DRAGON-CHICK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DRAGON%2DCHICK DRAGON-CHICK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Love this anti-skinny song! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775123 <em>353</em> <em>354</em> <em>355</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Meghan Trainor <BR> All About That Bass <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PCkvCPvDXk </link> <BR> <BR> Behind the scenes of it: <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=ofxGAXSope8 </link> <BR> <BR> <em>353</em> <em>354</em> <em>355</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> ---- <BR> Edit: Thanks HOT_MAMA_13! "BASS = Big A$$ if I remember correctly :-)" <BR> Sun, 7 Sep 2014 11:31:12 EST I think I exercised yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773064 <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> Don't get too excited. I wasn't working out. But it was still exercise. I'm pretty sure, anyhow. <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I got home from work, tired as usual, but it thought I'd hop on the elliptical for about 90 seconds. Again, don't get too excited. It was folded up because I'd had to move it, and I'd also piled some stuff around it. So I spent some time putting stuff away, and getting the beast into working orde... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 05:03:11 EST Struggling with motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771930 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I'm not really sure why this is so hard! <BR> <BR> I do really want to lose weight. Why? <BR> <BR> - I worry about my long term health. <BR> - Buying plus sizes is not fun. <BR> - I hate looking at pics of myself. <BR> - Looking in the mirror is shocking every time. <BR> - I feel ashamed of my lack of control. <BR> <BR> So what's my problem? <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 13:35:59 EST Detox Time!! (Again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769887 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Last week wasn't… Well, let's just say I didn't make the best food choices for my long term health. <BR> <BR> Today is the first day of a lovely three-day weekend! It's NOT an excuse to eat crappy foods. It's a great opportunity to spend three days in detox before I go back to work and the insanity resumes! <BR> <BR> Of course I'm only partly prepared. The ... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 11:09:34 EST Never giving up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767202 <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> It's been a really difficult summer. Life has tossed me a bunch of curve balls. But I'm doing ok. I've got some close friends and family with health issues, and I've lost a few people I knew. <BR> <BR> I'm really, really tired. Still, I'm doing ok. <BR> <BR> In the scheme of things, I'm doing GREAT! My health is fine, and I managed to not gain an... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 09:03:31 EST Rainy Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738358 <em>27</em> <em>257</em> <em>27</em> <em>257</em> <em>27</em> <em>257</em> <BR> <BR> Ugh! There's something about a rainy Monday. Still, I caught up on sleep yesterday, I think. And I feel relatively ready to face the day. I have the day off from work, thank goodness, but I have a thousand other things to do. <BR> <BR> Ok, maybe not a thousand, but it feels like it. I'm starting off the day with coffee (yes, I wanted coffee) and writing my blog on the balcony with the... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 06:38:37 EST So tired! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737740 <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> As I said yesterday, I'm trying to get myself back on track. But it doesn't help that I'm exhausted. I have been getting almost 8 hours of sleep at night, but I don't wake up rested. And this weekend the Luna(tic) wakes me up at my regular time. I was hoping for a nap, but never got one. Plus the people upstairs are redoing their place, so the construction noise will probably keep me from sleeping anyhow. <BR> <BR> So I'm sitting ... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 08:29:37 EST Trying… Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737357 Yes, I'm trying, again, to get back on track! I keep falling off the wagon. It must be slippery or unbalanced - no, that's me. Maybe it's just the wrong wagon? <BR> <BR> Well, at least I'm trying again. (Yeah, yeah, there is no try… shut up, Yoda.) Ok, I'll rephrase it. <BR> <BR> I'm not giving up, no matter how many times I screw up. Mistakes happen; I'm human. <BR> <BR> The thing about making mistakes and moving on is that it's important to learn from the mistakes and failures. S... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 14:03:11 EST Happy Birthday, Nana! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736464 <em>383</em> <em>389</em> <em>144</em> <em>409</em> <em>410</em> <BR> <BR> Today is my grandmother's birthday! <BR> <BR> Most people my age have lost their grandparents by now. Many have lost their parents, as I have. <BR> <BR> But I still have Nana! She is 106 years old today. And still going strong. <BR> <BR> She lives in an assisted living place, not a nursing home. She walks, but uses a walker because her vision is iffy. She has all her teeth, but this year a few ... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 05:31:47 EST The Scale? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721180 Here's a thought.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1343154341.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Yep, this one's for you!! <BR> Thu, 19 Jun 2014 08:07:07 EST Minor cookie victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719718 Yesterday I had a day off from work, and someone brought in cookies. Yes, they saved me a couple. <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a long and tiring day. And today is day 4 of no coffee. AND my office is freezing! <BR> <BR> I want a cookie!!!!! <BR> <BR> So I put them in a container and put that in the freezer! <BR> And heated up my crock pot oats. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <em>43</em> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <BR> Tue, 17 Jun 2014 09:29:27 EST 5 Veggie soup recipe, anyone? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718857 <em>4</em> <em>481</em> <em>368</em> <em>258</em> <em>485</em> <em>291</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I was looking for a soup recipe, and stumbled upon this site: <BR> <BR> <link>www.healthy-dietpedia.com/Healthy-di<BR>et-plans.html#.U5xvLJAU_DA </link> <BR> <BR> So of course I got distracted browsing through these "healthy" diets. But I'm getting back to the point now. <BR> <BR> I'm looking for a simple and specific soup recipe that I made way back... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 05:49:12 EST Can I give up coffee?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718249 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> OMG! Give up coffee???? <BR> Is it possible? CAN it be done? <BR> Yes… <BR> But do I *want* to do it? <BR> <BR> Ok, I'm am fairly certain that I do NOT need the caffeine. <BR> <BR> But I *love* my coffee!!!!! <BR> <BR> I love it HOT when it's cool out, and ICED in the Summer. <BR> Sadly, I like it light and sweet. Might as well melt some coffee ice cream! <... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 06:57:07 EST Detox time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717647 <BR> Ok, if I'm serious about getting back on track, then I need to detox. I need to get all the refined carbs and sugars out of my system. *shudder* <BR> <BR> Oh boy, it could be an ugly weekend. <BR> <BR> Run for your lives!!! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Sat, 14 Jun 2014 06:49:47 EST Trying to recommit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717069 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I am stressed out. I am exhausted and soul weary. <BR> I am stalled. <BR> <BR> But I still want to get back on track! <BR> <BR> I could potentially lose 30 pounds before vacation. <BR> <BR> And I feel like crap! Good motivation. <BR> <BR> But I still have this deep-down mindset that food will make me feel better! That's what my family used for everythin... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 08:59:59 EST I feel like my brain shut down. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715948 <em>198</em> <em>198</em> <em>198</em> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Really. I have a bunch of stress in my life right now. (What units or groupings would stress be in? Bushels? Tons?) I digress. <BR> <BR> I'm writing a blog to sort of jump start the old thinker. Go few few sentences written, not bad. <BR> <BR> So about all this stress...? Beyond my daily struggles, I have 3 things, of varying weights, pressing on my heart and soul. <BR> <BR> One of my closest friends is re... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 17:42:21 EST NutriBullet issue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708638 <em>470</em> <em>482</em> <em>45</em> <em>265</em> <em>289</em> <em>277</em> <em>488</em> <em>491</em> <em>368</em> <em>470</em> <BR> <BR> Hi Sparks Friends! <BR> <BR> I noticed that my Nutribullet blade wasn’t spinning very easily. When I tried to use it, the motor sounded totally different, and I thin I was burning it out, so I switched to the other smaller blade for the rest of my smoothie. <BR> <BR> So I examined the blade closely and it looked like ther... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 07:02:40 EST Ok, I'm baaaack!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708053 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Seriously, what makes us want to give up, and what makes us "decide" we are back on track? I have NO idea. <BR> <BR> This morning I was on the fence. I *wanted* to be back on track, but I wasn't. I was trying for it. Really. I even did 10 minutes on the elliptical. (My back is iffy; that's all I could do. And I was happy with that.) But still, I wasn't *t... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 11:46:07 EST Help! Why don't I care?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706084 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I've been seriously floundering on my journey. Drowning. <BR> <BR> It occurred to me (duh) that I haven't been putting a lot of effort into reaching my weight loss goals. <BR> <BR> Why?!? <BR> <BR> Yes, I do claim that my weight is what I like least about myself. And I usually list weight loss as one of my top goals. But clearly it is NOT. <BR> <BR> Why?!?... Thu, 29 May 2014 13:39:23 EST Not a fan of bugs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5703802 OMG - I'm not having a fun evening. <BR> <BR> Luna(tic) discovered some bugs a little while ago. <BR> <BR> I thought it was just an ant she was chasing around. Until I got it, and there was another. But this was a mutant alien ant with wings! Hornet, maybe? Like an inch and a half long? But not flying. And he brought his family. His extended family. And neighbors. <BR> <BR> And they were on the INSIDE! <BR> <BR> Well the ones I saw have been dealt with, finally, and I could find... Mon, 26 May 2014 20:11:38 EST Random planning thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696989 Oh boy; I have too many goals!! <BR> <BR> I really want to lose some weight. Ok, a LOT of weight! <BR> I want to finish my novel. <BR> I want my house to be clean and organized. <BR> I want to no longer have emotional eating issues, and I want to want to eat only healthy foods. <BR> I want to live in the moment and enjoy life. <BR> <BR> Of course there is a part of me that wants to eat junk food while sitting on my couch as I watch TV all day. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <em>198</em> <em>... Sat, 17 May 2014 11:25:53 EST Happy Mother's Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692502 I hope all you terrific moms out there get extra spoiled today! You sure deserve it!! <BR> <BR> I'm off to spend some time with Nana, and I'm missing my own Mom. Maybe I'll treat myself by getting some flowers for my balcony. <BR> <BR> Have a great day!! <BR> <BR> Sun, 11 May 2014 09:26:43 EST I can see! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689660 I went to the eye doctor yesterday. Finally. It's been about ten years since I've needed reading glasses. I was the only one in my family who didn't need glasses until then! <BR> <BR> But now I need glasses for distance. More so when I'm tired. <BR> I explained that I've tried using glasses while driving, but the frames cause use blind spots, and I rely on my peripheral vision a lot. So the doctor suggested contact lenses. <BR> <BR> I was glad, since I was going to ask. My previous ey... Wed, 7 May 2014 10:12:19 EST Trying to get back on track...AGAIN!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5688142 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Seriously? Again? Yep. <BR> I can and will do this! <BR> <BR> I had a long weekend away, and might have made a few less than healthy choices. Ok, let's be honest; I leapt off the wagon as if it were on fire. Now I'm nursing my burns and bruises. <BR> <BR> And trying to detox. Again. <BR> <BR> Yes, I know what the right thing to do is. And I went to the... Mon, 5 May 2014 15:05:57 EST Happy Star Wars Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686940 May the Fourth be with you! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1878585996.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l171700956.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l992414261.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And I'm so delighted to hear they are starting the third <BR> trilogy. Finally! <BR> Sun, 4 May 2014 07:09:14 EST Happy May Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684927 <em>425</em> <em>27</em> <em>54</em> <em>257</em> <BR> <BR> I work in Boston, and it's been raw and rainy here this morning. <BR> Happily, it's starting to clear, and the weather forecast claims it will be 67º tomorrow, and 65º on Saturday! I'm pretty happy about that, 'cuz I'm going to visit a childhood friend, and we both seriously need some down time to sit on her deck in the sun! <BR> <BR> Ok, so less that 70º doesn't really seem all that warm, but anything over 50º feels g... Thu, 1 May 2014 12:41:10 EST Where did April go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683000 <em>425</em> <em>27</em> <em>257</em> <em>54</em> <em>67</em> <em>259</em> <BR> <BR> Wasn't it just yesterday that I was complaining about March? I guess I had a lot going on this month. It's been pretty stressful, and, sadly I didn't lose any weight. <BR> <BR> But I did get back o track, and that's what really matters! <BR> <BR> And it will soon be May!! May is the month that I plant flowers on my balcony! May is the month that I can start having windows open. May i... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 09:19:20 EST Be careful if you use IE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682371 There's a problem with Internet Explorer and Adobe Flash. <BR> <BR> Our IT department sent this out to employees: <BR> <BR> Because Adobe Flash is used in this exploit, users who have not installed the Adobe Flash plugin should not be vulnerable to this exploit. Adobe has instructions for uninstalling Flash Player for Windows, or you could use an different browser. <BR> <BR> <link>helpx.adobe.com/flash-player/kb/unin<BR>stall-flash-player-windows.html </link> <BR> <BR> I'm just using... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 12:13:47 EST Doing better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681919 <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> I think I turned a corner and got back on track again! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I attacked my kitchen. The upheaval from plumbing prep work was making me insane, and I let the clutter get out of hand. Now I have room again for food prep. <BR> <BR> So I made a smoothie for lunch! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>321</... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 21:25:44 EST Back to planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5680876 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I need to lose weight! <BR> <BR> Duh, like since 6th grade! But let's not go there. <BR> <BR> Ok, so what's the plan to remedy this situation? <BR> - Plan time to exercise (and DO it) <BR> - Plan meals and snacks (In writing) <BR> - Write grocery shopping lists, and shop <BR> - Big batch cooking is a life saver <BR> - Have emergency munchies in case I go insane <BR> - Record what I ea... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 11:35:11 EST Forgot I'm fat?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5680062 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> How is that possible, you ask, right? Beats me, but it's true! <BR> <BR> I've been overweight since I was 12, gaining a little more every year, and trying nearly every diet out there! I don't fool myself; I'm not thin. <BR> <BR> This morning as I was coming to work, I caught my reflection in a glass door, and I nearly recoiled in horror! <BR> <BR> OMG! Ho... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 08:48:39 EST Wavering priorities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679287 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Ugh! <BR> <BR> I am *trying* to make weight loss my #1 goal, my job. <BR> <BR> It's not really working at the moment. I feel hormonal, and I have two friends going through hell right now. The last thing I want to do is to deny myself comfort food. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was not quite an epic fail, but I could have done better. I chose pizza at lunch during our... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 09:05:42 EST Mood swings; beware! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678563 Take cover! Hormones have struck. I think even my boss has heard the news. He didn't even make eye contact and had run to an early meeting. <BR> <BR> I suspect it may not be a successful day for me, but I am resolved to do the best that I can. But if it comes down to choosing between the vending machine and finding a weapon…? It could be a tough choice! <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Don't worry; I'm mostly kidding! ... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 09:55:54 EST Snacks? Help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677584 <em>76</em> <em>468</em> <em>473</em> <em>471</em> <em>495</em> <em>493</em> <BR> <BR> Trying to get back on track, but it's so hard! <BR> <BR> One big problem I have is snacks. I used to enjoy some trail mix now and then, but I can't eat crunchy foods. No celery or baby carrots either. (Yay!) <BR> <BR> Yogurt? I put it in my smoothie. <BR> <BR> Hummus? Meh. And on what? *sigh* And I want to limit bread products!! No white stuff. <BR> <BR> Grapes and cherry... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 05:55:01 EST Need to detox http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676983 <em>4</em> <em>15</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> The sugar/carb cravings have hit! <BR> <BR> I guess that means I'm doing something right? I'm ready to crawl out of my skin here! And I've lost track of the number of times I've opened the fridge and cabinet doors in search of something that isn't there. I don't even remember going into the kitchen! <BR> <BR> Oh well, I've done this before, and I'll do it again. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <em>15</em> <em>198</em>... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 10:44:38 EST Happy Easter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676158 <em>449</em> <em>451</em> <em>448</em> <em>453</em> <em>450</em> <em>452</em> <em>449</em> <BR> <BR> Happy Easter to all my dear Sparks Friends!!! <BR> <BR> Happily, Easter is not a food-fest for me. There will be no Easter baskets, no chocolate bunnies or eggs. I'll be visiting family at Nana's assisted living place. We'll have an average and edible dinner there, so that's fine. It's about visiting with family. (And surviving them! Hee hee!) <BR> <BR> Happy Easte... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 07:19:17 EST Recommitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675589 <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> It's time. <BR> <BR> Past time, really. Not really sure why I get into these funks. Seasonal, maybe? It was this time last year that I started following Eat To Live, so maybe it's Spring that's turning things around for me? Whatever it is, it's time! <BR> <BR> Ok, time to recommit to eating more plant-based foods, and to moving my body more. <BR> ... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 08:54:54 EST I really need this Friday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674946 Thank GOD it's Friday!!! <BR> <BR> I *really* need this long weekend we have coming. <BR> <BR> If you never hear from me again, it's because I've been arrested for murder. I know now why people go postal! <BR> <BR> My boss sent out a message last night that sent me into a rage. He doesn't see what he did wrong of course. And this morning he'll pretend to be my buddy and make excuses. <BR> <BR> What he did was tell his boss and his boss' boss that he was going to talk to a vendor about m... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 09:33:54 EST Rebooting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674210 I've been reading my old blogs from last year. It was last April that I first started following the Eat to Live program. <BR> <BR> I am hoping that as Spring bring us sunshine and warmer weather, I'll be more inspired to eat healthy foods, and to feel good about moving more. I really need to get off the couch and abandon comfort foods. <BR> <BR> So I'll go on reading my old blogs, and my old food journal, and put together a new list of go-to meals. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping to blog more too. ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 09:39:14 EST Just floating... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673470 I think I've been just floating along for the last week or so. I'm not really sure why. I just haven't had the mental energy to do much beyond going to work and getting the basics done. I keep meaning to sit down and review my menu plan and goals, but I keep putting it off. <BR> <BR> I've also been absent from reading my Sparks friend blogs. I'm sorry about that… <BR> <BR> How can I reach my goals if I don't work for them? <BR> (Yeah, that was a rhetorical question.) <BR> <BR> Well, it'... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 10:12:39 EST Get me out of this pity party! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665521 OMG, I can't take much more of this. <BR> Thank GOD and Mother Nature that the SUN IS OUT! <BR> It gives me some hope. <BR> <BR> I read a Sparks Friend's recent blog where she said she was strong. And I immediately thought "Yes, I am strong, too." <BR> <BR> But my next though was "I am so tired of being strong." <BR> <BR> Of course this is not strong in the sense of this journey to a healthier me. This strong is being on my own for most of my life, and being strong for others. I instan... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 08:38:00 EST Yes, I drank that. Twice. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664356 <em>4</em> <em>43</em> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> The fist time I was smart enough to put it in a to go cup. <BR> Sludge? GROSS!!!!! <BR> It didn't really taste all that great either, but… <BR> <BR> 2 smoothies from: <BR> - a 7 ounce bag of mix greens <BR> - 2 80 cal blueberry Greek yogurts <BR> - whatever was left of some frozen blueberries & berry mix <BR> - a good splash of almond milk each <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1598182169... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 13:41:20 EST Rejoined a gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663301 <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <em>104</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> What should I say about this? It's Koko Fitclub. It's expensive but pretty effective, and different from most gyms. <BR> <BR> Not sure why I quit going. Maybe since it was so far away from home. They've opened a location closer to home, and they open at 4am, so I can go before work! <BR> <BR> But a friend wants to go back, and since I think I'd do b... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 09:14:25 EST Wanting is not trying is not doing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661744 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I do WANT to become healthy and fit and energetic. <BR> <BR> I keep hearing that if I'm not working toward that end, then I don't really want it. Or I'm afraid of what might happen if I reach my goal. Sorry, I'm not buying it. <BR> <BR> I'm tired and in pain and overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> Years ago I was in a happier place, and it was *almost* easy to stick to a ... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 12:16:30 EST Crawling back up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658504 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I did not fall off the wagon. I was hurled from it as it exploded into a billions splintered shards and ash. <BR> <BR> I was about to write "It's been a rough week" but it all started back in November! And little improved all winter. <BR> <BR> Spring is coming. The calendar claims it is here, but it lies. I have great hope in coming of warmer weather. Why s... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 10:17:38 EST Trying to turn it around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653297 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I keep trying to figure out why I'm struggling so much, and how to make the shift back to the right course. <BR> <BR> I'm not stupid, and I'm fairly well educated. I know what I need to do. I just don't want to… a lot of the time. <BR> <BR> I think part of the problem is that I'm not feeling so well. I know I'll feel better when I'm in better shape, but not e... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 14:20:18 EST Why am I struggling? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651395 <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>15</em> <em>40</em> <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Maybe the question should instead be : Why don't I care? <BR> <BR> Ok, let's be clear. I do care. <BR> <BR> Obviously it's not enough with any consistency. I do very much want to lose weight and become healthier and fit! Much of my suffering in life is from not reaching this goal. I spend a lot of mental energy working on plans, and creating menus, and sea... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 09:05:30 EST Happy St Pats! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649726 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l392774610.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Mon, 17 Mar 2014 08:55:59 EST So tired of planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643616 <em>4</em> <em>43</em> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Yes, I really want to make this healthy lifestyle change into a permanent lifestyle! <BR> <BR> Yes, I want to lose weight and be fit. <BR> <BR> I'm just so tired of the planning and shopping and chopping and peeling and … <BR> <BR> Who wants to be my personal planner, shopper and chef? <BR> Anyone? No? Neither do I! <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <em>39</em> <em>198</em> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> --- --- --- --- <B... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 13:23:04 EST Back on Track! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638286 <em>4</em> <em>43</em> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Ok, I *think* I am back on track! <BR> <BR> For now my goals are: <BR> <BR> - 5 fruits and/or veggies daily <BR> - 8 cups of water <BR> - at least 10 minutes of exercise (work towards 30) <BR> - limit the white stuff <BR> <BR> Yesterday: <BR> - 6 cups pf water <BR> - 13 min elliptical <BR> - smoothie for breakfast <BR> - 2 fruits, 6 veggies <BR> <BR> I don't need to be perfect. <BR> I just need to be better ... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 07:44:55 EST