DIFROMWYOMING's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DIFROMWYOMING DIFROMWYOMING's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 9 month progress photos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155569 I haven't felt much like blogging lately. I'm just sort of- doing life I suppose. <BR> <BR> I had this surgery 9 months ago so that I could potentially have back surgery to fix my spine, which is very damaged from years of being 350-400+ pounds and from a bad fall down stairs a few years ago which left me mostly in a scooter. I know at the time, I knew this surgery was the only choice I had to save my life and give me a chance to keep walking. It was a lifeline. <BR> <BR> I have to admit no... Tue, 3 May 2016 12:38:30 EST Reality Check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6120845 It's been a rough couple months. I'm still having some issues with feeling...good. Which is something I have kind of stopped expecting but it still catches me by surprise when it goes on too long. It's still better compared to last year. <BR> <BR> I've had a couple things come up the last two days that were big reminders of where I WAS last year. One was a visit to my spine clinic today- it was last summer when I got the very bad news that my time was short unless we did something drastic. I... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 18:09:01 EST 7 month progress update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6112971 I'm not sure a lot changed since last month, but I have seen some NSv progress that is worth sharing. <BR> <BR> 1. I went shopping in a brick store a week ago. 7 months ago I was in a 5 x everything. <BR> I purchased new stuff and if it's cotton pants I'm in a 16, if they're stretchy I can wear a 12/14. I'm in 0x or 1x tops depending on fabric. I do have a 14/16 top but it's a flowy style. My tummy is still where I keep all my weight and, that's where all the hanging skin is, too. But I onc... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 22:26:52 EST Six Month Progress Photos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088035 Wanted to quickly post photos of my the day before surgery- at 3 months out and at 6 months out (now). Sometimes when I'm discouraged it helps me to see there is progress. <BR> <BR> And I've moved. so the doorway is different. Loving my tiny house! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/16510a97-0d73-49fe-8827-a142242e98c9.png"> Thu, 4 Feb 2016 21:10:46 EST Not the easy way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084176 Despite what I used to think- or others might think- getting surgery for weight loss is NOT the 'easy way'. <BR> <BR> For one thing- it's like being forced into detox with an addiction- your emotional crutches all gone- I went into this with no real tools to deal with my emotional eating and it has been a rough ride. I've been pretty depressed going through this, and while I'm thankful and grateful daily for my gifts and for my life- that hasn't seemed to help with the depression. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 18:54:27 EST New beginning: New Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062340 I wanted to share a moment of bliss I had today. (This is long- sorry) Sunday was my month 5 surgiversary. I didn't meet my goal of -100 on that day, but I have this week. I still have a long way to go though, and it's easy to feel like the effort isn't giving me the results I want. <BR> <BR> After all- my whole life I've wanted results NOW. I've wanted to eat one good meal and see the pounds melt away. I've wanted to 'diet' for a week or a month or whatever- and feel like I could walk aroun... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 16:58:38 EST New beginnings: through my eyes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6044920 I never see myself the way I am. I tend to see what I think I've always seen- someone who is overweight and, therefore, not attractive. I've had moments when I could 'see' someone different, but it's hard. <BR> <BR> Back when I joined SP in 2009 I was determined to lose this weight once and for all, and I tried. I lost over 100 pounds from my high weight (that I know of), and was happy to post my progress pictures...to be in smaller sizes. I felt so hopeful, and happy with myself. <BR> <BR>... Wed, 9 Dec 2015 13:52:08 EST A new beginning: 4 month update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6040761 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e9c26d5d-7a82-42c0-8ef4-cafd597deb74.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'll be 4 months out from surgery on Friday, 12/4. It's been kind of a crazy, wild month! <BR> <BR> More then ever this month I've struggled with the loss of food as my source of comfort. No matter what was happening in my life- home or work or life stress- food was something that soothed me and helped me cope. Without it, I've felt pretty lost. I am learning, slowly, to look for other thin... Tue, 1 Dec 2015 17:06:38 EST New Beginnings: 3 month surgiversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6026665 It's been 3 months since I had what was probably life-saving surgery. When the Dr. opened me up I was diseased all over- he almost didn't do the surgery because of it. But he did- and gave me a chance at a life I would have never had a chance to even live had things gone on. I am forever grateful to him for his hard work that day. He has since lost his own battle with cancer, but I honor him as much as I can by using the gift he gave me. <BR> <BR> This journey has not been a happy one, thoug... Wed, 4 Nov 2015 13:23:32 EST New Beginnings: October update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021597 It's hard to believe October is almost over. I don't feel like I've even had an October. <BR> <BR> Nothing exciting to report really. I am continuing to have issues eating food which my surgeon tells me is my damaged and diseased liver- not my stomach. I really felt real relief upon hearing this because I was beginning to think this was what life would be like for the rest of time. He tells me that someday when my liver begins to heal better I will be able to eat without wanting to cry or th... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 16:50:28 EST New beginnings, through the looking glass http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6007494 I'm almost 2 months post-surgery. I'm struggling a little with where I fit into this new life- and it shows. <BR> <BR> This morning I decided it's kind of like feeling like Alice felt- that I've fallen into a place I don't really recognize because nothing works the way I expect it to. Where up is sometimes down and everyday, "normal" things are topsy turvey. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ce8d084a-9f1c-45f1-a868-2cd6894397cd.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sometimes I feel like... Thu, 1 Oct 2015 14:40:36 EST New beginnings: ups and downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001052 I don't feel I have much to post but it's been awhile since an update so here goes. <BR> <BR> My roux-en-y was on August 4th. I lost the first two weeks after then stalled for a couple weeks, which I was not happy about. I finally got over myself and just decided to do the work and concentrate on other things- like life. <BR> <BR> My energy is up and down. Sometimes I feel good but a lot of days I come home and fall right asleep in a chair. Which is bad for my night time sleeping- I'm the k... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 21:25:19 EST New beginnings, getting real http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5990587 Despite my best efforts to try and control the world- I have not been successful. <BR> <BR> I had researched weight loss surgery when I knew I needed mine. I knew what to expect from it. I knew some people lost quickly and some not so much. I knew everyone said they usually had a stall about 3 weeks out, and they could last a week or more. I "knew" all of this in the brain that sits atop my head. But knowing it- and KNOWING it- are two different things. <BR> <BR> So despite that lovely know... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 22:28:03 EST New beginnings- re-learning myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985852 I'm three weeks out from surgery and I'm certainly learning a lot about myself. <BR> <BR> Post-surgery I am never hungry. Most of the time I'd as soon skip eating as it just doesn't interest me at all. But I know my body needs the nutrients, so I eat what I'm supposed to. Even when I don't want to, even when I'm kind of whining about it! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/57c2981c-8b85-4ee3-af5b-04bfab327e43.jpg"> <BR> <BR> But I have noticed that I THINK I WANT fo... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 15:45:55 EST New beginnings, some positives http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978975 Day 12 of my recovery and things are....better. I am not feeling as sore except for a couple little spots. I am still not sleeping well and my new tummy has not been happy trying new things, but I have had some great positives I needed to share. <BR> <BR> * All of YOU. I haven't felt up to sitting at the computer for long periods of time but I have read every comment, goodie, post and I want to thank everyone for their support and understanding and hugs. It is a great comfort knowing I can... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 13:55:03 EST New beginnings, anger and loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5976128 I am not promising I'll win fans with this- but from the beginning I've cleared my thoughts by blogging so I am going to do that with no expectations this will make sense to anyone but me. Feel free to skip this one- it ain't pretty. <BR> <BR> 8/4/2015 was the new beginning. One week ago today I showed up at the hospital ready for bypass surgery which I hoped would give me a new shot at a livable life. I did not choose this to lose weight- to look prettier- because I was tired of dieting. I ... Tue, 11 Aug 2015 18:02:25 EST New beginnings, mind game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968238 I'm learning a lot of this is about what's in my head. I know it ends up being about what's in my mouth- but it starts in my head. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/24bbc25c-9825-4915-ac6f-88f9be18ad1a.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think I might have actually experienced real hunger in my pre-op days. I'm still getting 400-500 calories a day and late at night...I sometimes feel something that might be real hunger. I'm not sure I've felt that before. I'm also not sure what 'full... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 21:11:31 EST New beginning, believing it doesn't make it so. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966058 This is how I've been feeling for the last hour: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/70d617fb-9741-4834-aa9f-25259c6df3b8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And all because I'm comparing myself to others in their journey- and thinking mine is lacking in some way. It's easy for me to do this- I've done it my whole life. If I'm going to do something I want to be the STAR! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a8efd937-7801-45f4-9c06-ded126fa7c4a.png"> <BR> <BR> I wa... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 15:44:10 EST New beginnings, emotional eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5964602 I had a little test for myself today. <BR> <BR> I had a particularly upsetting day at work- not work related but with 'family' members that are less than sensitive and really hurt my feelings. It goes back to feelings of not belonging that are deep rooted- and I'm working on those. <BR> <BR> But I knew the tears would come when I left for home- and come they did. Little buckets of tears. <BR> <BR> I did reach out to a friend and she asked how I was doing since I'm on this pre-op diet of ab... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 23:22:27 EST New beginnings, it's the "ME" show! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963337 I tend to like to wear black a lot. The last few years I've made myself wear brighter tops- even prints! Why is this hard? <BR> <BR> I remember being right out of college, walking around downtown Seattle, and with the crowds it helped me feel 'invisible'. I loved that. No one knew me- I'd left all my friends behind in SoCal. And invisible was a good place for me. <BR> <BR> So I wore dark a lot. Black pants always. Even when I would wear a lighter top the bottoms were dark. Invisible. Harde... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 18:03:36 EST New beginnings, a new 'hard' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5962959 I never wanted to have wls. It was never even on my radar. It seemed like an admission of defeat- like cheating maybe? I just know I wasn't there. <BR> <BR> Of course now that I have no real options (I do have one- death- but I choose to not go there), I have changed my thought process. I see this as a 'tool' just like every other tool I use. Food plans, exercise, motivational things, etc. <BR> <BR> This week I have been skipping breakfast for a protein shake. I did this for one reason- to ... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 22:42:56 EST New beginnings, new roads http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5959670 I didn't mean to delete the last blog I'd made. I suppose it's hard for me to be real honest here. <BR> <BR> When I wrote about my back injury and how I'd not likely walk any more- how my life had changed so much since I fell down our stairs December 2013...I had one person tell me they couldn't remain a friend because my journey had become so depressing. <BR> <BR> Well- I certainly think I should be a cautionary tale. If you think you can remain healthy with such an unhealthy body- it wi... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 17:36:10 EST Me-in the mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885124 We had an activity in my team this week to read an article and it made me remember when I was 19 years old- in college away from home- and ended up with my first therapist. I remember taking the bus out to see her and one exercise she had me do was to visualize "Di in the mirror" and it was the person I wanted to be- the one I wanted to become. I'm still not sure what the purpose of that was- but I knew clearly 'who' "Di in the mirror" was- she was all physical. At 19- I believed my body was ... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 22:16:07 EST Spark the Season Days 29, 30, 31 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841350 Day 29: Warmth. <BR> <BR> I went with my DIL for a spa pedicure today- my first one. (I've had a pedicure but just once). It is sometimes hard for me to let people touch my legs/feet...I am so self conscious about how fat they are and I have lymphedema in one leg plus- the PMR makes my skin so sensitive to pain. But- I went. It was lovely- it was warm and cozy and felt great. Yes, it hurt a little but I think the massage was good for my legs anyway. And yes, I ended up with bruises in places... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 15:01:08 EST Spark the Season day 28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840058 Today: It's Cold Outside! <BR> <BR> Well it is cold- about 18 but we've had wind chills below zero. And just flurried- I stayed inside. <BR> For BevAnne: A photo of our little 'downtown' in the winter: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1245284905.jpg"> Sun, 28 Dec 2014 18:34:27 EST Spark the Season day 26 and 27 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839593 Gift: Well, my family IS my gift to myself. <BR> <BR> I also give myself time to heal- time to rest- time to spark. And- time to relax and do something not work related which is genealogy or reading. I've finished 3 novels since being home for Christmas break! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l522622795.jpg"> <BR> this is looking down my street- it's so pretty in the snow! <BR> <BR> Day 27: Favorite Holiday Food <BR> <BR> I don't really have one and honestly- I... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 23:01:00 EST Spark the Season day 24,25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838509 Day 24: family <BR> Day 25: gratitude <BR> <BR> Merry Christmas! <BR> <BR> My gratitude is that my family is all home- all together- and loving being together. <BR> My boys are all very close- they are 28, 26 and 24....and they are each others best friends. So when they can finally be together they are SO happy. <BR> <BR> The eldest is married now and they live in Chicago. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1801623311.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The middle child lives here and ... Thu, 25 Dec 2014 20:59:44 EST Spark the Season Days 22,23 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837709 Been busy with family here! Trying to catch up. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1802079247.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Day 22: Shopping <BR> <BR> I don't love shopping most of the time but at Christmas it's quite pretty if we go into Salt Lake to the malls.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1586963737.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Day 23: Red <BR> <BR> Been hard to focus on anything since we are missing a person here. My youngest was supposed to be her... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 23:16:44 EST Spark the Season day 21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836562 Comfy today. <BR> <BR> Well today was a day I wanted to be comfy. It has been raining ice all day- so it was a good day to stay indoors. <BR> <BR> My favorite Sunday is staying in my 'jammies' (I don't actually sleep in these I sleep in a gown but I love wearing them when I'm relaxing) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1787413392.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I also have a fuzzy blanket I wrap up in and the last thing that helps me feel comfy: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 22:58:05 EST Spark the Season day 20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836063 Workout. Well, this one is challenging for me now as I am mostly in a wheelchair and can't stand. But when I get there my favorite workout would be the pool. The one at my PT place is warm so swimming is difficult but exercise is lovely! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l351865939.jpg"> Sat, 20 Dec 2014 22:25:47 EST Spark the Season day 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835592 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l799874238.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Dinner: Wasn't very exciting tonight. Tired after a long week I made scrambled eggs with Jimmy Dean Turkey sausage. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1425869345.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Growing up we didn't really have much tradition. We ate at the table and usually talked politics but as I got older- I refused to eat with my parents (I know, I seem so sweet!) so...I took to eating alone in my... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 21:00:59 EST Spark the Season Day 18 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835011 Well, it was bound to happen- needing to post on a day when I should be left alone. <BR> <BR> Goal for the Day #18: <BR> To not hurt anyone before I get home. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1407260450.jpg"> Thu, 18 Dec 2014 16:30:09 EST Spark the Season day 17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834701 Lunch. <BR> <BR> Well, I eat it. It's usually leftovers from home. I really don't have a favorite. I like my husbands chile (sometimes with chicken) or mexi chicken with cheese. <BR> <BR> But my favorite lunch on the planet? Las Vegas- Mesa Grill- Bobby Flay's Blue Corn Tamale with Shrimp. Oh Em Gee......so good! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1282031016.jpg"> Thu, 18 Dec 2014 00:44:46 EST Spark the Season day 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834142 Day 16- Decorations <BR> <BR> I love decorating for Christmas. Our tree has decorations that are 46 years old ( you can see them- they are little pinkish sugarplums of apples, pears and doves) My parents bought them when I was little and they were passed down to me long ago when my kids were little. You can see the little wooden trees...those each have photos of my boys when they were in kindergarten. Love it! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1936180105.jpg"> <B... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 22:18:45 EST Spark the Season day 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833652 Memories...light the corner of my mind....misty watercolor memories (everyone sing along!) <BR> <BR> Tough one for me - I have so many <BR> <BR> Tonight though I'm kind of missing those gone- and so I'm thinking of Jay's brother Tucker. I've known my husband and his brother since we were teens- I actually had a crush on Tucker first- he was a bad boy James Dean kind of teen and that was pretty appealing to a very inexperienced young girl. Course we didn't click- and it wasn't until years la... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 00:02:06 EST Spark the Season day 14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833122 Well it's still day 14 here but in Sparkworld I think it's day 15. No matter. <BR> <BR> Relaxation fell on the right day. Since I became disabled a year ago- I have taken Sunday hostage as my rest day. I do not get out of my jammies on Sundays. I rest- I relax- I watch old movies or football or do genealogy research- or I read. Whatever I find relaxing. <BR> <BR> Today I finished wrapping gifts and did some cleaning/organizing- but I did make sure I got lots of time with my feet up and my m... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 00:05:15 EST spark the season day 13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832630 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l401556433.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Day 13- Someone I love <BR> <BR> Well- I already said my husband is the best part of my day and- he is. <BR> <BR> I love so many people- friends here- my family of course. <BR> <BR> But some days the glue that holds me together no matter what are my 'sisters'- Dawn and Deb. <BR> <BR> I never had siblings growing up. Good friends but no siblings. And I've had people I felt close to- I have a sister in law I lo... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 23:59:42 EST Spark the Season day 12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832119 Cookies. Well- this one kind of leaves me out. I have Celiac's and have for a long time so- no cookies for me! And the gluten free ones they make- too high in sugar and not worth my calories so- no cookies. Back when I was younger though- Snickerdoodles were my favorite. When my mom made them they were puffy like this- I never see them like this any more. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1801659663.jpg"> Fri, 12 Dec 2014 21:36:41 EST Spark the Season day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831605 I've read several blogs today on this and most people apologize. I'm not. <BR> <BR> I love eggs...I eat them most days. Scrambled or hard boiled are my preference. <BR> <em>490</em> <BR> <BR> I used to eat oatmeal every day, until I was found to have Celiac's. Even "gluten free" oatmeal still made me sick. I just tried the new Chex Oatmeal and...we have a winner! But it's hard to find here. <BR> <BR> When I'm really in a hurry- I'll have this. And I'm not apologizing for it- we do what... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 21:27:22 EST Spark the Season day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831124 Home. <BR> <BR> When I was growing up I never had a 'home'. I suppose my grandma's house was home, we moved all the time. I went to 4 different schools in first grade alone. Sometimes we'd move in the middle of the night- sometimes I'd be picked up from school and off we'd go- leaving friends and things and even pets behind. <BR> <BR> We finally settled down when I was about 12- so the place I lived for 6 years until I graduated High School is the 'home' of my youth. I have fond memories of... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 00:04:45 EST Spark the Season Day 9 (late) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830993 I spaced this last night- I'm no good at remembering to blog! <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Today: Snacks <BR> <BR> I wish I could say I snack healthy. I do try not to have potato chips or anything like that, though crunchy is my go-to snack choice. I do love watermelon in season but the carbs can be too high. So my current go-to snack is: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l850314172.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Love the toasted coconut and the cinnamon the best! Wed, 10 Dec 2014 17:44:14 EST Spark the Season day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829911 Am exhausted but will get this up tonight: Favorite Part of Winter: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2102659585.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My favorite part of winter is always watching the sun sparkle on the snow- it makes everything look like a magical land. Photo credit here is my DH. <BR> <BR> Mon, 8 Dec 2014 21:17:40 EST Spark the Season day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829326 This one is so easy it could write itself: Best Part of my Day: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l201868251.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Every day- this guy is the best part of my day. Even when I'm at work knowing I can walk in the door- he is always waiting for me and has a strange way of knowing the moment I'll drive up- and I'll get a nice relaxing hug and everything is okay again. No matter what. <BR> <BR> I don't have a photo of us hugging...but he gives the best hugs!... Sun, 7 Dec 2014 22:21:07 EST Spark the Season day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828825 Spent today finishing up shopping in Utah. It's the first time I've made the trip down there in weeks so it was nice. We stocked up from Costco (for the kids all coming home) and finished up a few things. Now all I have left to do is the wrapping. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l786557375.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I love wrapping, but sometimes get lazy about it as it all ends up in a big pile in the trash. In the past my cat Robin would 'help' me with the ribbon- she lo... Sat, 6 Dec 2014 22:02:33 EST Spark the Season Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828341 Day 5: Homemade <BR> <BR> At first I had issues with this one as I was thinking crafty stuff, and I am not crafty. I do cross stitch sometimes but have been lazy about that for quite awhile. But then I realized I could count food! <BR> <BR> Tonight was my work Christmas party. DH went with me and so did my mom. They provide the main dish (prime rib) but everyone brings sides. We brought what we usually bring- curried green beans. <BR> <BR> It is one of my favorite things to eat- so yummy a... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 22:17:03 EST Spark the Season http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827808 Okay well I'm not good at blogging regularly at all, but my friend Be-the-change and Dawnwaterwoman are doing this Spark the Season photo a day so...let's give it a shot. <BR> <BR> I'm behind 4 days so here are days 1 to 4: <BR> <BR> Day 1; Lights <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2127295104.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We visited the Waterford crystal factory during our last visit to ireland and I was so captivated by the lights reflecting off the crystal. It doesn't fit m... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 22:06:33 EST On being thankful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823860 i woke up too early- the aches and pains of age and health making sleep uncomfortable. I wanted to sleep more- it's a home day, no work to rush off to, but between the pain and the thoughts floating through my head I couldn't sleep. <BR> <BR> Thanksgiving. I've had 56 of them now though I don't remember them all. But I remember a lot of them. Even with the small family we were (just 3 of us- Dad, Mom and me) , it was always a day to be celebrated. Sometimes with extended family or friends, ... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 12:17:18 EST Another one bites the dust... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793515 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l500933964.jpg"> <BR> <BR> In the midst of dealing with all my health issues of late- I let something slide: checking my blood sugars. <BR> <BR> My A1C's had always been 'good' or lastly, 'ok', and it was one more thing I didn't want to think about. <BR> <BR> Even when I started eating off plan 'a little' here or there. A little counts, by the way. It all counts. <BR> <BR> So it was somewhat of a surprise to me to feel so awful a week pa... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 16:06:26 EST Doing nothing is an option- but even nothing has consequences... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782653 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l796199487.jpg"> <BR> <BR> When life is overwhelming- I tend to want to do- nothing. No plan- no push- no nothing. I just keep thinking I can ride the wave out- come to solid ground. <BR> <BR> Have you stood on the beach when the ocean tide comes in? You stand still- but you can feel the sand and water moving you. It's very unsettling in a cool way. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l697535043.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 23:41:15 EST Choose to Live-a path appears http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770688 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1303415335.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've been waiting for almost a year now for a new door to open- one that would lead me to a more sturdy path under my feet. Health issues take their toll on a person- and I'm emotionally, financially, physically and all the other llys D.O.N.E. I've been building to this finale for months now- believing when the year came and all the 'ologists' were behind me, all the poking and prodding and testing behind me, tha... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 20:33:34 EST