do it. <BR> <BR> I started doing an hour a day of the things I can do. It's better than step ups that get no where, at least I have something to show for my work. The only thing is my Fitbit doesn't record all my hard work but at least I know it. So I've been throwing away lots of... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 14:46:40 EST Winning the war http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6009620 Since I started this clean eating, I've lost 10 lbs! I don't expect it all to stick but I know most of it will and I'm happy about it. Today, despite the chilly weather, I am going to grill some pork. There will be enough for several meals and since I started this cooking thing, having leftovers has been working out very well. I am not a person that gets tired of the same food, I eat it till its gone. Cooking for one is a chore for me but having leftovers has been a blessing. Soon hubby... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 09:34:58 EST Happiness is removing the stress from your life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6008501 Starting week 2 of clean eating and yesterday could have been a disaster but it wasn't. I had my thyroid biopsy and came home feeling like I deserved not only a treat but a huge reward. I had planned on a turkey dinner but the thought of it just didn't appeal to me. I dug thru the freezer looking for something special and way on the bottom, I found a lowly package of fried clams and French fries. Yes! That was much more appealing so I got the fryer ready and made my dinner. While it was... Sat, 3 Oct 2015 10:07:10 EST Day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6007304 Today is day 6 of clean eating and only one day during this whole time did I have a slight problem with cravings and hunger. Luckily, it seemed to be real hunger and I fed it good things . It must have been ok since I still lost ounces the next morning. <BR> <BR> Now that I've gotten into a good eating pattern, it's time to fix my exercises again. I've been slacking in my steps while I've been working in the house. Sometimes the steps don't reflect all that we do but I can see the pro... Thu, 1 Oct 2015 09:39:33 EST Oct will be the turn around month! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006083 I've shared all the horrible things that I have gone thru this year so it is only right that I share the good things too. Yesterday I got the results of the cancer cat scan. Most of the tumors have held steady but some have actually shrunk! This is great news and came with a recommendation that no further testing need be done for the next 24 months. So now having the pressure of the lung cancer taken away, I go Friday for the thyroid biopsy and then that pressure will be gone too. My eye... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 09:50:57 EST 2 Clean days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005179 It's been two days of clean eating for me and already I see a big difference. I decided that I needed to get back into cooking even though it was only for myself. Since my husband has been super good in his eating, I decided that I need to follow suit. Night time snacks are the hardest for me. I don't want what I think I should have but then again, I'm not sure what I want. My preconceived notions of breakfast, lunch and dinner foods get in the way. Snacks should be just that, snacks. ... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 21:51:54 EST On Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004334 Sometimes I wonder why people are the way they are. What do they get out of downing a person who really is trying. My particular beef is with the medical profession. My husband called the other day with such bad news that I thought he was dying a slow, but soon death. Someone came into his room and told him that test results said his kidneys were failing and he better get on dialysis right away. That his swollen legs were from poisons in his body that he couldn't shed. That he wasn't ea... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 09:33:06 EST Baby steps! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002605 Yesterday I got the best news at the eye Drs. I'm holding steady! For the first time in months, I don't need to see him for 2 more weeks. It's the break I've been waiting for as I've been going there 2 and 3 times a week. I can't tell you how great this made me feel, maybe the healing has finally begun! Now I just have to get thru the needle biopsy next Friday and maybe some stress will be leaving. <BR> <BR> I visited hubby too and he is frustrated with his progress. I can understand t... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 09:45:30 EST Push day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001296 Today is going to be a push day! The weather has finally cooled and it makes for a better mood to begin exercising again. I've taken enough time off to let my leg get better so I joined another Fitbit challenge to motivate me to do my step ups. It's really going to be a challenging week. <BR> <BR> Being alone these past weeks has brought back another of my bad habits. Night snacking to calm my nighttime nerves. Yesterday while I was doing laundry, I went thru some of the junk my daugh... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 09:05:45 EST Happy day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000157 Yesterday was a very busy day. I had my cat scan and am now eagerly awaiting the results. I have positive thoughts about this. Then I went back to the eye Dr and got good results there. Maybe this is turning around now. <BR> <BR> I stayed with Dave for the rest of the day. His gout is really flaring up but I think having company helped him forget some of the pain. We were sitting in the foyer when who walks in but his old girlfriend from high school! They haven't seen each other for... Sat, 19 Sep 2015 09:41:00 EST Have a happy day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999183 Yesterday was a fun day, NOT! I waited all day for the plumber to come back and he didn't. No call, nothing. So I got up early again today and waited. At 1 pm, I called and got a half hearted apology. Father and son talked it over and we are getting a new toilet this afternoon. A Comfort Seat which is high like the handicapped ones. Once again, I cleaned the bathroom but I'll be happy to clean the floor after the old toilet is gone and before the new one goes in. It's so hard for me t... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 13:25:16 EST Another day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5998587 Everyday there is something new going on. Today I had a call into the plumber as my toilet has started running every hour. Easy fix, he came changed the flapper and in 5 mins he was gone. I can't be this lucky, a half hour later it was running again. Not fixed! Now he's got to come back. I already got all new insides so the only thing I can think of is there is a crack and I need a new toilet! Worse part is we only have the one bathroom. <BR> <BR> Dave called me and they found out he ... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 13:34:35 EST Thank you! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5997850 I want to put a shout out to all my friends here that supported me with their comments and SP goodies. I can't even tell you how much these have meant to me. Not having my best friend, my loving husband here has left me alone to handle most everything that is going on. My friends here have filled the gap with much needed support and I am grateful beyond words. My faith and my friends are getting me thru these trying times. I will survive and better days are coming! Tue, 15 Sep 2015 10:42:26 EST Things keep happening! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5995980 Did you ever feel like you've had enough of life. Stop this ride, I want to get off. Yesterday I decided to take a day off just for me. I told hubby I wasn't coming as I had 3 more needles in my eye and the headaches were just starting to go away. It was going to be my rest day. Then early afternoon, I went to get the mail and I fell in my living room. I don't know how it happened, my leg just gave way. So I laid on the floor for almost an hour not knowing how I was going to get up. I... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 10:43:25 EST I can't get overwhelmed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5994753 Yesterday was a whirlwind kind of day. My husband was finally released from the hospital and taken by ambulance to the rehab home where hopefully they will have him walking again. I have my doubts about this as he needs a hip replacement. All the tests say there is a lot of arthritis and hardly any hip bone left. However, right now he is not a candidate for surgery. He still has a lot of fluid but at least it is slowly leaving. He wants to come home so bad that he really is doing his be... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 11:17:03 EST Labor Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5992563 Happy Labor Day! Here it is September and in 9 months, I've made no progress. Up and down, life getting in the way, my only joy is I've been able to maintain while I really could have gained a ton of weight. The challenge I was in was really working until my husband was hospitalized. Night time was the worse. I just couldn't stop eating. Being alone with all the worrying stress, I ate my feelings and for a short time I forgot everything. I just can't find a substitute for this. <BR> ... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 09:13:54 EST 😞 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5991382 Here it is Saturday and my poor husband is still in the hospital. It looks like he'll be there till the middle of next week. He had 2 heart attacks and is battling fluid in his lung and congestive heart failure. His legs too, are swollen and won't hold him up so he's not coming home but going to a rehab when the hospital releases him. We've been together for 43 years and I can count on one hand the times we didn't spend the night together. I miss him so much! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was my ... Sat, 5 Sep 2015 08:40:55 EST Update, more prayers needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5990280 I really thought things were going well but as is our luck, my husband had a mild heart attack and they are talking about putting a stent in. They also do not want him to come home but to go to a rehab place when they release him because his legs are so weak that they won't hold him up. <BR> <BR> He is being good and doing what they tell him but his spirits are dampened by this latest news. I am keeping up a brave face when I talk to him but I am crushed. Adding this to everything else ... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 12:23:23 EST Prayers needed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5989508 Yesterday was a very bad day starting off with my husband going to the emergency room where he was admitted. I had to scramble as I also had an eye doc appt to remove another stitch and I needed a ride. My daughter and her friend left work and gave a helping hand. Just when I thought things might be getting better, there are more whammies lurking. Writing this today when I am calmer is much better than if I did it yesterday when stress was at the highest point for me. I worry about what... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 10:18:35 EST Weigh in day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5986752 I was so excited today to weigh in. I had a great week with lots of encouragement. After months of no progress, I lost 2 lbs this week. It represents lots of hard work but it was well worth it. My only hope is it doesn't come back. Sat, 29 Aug 2015 09:23:01 EST I regained my spark! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985066 I am day 5 into my new SP challenge and loving it. It's a lot of hard work but like they say, no pain, no gain. The exercise part has been a real challenge. So many nights I just want to say, that's enough! But then I see how close I am to finishing my 5,000 steps and I push it, a little bit more, a little bit more. Someone told me to lower my expectations so I don't get frustrated in not reaching my goal. No! I'm setting the bar high ( for me) but it's not impossible. I know it's rea... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 10:13:57 EST Challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5983742 I joined a new challenge this past Sat and being how competitive I am, I have had a really great start. I used to join different ones in the beginning when I first got on here and I did very well but then I got lazy and stopped. Now I see how important it is. <BR> <BR> This year has been a very rough one for me. Although I never left SP, I didn't have my heart in it and as such, I only maintained my weight with the effort I put in. Now that things are a little better, I'm ready to try ag... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 10:20:52 EST This is my fight song week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5975286 I'm taking back my life! I have last week, the first week, under my belt and already I feel stronger and my mind is in the right place. I have finally got all my stresses under control. I feel in charge again. So I am starting week 2, I'm in the challenge again and have a good head start already today. It's not been easy but I saw the glimmer of light at the end of this horrible tunnel that I've been going thru. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I had a double birthday party and I ate, enjoying myse... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 11:54:05 EST This is my fight song! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5973047 I found a new motivation in the new song out, 'This is my fight song, take back my life song'. It's got a catchy tune but more important the words get to me. This is the first week all this year that I have taken back control of my life. It is the first week that I have finally felt pretty good, good enough to resume my routines and the first week I feel like I have the power to live with purpose the way I want. <BR> <BR> I have been reaching my goal of exercising everyday so far and I do... Thu, 6 Aug 2015 09:42:32 EST 100% of exercise goal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5971889 Yesterday, I went to have one of the four stitches removed by laser in my eye. It went well but these have to be done one at a time which is a pain in the neck. The outer stitches are the dissolvable kind but the inner ones aren't. I just can't stop going to this doc almost every other day! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a milestone for me as I reached 100% of my step up goal of 5,000 steps. That doesn't seem like a big thing but it's been months since I was able to do this. I was watching Ame... Tue, 4 Aug 2015 09:47:55 EST It's a good day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969210 Seeing 2 docs today, 1 down, 1 to go. This mornings visit went very well. I'm grateful for such understanding and compassion, she was so helpful and there was no judgement of my life. I was so tired of everyone setting down impossible rules for me to follow. I sure would like for them to put everything I was told together and follow them themselves! I took the important things and what I could do and the rest I had to let go of. Somehow it all worked out. I am traveling a new road now ... Thu, 30 Jul 2015 12:37:07 EST Hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967903 I am so hopeful that this week will be better. I saw the eye doc yesterday and he is pleased with my progress finally. It sure took a long time! I can now see with both eyes focused. That means I am walking better. I had to stop exercising before because of my balance but I am starting up again. How much stamina I lost in that time! I'm grateful to the challenges that goad me on, I am such a competitor! I will work to get back to where I was and beyond! <BR> <BR> Tue, 28 Jul 2015 09:59:41 EST Surgery over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5965904 I am having one hell of a week! Tuesday's pre op was cancelled because there was no date on the faxed form. When I got a dated one, I found out they gave away my appt and couldn't get another one. I was supposed to have surgery on Wedsday so I called my doc and he fit me in at 6 pm but he wasn't happy how this was handled. I wasn't either! So I ran for the pre op and came home to a call that surgery was switched to Tuesday afternoon and someone would call me in the morning with a time. ... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 10:08:44 EST Funeral turned party! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5962842 I wrote an entire blog yesterday only to have it disappear before it posted. So today will be a continuation of it. I went to my aunts funeral this morning. She had a long life, passed away at age 93 and was up and walking right up to when she fell last week. This was expected so it wasn't a sad funeral, in fact there was a lively dinner at a restaurant afterwards. It was what she wanted and she left money to pay for it. The dinner was very good and I got to see a lot of people, relativ... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 17:26:50 EST Make today a good day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5956302 Today is the first day of a new week. It's time to put some effort into my workouts so I started this morning with over 1,000 steps. It doesn't sound like a lot but with my legs it is. I also have to get some veggies in as I have been sorely lacking here. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, a dear friend brought me 3 huge yellow squash from her garden. I've seen huge zucchini but never huge yellow squash. So this morning, I'm going to make them Parmesan style for sandwiches. There will be enough for ... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 10:22:58 EST More surgery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5951492 How I wish I had goods news today at the eye doctors but it was not to be. My pressure is creeping up and it's reached the unacceptable point even with all the drops I'm using. So next Thursday, I meet with the surgeon about opening the tear ducts up. I knew this would be coming but still it hit me like a ton of bricks. Something else to go thru. A 50-50 chance of it working out. Not real great odds but better than the alternative. Maybe this will end soon. <BR> <BR> Meanwhile I'm rem... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 20:30:52 EST Numbers are going down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5944074 I'm always here when I have to vent so today I decided to share some good news instead. I've been working hard to get my sugar numbers down and for the first time in over 6 months this morning it was 105! Those that know can appreciate this. I'm so happy, this just made my day! Fri, 12 Jun 2015 15:09:04 EST The mind rules! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943456 I had a new to me thought today that I want to share. I play a game sometimes on line where I find the hidden objects. There are days when I can whiz right thru it and then there are days when I can't find anything and how easy it is to give up. I've seen how if I put it in my mind that I'm not going to find the object, then I don't find it but if I keep saying to myself, you can do this, I do it! And so goes my weight loss too. On the days I have the resolve and determination, I have a ... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 11:33:50 EST Where's the fun! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942502 It's been awhile and things have finally calmed down in my life. Perhaps I've just accepted how they are and am moving forward. I've let go of most of my stress and that made a world of difference. I am still dealing with the eye doctor situation but now when I go there, I don't expect any changes as there aren't any, this will be going on forever! <BR> <BR> I have a new problem with my legs. They are fine if I am upright but the minute I lay down in bed, they get very cold and ache some... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 18:56:33 EST New Doc http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938002 Today, I had an apt with my new oncologist as I was frustrated with the one I had. We had a difference of opinion and he dismissed me when I went against his recommendation for radiation. My surgeon said it wouldn't help and don't put myself thru it. This new Dr is a young woman, kind, caring and just plain nice. She read all the reports and agrees with my surgeon. I am happy to add her to my team. <BR> <BR> Now that that is settled, I just have to take care of my eyes. I have an appt ... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 16:51:19 EST