DORIANSMAMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DORIANSMAMA DORIANSMAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 2 years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705510 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l170447708.jpg"> This photo is from Memorial Day weekend 2012. Two years later: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1197713452.jpg"> Memorial Day weekend 2014. <BR> I actually wanted this comparison for myself. Many people, I suspect, are like me, in that we don't admit we are getting slimmer and yes prettier, taking better care for appearance, etc, for whatever reasons and there are many of those. I needed to ... Wed, 28 May 2014 20:52:59 EST ch ch ch changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696007 Yes... things are a-changing. I bought new undies in a size smaller and they fit perfectly. Life is so much better with well-fitting undies. You just don't know until you have them. <BR> I bought a bathroom scale and my weight Saturday was 160.2. It's a nice place to stop at for a little bit, and I'm looking forward to continuing the downward trend! <BR> Changed out how I eat, what I eat and when, and my runs have gotten better but still tweaking here and there. I have to take pepto bism... Thu, 15 May 2014 22:52:27 EST time to go shopping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686033 I need new undies. I put on a pair the other morning, pulled them all the way up over my waist, and my belly kind of drooped out the leg openings. I felt like I needed suspenders. I put on my scrubs and I didn't have to drop trou like the gangstas to look like a gangsta. <BR> Losing weight can be pretty funny. Fri, 2 May 2014 20:58:01 EST probiotics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683445 I've been having a big problem with running and needing suddenly to use the bathroom RIGHT THIS SECOND. No matter what I eat or when I eat it, I get the uncontrollable urge every time and now I can't even run a mile without having to turn around and come home. <BR> Well, someone suggested I try taking a probiotic. I tried one last night after supper. Today I have nothing left in my intestinal tract prior to lunch today. <BR> That would normally seem like a bad thing, but on the other han... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 19:31:11 EST slooooooooow progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670891 Okay. I'm back to 166 lbs. Progress is so sloooooow... but once again I'm finding that my body continues to change more than the scale shows. <BR> I bought MEDIUM men's shorts for running. I generally avoid women's technical clothing because they're styled way too sexy-like for my tastes. If I'm running, I need clothing that does the job of moving sweat away from my body, covers the naughty bits, stays in place, and that can be removed without dislocating joints. I'm too busty and hippy ... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 03:23:55 EST How to spread the message http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666381 What has happened to people in America? What is with this obsession over food? <BR> I don't mean just thinking about it, but also the guarantee that Americans will continue to obsess over food 24/7. Listen, people, all that weighing and measuring, all that calorie counting, all that fat grams and carbohydrate vs sugar grams silliness, all that starvation so that all we can think about while we're starving ourselves is food. <BR> When you think of food, a great meal, what comes to mind? A... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 10:20:12 EST Doing alright http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656872 So far, so good. I'm doing really well on the McDougall diet. I have not gained more than one pound in any given week, which is then lost again the next week, but I am consistently losing weight. IF, and that's a huge IF I limited my portions more, I'd lose weight faster, but why torture myself needlessly? <BR> As long as I'm losing weight, and staying healthy in my head at the same time I'm staying healthy in my body, I'm doing alright! Wed, 26 Mar 2014 09:40:56 EST Licorice jelly beans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647086 I ate a bag of licorice jelly beans in two days. My poo was bright green from them. I mean, black-light fluorescent green. <BR> Thank goodness the bag is finished and thrown away, and that's all for jelly beans for a few years. <BR> I was complaining to another sparker about these infernal ads. She explained that Sparkpeople.com has to have these ads in order to remain free to members. I agreed at the time, but here's the deal: drmcdougall.com is a website aimed at giving everyone the to... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 15:36:29 EST Ads getting worse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642245 Originally I wanted to post something more upbeat but upon logging in I was bombarded with non-sparker-related ads, such as for adult-content anime with a steroidal-breasted young thang bustin' out all over from her skimpy anime outfit, to H&RBlock, to furniture and appliances... <BR> What is WITH Sparkpeople??!! Why all this garbage? <BR> The longer I remain a member, the less I am getting anything out of being here. There's way too much emphasis on protein, and sooo not enough on comple... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 14:10:32 EST lost another pound, never to be found again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636178 Wednesday this week I ate two packages of girl scout cookies, the cranberry citrus ones, because they were the lowest fat and vegan. At 4g fat per serving, however, they were NOT low fat; not one bit. But because I am who I am, once they came home with me, it was a foregone conclusion that I would consume all of them, every crumb. Moral of the story: It's fine to support the girl scouts but under no circumstances are cookies to come home with me ever again. <BR> Today I weighed myself and... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 14:37:10 EST Losing inches http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631625 I haven't shown a weight loss for a couple of weeks now, although I didn't weigh myself last week. Kind of a waste of hope, so I plan to go another week before weighing myself. <BR> I'm still increasing my run distances, so each week is at least 1 more mile than the previous week. Today I plan a 5 mile long run, if my knee will cooperate. I went to a community barn dance last night and was having a lot of clumsy fun but at one point I kicked out my leg and felt my knee hyperextend. I'm no... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 13:01:13 EST Research http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622993 Dr. Walter Kempner, back in the 1930's, developed the rice diet to help patients who were grossly overweight, had diabetes, and heart disease, and were basically at death's door. The rice diet was white rice (easier to digest than brown whole grain rice and tasted better so better compliance), fruits, and fruit juices. All of his patients on this diet reduced or reversed their conditions and all lost weight, with about half returning to a normal weight. <BR> The rice diet is the basis for... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 09:57:44 EST McDougall diet part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615308 I ordered two books, the Maximum Weight Loss and the 2nd cookbook for the McDougall diet. <BR> The MWL book has a lot of great information about how the body works and why people on low carb diets don't keep weight off and crave carbs. <BR> I knew, from being a marathoner, that carbs are the body's first fuel choice. Protein is used only for muscle repair and skin and hair health maintenance, not for energy. People who are starving to death, who don't get enough carbs, lose muscle mass ne... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 19:49:11 EST The McDougall Diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610643 Yesterday was day 10 of the McDougall ten-day diet. I ate like no tomorrow. When I got hungry, or started to panic, I ate starch. You know... potatoes. Rice. Hot cereal. I ate beans, all kinds of beans. I ate a lot of all of that. I was never hungry. I ate a lot of veggies and lots of greens as well. I was not bored, nor hungry, didn't panic, didn't crave anything that wasn't on the list. <BR> I lost 3 lbs in ten days. <BR> I put away the nuts, coconut, bread, eliminated pretzels, b... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 22:39:20 EST triglycerides http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587472 From the research I've done, it looks like no one ever died from having high cholesterol. On the other hand, high triglycerides (over 150 mg/dl) is a first-hand warning of heart disease and its associated risks. That's sobering. I have high triglycerides, and it's gotten worse in the last year that I've been on this improved, healthier diet. <BR> I'm doing something wrong! <BR> So here's some dirt on triglycerides. <BR> Triglycerides are one of the two types of fat that are found in the bl... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 22:17:44 EST Learning to be accountable http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583665 I have ocd with food. Counting calories or measuring portions are exercises in futility for me. I am literally on the "see food" diet. How can I be accountable to myself? <BR> Well... there are options. Part of my strategy for 2014 is to plan menus.. or at least try to. I've never done this before, and it will require a lot of pre-planning so I can cook in bulk over the weekend and portion out meals to freeze. <BR> I need to be more colorful - use a wide variety of foods and colors - ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 22:37:16 EST A great strategy for food-oriented holiday get-togethers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579190 I was a guest not only for Thanksgiving, but also for Christmas Dinners. <BR> Since I already knew that there would be nothing appropriate for me to eat, I made all my own food and took over my own plate. It wasn't everyday food, either. I have tweaked the ingredients for dressing, sweet potato casserole, and made a beautiful and delicious entree (rice stuffed squash), and even a non-fat vegan gravy. I knew I'd be too full for dessert so I skipped that part, although I could have made an a... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 10:04:41 EST 2014 here we come! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577885 Best wishes for a wonderful year in 2014. Don't wait for better to arrive... be better! <BR> I joined the sparkteam 2014-2015 Challenge. My starting weight is 174 lbs, and I resolve two things: Not to step on a scale in 2014, and to run a marathon. The sparkteam challenge is to weigh in on January 1, 2014 and then again on December 31, 2014 and work toward making the 2nd number lower than the first. There's no fixed method, each team member will do whatever s/he is already doing. I'm ex... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 12:56:13 EST I have much to be thankful for http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552222 Happy Thanksgiving to all! I hope everyone has someone to spend the day with, even if it's just for a few minutes or for a bite to share. <BR> I'm thankful for the chance to modify my usual Thanksgiving fare so that I can keep with my regular diet without feeling denied. <BR> I made dressing without butter or oils, and it tastes just fine, still decadent and otherwise naughty but much lower in fat than before. For the main dish I made wild rice stuffed squash, which features mushrooms and... Thu, 28 Nov 2013 12:24:54 EST squash this! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534716 I found a recipe that uses a delicata squash. I loosely followed it to make a stew instead of a soup, but the point is I tried the squash, which until now never heard of. The meat doesn't have to be separated from the rind; this is a huge "selling point" for me. I washed the outside very well, carefully cut it up into small chunks, and tossed it into the pressure cooker with red lentils, onions, peas, and some other stuff, and a large can of petite dice tomatoes. I also generously seasone... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 09:40:12 EST Zombies oh my http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479676 I finally started going outside to train for the zombie dodge run. August 31 I jogged for .8 mile, September 1 1 mile, September 3 1.5 miles, September 4 2 miles. <BR> September 7 2 miles, and today 2.12 miles. I'm increasing the distance by gradual increments, and nothing I can't do safely, and having a lot of fun with friends who are serious about making sure I can dodge zombies. There are tons of logging roads very close by, and I'm using them because the route for the Redrun is a lot o... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 16:24:45 EST true confession... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456736 I did it. I joined an online dating site about a month ago. After thinking long and hard about it, I came to several conclusions. First, I don't expect to meet Mr. Right in my town or surrounds. I need to expand my horizons, and darn it, it's kind of frustrating to never have a date because I'm just not interested in any of the locals for one reason or another or several. Second, I like the idea of taking the time to get to know someone with the safety net of distance and perhaps some am... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 00:21:57 EST changing it up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5451854 Riding my bicycle isn't enough. My course right now is all flat, and the only challenge is some wind when I turn up the airport road. <BR> A friend suggested that I buy a mini-trampoline, especially for nights I'm on call (or weekends) and am stuck at home. I did buy one, and have used it nearly every night since! In two weeks I've missed 3 workouts. I jog in place, and put on netflix or a series of 80's dance videos on youtube, and just go for it. <BR> A milestone: Last week I was abl... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 14:51:08 EST Going forward... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435325 Still gaining and losing the same 4 lbs. I'm riding my bicycle more, and now do an 8 mile route. Will add distance as I get better. I was complaining about being unable to do any kind of exercise when I'm on call, and someone suggested I buy a mini-trampoline, so I did. It will be here sometime early next week. Since I tend to be kind of clumsy, I got a model with a handrail. Hopefully it will be light enough I can take it outside on cooler evenings and do my running-in-place exercise t... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 14:45:52 EST All those wonderful blogs with recipes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376046 I have several on my Favorites list that I return to time and time again for inspiration and guidance and even education. Who knew that almonds are pasteurized, and that there are two methods, one safe and the other not so much? <BR> So far I count among my most favorite: Oh She Glows, Fat Free Vegan, Low Fat Vegan Chef. There are others, even a blog on vegan Korean cooking, that I follow more sporadically. While Sparkpeople has a wonderful recipes section, I have to have low fat vegan ... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 22:02:16 EST bumpy plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366203 I keep gaining and losing the same 4 lbs, so I'm calling this plateau a bumpy plateau. I've reached the point now that I'm eating about as healthily as I possibly can without feeling like that table looks awfully yummy, and it means I have no limits on what I do eat. <BR> So the next step is to incorporate exercise into my life. I've got a new bicycle just standing there looking forlorn, and I need to make its purchase mean something. <BR> Once I get the weight loss kick-started again, ... Thu, 23 May 2013 23:35:32 EST They're just words... right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350788 "Skinny" "Thin" They don't belong in the vocabulary of Sparkpeople, and yet... there they are. Always. For a website that tries to put the emphasis on getting healthy, Sparkpeople.com seems to have lost its vision along the way. <BR> After all, there are members who are trying to get healthy by gaining weight. <BR> <BR> Not sure why I bother posting these little nuggets. The ones who control content on the website seem to be excrutiatingly uncaring these days. It's all about the mo... Thu, 9 May 2013 09:35:54 EST How much do I weigh? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5345320 I gained 4 lbs a couple of weeks ago. Since then, I've tried to get back on track with my healthy eating. I attribute the gain to eating out a lot, even though where I ate they made accomodations for my dietary restrictions. Who can guarantee anything? Only I can. I also plowed my way through two boxes of graham crackers in just a few days. <BR> <BR> It's going to happen. I haven't stepped on a scale since, and I prefer to take about a month to work my way back down again. <BR> Maybe... Sat, 4 May 2013 12:34:58 EST Vegan gastronomy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322836 I've been pleased with the willingness of local and chain food establishments to accomodate my special dietary needs. A local Mexican restaurant can veganize a burrito and substitute vegetarian beans for their lard-cooked refritos. Olive Garden served me the portobello stuffed raviolis (non dairy, non meat) with a simple marinara instead of the usual cream based sundried tomato sauce. Our server also put shredded romano on a plate for my friends to cheese up their salads, while I was able ... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 13:24:25 EST Halfway there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313584 Yesterday I weighed 169 lbs on the dot. I could probably have ticked it juuuuust below that, but it's not that big a deal to me. 169 lbs marks the halfway point of my goal weight loss. <BR> Normally these sorts of milestones would send me into an eating frenzy, and yesterday was no different. I had a lovely meal of vegan burrito at Mazatlan in Susanville, topped with what tasted like enchilada sauce, and a plop of guacamole, and when I got home from grocery shopping ate two sandwiches. ... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 11:32:29 EST Let's talk about weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296786 I've never publicized my weight before. Ever. Not when I was slim, not when I was at my heaviest at 212 lbs. <BR> I posted my current weight on my facebook page. It's time for me to stop being in denial about being fat, and who knows, who can tell. It's awfully obvious! Only not talking about it made it easier to pretend there wasn't a problem. <BR> It's like I look in the mirror and see someone completely different from what the camera sees, and I usually say wow, the camera sure li... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 00:10:37 EST Almost halfway http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283185 In 5 lbs I'll be halfway to my goal weight. I started Sparkpeople in 2010, so obviously I'm not in any rush to lose weight. I'm letting it slide on away in its own time, and when its ready to get lost. <BR> I don't go hungry, pretty much eat what I want and as much as I want, but what I want to eat nowadays is a lot different from what I used to want to eat, and it makes all the difference in the world and in my life. <BR> Spring heralds a desire to move more, and a chance to move more,... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 22:28:41 EST Sensa ads on Sparkpeople??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279394 I thought Sparkpeople was all about being sensible with regaining health through weight management. I thought its mission statement was something like helping individuals reach a healthy weight by using practical tools that work over the long run, over a lifetime. I thought Sparkpeople was about being honest with oneself, working with one's weaknesses and obsessions and upbringing and past baggage and so on, to get to a place where those things are still there, only not in control of us. ... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 20:56:27 EST Garden hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269546 I'm headed to the farmer's market this morning. I hope to stock up on garden-fresh produce and pick up some tomato plants and if I'm very very lucky a bell pepper and an eggplant starter. <BR> The ground is still pretty much frozen, but I can keep plants indoors until it's warm enough to plant them outside, and even then I will have to protect them from nighttime frost and marauders. <BR> I'm taking care of a friend's dogs this weekend, which always means lots of running about in the mea... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 10:09:21 EST Nothing like a new washing machine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261929 I LOVE my new washing machine. I've done about 7 loads already since Thursday. The old one was so rough, I hated washing even sturdy clothes. In any case, I had down comforters, lots of sheets and blankets and towels to wash, all building up in anticipation. <BR> A couple of months ago I saw a GE washing machine at Lowe's that was a price I could afford. Keeping it in mind, I started saving my pennies. Meanwhile, I decided at the beginning of this month to visit the Sears store in Susanv... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 09:57:44 EST Nothing like a new washing machine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261927 I LOVE my new washing machine. I've done about 7 loads already since Thursday. The old one was so rough, I hated washing even sturdy clothes. In any case, I had down comforters, lots of sheets and blankets and towels to wash, all building up in anticipation. <BR> A couple of months ago I saw a GE washing machine at Lowe's that was a price I could afford. Keeping it in mind, I started saving my pennies. Meanwhile, I decided at the beginning of this month to visit the Sears store in Susanv... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 09:57:39 EST done and done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246161 I had the last of my medical stuff on Friday. Another ERCP, this time to remove the stent in my bile duct, and at the same time they found a gallstone floating around in there, which was also removed. <BR> It was quick and clean, but late afternoon, and the staff was in such a hurry to get rid of me, I didn't get anti-nausea meds because by the time I started feeling it come on, the IV had already been taken out. I'm still a little peeved about that, because they should have anticipated t... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 09:33:36 EST Cravings? What cravings? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234300 It's a blessing, really. I was afraid that when the anesthetics wore off (and I was warned by the surgeon that after 6 weeks I'd be back to 'normal'), my ocd would come back in full force. <BR> I think I'm still compulsive about eating. I can polish off a box of Triscuits in a few minutes if I think about it. <BR> The biggest change is that I don't crave my old comfort foods of the recent past. Mac 'n' cheese, pizza, lasagna... I can't have these anymore, so I have pretty much put them o... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 10:08:47 EST Getting healthier day by day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184264 I lost another 2 lbs. The weight loss is going slower, which is alright with me. I had my follow-up appointment yesterday with the surgeon who took out my gallbladder, and so far I'm doing very well with recovery and getting back to normal. <BR> The bad news: apparently I also had a bit of hepatitis along with the other stuff that happened while I was in hospital. Not only do I have to maintain a low-fat, non-dairy diet, I also have to figure out a way to cut down on carbs - breads, cra... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 16:02:01 EST Unhealthy weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179901 Since my surgery/hospital stay I've lost 15 lbs. It's normal for people who have had pancreatitis, because of the severe restrictions to diet and intake. So far I haven't had cravings for anything I'm not supposed to eat, which is good. I do get hunger pangs, but can not eat very much at one time. I'm still having trouble eating more than about 800 calories per day. <BR> Now, my challenge is getting my nutritional needs met. I still tire so easily, and I suspect it's because I'm not ge... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 13:49:58 EST Don't try this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171795 On November 30, I had my gallbladder removed. I had gallstones, and although attacks were once or twice per year since 2006, the one in July was a doozy, the worst, and the scariest, and it was time to do something about it. Being the waffler, the scairdy-cat, I had one excuse after another why I couldn't have the surgery just yet, but finally I had to bite the bullet and get the procedure scheduled. <BR> <BR> Things always happen for a reason. It wasn't just my gallbladder that was in tr... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 08:02:17 EST Stop discriminating, Sparkpeople! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031572 <BR> "10 Habits of Unsuccessful Dieters <BR> <BR> All the cookies you didn't eat, all the willpower you maintained, all the minutes you logged at the gym--so why aren't you losing weight? These bad habits may be to blame" <BR> <BR> That's the blurb in one of my many emails from sparkpeople. I do not binge on cookies, and cookies are not the reason I am fat. In fact, I do not binge on sweets at all. <BR> Why does sparkpeople continue to discriminate against people who don't fit the popu... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 11:22:24 EST I've lost count http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4890854 I've lost count of my blessings, that is. I know the adage, "Count Your Blessings", but I stopped doing that. It's not a contest or a competition between which is more voluminous, one's blessings or curses or neutral events. <BR> The truth is: no matter how bad something seems to be or seems to have been, there is ALways a blessing afterward. We are made stronger, or happier, or are impelled to seek the forward path. Even those who do nothing are often showered with one thing after ano... Mon, 21 May 2012 09:01:16 EST Stupid ads http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4845584 SparkPeople IT folks, please remove those stupid pop-up ads from my Sparkpage. They are irritating, aggravating, and interfere with what I'm doing, which is usually reading. <BR> I do not need advertising shoved down my throat or smashed into my eyeballs, thank you very much. If I want to purchase something from Sparkpeople.com, I know where to look. <BR> Please. I beg you. Take this crap off my Spark page. Sat, 21 Apr 2012 16:19:48 EST new bicycle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4780743 I bought a new bicycle this week. It was rather spur of the moment but I had been discussing the idea inside my head for some time. Sometimes one needs to buy impulsively, before the moment, the decision are lost and inertia takes over. So I now have a new bicycle. <BR> Yesterday I bought a bicycle helmet. This morning I am going to ride to the grocery, buy some stuff, and ride home. Might add some distance to make it closer to 5 miles ride instead of 3. I can do that! <BR> I also f... Sat, 10 Mar 2012 13:54:36 EST been a long time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4764851 It's been some months since I have actively been here. I joined the compulsive overeaters team, but I have been learning something about myself that makes me question if there is any place for me on Sparkpeople. Perhaps I need to consider starting a team myself for those who are true OCD with food. <BR> <BR> The team I joined equates compulsive overeating with binging, food addiction, etc. I believe that true compulsion, or OCD, is not about binging or addiction. OCD is a mental illness ... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 09:00:51 EST Death http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4419559 My father died on Sunday. He lingered after a stroke for 3 weeks before finally passing on. This event brought up a lot of feelings with me, but none of them particularly strong, at least not in a negative way. I don't feel like I've been cheated out of a chance to make things right, or that I will never have closure because I didn't forgive him for his wrongs, and so on. I don't believe in forgiving someone who refuses to admit that he did anything wrong at all. What is there to forgive... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 20:46:40 EST the team effort http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4393655 Just read part of a sparkmail about needing a team to lose weight because I "can't do it alone". I have to think about that. I've never belonged to a team that was supposed to be for support, only there was always the person who pushed and pushed - "You can do that extra few rounds!" "Don't give in to that piece of bread!" and so on. In other words, teams sometimes turn out to be bullies, and all in the name of "helping". <BR> I didn't have a coach the entire years I was a runner. I did e... Fri, 29 Jul 2011 09:22:58 EST taking a step in the right direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4352394 I finally had enough extra money this payday to order a new pair of running shoes. Usually I also replace the manufacturer's insoles with better quality ones, but I couldn't afford them this time around. <BR> My old running shoes are just that: old. I've been hauling them around with me for nearly ten years now, and that is just way too long for a person of my weight to use safely in a running program. <BR> I'm getting back into a relationship with my gear company, the one in San Diego ... Sun, 10 Jul 2011 01:44:07 EST "Nothing tastes as good as..." http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4312648 "... being HEALTHY feels!" <BR> There. I said it. I hate hate HATE that other, more popular statement. Absolutely hate it. <BR> After all, how do you know how being thin FEELS? How do you know that YOU feel any better about YOURSELF if you're thin vs not thin? It's just another obsession in the closet waiting to rear its ugly head. <BR> I've been slim, and I wasn't any happier then than I am fat. There were just other things to obsess over, worry about, stuff down. <BR> So my goal i... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 09:25:45 EST