DNJEN471's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DNJEN471 DNJEN471's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Where has the time gone? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6132477 I knew March was going to be a difficult month for me. It's proved to be exactly that. Two birthdays, two business trips, a new very time consuming project launch at work and a holiday all thrown into a hectic month. Needless to say, I'm excited for a new month!! I've not been very consistent with tracking or exercise this month purely because I have been barely keeping my head above water. So.... I've been thinking about this... My initial knee jerk reaction is disappointment of being throw... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 10:53:24 EST Udate on me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6103793 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a860d566-f551-4849-92c1-239011277cef.JPG"> <BR> Things are going well. I'm still staying on track. I had a couple of days last week, where schedule wise, it wasn't possible for me to get to the gym. So when it came time to weigh in, I was a little worried. My eating has been good. So, I don't know why I was sooo worried. I was very pleased to see I had lost another 2lbs. Making some progress on this journey feels great! <BR> <img src="http://... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 12:58:30 EST Good Old Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6093318 Pre-kids, I remember being here. I lost over 50 pounds. I felt fantastic. I remember I had a routine down. I'd workout everyday. I'd track my food everyday. I'd track my water everyday. That's how I was able to lose 50 pounds. Anyway- point is, I'm remembering how good it feels to be back to my old "good" habits. Being consistent daily! It feels good!! The difference between last time and this time seems to be my outlook. Last time around I was very weight focused. I weighed myself everyday.... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 07:59:23 EST 27lbs down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087515 I'm on the consistency coaster. I've got a routine down and am feeling better for it. At this point it's really not about the number on the scale for me. I want to feel strong and healthy. I want to fit into old clothes. I want to feel confident about how I look. I want my heart to be healthy, so that I can be around to see my kids grow and their kids grow. These things can't be found in a number on the scale. I'm not panicked about the number. While I've set my calorie range to lose 2lbs per... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 09:34:43 EST Old Habits Die Hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084000 I had Friday off, hung out with the kids. Hubby wanted to go ice fishing early, so I wasn't able to get to the gym. Being home all day is hard for me. I find myself snacking and eating way more than I should. When I'm at work, everything's been premeasured and I couldn't have more even if I wanted to. Well, we made cornbread and I had like 5 pieces. Which is just ridiculous. I asked hubby to get home at a decent time so that I could go to the gym in the evening. Well after my crazy eating day... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 14:53:39 EST Challenge Completed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6081252 So I was worried about staying on track the past couple of days. I've been really sticking to a workout routine daily and was worried about changing the schedule to accommodate hubby working. For me, working out first thing in the morning is the best. Kids are not awake yet, no distractions and it gives me more energy for the day. Well, Sunday through yesterday, I couldn't do my morning workout- as I had to be to work early to get off early to pick up kids. Then by the time you get home, do h... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 07:34:27 EST My Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6078116 So, I've been really good at getting my workout in every morning. Today, tomorrow, Tuesday and Wednesday I won't be able to get it done in the AM. Hubby has to work... So I have to go to work super early- which leaves me with PM gym time. I'm already feeling tired and just got home. I've got a ton to do before going to the gym. This will be a challenge this week. I'm just going to have to power through! Sun, 24 Jan 2016 19:19:09 EST Consistency Pays Off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6075184 Very happy with my loss this week. I've really strived for my step goal every day for the past week. I hit the gym all 6 of my planned days. Even nearly hit my step goal on my off day. I've avoided sugar all week, very limited carbs and drank my water. Consistency. That's key here for me. I've joined a little chat accountability group with my longest (and dearest) spark friend Julie- who inspires me to be diligent about the food I'm choosing to fuel my body. So, yeah, things are going good. ... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 07:55:33 EST Update on me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6071913 So, I've been away for a while. Things got a little crazy for a bit and I had to let something things go. Unfortunately, the time it takes to blog on spark was one of those things. I didn't throw in the towel with my fitness and eating. Although the holidays were a bit slippery. I didn't gain anything while I was away from spark. So, I'll take that as a success. <BR> <BR> For those of you who follow me, you know I work more than full time hours and have two kids (6yrs and 4yrs). My husband o... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 15:47:11 EST I'm okay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6069107 I want to thank my spark friends who have come by my page to check up on me the last couple months. I'm okay. Don't worry, I've still been healthy and have actually lost some in the time I've not sparked. I'll do another blog later when I have a little more time. Love you all and appreciate you! Thu, 14 Jan 2016 07:50:09 EST Organized Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6022593 An ultimate goal of mine is to be as organized at home as I am at work. This can be a hard thing. I saw a meme once that describes my struggle perfectly. It said: "Cleaning with kids is like brushing your teeth while eating Oreos." With a 6yr old and a 4yr old, keeping the house organized can be hard. They are finally at the age where they can help tidy up- but they are not quite old enough to actually clean. So I created a chore chart, focusing on one room a day. I'm hoping that will help me... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 11:53:48 EST Maintain is better than gain... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6022146 So like it or not, I seem to be just maintaining what I've lost thus far. Looking back over the past month, I've gained and lost and gained and lost the same pound. My weight really has not changed much over the past month. While maintaining is definitely better than gaining, I'm going to have to get my butt in gear if I actually want to see any kind of progress. <BR> <BR> Some long term goals that I have: <BR> 1: Be able to buy jeans from the regular sized sections of the store. <BR> 2: Be... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 16:07:39 EST Bummed out... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6018719 My fitbit is dead. I'm so sad. I got it when it very first came out 2 1/2 years ago, so it's out of warranty now..... I've loved having the motivation to track my steps and now... I'm so bummed!! I charged it overnight and it had a full battery life when I left for work. But when I checked the app it showed the battery was really low. Then by the evening the lights were not working at all. I thought it was weird, but maybe it just didn't charge. So, I put it on the charger. But it won't even ... Wed, 21 Oct 2015 11:17:30 EST Choosing Your Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015670 I've struggled. This journey has not been perfect. Life is simply not perfect. I've had bad days. Personal problems, we've all got them. But am I going to allow my problems to side track me on this journey? Am I going to let one thing that's not perfect dictate my attitude as a whole? NOPE!! Here's a little secret.... YOU CHOOSE YOUR ATTITUDE!! And I'm choosing to be positive. I'm choosing to be thankful. And sometimes having a positive attitude can make all the difference in the world. <BR> ... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 20:48:28 EST Gained 1.3 lbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6014397 I had a rough week. Which turned into me drinking things I shouldn't drink and eating things that I shouldn't eat. Sitting around, instead of working out. It was a bad week. I allowed myself to slip way to much. I could make a ton of excuses about stress and all. But I'm not going to make any excuses. All I know is that the scale is going the wrong direction, because of me and the poor choices I made last week. The only way to make this better is to be hyper aware of my actions and the conseq... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 13:49:43 EST Feeling Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6011813 I'm feeling so much better today than I did yesterday. I actually started to feel better last night. Had a salad with salmon and a whole wheat noodle pasta with peppers on the side for dinner. Then took the kids (and hubby actually joined us), to the park for a walk. I managed to get 8.5k steps in. Not bad, considering how my day started out. I also did great with my water yesterday and tracked all of my food. <BR> <BR> Today I woke up late. Hung out with my little one, drank way to much cof... Thu, 8 Oct 2015 20:08:53 EST Food Poisoning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6010955 So yesterday wasn't my best day. I ate too little, because I was feeling sick. I was running back and forth to the bathroom while at work too. I definitely lost that 1/2 pound I gained. I talked to my husband and we both had the same thing, which means it's likely what we ate. This is why I hate eating out. You never know what an establishment is serving you or how clean a place really is or what they are really putting in your food, not to mention it's expensive. <BR> <BR> I did drink all m... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 10:41:46 EST Struggles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6010369 So I seem to struggle with blogging everyday. I really wish it was simpler on the mobile site. I always have my phone with me and I'm able to comment on others blogs and see my friends activity feed. I just wish I could figure out the mobile blog post thing. It would certainly make things easier for me. <BR> <BR> I've been struggling with consistency. I seem to be on this one week on one week off type of thing. I'm not going hog wild or anything. I just let my eating slack a little and am no... Tue, 6 Oct 2015 11:18:36 EST Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006798 I've always been an emotional eater. I know this about myself. On particularly bad work days, I can be found scarfing down pieces of chocolate as though it's going to make the problem go away. It's not at all logical. It adds more stress to me in the long run. So, why do I do it? I don't know if it's comfort, or if I look at it as a sweet treat in the storm, I really am not sure. All I know is that I have to cut it out. <BR> <BR> I got very little sleep again. I toss and turn, usually with ... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 12:19:07 EST Drowning... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006158 So I made my focus water yesterday and managed to drink (or drown in) 83oz. Which sounds like a lot, but is what I should be drinking at minimum each day for my kidneys to function the way they are supposed to. I almost felt like calling my urologist and telling him I finally did what he asked, but he'd probably just say- "that's great you did it that one day, now do it every day". LOL. I saw a humor post-card thing that said- Drinking 10 glasses of water all day seems impossible, but drinkin... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 12:03:31 EST Surprised! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005408 I haven't really been on my A game this past week. So, needless to say I was surprised to see the scale move when I weighed in this morning. Considering that I had a zero loss on the scale last week, I'm glad that it actually moved 3.2lbs down this week. In reflection of last week, I only worked out 4 days. My step average for the entire week was only 5k, that's half of my goal. I did very poorly with the food tracking. Looking back at my food diary, there was a day that I only tracked breakf... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 08:42:49 EST Self Sabotage? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001307 So, I had a plan yesterday. I was going to try to make up for my book club night... a night of fun with friends that involved food that is not at all good for me and several glasses of wine. So, I had planned to make up for my night. I wanted to fill my day with fruits and veggies and being active. I walked, but didn't get all my steps in. Then I got a crazy salt craving. So, I ate Lays ruffles... as though that wasn't enough, I then ate some fritos.... then when I got home I had some pumpkin... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 09:14:56 EST Blogging on mobile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000422 I've been trying to blog all week. I'm not sure why sometimes it allows me to post on my phone and other times I end up in a view mode that won't let me post. It's kinda frustrating. I don't always have time to sit at the old laptop and wait the 10 minutes for it to connect. So, I'm pleased that today, it's working. I've had an active week. Tuesday and Wednesay I woke up early and did sweatin' to the oldies, yes, you read that right. It was fun. Thursday I got all my steps in by walking arou... Sat, 19 Sep 2015 19:48:17 EST 12.6 lbs gone so far! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5997406 It's been a little over a month since I've been back on spark. I've stuck with my tracking, I've been focusing on what I've been eating and making an effort to be active each day. It's a simple thing, but it works. Be accountable for what you eat and what activity (or lack of activity) you do each day. This is the first month of many in my journey. I've got a long way to go. But I'm pleased with my progress thus far. I'll be taking my September progress pics (ugh... hate doing this but I know... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 17:18:23 EST Dark Place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5996618 I am down today and need to snap out of it. I hate when I feel this way. I used to take medication to keep my anxiety in check. I stopped taking it a few months back. For the most part, I've done well without it. I have only had a couple of nights where my mind and heart were racing (I have emergency pills for that). I don't think there's anything wrong with taking medication, if it helps you. There's no shame in getting the help you need. I personally feel like a zombie on it though- hence m... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 12:50:28 EST Exercise equals a big appetite http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5995088 So, for breakfast I had some of my home made pumpkin spice cold brew and some special k cereal with almond milk. Then I took the kids to the park, where I walked for 55 minutes while they played. I would have walked longer, but my shoe was really rubbing my foot raw. I think it's time that I get a new pair. They are about 3 years old. So, it's time. Anyway. When we got back from the walk I was starved and so were the kids. I made them cheese casadillas and instead of eating one of those, I ha... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 22:04:21 EST Need accountability- Who else needs some? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5994201 I'm by no means going to allow being a little sick be an excuse. Yesterday I had a plan to get the remainder of my steps in, I didn't quiet accomplish that goal. I ended at 5.7k steps, versus my target of 10k. I'm planning to see that 10k today. I was darn determined to get a full nights rest. After a mere 4 hours the previous night, I had to make sure I got a restful nights sleep. So, I took one of my pills and woke up very rested. I checked my fitbit sleep tracker and sure enough, 7.5hrs an... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 14:39:16 EST Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5993336 I'm frustrated. Mainly with myself. But yeah, what can you do? So it's pumpkin season. My favorite season of all time. I broke my rule of no Starbucks, not once, not twice... but FOUR times. I had FOUR pumpkin spice latte's last week. Only one of which was asked to be "skinny" the rest was sugary fat goodness. Why? I know what it's going to do to my butt. I know my Starbucks addiction is a large contributor to my size. That's why I've tried to cut it out. Not to mention it's very expensive. S... Tue, 8 Sep 2015 10:35:31 EST Update: Another 2.4lbs down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5989539 So I've meant to blog since my weigh in on Monday, but have not gotten the chance. So, here's an update. After my day of bread and dreading the scale, I was happy to see that I still had a loss of 2.4lbs. So I didn't completely sabotage myself. I definitely didn't enjoy the stress though. I'm going about my weight loss this time around differently. I know I'm not the type of person who can do only measurements and that the scale does matter to me. However, I also know that if I weigh daily, I... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 10:56:58 EST Dread and Bread... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5987492 I've seriously been dreading work. For the most part, I do like my job. I've been working for the same company for 15 years. But lately, the pressure and stress has been getting the best of me. I've been off my anxiety med's for a few months now and this is the first time I'm thinking that may have been a mistake. I really don't want to be medicated. But I'm feeling anxious and I'm dreading going to work. I'm kinda lost at the moment. <BR> <BR> Money is usually the number one stress causer. ... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 15:30:06 EST Stress is no good for a person with anxiety http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985992 So Tuesday and Wednesday were down right awful. It was crazy crazy crazy at work. I managed to eat good and still count my calories and drink my water. But I didn't get remotely close to my step goal on either day and didn't workout. It's not often that I say I HATE my job. But really... Tuesday was that day. A normal person probably wouldn't have reacted the same way I did. But my anxiety sometimes makes a mountain out of a mole hill. I drove home crying and called my husband to vent. He's s... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 21:20:33 EST Bye Bye Lbs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5984185 So I was excited to see the scale down another 4lbs. Made me feel better about my book club night. It was a long stressful workday, I was so tempted to crawl in bed and stay there all night- but I went to the gym instead. I know things won't change for me unless I make them change. I'm determined to do this! I got all my water drank, all my steps in and was solid with my food. At least something worked out today! Mon, 24 Aug 2015 23:18:59 EST Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5983544 So I didn't get a chance to blog the past two days but I did okay this weekend. Friday I took my little one to the pool. We walked there and back. I really swam and jogged around the pool while she played. We walked to pick up my son from school and my daughter crashed on her bike pretty good. Thankfully the office was still open. So I bandaged her up then we made it home. My legs were killing me. But we still went to Costco for a chicken and bag of salad. The kids were starving. My son got a... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 00:49:26 EST Feeling drained- but still rocked it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5981842 So, after blogging this morning, I went downstairs and ate breakfast (special K w/ unsweetened almond milk) and then decided it was time to hit the gym. I had an appointment at 1pm and had to be to work by 3pm- so I knew that this was my window. I walked to the gym and worked out for a good hour. I was able to do the bike, elliptical and weights- then walked home. I got ready for work and then made lunch. I had a can of tuna (in water) with 2tbs. lite mayo, 2tbs. lite sour cream and dill weed... Fri, 21 Aug 2015 01:02:13 EST 8-19-2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5981430 I again was too tired to blog last night. Yesterday was a good day. I drank all my water and got all my steps in. I did go over my calories by 50- but I know not to make that mistake again. I had a yogurt covered blueberry that turned into 2 that turned into 10. Anyway... They're gone now so I don't have to worry about the temptation anymore. Thu, 20 Aug 2015 10:26:09 EST 8-18-2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980871 This is my blog from yesterday and I just simply was too exhausted to do it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was our annual golf tournament for CMN. So I was a volunteer all day. No, I didn't golf. I was helping put together everything, loading coolers with drinks, running drinks and snacks out to the golfers, setting up and breaking down all of the auction items. It was a very very long day. Unfortunately, it was a fly by the seat of your pants kinda day, which got me in trouble. I had a donut for brea... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 12:27:55 EST Didn't reach my goal... But did! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5979903 Today is the first day I've not gotten my step goal of 10k. Since coming back... I'm about 4k short. But I'm choosing sleep over exercise this time. I only got 4.5 hrs of sleep last night and I have a long day tomorrow so sleep it is. <BR> <BR> On a happier note I lost 4lbs this week! Mon, 17 Aug 2015 23:10:05 EST Trying not to be mad.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5979235 So, I worked today, as I do all Sundays. I left the house at 9am and got home at about 7pm. I made sure to pack all my food and drink all my water and walk every extra chance I got. I left work with 8.5k steps. So, not a bad day. But when I walked in the door.... <BR> <BR> My husband has Menieres Disease. Well, today apparently was not a good day. It looked like a bomb had gone off in my house. Imagine letting a 6 year old and 4 year old roam free all day. Welcome to my life. There were toys... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 23:11:14 EST Saturday is a Lazy Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978668 At least that's what I used to think and it almost turned out that way, but I turned it around... <BR> <BR> I had promised the kids that we could go to the pool in the morning. So instead of driving there, we walked there. We played in the pool for a good 2 hours. I made sure to make it a workout. I was jogging in the pool and doing jumping jacks and kicking my legs- whatever I had to do to make it worth while. The kids had a great time and my Dad even came down with my little brothers and s... Sat, 15 Aug 2015 23:49:17 EST Feeling Hot Hot Hot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978163 Yes, I'm singing that song, in my head as I type this. First I'm a little frustrated. I was able to do a mobile blog post yesterday and can't do one today. I have an iPhone. Does anyone else have this issue? I had to come down to the husbands dungeon to log onto the computer to post this. Just a little frustrating... <BR> <BR> Anyway. I didn't have to work today. I worked last night until close and didn't get home until around 1:30am. I got up around 8:30am to go pick up my daughter. She spe... Sat, 15 Aug 2015 01:04:22 EST Busy Day- Turned into a Great Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977601 So today was one of those really busy days. A day I would normally use as an "excuse" as to why I couldn't workout or eat right. But not today! Nope! These gloves are on and I'm fighting for this, no matter how busy my day is. <BR> <BR> First, I had to be up early to get showered and ready for a hair appointment. We live kinda far from everything, but I love love love where we live! Anyway... So it takes 30 minutes to get to my friends house to do my hair. My appointment was at 8:30 and I wo... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 00:58:20 EST Calories on point http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5976873 I've been tracking everything that goes in my mouth, even gum. This is day two of staying within my calorie intake. I've honestly been making good choices too. My coffee has been black with a single Splenda pack. No Starbucks stops. Which is a great accomplishment for me. Lunch has been salads, instead of going out for lunch. I'm hoping to see progress on the scale and the wallet with that. Dinner tonight was rice, salmon and carrots- no added salt or sauce. I've drank almost all my water for... Wed, 12 Aug 2015 21:20:19 EST Looking for an accountability buddy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5976327 So, I'm back. Again. I seem to recall the last time I was successful at this, I had an accountability buddy. Someone who motivated and/or checked in on me every day- and I did the same for them. At one point I had a group of about 10 accountability buddies and we really motivated each other to reach our goals. It's been a couple of years, so I'm here again and looking for the same. Anyone out there interested? <BR> <BR> Wed, 12 Aug 2015 00:24:10 EST Anxiety and Insomnia http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742067 So I've had anxiety for years. I've been able to manage it on my own, listening to relaxing music, talking it out, exercise, meditation- I am usually great at getting it under control. But for the last month it's been really bad. My heart will just pound and I freak out over stuff that really is not that important. Then it impacts my sleep and by the 5th day of no sleep, I knew it was beyond my control. I've now been to my doctor, who has given me a little help. I hate taking medication and d... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 11:43:53 EST Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736418 I'm feeling better! I started this day off great! Had a fabulous workout. My eating could have been better- but I did ok. Planning for a great tomorrow! Fri, 11 Jul 2014 00:48:57 EST Day 1 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734368 Yesterday was my first day "back on the wagon". If there was ever a time that I'd be called an emotional eater- it was yesterday. I did good almost all day. I drank lots of water while at work and avoided snacking. Then my boss sent me a naggy email. I tried to see the positive side of this situation... Finding it hard to do.... Decide to burn off my frustration at the gym. Then as I'm driving to the gym I get a message from the person watching our kids telling me they've 'planned a big last ... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 08:25:15 EST July http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733536 So I completely avoided the whole picture and weigh in thing on July 1st. I've been on "vacation" for the past week and I let my calorie counting be too. I've no doubt that I've likely done some damage that will take all month to correct. I imagine this is how drug addicts feel when they attempt to get back on the wagon again after a slip.... I could sit and ponder the whys. But why waste the time? Actions speak louder than words. Mini goals will be set and achieved to help me get back on tra... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 06:32:51 EST A crazy week.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720294 So Wednesday I woke up with a bloody nose. It was bleeding on and off all day long. It gave me a screaming headache- so I skipped the gym. <BR> <BR> Thursday morning we took the kids to breakfast at Ihop... I never eat there... and boy did I regret it.... Right after eating breakfast I attempted to workout- made it about half way through then spent the rest of my workout time in the bathroom. Later that night I went to work, made it through half my shift and then spent about a half hour thro... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 01:00:51 EST Upset Tummy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716783 I'm really hoping that I've not got the flu. We had breakfast this morning at Ihop- we've not been there in years. Right after we ate, we went to the gym. Let's just say I spent more time in the bathroom than working out. Now my tummy is super sore. I don't think it's food poisoning, as the kids at half my plate and they are not sick. Hubby was throwing up all day Tuesday- so I really hope it's not the flu! I'm supposed to be here at work until midnight- I hope I can make it that late! <em... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 21:37:43 EST Scale Avoidance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715870 I'm avoiding the scale until I feel like I won't go into a depressed spiral when I stop onto it. When I last looked it was a 5 pound GAIN. I refused to accept that I've done that kind of damage to myself in such a short time. So I'm back on track, focusing on my water, exercising, watching my calorie intake. I'll look again on Sunday and hope that it's not as bad as a 5 pound GAIN. BOO! <em>46</em> Wed, 11 Jun 2014 15:03:08 EST