DONNA91730's SparkPeople Blog DONNA91730's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Happy Birthday, Mom! Today would have been my mother's 85th birthday. Sadly she passed at 61. I will be 59 this year. She didn't know at 59 she would only have two years left, or that she would spend half of that battling cancer. I have missed sharing a lot of life over the past 24 years with my mother, but not a day passes that I don't think of her and dad and am grateful for the woman I am because of them. <BR> <BR> Miss you, Mom and Dad! <BR> <BR> ** Live each day like it's your last, because you never k... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 13:22:41 EST I love my trainer Even when he makes me push his car like he did today, THREE TIMES, on a uphill grade! Honestly what I think I loved more was the looks from the men in the gym when we came back in! LOL <BR> <BR> Strong girls rock! <BR> <BR> Mon, 23 Jun 2014 13:16:24 EST WooHoo! The scale is moving again! And in the right direction for a change! I'd had to stay off the scale for a while because it was just bumming me out, I was stuck at that dreaded number. We all have a dreaded number, don't we? <BR> <BR> So I stayed off for a couple of weeks and did all the things I know I'm supposed to do, eat right and exercise, and finally, FINALLY, two days in a row, the numbers have decreased! <BR> <BR> And I tried on some skirts I love that I haven't been able to wear in years, but refused to get r... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 14:50:10 EST Last week was fun Too much fun apparently because when we got back from camping, I just couldn't get it in gear. I worked out with CJ three days, but that was it. Maybe I needed the R&R. <BR> <BR> This week is back to it. Great workout this morning, 1 for 3 on trainer workouts, 1 for 6 on cardio. <BR> <BR> This week's goal: Six days of cardio. Mon, 9 Jun 2014 19:43:08 EST Re-upped personal trainer, now 3x a week I've been working with my trainer 3 times a week the past two weeks, which seems to keep me more motivated than twice a week. I've even been getting my cardio done on non-trainer days. I'm feeling really, really good, and so is my ankle. Thu, 29 May 2014 15:23:30 EST Funny the things that motivate I read a book about wealth building, which was essentially network marketing, which I have no interest in, but it did put into perspective what I'm willing to invest my time in, and getting fit is definitely at the top of the list. So I have invested this week, worked out every single day, and it feels so good! <BR> <BR> One week down, the rest of my life to go! <em>381</em> Fri, 23 May 2014 15:22:43 EST I will always hate Mondays It started out great, had a good workout, but by late in the day, my good intentions evaporated and I went over my calorie count. <BR> <BR> KISS -- 30 mins of cardio today to burn off those late-night carbs! Tue, 20 May 2014 14:12:20 EST Love my trainer I work out so much harder with a trainer. As exhausting as it is, I highly recommend working out with a professional. Even if you can only swing it once a week, it's worth every penny to me! Mon, 24 Mar 2014 16:36:03 EST First Day back in the gym after 3 months Oh, boy. Talk about a wake-up call. I know all too well how fast I lost muscle in my calf from not walking on my broken leg. Well, I guess the same thing happened to my arms -- I needed help doing pushups!! I have never been good at pushups but I never needed help before, so doubly glad I'm back at it. <BR> <BR> New daily routine: Recumbent bike for 30 mins a day and pushups. Wed, 19 Mar 2014 20:39:14 EST I'm still losing weight? Sitting around on my duff waiting for my broken ankle to heel has been the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. I was also mildly concerned that I would start putting on weight. So far that hasn't happened. In fact, I'm losing. Granted I'm not in the kitchen at all, so I don't eat a whole lot because of that but not what I expected. <BR> <BR> Then I started worrying, maybe it's because I'm losing muscle! which is very likely, but muscle will come back as soon as I start working out ... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 14:20:22 EST The past week has been exhausting I am never sick. I did not realize how much an injury to one part effects my whole body. Not to mention my stress level was through the roof -- gastrointestinal issues and living on PB&J, which was the only thing that seemed to settle my stomach. <BR> <BR> Today I managed to get my rolling chair to the kitchen, make a cup of tea, grab a biscotti and take it all back to my spot on the couch. So easily in fact I may actually start cooking again. The relief from finally choosing an orthop... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 12:40:08 EST NY resolution: Recover from a broken ankle! I still can't believe it. I often have gratitude moments that I am in such better physical health than I was two months ago. In keeping with a healthier lifestyle, what could be better than a hike, right? Not having to be carried out by two amazing men, one I share my life with, the other a stranger who VOLUNTEERED to help would have been better, yes. <BR> <BR> But if not for a broken ankle, I would have missed seeing how wonderful strangers can be. Amazing people who just want to help.... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 12:50:57 EST I did not work out yesterday It's done, it's past. I worked out today, and commit to working out tomorrow! <BR> <BR> One Day At a Time!! <em>381</em> Mon, 30 Dec 2013 14:25:49 EST The end of the year challenge?! December was a breeze. I had a goal I was committed to -- exercise every day for a free pass on Christmas. I conquered that. Christmas came and went. Now I feel like I'm in a sort of limbo between Christmas and the January goal, doughnuts!! Bwahahaha! <BR> <BR> I am back to daily exercise, at least I have exercised for the last two days. I am making better choices, but the sooner the sweets are out of the house the better! But this week until Jan 1 just feels like such a struggle sudde... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 12:30:20 EST Can't believe I did it! Worked out every single day thus far this month! I get a free pass tomorrow. Fun, fun, fun. <BR> <BR> Happy Holidays!! <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> Tue, 24 Dec 2013 15:37:01 EST Oh, the challenge of the holidays! I have four parties in the next four days! Yikes! I have managed to stick to my daily exercise goal. Now, the not going over my daily calories challenge. Wish me luck!! Fri, 20 Dec 2013 17:22:14 EST I'm impressing even myself I don't know why but I am pumped about working out and eating right. It's not even a struggle, go figure. Even through a weekend in SF, and we walked our butts off, I stuck to my goal of working out every day. So far 16 for 16 on my way to a Christmas free pass. The next dilemma, what to use as a carrot for the next 30 days. lol <BR> <BR> December <BR> 1 - 35 mins elliptical <BR> 2 - 30 mins personal trainer <BR> 3 - 45 mins elliptical <BR> 4 - 50 mins elliptical <BR> 5 - 30 mins persona... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 16:43:25 EST Body Image, what's yours? I've always had a certain body image in my head, which I imagine is why I have always had difficulty internalizing when I'm thin and when I'm heavy. <BR> <BR> Yes, I have a mirror. Yes, I know what size my clothes are. But in my head I'm just a slightly wider or slightly narrower version of ME. Maybe it's just wishful thinking or the rose-colored glasses I usually view the world with. Maybe it's just my way of being content with where I am in the moment. <BR> <BR> Either way, for the ... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 13:47:37 EST My December goal Workout every day. I'm 2 for 2 so far. Reward: Free pass on Christmas Day. I know you're not supposed to use food as a reward, but what the heck, if it works. <BR> <BR> December <BR> 1 - 35 mins elliptical <BR> 2 - 30 mins personal trainer <BR> 3 - 45 mins elliptical <BR> 4 - 50 mins elliptical <BR> 5 - 30 mins personal trainer, 45 mins Zumba <BR> 6 - 35 mins elliptical <BR> 7 - 40 mins elliptical <BR> 8 - 50 mins elliptical <BR> 9 - 30 mins personal trainer, 45 mins Step Aerobics <BR... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 16:26:50 EST I'm addicted! I'm addicted to endorphins! I remember this feeling, and it feels good. My mental state has even seriously improved. I work at home and I had become very cloistered. There would be spans of days that I never left the house. I still worked, still cleaned, but going out, no way! I was even becoming a little pessimistic and wondering the Why Bother of everything. So unlike me. <BR> <BR> I feel like I'm back, reconnecting to Me. I like feeling strong. I forgot that. I'm so happy to rem... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 18:00:49 EST Loving my trainer, even if I do feel like T Rex Huh? you say. We worked my arms on Monday and that's what he said, you're gonna feel like T Rex, yk, short little arms. I laughed then and I laugh now when I try to straighten my left arm and can't. Yeah, we worked those muscles hard. Thank you, Daniel. <BR> <BR> But it feels good. Exercise is always my biggest challenge. Left to my own devices, like yesterday, when I should have done some cardio, I didn't. I've run through all the usual excuses to let myself off the hook, but I know... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 13:37:21 EST Signed up for personal training and my head talk went into overdrive! Today was my first one-on-one trainer session and I became anxious about it last night and hooboy did my trash talk go into overdrive. It became worrisome. I started to doubt. I've lost weight many times before, what makes me think this time will be different? <BR> <BR> I don't, I guess, but the fact that my brain went into overdrive makes me think Trash Talker was feeling threatened so she started being more forceful and hitting those buttons that always seemed to make me sabotage myself... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 17:55:35 EST Arggg, another dreary morning On an up note, I slept in til 9:30. Whenever I do that, I always think, Must have needed it, like a need an excuse to sleep in late. But when I think about it, I went to sleep at 1 a.m. 9:30 was the appropriate time to go to sleep in order to get 8 hours! <BR> <BR> I routinely go to sleep at midnight or 1, yet get up at 7:30 or 8. I am cheating myself of much needed sleep. <BR> <BR> New strategy: Get 8 hrs a night! Yes, I know SP has told me that for years, and yes, it has taken yea... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 13:15:31 EST Something's different I'm actually disappointed I'm missing the next two days of pilates and aerobics because I'm going to the beach. That's a change from Thank God I'm leaving so I don't have to exercise. LOL Instead I'm going to walk on the beach every day, get the heart rate up. The grands are joining tomorrow so I expect that will keep me moving. Can't wait to dip my toes in the sand and the blue Pacific. <BR> <BR> Planning a weekend of family, fresh air, sunshine, good food and exercise. What's not to en... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 14:21:39 EST WooHoo, my own personal streak I did it, five days straight of exercise classes, and I feel so good from it. That's the most amazing part. I am energized. I really was thinking I was becoming a bit depressed with not having any real energy for anything. Everything felt like such a chore. With exercise, I have energy, I'm motivated, I'm making plans. It's pretty miraculous. <BR> <BR> Now I'm curious to see how much better can it get? Fri, 11 Oct 2013 16:44:31 EST Amazing how good I feel If it hadn't happened to me, I wouldn't have believed it. I had developed a chronic pain in my neck. It started years ago in my wrist. Because of my job, always on the keyboard, I figured carpal tunnel was inevitable. But it was progressing up my arm, to my shoulder and my neck. <BR> <BR> I am so undisciplined that even putting the vibrator on my neck nightly wasn't happening. Then I finally signed up for exercise classes because I know I need to move more. The unexpected payoff: Th... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 14:45:14 EST A new month, a new plan Finally, FINALLY, signed up for exercise classes at the senior center -- 3 days of aerobics, 2 days of Pilates. I'm too undisciplined to do it on my own, but if I have a place and a time to be there to exercise, I seem to do it. <BR> <BR> A new streak - 1 day down 20 to go! Thu, 3 Oct 2013 14:22:29 EST Deja vu or.... "Changed my tracker to 10 pounds" That's what I wrote a month and a half ago, then summer kicked in and I checked out. I'm back and.... not sure what comes next. I started to write "I'm ready" but how many times have I written that. Maybe I'll never be "ready" but I NEED to lose 10 pounds, and 10 more, and 10 more. <BR> <BR> But we'll cross the bridge when we come to it. For now, let's get rid of 10, shall we? Mon, 16 Sep 2013 12:53:16 EST Changed my tracker to 10 pounds I'm always thinking I need to just work on 10 pounds at a time, and that's what I'm doing. Feeling refreshed and rejuvenated after a family reunion, vacation and dare I say, a colonoscopy. lol Whatever work, right? <BR> <BR> It's all good and now I'm going for a walk. Need to do so every day! Wed, 31 Jul 2013 13:39:48 EST Vacation is over! I have eased into work the last few days, but I think I'm apprehensive. I worked through half my road trip which was not fun. I usually manage to get it all done BEFORE I leave, but not this time. I was so overloaded and I don't want that to happen again. Task 1: Better time management. <BR> <BR> Mantra: 5 day work week. <BR> <BR> I basically work every day and it's gotten old. I want to spend time on other things, like giving the kitchen a facelift. <BR> <BR> I got an email from... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 12:26:04 EST So apparently I am destined to.... I keep trying to finish that sentence, but even that eludes me. <BR> <BR> It has been almost a month to the day since I was tracking my food. Pretty much since Mother's Day weekend, I have not tracked religiously. Good news: I haven't done any damage, pretty much the same weight I was a month ago. Bad news -- well, good and bad: I know my downfall. I don't exercise. But I know that, so I need to fix that. <BR> <BR> I keep trying to find tricks, tips, techniques to overcome, but reall... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 12:27:09 EST Hate it when I wander away <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Ack, for almost 2 weeks, really? <BR> <BR> Still just more of the same old, same old -- all work and no play since Mother's Day. I reallly need to work on balance. Wed, 22 May 2013 10:56:29 EST As usual, such a good start, and then.... I'm still making very good food choices, staying within range on calories, carbs, etc. Even told hubby DO NOT bring home tamales yesterday. lol Could use more protein; will keep an eye on that. But this exercise thing, oy! Truly my downfall. <BR> <BR> I will give myself the leeway -- STOP RIGHT THERE. I was going to say it was such a busy week. But they're alllllll busy weeks, aren't they? And I'm undisciplined. mm-hmm, another excuse. Best of intentions doesn't get me off my butt. N... Fri, 10 May 2013 12:29:13 EST Kinda annoyed with myself I get tunnel vision when I'm stressed with work and under a time crunch to meet a deadline, AND THEN sat in a doctor's waiting room for way longer than I deem necessary, but that's what happened yesterday, so of course, yoga went completely out the window and my neck felt it this morning. <BR> <BR> Oh, well. One Day At A Time, right? Shake it off. Today is a new day. Work the plan. Yoga for 15 minutes right now! <BR> <BR> ETA: Yesss, I feel so much looser. Love this feeling. Sigh. Fri, 3 May 2013 13:20:36 EST Doing yoga and loving it This is doubly thrilling because I usually hate exercise. Well, okay, that's not entirely true, I don't hate exercise. I hate getting on a treadmill or any other repetitive sort of routine. Hmm. So does that mean at some point I will get bored with yoga? Not sure, but it's something to be aware of. Hopefully I can just change up the routine and that will keep my interest. But at this point, probably because it's new to me, I'm really enjoying it. <BR> <BR> I am also enjoying the fee... Wed, 1 May 2013 16:59:19 EST Another lightbult moment? Reading Moonbird's blog this morning, which I highly recommend if you haven't read it already, what I realized when looking at the dramatic before and after face pix, that I have always had a disconnect of what I look like in reality and in my head. I look at pix of myself in my 30s when I thought I was fat and I would love to be that size now. I look at myself now and I know I'm overweight, actually closing in on pre-birth weight of any of my children (cringe) and I honestly don't feel tha... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 14:33:05 EST Two birds one stone? Well, I finally got fed up with the clutter in my bedroom and decided yesterday was the day to clear away the dust from the top of the dresser and the corners of the room. As usual, that turned into cleaning windows and floors and relocating a book shelf. Not only am I enjoying the lack of clutter and dust, the scale dropped a couple of pounds since my last weigh-in. WooHoo! <BR> <BR> Lessons learned: Glad I didn't succumb to the momentary thought of throwing in the towel and opening that... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 15:15:21 EST Watch out for the banana peels I slipped up <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> Inevitable, I know. To err is human? I am very human. <BR> <BR> It had been a terrific 10-day run. I had kicked the sugar cravings pretty easily and I think was feeling overconfident and not checking myself. Wednesday evening I was feeling very relaxed after a lovely evening with husband and became suddenly ravenous. There was trail mix involved. Finally, this morning, I'm back to pre-slip weight. Phew! <BR> <BR> Lesson learned. Be prepared. ... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 12:51:06 EST The things you notice when you pay attention So I get on the scale this morning -- yes, I know I shouldn't focus on the number but I still need that affirmation that I'm going in the right direction, particularly at the beginning when visions of sugar plums are dancing in my head, but I digress. I am down 3 pounds since Monday, half of it yesterday. Hmm, interesting. Went back and looked at my food for yesterday and yep, the majority of my calorie intake was before sundown. <em>3</em> <BR> <BR> What's that saying, Eat breakfast... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 11:33:11 EST My Eureka Moment I started thinking about this after SP told me I needed to lose 50 pounds <em>24</em> Seems to be the number I am always battling. I have tried attacking it all at once. I've tried 10 pounds at a time, but that number keeps coming back. How am I ever going to get past this? <BR> <BR> Husband and I love to hike. We even impressed ourselves with our trek last September in Big Pine to those beautiful alpine lakes. Not bad for a couple of old farts. <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Our goal: ... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 11:57:42 EST I am feeling so positive Maybe it was the affirmation of my blood work results, that I've been doing at least the right stuff as far as WHAT I eat, lots of whole nonprocessed foods. The problem is "lots" -- well, that isn't even true because frankly I sit at my desk too many hours a day and usually only eat two meals a day, so obviously that has to change. <BR> <BR> I am adding more good fuel to my diet and eliminating the sugars. <BR> <BR> Mini goal of the day: 20 minutes of exercise. <BR> <BR> I am learning ... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 11:42:04 EST It's been a busy day but am on track and motivated Had my annual physical and blood work was textbook perfect. So the only improvement needed is weight loss. <BR> <BR> Lots of good choices today and preparing things to eat that are easy and yummy. So far so good, but no exercise. That is the biggest challenge, but it's supposed to be warm tomorrow. Maybe it's time for the first dip in the pool for 2013. Wed, 3 Apr 2013 00:31:26 EST