DISCIPLINE_DOES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DISCIPLINE%5FDOES DISCIPLINE_DOES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 177 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414513 Finally got back to the gym today after about 2 weeks away. Ahhhh, it felt SOOOOO good and SOOOOO bad at the same time! :) <BR> <BR> I think the spin bike is out to get me. <BR> <BR> Have a great, healthy day, beautiful people! Mon, 8 Jul 2013 15:24:17 EST 180 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411187 I'm so sorry for being so long out of the loop, SP friends. I have been thinking about you, but I was not able (emotionally) to spend any time here, and I'm sorry for being selfish like that. I had a brief affair with facebook, but I think I'm done now. I really hope so. <BR> <BR> 180 days left in this year. Trying to re-circle the wagons and see if I can hold out. I think I can. <BR> <BR> I'm going to be in San Diego for a week this month for work, and the SP article about freeing yo... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 06:04:50 EST 205 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384258 Sigh. I don't want to blog. Partially because I'm in a crazy spot right now where I can't write normal sentences - everything must be lofty, flighty, inspiring, deep. Partially because I'm not sure what day it is. <BR> <BR> But on we must go. The crazy brain of mine can be reigned in if I work at it, and so today I'm choosing to work at it. I didn't want to get on SP, because I was lazy this weekend and felt like a weight loss failure and therefore a failure as a human being. That is... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 09:13:35 EST 207 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382629 A few days ago I posted a song that was motivating me and encouraging me, and one of you lovelies commented on how I listen for the words instead of the beat. It made me laugh. It does seem funny to rock out on the elliptical to some sappy song. :) <BR> <BR> I thought about it though. I too love a good beat, and right after that song on my playlist I have "Pump It" by the Black Eyed Peas and some others. But yes, the words motivate me more than anything. Because as V says in V for Vend... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 16:56:51 EST 209 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380374 209 days left in the year. I'm enjoying making them count. :) <BR> <BR> I'm so thankful for SP, that people come here who know the struggle and who understand that you just have to start where you're at and go at your own pace. As long as you keep moving forward, you'll get to the finish line eventually. And then you'll just keep on going. <BR> <BR> Thanks for being awesome, SP!!! :) Thu, 6 Jun 2013 13:11:33 EST 210 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5378997 Taking a break from The Plan today to get some needed stuff done. Feeling good, and have lost 5 lbs so far. I'm starting to think that I see some body changes, but you know how it is when you first start working out and after a day or two you think you look like a rockstar. ;) <BR> <BR> My friend posted this poem on fb, and I'm actually only sharing it here because I need a place where I can come back to it. And because maybe someone else out there gets it...maybe even needs it like I di... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 10:39:50 EST 211 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5378065 It feels good to be back on track again! I nearly skipped the gym this morning, because I was feeling pretty ugly. This amazing song gave me a better perspective. <link>youtu.be/7R49FHnKzo8 </link> <BR> <BR> I can't stop listening to it. It was my warm up, my cool down, and several songs in between today. And as it did yesterday, it will sing me to sleep again this evening. I'm so thankful for songs that say just what I need to hear. <BR> <BR> Have a wonderful day, Spark friends!... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 14:25:07 EST 212 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376498 A poem, and then some thoughts... <BR> <BR> A Conversation <BR> <BR> Little flower growing over there, <BR> I've watched you grow <BR> From the time the wind first did bear you <BR> As a tiny seed <BR> And dropped you without thought or care or heed. <BR> <BR> I've seen many like you come and go. <BR> You struggle a little, but once you grow <BR> Your beauty only lasts for a moment. <BR> To me your life seems vain. <BR> You wilt in summer, you mope when it rains. <BR> Your roots are shallo... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 09:25:46 EST 213 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376028 Today was a food failure. Not sure why really. Just felt the need to crawl back into my little hole and be "normal" again. Weird. It'll be fine this week when I'm back on my regular schedule. This whole off-schedule thing really screwed with my head. I hate that I am such a creature of habit in need of structure. I'm too dependent on it. But I'll keep growing. :) <BR> <BR> I'm determined not to let the day be a total waste. I got a little bit of cleaning done, and I'm going to do m... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 21:41:50 EST And then... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375058 Oh man. Today has been so upside down and sideways that I don't even really know what day it is anymore. Yesterday was crazy with the tornadoes, then told not to come in to work last night, then went in to work this afternoon to make up for last night...then came home and listened to a song posted by a friend on facebook, and that sucker ripped my heart right out. <BR> <BR> I just need a good, long cry. Really, I need a man, but I'm going to have to settle for a good long cry. <em>46</... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 22:16:57 EST 214 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5374324 I knew days like this would happen, and I figured I'd crumble a bit and quit altogether. But no. Yesterday I did pretty well until late afternoon. Had a little emotional hiccup and then couldn't sleep. Ate pizza. :( <BR> <BR> Crazy tornadoes again in evening meant still no sleep, and finally two hours before time to go to work I drifted off. When I got up, my boss called and said not to come in because there's flooding and debris everywhere. So I'm going in at noon today. <BR> <BR... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 07:39:04 EST 215 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373705 Well, kids. Let's talk a little bit today about vanity. <BR> <BR> In all seriousness, I grew up with a mom who I have seen wear makeup maybe three times in all my 34 years and a sister who caked it on like a second face. Me? I couldn't really give a rip what people look like. I'm more of a heart-looker. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, while I find heart-lookers such as myself carry their own beauty, this particular one *points at self* tends to completely neglect her appearance until she loo... Fri, 31 May 2013 13:32:08 EST 216 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372586 I feel so good today!!! <BR> <BR> Last night at work things were moving pretty slowly, so I took lunch a little early. I regretted it later in the shift, because I ended up hungry about an hour and a half before time to go. I hadn't packed anything, so I ended up at the vending machine. I got some Cheez-Its. YUM. That's the first processed food I've had in 2 days. That may not sound like much, but for me, it's kind of a miracle. <BR> <BR> Anyway, just on a whim I looked at the nutriti... Thu, 30 May 2013 13:00:56 EST 217 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371623 Killed it. The Plan is working. <BR> <BR> As I've mentioned, I seem to have had some sort of mental breakdown somewhere in the last couple months, so I'm just making things as easy as I can for myself. That is what inspired The Plan. :) <BR> <BR> The Plan is basically to have every step of my day laid out for myself so that all I have to do is step into it - kind of like laying out your next day's clothes before you go to bed. I cannot even begin to tell you how much this is helping me!... Wed, 29 May 2013 15:03:16 EST 218 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370259 So I just allowed the weekend to be all about getting stuff sorted and relaxing. Today is back on plan and feeling good. I'm chomping on a yummy green apple and then headed to the gym. work meals for the week are prepped and ready, and after the gym I'm going to catch up on my neglected friend feed. It's not that I don't love you all, I just steer clear when I'm not quite on track. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Have a great day, lovelies! I leave you with a gorgeous Langston Hughes poem that... Tue, 28 May 2013 10:47:31 EST 220 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5368666 "Precious [and not so precious] memories, how they linger.." <BR> <BR> Some of you know that I was at one time a Christian. A "Jesus is the reason I live and breathe" Christian, a missionary, etc. Well, one of my goals over this holiday weekend was to sort through some old stuff and get my apartment looking more like my home than my study crash pad. This included going through my knick knack box which has apparently been packed away far longer than I realized. I was really looking forwa... Sun, 26 May 2013 19:37:46 EST 221 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5367741 Well, today did not go so well food-wise. I won't bore you with the excuses. And I had all plans to go to the gym anyway after my great-nephew's birthday party. But then I was given a bottle of mead. And well...I love mead. <BR> <BR> But you know what? I've had half a glass, and I'm not that excited about it. I'd rather be at the gym. So I'm going to have some water, sleep a little bit, and hit the gym this evening. That mead will keep for a special occasion somewhere down the road... Sat, 25 May 2013 16:49:02 EST 221 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366797 I read on another Spark member blog that there are 220 days left in the year. When I counted them up on the calendar, I actually counted 221, so I may have an extra day in there somewhere. :) <BR> <BR> The point is, I was so encouraged by this fact. I think most of us tend to mark things in terms of beginnings and endings. So of course the end of a year is a big deal. I was just encouraged that there are so many days left until the end of this one, because it somehow seems close to done... Fri, 24 May 2013 14:31:37 EST No pain, no gain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5351087 Thanks so much to everyone for the comments and tips yesterday! I did go ahead and let my body rest that day, and it made all the difference. Last night at work I was still sore, but not so sore that I couldn't face a workout. So I think that until I get a bit stronger, I'm going to do legs on Monday, arms/abs on Tuesday, and rest on Wednesday instead of going back to legs. That gives each group two days to rest (I think I said that yesterday, sorry). <BR> <BR> Today I did legs again, ... Thu, 9 May 2013 14:38:49 EST How sore is too sore??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349981 It's been a loooooong time since I truly worked out. Usually it's 30 minutes on the elliptical and/or treadmill here and there. No strength training. Since I have no more excuses, I figured it was time to start. I made my pinterest board for the month, and one of my workouts is one of those countdown type things: <BR> <BR> 60 bridge ups <BR> 50 calf raises <BR> 40 jump squats <BR> 30 walking lunges <BR> 20 deadlifts <BR> 1 minute wall sit <BR> 30-second lunge holds <BR> <BR> I did this ... Wed, 8 May 2013 14:58:46 EST The best laid plans... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340791 What happened was this. Some genius forgot to pack my lunch for work last night, which also means that the same genius forgot to bring something for the drive home from work, which is the absolute worse time for me craving-wise. <BR> <BR> Remember that Mike's Hard Black Cherry Lemonade I mentioned yesterday? Well, I somehow got it into my head that it would be really good as a float with ice cream and Dr. Pepper. Why? I have no idea. If I believed in miracles, I might think I was preg... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 13:20:21 EST The deep breath before the plunge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339741 Because I CAN finally breathe again!!! That's right. At least for now, I am FINISHED with school and with my board certification exam. Ahhhh...this is what it's like to feel free. I'd forgotten. :) <BR> <BR> So...I did not get back to healthy eating and exercising today. Today consisted of taking care of other things that were horribly neglected this month while I crammed for this test. So things like, you know, bills and cleaning the apartment and making myself a little bit less trol... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 16:32:42 EST twisted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5328904 So I imagine many of you have seen by now the Dove real beauty sketches video. It's great. Though my cynical mind does have a tendency to deconstruct and question such things as how the questions were posed and so on...still, I believe the heart behind the video is pure, and that is enough. <BR> <BR> Then there's this. The same video...for men. It's definitely funny. But it made me think about how real this difference is. Here's the video link: <BR> <link>youtu.be/T8Jiwo3u6Vo </link>... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 16:34:16 EST reset - 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323905 I made a study schedule for the next two weeks, and there is NO room for even my 20 minute DDPYoga workout. So I'm re-setting my schedule. <BR> <BR> As I mentioned, I had forgotten about signing up for the 30 day squat challenge on MFP. Since I want to do SOMETHING in the realm of fitness, I'm going to keep up with that. I'm going to do them when I wake up. If I can't do the number of squats for the day all in one go when I wake up, I'll finish them out at work. (Thank goodness I'm in a ... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 11:19:40 EST 5/6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322485 I met a good friend at IHOP Saturday morning after work for her late birthday celebration. By the time I got home I was tired and full (thought I didn't do TOO bad with food...still, it's IHOP). Anyway, I logged on to fb, and that was the end of any motivation for my day. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> However, I was reminded by a friend's post that I had signed up for a 30 day squat challenge on myfitnesspal, and that the challenge started today. Today's goal was 50 squats. I thought I'd ha... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 07:05:10 EST 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320943 Moved today's workout to tomorrow so that I can study today. Then spent way too long on facebook. :( <BR> <BR> But there's coffee brewing, and I'm geared up to read all about urine before bed. I have this slight fear that the combination might very well lead to increased bathroom trips when I'm trying to sleep. But we can't win 'em all, right? <BR> <BR> Have a great day, everyone! :) Fri, 12 Apr 2013 14:30:02 EST 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5319543 Today is a bit of a planned fail where diet is concerned. Getting rid of some of the last bits of junk. I went a little more overboard than I would have liked, but I'm not kicking myself over it. Things are just going to be screwy until I take this certification exam at the end of the month. If I don't plan ahead and really prep things on the weekend, I'm pretty sunk during the week when I need to study. <BR> <BR> Making it work though. I lost two of the lbs I'd gained back, so that's... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 11:00:10 EST 2 - Mad Genius http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318547 This morning with the arrival of one of my accountability text messages, I received this one: "Junk food is nasty." <BR> <BR> For what reason, I have no idea, but what immediately popped into my head was Lyle Lovett and Christian Bale and a plan for tricking myself into eating better. Random? Yes. Confusing? Yes. Funny and ridiculous and motivational enough to keep my silly brain moving forward? Yes. <BR> <BR> From now on, all junk food will referred to as Lyle Lovett. Why? Because whi... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 14:34:49 EST 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316974 Yes, it's that time again for numbering the days. Well, that sounds somewhat foreboding. Yikes. <BR> <BR> But nope, it's just for me to keep track and keep myself accountable. How well has this worked for me in the past, you ask? Um, well... <BR> <BR> I know, I know. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. But I never claimed to be sane, so there. <em>20</em> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I just want to try again, now that I'm getting my head s... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 10:13:43 EST pearls...of wisdom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314764 I promise not to go on and on about pearls. I'm still just overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> But today I'm thinking of a U2 song called "Grace". There's one line in particular that gets me every time. <BR> "She carries a pearl in perfect condition, what once was hurt, what once was friction. What left a mark no longer stings, because grace makes beauty out of ugly things...grace finds beauty in everything...grace finds goodness in everything." <BR> <BR> So in truth, I have to admit that I... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 15:01:25 EST calling all cars...oops, i mean calls...or texts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313628 I had to call in reinforcements this week. My food has still been terrible - this time just because I've been LAZY! :( <BR> <BR> Always around the same time in the morning toward the end of my shift I start craving all kinds of junk. I'm tired and stressed, and thinking of all that sweet, creamy, salty, crunchy goodness makes me "happy". Well, too bad! I put out a cry for help on facebook asking for anyone willing to text me around that time of the morning and remind me not to eat crap.... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 12:15:30 EST these [workout shoes] were made for walkin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302115 Well, today makes 3 days in a row going to the gym. That's the most I've done in probably a year. Geesh. <BR> <BR> I'm doing the 5k Your Way (walking) training program here on SP. I've signed up to walk a virtual 5k in April just after my certification exam. Today was Week 2/Day 2, and I had to walk 1.75 miles. Can I just say that I absolutely hate walking on a treadmill? I can do about 30 minutes, but after that the pounding is just too much for my poor feet and shins and knees. Now,... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 14:19:48 EST the more you know... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5299744 I think I may have figured out what I'm really afraid of in all this, and I'm trying to move forward in that knowledge. We'll see. Lately it seems that when I think I've got things figured out, something else pops up and knocks me down. But more adventure in getting back up and trying again. That's how we grow, eh? <BR> <BR> I have come to understand that I'm afraid of being happy. I'm afraid of allowing my self to succeed, because then I will want to be happy, and happiness terrifies m... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 16:31:30 EST just not sure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5298294 I need help, advice, encouragement, a kick in the pants...anything. I can NOT move past this food thing. I pep myself up, make lists and lists and lists and more lists of reasons I want to eat healthier and change my life for the better, I cook a bunch of healthy food and then let it rot in the fridge while I eat crap all week. I set myself up for nothing but success, but I keep choosing failure. <BR> <BR> Not failure. That's not what I want to say. There is just some kind of wall, an... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 14:05:22 EST Just workin' on my fitness... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5294941 Today I got my first Spark trophy since October of last year! Woot! It's the little things that make me happy. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Exercise is still spotty, but I'm getting more consistent. It helps that I've figured out a way to beat the darn treadmill. I find I do better anyway when I walk at a higher incline. So I've lowered my speed and increased my incline, and that seems to be a great solution. I walk with no discomfort to my feet, and I still get my heart rate up in spite... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 11:50:11 EST progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285265 I did NOT want to go to the gym after work today. My feet were so tired. But I just couldn't find a good excuse not to go. <BR> <BR> 20 minutes elliptical, 20 minutes treadmill walking, and then my DDPYoga at home (another 20 min). I felt better about those times than the ones from the other day! I'm having a lot of pain in my feet when I walk on the treadmill, so I may find another option until I get some more weight off my poor bones. And I get shin splints like crazy these days, no... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 12:47:25 EST I love SP!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283941 I didn't do so well with food today. I'm going to have to bring something more substantial than cucumbers to eat after work, especially if I'm going to be going to the gym right after. I think I'll bring a handful of nuts. We'll see how that goes. <BR> <BR> But even though I tanked in the food category, I was immediately encouraged to pick up and move on with the rest of the day as soon as I logged in to SP. I am so thankful for this community! <BR> <BR> Have a great day! Tue, 12 Mar 2013 12:34:41 EST :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282208 I did it! I finally dragged myself out of bed, out the door, down the stairs, and a few yards to the little apartment complex fitness center for my first cardio in what feels like years. Let me just say how not fun it is to realize that you have grossly underestimated how out of shape you are. I only lasted 10 minutes on the elliptical and 15 walking on the treadmill. But I did it. And did my first real DDPYoga workout afterward. I'd only done the intro video so far. <BR> <BR> This e... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 08:59:58 EST company http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280953 I broke my login spark streak again! <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I was trying so hard. Stupid 24 hour Saturdays! Oh well. I spent most of the day with a good friend, and that was well worth the breaking of a silly login streak. <BR> <BR> So the boy said we can get together during his spring break in a couple weeks. I didn't present it as a date, so he may just think I want to pick his brain about fitness and nutrition (he studied to be a certified personal trainer). But whatever comes of... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 09:41:08 EST brave http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278916 I did something either really stupid or really brave today. I asked a guy out. Just a sit and chat kind of thing, but still. It's not at all the kind of thing I would normally do. But... <BR> <BR> I am realizing a great deal about myself in this whole process of life. I'm sorry that you guys get stuck hearing about it, but writing is how I process, and I feel safe writing here. Safe. See, one of the things I'm learning about myself is that I am enormously fearful, but not particularly... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 13:10:07 EST I fought the gnaw...and the gnaw won. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274505 Okay, so I didn't really fight that gnawing craving for pizza. I don't know what it is about pizza and ice cream. They get me every time. And I know I'm just going to feel miserable afterward. It's never worth it. <BR> <BR> On a kind of sad yet kind of bright side, my car finally died a horrible death in the store parking lot. So I had to walk the mile and a half home. 30 fitness minutes: Done. It was actually kind of nice except for the cold wind. Even that wouldn't have been as b... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 14:55:30 EST stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272476 My plate keeps getting piled higher and higher. Again I find that I'm excited to try to make a new start and workout again, but I'm afraid. Of what I don't know. I don't understand where these mental roadblocks are coming from. But I do know that if I just push them to the side for a minute - just long enough to get started - I'll be fine. <BR> <BR> Ugh. Anyway, cross your fingers that I my car will make it until I can get another one, and/or that the bike I've been waiting for will s... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 10:14:08 EST [title] http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271477 Yesterday was kind of a throwaway day, as Saturdays usually are for me. Those are often the day of the week that I am awake for 24 hours and too tired to care about much of anything. <BR> <BR> I'm making up for it today, however. I made some sauerkraut (or at least got some started...won't know for a few days how it turns out), used the bones from a rotisserie chicken I bought the other day to make a broth for soup, cooked turkey burgers for the week, and cleaned the kitchen. Next up is c... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 17:51:03 EST Be the change... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268639 A friend of mine posted something on facebook yesterday that was a list of quotes attributed to Ghandi. Some of them were familiar, such as the "Be the change..." quote. But one stood out to me: "Learn as if you were to live forever." <BR> <BR> How wonderful is that? It's even better when I remember a quote from a friend's mom: "Never let a degree get in the way of your education." <BR> <BR> I've been stressing out a bit trying to figure out what I want to study and where and for how lon... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 13:49:07 EST You say goodbye, and I say hello http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267377 I spent this week saying "goodbye" to all my old favorite foods. Which really means that I was just too lazy to make myself eat well. <BR> <BR> It occurred to me at some point this week that I will fare much better if I start thinking of all the things I get to say "hello" to. All the new recipes I will get to try, because I do enjoy cooking; all the new clothes I will get to try on and purchase and look good in; all the things I will be able to learn because my brain will no longer be fog... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 14:36:41 EST Break on through to the other side... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265999 Today I feel better than I have felt in a couple weeks. I'm learning to make myself accept where I am in life and to stop clinging to images of myself that leave me unsatisfied. It's not easy. But holding on to things that may never happen is not healthy. It's like I'm dragging a dead body around with me everywhere. Both the stench and the depression of it slow me down and keep me from getting very far...not to mention that no one wants to be around that, and I don't want to be around any... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 12:48:25 EST _____ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264628 The Proposal <BR> <BR> The rubber meets the road <BR> And a sign is posted there: <BR> "My friend and fellow traveler, <BR> I offer you a dare: <BR> Put just one foot forward <BR> And walk this path with me. <BR> There is no toll or charge here, <BR> The journey, it is free. <BR> But do not choose it lightly <BR> For this road does not end <BR> And we will wear each other out, <BR> Be sure of it, my friend. <BR> I will burn your heels <BR> And you will mark my face, <BR> But I will smooth yo... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 11:44:16 EST Here we go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263005 Today is my official day one of DDPYOGA. I won't do a Day 1, Day2, Day 3 and so on kind of blog, because that's just setting myself up for failure if I miss a day. But it is a goal of mine to blog daily just to make sure I'm getting on SP. I stay so much more motivated when I come here and read about the progress (and the missteps as well) of others. <BR> <BR> In one of the Daily Blog emails, they featured SP members who have been mentioned in health magazines for their weight loss succ... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 07:59:16 EST One small step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262146 Well. I feel weird after writing that last blog post. But I guess it's okay to be honest and share what's really going on inside now and then. I had a couple needed BFF sessions and am feeling slightly better - definitely more focused. <BR> <BR> I assume some of you have seen Arthur Boorman's video - the disabled veteran who completely changed his health/life/situation with DDP Yoga. I had seen it before and been encouraged, but I never really gave that program much thought. A friend ... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 13:34:09 EST Hurting. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259981 Just a warning: this blog will be kind of whiny. <BR> <BR> I sometimes think that if I hear the question, "What do you really want?" one more time, I will finally completely lose it. I have a degree and a good job that I enjoy. I have a warm place to live and food to eat, friends and family that I love. I am fairly smart and very funny, and sure, I can do whatever I set my mind to do, right? <BR> <BR> I talk big about changing my life for myself, losing weight and being healthy for mysel... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 12:19:01 EST