DIFROMWYOMING's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DIFROMWYOMING DIFROMWYOMING's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Another one bites the dust... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793515 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l500933964.jpg"> <BR> <BR> In the midst of dealing with all my health issues of late- I let something slide: checking my blood sugars. <BR> <BR> My A1C's had always been 'good' or lastly, 'ok', and it was one more thing I didn't want to think about. <BR> <BR> Even when I started eating off plan 'a little' here or there. A little counts, by the way. It all counts. <BR> <BR> So it was somewhat of a surprise to me to feel so awful a week pa... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 16:06:26 EST Doing nothing is an option- but even nothing has consequences... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782653 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l796199487.jpg"> <BR> <BR> When life is overwhelming- I tend to want to do- nothing. No plan- no push- no nothing. I just keep thinking I can ride the wave out- come to solid ground. <BR> <BR> Have you stood on the beach when the ocean tide comes in? You stand still- but you can feel the sand and water moving you. It's very unsettling in a cool way. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l697535043.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 23:41:15 EST Choose to Live-a path appears http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770688 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1303415335.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've been waiting for almost a year now for a new door to open- one that would lead me to a more sturdy path under my feet. Health issues take their toll on a person- and I'm emotionally, financially, physically and all the other llys D.O.N.E. I've been building to this finale for months now- believing when the year came and all the 'ologists' were behind me, all the poking and prodding and testing behind me, tha... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 20:33:34 EST When Push comes to Shove http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734700 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1769015825.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have always wondered why, for some of us, we manage to stop ourselves before we bottom out and others of us- well we ride that elevator all the way to the bottom? <BR> <BR> In the other areas of my life- I've worked hard to get off the elevator as soon as possible. Not so much with my food and weight. <BR> <BR> I occasionally let the door open and look around a bit- maybe even venture out and check things out ... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 16:11:58 EST Life in the fast lane http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715268 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1031021876.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Do you ever have the feeling your standing very still and everything around you is moving way too fast? That's how my life has felt all this year so far. <BR> <BR> Too much going on. Too much to keep track of. Too much interruption. Too much traveling. Too much work expectations. Too much of ME most of the time (I'm very hard on myself). <BR> <BR> My April and May business trips were sort of a last straw. I came... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 21:21:26 EST When all the choices are poor ones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686805 I'm exhausted and probably shouldn't post anything in my state of tiredness and defeat but I'm posting anyway. Anyone who has been checking in knows I've almost been IN hotel rooms more than out of them since January. It's not as glamorous as it sounds. It's darn tiring. <BR> <BR> When I travel in state I plan ahead- take a cooler with "my" food in it- make sure I can manage breakfast in the room (boiled eggs, veggies, low carb options), sometimes I end up having these options for lunches an... Sat, 3 May 2014 23:42:58 EST A glass half full http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678881 I'm still living out of suitcases. More suitcases- more wrinkled clothing. <BR> <BR> But, as tiring as it is, it's sort of like complaining that I have a great job, can travel and see new places, and have a family that is supportive of me doing this because it's my passion in life. Not much to complain about when you think about it. <BR> <BR> Progress: I am still doing my less than 20 carbs a day diet. I'm not perfect all the time. Last weekend we were in Salt Lake City for the weekend and ... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 17:51:37 EST Suitcases and progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658884 I've been living out of a suitcase for two weeks. Both weeks for work, long weeks of travel and sitting in meetings. Very exhausting, but it's been a really good 2 weeks. I learned a lot at all my training- met some dear friends- learned I can travel AND lose weight- and found out a few things about myself. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l176982620.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Week 1 I went to Pittsburgh. What a really lovely city it is. I had a great time visiting with Da... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 20:36:50 EST With a little help from my friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643755 'Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song and I'll try not to sing out of key'.... <BR> <BR> It's been a tiring week. My energy is good, the carb flu is gone, I am not hungry and I am learning what to do to not over-do it and hurt myself. Progress. <BR> <BR> One thing about my new diet is I'm never hungry. Sometimes I don't even want to eat. And there have been a couple times when I ate because I just was used to eating and probably should have stopped. All meaning- I'm not perfect. But I... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 16:54:36 EST Ups and Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639035 New diet still coming along- been sick as a dog with it, I've decided my body is mad at me for depriving it of so much junk. I spent all day yesterday feeling like this: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l504997196.jpg"> <BR> <BR> But I'm hanging in there. I have the most WONDERFUL spark friends- every comment- every goodie- they reinforce what a supportive and special place this can be. I'm very grateful and blessed. <BR> <BR> My Family Literacy ESL group knew ... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 22:35:45 EST When life gives you lemons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636465 Sometimes you can manage to plant it so it grows into a lovely tree: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1078356145.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The diet my Dr. wants me on is going well. It's very low carb and so far- so good. I've had a headache for a couple days but everyone says that is normal and really- I have headaches all the time anyway. I wanted to wait and 'start it Monday'. I wasn't really ready and let's face it, I prefer to start dieting out a few days to give mys... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 22:28:07 EST Where do I begin? My cautionary tale. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632897 To tell my story and where it's found me today? <BR> <BR> I have only told a few people here on sp but it's time to 'come out of the closet' I suppose about my health. <BR> <BR> I am not a complainer. My family motto is "we do not give into these things", and we don't. I have lived with pain and aches for years and said nothing. We are stalwart, we do not cringe. I have even told my Dr's that I don't necessarily 'believe' in all these 'new' issues because I figure my ancestors probably had... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 21:23:56 EST Why I love resolutions or Hogmany rules! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578612 In Scotland they celebrate Hogmany and part of that is a resolution. Now, I've heard a lot about them this year- most people thinking they won't do them. I love them and here is why. <BR> <BR> When things look bleak- when things are not good (and in Scotland this happened a lot historically speaking) a resolution was a way, at the end of no matter what kind of year you had, of saying I believe it can be better. I believe I can be better. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 21:40:02 EST November goals and update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531161 I haven't blogged in two months, and I'm hesitant to put goals out there when it's been a real struggle for me to even be present. I have felt like I'm riding the storm out for a couple months now. But a quick update is in order- and then to some reasonable goals: <BR> <BR> My health has taken all my energy for about 3 months now. I've felt awful for that long. I was not quite diagnosed but was told it looked like I might have lupus about 3 years ago. But things improved and I chose not to p... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 18:27:46 EST More on failure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472719 I was talking to my mother about this issue yesterday- it was 42 years ago she put me on my first official 'diet' and I joined WW. She said I had been bugging her for awhile to join but they wouldn't let me until I turned 13. It made me feel sad for that 12 year old who was already unhappy with how she looked to the world. <BR> <BR> But she asked where this failure/perfection thing came from and without thinking I said it was probably because of all these years of dieting and having people '... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 15:53:24 EST Embracing failure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5471282 Thanks to my spark friends and sisters- I've had a breakthrough. <BR> <BR> I am embracing failure. Accepting it- welcoming it- letting it have its own room. <BR> <BR> I have always had an 'all or nothing' personality and I was not going to accept nothing. So- all it was. I got an A or nothing. No room for failure- no margin for error. <BR> <BR> And my almost lifelong dieting has been just that. Try-fail-fail-try-fail-try-fail-try. <BR> <BR> I would be so frustrated and tired of this patte... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 22:47:42 EST Dark days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463307 I noticed I hadn't blogged in a long while- and my last one was about embracing joy. <BR> What a difference a month can bring. <BR> <BR> This month has been one of sadness, health issues, loss, frustration, anger and hopelessness. I can't really pretend otherwise. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I can't see where I'm going. Sometimes where I think I'm going looks so bleak I can't look. <BR> <BR> Where do you put the next foot when you can't see the path? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeo... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 17:18:42 EST Embracing joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436242 "In short, when we invest in women and girls, we are investing in the people who invest in everyone else." Melinda Gates <BR> <BR> When we were in Flagstaff this week, we met a Navajo woman who had just gotten off a long work day in the service sector- making minimum wage. Her ride had left her and she was short $1.10 in having bus money to get home. She only asked for money to go home- not a dime more. Even though we knew that it meant she would have nothing left- all she wanted was to be h... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 13:27:12 EST If it isn't really about numbers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421954 I tell myself all the time this journey I'm on cannot just be about numbers. <BR> <BR> Oh I know the numbers matter. I let them matter far too much, truth be told. But I know SOME of the numbers matter: <BR> <BR> my blood sugar levels <BR> blood pressure <BR> distance I can walk easily <BR> strength of my body <BR> days of my life <BR> <BR> I spend very little time fretting about those numbers, though. I give them passing thoughts, but the ones I obsess on are the ones on the scale- the ta... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 14:22:39 EST Regret http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413367 I'm still struggling with depression, and life, but I don't want to talk about it any more right now so I'm doing my weekly blog on something else. <BR> <BR> I'm not a big believer in regret. I like to think of it the way Frank Sinatra did "regrets, I've had a few. But then again, too few to mention". I really am a firm believer in learning from mistakes and don't think of them necessarily as a bad thing. <BR> <BR> Even when I was young- and I'm taking like 10 or 11- I remember thinking th... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 15:25:12 EST Singing the blues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406829 I realized that in the last few weeks I've been depressed. It happens sometimes, I do suffer from chronic depression. I don't always notice when it comes on. Maybe it's been all the work and home stress, the financial and traveling stress...and it all caught up. But I found myself wanting to do as little as possible- to stay in the house- and to reach for comfort foods. All signs of depression for me. <BR> <BR> I know I'm there- and I know I don't want to stay there. And sometimes you just ... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 22:54:33 EST All the stuff in between http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399514 Sometimes life is just all the stuff in between. In between paydays, or vacations, or weekends. The day in and day out parts that become such a blur after a while you sort of forget them. <BR> <BR> It's not easy trying to 'stop and smell the roses'. To get the energy to do something, anything after work. My job is emotionally and mentally exhausting- no different than any other kind of exhausting I'm sure but it sure leaves me with little when I come home at night. I'm blessed with a husband... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 21:02:44 EST Post wedding update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387410 So many have asked about the wedding. Honestly- it's hard to write about. Yes, my dear son #1 got married to his sweetheart. They are married- off on a honeymoon- and in love. I suppose, in the end, it's all that mattered. <BR> <BR> Just about everything went wrong that could- from picking up tuxes ordered 6 months beforehand two days before the wedding (we have to drive 80 miles to get them) only to find out no one had pants....(who would not provide pants?) to the wedding cake being 'cance... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 22:06:43 EST We know they're not people http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379363 (taken from my personal blog) <BR> <BR> Our pets. Sometimes, though, I think they may be better than people- or at least have all the best qualities we wish we could so easily display ourselves. <BR> <BR> We moved into our home in 1997 and the boys were all young. Jason would have been 11 at the time, Dan 9 and Kyle 7. It was winter and our house was surrounded by hills to sled down and places to explore. And so it was on these explorations they came across the cat. <BR> <BR> She was feral... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 16:42:46 EST Slip sliding away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377006 How easy it is to get off track! <BR> <BR> Probably because my path is tenuous and 'new', it's easy for me to turn around to the well worn path I know so well. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l742544193.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This one is more rewarding, though- and it will take me to places I haven't seen before. <BR> <BR> A couple weekends ago we went to the mountains with friends. They wanted me to get on a 4 wheeler and try it out. Now first, I have never done an... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 16:37:35 EST Self Sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371611 I have had my ups and downs since joining SP. This has been the longest I have stuck with anything since I went on my first diet (age 13). I've been on probably hundreds of diets since then. I always seemed to be starting (and stopping) one. <BR> <BR> I don't look back at all those 'failures' as a wasted time. I learned from all of them. I always learn from my mistakes (usually). It seems ironic now that I always fought so hard against 'change' in my life when it is our failures that lead t... Wed, 29 May 2013 14:57:08 EST Sunday update- home for a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5361717 "All great achievements require time." - Maya Angelou <BR> <BR> We had a gloomy weekend here- with the threat of snow (it just rained) and a shooting in town. We're a small town so that is a big deal and it filled up facebook for awhile. <BR> <BR> I spent Saturday at graduation. Our center houses high school equivalency (my department), a community college and several universities outreach. We held our annual graduation and I had quite a few of 'my' students there as well as by bestie- who ... Mon, 20 May 2013 00:36:06 EST And then she ate a house http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354550 I will be honest, since mid-week my food has not been good! I've tried logging but it's just not pretty. I do not know what happened particularly- just tired maybe but every choice I make lately is a poor one. <BR> <BR> We had to do an 800 mile trip to get a son from college and I was irritated most of the time because I cannot eat fast food at all (I just can't- I'm celiac and they have nothing- I do all the driving so salads are out while driving)...and dh didn't want to stop at a restaura... Sun, 12 May 2013 23:35:02 EST Time is never wasted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350335 Every day is a gift. I have not always looked at life that way as I am, by nature, a worrier. <BR> <BR> But I am learning that it's okay for me to still be learning, falling and getting back up again. <BR> <BR> Something came up recently and it made me reflect on the year that was my 'plateau' year. I had lost 100 pounds my first full year here- and then stalled- and for a year I worked hard, harder, changed things up- and nothing. Several of you shared your experiences, cheered me on, enco... Wed, 8 May 2013 21:41:37 EST Back from Ireland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343009 I missed a month of Sundays. To be honest, I was gone most of April. I was traveling for work and honestly was too busy to do much of any posting, and then I was frantically trying to get ready for my big trip away to Ireland. (This will be loooong) <BR> <BR> I am, by nature, a worrier. So even though I have been privileged to travel before I am always going to worry about it. And this time I was really worried. I've got more weight on me than last time I took a big trip like this. My back... Thu, 2 May 2013 09:27:02 EST Sunday Check in Post New Orleans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306839 Returned Thursday night from my New Orleans trip. I did try to eat healthy while gone- but not enough so. Between lack of fluid and eating out I was up 3 pounds. Ugh- it takes me so long to lose it again! But I am back tracking and will drink myself silly this week. (water- lol) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l63039713.jpg"> <BR> <BR> DH and I in Jean Lafitte, LA- we met up with my dear spark friend Mshopper63 and her husband and they took us down here for dinn... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 23:24:17 EST A two-fer: Missed a Sunday- and an early one. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295546 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l131983582.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is me lately. I am not a very happy camper. <BR> <BR> Life has been difficult for the past couple years- stressful- and this week it sort of all dumped quickly- and I am just feeling 'done'. Somehow I missed a whole Sunday- and now I'll be gone this one. <BR> <BR> So...I do not have much to say. I have been staying in range, logging food, and avoiding trigger foods for six weeks now. I have lost 16 pounds i... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 22:05:05 EST (Early) Sunday blog check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280660 I posted this to my spark team today and realized...it was a blog. <BR> <BR> And I needed to say this out loud and I decided I needed to remember I said it out loud, so I am posting here so I can find it later. <BR> <BR> I have been trigger food free for 5 weeks now. 5 weeks of logging what I eat every day without fail- 5 weeks of not eating my trigger foods....I am happy with my progress- slow but steady- and considering all my health issues I'll take what I can get. I reset my tracker whe... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 23:11:13 EST Sunday update-hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271850 <BR> I am not feeling great after a busy weekend. I spent Friday at home working on a grant that has been dogging me. I worked today, too, to get the first draft done. But it was either something I ate or just something I caught- and I'm feeling poorly. <BR> <BR> Still I don't want to break my streak of blogging on Sunday. <BR> <BR> I am grateful that I have a supportive family and I am especially grateful for my wonderful mother, who is always my champion. <BR> <BR> I am grateful that ou... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 22:24:09 EST Sunday update-trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262477 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l287663702.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My husband took this of the creek/reservoir not long past. We had quite a snowstorm but it wasn't as big as they predicted, and today the sun is out and it's lovely. I always like looking at snow in the sunshine. <BR> <BR> I was busy this week with work. The BL Winter ended and I ended with a minus for the first time in a very long time- and was our teams biggest loser for the 10 weeks. I am happy about that and a... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 19:25:10 EST Memorable Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253943 When I was younger this quote was one of my favorites ones in all the world- I used to write it on everything! <BR> <BR> "That was a memorable day to me, for it made great changes in me. But, it is the same with any life. Imagine one selected day struck out of it, and think how different its course would have been. Pause you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link o... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 19:00:31 EST Sunday Update- meh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245422 I've been sick all week- and had a horrible, awful, terrible, soul-crushing thing happen at work so yeah, I'm not feeling like a suzy sunshine blog today. <BR> <BR> But I have kept my commitment to blog weekly near Sunday so here it is. <BR> <BR> *I have logged my food all week and am proud to say that despite said cold and misery- I did not eat emotionally. <BR> <BR> *I have been binge free this week, too, and have studiously avoided my trigger foods. <BR> <BR> *More importantly- I have ... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 18:32:32 EST SuperBowl size me! Sunday update. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236308 My but we can eat on Superbowl Sunday in this country! We didn't have much of a 'party' this year- something small at home- but when I shopped yesterday the shelves were clearing like locusts had been set free. There wasn't a little smokey, prepared chicken wing or meat and cheese tray to be found. Veggie trays?Plenty left. <BR> <BR> Our family is really no different. Many of our holidays are based on the foods we eat. Many of our experiences are based on that, too. <BR> <BR> My mother and ... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 22:03:07 EST A belated Sunday check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229317 I was traveling in horrible snow on Sunday, so I didn't much feel like posting. <BR> <BR> We had spent a weekend away in St. George, Ut, in warmer weather and with some good friends. We did have a lovely time though it sprinkled a little. I didn't mind at all. I could still sit on the balcony, nice and dry and in my shirtsleeves with no coat. At night a myriad of frogs serenaded us. <BR> <BR> But we came home to a blizzard. Couldn't get up our hill, and were buried in snow by Monday mornin... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 20:46:34 EST A note for trucker72 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217523 I hate that I can't ever write you back....even privately! <BR> But thank you for always being here- I am always so happy to see you respond or post on my page and want you to know it means a lot to me to know you're 'out there'. <BR> <em>247</em> Mon, 21 Jan 2013 19:28:29 EST I have no balance- Sunday check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216100 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2092525058.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You'd think after all the years I've been upright on this planet- I would have learned balance. I haven't. I have managed to find some happy unbalance, if that makes sense. I went from working too many hours at a job I hated to working too many hours at a job I mostly love. That was good. I only spend time with people I love and want to be with instead of whomever happens to be around (I did this as a young person... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 20:51:20 EST I want to be coffee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210033 Read this on FB this morning and I loved it....which are you? A carrot, an egg or coffee? <BR> <BR> A young woman went to her grandmother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose. <BR> <BR> Her grandmother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the s... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 12:46:28 EST More ABC's of me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195885 You were dying to know more about me, weren't you? Lol. Thanks to Be-The-Change for this one. <BR> <BR> A - Available or married: Married to Jay for 30 (almost 31) years <BR> <BR> B - Book: Currently reading Buffalo Bill's Dead Now by Margaret Coel <BR> <BR> C - Cake or pie: Neither- gluten free. But it would have been pie. <BR> <BR> D - Drink of choice: Water! <BR> <BR> E - Essential item: Phone <BR> <BR> F - Favorite color: Pink <BR> <BR> G - Game to play or watch: Football (watch)... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 21:47:18 EST Sunday gratitude blog 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193985 I made a commitment to blog at least every Sunday to acknowledge how the week went and to do my gratitude list for the week. This week I have a lot to be grateful for! <BR> <BR> I'm grateful for Sparkpeople. I have been enjoying some of my sparkfriends blogs more than ever, have a couple of wonderfully supportive groups, and have been using sparkcoach which I've paid for since it began but rarely used. I know it's the first of the year and people are making new commitments, I started SP arou... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 22:28:55 EST Happy- A new focus for 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184350 I have a couple of friends who have been struggling in relationships this year and one came to a close over the holidays. She said that she wondered how she could have stayed in a place with someone who clearly did not love her. And I told her that where I think we all fall short is in believing that love is an emotion. It's not. It's a choice- it's a way of being- it's a way of acting towards others and ourselves. It's something we choose to DO. If someone is not acting lovingly towards you-... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 16:44:56 EST Not giving up even when it all goes wrong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179096 I've had a lot of thoughts rolling around this head the last week or so. Things falling into place- things clarifying. When I posted about falling (my big fear) several people said 'think how much better you did now than before you started SP.' <BR> <BR> Well, I'm not that far away from when I started SP. About 30+ pounds from my highest again. And I don't feel particularly 'better'. But I am, and it was worth noting. <BR> <BR> When I started at SP I remember how down I felt about myself. I... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 18:43:20 EST After the fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5173324 My biggest fear is always of falling. We have such harsh winters here and I am a very big person to fall down. I always have fears of broken things and of course knowing how difficult it can be to even get yourself back up again. <BR> <BR> So it was yesterday that in the grocery store parking lot- I stepped out of the car and down I went. My left side just went straight out and the hand flat down. My right...not so much. The leg went under me and when I put my hand down it was on my knuckles... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 23:43:01 EST Before the Holiday Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5168493 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1532651036.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have kind of missed my Thankful blogs. It was sometimes a chore to do them but I think it really helped me keep focused on something positive. I often have difficulty with that! <BR> <BR> Since that stopped work has been a whirlwind. Working with those in poverty and need means that these are not usually happy times for them but rather times of separation and worry. While that is not always easy to carry it is ... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 21:24:26 EST Thankful day 30- the things I did right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151751 I have never before blogged for 30 days on sp. Of course I had to do a joint one in the middle when I went to New Orleans, but I still managed to get this done! Whew! <BR> <BR> It was not always easy. Some days I didnt' feel very thankful for anything. Some days I felt a little lost and angry about my life-my health- my size- and trying to find something positive in all that was an effort. But I noticed as the month went on that even with life being what it can be sometimes- my attitude had ... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 14:26:37 EST Thankful day 29-spirit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151043 Today I'm thankful for the human spirit. <BR> <BR> I'm thankful we are resilient, that we can weather almost anything thrown at us, that things can cause us to bend and not break. Today I'm thankful that you can touch even the darkest soul with a little caring. <BR> <BR> My wonderful grandmother used to say "there is a little bad in the best of us, and a little good in the worst of us". <BR> <BR> I had to have a meeting with my 'kids' in the current group this morning- they have been less... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 21:46:03 EST