DSBRIDE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DSBRIDE DSBRIDE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Join forces! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781045 I see so many ads on TV that promote weight loss, take this pill, that supplement and it will help you lose weight. Drug companies push appetitive suppressants but no one addresses the real issues. The real issue is in your mind! All the appetite suppressants won't help because my mind tells me to eat whether I'm hungry or not. That doesn't matter. I eat when I'm happy, sad, hungry, full, overstuffed or you can name the reason or no reason at all. Drug companies don't address this becau... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 14:01:03 EST Turned a new number! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777130 There is something about seeing that scale turn a new number in the downward position. Going from 40's to 30's and then 30's to 20's and now to the teens is so exciting. It's been slow going but it's also been sticking instead of going up and down. Everyday, I feel better, more energy and eating better. The best part is there is no agonizing hunger. The weight is dropping without excessive trying. Everyday exercises are very tolerable and my food is satisfying as well as healthy. The s... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 09:32:18 EST No internet service for Thurs. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773677 We lost our phone and internet service all day today. It came back at midnight but it was too late for me to log in for Thurs. I had a great streak going but this messed it up. <BR> I didn't miss not having a phone but I sure did miss my iPad. Regardless, I still did my exercises and watched my food. Fri, 5 Sep 2014 00:19:28 EST My yoga session http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771787 Yesterday was my first real yoga session. It kicked my butt! 5 mins in, I was sweating, 10 mins later I was dripping wet. It was a 20 min session but I felt like it lasted an hour. If I keep this up I can definitely see the benefits. At least I can modify those moves I can't do but in time I hope to do all the moves. <BR> <BR> It's a new month and taking stock of last month, I lost 4 lbs. it's not a lot but it's better than nothing or gaining. I have lost half of what I had regained... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 10:23:45 EST Adding a new exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769824 I have been doing the Wii advanced step ups for years. I like them as I can do them in the living room in front of the TV. I know I should change things up but these are my ole stand bys which still make me sweat. They are no brainers and I do them even when I hurt or my mindset is against exercising that day. <BR> <BR> Yesterday my daughter came over with a yoga mat for me and a challenge. She bought a DVD written by a wrestler called DOP yoga. She wants me to try it. Now I don't rea... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 09:27:26 EST Eat well, sleep well! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768692 Last night I had the best nights sleep in a long time. I can attribute this to eating very well yesterday as evidenced by the lowest sugar number this morning in a long, long time. So it does follow, eat well, sleep well. Eat crappy, sleep crappy. So why doesn't my brain just accept this and follow through. A good nights sleep is very important to me and sets up for the next day. Why do I fight it? Why are there days when I can breeze thru without the hungrys getting to me and other da... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 11:36:56 EST New week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766633 Another new week, a great day, bright and sunny. It's laundry day and putting the clothes outside means clean smelling, fresh and crisp. I love it! I don't mind housework day, in fact I'm proud when things are clean and sparkly. Once it's done, I can relax and enjoy the rest of the week. <BR> <BR> The kids go back to school Wed. I don't have any little ones in my life but I love watching others and remembering back when I did. <BR> <BR> Now time to hang the clothes. Wishing you al... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 09:59:45 EST Another binge, :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765947 It was a good week until yesterday. That situation that I have no control over surfaced again, could not be resolved. Immediately afterwards I was ravously hungry and proceeded to binge on anything in sight. Before I knew it I had eaten a whole days worth of calories in one meal and was still so hungry that I didn't stop. Nothing I ate filled me or rather satisfied me. The situation didn't stop until I ate chocolate. I kept thinking if I had just gone ahead and eaten the chocolate inste... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 10:09:07 EST An old hen! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764822 My last blog was about my cleaning the cellar. The next day I was so sore I couldn't raise my arm. It lasted until yesterday. There is such a thing as overworking a muscle to the point where it takes awhile to recover. At the time I didn't realize I was doing this but the pain and limited movement the next day sure showed me that I'm no spring chicken anymore. <BR> <BR> It's hard accepting your age and limitations but that doesn't mean you can't push them and work to building up more st... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 09:52:30 EST Breaking out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762723 Things have been holding steady. Yesterday I got my courage up to tackle the cellar. We had workmen down there changing our furnace from oil to gas and putting in a new pump to take care of the water when we get these bad rains, something we didn't need in 40 years but things change and we have to address them. <BR> <BR> So I spent 90 mins cleaning up. Such a mess they left, trash all over. I'm not done yet but I'm pleased with the progress I made. My biggest thing is getting this trash... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 08:57:27 EST Leftovers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761424 Today is Sunday and how the days are flying by. All in all this was a good week. My eye doctor declared my eyes free from any diabetic damage and if it weren't for the glaucoma, I would be just fine. So I'm grateful that there is nothing else wrong. <BR> <BR> I'm back on track and things are going pretty well. I was able to pick 3 squash from my garden and they are beautiful! I'm going to put them in a stew/ soup mixture with beans and cabbage. I can't wait to have it. I haven't been ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 12:35:21 EST Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759587 I'm having a big problem with food taking over my mind every minute of the day for the last 4 days. It's all I can think about. There are 2 other situations going on in my life over which I have no control so I accepted that and pushed them aside. As much as I try, I think they are subconsciously nagging at me but like I said I can't control them. I can control food and this has surfaced to be all consuming. All I want to do is eat and not regular craving but anything in sight or though... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 11:34:40 EST I'm so grateful! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755711 There are so many things to be grateful for and today I want to thank all my friends here that put up with all my moods and thoughts. I feel this is the only place I can be free to say exactly what I am feeling, to express my frustrations, to share my joys and to vent when I need to do. You all have supported me whether I was right or wrong. You had my back when I needed it and I can't tell you how much it meant to me. <BR> <BR> In addition to being grateful today, everything is going we... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 11:17:32 EST A good nights sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754181 Yesterday was a second good day in a row and by that I mean I slept so good. I've learned that life has new rewards for being good. The reward of a good nights sleep is so satisfying and it starts a good day. When I eat like I'm supposed to do, I sleep thru the night with maybe just one bathroom break. I wake up refreshed and ready to greet the day. When I overeat or eat the wrong things, that follows thru and I'm up all night with aches and pains and lots of time spent in the bathroom l... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 08:33:36 EST Scallops, yum! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753523 Today, finally, we are feeling better. It's a bright, sunny day and I'm going to attempt to go grocery shopping. There is very little we need but it will be good just to get out. Maybe I'll find some bargains, that always makes me happy. Shopping is like eating for me. It brings a certain high and excitement. <BR> <BR> They are having a sale on already prepared dinners at our grocery store. It is a buy one, get another one free. A way to get home cooked meals without doing it yourse... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 09:56:34 EST Anyday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752753 Yesterday we were supposed to go to a birthday party. We ended up not going as we were walking out the door, my husband got sick. Nobody understands what we are going thru and the phone call I got confirmed that, they thought we just ditched the party. The thing is I was really looking forward to it. I'm so tired of sitting home but if I try to do things on my own, I worry too much and it's not worth it. It's awful when you fall in the cracks and help is not available. So we plug along.... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 08:54:18 EST Getting better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751049 I have been really sick. I think it was either food poisening or a bad stomach virus. Thankfully, I am feeling better now. My sugar has been wild and that didn't help. The diabetic expert was concerned and we both agreed we had to take the next step. Yesterday I did what I had fought against for so long and you know what, it wasn't bad at all! I started taking a once a day insulin shot. I am feeling better today even though my sugar is still very high. I know it takes time so I'm bein... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 12:02:11 EST Getting better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751048 I have been really sick. I think it was either food poisening or a bad stomach virus. Thankfully, I am feeling better now. My sugar has been wild and that didn't help. The diabetic expert was concerned and we both agreed we had to take the next step. Yesterday I did what I had fought against for so long and you know what, it wasn't bad at all! I started taking a once a day insulin shot. I am feeling better today even though my sugar is still very high. I know it takes time so I'm bein... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 12:01:56 EST Sick! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748916 Today I am so sick. My stomach is doing flip flops and nausea has set in. I don't know what happened or how I got this. I haven't been sick in years. 2 mins of step ups and so dizzy, I almost fell. Last night I was up every hour and a half . My sugar is wild and the night sweats caused 4 nightgown changes. This morning I called the diabetic expert and am waiting for her to call back. Something has to change! Tue, 29 Jul 2014 11:57:26 EST Stress level zero! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746907 Yesterday's Dr visit was an experience. I spoke up for the very first time. I told him that I felt like he had given up on me. He overpowers me and doesn't really listen. In the end, it was much better than I had planned. After all, I had lost 11 lbs since I last saw him, my BP was about 115/68 and it was just my sugar that was somewhat off which we are working on. When I left, I felt more confident in myself. I usually feel very inferior esp with people in authority and think they are... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 11:46:34 EST Why can't I be normal? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746292 Oh boy, I've got an Md appt today and again my nerves are shot. I know it's going to be ok but still I can't stand going. This morning, my BP is up, my weight is up, my sugar is up and I'm feeling so hungry that I'm dizzy. It's not going to be a good day but when this is over, I know things will go back to normal and I'll be on track again. Meanwhile, the inner fighting has begun and already guilt is creeping in. I know I shouldn't be caving in but on the other hand, I really want a care... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 10:09:03 EST Happy Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744776 The steak pizzola was fabulous last night and I have left overs for today so double the fun, a good meal and no cooking! All my efforts are being rewarded as I lost 2 more lbs. that makes 14 lbs since changing meds. My daughter got good news, her leg is doing well and they got rid of the heavy bandage. <BR> It's a very happy day! Wed, 23 Jul 2014 08:44:54 EST The sun is shining http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744129 Things are going very well. I did have one day of slip ups but that day was over and it's back on track. I lost another lb so it's moving, slowly but moving. I fixed the crock pot for steak pizzola today. I had a few pieces of steak, added potatoes for my husband, onions, green beans, zucchini, and tomato sauce. The smell is driving us crazy and I am so looking forward to this. <BR> <BR> It's a beautiful sunny day and a great one for doing laundry and hanging it outside. Tue, 22 Jul 2014 10:27:10 EST Truly blessed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742078 Things are going well. It's so true that The Lord doesn't give you more than you can handle. My family is so Blessed. Our problems are so minor compared to others around us and good things always seem to follow us. <BR> <BR> My daughter is doing very well. The recovery is going much better than they even hoped for. My parents got a notice that the help we applied for was granted so they will be getting some relief taking care of them. When you are in your 90's and fall between the cr... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 12:05:29 EST The Day After http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741365 Surgery went well yesterday. My daughter is home and recovering now. Thank you for your kind thoughts and prayers, we are truly blessed. The stress was overwhelming but we made it through and most of all I did good not eating my feelings. I thought about all kinds of foods but I refrained and stuck to my plan. This was a huge step for me and showed me how I can manage. I came across a great quote from a FB friend, <BR> Mark Ludlow who lost tons of weight and is keeping it off. He said... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 09:46:23 EST Daughters surgery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739973 We got the word that my daughter goes into surgery tomorrow. It's for a torn miniscus and bone fragments in her knee. We expect all to go well but if you have any prayers you could send her way, they would be most appreciated. Thanks a bunch! Wed, 16 Jul 2014 10:09:22 EST Falling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737907 I don't know what to do anymore. My husband fell again this morning. Thankfully our rugs are well padded so he didn't get anything more than the soreness that comes from falling. He will not see a Dr and I don't know why he keeps falling except that it's happening more often, like at least once a week now. I'm afraid to go out with him as I'm afraid something will happen. His walking is really off too. I've tried talking to him but the last Dr visit left such a bitterness that he will... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 12:55:30 EST Euphoria! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735164 I have now lost 11 lbs since changing meds and I'm so thrilled! I don't usually say it until I'm sure it sticks as it has been known to go up again but this time it's important because this is the return to the weight of last March. That's a long time of trying! Just goes to show you, never give up. And if it does go back up tomorrow, at least I had a day of euphoria and I know it's close, within my grasp. <BR> <BR> Wed, 9 Jul 2014 08:53:39 EST Veggies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734400 My daughters garden is starting to come in and she gave me her first cucumber. It was delicious! I should have had my own but my plants died but I am happy to be sharing hers. How I wish fresh veggies were more affordable. I love them but the prices drive me away. If the government really wanted to combat obesity, they should start here. I wish I was a better farmer, I try but I just don't have that green thumb and so I pay for limited amounts but I would eat more if I could. Tue, 8 Jul 2014 09:03:43 EST It was a good week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733077 Last week went well, it was hard but I worked thru it. I really have to keep my mind off food. The rainy days spent inside are the hardest. I told my husband when he retired that we couldn't afford to go out everyday as the price of gas kept going up as well as other prices. The TV and the computer are our main sources of entertainment. I make sure to get my exercise in and every hour, get up and walk around. But other than that, my days are spent thinking about food. What to cook, act... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 12:19:36 EST Happy 4 th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731895 Happy 4 th of July everyone. <BR> It's pouring rain here with touches of lightening and thunder. I guess we are getting the effects of that hurricane this morning but they say it will pass by tonight. There goes the idea of BBQ for today. So new plans are a casserole of hot dogs, string beans, and cauliflower in tomato sauce for me and baked macaroni to serve. Simple, spur of the moment make ahead meals. It will still be a good day. <BR> <BR> I'm glad our town had it's fireworks displ... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 11:22:44 EST Holidays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731178 Fourth of July is fast approaching. Holidays! They are always associated with food and instead of looking forward to them, they become a hassle and something I want to avoid. I come from an Italian family where celebrations mean sitting around the table with tons of fat filled foods. This is one of the things I can not change so I have to learn to accept especially when it's not my house. It reminds me of the Biggest Loser when they are faced with tons of food. Being in a group and havi... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 09:26:33 EST More veggies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730515 With my new resolve, I'm trying to add more veggies to my plan. The problem is I'm tired of eating them the same ole way. So yesterday since we were grilling anyway, I grilled eggplant and zucchini. Brushed with olive oil and sprinkled with garlic powder, they both were very good. I would have them again. <BR> <BR> Today I made the mock potato salad. I used cauliflower and add hard oiled eggs. The touch of vinegar I added to the mayo absolutely made it. It's cooling for lunch. I wish... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 11:14:38 EST More veggies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730512 With my new resolve, I'm trying to add more veggies to my plan. The problem is I'm tired of eating them the same ole way. So yesterday since we were grilling anyway, I grilled eggplant and zucchini. Brushed with olive oil and sprinkled with garlic powder, they both were very good. I would have them again. <BR> <BR> Today I made the mock potato salad. I used cauliflower and add hard oiled eggs. The touch of vinegar I added to the mayo absolutely made it. It's cooling for lunch. I wish... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 11:14:21 EST So far, so good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726336 I've been taking the new meds with no side effects as of now, which is a good thing. My mindset is back in the right place and I've been doing more exercise. It's been a push to do these but it's getting easier to get started now. My eating has been good, keeping within my allotted calories and I've added some carbs but watched the portions. It's not an easy road but one I'll have to get used too. <BR> <BR> I'm on the fence about these new meds. I hope in time, they work better than the... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 11:27:58 EST Meeting over, problem solved http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724199 Today's meeting is over and I'm so happy with what went on. I found out lots of things I didn't know and came out of there with such a good feeling. My meds are being changed, I'm being taken off the one that causes weight gain and I am being given one that help with weight loss as a side effect. Now if I have no problems with this one, it will be a major step forward. <BR> <BR> I was told to continue as I have been doing. Watch the carbs but don't be afraid to eat up to 60 grams per d... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 14:37:12 EST Today's the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723914 Today's the day, wish me luck! I'm going into this with an open mind but I really don't know what to expect. It's my first experience with someone trying to actually personally help me. All I know is I want them to LISTEN to me and not preach to me. I'm talking to a woman so I'm thinking this will be better and she'll take my symptoms seriously. 11 AM is witching hour! Mon, 23 Jun 2014 08:19:27 EST Don't give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722711 I'm back on the low carb again at least until Monday. This morning was a healthy breakfast of eggs with a very small amount of red peppers and coffee of course. I must admit I am not hungry when I eat low carb which makes it easier to stick to this. If only it didn't involve so much cooking. Sometimes I don't mind but sometimes I just dread doing it. I try to make extra so I can just heat it up but some foods just aren't tasty when not made fresh. <BR> <BR> My garden has a new squash ... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 11:03:15 EST What's going on? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722040 After yesterday, it all went as expected. My sugars rose over 50 points and I definitely need the diabetic specialist and new or different meds. Thankfully I've only got a few more days till I see her. <BR> <BR> Forget about all those lbs I thought I had lost. It only took one day to put them back on. <BR> There is definitely something going on with me but I have no clue as to what it is. <BR> <BR> I was given the smallest increase in BP meds and my BP plummeted. Now it's so low and I h... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 10:43:22 EST Low carb http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721518 It's been a week and a half now that I've been on this very low carb diet to get my sugar down. I'd like to report that it did work and I also lost 4 lbs as a side effect. I have an appt with the diabetic expert on Monday. So today I wanted to see how adding some carbs would be. It's important because I can't go thru life just eating proteins and fats. I never thought I would miss my veggies and fruits so much. This diet is ok for short term but not very realistic for me. I know some p... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 16:09:32 EST Happy Father's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718403 Wishing all the fathers and fathers to be a very special day today! Not having children of your own does not mean you have not mentored or made an impression on another person. It is great to honor our father but also all the good men out there. Sun, 15 Jun 2014 11:27:02 EST Harsh reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717881 Yesterday was a day of harsh reality. I have hit bottom. Now after a long cry and pity session, I have come to terms with what needs to be done and I have to pick myself up and move on. It's not going to be easy but I am a strong person and I can do this. Besides, I have no choice. <BR> <BR> When everything looks down, it helps to have a positive attitude. Determined to pick myself up, my gardening always brightened my day. So this morning I went to check on my plants. Since I planted... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 13:14:47 EST Can I scream! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716485 So all the panic over yesterday's visit was for nothing. The eye Dr decided to try a new med and see if it makes a difference. Now I'm in limbo until Jun 24 th when I have to go back to see if this working. I really hope this works but why keep me waiting if this was all that was going to happen. These Drs don't understand what they put us through when they have a whim and say something off the cuff that we take to heart. One visit and we are doomed, it's the end of the world and the nex... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 12:08:13 EST Insurance co rules http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715481 Today is the day I find out which of the options will be done on my eye. I'm nervous about this and been up since very early this morning. I wish I could overcome my panic over going to any Dr. I have to accept this is my life now and I am never going to be left alone. Sometimes I think there is such a thing as over preventive tests and screens. Insurance companies rule our lives. I don't need all these tests that repeat each other and I certainly don't need to see a Dr every few weeks!... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 07:18:29 EST Yesterday's downpour http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714891 Today I'm going to inspect the damage from yesterday's downpour. We had a whole day and night of rain and hours at a time where it came down in buckets. As I said before, I planted my garden behind the garage and you can't see it from the house. So today, in between the rain, im going to see what is still standing. Just like what happens to us, whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Any plants still standing today, are strong and will make it! <BR> <BR> Speaking of strong, I am ... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 10:45:14 EST Plants in! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713981 Well my plants are in. 90 minutes of gardening and lots of hard work later, I've got squash and tomatoes in the ground. The prep work was much harder than the actual planting but it's all done now. Now I'm waiting to see what takes. Today, it's pouring so I'm not going to see them. I planted behind the garage where the sun shines and hopefully the guy who mows the lawn will stay away. I did put up a barrier and I'm going to make a stop sign. I don't want a repeat of when he weed whack... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 08:45:04 EST Gardening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712642 I've waited as long as I want to and today I decided to plant my squash outside and let them sink or swim. I've been babying these plants and they've been going downhill since I've gotten back from vacation. This week I started putting them on the table outside to get accustomed during the day and then bringing them in the cold nights. Usually by now they already would have been in the ground but this has been an unusual year. Much too cold. <BR> <BR> I had planted tomatoes, cucumbers an... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 10:10:05 EST Chinese today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712055 I've been invited out for Chinese foods today and I'm going for the company and fun. I know there will be a salt problem but I'll handle it. Life is too short to pass on opportunities and in the end, what difference does it make. <BR> <BR> This is an attitude I can't seem to change and mostly because I now have so few opportunities , I don't know if I really want to change. Having my husband in his current condition, I have to accept life as it is. I am not unhappy it's just I have to de... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 11:31:53 EST Low carb/ Atkins?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711226 Well things have not been going well so yesterday I reverted back to my Atkins days. The induction phase with one exception of a banana with breakfast. That was before I decided to do this. When I was on Atkins, I did lose a lot of weight but I couldn't stay on it and the minute I veered I gained it back. I wanted something I could live with and that wasn't it. Now my primary purpose is not to lose weight, although that would be nice, but to get my sugars down. So after yesterday, my su... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 10:39:22 EST Running in circles! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710368 I'm trying so hard and still don't have a handle on this. Yesterday was such a hungry day so I tried to eat only good for me foods. I lost 1/2 lb even with all that eating but my sugars were still sky high. It's like the pills just don't work any more. I'm at a loss as to what to do. It's never been like this before! <BR> <BR> Wed, 4 Jun 2014 09:09:10 EST