DOLLIE6's SparkPeople Blog DOLLIE6's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community If only I had stuck to my program Its Friday again. I have completed all my exercises five days and have stayed on my program. I feel very proud of me. It's unreal to me how time is just flying. I have been doing this program two months and have lost 26 pounds as of today. I weigh tomorrow and hopefully I will have lost another pound. Before you know it a year will be gone and I want to be able to look back to my blogs and be proud that I have continued on my healthy way. That I am 100 pounds lighter, or close. I do n... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 14:09:28 EST One bite can be enough I have lost 26 pounds so far and I am feeling so great because I am doing something about my health. I am learning new things also. I learned last night that a bite is as good as the whole thing. <BR> I had made my husband roast, gravy , biscuits, rice, peas, and greens. The roast just about got to me. I was planning on having the whole works but just a serving. I decided to have a taste instead because I had to weigh this morning and I wanted a pound gone at least. Well lo and behold I ... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 16:35:10 EST Well good for me Well good for me its Friday and I have followed my program do my exercises and ate healthy. <BR> It sure makes you feel positive and confident when you follow your program. I was reading some of the blogs Spark puts out and they are very good and helpful. I am so proud I found Spark.. I have been here a long time and they never let me down. I may have let me down but not them. <BR> I had to add 100 calories o my program from 1300 to 1400. I was waking in the night with a headache and wh... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 13:31:35 EST I am giving myself a present. I had a great work out this morning. I mean I tore it up. I am doing the recumbent bike to strengthen my knees. They are giving me fits. I can hardly stand for any length of time. The weight I have lost is really helping. I just need a good 100 hundred pounds off. But it will happen in time. I am giving myself a present of one year of eating 1300-1400 calories, recumbent biking for 36 minutes, weight lifting, chest, back, shoulders one day, next day do abs, arms, legs. I will stay as ... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 13:27:12 EST Life or death I am proud I decided to show my weight. I have decided to stop hiding and be honest with myself. <BR> I am the one who decided to do something about my weight and be healthy. No one is making me do this. I will be proud of every good decision I make. I will follow my plan every day, weigh twice a week. I will post on Spark and share my victories and failures. I was meditating the other day and I saw in my mind a pair of scales I had loaded one side with fast foods, processed foods, pro... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 17:04:40 EST I must stay strong I was looking over my blogs and I could have cried. It seems like I will be all excited and will eat right, do my exercises for a while, lose weight and then I mess up. This is over and over for years. I steadily get bigger and bigger. I topped out at 348 a couple of months ago. I could barely walk I am in so much pain. I started eating healthy and exercising and so far I have lost 16 pounds and have got a little relief on my knees. I have got to stay on my program or I know I will b... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 18:33:47 EST Handling crisis My mother-in-law died today. She was 83 and could not walk, could not feed herself or sit up long. <BR> She got pneumonia and could not fight it off. I have found myself wanting to overeat today. <BR> So far I have kept it under control. I don't know why I think I can find comfort in overeating. <BR> It is a lot of tension when families are not close and will not talk over things. I know this is not making much sense or maybe it does. I'm sure a lot of people have problems in families... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 19:17:19 EST snowing I can't believe it we have snow. We don't get snow very often. Its sleet and snow so we stay in. <BR> I have cooked all day. I cooked for my husband and made him biscuits steak and gravy. He said he loves getting snowed in. I also made us some energy bar. We have one a day. <BR> I have had a very peaceful day. I love it when I have a peaceful day with no problems eating healthy. I want this feeling of accomplishment to continue. I want it to be second nature to just eat healthy, ge... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 14:24:24 EST Here we go again Well its been 27 days I have lost 11 pounds so far. Its been a long time since I have had processed sugar. When I want sweets I make a healthy kind and eat just a little. That is one good thing I have learned. I gave up any kind of sodas years ago. I drink teas and water. I started weighing every Saturday. I am just walking for my exercise right now. I have lost 100's of pounds off and on the last 30 years. I just never seem to learn how to maintain. Maybe at this time of my life I w... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 11:14:08 EST exercise The first of April. I like looking at the calendar there stretches a whole month to do all my exercises and eat healthy. I went to my gym this morning and did the elliptical for thirty-five minutes. I then did a bout 25 or 30 minutes of weight lifting. This morning was for my abs, arms and legs. I think I am going to up my weight routine and do them four times a week. That will give me two days on my abs, arms and legs and two days on my chest, back and shoulders. <BR> That always worked... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 14:12:22 EST eight months Wow I can't believe it eight months with no processed sugar. I feel wonderful. I am so relaxed and calm. I am thinking clearly. I make wise choices. If I get a little antsy and want to change things or not sure what I am doing is right it does not take me long to touch base with my sparkers and they usually are so encouraging and seem to say the right thing and I get back on track. I am having no cravings for sweets what so ever. I guess if you don't eat them you don't want them. We w... Sat, 30 Mar 2013 20:31:46 EST The pine trees know it is Easter. The pine trees know it is Easter. About two weeks before Easter little shoots begin to sprout and then by Easter the little shoots branch out and form crosses. I am looking out the window and I am already seeing some crosses but by Sunday there should be a tree full. I think this is so neat and I look forward to it each year. We may not acknowledge but nature knows. <BR> Ever who celebrates Easter be blessed. <em>452</em> Fri, 29 Mar 2013 18:46:07 EST why do I want to sabotage myself? I am having a battle with myself. I am eating 1500 calories a day. I walk every day. I do weights twice a week and I do my elliptical at least three times a week. I keep wanting to have diet mentality. I do not weigh and I do not know how much I have lost in eight months. I keep thinking I am losing about five pounds a month and that is too slow. I want to lose 10 pounds a month. I have lost 100 pounds a couple of times in 10 months but I never learned how to maintain. I would put th... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 11:32:13 EST seven months I am so proud. It has been seven months since I have had processed sugar. <BR> I feel so good. I have more energy. I exercise on the elliptical three times a week and do weights two times a week and I do a lot of walking also. I have dropped from a 4x to a 1x. <BR> I have been eating healthy . Its getting easier and easier to make wise choices on what I am going to eat. I look forward to good food that has taste not some artificial, card board, with a list of ingredients a mile long. ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 23:16:04 EST Nuts! But I will be okay!! Well Sunday (mother's day) I lost my mind or something. My husband fixed me breakfast. <BR> It was a dreary day so we got out. My husband asked where do you want to eat. I did not want to eat out. But he said you have to your blood sugar will drop and you will get a headache. Okay, we'll go to Golden Corral but we will go early to miss the crowd. We got there at 10:30 they were still serving breakfast. We will have a little, biscuit and gravy, one bacon and a star shaped donut. I did not... Tue, 15 May 2012 11:48:08 EST Laughing all the way! I have made it three weeks eating healthy. Today was my weight day. I gained one pound. For some reason that struck me funny. I have counted calories, wrote them down exercised some. In general did a good job this week. I admit I could have exercise more but I could not get my food right and I would have low sugar. I think I finally got it. I needed a little more protein. <BR> I also know how good walking is for me, for the blood sugar and over all feeling stronger and good. So this ... Sat, 12 May 2012 10:43:15 EST All in a day. Its thursday and I am making my menu out for the day. No thought of doing anything different. <BR> I am just glad I have today to make some good choices. I am trying to eat a lot of vegetables all different kinds. I am enjoying thinking up good things to eat for my husband and I . We have decided not to go out to eat for anything. We loss better when we do. I am eating kale everyday. <BR> I never give it a thought to make a salad out of kale. That's what I'm having for lunch, apiece o... Thu, 10 May 2012 13:01:58 EST Tired of talking about it!! I got side tracked. I got to reading some of my past blogs. Wow, up and down, up and down. <BR> Here I am again bigger than ever. If I don't get this right I am not going to be here to enjoy any kind of life. I'm tired of talking about the weight loss, what to eat, how to exercise, how not to exercise because I'm so big. I just want this weight gone once and for all. I'm tired of worrying about it. I only know one way to lose weight and that is to count calories, do the exercise that I... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 14:24:27 EST Say a pray for me. Well i have reached an all time high. I made myself weigh this morning and it took me awhile to get over it. I weighted 354 pounds. As you can see I decided to eat what I wanted and not do any more moving than I had too. Well here I sit scared to death that I will have a stroke or a heartattack. I would not even look at Spark to get help. I know this has to stop now. I really do want to live. But my actions say different. What is wrong with me that fast food, sweets and junk are more... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 10:07:39 EST He might have won if he had stuck it out. When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all up hill, When the friends are low and the debts high and you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit. Life is queer with its twist and turns as every one of us sometimes learns and many a failure turns about. When he might have won had he stuck it out. Don't give up though the pace seems slow you may succeed with another blow. Success is failure turned inside out. The silv... Tue, 19 Jul 2011 19:04:55 EST This and that I put one cup of vanilla almond milk, a frozen banana, 1 tablespoon of cacao, 1 tablespoon of honey and froze them in the freeze. Oh so good and my husband even wanted him one. <BR> Its fun to think up healthy alternatives to thinks that are too many calories or they do funny things to you like binging. I looked on Spark recipes and they have lots of raw desserts. <BR> I like using agave nectar for sweeteners or honey. Honey is my favorite. A neighbor brought us some fresh squash and zucc... Sat, 25 Jun 2011 18:33:09 EST No lose in four weeks!! Its been four weeks and I have not lost a pound. Two weeks ago I upped my exercise to riding my stationary bike for 36 minutes and to weight lifting 25 minutes and my treadmill for 35 minutes. I put my calories up to 1500 to be able to do the exercise. Spark recommends eating more but I just can't do that yet. I have always lost weight on 1200 calories and I really don't know how to act eating this much. I am used to being punished for being over weight. <BR> You must eat 1200 and eat st... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 12:25:39 EST Two months-twenty-five pounds gone It's been two months since I started back eating healthy and exercising. I have got rid of 25 pounds of fat. It does not seem like a lot in the over scheme of things (165) pounds to go but I am thrilled. I am half-way to my first goal of 50 pounds. I can not bear to think of how much I am going to lose so I am taking it in 50 pounds increments. <BR> I have been doing real good on my sweets. I stopped eating them Easter. I have not had any processed sweets. I have one tablespoon of hone... Thu, 26 May 2011 14:15:48 EST The trip continues. The trip is continuing. I have not had any sweets since Easter. I mean candy, cakes, ice cream or like that. I do have one tablespoon of honey a day. It keeps my allergies under control. I usually put it on my popcorn with a little cinnamon. I have been holding fluid this week for some reason. I may not be working out hard enough to sweat. I am watching my salt intake and cut back all the time. I gained four pounds this week. How? I ate the same calories, did the same exercise. I c... Thu, 12 May 2011 14:19:19 EST Truth I have been reading everything I could find on addiction to sweets and there is a lot of research out there. I think I may have found out why I lose and gain like crazy. April 24, 2011 <BR> I promised myself no more candy, cookies, ice cream, cakes etc. I have been checking the milk, everything I eat and there is sugar in everything. No wonder we have problems with our weight. I guess I will get some sugar but I don't have to eat candy, cookies, ice cream etc. <BR> I am going to try and ... Mon, 25 Apr 2011 11:24:36 EST No sweets!!! What will happen to me!!! I have been looking over my diet diaries trying to figure out where I go wrong. I have lost 100's of pounds and have put them back on. I can lose like crazy and then I don't maintain. All I could gather from my research is that I get confident and start eating sweets. I will have a piece of this one day and in a couple of days I have a little more and then next thing you know I am on a binge and don't care until I have all the weight back on. Its like my brain does not work like it is sup... Sun, 24 Apr 2011 21:32:03 EST Pleased as punch!! Thursday is weigh in day and I lost another five pounds. Great!! I have lost 15 so far. <BR> It feels so good when you can look over the week and know you have done everything you know to do and get a good reading on the scales. I also know if I had not lost any I knew I had lost some somewhere, my clothes are looser. I have to eat healthy no matter what, whether I lose or just stay where I am for awhile. You can't make me believe me going from Lord knows how many calories to 1200-1500 I... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 14:50:30 EST POSTED: NO TRESPASSING I'm proud of myself this week. We have had a lot of upheaval in our life. A lot of things we were not expecting. A lot of angry, sadness etc. I have not over eat. I just kept writing everything down that I was eating. I will weigh tomorrow and I hope I have lost something. I know something is happening because my clothes are not as tight. I feel a lot better also. <BR> My husband and I were talking this morning about three weeks ago we would have run out to our favorite Asian restaura... Wed, 20 Apr 2011 13:02:56 EST 2011 was a wonderful year. I read this on facebook, I think and it sounded like a good idea. Start with a letter to yourself written a year from now. Write down "as if" these great things have happened. Aim for a few way out there, a few that is within your grasp. Dear Dollie, 2011 was a wonderful year. I have lost over 100 pounds. I feel like I am floating instead of walking. I am so proud of myself for reaching this milestone. I still have a way to go but hey what is this except a journey for health. The journe... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 14:08:20 EST trip We took the day off and drove down to the coast. I fixed our lunch, supper and snacks. <BR> I did not want us to go out to eat today. I want to fix our meals as much as I can. When I have to plan out our meals, write down the calories for both of us and then cook them I have a tendency to make wise choices and get the most for our calories. My husband loves for me to say you have to have more snacks, don't you want some popcorn or nuts or sometimes both. He is eating about 1700 calories ... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 15:26:40 EST enough I read this on Facebook today and it touched me. <BR> For today, bask in being enough. Good enough, beautiful enough, happy enough, tall enough, sweet enough, enough. You are complete. <BR> I read something else and the comment was "Human beings love transformation." <BR> Think about this for awhile and think of the different kinds of transformations. I am working on my own transformation, not only physical but emotionally and mentally. <BR> How do we react to transformations? Can we h... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 18:53:54 EST Yeah!!! Today is weigh day. I tried talking to myself saying its okay if you don't lose anything, its only been a week, its okay if its a couple of pounds, its okay. I got on the scales and low and behold I had dropped 10 pounds. wow, I know I am holding a lot of fluid but I also know somewhere in there I dropped some fat too. I love a good start. <BR> I went with my husband on a short business trip and we stopped at Wendy's and I got a small chili for lunch. I also had brought me a energy ba... Thu, 7 Apr 2011 19:27:31 EST Its a mystery I can't believe what 6 days of staying on track has done. I have more energy, I slept better last night, I'm not hurting as bad in my joints. Isn't it amazing how if you give your body a chance it will try its best to heal itself. I have been eating very clean. My system is cleaning out. I am eating about 25 to 50 percent raw the rest cooked vegetables. I made a big pot of stew with lean hamburger meat at 95 percent lean. My friend raised some cattle with no hormones just plain natural ... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 18:26:02 EST Create the life you dream about I saw this on facebook this morning and I like it. Author unknown: Create the life you dream about, step into the dream easily. Let the dream energize your waking moments believe more deeply, fully and certainly. I am taking a break for 10 or 15 minutes and I am visualizing a year from now or two and seeing me in the clothes I have in the closet I can not get in. I dream of wearing my hats again, going shopping for more hats. I dream of my granddaughter and I going shopping and having lunc... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 15:19:55 EST counting the days I'm counting the days until I can go shopping and not be wore out. My husband and I had to make a grocery store run. My blood sugar dropped and I got a Snickers Marathon Energy bar and ate it. It helped. I had brought our lunch with us. I had a green smoothie and he had a couple of sandwich's. When we got to the car we ate and got revived. That is awful that you are just wore out grocery shopping. It is a biggggggggg store but good gravy 30 pounds ago I could have walked it two or th... Sun, 3 Apr 2011 18:29:25 EST Ain't love grand? Well folks you made my day. All the encouragement, wise advice, just seeing all the love caring people have for each other made me feel like I can do anything. It does not matter how many times we start over as long as we do not give up. I had lost 130 pounds a few years ago and then proceeded to put it back on. Now I have 200 pounds to lose. It is amazing what we can do to ourselves, isn't it? Well I will never give up if I do I know I will just get bigger and bigger and you know your... Sat, 2 Apr 2011 18:23:13 EST Scared I am really scared about my weight. I did not sleep very much last night from tossing and turning all night. My side would go to sleep and I would turn over, that side would go to sleep and I would have to turn over. I snored so loud that when I would go to sleep I would wake myself up. I woke up this morning realizing I was crushing my insides. I'm having headaches, neck and shoulder aches. When I walk very far the hips, knees and heart hurts from the strain. You would wonder why I kee... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 14:20:34 EST Whey protein Does anyone have any experience with this. The doctor put my mother-in-law on whey to build her up. I started drinking it yesterday after I did my weight lifting. It seemed to help me recover faster. I rode my recumbent bike today and did some wall pushups and I was trembling real bad and I drank my vanilla whey protein, added a cup of strawberries to it, and in just a little while I stopped trembling. I know it will take me a while to get back to doing all my exercises and lose the 35 p... Sat, 12 Mar 2011 16:16:18 EST green drink I am so proud I had a green drink for breakfast: 1 cup carrot juice, 1 frozen banana, hand full of Kale and a hand full of spinach, 1/2 c oatmeal, blend and drink <BR> For lunch I had a green drink: 1 cup of vanilla Almond milk, 1 organic banana, 1 cup of blueberries, handful of kale and a hand full of spinach, blend and drink. <BR> I did my weight lifting for about 20 minutes. I drank a glass of whey protein with water. <BR> I have been walking a lot today also. <BR> I will have spaghett... Fri, 11 Mar 2011 16:42:33 EST made it My husband went out of town yesterday and will be gone a couple of days. That is usually when I binge. Last night out of the blue I started wanting ice cream. I thought I'll go get just one bar out of the freezer, it won't put me over my calories too bad. No, I thought you know you will end up eating two or three bars. Well I could fix me a small bowl of ice cream put a few nuts and a little chocolate on it. No, it will just get me crazed wanting more sweets. <BR> I went and got two cra... Wed, 14 Jul 2010 11:09:47 EST chocolate banana My granddaughter and I went shopping today for a few groceries and she saw the bananas and said, I could like those. I told her okay I would get her some. She said, "I like candy too." <BR> I told her why not when we got home put some chocolate peanut butter on the banana, that would be better than candy. She said, "Oh nana you are so silly." I told her no really, I mean it, it is delicious. She said, "Well when we get home we should try it." When we got home she wanted her chocolate ba... Tue, 13 Jul 2010 20:58:53 EST Isn't it so! I read this somewhere. It seems to fit. <BR> If you have made mistakes there is always another chance for you. <BR> You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call <BR> 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down. <BR> I'm up and running. No stopping me now. <BR> We have been in the garden today. It really did not do as good as we like but I do have lots of squash, zucchini, sugar baby watermelons and cantaloupe. I think we will plow this garden unde... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 17:31:44 EST Self-forming power "If all the discoveries which men need to make, the most important at the present moment, is that of the self-forming power treasured up in themselves!" William Elllery Channing (1780-1842) Have you found your self-forming power? I see a glimmer. I feel it building in me, a little step at a time. I have taken my life back. <BR> I would be interested to hear what comes to mind when you hear that term "self-forming power." I love words, they are so powerful. Sat, 10 Jul 2010 12:49:13 EST wish What ardently we wish, we soon believe." I wish I might have the wish I wish tonight. <BR> I wish to be healthy and weigh 150 pounds. I do believe with hard work I will get my wish. <BR> I believe with hard work I will maintain the weight when I get it off. <BR> I know in my heart I will be the best I can be. I am studying people who have kept the weight off for a few years and they are doing no different from when they first lost the weight. One lady said don't stand around and enjoy t... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 19:01:29 EST getting naked "In order to swim one takes off all one's clothes-in order to aspire to the truth one must undress in a far more inward sense, divest oneself of all one's inward clothes, of thoughts, conceptions, selfishness etc. before one is sufficiently naked." Soren Kierkegaard, journal, 1854 <BR> I am learning to get naked and learn who I am. I want to get every bit of enjoyment out of my life. I want to strip all the old negative me away and find the joy and laughter. Come on Sparkies and join me on... Thu, 8 Jul 2010 17:59:17 EST Surprise Yeah, woo hoo, I lost another five pounds. So glad I staying consistent I love the way I feel , like I am unwrapping a present to me. I can't wait to see what happens along my journey and what surprises awaits me. It feels real good when I lay down at night and my stomach is growling. I'm enjoying the feeling because I know I have fed my body healthy today and it has enough nourishment and that growling is just my body losing some more fat, so I just smile and sleep very sound indeed and... Wed, 7 Jul 2010 22:32:18 EST Proud of me We went off for a couple of days and just relaxed. We really enjoyed it. <BR> We ate lots of vegetables and fruit and did not go over our calories. I'm real proud of us. <BR> What was so funny was I had no desire to over eat or eat anything that was not healthy. <BR> I am so pleased that I'm really looking forward to my transformation and doing something about it. Tue, 6 Jul 2010 19:37:02 EST High and resolute courage "We are face to face with our destiny and we must meet it with a high and resolute courage. For us is the life of action, of strenuous performance of duty; let us live in the harness, striving mightily; let us rather run the risk of wearing out than rusting out." <BR> Theodore Roosevelt <BR> This touched me and encouraged me, I hope it does the same for you. <em>283</em> Sat, 3 Jul 2010 11:57:33 EST Afraid? I was reading a book and they were talking about if you have a lot of weight to lose and you keep losing and gaining you are afraid of something. I am trying to figure out what I am afraid of, maybe my joints will quit hurting, maybe I'll have lots of energy, maybe I'll be able to wear cute clothes not that awful stuff they have out there now, maybe I'll be able to inspire others, etc. I promise you I can't understand why I do the losing and gaining. I don't think I'm afraid of anything. ... Fri, 2 Jul 2010 16:07:49 EST The clock is running out. Woe is me. I am trying to eat healthy and exercise where my body will heal. I feel like I must above all things eat as healthy as I can and move, doing whatever I can do. I feel like the clock is winding down as I abuse my body with bad food and not enough movement. I feel such an urgency to not mess around and get this weight off now. I can not do all the exercise I was doing my joints are hurting, my muscles are knotting up and I have been feeling terrible. <BR> In the last week I have dropped my ... Thu, 1 Jul 2010 19:38:40 EST