DSBRIDE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DSBRIDE DSBRIDE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I keep trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918390 Since my last blog, I have seen more Drs then I can count, almost everyday. I have 4 different eye drops to put in 4 times a day at least 5-10 mins apart. They have brought the pressure down a bit but it's not good enough so tomorrow I am having laser in one eye to open up the tear ducts and a needle procedure in the other eye to actually take some fluid out. These drops have taken a good 2 hours out of my day but a small price to pay to save my sight. However the stress is really getting... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 08:52:26 EST Another Whammy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913489 How much more can I take?? I only had 4 good days before I got hit with another whammy! This time I noticed my vision hazing over and blurry. I went to the eye Dr thinking that it was from my sugar since its been out of control throughout my ordeal. I was finally getting it back down and then this. Come to find out, it's not from my sugar. The pressure in my eye went from 17 to 44 according to Friday's test. This morning, I got an early morning call to retest the pressure so I went and... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 14:17:43 EST Happy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912371 Things are much better this week. The biopsies came back benign and another thing to watch but not do anything about right now. I dug deep within myself to get back on track this week. I rejoined the exercise challenge and it has been so hard but I've met my goal everyday. I stopped my night snacking, another very hard thing to do. I am also really watching my sugar and although it has gone down, I am not happy where it is. I'll have to keep working on that. <BR> <BR> My Mom went int... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 12:22:46 EST Prayers needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908220 Things are not going well with me. I went for an ultrasound yesterday and they immediately did 2 biopsies. They hurt so much and I went home hurting. Today I'm a bit better but I feel like such a baby. I have no tolerance for pain anymore. I always was so strong but now it's different. So I'm waiting for more results that I hope to get by Monday. Please God, let this be a false alarm! Thu, 9 Apr 2015 10:15:04 EST Determination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903108 I have become a stronger person having gone thru so much the past 3 months. I know what I want and am not afraid to speak up. I have taken a stand with my health and right or wrong, I will live with my decisions. Things are different, I've changed and I like the new me. <BR> <BR> I saw my oncologist after seeing the surgeon and he totally disagreed on my treatment. He wants me to get the surgery and if not to have radiation. I looked around his crowded office where people were like ca... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 18:34:23 EST Good news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901134 I have been going thru so much since January and yesterday I finally got all the answers to my questions, a plan of action and I met with the Dr that I trust with my life. <BR> I met with the surgeon that I thought was going to cut me open and put me thru lots of pain. Instead he took my hand and said he reviewed my situation, discussed it with his colleagues and if I agreed, they thought a more wait and see attitude was the better course of treatment for me. He said I have 2 cancerous tumo... Sat, 28 Mar 2015 11:05:27 EST Next week I take another step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895144 I am so stupid! That's sarcasim since I'm so very upset at this latest turn of events. Here I was waiting for a phone call from the surgeons office to set up an appt and he had already set one up for me on something called My Chart. MC is a Dr to Dr chart of every test and scan I have gone thru with all the results. It shows every appt I've gone to and what was done at that time. The problem is, no one told me about MC and the appt listings. Can't anyone just use a phone! What if I cou... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 09:56:14 EST God gives us hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5894121 Here it is a week later and I still haven't gotten the appt with the surgeon. I called again and apparently they forgot about me. I went back and reread the paper I was given regarding my visit with the oncologist. It also said to change my diabetic meds to a much lower dose. I was just getting that under control and now with the lower dose, it's going up again. I feel awful and wake up with a fog over my good eye. It disappears in a few hours but my vision is blurred in the morning. S... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 18:08:27 EST New update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888616 I saw my oncologist yesterday and all the info I had been given is wrong. There will be no chemo, the prefered choice is surgery followed by radiation. I am getting an appt with a surgeon this week. Who knows when it will be. It's so hard when you expect one thing and then it changes. This whole process is nerve wracking! It's never over, just going from one thing to another. Meanwhile my life is upside down. Does the medical profession know what they put a patient thru, do they care?... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 10:29:52 EST Moms Birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886098 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1292740903.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It was Moms birthday party and here she is waiting for everyone to come. The grandkids don't visit often so special occasions are important. They don't realize how much older people look forward to seeing them, they are so busy with their lives. Mom turned 91, at this age most of their friends are gone. How they miss talking with people their own age. She sat and waited almost all day and then finally when e... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 09:19:17 EST Moms birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5884718 Yesterday was Moms birthday so today we are having a family party for her. She is 91. Everyone but my daughter will be there as she has to work. I saw a cute recipe on FB that I think the kids will like. So easy so I tried it. Take marshmallows and dip them in a bowl of water. Take dry jello in a plastic bag, add the marshmallows and shake to coat. Dry on dish. Done! I used cranberry jello and made maroon colored ones but you can make an assortment of colors and favors. So pretty. ... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 10:09:15 EST Shopping done! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882938 Yesterday was a lot to do kind of day. As I waited for my ride, I started cleaning off the van. It wasn't an easy job as I had to chip away at all the ice. 90 minutes later and I had only cleared the windshield and the hood. The rest is still buried. <BR> <BR> My ride came and I did a huge grocery shopping. I was very grateful for the ride but more so for the help carrying everything into the house. Then I was left with only putting it all away. Last night I suffered from having done ... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 07:31:08 EST Another day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881821 Today I had to ask for help. It's a humbling experience. We try to be independent but sometimes circumstances are beyond our control. I try not to bother others with the exception of my daughter and even her, I know she's so busy so only for really important things. But today, I had to ask my sister for a ride to the store. It's been 5+ weeks since I've been grocery shopping and I really needed to go. She was very gracious about it but still I hated to ask. Our van is iced over and won... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 12:36:07 EST Excuses and satifaction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879385 I've had a lot of ups and downs but this past week has been good. The challenge I joined encouraged me to get it done even when I didn't feel like it. I could have made lots of excuses, a big one is feeling sorry for myself but my minor aches and pains also could have been one too. Getting started is so hard but there is no satisfaction like what you get when you've completed the task. I need this satisfaction to ward off the depression that I could easily fall into. So one thing leads t... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 12:10:30 EST Results are in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876712 I got a call early this morning with the results of my biopsy and it's confirmed that I do have lung cancer. If I had to pick between the good and the bad, I was fortunate to have the good cancer. It's slow growing, treatable and I don't have to go thru hell with the treatment. So I consider this good news and so much pressure has been taken off of me. The waiting was killing me as my mind could only imagine horrible scenarios. All the symptoms I have been having like the night sweats ar... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 11:29:56 EST Get it done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874358 I'm still in lots of pain and it's time to say something about it. I thought it would get better but it doesn't seem to be. Everything else is holding steady. Today is going to be another day of no exercise. <BR> <BR> I've been very lucky that my husband has picked up the slack. He's handicapped and limited in what he can do. I watch him fumble around but he's getting the job done. I never thought he would be waiting on me. It's humbling to sit back and let this happen. I'm not used ... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 08:55:36 EST Day After http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873685 I woke up this morning in such pain. I can take a lot but this is really something else. The coughing is causing pain in my ribs on the left side and every breath is agony. Luckily I was able to sleep most of the night. I still have a fever but it's not bothersome. <BR> <BR> We had a discussion this morning about medical procedures. I realize I had to have this done and I expected some discomfort but not this. My husband is of the mind sake that they should have given me something to g... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 07:47:29 EST It's over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873337 I went in for my test and biopsy this morning. Now that's over and time to wait again for the results that will come in 4-5 days. The first test was apiece of cake but the biopsy itself was aweful. I expected to be asleep throughout the whole procedure. I woke up half way through and started coughing. So many tubes in my mouth and gagging on them. My throat should have been numb but I felt every move. It wasn't hurting, just very unpleasant. The deep coughing is still continuing and I... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 17:09:54 EST Finally..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872808 I am going in for my biopsy tomorrow as well as another test. After 3 weeks of waiting this is finally getting done. Today we had the promised snow storm with ice too. I'm worried about the drive tomorrow but my daughter assures me she will get me there even if the roads aren't cleared as we have to leave at 7 am. By noon, this should be over and then just the 3 day wait for the results. Please pray or send good vibes that all goes well. Mon, 9 Feb 2015 22:09:00 EST Limbo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871164 I have another appointment on Tuesday for my biopsy and my nerves are shot. I can't wait to get this over with but like the last 2 times, a new snow storm is expected this weekend. Hopefully we can make it in this time and it's not cancelled again. <BR> <BR> Let me tell you what it's like to live in limbo. Everyone you talk to, every show on TV, every commercial brings up feelings of am I going to die soon. Will this be the last time for some of the activities I'm doing. How much time e... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 10:15:49 EST NSV and I'm loving it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865791 I'm having a great week regarding this challenge that I joined. There are 2 other girls that are very competitive and our numbers are so close that we really work for top place. The challenge is to get in the most steps on fitbit. As the day winds down, we wrestle to end it with top place. I find myself exercising at 11 pm trying to get that top spot. The only thing is I'm on the East coast so my time zone ends first. It really is a challenge. <BR> <BR> I set my goal at 5,000 steps bu... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 09:10:45 EST NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863834 The blizzard came last night and its still going on. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be but still a lot. The state is still shut down but I have no place to go. <BR> <BR> I did have a NSV yesterday when I hit over 10,000 steps on my fitbit! It's a first for me. I joined a challenge and being as competitive as I am, this spurred me on. Today I have over 4,000 steps but the day is still young. Tue, 27 Jan 2015 14:41:49 EST Just my luck! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862470 Just when I think everything is all set, here comes another monkey wrench! How I want to get this biopsy over as my nerves are shot and the waiting is awful. So what happens, I have to cancel as we are going to have a blizzard Monday night into Tuesday. they are calling this a historic storm with snow up to 26 inches and lots of winds. <BR> Just my luck! Sun, 25 Jan 2015 20:26:49 EST New hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861540 Yesterday was a very long visit with a top Yale specialist. He was arrogant, egotistical, and had a horrible bedside manner. He also kept me waiting for almost 3 hours. Perhaps that is what makes him the best. He is the first Dr to offer me a glimmer of hope. I go on Tuesday for a hi def cat scan and then the biopsy. I should have results back in 72 hours. <BR> <BR> This has really changed my perspective on life. When I thought there was no hope, I gave up trying to lead a healthy l... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 11:18:23 EST Results in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859877 I learned the test results and now it is certain that I have some form of cancer. It could be a carcinoid which is slow growing or it could be the metastatic kind, a faster growing one. My next step is seeing a Dr for a consult on Friday who will set up a biopsy to determine which one. Treatments are different for each. Then I will see an oncologist that will decide the treatment. It feels good to finally have a plan of action. <BR> <BR> I have learned what is really important and believ... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 22:01:52 EST Peace again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856274 Today is a new day and I'm back in my routine. I slept last night with a peaceful acceptance of what will be, will be. I can't change anything so it's time to put things aside and be as normal as possible. During this time, I gained 4 lbs, another thing I have to accept. Since my tests are done for the most part, I have now been cleared for exercising again. In a funny way, it felt good to do that this morning. Even though my weight is up, my sugar has gone down a lot. I guess one does... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 08:54:19 EST Diagnosis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855747 I have my results and its a punch in the gut. I did see the heart Dr this morning and he said it was just a fluke and nothing to worry about. Then I heard about the results of the pet scan. Apparently there were 2 masses on my lungs, one definitely negative but the other one is positive. So a specialist is being called in to reread the films and decide what to do next. Some choices are to treat it aggressively, to biopsy it, or to watch it and repeat the tests in 3 months. I can only tr... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 11:46:57 EST Following up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851702 Yesterday I had a Dr appt for the hospital follow up. I learned that a part of my heart is not getting oxygen which is why I go see the heart Dr on Friday. More important, I learned I have to have a pet scan because of the suspicious cells in my lungs. I am trying not to panic but the thoughts won't go away. I am trying to stay positive as I have no pain but I still feel like something is off. <BR> <BR> We talked about how hard it is to keep my sugar in check and he increased my meds j... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 10:51:13 EST Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849414 Thank you to those that wrote on my last blog or thru emails about my hospital stay. I never felt so alone or down as when they hit me with the discharge details and follow ups I would have to go thru. It was like why bother anymore even to the point of stopping medical care. I'm 64 but I felt my life was over and I had almost accepted that whatever come what may. Being in the hospital, I was sleep deprived and not thinking straight. My friends here showed me I can't give up so I will fo... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 10:56:49 EST Hospital stay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848868 I have spent the last 4 days in the hospital with what started as a cardiac episode and ended with something also wrong with my lungs. I am so depressed as I have been working so hard and things are not good. If my days are numbered, I sure don't want to spend my last ones on a diet not enjoying my favorite foods while I can still eat and doing the dreaded exercises that are not helping. What a waste! <BR> <BR> I've had a battery of tests with vague results which won't become clearer un... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 18:46:57 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845851 I am so pleased to report that last nights crisis was averted. I made it thru without eating anything else and this morning my efforts were rewarded with the lowest sugar number I've had in months. Still not there yet but closer. <BR> <BR> So today is day 3 and going good so far. Yes, I know only 3 days but it's a start. Everyday I get stronger but I can't rely on willpower alone. As much as I have an addiction to chocolate, I have stocked my house with nuts and fruit. As long as there... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 17:36:33 EST Tick tock! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845149 It's 9:30 and I have an hour and a half till bedtime. I've already eaten my allotment for today but my head wants more. I've been watching the clock since 8:45, seeing the minutes pass ever so slowly. Today is the second day of this but I'm determined to get thru it. <BR> <BR> I keep telling myself that I'm not really hungry but somehow, I don't believe it. It's really not about the food, it's about my sugar numbers that I'm having trouble lowering to acceptable levels. I've got to ge... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 21:35:38 EST Happy New Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842618 Happy New Year everyone! <BR> <BR> Today was a great start to a new year. It was a time of reflection and new resolves. <BR> Last year saw me lose 18 lbs of previous regained weight and I hope this year will take care of the rest. It showed me I can be consistent with my exercise that has become a part of my life. My sugar cravings are manageable and I know what to do with them. <BR> Life has less stress and handling what I do have is much better. <BR> Life is great! Thu, 1 Jan 2015 09:44:13 EST Happy New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841794 I'm just taking a minute to wish everyone a safe New Year's Eve and a very Happy New Year! I can't believe its 2015 already! <BR> <BR> This year ended on a good note, everyone is healthy and looking forward to a new year. I am so ready to recommit to my journey and although I don't make resolutions, I do have some goals I want to accomplish in this year. I joined a new SP group which I hope will help me. Friends add motivation and encouragement and my SP friends are just the best! Wed, 31 Dec 2014 09:06:45 EST Merry Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838296 I am so blessed to have met such wonderful people that have helped me in my journey and supported me through the highs and lows that life has thrown me. I hope everyone enjoys today and is also blessed in this coming new year. <BR> <BR> Merry Christmas to all and a very Happy New Year! Thu, 25 Dec 2014 09:35:02 EST Merry Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838117 Wishing all my friends here a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! <BR> <BR> Special thanks for the beautiful new poem, I'm glad you shared it. Wed, 24 Dec 2014 21:10:37 EST Peace at last http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835785 A peaceful nights sleep after weeks of worry! The scenarios that run thru your mind tend to go from bad to worse as time goes by and the only saving grace is your trust in <BR> the Lord. My sisters surgery is over, she is recovering and the weight of the world has been lifted. The holidays will be joyful and I'm so happy this is over so we can truly celebrate. <BR> <BR> The end of the year is fast approaching and looking back it has been a rocky year but at least I have accomplishments... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 09:07:01 EST It's been awhile..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835538 So many things are happening that I just haven't had time to write but today I am sitting and waiting so it's time to share what is going on. My sister is in surgery undergoing a total hysterectomy. They suspect cancer but hopefully they will get it all. She's younger than me, only 58. She's undergone numerous tests over the last few months. We just got word that the surgery will take about 4 hours and they are only a third of the way through. So we sit and wait, and pray. <BR> <BR> It... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 17:48:23 EST Happy Thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823832 Wishing all my SP friends a very Happy Thanksgiving! It's been a trying year but I am grateful for the way it turned out as it could have been so much worse. The saying is true, that if you have your health, you have everything and you deal with what you have been given. <BR> <BR> This year our plans to have dinner with my daughter fell thru because she had to work. Good thing I had a backup plan and right now my turkey is cooking already stuffed and surrounded by fresh veggies. A on... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 11:12:14 EST A memory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818239 I lost a cousin this week. Simply said I'm sorry this happened just as I would be of any person who died but my memories of him are not so kind. He was a bully and a show off. He treated me like dirt, made fun of me and embarrassed me anytime he could. We all meet people throughout our lives that leave an impression on us. If you had a choice of leaving a good or bad memory, why not leave a good one? He was 8 years older than me and I looked up to him. Later on in life I just avoided ... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 09:53:55 EST Rough Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816598 Today is a very rough day. It's been 3 nights of bad sleeping. My legs hurt so much and I don't know why. I'm fine standing up but the minute I lay down, my legs get so cold and ache something awful. How much can you stand? I've been getting an hour sleep at a time from shear exhaustion. I hate to complain because it really doesn't help but this is the pits! I still have the terrible night sweats, getting soak and wet and being hot and then cold and now this stuff with my legs. My Dr ... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 08:11:19 EST 41 year Anniversary! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814158 Today is my Anniversary. 41 great years of our precious life together. I am grateful every day that I made the decision to marry a man who adored me, put me on a pedistal and just worshiped me. I didn't know how his love would last but it grows stronger every day and so does mine for him. He has been me thru thin and thick and always supported me. I don't know what I did to deserve such love but I am truly blessed. Mon, 10 Nov 2014 10:52:46 EST My relationship with food! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813043 The other day, I burned my finger when I took a hot pan out of the oven. It wasn't a bad burn and at the time, it really didn't hurt. My eyes saw the burn but I really didn't feel it. Later that night when I went to bed, my finger started throbbing, so much so that I found it hard to sleep. <BR> <BR> The next night, I had over eaten during the day and my eyes knew I was doing this but my head was ok with it. Then at bedtime, I was bloated and uncomfortable and all of a sudden, my head th... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 10:52:42 EST Bye, bye Halloween! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808632 I can't believe I made it thru Halloween with flying colors. This is a huge accomplishment. Perhaps it's because I bought candy that I didn't like so there was no temptation or perhaps it was because I was so aware of what I was eating that the decision was subconsciously made for me. In any case, it's over and the candy is gone. <BR> <BR> Today's hurdle will be joining my sister as we go out to eat to celebrate 2 birthdays and my upcoming anniversary. Since the dates are all about the s... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 11:17:34 EST Carnations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805588 When my daughter was very young, she liked buying me flowers as a surprise. We didn't have much money then but she would save up and be so happy when she had enough. I told her one day that carnations were my favorite flower and showed her a small bud vase. It was a special vase that her Daddy had bought me when she was born. Only one flower fit in it but that was enough to remind me of her every time I saw it. That was the first time I let her walk to the corner store alone. She came b... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 10:06:46 EST 64 and truly Blessed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804624 Today was a great day, my birthday! My daughter had us over for a nice dinner of butternut squash and macaroni. They are on a health kick right now and this was good for me. It tasted fantastic and was low in calories. A new recipe for me that I will be making again. Who knew this could taste so good! Then I ruined the great dinner by eating the chocolate cream pie, my favorite dessert. Good thing it was a small one as I ate my piece and brought the rest home. I know I'll finish it bu... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 17:21:30 EST Birthday time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803977 I haven't posted in awhile but there has been a lot going on. The big thing moving forward is that tomorrow is my birthday. I'll be 64 and that doesn't bother me at all. My daughter invited us for dinner and the menu will be something new they just tried this week and loved so they are sharing. Something with butternut squash and macaroni. I'm sure we will love it as the picture looked delicious. <BR> <BR> Since the new meds I have stabilized my weight, neither gaining or losing any mor... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 12:57:50 EST And then there are days..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796958 Today is my husbands 65 th birthday. We woke up to no heat as our brand new furnace is broken. I made a beautiful cake that totally fell apart when I went to take it out of the pan. I never saw such a pile of crumbs! Dinner burnt and tossed so we ended up ordering pizza. My daughter came over and said her brand new shower just trickles water. But we had fun anyway, laughed and ate, sang Happy Birthday to candles put in the sugarfree jello I had made as a side dessert. When life gives y... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 17:15:34 EST Weights and strengths http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787260 I'm right handed. Why does that matter, it's because 2 weeks ago when my right hand was full, I picked up the gallon of milk with my left hand and almost dropped it. That's when I really noticed how much strength I had and how much muscle tone I've lost. I hate weakness so it was time to do something about it. I started strength training with weights. A measly 3 lbs for now but yesterday, I had a aha moment that this was working. Reaching into the fridge to put the milk back, cereal in ... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 09:09:55 EST Rainy day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786665 They had forecasted a large amount of rain for today but so far, it's just showers and a very gray day. I have to work hard not to let this affect my mood. I'm supposed to visit my parents today which is depressing on a good day. They literally live in the dark and are always so negative. It's not like they can't afford to turn on a light, they just won't do it or let me do it. The shades are down so there is no reflection on the TV. It's just so depressing. Today I'm bring them some ... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 09:38:46 EST