DIVEBUNNY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DIVEBUNNY DIVEBUNNY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ No Excuses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203513 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1678022037.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've been out of work for about a month because of my amputation. I had been wanting to start Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 program but I knew that my 8lb weights would be too heavy for my healing hand. I didn't have the money to buy new weights so I raided my kitchen and came up with these alternatives. The soup cans aren't as heavy as I would like but I figure they are keeping me from pushing myself too hard. On... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 11:34:24 EST Amputating My Unhealthy Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199072 2012 was unequivocally the worst year of my life. While dealing with my tumor removal from December 2011, I lost my job in January. In May, I dropped out of college right before finals, resulting in the failure of all of my classes. At the end of May, my depression hit an all-time low and I attempted to take my own life, resulting in a 10 day stint in the mental hospital, where I was diagnosed as bi-polar. Enter anti-depressants and anti-psychotics, which make you gain weight. In October, I w... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 16:02:14 EST Coming Back is Tough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4963046 I feel like a failure. <BR> <BR> I know it sounds harsh but it's the truth. I lost 20 pounds three years ago and managed to keep it off for a couple of years, but here I am -- 20 pounds heavier than I was in November. <BR> <BR> Granted, I had surgery and was immobile for 10 weeks. Granted, I've been diagnosed with mental illness and psychiatric drugs really screw with your metabolism. <BR> <BR> But still, I feel like a failure. <BR> <BR> I'm going to try to put that behind me and get moti... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 22:31:08 EST P90X Lean: Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2595647 Four days after I took my P90X 30 day progress pics, I separated my shoulder while roughhousing on the beach. For a week, I was in a sling and for two more weeks I couldn't move my arm without extreme pain. I've been able to take my shirt off unassisted for a little over a week now so I decided that today would be my starting off day for working out again. <BR> <BR> I've gained back 4 pounds and all the inches I lost in the first round. it's a little discouraging but I know that P90X work... Sun, 29 Nov 2009 13:42:04 EST P90X Day 30: Progress Pic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2514414 Yesterday was Day 30 and after doing doubles of Chest, Shoulders, Triceps plus Plyo to catch up from Monday, I took my progress pic. <BR> <BR> Here is my before: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/2/b628056862.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here is 30 Days: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/9/5/b952999359.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The difference is small, but it's there! I'm stoked to be starting Phase 2 and am still loving P90X as much as I did the first day! Wed, 28 Oct 2009 08:07:50 EST P90X - Day 23 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2494143 Oh, recovery week! How I do love thee! :) <BR> <BR> I was supposed to start my recovery week yesterday but my energy level was just NOT there the day after my birthday. I took the day to rest and will work through Sunday this week. I really have to work up the motivation for Yoga X, not because I don't like Yoga but because getting an hour and a half to myself so I can concentrate is tough to do! The kittens want attention, the boyfriend wants attention (especially since he is doing the... Tue, 20 Oct 2009 14:19:38 EST P90X DAY 8: Week 2 Here We Go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2456601 Things got a little messed up over the weekend, so I had Kenpo X on Sunday and then I went right into Week 2 with Chest and Back. I'm blaming the Boy on this one because I waited for him to get back from Nassau to do Kenpo on Saturday and as soon as he got home, he said, "We're going out for pizza and beer! We'll work out tomorrow." He knows we're supposed to get a free day a week so pizza and beer it was. <BR> <BR> Fast forward to Sunday morning - I wake up buck naked on the couch, the d... Tue, 6 Oct 2009 10:15:06 EST Cowardly Lion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2449436 I'll admit it. I'm a coward. <BR> <BR> I have these before pictures that I took on Monday when I started P90X but I don't want to post them because I look fat. Now I look around SP and I see people posting their before pics, men and women who have a lot farther to go that 15 pounds and I am astounded to see them putting themselves out there like that. I envy them. <BR> <BR> It made me start thinking about my entire weight loss journey. How much of my fat is a cushion between me and the ... Sat, 3 Oct 2009 16:38:32 EST I Want It Back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2152942 I realized that I hadn't been maintaining my perfect Spark posture for a while now and thought I was doing a good job at least maintaining my weight. I got on the scale this morning and realized that I had gained 7 of my hard fought pounds back. <BR> <BR> Those pounds were MINE. I fought for them, sweated for them and I want them back. <BR> <BR> So as tempting as taking a nap on the beach is going to be this afternoon, I am going to be taking a run instead. No more beers during the week ... Mon, 15 Jun 2009 15:19:40 EST Slacker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1828291 Oooh, I have been a slacker on my blog! Bad Mandy. <BR> <BR> To be honest, I have an excuse. We had a full house here at the resort and I barely had time to log on and log my food and exercise, much less blog and participate in forums. I have missed my Spark! <BR> <BR> We had a TV show here filming underwater so I have been acting as a safety diver. I didn't realize when I started the safety diver gig that I had a sinus infection and an ear infection so after a couple of days of excruci... Wed, 25 Feb 2009 09:23:00 EST Plateau! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1779944 Crap. <BR> <BR> So I've definitely hit a plateau. This is the second week in a row that I have had little to no weight loss, even though I am sticking within my nutrition and fitness plan. Hell, I've even stepped up the fitness plan bu doing level three of the 30Day Shred. <BR> <BR> I've done some research on SP and apparently I may have been doing more harm than good. I do the same workout every day, so I am not resting my muscles like I should. I didn't adjust the calories on my fitne... Sun, 8 Feb 2009 09:08:40 EST Gooooooooooooooooooooal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1769165 So the size nine pants fit and my scale read 165.6 this morning. Getting to 165 was my first mini goal because that was the weight that I was when Loren and I met. I'm pretty stoked this morning. My weight loss has definitely slowed down and I am upping cardio this week to make sure that I am not plateauing. <BR> <BR> This is where the going gets tricky. I haven't been less than 165 in 8 years. I have this image of myself in my mind, the body that I am used to having and that body that ... Wed, 4 Feb 2009 10:36:19 EST Sizing It Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1749050 First off, thank you to everyone who has been supporting my blog. I appreciate all the love and support. I wish I could get to everyone individually to say thanks but my computer time has been short as of late! <BR> <BR> Loren bought me two pairs of jeans when he went home and he did as I requested and brought me jeans that are a size 9, which is a size smaller than I am wearing now. Hell, when I started SP I was TIGHT in an 11. I have definitely noticed my pants getting looser so today ... Wed, 28 Jan 2009 20:05:11 EST LOVE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1745929 My honey is home! I am sooooo happy! He brought his gorgeous and sexy self, a new camera for me and appreciation for my changing body! I am only 3 pounds or so away from where I was when we met. I am going to blow him away when I get to 15 pounds lighter than I was when we met! He is being very loving and supportive. He tells me that he is proud of me all the time. I am a lucky, lucky girl. <BR> <BR> I have been fooling around with my camera so I'll have new pictures up tomorrow somet... Tue, 27 Jan 2009 21:48:48 EST *yawn* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1737769 I'm tired today. I have been getting my eight hours of sleep in but I don't think the sleep is good sleep since I have a hard time sleeping without my love by my side. My dogs have been sweethearts, cuddling up on the bed with me. Rex was even my alarm clock this morning. He woke me up at 6:45, I patted him (dog snooze button!) and he left me alone for 15 more minutes and nosed me awake again at 7. I have the smartest dog ever (or he just needed to pee. Whatever.) <BR> <BR> Sunday is m... Sun, 25 Jan 2009 16:09:34 EST Busy Bee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1735637 I have been SO busy today! I snuck out after dinner to jot this blog down... <BR> <BR> I had a student (a nervouse one at that) to teach this morning and I had to take the divers out this afternoon, then I had cocktail hour and dinner and I am closing tonight. <BR> <BR> But you know what? I found time to exercise. I treaded water and swam with my student during her swim test. I could have stayed dry (and warm) but I saw it as an opportunity to get 15 minutes of cardio in. Then when I g... Sat, 24 Jan 2009 20:43:05 EST You're Smart, That's Sexy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1732252 I have started spending some of my time during the day earning my Spark Points. I love watching my trophy change! Besides getting my virtual rewards, I have noticed something else happening. I am getting educated about healthy things! <BR> <BR> I love reading all the Spark Articles that bust myths, motivate me, and teach me how to respect my body. <BR> <BR> So stop reading this and go read some Spark articles! Fri, 23 Jan 2009 16:10:30 EST Absence Doesn't Make The Heart Grow Fonder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1728967 I know the saying is that absence makes the heart grow fonder. I know this is true in most respects, especially now since my boyfriend went home for a week and I am all alone. Well, as alone as you can be in a resort full of people. I have the house to myself, which sometimes is a nice thing but I am afraid of the dark and I hate sleeping alone. <BR> <BR> I will tell you that I am NOT missing the absence of 10 plus pounds. I still don't SEE the loss, except on the scale but I think that ... Thu, 22 Jan 2009 16:19:47 EST Life is Short, Play Naked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1724046 Okay, so not naked. At least not all the time. :) <BR> <BR> Something happened yesterday that made me appreciate the sanctity of life (no one died!). You never know when your number is up or even when something catastrophic could happen that would take away your sight, your legs, your peace of mind. <BR> <BR> How many of us out there say "I'll do it tomorrow?" You'll start watching what you eat tomorrow, you'll start your workout routine tomorrow, you'll call your mom tomorrow, so on an... Wed, 21 Jan 2009 11:36:39 EST Guilty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1720822 So I've lost 10 pounds. Going by when I started eating a bit healthier, that's 10 pounds in 18 days. Going by when I started Sparkpeople, that's 10 pounds in two weeks. Neither date puts me in the "losing weight in a healthy manner" category that is recommended by all the experts. I have examined what I am doing, which is following my nutrition plan (and I am not hungry during the day, not really) and following my exercise plan (not obssessing anymore and really just diving and doing some... Tue, 20 Jan 2009 14:52:13 EST Free As A Bird http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1714141 So today was my free day, food wise. It was supposed to be exercise wise but I had to dive twice today, which burned close to a 1000 calories. That doesn't really FEEL like exercise to me anyway, so it's not a big deal. <BR> <BR> I feel so full and bloated right now. I allow myself to drink alcohol on my free days but when I got to the bar at cocktail hour (did I mention that drinking and eating with the guests is part of my job description?), I found myself ordering my usual virgin Blood... Sun, 18 Jan 2009 21:28:47 EST I Feel Good, I Knew That I Would http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1709846 I have energy. My skin looks great. I am starting to see a difference in my body after only two weeks. My sex life has improved. I know that I am healthy. I know that satisfaction is only a couple of months away. LIFE IS GOOD. <BR> <BR> I just want to say that I LOVE SPARKPEOPLE! Woot! Sat, 17 Jan 2009 12:50:37 EST Hungry Like a Wolf http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1706615 I am hungry. Literally and emotionally. The literal I will take care of in a bit but the emotional is the rough journey ahead of me. <BR> <BR> I am learning how to accept and like myself. Let me tell you, I didn't expect my new diet program to inspire this kind of self examination but every day when I sit down to write, I find myself confronting my fears and my insecurities. <BR> <BR> I am the youngest of six and that position in life has made me very competitive. In my house, if you di... Fri, 16 Jan 2009 12:46:40 EST Oh Look, A Chicken! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1702198 There's a shirt that I have that says "People tell me that I have ADD but I don't know what they are...Oh LOOK! A Chicken!" It cracks me up, mostly because I have ADD. <BR> <BR> I didn't get diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder until I was 24. I was always a smart kid but I was the one who "never worked up to her potential." I was a straight A student through the 10th grade, then once I actually had to apply myself, I started failing classes. <BR> <BR> I am the youngest of six an... Thu, 15 Jan 2009 10:43:22 EST Frustration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1698796 I don't have any energy in me today to be inspirational. I am PMS-ing, emotional, tired and frustrated. I was woken up on my day off today by a Skil Saw right outside my window since I live right next door to the maintenance building at the resort. My boyfriend accidentally locked me in the house and I don't have drinking water in our cabin, so I am behind on my water for the day. I found out last night that one of my favorite dishes here is made with heavy cream and is WAY not good for m... Wed, 14 Jan 2009 13:23:49 EST Change YOU Can Believe In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1694794 First, my apologies to President Elect Obama for jacking his slogan! <BR> <BR> I see from reading the message boards and from browsing Spark Pages that many people out there are doing another round of weight loss roulette. They start a routine, get motivated for a little bit and then fizzle out. When I worked at a gym, the first two weeks of the New Year were chaos but the staff knew that we just had to hang in there for a bit and before February rolled around, we would be back to normal. ... Tue, 13 Jan 2009 14:06:15 EST Family Matters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1689355 My father is 6'3", with dark brown hair and blue eyes. So it's no surprise that I am 5'10 with dark brown hair (bleached out now from the sun) and blue eyes. My mother and I share the same mole on our jawline. <BR> <BR> We inherit a lot of things from our families, more than eye color, height, and beauty marks. We inherit metabolism, stature and most importantly, attitudes on health and fitness. <BR> <BR> My parents did a great job as far as providing a well balanced dinner every night. ... Mon, 12 Jan 2009 11:19:01 EST Attraction Factor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1685213 It's a well known fact that once you get settled into a relationship, your fitness can suffer. I know that it happens to me and I know that my boyfriend of 2 and 1/2 years had pecs and washboard abs when I met him. I wasn't eating a lot when I met him because I forget to eat when I am by myself and he was working out 2 hours a day because he didn't have anyone to come home to. We got together and he made me eat three times a day with him, all that good boy food like steak and potatoes and ... Sun, 11 Jan 2009 11:28:46 EST Obssession: Not just for Calvin Klein http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1681758 This isn't my first go round on the weight loss train. I was a skinny girl in high school, tall and gangly but not fit. I had nice legs from dance class but no muscle tone anywhere else. After high school and the end of forced exercise in PE class, I started to gain weight. By the time I was 21, I was 180 pounds. On a five foot ten frame, that's not really bad but it definitely wasn't healthy. <BR> <BR> I was already into to martial arts at this point (which proves that diet has way mor... Sat, 10 Jan 2009 11:49:41 EST Mirror Mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1678327 Whenever I start a workout program, I spend hours (not really but it seems like it) in front of the mirror, examining every inch of my body like I will be able to see my ideal body shape after just four or five workouts. I mean, I should be seeing difference after all the hard work I have been putting in, right? <BR> <BR> On other occasions, it is this lack of SEEING results that has led to my disenchantment with the whole weight loss program. If I can't see the results, why am I denying m... Fri, 9 Jan 2009 12:52:44 EST Help Mommy! The dessert monster is after me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1675510 I love my job. I get to work on a tropical island in the warm sun every day, doing something that I love. Room and board is included as part of my salary package and someone else does all the cooking and all the dishes. It's definitely paradise. <BR> <BR> Part of the resort's meal plan is dessert TWICE a day. Twice a day, I have to stare down gooey cakes, delicious pies and to die for cheesecakes. I look at my Nutrition plan and see that I have the calorie allowance for one little piece... Thu, 8 Jan 2009 20:08:16 EST Our Greatest Fear http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1667739 Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. <BR> <BR> Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. <BR> <BR> It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. <BR> <BR> We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, <BR> talented and fabulous? <BR> <BR> Actually, who are you not to be? <BR> <BR> You are a child of God. <BR> <BR> Your playing small does not serve the world. <BR> <BR> There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other <BR> <BR> peopl... Wed, 7 Jan 2009 09:05:50 EST Well, Here Goes Nothing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1663387 I am not making resolutions this year. I'm not, really. Every time I make a resolution, I break it. So I am not making one this year. I just happened to stumble upon Spark and I am going to follow some basic tenets of healthy living and the size 7 pants will come. <BR> <BR> I guess I would have stumbled here earlier this week if I hadn't been down with a cold. There is something markedly unfair about getting a cold when you live on a tropical island in the Bahamas. It was perfect and s... Tue, 6 Jan 2009 12:05:09 EST