DISNEYDAMSEL1's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DISNEYDAMSEL1 DISNEYDAMSEL1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Getting it all out there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816825 This blog shall be long ... you've been warned <BR> <BR> I feel like right now I'm not sure where to begin, so I'm just going to type until I feel better. Since my last blog, I've had some crazy times. I took a week off of work for a real vacation. We spent a few days at the ocean and I spent a few days at home. It made me feel better in general and I was quite content. I went to work for a couple of days, flew to TX to visit my grandparents. Grandpa is 89 and was just put in a nursing home.... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 15:39:05 EST Just call me a super Ball http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764762 Just call me a Super Ball because I'm bouncing back with a mighty force! <BR> <BR> Okay so if you follow my blogs, you'll know I've had some stuff going on. I went on travel for work, my dad came, my birthday came, and there's more but those are some highlights. So what happened to me. I tried to stay focused and for awhile I did, but I just kept inching my way out of focus until I got so blurry I didn't know what was happening. Well when I finally had the nerve to jump back on the scale, I... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 08:19:26 EST I won't let situations get the best of me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740723 I have learned that I let my situations dictate much of my life versus myself controlling what I can control. It's been a learning experience this summer. I mentioned it in a status that I was learning something awhile back and that is what I am learning. I'm learning that I let situations boss me around. Now I'm not so naive that I think I can control every situation and take everyday by the horns and completely change it's outcome, but I do let myself feel almost like a victim of circumstan... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 11:00:30 EST Summer Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734642 SO I went on my first work trip and came home. I feel like the two weeks away, while enjoyable and fun I haven't quite returned to my stride yet. I did better. I simplified. I made a double batch of sloppy Joe when I got home because I knew meal planning wouldn't get done due to unpacking, laundry, the holiday, and now the trip to WV this weekend for his family reunion. So I've been eating a lot of sloppy Joe. I made it with 96% lean beef and extra veggies and I've been living off of that for... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 14:30:04 EST First Work Trip http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724233 I was sent on my first work trip. I have to say, I like traveling on company money. I'm racking up hotel points and airline miles, but man I've been here an official 8 days now. I'm drinking water like a crazy person staying hydrated in Florida and I've been trying to eat healthy, but this eating out all of the time is getting to me. In attempts to counteract this I've been hitting the pool and the fitness room. I find it is a delicate balance. I originally planned on working all day and work... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 15:15:44 EST sustaining isn't losing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706109 so I've been doing great at breaking even. I'm still struggling with my weekends and my meal planning. I had a mini case of the blues that didn't help. <BR> <BR> so now I'm focusing on not giving up. I ordered my indoor bike trainer so now I can cycle indoors. I think I was getting a bit bored with my health walker so it will be nice to have something else to mix into the rotation. <BR> <BR> I got two of my small credit cards paid off and I'm chipping away at the others. <BR> <BR> I gai... Thu, 29 May 2014 14:17:10 EST How about a blog? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690607 I just felt like blogging. <BR> <BR> My negative self talk is greatly improving, I won't share how much money is in my insult jar, but it is helping me be aware of how quick to put myself down I was getting or had gotten, but again it's getting better so Hooray. <BR> <BR> I think I'm slowly getting to a better place in my life in general. Yeah I've had some ups and downs. The loss of my friend is still there, but I'm coping. Overall I think things are improving. I knew I was getting stress... Thu, 8 May 2014 13:52:51 EST Listening is important http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685139 So last night, I tried to push through the blahs and exhaustion to work out. I really did. I had the yoga pants on. I had the tennis shoes tied. I'd even given myself a pep talk for the drive home thru the pouring rain and flash flooding. (It took almost 40 minutes to do my usual 15 minute commute). I was cold, wet, and tired, but I hopped on my health walker ready to work out and feel better. I still felt awful. Normally once I get changed and into my workout gear and hop on the machine, I c... Thu, 1 May 2014 16:57:45 EST Need to dig in my heels http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684195 I feel a backslide starting, so I need to dig in and resist the urge to take a break. <BR> <BR> This week has been really rough at the office. Fighting, drama, flooding, leaks, and you name we've had it this week and it is only Wednesday! I'm emotionally worn out. Monday I usually workout cause I'm home that day, but this week I had to work and it was the only other night my BF and I are home together this week, so I thought no worries, I'll bump it to Tuesday. Well Tuesday was cold rainy, I... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 16:49:16 EST Keep Moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682248 So there was a memorial service for my friend on Saturday. I got through it. <BR> <BR> I am slowly bouncing back from the loss. There were some days in there I did some emotional eating and I'll admit it and I'm okay with it. I think emotional eating over serious losses is justified. I need to break the habit of emotional eating out of stress and boredom, which I've made great strides in that area, however I think certain circumstances it's acceptable. Saturday after the service my BF and I... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 09:58:34 EST One day at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673692 With the loss of my friend and co-worker yesterday, the world kept turning, but it doesn't feel the same. <BR> <BR> CJT was a marine who was effected by the contaminated water at Camp Lejeune. He fought the cancer for a full year until it finally took him on April 15, 2014. He is survived by his wife, his 10 year old daughter, and numerous people who cared about him deeply. He was a strong, brave man who never took things too seriously. <BR> <BR> He loved mules, music, played the banjo an... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 15:25:49 EST Pray http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672666 Please pray for my friend and his family. He is losing his cancer battle. Hospice is involved. <BR> <BR> That is all I can say at the moment. We're down to hope and prayer. The doctors have said, there's nothing more they can do. <BR> <BR> ****************************************<BR>**************************************** <BR> Update: <BR> My friend lost his battle to cancer this morning. The world just lost one of the strongest and funniest people I have ever known. Tue, 15 Apr 2014 09:21:29 EST Thank You Netflix Demon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669692 So last night, I had convinced myself I was too tired to do my workout. I'm only scheduling 3 workouts a week, I'd already done 2, yes I'd told myself on Sunday that was the bonus workout that week but I still had to do my 3, as schedule on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. Yet I had convinced myself I'll just workout Friday and Saturday and it would be fine. <BR> <BR> I had decided I'd spend the night watching netflix while I printed out recipes and did some meal planning. I wasn't feeling th... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 09:32:30 EST So... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664449 My last blog got to be a little (or a lot) sad and kind of a downer. It wasn't originally meant to be, but once I started typing, I let the thoughts form and unfortunately that is where they led me. I guess overall it is evolving as a person and freeing of the mind. I'm not sure and frankly it does not truly matter. What does matter is that I am aware of the issue and I am making the needed changes to encourage that evolving to continue. <BR> <BR> In my case, I can drink the water everyday ... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 16:17:37 EST I felt like Blogging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662809 Today's a great day. The sun is literally shining and it's Wednesday. <BR> <BR> I learned a lot from my last blog. It is an interesting experience to be consciously learning something. It's like I am on a cusp of something amazing, but I am aware of it unlike most times when I realize a lesson had been absorbed only through the magical hindsight ability. I'm aware of some sort of slow metamorphosis transpiring inside of my brain and in my very soul. It's eerily cool. I'm not sure what it is... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 16:44:39 EST I must be doin' something Right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657198 This blog is being written as an attempt to stop a downward spiral of negativity that is currently whirl winding inside of me at this exact moment. <BR> <BR> As I sit on the verge of tears in my tiny cubicle I force myself to remember, that I'm being too hard on myself and am making a conscious decision to think about what I'm doing right in general. <BR> <BR> The phrase "I suck at life" is somehow playing on loop and I know that it isn't true, but for some reason it pops into my head the ... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 17:01:29 EST Eye opening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655214 Well this morning taught me a very valuable lesson. I'm an idiot, but in a good way (yes it is possible) <BR> <BR> I really had a busy weekend. A fun weekend. A great weekend. An exhausting indulgent weekend. Thursday was Ladies night at a paint your own pottery store, Friday ( i treated myself to a day off) went party shopping and then to a minor league basketball game and concert. I got to meet Chuck wicks! Then Saturday was baking and cooking for my Frozen Premiere party. I kept track of... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 09:54:49 EST Owning up and keeping On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651733 I fell off the weight loss band wagon hard this week. My biggest issues were the following: <BR> <BR> meal planning/cooking Vs. Eating out <BR> Getting my water in <BR> missed a work out <BR> <BR> Here's what I'm doing about it: <BR> 1) Tonight I'm working out <BR> 2) I'm focused on drinking the water <BR> 3) I'm going to stop beating myself up for a bad weekend. <BR> <BR> I've been under a lot of stress so I took the easy way this week/weekend. I'm not saying it's okay, but it happens in... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 16:17:40 EST This week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647042 How do I even begin to describe how I feel this week. I am not sure I can, but I will put forth the effort because perhaps it shall help me sort it out as I type. <BR> <BR> My friend was removed from the study. He was given two options, surgery or quit fighting his cancer and ride it out till the end of the path. He opted to take the surgery. His surgery went well and he's in recovery, but I'd be lying if I said the hope I've been clinging to in the most desperate of fashions, wasn't dimmed ... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 14:24:00 EST Each day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634337 With each day that passes, it brings the study that much closer. My friend with Cancer is holding on so far and for that I'm exceptionally thankful and this study is quickly becoming a desperate hope and I'm so hopeful it will save him. Thank you for the thoughts and prayers and I will continue to keep people updated. <BR> <BR> The jeans I'm wearing today and I have a long history. They were once my fat jeans, then they were my best fit jeans, then they were my tight jeans, then they were m... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 12:04:21 EST Things are always surprising. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628493 I actually gained a little back, but I've lost waistline and hip line and all of those other measurements, so I'm guessing that 1.5 pounds is a mixture of muscle and water weight that will most likely balance out next weigh in. I was upset with myself, but I kept pushing forward. <BR> <BR> Then what happens? Today someone noticed that there's a little less of me. Someone who didn't know I was trying to change my lifestyle. ( I keep my support circle quite small) I think it helps to have a fe... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 16:10:23 EST Winding down the Week: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611375 So I got a little blog happy last week and as you can read I was a busy girl with a lot of highs and lows. Overall I've been doing better. I was getting ill when I attempted to work out. My nutritionist has me eating more calories. I wasn't eating enough to burn basically and was making myself a little dizzy. I wasn't hungry before though so I thought it was fine as long as i stayed around my 1300 calories, but I was burning which made my body fall below 1200 and hence I was getting sick. We... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 16:52:38 EST Rebuilding from the Ground up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604510 So I spent last weekend really pushing myself. I got a lot of my home back in order and it majorly reduced my stress level to the point I felt balanced back out. One of the positives is the BF could tell I was much calmer and relaxed this week. So now that I'm back in balance I am in a better place as a person. <BR> <BR> This week I gave myself a nightly task and then allowed some time to unwind before I had to go to bed. It was a much better week. Originally I was going to spend this eveni... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 15:10:03 EST I'm scared, I'm afraid, I'm excited.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5603497 I'm anxious! That's the word I'm looking for I knew I'd find it eventually. <BR> <BR> I've done it. I've reached out for help. I've gotten someone to hold me accountable and I'm so excited and relieved, but I'm also very scared. I'm such a quiet private person it's intimidating. <BR> <BR> It's the accountability I've needed. It's the support I've needed, so why would/should I be nervous. Well I am and it is for a couple of reasons. <BR> 1) I'm going to have to discuss my health and weight ... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 15:01:48 EST Getting my House in order http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602295 I've been trying to get my house in order and my schedule. I was so overwhelmed by everything that needed done and working out I would end up just sitting on the couch playing video games to escape the issues, this obviously resolved NOTHING. <BR> <BR> I made a very long to do list and got a lot of things done this weekend including some fun stuff. The fitness room is set up. The tables have been unburied. The closets have been organized and the list goes on. <BR> <BR> Tonight's goal: Tidy... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 12:00:53 EST Roadblock http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596845 I'm my own road block. Did you know? I didn't either. It wasn't easy to admit. In fact, I still haven't entirely accepted it. I've blamed schedules, being tired, the holidays, cat sitting, etc. It's a lot harder to blame myself, and I don't like the word blame. I am a human trying to change and it is hard. <BR> <BR> The truth of the matter is those are excuses and frankly, not very good ones because at the root of them I had the ability to say, "No cookie I shall not be eating you today." an... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 10:25:39 EST Listen to the pants! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5558426 I'm wearing my trusty ol' black work pants. they were getting tight a month ago. Now they're a comfortable fit once more. Just when I was thinking yeah 10 pounds is great, but you can't tell on me though, my pants reminded me otherwise. It makes me feel better. It helps to see the progress and while I"m not having the best week, it's keeping me focused today to stay in my calorie range. I've returned from vacation, I've been sick all week and my boyfriend has been sick all week as well, so I ... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 13:56:48 EST Vacation Accomplished! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555967 I left for Disney World and returned at the same weight! I consider that a victory. <BR> <BR> Now I'm trying to get back on track. However, I returned Sunday and the events that followed were not the Sparkiest of moments. My boyfriend wanted a do nothing day, and I kind of took it as a day to just chill at home, so he was talking about watching football and sitting around all day I took it as let him sleep in as long as he wants, watch his favorite teams, and then we could put up the tree b... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 12:41:21 EST There's always a happy thought to think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5547738 I screwed up a little yesterday. We had a pot luck for thanksgiving. I did okay. I didn't do amazing, but I did okay. I had one piece of baklava (it was amazing and I'd always wanted to try it) I ate two chocolate cookies yesterday too, but I was careful on everything else. I had the fruit, I had half a scoop of the roasted potatoes, half a scoop of the sweet potatoes. There were 3 types of stuffing, I didn't try them all I picked one and had about 3 bites of it just to try it. <BR> <BR> I ... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 12:49:33 EST Too Late http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546306 I leave for Disney World in 2 days. My original thought when i re-started sparkpeople. I wanted to try to lose 10 pounds before Disney world. I'm down 05. I think I'll jump on the scale first thing Saturday morning before we leave. <BR> <BR> I'm doing good. I screwed up a little yesterday. I think i ate more chips than I should have at lunch. so I wasn't sure where I was at meal wise so I ate my pizza I'd planned on. I know I should have made something healthier, but to be honest I'm trying... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 17:05:12 EST I Feel More Balanced. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544428 I feel more balanced than I have in a long time. I'm doing really well, but it's not just spark that is balancing my nutrition. I am finally settling into the new house as well. I'm getting my meals planned. The laundry isn't backed up. I'm not tearing up closets trying to find things as much (there's still a few odds and ends that shuffle) <BR> <BR> I feel more relaxed. When I started logging into Spark again I decided not to weigh myself for two weeks. I weighed in yesterday and I'm down ... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 15:03:42 EST What I'm doing Right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541951 Okay so I've been in a highly reflective place the last couple of weeks. How did I lose focus? How do I get back on track? What patterns am I seeing in myself? You get the idea. <BR> <BR> So today I started thinking about what I've been doing right... <BR> I'm much better with water. I'm staying in my calorie range. I'm doing fairly well with my macro nutrients. I miss some of the others i try to track like calcium, fiber and sodium. but staying in my calories, fat, carbs, and protein I'm d... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 12:50:43 EST Closing in on two weeks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541091 So I'm coming off of my emotional set back from yesterday. I didn't sabotage myself, I did however eat more than my share of low fat crescent rolls. I know that refrigerator heat and serve stuff isn't always the best, but sometimes on weeknights I need to cheat. I had potato soup and I added a bag of frozen mixed Veggies and some fat free milk and some spices, so I felt okay with making the bread. I didn't go over my carbs, or my calories, but I didn't get my ice cream either lol. However, I ... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 12:24:18 EST I spoke too soon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540146 I learned today that I may not be able to make it home for Christmas. I have mixed feelings about this. I really like going home to see my family. My siblings and my nephew (this is his first Christmas). I like seeing my friends and my sleeping in my old bed. I adore seeing my grandparents (I still have all 4 of them and I know there's a limit to how many more Christmas seasons I get to enjoy that blessing) Yet at the same time, I know I can take a trip home a couple of weeks later or maybe g... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 12:54:08 EST I'm happy either way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539061 So I opted to not jump on the scale this week. I am focusing on what I'm doing right and I think the scale will just mess with my head a bit. Next Sunday I will be excited to jump on it, but I had gained some weight back over my lull in spark usage and I just thought, "I'm doing really well right now, focus on what I'm doing right and hit the scale next week." <BR> <BR> I'm not sure if it was the right decision to make or not, but it was the one I made and am so far quite pleased with it. <... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 09:49:58 EST Still some weekend to go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537277 First let me say I am super excited about spark again. It's been a while since I felt, well sparky. It brings an essence of balance to my days, when used of course. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started great. I got up ate a nice healthy breakfast, 1 egg, 1 slice of toast, and some blueberries. After I ate, I logged onto Sparkpeople, did 2 errands, then started on the spare room. When my boyfriend woke up, he surprised m e with movie tickets to go see the new Thor movie (awesome movie BTW I liked it... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 11:32:30 EST Two days in a row http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535588 So to recap my two action plans: <BR> 1) I've had 8 servings of water two days in a row now! Here's to a third <BR> 2) I replenished my healthy snacks in my drawers at work. They're not full, but there's variety so it should keep the vending machine at bay <BR> 3) My lunch was packed last night, which made my morning easy <BR> 4) This weekend that spare room is getting the love it needs to set up my work out room <BR> 5) I didn't log my dinner last night until this morning, but I tried a spar... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 08:38:45 EST The Truth Hurts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534851 I have been better about logging on and blogging in October, no I'm not back on the wagon and no I'm not doing as well as I once was, but I have been doing well enough to see where some of my problems lie. I took some time to be honest with myself today and it kind of hurts. Oddly enough my "thought of the day calendar states it best, "Try to fix the mistake- Never the blame." The blame lies with me and really it doesn't matter who's fault it is or what happened. Yep my family was in town une... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 11:50:33 EST Recap and Update of Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523052 First I'd like to recap my goals from yesterday <BR> 1) Do 5 small things, last night I did 4 of the 5 things. I got some bad family news last night which prevented me from completing my 5th goal. I do not feel bad for missing putting the clothes from the dryer away. Family is always first. <BR> <BR> 2) Menu planning was effective last night. My boyfriend made dinner while i got the phone calls made and took a shower. Tonight he works, and I eat leftovers. He's a vegetarian so we cook meatl... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 09:54:34 EST having a great week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522481 So obviously I'm not doing the whole completely back on track thing, but I'm getting a little better. Moving and everything I feel like I'm just getting into the swing of things with the house. We've been so busy unpacking and painting that I just can't quite find my groove, but I think I'm getting there. <BR> <BR> so to revisit my 5 goals: <BR> 1) Do 5 small things each night: I do this about 80 % of the time. It's been extremely helpful. Tonight's goals: call mom, clean off dining room tab... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 17:23:12 EST Still Chugging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496685 So I have successfully packed a lunch everyday this week. I haven't been great about getting back on track, but I'm getting there. My boyfriend and I have also made dinner or eaten leftovers every night this week. <BR> <BR> I thought I'd look back and see where I'm at according to my action plan: <BR> 1) Do 5 small things each night. Yes! I'm doing great with this and it's super helpful. Last night, I made 3 phone calls, put one small box away, and planted a couple mums <BR> <BR> 2) Back o... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 09:00:57 EST Now to make it a home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489985 Well my family has left after they drove out here to help me move! Awesome support system. Well while they were here. It was super stressful. We lived off of takeout cause things hadn't been unpacked or they were still at the apartment etc. I'm slowly getting into a new routine that involved packing my lunch eating my oatmeal going to bed on time, and I'm feeling better. <BR> <BR> The walls are painted and the the boxes are almost all unpacked. I have pictures that need to be hung and some ... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 08:58:32 EST Let's Catch Up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462743 Okay so it has been a long while since my last log in and my last blog. <BR> <BR> I shall start with the biggest piece of news. I bought a house! Well I'm buying a house. I close next week in 6 days! Super excited. So I've been spending a lot of time with lenders getting all of their paper work together, looking at paint colors, looking at curtains, looking at ikea etc. I haven't been good about sparking. I feel off the wagon on vacation did okay for awhile, then my birthday came, then they... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 07:37:15 EST Confused and Conflicted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417639 I gained some weight back; oddly enough I’m okay with it. No I’m not happy about it, but I’m not beating myself up either. It’s a strange sort of personal growth. Between house hunting, being in a class for work, and going back to Wisconsin for a week, the weight gain was partly expected and partly nowhere near as bad as it could have been if I had just returned 100% to old habits. <BR> <BR> Here’s the low down. I’ve been house hunting, so some of my meal planning time has been spent lookin... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 09:28:56 EST House Hunting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382269 So I haven't been as active in spark as usual, but I'm still getting my 5 a day in and doing what I can. I think overall things are going well. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to buy a house. It is so much to look at and think about. I wanted to stay at the bottom of the price range, but to really get what I need, I think I'm going to have to go to the middle or higher end of the price range. It's kind of frustrating, but I have a friend that wants to rent a room so if that works out the extra money I ... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 09:53:57 EST The Numbers are in!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5368195 I weigh in on Sunday mornings and the numbers are in. My measurements didn't change much, but my weight sure did! I am down to 216.3!!!!!!!!! (Insert personal Dance Party here) <BR> <BR> There are several reasons this is a huge deal for me. Okay let's face it every ounce we Spark People lose is a victory. It's the education and skills we are learning in action. It is out tedious logging, tracking, point racking, measuring, and planning paying off and that's a celebration. I also have a few ... Sun, 26 May 2013 08:04:56 EST Holiday Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366646 Work is a ghost town today. I like it, although I'm having trouble focusing. I like the relaxed atmosphere. I'm currently wearing pants that were too tight to wear a few months ago. I will be honest, they're still snug in the hips, but my shirt covers that part and I feel good wearing them because it's the effort it took to get myself back in them. <BR> <BR> As I said in my last blog I have 1.3 pounds to go before i'm back to where I lost my focus last summer/fall. I'm excited for that. <BR... Fri, 24 May 2013 11:15:43 EST Random Updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365378 Well I'm in a better place, sometimes you just have to let the blahs have their turn so you can feel happy again. Working back in the office is okay. I miss that extra 45 minutes of sleep in the morning since I'm back to driving I can't sleep through my commute and I miss saving that gas money, but I am thankful I have a job to drive to and a job that let me work from home to give me the time my body needed to heal properly. <BR> <BR> Overall I'm feeling better health wise since surgery. I'm... Thu, 23 May 2013 08:12:24 EST One Friday Later http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359752 Okay so a week has gone by since my last Friday blog. I'm back in the office, not loving it, but i'm glad to see everyone at least. They made me a cake, gave me some flowers, and some neat little welcome back stuff and i was really glad for that it made me feel special for a day. I'm having a hard time refocusing on work, but I'm hoping that gets better. I brought some work home with me to do what I was supposed to get done today so that way it is still done by Monday. Yeah it's not ideal to ... Fri, 17 May 2013 22:29:37 EST I need to figure this out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356104 Well I havce had two weeks where I have stayed the same weight. I need to increase my acitvity level. I'm struggling in that area. I have been since my surgery. <BR> <BR> My bf and I are trying to work through the communication issues we've been having. It's not easy but it'll be worth it. <BR> <BR> My car just cost me about 700 that I don't have. so that's got me a little blue. <BR> <BR> I feel a little beaten down right now and I know I'll bounce back I just need to find some motivation,... Tue, 14 May 2013 09:52:00 EST