DOINITRIGHT2012's SparkPeople Blog DOINITRIGHT2012's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Retreat... I don't think so. I'm going through the stages as I go through my test results, look at my scans and do research. I am a positive person. I am a fighter, a scrapper and a survivor. I am unstoppable, but it looks as if there is a big battle ahead of me. As I look at the CT scan (yes, I had a copy sent to me) I see it, those bright, highlighted areas, those black spots. I know what the diagnoses will be. I have cancer. I should wait until I am officially diagnosed, but I don't, I won't. I want all the in... Fri, 24 May 2013 08:31:11 EST Back from the doctors, and..... Okay, I'm back. I don't have a lot of answers, but I did scare the heck out of the doctor. He was about to do a uterine biopsy when I gave him the procedure and protocol if I started into adrenal crises. His eyes got huge, he excused himself then came back in with an extra nurse and his wits. It's second nature to me, but not to most people. I told him it usually wasn't an issue, but the last time I went into crises I lost the ability to speak, so it was better for him to be aware of the... Wed, 22 May 2013 13:28:50 EST A little nervous I guess this is the best way to deal with the stress I am under right now...reach out to my support network, right? So here it goes: <BR> <BR> While I was in Pennsylvania Hospital and such this winter my menses was absent for 2 full months. It then began March 4th and lasted through April 8th. I just figured I had started menopause. With my annual physical my doctor did some tests and found out I wasn't starting menopause. Ordered more tests and it seems that not only do I have fibroids... Tue, 21 May 2013 12:43:53 EST A Good Kind of Crazy Weekend Wow, Monday already? I always seem to do better with my goals on a Monday, but where did the weekend go? Friday my DH picked up my DS from college for the summer. HE had to take a day off from work because I am unable to leave my aunt. When he stopped for gas some lady lost her brakes and backed into his new truck. Saturday he went to my sister's to do her honey-do list and paint her garage. She lost her husband almost 2 years ago at 53 years of age, so "we" try to make the 3 hour trip ... Mon, 20 May 2013 11:36:46 EST What the heck? I went on to my spark page today because I had spent an hour or so before the challenge updating it and setting goals and rewards for each week. Since I maxed both the LTGL and exercise points I wanted to reference what reward I earned only to find out that I somehow didn't save my changes last time. Bummer. <BR> <BR> So, spark friends, what would you recommend as a reward for rockin' the challenge this week? Should I download and read Dan Brown's new book? Should I spend an afternoon s... Sat, 18 May 2013 19:16:16 EST So, we're making progress, or so I thought... So, we're making progress, or so I aunt had her cathater removed Thursday night, and was able to void within 6 hours of removal. Yeah! We are on our way. Friday's appointment set us one baby step back with a nasty UTI and because of her allergies it had to be cultured to get a specific antibiotic. Ok...a rough weekend ahead with frequency of urination. I can handle interrupted sleep for a few days, no biggie. She was getting her appetite back a little, and her attitude was ... Tue, 7 May 2013 15:31:25 EST On my way again Today I had to make a 2.5 hour trip to take care of some of my aunts banking. I will be picking her up from the skilled nursing'rehabilitation center in Philadelphia on Monday then make the 4 hour trip home to start anew. I am so proud of myself, though. My weight is up, my clothes don't fit and I will be at least 10 pounds heavier at my annual physical on Friday than I was a year ago, But guess what! I finally finished a full week of my 5K walk/jog program. I have been trying to do this... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 19:46:01 EST Better next time Well, fellow Daisies, I have gained weight this challenge and now I know why. I received some of my routine semi-annual blood work results and my thyroid counts are super low. This should all be straightened out by the start of the next challenge ( my endocrinology appointment is the 1st of May). I plan on totally rocking the next challenge, exceeding my 10% goal and being physically able to be a fitness point leader. Look out team! <BR> <BR> <em>381</em> Fri, 19 Apr 2013 07:50:39 EST Celebration I haven't blogged lately. Frankly I haven't had the time. Today I will make the time. Today is a day of celebration for me. It's a very private matter, but indeed one I hope none of my SP friends ever need to endure, but a cause for celebration in the least. Let's celebrate life. Let's celebrate what is truly important in our lives. Let's focus on the ones we love and on the "big rocks", not the petty little pebbles that can throw us off. Be thankful for what you have and never take an... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 18:04:48 EST Re-evaluation It's been a rough winter as I look back on it. I am 10+ pounds heavier than I was at Christmas. I got rid of all my "fatter" clothes and bras and now I'm uncomfortably squeezing into some of the clothes I wore at Christmas. Some I can't even attempt to wear. Frustrating, indeed, but over these last 3-4 months I have had to make some progress. What went wrong? What went right? <BR> <BR> Well age and hormones have definitely played a part. I believe I am going through "the change", tho... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 08:13:50 EST Aunt Update I'm sitting here in Pennsylvania Hospital for the third day. Yesterday they did a "closed reduction" which was successful. The hip ball and socket are back in place and my aunt is currently with out pain. Tomorrow the surgeon will go in and repair the fracture, attaching a plate to her leg bone to stabilize it as well as the prosthetic hip. This is the fourth surgery on that hip. Anyway, I spent last night at my daughters apartment and got a full 8 hours sleep. I haven't felt this good in a l... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 17:35:31 EST Spark Coach Day 3 So it's my third day with spark coach. I'm still on track. Taking those 10 minutes to focus in the morning is making a difference. More so, I pull up the motivational step through out the day when I feel I need it. I went over my calorie goal yesterday, not by a whole lot, but I was surprised I went over. <BR> <BR> Today I have been feeling "doggie"...then I realized I didn't take my morning meds. No wonder I just wanted to curl up and go back to sleep. <BR> <BR> Things are going be... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 13:23:00 EST WooHoo! Wow! It's amazing what sleeping just 5 hours straight has done for this body and brain. I am thinking more clearly and able to stick to my plan completely. I made a dark chocolate cake with peanut butter icing for my aunt and those college kids on spring break and I wan't even tempted to lick the bowl! How did I do it when my kids were babies? I don't know. Here's a big WooHoo! to my aunt who is working hard to get better today. I'm so excited to be on this journey with her and back on... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 12:46:31 EST Major Baby Steps Today was one of those break-through days, those days with several "ah" moments where I wake up to the obvious and move forward. My aunt was up every 45 to 90 minutes to go to the toilet last night. She woke me up every time. Finally, at 5:30 this morning I moved the commode to her bedside and guided her (again) to get on herself. She was scared, but I told her I was exhausted. My adrenals are starting to rebel. Three weeks with no more than 3 hours of sleep at a time is wearing me down... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 15:08:35 EST Positive Steps Today I was focused and had many successes. The first success was that my aunt slept for 3 hours at a time during the night before she needed to get up to toilet. I got some quality REM sleep which made a huge difference. She is getting stronger and hopefully will be able to do this herself in a week or so, even if it's with the bedside commode. <BR> <BR> Second, I tracked all day and tracked well. I did go a little off plan, but counted it, didn't quit and still came within my calorie ... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 19:23:44 EST Up 4 Pounds OK Self....WTH? No, seriously, you knew this would happen. One cannot go over her caloric allowance 5 days a week and not gain weight. Get it together, girl. <BR> <BR> Yes, I have worked out more this week than the past 6. <BR> Yes, those work outs include weight training for the first time since January. <BR> Yes, you COULD possibly have gained muscle, but the fact is you have to stay within you calorie allowance in order to create the deficit to burn fat. NO ifs, ands or buts. Just ... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 09:47:22 EST Sharing with my team I am usually a very private person, but I seem to have this false sense of privacy when blogging. I just journal for myself and bam! I get feedback. It's kind of odd for me. <BR> <BR> On this journey I am determined to be flexible enough to get through the glitches, find out what I need to do and get it done. I am definitely making progress. <BR> <BR> I appreciate all the feedback I get from all my SP friends. It has definitely made a difference this week. I am now putting my workout... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 18:10:30 EST 6) Do you need some motivation or advice? Ask for it! I can always you motivation and advice. Even though it is up to me to make positive changes, doing it alone is always more difficult than being motivated and guided by friends who "have been there" or are going through the same thing. I have gotten a lot of tips and high fives from my SP friends and my accountability buddies are hanging in there with me. <BR> <BR> Today I tracked everything on paper then entered in on SP when I got home. Even though I planned, things didn't go as planned... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 21:10:33 EST 5) What can you improve upon? There is so much I can improve on...and I intend to do so. Today I took a stronger stand with my aunt, insisting she come to the table to eat lunch and dinner. She doth protest, but I told her I already had the table set for us. I also decided to put her on a schedule as best as I could with home health and therapies coming in at frequent and varied times. I thought if I wrote out a schedule for myself and included my exercise and tracking times I wouldn't get so caught up in her needs th... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 13:58:16 EST How am I doing day by day? Today stunk! <BR> <BR> Tue, 5 Mar 2013 13:48:06 EST 3) What are you doing to encourage yourself and keep on track? I am using my SP friends to help hold me accountable for my tracking. My DH is a big help most of the time, but every once and a while we end up sabotaging each other's efforts-like the cake he bought for last night's dessert because his mother was coming over. Having my aunt with us has given us opportunities to be creative with scheduling our workouts. We used to do them together and push each other. Because she can't be left alone, working out together hasn't happened. She has only 10... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 13:15:51 EST How will I develop my new habit... So, I've chosen food tracking as a way of making portion control a habit. I have vowed to use the nutrition tracker for 21 days. I am 14.5 hours in and doing well so far. I also have several spark friends who are helping to hold me accountable. I have made my nutrition tracker public to enable my friends to call me on the carpet if I'm slacking. I have also decided to use a hand written journal which is always available. This rids me of the "no internet" excuse. Now the only thing left... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 14:38:51 EST Winter into Spring Challenge Blog #1-Saturday 1) What new habit you wish to develop? <BR> <BR> Boy, there are so many. How do I just pick one? I think my biggest obstacle to losing these extra pounds is the inability to turn my eating switch to "off". I never thought I had trouble with portion control, but the closer I look at it, the more obvious it becomes. I eat too much. I need to practice "push aways". Once I start eating anything I don't know when to stop. I need to develop a habit of portion control.... Can that be a habit? I th... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 16:17:28 EST Preparation for Week 2 of the W/S Challenge Okay, I didn't do so well last week. Considering the last two nights my aunt was up at least every 2 hours, last night it was every hour. I'm a little sleep deprived and wasn't as focused as I should be (and I craved sweets and ate them...nothing like a slice of home made molasses oatmeal bread with honey to keep ya goin', huh?) So, while she is finally sleeping, I thought I would do some preparation for next week's challenge. <BR> <BR> These are the blog questions I need to focus on st... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 11:29:43 EST Lifestyle Changes and Challenges. Wow, there have been a lot of changes in my life in the last few weeks with a big one to arrive tomorrow. My aunt, who I adore, has had a hip replacement to replace a bad hip replacement and is coming to live with us tomorrow. She has no children and I promised her after the last replacement that she would never go into a nursing home again. The rehabilitation center can do no more for her until her restrictions are lifted (4 weeks) and she can begin to bear weight on that leg. So, change... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 09:00:10 EST A Fresh Start Ok, it's Monday and I am actually home with no place to go but the "Y" tonight. At least, that's where it stands right now. <BR> <BR> Reflecting on the weeks I sat in the hospital with my aunt, I really made some poor choices. I let her fear of being alone dictate the poor eating choices I made. I am sure if I picked up a salad in the morning, the nurses would have put it in the fridge for me. No, I picked up calorie-laden, preservative packed, high carb foods that just packed on the n... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 09:52:50 EST Repeat Since October 31st my life has been....get slammed, fall down, pick myself up, repeat... <BR> <BR> Sorry I haven't been on much folks. I WILL get back and moving forward as soon as I can, for I AM unstoppable. I just have some major issues I need to push through right now. As soon as everyone is home from hospitals/nursing homes, etc. my health will be a priority again. <BR> <BR> Fall down 7 times, get up 8.....repeat, repeat, repeat! Thu, 7 Feb 2013 10:32:39 EST Roller coaster, or shall I say Teeter-Totter. Boy was I excited to be doing well yesterday, only to wake up this morning with the side of my face swollen...the abscess returned after 12 hours without antibiotic. I thought my adrenals were too fragile for a root canal or extraction, but I'm second guessing myself right now. This may be the root (no pun intended) of the adrenals being on the edge. So, it's coming out on Thursday with steroid shot in hand just in case. The hospital is right across the street from the dentist's office, t... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 10:37:51 EST What happened to January, and December, for that matter? Wow, I looked at my Spark Page and realized I had goals from November still there. What happened to December and January? (Insert your choice of goal cliche her) They are all true. I gained a significant amount of weight over the last 2 months, was busier than a one-armed paper hanger, still took time to log in, drink water and exercise, but I ate junk. I'm not just talking homemade goodies, but store bought bread, pasta, and other junk that I don't even like. It was quick and available... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 21:37:19 EST Balanced, Stable and Blessed As I sit here I ponder how blessed I am. After my second brush with death within 2 months time, I have to reflect and make some choices. I am struggling through this virus which sent me into a major adrenal crises Wednesday night. Night time is always worse because I sleep through the symptoms until they get life-threatening. When I woke up I could not speak more than a stuttered, stammered word, but it was enough to get my DH awake, medicated and to the ER, where the first paramedic read... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 21:57:54 EST Lost My Focus Okay, self, we need to have a talk. What the heck happened? You were so focus and geared up to start a new and look at you. What have you done? Why? Come on, look at your goal and take those steps to achieve it. No one will do it for you. So, the breakdown for you is following your plan. Just do it! If you start mindless snacking <em>227</em> go downstairs to your sewing room. You don't allow food down there. Don't analyze, don't judge JUST LEAVE. Think of it as your emerge... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 12:19:49 EST Proactive vs Reactive I know, I know, those are buzz words from the past, but they represent a choice we all have in regard to our goals, whatever they may be. I've had a very rough couple weeks, knocking on death's door once, and in adrenal crises nearly every day. So, what am I going to do about it? <BR> <BR> I'll tell you what I'm going to do. I'm going to embrace it, learn from it, grow from it and prove to the world that I am not going to let anything, least of all my self, take the living out of whatev... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 12:54:46 EST Finding my "Reset" Button The computer, the hair dryer, the vacuum cleaner, my seems many things these days have a "Reset Button". You know, that little button that one pushes when the device they are using gets all messed up, confused and either quits completely or just doesn't work right. I wish I had one. Every time I get off track, I could just push it and make the right choices, fix the confusion in my body and get on my way with living the healthy lifestyle. Darn, I can't seem to find it on this... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 04:00:26 EST Isn't it funny I wish I understood more about life, about subconsciousness, about the Lord's plan for me. I had another brush with death yesterday, and am here to talk about it today. <BR> <BR> I had dental work on Tuesday, then ended up taking my MIL and her dear Golden to the Vet to have the dog put down. Cancer had finally taken away her ability to walk and her bowel and bladder control. This triggered suicidal thoughts in a person very close to me, a violent crime victim who struggles daily in her... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 07:46:19 EST An Apology to My Body Dear Body, <BR> <BR> I'm so sorry. I apologize for the years of abuse and neglect I have imposed on you. The times when I fed you unrecognizable items. Those "foodstuffs" our government considers edible, but you do not recognize and can not process, so you store as toxins within you. I apologize for the crazy times where I withheld nutrition from because all I wanted to do was lose weight; I wasn't thinking about providing for your needs. I apologize for the artificial sweeteners I con... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 08:04:48 EST Frustrated with my Body Oh please, please, please all my SP friends. Never go fat-free and ditch the artificial everything...sweeteners, flavors, nitrates, ditch them all. I do not want any of you to have to deal with the consequences I feel I've contributed to by eating "non-foods" I lost a lot of weight after my youngest was born, but the consequences of poor health soon followed and are haunting my weight loss efforts today. <BR> <BR> The stress of Hurricane Sandy has put me into an adrenal crises cycle of ... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 10:29:23 EST One word blog...just like an email forward Not as easy as you might think! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers. <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? <BR> bedroom <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> loving <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> blonde <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> manipulative <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> passed <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> spouse <BR> <BR> Your dream last night? <BR> None <BR> <BR> Favorite drink? <BR> water <BR> <BR> What ... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 05:21:33 EST Reasons NOT to Exercise All the reasons NOT to exercise today: <BR> <BR> I'm tired <BR> My asthma is flaring up <BR> My legs are sore <BR> I gained 3 poundslast week, even with exercising every day for at least 2 hours and staying within my calorie limit. <BR> I'm tired...could be adrenals. <BR> My mother is visiting <BR> I'm taking my mother, MIL and a friend to a craft fair today <BR> I have to get blood work done today. <BR> My house is a mess. <BR> I have to prep for Hurricane Sandy <BR> Did I mention I'm tired... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 07:53:04 EST Circle of Influence Stephan Covey talks about one's circle of influence in his book The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. It's time I revisit this. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had my 6 month check up with my immunologist in Pittsburgh. For the last 16 years these have been pretty routine. Yesterday, however, was a slap in the face. I have and immune deficiency where my T cells die off before they make antibodies, so I have a weekly infusion to provide the typical antibodies for basic protection. I have been ... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 12:42:37 EST Two Steps Forward.... Fired up, motivated, excited and well planned. That was me at 6:00 this morning. I already had dressed for the gym with my running shoes by the door. I was fixing lunches for my DH and me, while boiling some eggs and getting breakfast around. The plan was when he left for work I would go to the Y and get my 5K program run, then go clean 2 houses, come home can some venison, do some more sewing then go back to the Y for strength training tonight. Our Y started a fall challenge today based... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 13:12:48 EST As I was putting on my sneakers... No, no, no. I don't want to do this. I did not, would not, just didn't want to go to the "Y" today. It's cold and miserable. The high of 79 on Friday was gone, leaving in it's wake frost bitten plants and a high of 52 degrees. I am PMS-ing munching on my planned mini Snickers bar as I don my gym clothes. Yuck, long pants. I haven't worn anything but shorts since I got over that self-conscious thunder thigh feeling. But yes, I will put these sweats on." <BR> <BR> On go the sneakers. ... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 18:16:01 EST Fall 5% Challenge...I am Unstoppable I am so excited about this challenge. My focus today is on those 100 oz of water I need to get in. I haven't had my first cup of coffee, yet today and I've had 48 oz of hot lemon water. I tend to drink 16-32 during/after my workout, leaving 30-46 oz for meals and in between. <BR> <BR> I have been reading the Unstoppable Woman Challenge while on the treadmill, not as the book is meant to be used, but re-reading the stories of these amazing women keeps me pushing myself. I would highly r... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 07:51:56 EST October is upon us. Wow, what happened to September? I can't believe it flew by so fast. A new month, a new start, new goals and wow a challenge. The Fall 5% challenge is the first weight based challenge I have joined. Because of my medications and other things beyond my control I try not to focus on the pounds lost (although I LOVE to see the scale drop). I focus on healthy habits and pray the scale goes down. This challenge will be exciting to me for many reasons. I've already "met" some really cool peop... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 19:20:14 EST A Gift for Health For my birthday my DH gave me a Tablet. This is quite a lavish gift for me. We've had kids in college' as many as 4 at one time' for 7 years now, and really haven't splurged on each other. His reasoning is that I have been doing well staying on track with SP and I will be out of town several times during the Fall 5% Challenge, he thought it would be a great investment. since SP is free, not joining a paid diet site pays for the tablet. We've been working on healthy habits together, so this ... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 23:04:17 EST Starting my 49th year Wow, my 48th birthday. Ten years ago I never thought I'd see this day. Every one has been a blessing. Gone are the days of being home-bound all winter long. Gone are the days where I couldn't walk up the steps with a pair of jeans without wheezing and gasping for air. Yesterday I did my 5K Walk/Jog program, getting to 3.2 miles in 50 minutes, and I'm shooting to do it in under 45 by October 20th. My daughter signed my up for the Runner's World 5K for my birthday as a reminder of how far... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 11:14:41 EST Reasons and Strategy List YOUR reasons/excuses on why YOUR diets and exercise plans have not been well executed in the past. OK that might be too long a list, so give 3 or 4 reasons and for each write a strategy that will keep you on track for 8 weeks. Let's learn from our past behaviors and make this our best Challenge ever! <BR> <BR> <em>56</em> It's time. I admit, I've quit trying, time and time again. It's frustrating to me to work very hard, eat well, exercise and see the scale continue to climb, so I ... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 13:39:06 EST 5% Challenge Assignment #5 Current Weight.....190 <BR> 5%..... 9.5 pounds <BR> <BR> Calories 1260 to 1610 <BR> Calories to burn each week 1360 <BR> <BR> Goal Weight by 11/24/12...180 pounds Sat, 22 Sep 2012 11:21:55 EST Fall 5% Assignment #4 Triggers: If it's a food I will binge on, it is typically carbs, like graham crackers or granola. I have more of a problem with emotional triggers. <BR> <BR> #1 Fatigue. It seems that early afternoon, prior to my second dose of Cortef I become fatigued. If I binge 2:00 in the afternoon seems to be the time, historically. <BR> Options: <BR> 1. Hit the sewing machine or scrapbooking desk. Eating and projects do not work well together. <BR> 2. Get outside. An hour of playing with pu... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 11:43:36 EST Fall 5% Challenge 1. Why do I want to lose weight? The down and dirty of it is I hate being fat. I have a small frame and should not be carrying all this blubber. This excess what put on while on high doses of corticosteroids. I am off the high doses and need my body to rid the excess poundage. I hate the slap sound of wiggly, jiggly fat. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> 2. What do I want to change? I want to change all this flab into lean, sexy, sculpted muscle. <BR> <BR> 3. How do I want to look? Well, I... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 21:12:46 EST Wrong Turn At first I was going to say I was "Off the Wagon", then "Off the Path" but the more I reflected, I would just say I took a wrong turn into a very bad neighborhood today. It's an all too familiar neighborhood where I eat for reasons other than hunger or nourishment. I gained 4 pound last week, and was only over my caloric range one day, and not by much. I exercised nearly every day, and even walked for 3 straight hours on my "day off." I believe the increase of steroids and normal monthly... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 15:37:02 EST