DNJEN471's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DNJEN471 DNJEN471's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Anxiety and Insomnia http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742067 So I've had anxiety for years. I've been able to manage it on my own, listening to relaxing music, talking it out, exercise, meditation- I am usually great at getting it under control. But for the last month it's been really bad. My heart will just pound and I freak out over stuff that really is not that important. Then it impacts my sleep and by the 5th day of no sleep, I knew it was beyond my control. I've now been to my doctor, who has given me a little help. I hate taking medication and d... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 11:43:53 EST Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736418 I'm feeling better! I started this day off great! Had a fabulous workout. My eating could have been better- but I did ok. Planning for a great tomorrow! Fri, 11 Jul 2014 00:48:57 EST Day 1 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734368 Yesterday was my first day "back on the wagon". If there was ever a time that I'd be called an emotional eater- it was yesterday. I did good almost all day. I drank lots of water while at work and avoided snacking. Then my boss sent me a naggy email. I tried to see the positive side of this situation... Finding it hard to do.... Decide to burn off my frustration at the gym. Then as I'm driving to the gym I get a message from the person watching our kids telling me they've 'planned a big last ... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 08:25:15 EST July http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733536 So I completely avoided the whole picture and weigh in thing on July 1st. I've been on "vacation" for the past week and I let my calorie counting be too. I've no doubt that I've likely done some damage that will take all month to correct. I imagine this is how drug addicts feel when they attempt to get back on the wagon again after a slip.... I could sit and ponder the whys. But why waste the time? Actions speak louder than words. Mini goals will be set and achieved to help me get back on tra... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 06:32:51 EST A crazy week.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720294 So Wednesday I woke up with a bloody nose. It was bleeding on and off all day long. It gave me a screaming headache- so I skipped the gym. <BR> <BR> Thursday morning we took the kids to breakfast at Ihop... I never eat there... and boy did I regret it.... Right after eating breakfast I attempted to workout- made it about half way through then spent the rest of my workout time in the bathroom. Later that night I went to work, made it through half my shift and then spent about a half hour thro... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 01:00:51 EST Upset Tummy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716783 I'm really hoping that I've not got the flu. We had breakfast this morning at Ihop- we've not been there in years. Right after we ate, we went to the gym. Let's just say I spent more time in the bathroom than working out. Now my tummy is super sore. I don't think it's food poisoning, as the kids at half my plate and they are not sick. Hubby was throwing up all day Tuesday- so I really hope it's not the flu! I'm supposed to be here at work until midnight- I hope I can make it that late! <em... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 21:37:43 EST Scale Avoidance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715870 I'm avoiding the scale until I feel like I won't go into a depressed spiral when I stop onto it. When I last looked it was a 5 pound GAIN. I refused to accept that I've done that kind of damage to myself in such a short time. So I'm back on track, focusing on my water, exercising, watching my calorie intake. I'll look again on Sunday and hope that it's not as bad as a 5 pound GAIN. BOO! <em>46</em> Wed, 11 Jun 2014 15:03:08 EST FOCUS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713964 I know my mission. To be positive. January-April were very positive months for me. I stayed focused. May got slippery. June has been a mess thus far. I apparently have lost my focus. I need to regain it immediately! <BR> <BR> Deep breaths.... <BR> <BR> Water: <BR> My water intake has been lacking. I know that this reeks havoc on my body and my focus should be to stay hydrated. I'm slowly going back to my old Starbucks ways. Not only is this horrible for my body but it's really not good on ... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 08:14:21 EST Progress pic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709935 So I can't really see that much of a difference in my progress pic from Feb to now. I know the scale has moved- and my pants feel looser.... I just don't see it that much. I can feel the difference in my ability to workout at the gym. I don't get winded taking the stairs, etc. So I know I've had progress. But in either case- here's the progress pic. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1136734127.jpg"> Tue, 3 Jun 2014 18:15:00 EST I'm glad May is over.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708336 May was by far my least productive month! I'm so glad it's over! I'm shocked to have not gained weight by the end of the month. Not much progress though to report from 5/1 to 6/1... with less than a pound lost.... I'll still post a progress pic because maybe I can see a difference not reflected on the scale? We'll see.... <BR> <BR> Overall the progress is there. I was just comparing my January stats to my stats now... <BR> I've lost 26.2 pounds, 1.9 body fat, 4.2 bmi. <BR> <BR> My goal for... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 19:59:21 EST Day 2.... of fresh start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705674 I started the day off right. I ate breakfast... logging my calories as I ate my banana and yogurt. I then headed to the gym. I really pushed myself today... my legs are a little sore. But it felt fantastic! I need to focus more on my upper body and arms. That will be my plan for tomorrow's workout. <BR> <BR> I ate pretty good today. It could have been better. I know where I made mistakes and am determined to do better tomorrow. I also need to drink a lot more water. I'm getting better. But ... Thu, 29 May 2014 01:01:21 EST TODAY IS A NEW DAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704364 TODAY IS A NEW DAY** <BR> BE THANKFUL, HAPPY IS HEALTHY <BR> SEE THE POSITIVE SIDE OF EVERY SITUATION <BR> DRINK LOTS OF WATER <BR> FOOD IS USED TO FUEL MY BODY <BR> EXERCISE, LAUGH AND PLAY <BR> **BE KIND AND SHARE POSITIVITY** <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1138976302.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I need to take this one day at a time. I'm becoming too focused on reaching one particular goal, that I'm allowing one set back to turn into two, then quickly three, then... Tue, 27 May 2014 12:32:51 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700946 So after my lovely blog yesterday and self reflection, I did feel a little better. I wasn't able to make it to the gym as planned, but I didn't let that ruin my day. I had a talk with my husband this morning about my anger, our situation and that it's important that we communicate better if we are going to make it through this hard time. This is temporary. We won't be in this position forever. I've got to always remember why we made this choice... we made it for our kids. It's amazing that he... Thu, 22 May 2014 17:52:38 EST Where am I.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699987 I need to find myself again. I don't know what happened or why I stopped being so positive. I'm finding I'm angry. That anger makes for very negative thoughts, which lead to negative actions. I don't know why I can't see the positives in each day anymore. So here I am... reflecting..... We are struggling to make ends meet. We knew that living off of a single income would be hard, but this is the tightest it has ever been. The stress level is high. I'm allowing that stress to turn to anger and... Wed, 21 May 2014 11:58:54 EST Half way point... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696037 We are already half way through May... I'm off to a rocky start. I've not done great thus far! But I am pretty determined to end the month strong. Eating seems to be my biggest hurdle at the moment. I've fallen out of the habit of tracking first, then eating. Instead I'm eating first, then dreading tracking and then realize I'm over calories and it's depressing. I'm changing this horrible pattern! Track first, then eat! All calories matter and should serve the purpose of fueling my body not f... Thu, 15 May 2014 23:51:47 EST Vacation? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694941 So apparently a vacation from work also means a vacation from sparkpeople. SHAME on me! I still went to the gym Friday. I did race for the cure on Saturday. I didn't do anything on Sunday. I went to the gym on Monday and Tuesday. So, I was active. But my eating.... oh.... my eating.... <em>475</em> <em>262</em> <em>76</em> <em>198</em> <BR> Each day I was very aware that I was doing something bad. It still didn't stop me. I still ate like crap. Why? No idea. I avoided the scale o... Wed, 14 May 2014 13:06:59 EST And the scale said.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690755 "I'm still mad at you!" Popcorn for dinner... a large, buttered, movie theater popcorn.... yep... no wonder the scale was mad at me. So the scale didn't say what I wanted.... but a loss is a loss... the end. I'm not going to get upset or mad. I'm lighter than I was at the start of the week. I'm lighter than I was when I started this journey. I'm going to keep pushing, keep moving, keep going. That's that. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1779770640.jpg"> <BR> Che... Thu, 8 May 2014 18:16:34 EST Popcorn is not dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689996 I had an excellent evening at the movie. But note to self... Popcorn is not dinner. While I managed to stay under my calorie goals, I doubt I reached my nutritional goals by having popcorn for dinner. I didn't bother looking at what my fat ended up being for the day. Ah well... it's fine. I had a great night at the movies. We watched "The Other Woman". Very funny! I enjoy Leslie Mann. She cracks me up. <BR> <BR> Off to the gym I go. My weigh official weigh in (where I change my weight on al... Wed, 7 May 2014 18:23:26 EST My two hobbies... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5688868 I'm a busy girl... I work 45-50 hr weeks, I workout 1-2 hours per day and I have two kids. So it's not often that I get to take a break and/or have time to. But for my own happiness I make the time to have fun and enjoy my hobbies. I like reading books. I am a member of a fabulous book club that meets once every 6 weeks to relax, drink wine and chat about life and a little about the book we read together. It's fun and not too overwhelming because it's spaced out far enough that I can get it r... Tue, 6 May 2014 10:57:22 EST Reflection on my journey thus far... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687925 I started this journey the first time around with a goal to get healthy for my future children. I was motivated and successful. I made great friends on this amazing website. I got many compliments as people noticed my success. 50 pounds were lost. It was amazing. Then life really happened. It's a funny thing... you can feel like you've accomplished so much... then you have kids. At a certain point, you give up control to these little wonders who take up so much of your attention and time and ... Mon, 5 May 2014 10:34:36 EST Sundays = no activity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687467 Seriously... Sundays are my least productive days (exercise wise). I will forever complain about them... bright side, it's a great day for work, catch up, etc. It's fine.... I'll keep moving! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1141833390.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Cheers to a great MAY!! <em>194</em> <BR> May 1: 258.2 <BR> May 2: 259.9 <BR> May 3 257.7 <BR> May 4: 257.9 <BR> May 5: <BR> May 6: <BR> May 7: <BR> <em>193</em> GOAL: 257.2 <BR> May 8: <BR> May 9: <BR> May ... Sun, 4 May 2014 20:36:44 EST Book Club Night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686456 I meet with a book club once every 6 weeks. It's my time to relax and kick back, drink wine and chat with friends. It's not the best day calorie wise. I'll have to be careful today so that tonight isn't that bad. I'm not sure if I'll get the chance to hit the gym either, so I'll have to be creative today. I'm lucky that there is a park right behind our apartment, with a side walk that walks around it and is still close enough to the equipment. So I guess that will be my cardio today. You do w... Sat, 3 May 2014 12:17:47 EST Knee feels better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685994 Today was the first day I really feel like I got a good burn in a long time. I got on the elliptical and really pushed. I was hesitant, because of my knee, but everything was fine and it felt fantastic. Hopefully it was just a one time fluke kinda thing.... So excited to have tomorrow off. The weather has been amazingly awesome. I also have book club tomorrow night and I've not even started the book... maybe I can read it in one day?.... doubtful... <BR> <BR> Cheers to a great MAY!! <em>19... Fri, 2 May 2014 19:38:48 EST It's time to CELEBRATE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685119 Today is celebration day. <em>236</em> I've set goals and accomplished goals- therefore I'm celebrating! <em>321</em> I've lost over 25 pounds and am feeling fantastic! <em>9</em> While I've not reached my finish line yet, I can personally tell a difference in the way I feel and look. Especially in my face. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1745687954.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My progress: <BR> From 1/10/2014 to 5/1/2014 <BR> I've lost 25.3 pounds! <BR> My body fat is d... Thu, 1 May 2014 16:29:10 EST April 30th Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684762 I'm proud that I weighed in every morning in April. After this little experiment, I know now, that I'm a different person this time around than I was the first time around. I'm not haunted by the scale. I don't get completely depressed or freak out if it's up a pound from one day to the next. I have a better appreciation of my body and what it can do. Perhaps it's because I've given birth to kids? Or maybe that I'm older? Who knows. It feels good to know that it's not a problem for me anymore... Thu, 1 May 2014 10:01:07 EST 25lbs GONE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683120 2 weeks ahead of my personal goal!!! I had set out to lose 25lbs by my birthday (5/13) and here I am!! It's amazing what one can accomplish with a little determination and positivity!! I'm so glad that I'm on this journey to change my life and be healthy! I'm so proud that my son knows what exercise is and knows that "going to the gym" is a completely normal thing for his mom to do! YAY!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l200384859.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ready, set, GO!... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 11:35:21 EST Determined! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682464 So the knee injury set me back in terms of my consistency. One week gym free set me on a slippery slope. I'm determined not to let it derail me completely! I packed my gym clothes and plan on hitting it on my way home from work! Slow and steady, so that I don't injur myself again. <BR> <BR> I set a personal goal for myself to lose 25lbs by my birthday (5/13). I'm determined to reach that goal!! Then my next personal goal will be another 25lbs by New Years... I can do it!! <BR> <BR> <img s... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 13:47:04 EST Knee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679397 So I went to the dr. She checked out my knee along with many other things. The good news is that thanks to me taking several days off from the gym, there was no pain or swelling. She moved it around and it wasn't catching on anything. The only real way to see is to go get an MRI. She's not making me do that unless this happens again. So, fingers crossed it won't. She's letting me start back at the gym slowly with the bike and light walking. "Take it slow!" was her mantra. So I went last night... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 11:00:42 EST Knee Injury http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674754 So I'm not sure how bad of an injury I have. But I know I did something.... I was on the elliptical doing my normal routine when I felt a pop in my right knee. It was not painful or anything... But still I got off and flexed, stretched, moved around, it didn't hurt at all. So thinking it's just like when you wake up and your joints pop from time to time, I finished my workout. That was at 10am this morning. By the time I got to work at 2pm it was feeling stiff and starting to swell. Fast for... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 00:27:29 EST Running... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673774 Yesterday was a busy work day. We were hosting VP's from our corporate office. So we had a catered lunch and went out for a fancy dinner. Not the best day calorie wise. I had known the day would be packed with food, etc. So I was sure to pack my gym clothes. After I left the restaurant, I was thinking to myself- "I am so tired" and "would it be that bad if I skipped". Then I thought through all I ate throughout the day and realized it's not something that should be skipped... and although I w... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 18:10:43 EST I'm okay.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672804 So after my binge and TOM hitting and the weigh in yesterday, I'm feeling better this morning. My first week of this challenge (of weighing daily) was so great, that it made my second week disappointing. Every day is different. Every week is different. I had made the mistake of readjusting my goals and I was so disappointed about not hitting my "new" goal, that I didn't even pay attention to the fact that I had beat my origional goal by 2lbs! Why were my origional goals not good enough? Why d... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 12:18:31 EST Really? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671937 So, I was bad last night. I went over my calories and overate. I didn't understand why until I got up this morning! Stupid TOM! Makes me crave salty fatty crap that my body doesn't need and makes the scale move in the wrong direction. I've got an IUD,so I never really know if/when it's going to hit. Grrrrrr..... I'm going to kick butt at the gym today to make up for my night of terror! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1913909898.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ready, set, GO! ... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 10:51:03 EST Another Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671329 And here I find myself again.... a Sunday... busy work day- little physcial activity. Guess it's okay to have one day of rest. I'm only at 4K steps and it's already 3:30pm. It's too cold to walk outside today and my gym will be closed by the time I leave work. Typical Sunday. At least I should be getting off a little early and can go home and spend time with the kiddos... and the scale was down this morning! It's always good to see the positives! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpe... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 17:35:03 EST Family Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670830 I got a really good workout at the gym this morning... accomplishing all my 10K steps as I was walking out the door. After that, we went as a family to an amusement park. The kids had fun and I got another 6K steps in. Great day! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l463348046.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ready, set, GO! <em>521</em> <BR> <em>193</em> <BR> April 1st: 264.7 <BR> April 2nd: 264.1 <BR> April 3rd: 264.6 <BR> April 4th: 262 <BR> April 5th: 261.4 <BR> April 6t... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 23:43:12 EST Zumba! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670177 So, I tried Zumba for the first time today... wow... did I feel uncoordinated. I wanted to try it, as everyone says they get a great burn doing it... they were right. I went to the Zumba light class and I was the youngest one there. Those old ladies (and one gent) kicked my butt. It was fun. I will be going again. I'll stick with the light until I get the hang of it. I hope that I'll feel less awkward the more I do it. <BR> <BR> I binged last night on cream cheese and bagel chips. Not my pro... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 23:53:16 EST Allergies perhaps? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668905 I find it hard to believe that I could be sick again. My nose is stuffed and my sinuses have some pressure. I've never had allergies before, but I hear you can suddenly get them as you get older. I'm going to try to take an over the counter allergy medication and see how I feel. My throat doesn't hurt. It's all sinuses. Given that the weather is warming up and everything is in bloom, I'm guessing that's my problem. <BR> <BR> I work late tonight, as I do every Thursday, so I'm getting as much... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 10:05:17 EST Just another day in paradise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668280 At least I wish I was in paradise. I'm feeling like I need a vacation. Not from my routine. I'm loving that I'm on a losing streak and I find myself actually looking forward to the gym each day. I mean a vacation from work. Or at least I'm finding that I need something to look forward to and/or count down towards. When we made the decision that Jeff would stay home with the kids and we'd sell our house, we knew that month to month bills would be tight... and they are. We do live pay check to ... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 13:26:00 EST 4.2 pounds gone!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667535 My official weigh in was this morning. I lost 4.2 pounds this week! I'm definitely going to keep up with this daily weighing thing! YAY!! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2031151492.jpg"> <BR> Ready, set, GO! <em>521</em> <BR> <em>193</em> <BR> April 1st: 264.7 <BR> April 2nd: 264.1 <BR> April 3rd: 264.6 <BR> April 4th: 262 <BR> April 5th: 261.4 <BR> April 6th: 261.2 <BR> April 7th: 260.3 <BR> <em>193</em> Goal: 263.7 YAY! Goal Met! <BR> April 8th: 260.5 <... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 16:19:07 EST Sundays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666383 I've mentioned this sooo many times, but here I am again. Sundays are the hardest days for me. My gym is only open 10-5 on Sundays and I usually work 9-6. It's by far always my least productive day workout wise. But without fail, it always ends up being my busiest day work wise, as it's the prep day for my entire week and I have lots of reports to run, etc. I walked for my full lunch break yesterday and only managed about 5K steps for the entire day. I didn't eat all of my calories, I was abo... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 10:22:46 EST Cheesecake... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665751 So yesterday I did pretty good. I avoided nachos and cake at the birthday party. Then I got to book club. I had one small glass of white wine. Then........ I had cheesecake. Lovely. Velvety. Goodness. I. Love. Cheesecake. It put me over my calories, I knew as I was eating it and was thinking to myself "this is totally putting me over my calories for the day". Did I stop eating it? Nope. I ate it. I loved it. It was good. In the moment, that's all that mattered. It tasted good. So, I woke up t... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 14:22:30 EST Bread! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664996 I went bread crazy yesterday. I don't eat bread often. So, after getting some bagels for a gathering yesterday, I ate 3 plus cream cheese. I seriously bread binged. It was my dinner. I was still within my calories, as I had a really good burn in the morning at the gym. But still, I was worried to step on the scale this morning. But I was happy to see that the scale went down and not up. I've seem to have found my stride lately. I'm sure it's because of the extra effort I'm putting in at the g... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 11:46:03 EST Hubby is working it too! Yay! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664247 Yesterday was a productive day for me. I got my workout in early and pushed myself enough to really feel like I accomplished a great burn. I chose good foods and stayed under my calorie goal. I drank all of my water (forgot about my green tea though). I overachieved on my step goal ending at over 13K. I was pleased with my number on the scale this morning. My positivity quote pic of today seemed fitting: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1417081505.jpg"> <BR> Ready, set... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 11:19:52 EST Still trucking along! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663394 I'm starting to feel better. So I'm going to skip the doctor unless I start to feel worse. I hate being sick. But I can still workout and don't feel like I'm going to pass out or anything- so I think I'm fine. I completed my full workout yesterday, accomplishing all my steps. I was under my calorie goal, but did not have the best dinner possible. I need to make better choices, just because I'm under my calorie goal does not mean I had good food. I'm also trying to focus more on my water intak... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 10:58:30 EST Still sick, kinked neck... but still moving! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662479 So, I didn't make it to the doctor yesterday. I slept away the day. I do feel a little better today. I have a horrible kink in my neck though. It made it very hard to check my blind spots as I drove to work this morning. I need to find a primary care doctor who can see me when I get sick with things like this. Right now my primary care doctor is still listed as my OBGYN, and unless you're pregnant he's hard to get in to see. So, I'm going to start my search and see who I can get in to see- ca... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 09:56:33 EST My daily challenge... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661488 So here we are... April 1st... my first day of my new challenge to weigh daily. It's more of an experiment for myself more than anything... I've struggled with the ability to weigh myself daily in the past... so I'm doing a little test to see how I'll do this time around. Obviously, I'll be cognisant of my outlook and if I find it's depressing me, I'll stop. My hope and plan is that it will be a motivator and not a de-motivator for me. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 08:18:53 EST Confession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660733 I've been weighing daily... I told myself this time around I would not obsess over the scale. I had a really hard time with it when I lost 50lbs before kids... So this time around I told myself I would focus on more than the scale. So far I've done that. I measure my progress at the gym, how long I can go without stopping or how high resistance I can take. I measure my steps daily shooting for over 10k each day. I look in the mirror each morning for progress and give myself a mental high five... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 10:29:20 EST Consistency http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656777 I'm enjoying my consistency and finding my stops at the gym are no longer something that I have to push myself to go do... It's more like a daily routine, like showering, brushing my teeth, going to the gym... It's natural. I didn't think I'd ever get to this point. I'm glad I'm here though! <BR> <BR> I'm starting to slip on my food choices though. While I always manage to stay under my calories each day, the foods I'm filling those calories with could be healthier... I didn't have to have p... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 07:54:30 EST Birthday Cake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654983 I had to work today and we had planned a dinner party for my moms birthday. Sundays are already my least productive day of the week... Today, although busy, was not a great "health" day. I didn't get all my steps in, went way over my calories and yes... I ate cake. <BR> <BR> My kids had a fabulous time playing with their cousins and I had a fabulous time visiting with my family. It was a fun evening... But I'll definitely be working it off the rest of this week! Sun, 23 Mar 2014 23:57:52 EST Blogging each day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654288 Seems to be my hardest goal to achieve... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 00:55:33 EST Frustrating!!! Productivity... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652385 So I had yesterday off, stayed home with the kids, cleaned a lot. I had a total of 7000 steps and was really excited to go to the gym... But hubby had a lot of things he had to do. I let him know I was frustrated and really wanted to go and he made some comment about him preferring I didn't go to the gym on my days off work... Really?! I get my very best burn on the days I don't work. So I didn't end up getting to the gym yesterday... Whatever... <BR> <BR> I got up this morning at 5:00am, kn... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 11:57:42 EST