DRAGON-CHICK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DRAGON%2DCHICK DRAGON-CHICK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Thank you for your support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6093546 Continuing my WLS blog series... <BR> <BR> I've been writing these blogs partly to help myself stay on track, and partly to share what I know (or think I know?) about weight loss surgery. <BR> <BR> This time I want to take a moment to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my blogs, even if you didn't reply. That's totally okay. Thanks for stopping by. <BR> <BR> And for those who have supported me during all of this, offering my kind words and encouragement, or just a cute emoti... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 12:39:56 EST WLS support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6091557 It is very important to have plenty of support during the WLS journey. I really don't think success is likely without it. I don't mean this as an insult to anyone. I mean that WLS is basically just making the stomach smaller. And really, how many people over eat from physical hunger? No one I know. <BR> <BR> What kind of support is needed? At least these: <BR> <BR> - Educational <BR> - Physical <BR> - Emotional <BR> <BR> EDUCATIONAL <BR> <BR> You need books or resources to learn... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 07:06:44 EST Post-op eating? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6090667 Continuing my WLS blog series... <BR> <BR> So how am I doing with food? Depends on the day. <BR> <BR> I have one protein shake for breakfast. Every day. <BR> There are some shakes that have 30 or 32 grams of protein. I like those because I know that's half of my minimum requirement for the day. I need 60 to 80 grams. <BR> <BR> I find myself eating lots of protein. Some easy ones are eggs and cheese. Cheese especially, because it's so portable. But it can be binding, so I am careful... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 07:25:18 EST Post-op diet, stage 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088252 Continuing my WLS blog series... <BR> <BR> After day 45 on my program, Stage 4 begins. Gradually. <BR> <BR> 1000 Calorie Meal Plan - slowly work towards <BR> - 8 protein servings <BR> - 2 vegetable servings <BR> - 2 fruit servings <BR> - 1 dairy serving <BR> - 2 fat servings <BR> - 3 starch servings <BR> <BR> - NO SODA! <BR> No carbonation; it can swell in the stomach and cause damage. I do know of some people that have added it in slowly, but I'd rather not risk it. <BR> <BR... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 05:42:57 EST Post-op Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087464 Continuing my WLS blog series... <BR> <BR> Time to move! <BR> <BR> The day after surgery, while still in the hospital, tethered to an IV pole, they encourage walking. Not only does it help with gas pain, it increases circulation and aids healing. <BR> <BR> It was suggested I get up and walk a little every hour. <BR> And I have to say it felt good to do it. I think it reinforced that I was totally fine after surgery. <BR> <BR> Once I got home, I tried to overcome my natural laziness and ... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 08:38:19 EST Incisions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6086499 Ok, this blog may be a big gruesome, but I suspect there are people out there that want to know when the incisions are like. So I'm surprising myself by posting a pic of my belly right after surgery, and another more recent one. <BR> <BR> The first picture was taken a few days post-op, at home. I had no bandages or stitches to worry about. There was a clear coating over the incisions. They fell off on their own, one at a time. <BR> <BR> I wasn't allowed to wash my belly for several days, ... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 06:36:54 EST Post-op diet, stage 3b http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6085548 After three weeks post-op, I was excited to start stage 3b. That's when more textures were introduced. <BR> <BR> Here's what my instructions were: <BR> <BR> Protein - 8 SERVINGS (1 serving = 7 grams of protein) <BR> - 1 oz chicken/turkey (dark meat is fine) <BR> - 1 oz 93% lean ground chicken/turkey (dark meat is fine) <BR> - 1 oz fish (tuna, cod, haddock, salmon, tilapia) <BR> - 3 oz fat-free Greek yogurt (without fruit chunks) <BR> - 1 egg or 2 egg whites or ¼ cup egg beaters <BR> -... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 06:51:52 EST Post-op diet, stage 3a http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084543 After two weeks of clear liquids and protein shakes, I was thrilled to finally start eating "soft texture" foods. <BR> <BR> The following is from the Stage 3 handout: <BR> <BR> This stage gradually re-introduces soft foods to your system. You will still rely on protein shakes but will start experimenting with new textures. <BR> <BR> Fluid Goal: Aim for 48-64 ounces daily <BR> Protein Goal: 60-70 grams/day <BR> Protein Shakes: Aim for 2-3 protein shakes daily <BR> <BR> Soft Texture Food... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 06:54:28 EST Post-op diet, stages 1 and 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6082092 Continuing my WLS blog series... <BR> <BR> Post-op diet, stage 1 is very short: Day One, the day of surgery. It's officially clear liquids; no sugar, caffeine, dairy, carbonation, etc. I was in the hospital, and only sucking on a sponge, and stealing ice chips anyhow. Not sure why they even bother calling it a stage. I was glad it was such a short one. <BR> <BR> Post-op diet, stage 2. It starts on Day Two, and runs for two weeks. <BR> <BR> - Sip throughout the day. <BR> - Aim for 48-... Fri, 29 Jan 2016 06:54:26 EST WLS: the big day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6081236 Finally! October 20! <BR> <BR> I was so excited! <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> <em>41</em> <em>213</em> <em>104</em> <em>224</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> One of my dearest friends took me to Brigham and Women's Hospital, and stayed with me until they took me into the operating room. I was so grateful for the company because I was starting to get anxious. Not about the decision, or the risk, or the surgery, or the healing afterwards. It was the dratted needles! Having the IV ... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 06:51:36 EST Pre-op diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6080303 Continuing my WLS blog series... <BR> <BR> Like I said yesterday, I had to lose some weight before I'd even be given a surgery date. I was very motivated to stick to a diet to get this surgery, otherwise I'm not sure I could have maintained it. <BR> <BR> In mid-August I started eating like a WLS patient. Well, portions were larger than they are now, but I was trying, and still leaning. Most of my days were like this: <BR> <BR> - 1 protein shake a day, trying as many as I could find <BR> ... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 04:52:13 EST Pre-op stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6079372 Continuing my WLS series... <BR> <BR> While waiting to get approval and a date for surgery, I had lots of appointments, plus all that reading. <BR> <BR> Bottom line, I had one thing to do: my surgeon said I needed to lose 10-20% before he'd give me a surgery date. <BR> <BR> So I got to work! <BR> <BR> Now you will probably ask - I know I sure did - if I can lose the weight before surgery, why don't I just continue that, and skip the surgery? <BR> <BR> The answer is simple. I don't beli... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 05:06:14 EST Assuming I'd have WLS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6078468 At some point I assumed I would go through with weight loss surgery. I was still looking for reasons not to; it's such a drastic irreversible step! <BR> <BR> So I kept reading kindle books and blog on what others have experienced. Of course I also assumed that most of these were written by people having good luck with WLS. Those that were not successful would hardly publish or blog about failure or bad experiences, right? More reason to stay open minded. <BR> <BR> I attended the mandato... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 07:04:03 EST Preparing for WLS? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6076019 Even not yet decided, I wanted to be prepared. Living as if? Partly to see what the lifestyle would be like, if I could do it. <BR> <BR> Over the summer, I gave up coffee and caffeine. I started by slowly switching to decaf, then I stopped altogether in July. I missed my iced coffee! I missed the morning routine. But I didn't really need it. <BR> <BR> Next, I researched post-op recipes, and found a bunch to be cooked in muffin pans for portion control. And I tried some of them. Prett... Fri, 22 Jan 2016 06:42:35 EST Why am I blogging about WLS? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6075198 Why am I writing these blogs about weight loss surgery? <BR> <BR> * I am not trying to convince anyone to have it done. * <BR> <BR> WLS is not a good choice for everyone! <BR> <BR> I just want to share information. Some people have asked me casually about it, and it's hard to give a simple explanation. What do I say? I failed at decades of diets, so I have my stomach made smaller to force me to diet? <BR> <BR> For people who want to know more, I want to share information. <BR> <BR> I... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 08:22:33 EST WLS: Researching in earnest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6074262 After I attended the WLS info session, I was determined to do as much research as I could. Don't get me wrong, I was really excited and hopeful. But WLS is a serious choice. It's body altering, and not reversible. (Ok the band is reversible, but I didn't want that.) <BR> <BR> I talked to the people I knew who had the surgery, or had a significant other who did. They all encouraged me to do it, saying their only regret was waiting so long. But I repeat myself. <BR> <BR> I do know of on... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 06:39:33 EST WLS Intro Info Session http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6073438 I went with my BFF to a local medical center, a satellite of the nearby hospital, I think. The surgeons were also affiliated with Brigham and Women's Hospital, a great Boston hospital. <BR> <BR> There were all kinds of people here, all ages and weight ranges. Some had brought someone for support. <BR> <BR> We heard from surgeons and nurses and dieticians. <BR> <BR> They explained the WLS options, and their pros and cons. <BR> There were many hospital options, and insurance could be either ... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 08:23:27 EST WLS? Why I shouldn't! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6072469 I've been enthusiastically expounding on the benefits of weight loss surgery, but I've barely mentioned the down sides. <BR> <BR> Weight loss surgery is not for everyone. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> My basic arguments against: <BR> - You need to have a BMI of 40 or more. <BR> - Or BMI of 35 or more with comorbidities. <BR> - Any surgery has risks. Including the risk of deat... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 08:33:48 EST WLS? Why?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6069939 Yesterday I admitted to having had weight loss surgery. <BR> <BR> I am not entirely sure why I feel like it's a guilty confession. But I do. A prejudice in my own mind, I'm sure. Maybe it's the less than enthusiastic feedback I'd gotten before? <BR> <BR> I think that I am ashamed that I couldn't do it on my own. <BR> <BR> And I couldn't. OMG, I tried for years, and only made things worse. <BR> <BR> I tried nearly every diet out there. For the most part I had some initial success, ... Fri, 15 Jan 2016 07:19:04 EST Decided! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6069091 I had one last question for WLS patients: Regrets? <BR> <BR> The response was overwhelming. The only regret was not doing it ten years ago. In fact, most people said exactly those words. People were delighted by the dietary changes their bodies forced them to make, the health improvements, and the drastic and exciting changes in their bodies. <BR> <BR> So, as I wrote earlier, I did a ton of research and finally decided to go forward with weight loss surgery, and I chose to have the sleeve ... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 07:26:10 EST Post-op expectations? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6068222 I've heard that WLS patients take off work, anywhere from one week to three weeks. (Actually, I know someone who took six weeks off, but I think he had a ton of time on the books anyhow.) <BR> <BR> Remember, these blogs are just comments on things I've read online, or in books, or heard from people I know who have been through it. <BR> <BR> General healing <BR> <BR> Assuming the procedure is done laparoscopically, movement is unrestricted after a few days, except there is a restriction... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 06:36:44 EST What should a WLS patient expect before surgery? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6067398 Last week I wrote a little about the pros and cons, and the differences between the procedures. Today I'd like to write a bit about the expectations I've read about, and heard about, in general, before and after the surgery. <BR> <BR> Making it official <BR> <BR> Well, once you've found the perfect hospital and the perfect surgical and support teams, you need the OK from your insurance. Some insurance companies are quicker to grant coverage than others, so start early. <BR> <BR> Some p... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 07:36:25 EST What WLS does http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6063853 I wrote yesterday that weight loss surgery is only a tool. It will not cure anyone of the emotional reasons for eating. <BR> <BR> And there are side effects and possible complications. <BR> Band users need to go back for regular adjustments, bypass patients risk the dumping syndrome, both the bypass and sleeve patients must take supplements for life. All of them must stay on restrictive diets to continue or maintain their weight loss. <BR> <BR> So what's the point? Why do it? <BR> <BR> W... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 08:37:21 EST WLS is only a tool http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062855 I've blogged a bit about the different weight loss surgery options, and some of their pros and cons. Really, I just scratched the surface. There's so much info out there. I spent almost all my free time for months reading about it and talking to people about their experiences. And I've only talked about the surgery options so far. <BR> <BR> *** WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY IS NOT A CURE *** <BR> <BR> One thing I keep hearing over and over again is: weight loss surgery is only a tool. It is no... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 07:45:32 EST More on WLS choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061995 Yesterday I wrote briefly about the 3 main choices in weight loss surgery: Bypass, Sleeve and Band <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/761f0cbf-6aeb-41b0-bcb7-51ff3c1c5fcf.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Of course any surgery is serious. Especially when they knock you out with anesthetics. Complications are always possible. <BR> <BR> The Adjustable Gastric Band, aka Lap Band is touted to have the least risk, since there is no cutting of the stomach or intestines. On the down sid... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 09:56:08 EST WLS options http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061086 Apparently not all weight loss surgery is the same. <BR> <BR> All of these are now usually done laparoscopically. This means there are a few (4 or 5) tiny incisions (half inch or so) around the perimeter of the stomach area. <BR> <BR> Rarely will they need to cut someone open to do this, but the surgeon may reserve the right to, in case of complications. <BR> <BR> There are three primary operations: <BR> <BR> - AGB, Adjustable Gastric Band, aka Lap band <BR> - RYGB, Gastric Bypass, aka... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 12:31:21 EST Decided http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6060103 I blogged last year about considering whether or not to have weight loss surgery. <BR> <BR> Yes, I did a ton of research. I compared options, and talked to several people who have had it done, friends whose family members have had it done, and family members in the medical industry. <BR> <BR> I bought (and read) several books on the subject, plus I subscribed to various blogs and websites devoted to supporting WLS patients. <BR> <BR> Using all that information, I weighed the pros and cons... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 14:00:19 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6058679 Day 3 and so far so good. <BR> <BR> I ate as I should have, I did some work around the house, and I worked on a story plot hole. Oh, and I took a nap. Bonus! <BR> <BR> Today I finally hit 50 pounds lost! Finally! <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <em>43</em> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Today I hope to put more of Christmas away. Not my tree! But I have wrapping and other miscellany to be put in their proper places. ie, not on every flat surface in my home. <BR>... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 08:24:40 EST No Resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6057703 <em>412</em> <em>411</em> <em>408</em> <em>411</em> <em>412</em> <BR> <BR> I know I've said before that I don't make resolutions. <BR> <BR> Is it that I don't want to set myself up to fail? <BR> I've heard that most people break theirs within the first two weeks of January. <BR> <BR> Yikes! <BR> <BR> Well, I am determined to lose weight and work on my overall health. And I think I'm well on my way to that goal. <BR> <BR> I'd also like to spend more time writing. I don... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 07:30:18 EST Happy New Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6056586 2016 is going to be a great year! <BR> <BR> <em>408</em> <em>411</em> <em>412</em> <em>411</em> <em>408</em> <BR> <BR> Happy New Year everyone! <BR> Fri, 1 Jan 2016 06:45:19 EST I miss coffee! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6007247 I gave up coffee over the summer. In June, I cut back to decaf, and then just stopped all together. No coffee as of July 1st! <BR> <BR> Ok, I did have the random cup, maybe 3 times since then, but I didn't enjoy it and didn't finish it. So I thought the love affair was over. <BR> <BR> But now it's getting colder out. Especially with today being so rainy, I really miss my nice warm soothing cup o' joe! <BR> <BR> I may try tea, but I don't enjoy it as much. And I really don't like herba... Thu, 1 Oct 2015 08:14:59 EST Changing my mind? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000431 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I've been overweight my whole life. Well, since I was twelve. I've tried almost every diet I could find. <BR> <BR> One thing I always refused to consider was weight loss surgery. Way too drastic and permanent. Plus, I really hate needles! A lot! <BR> <BR> But since the trauma of being the maid of honor in a giant strapless dress, I've started to think about ... Sat, 19 Sep 2015 20:11:13 EST Cauliflower Bread??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5996222 <em>4</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Maybe I should just stop trying new recipes? <BR> <BR> I thought this would be good. <BR> Boy was I wrong! But I think I messed it up. <BR> I made muffins instead of a loaf. <BR> <BR> <link>fromfriestofit.com/from-my-kitchen-t<BR>o-yours-new-sweet-and-savory-recipes-v<BR>anilla-protein-pound-cake-healthy-baba<BR>-ganoush/ </link> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/334c1a69-33e6-493c-8e7d-9a32d99f3da1.jpg"> ... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 20:28:38 EST Chia Pudding? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5988145 <em>4</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> So I tried to make Chia Pudding. <BR> <BR> You know where this is going, right? <BR> <BR> I used this recipe: <BR> <link>ImPerfectLife.net/chocolate-pudding </link> <BR> Combine 1 single serving sized container of Premier Pre-Mixed Chocolate Protein with 3 tablespoons of Chia Seeds in a sealable container. Refrigerate for a couple of hours. <BR> <BR> Ok, so I used Pure Protein instead, since that's what I had on hand. Is it rea... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 14:17:16 EST Depressing, or a relief? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5987441 <em>4</em> <em>15</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> A friend of mine forwarded a link to an article about how difficult it is to lose weight and keep it off. <BR> <BR> I've had mixed feelings about it. Part of me feels that all is lost, there is no hope. Another part of me is relieved to have some explanation of why I've been doing so poorly, even when I know I'm not really eating THAT much. Yet another part of me thinks the article is total baloney. <BR> <BR> So now I ... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 13:51:48 EST Need an attitude adjustment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928102 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Some of you know that I was recently in a wedding. I was the maid of honor for my sister. I'm overweight, and was obliged to wear a strapless satin gown. *shudder* <BR> <BR> I'm also an amateur photographer , and an avid scrapbooker, so I love going through pictures and designing album pages. <BR> <BR> Immediately after the wedding, I looked at the pics tak... Thu, 14 May 2015 13:12:09 EST Day One - Again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926327 <BR> <em>198</em> <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Yep, it's Day One again. <BR> There have been many! But that's ok. <BR> <BR> It's finally nice out. I'm not freezing all the time. <BR> I went grocery shopping and bought stuff for salads and smoothies! <BR> <BR> So now I just have to make them and eat them! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Mon, 11 May 2015 11:36:36 EST Happy Star Wars Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922191 May the Fourth be with you! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1861033100.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l513023180.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l13966563.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1367121060.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ok, this is just wrong... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l597048776.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Have a great day!! <BR> ... Mon, 4 May 2015 04:53:02 EST Happy Friday!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916787 TGIF! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1619967384.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 24 Apr 2015 06:59:41 EST Back up you computer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916321 <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Ok, for many people, this may be a no brainer. But I know so many people who either don't think it's important, or don't know how. <BR> <BR> I work in IT, and I know how devastating it can be to lose important files. My PC died recently. Happily, nearly everything was saved. I'm a bit obsessive about backups. <BR> <BR> So back up your data! <BR> Burn it onto DVDs or CD's, copy to external hard drives or thumb drives, send it to yourself in ema... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 09:56:53 EST Thought of the Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914131 Yep, I needed this! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l182961115.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sun, 19 Apr 2015 20:18:29 EST Another Day One http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913345 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Yep, it's another Day One! <BR> <BR> But you know what? It's OKAY! <BR> It's totally fine if EVERY day is a day one. Right? <BR> <BR> The only thing that's NOT ok is giving up. <BR> <BR> We can do this! Bring it on! <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <em>43</em> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <em>306</em> <em>521</em> <em>381</em> <em>104</em> <BR> <... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 09:04:30 EST I really need some help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912984 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I really need some help in getting back on track. <BR> <BR> It's the strangest thing; I can't figure out what's wrong with me. Exhaustion? Depression? Denial? Pure laziness? <BR> <BR> Last week was my sister's wedding. I was the maid of honor, and in a dress a little too skimpy for my size. So I felt horrified, completely self-conscious, and I just wanted... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 14:43:10 EST An apology http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898113 I feel like I owe my SP friends an apology for being so busy and neglecting you! I have not been available for well thought out replies to blogs or team/forum posts. <BR> I am sorry about that. <BR> <BR> Even more so, I owe myself an apology for neglecting ME. <BR> I have not been blogging, or tracking, or planning, or exercising, or eating right, or getting enough sleep. <BR> <BR> I did do some shopping this weekend for fresh produce, so that's a step in the right direction. <BR> <B... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 11:27:27 EST HELP!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896265 <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I really need some help. But I don't know what kind exactly. <BR> <BR> There are moments when I'm on track; I know what I need to do, and I'm prepared to do it. <BR> <BR> Sadly, those moments are few. Mostly, I'm exhausted, stressed out, and discouraged. <BR> <BR> But I am not giving up. I am looking for help. I found this challenge that looks encouraging. <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/blog... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 05:02:44 EST Binge? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890872 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> So far I'm resisting a binge, but there's a battle going on in my head! <BR> <BR> Why? I'm the maid of honor in my sister's wedding, she selected strapless dresses, and I'm really overweight! I went shopping for undergarments, and needed help from the sales clerk. <BR> <BR> Let's just say it wasn't a pleasant experience, and my ego is in the toilet. <BR> <BR> I have managed... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 04:33:07 EST Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890536 Struggling. Again. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I'm not sure what I want to say here, beyond a declaration of a new DAY ONE. Again. <BR> <BR> And maybe a little sigh. I'm not enthusiastic about it. But I do feel somewhat determined. And I'm praying the determination will last. Maybe that's a Spring thing? Starting to feel hopeful? I dunno. <BR> <BR> Are you starting over... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 14:26:40 EST Mushroom Walnut Pate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889700 I made this recipe, and it was pretty good. But I didn't mash it. Maybe I'll do some, but I like the un-mashed texture. <BR> <BR> <link>urbanchickpea.com/2011/04/27/mushroo<BR>m-walnut-pate/ </link> <BR> <BR> Unmashed, I ate it on bread, or hot with rice. Yummy! <BR> <BR> The next time I pureed it. Yummy! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l156671197.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1345677477.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> PS... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 08:52:50 EST Eat the Rainbow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845484 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l495904973.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just kidding! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I don't really like jelly beans anyhow. Or Skittles. <BR> M&M's, on the other hand, could be very dangerous. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Sun, 4 Jan 2015 10:16:19 EST Insanity? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844569 <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> "A severely disordered state of the mind" <BR> <BR> Or <BR> <BR> "Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result." <BR> <BR> I think both apply to me. <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I've described myself as feeling insane after eating sugar. <BR> Not just sugar; processed carbs, junk food, caffeine, etc. <BR> And it's not just from eating one portion. <BR> <BR> Ok, it's not that I'm like a kid on a suga... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 09:38:13 EST