DIANEDOESSMILES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DIANEDOESSMILES DIANEDOESSMILES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ NSV's helping to feel more secure ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899145 Last week I wrote a blog on how I can now fit into a dress I had bought last summer,,, it was a GOOD deal,, and the PERFECT color for me,,,, I LOVE that I am FINALLY Into it ! WOOHOOO !! <BR> <BR> I went to a meeting tonight. I had noticed when I sit down now,,, my knees are touching,,, or I am crossing my ankles,,, something with would of HURT me earlier on. I LOVE this,, its another NSV (Non Scale Victory). When I was heavier,, and I looked around tonight,,,, it's easier to have my legs... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 00:12:02 EST Beyonce back up singer , i feel the. Spark, song http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897732 This song was dedicated to. SPARKS by. Beyonce back up singer. Tiffany. <BR> <BR> It's very uplifting. I used to read her blogs , Tiffany Monique. <BR> <BR> just go to youtube.com and type in, I feel the SPARK by tiffany Monique <BR> <BR> It was played at the end of "Spark alive" which taught us many skills. Sadly many regular SPARKLERS didn't want to pay the 9.00 it costed monthly, so it was closed. Too bad, it was so very helpful. <BR> <BR> Enjoy <BR> <BR> Thanks for reading and. ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 20:07:34 EST ANSV, feels great#!! Quite a boost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5894952 Last summer I bought such a pretty dress. I just could. NOT pass it up. <BR> <BR> It's a coral/ pink color on the bright side. The neck line is a circular shape, with what looks like the Cleopatra pattern of a nice necklace. So pretty!!! <BR> <BR> It was simply too small for me. I keep looking at it. <BR> <BR> Tonight I had a meeting at the Kingdom Hall of. Jehovah Witnesses, I've been wanting to look very nice lately. I had last tried it on around. Nov, it was to tight. <BR> <BR> I'... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 00:03:42 EST Want to have the tools to lose?? I've lost 83lbs!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891840 I found back in the Winter of 11, a team right here on. SPARKS which has helped me to be the successful person I am today. In all hence far at 83lbs lost!! <BR> <BR> There's a team I've belong to which is successfully teaching me the CORRECT way to lose healthy!! We in general work on 1 or 2 life skills a week. I never used to drink water. We learn as we read through the post under travel ,,, how to incorporate these skills by reading the helpful links!!! I'm. THRILLED how my knowledge... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 17:35:37 EST Oh PLEASE NOT again!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891432 As those of my regular readers know I have broken my left foot a number of times. <BR> <BR> Today I was swimming (Yeah we r now after 2.5weeks up to 40minutes of doing mostly the crawl, with stopping only for a drink of water we bring with us) I was swimming from the deep end ,,,when I suddenly felt a bad pain where I broke it the last time , the surgery area. I called the surgeon s office they can see me in the morning. It would of done no good to go to the ER, for the foot has been bro... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 23:25:41 EST I'm doing my dream again!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882845 As the regular readers from the past. Summer and. Fall knew I had surgery in. June of. 14. It was a very hard recovery. I was in various casts for 5 months. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1324980006.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Finally I was FREE from them. But I had fallen during that time and broken the toe where the surgery was,,,,the only thing keeping that toe on was a. C shaped screw. It's still to this day trying to heal. At this minute I have my foot in a bon... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 00:40:22 EST Sipping Vodka http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880820 A new Priest at his first mass was so nervous he could hardly speak. After mass he asked the Monsignor how he had done. <BR> <BR> The Monsignor replied, "When I am worried about getting nervous on the pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass. If I start to get nervous, I take a sip." <BR> <BR> So next Sunday he took the Monsignor's advice. At the beginning of the sermon, he got nervous and took a drink. He proceeded to talk up a storm. <BR> <BR> Upon his return to his offi... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 22:53:14 EST I've come a long way baby!! A Thank You to my body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880179 When I first started with. SPARKS I was mostly using a power chair. My. Dr had even told me "stop fighting it. Ur. X-Ray s show you will always be in it". My. L4 hanks to a wrong gymnastics move was now sitting on my L5, at all times. It still does. This is for life. My bones r very weak, won't hold hardware. <BR> <BR> That being told to me, whizzed me off. I very slowly started to take a few steps. <BR> <BR> Little over the years, I found I could walk, with aids. I go back and forth... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 22:01:32 EST Izzy is sick,, poor kitty!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879148 Yesterday I took. Izzy <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l661690181.jpg"> to the vets. <BR> <BR> She had woken up sneezing and sneezing. Poor little thing. It's hard with young. Children and our loved/spoiled animals, cause of course they can't say what is wrong. <BR> <BR> She's now on antibiotics and some healthy treats to help build up her immune system. <BR> <BR> So far in 2days no improvement. She'll be on the antibiotics for 12 days. She's quite a baby not feelin... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 02:21:31 EST When backing down on exercise is NOT a failure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877116 I've been doing 120 minutes for exercise 5 weeks now. When the 5% Winter challenge started 6 weeks ago, I had been doing around 60 minutes of it. <BR> <BR> Many know my feet have neuropathy, with a bad case of osteoporosis, along with diabetes (though the #'s of the diabetes is well under control). This makes it so my feet hurt a ton!! I have had 3 surgeries in just over a year. So yeah my. Footies do hurt a ton. <BR> <BR> I had decided at the end of last week, that since lately, when ... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 00:00:12 EST SLAMMMING Down the POUNDS ! 3 lbs GONE one week! How? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870954 HI Dearest Readahs, <BR> <BR> This week on the Spirited Under Dawg team (A part of the 5% challenge, where we do what we can,, while learning healthy habits. It runs for 8 weeks at a time, year round, if you are interested, just leave a message, and we will help you with this!). We have done a NO JUNK FOOD WEEK 1 <BR> <BR> For me, the QUEEN of junk food,, i eat fairly normally for main meals (Except for breakfast ,,, when I usually have Coco Puffs) this week I've had Kixs, with the sugar... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 22:34:05 EST nice weight loss this week, how? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869931 Dearest. Fellow. Sparklers, <BR> <BR> Have you ever wondered what the "secret" is to a great weigh in? <BR> <BR> This week, we r on the Dawggie team, doing a NK JUNK FOOD week. I admit I do struggle Muchly with this. But still my weigh in this week will be between a pound and a half lost, possibly more!! Normally I lose a half pound a week. <BR> <BR> My secret I'd love to share, it wasn't all about the NO JUNK FOOD alone which is a huge help, but also about going back to eating as I di... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 09:35:51 EST WOW ! Am DOING this ! NO JUNK FOOD ! Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868951 WOW !! I am probably one of the WORSE Eaters on SPARKS !! (A lot better though then I used to be !) <BR> <BR> THis week on the Spirited Under Dawg Team (A part of the 5% challenge) we have put up a NO JUNK FOOD For the WEEK !!! <BR> <BR> At first this REALLY PANICED ME BIG TIME !! You see on an average,,, I eat 5 to 8 pieces of hard candy (It has taken the place of cakes,, cookies, brownies, chips etc). I LOVE eating those candies. I LQQK FORWARD to it 1! <BR> <BR> But we have 2 Dawgg... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 21:00:10 EST I Pledge, Day 1, NO JUNK FOOD ! (Junk food QUEEN !) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866666 OH DEARAH ME !!! WHAT AM I getting myself INTO???? <BR> <BR> If you have ever lqqked at my Nutrition Tracker,,, U will CLEARLY and QUICKLY See I am ,, and have ALWAYS been "THE QUEEN Of JUNK FOOD" (name given by MANY friends,, family). I've been this way ALL my life. I had actually VOWED at one point "NO FREGGIE SHALL PASS THESE LIPS" !!! And that's pretty much the same,,, except for on the 5% Challenge when we do Freggie (FRuit/vEGGIE) week,, this time around it'll be 2 weeks !!! OH DEARA... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 18:09:26 EST Blizzard 2015, Maine, outside Portland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863881 Hi from outside of Portland, Maine!! <BR> <BR> As most know parts of the upper Eastern Coast have been under a Blizzard warning. <BR> <BR> Thought you. Would enjoy some pictures. <BR> <BR> This first one is outside of where I live. Normally you'd see the City of Portland across the harbor. (Pronounced ha ha a) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l321066837.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The winds r sustained at43MPH with gusts at55. <BR> <BR> Here is from the front of whe... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 16:04:20 EST 80 POUND DOWN !!! YEAH !! BYERS BYERS to IT 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862359 As of yesterday I've LOST 80 LBS !! YEAH !! <BR> <BR> My highest was 288 ! YO 1 I still have a hard believing I ALLOWED THAT ! But, it was a combo of depression (so I gave UP caring) and also meds for that depression, and steroids for pain in feet,,, and also back. ALL of that took me from what was my than normal,, til I was in my early 40s,,,,, at 115 lbs as an adult. My highest ever up til than was the occasional 120. <BR> <BR> I am happy to of hit this,, not that happiness has to do w... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 17:14:23 EST Weigh in on schedule,,, the Turtle ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861871 OH YEAH !! I am CLEARLY a <em>134</em> when it comes to losing weight ! <BR> <BR> I am NOT sure why though. I've UPPED my exercise,,, and only count what makes me sweat,,, and over 10 minutes of doing so,,,, I am a SUPER DAWG this week (A Super Dawg is a Dawggie (Spirited Under Dawg,,, on the 5% challenge) who does 120 mins of exercise for 5 out of 7 days),,,, so I have clearly UPPED my exercise,,,, I had before the past 2 weeks been doing 50 to 70 mins of exercise. <BR> <BR> I also ... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 22:15:44 EST WOW !! A streak of 78 weeks ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861208 I noticed this a few weeks ago on my START Page,,,, and I was like "WOW" !! <BR> <BR> Here's what it says: <BR> <BR> My Streaks <BR> 78 weeks: Exercise for at least 90 minutes per week See Award & Share <BR> <BR> I guess in just doing the 78 weeks of at least 90 min is good in itself. But, than it HIT ME ! 78 weeks is over A YEAR !!! Yes,,,,, so why am I HAPPY with that? Its ONLY 90 mins a week,,, when I am at my peak,, I do 700 ish a week. <BR> <BR> Here's why. In the past year and a h... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 20:44:18 EST it died,, so young,,,, services http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859750 It happened,,, as we all know will happen. <BR> <BR> My 1 and 1/3 yr old Puter DIED !!! <BR> <BR> So I went and bought a new one. <BR> <BR> They do not make them as they first did, when it was a big deal to buy them. Now they are treated as if it's a tomato,,,, disposable. <BR> <BR> Funeral will be announced. Wed, 21 Jan 2015 18:38:54 EST 1st week of the 5% Winter Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856779 YEAH !! I've made it through the first week of the 5% challenge !! <BR> <BR> I was able to drink from 5 to 7 glasses of water each day <BR> <BR> To exercise 120 mins a day,, 5 days a week,,, which on the Dawggie Team has made me eligible to be a SUPER DAWG !! I could NOT make it to this in the last challenge, or the Spring Challenge,,, not with all the problems my feet were giving me,, than having the surgery. YEAH to FInALLY being FREE to do with the as I WANT (Except for swimming) I am ... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 23:24:50 EST Good news,,, FINALLY,, Feet ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855449 I want to say "THANK YOU" to all of you who have been following me through the last surgery in June. It was a wild ride !!!! From the starting of the recovery,,, when my upstairs got bed bugs,, and of COURSE they came down here ! (Land Lord says if he gets them again, they want to FINALLY Evict him ! YEAH !),,,,, though all the times of not being able to walk,, and restricted to bed,,, the 2 infections, and the awful rash ,, and of course finding out i can't wear a CAM (walking) cast. YO !... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 00:09:39 EST I love my body at 209.8 do you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854695 I am sitting here reading an article on SPARKS which a woman asked 52 women, "What do you love about your body"? I'll put the link in, if you choose to read it. <BR> <BR> There are MANY things I LOVE about my body, the rest I can accept. I love to hear what you think of yours. Here are a few I do of mine: <BR> <BR> 1) My eyes ! They SPARKLE and are very bright,, they are hazel, with a blueberry color around the edge of the pupil,, than the rest are hazel,,, with Golden Flecks,,, if I w... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 23:26:10 EST FINALLY Sparks HAS given us "SPARKS for FAT CATs"? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853610 Some of us own animals which COULD EASILY USE SPARKS For Cats/Dawgs/fish/gerbils, etc. <BR> Have they DONE this???? <BR> <BR> Izzy thinks so ! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1760238737.jpg"> Tue, 13 Jan 2015 14:57:12 EST Its Important to LOVE yourself along this journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853106 Often times you will hear someone state "When I reach my goal "I'll be happy". <BR> <BR> To me I CRINGE when i read that !! For along this journey if you wish to maintain the weight when you do hit goal,,, you should hopefully just need to adjust the food intake, and exercise amount,,, and as you do transition those 2,,,that's ENOUGH !! <BR> <BR> So HOW Do you LOVE yourself? Along this journey,, figure out "Why I eat so much"? "What are my triggers"? "Is there a difference on how I fee... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 23:07:39 EST YEAH !! A NSV ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852301 YEAH !! Yesterday I had a NSV ! (non Scale Victory) !!!! <BR> <BR> I am SOOO PROUD !! Back at the end of Aug,, I weighed 216.???. I KNOW I am a VERY SLOW loser !! maybe a 1/2 lb a month. PERHAPS ! If I could be on my feet, for real,, I'd also be doing 60 to 80 mins of swimming 3 x's a week, and yoga,, and walking ! But, for now, It'll happen again, when I am healed. <BR> <BR> I went to a Jehovah Witness informal meeting yesterday to watch a video. Since we are allowed when doing this... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 00:55:22 EST my goals,, reasonable,, and NOT one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851431 Today is such an EXCITING DAY !! Its the FIRST Day of the 5% WINTAH CHALLENGE ! (the 5% challenge is where we do what we can do, to lose 5% of our weight in 8 weeks). When I weighed in this AM,, I was at 209.8. That's P <em>345</em> !! It THRILLS ME TO EVERY END !! <BR> <BR> So of COURSE what good ole SPARKLER does NOT start to COUNT those #'s in our head?? WHERE would I LOVE to be on both SHORT and LONG Term goals !! <BR> <BR> My ACTION SeT Goal for short,, is to do all the exercise I... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 23:14:07 EST Before and current. pictures (hard for me to do) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847046 I was going to wait till I had reached my goal, but in the Wintah challenge we've been. Asked to take a before and after picture of the progress we will do during this period of 8weeks. I know my progress is slow though steady, so it won't show hardly. <BR> So here r the pictures I have which. I hope you will find encouraging. <BR> <BR> Me at my highest, 288 my. Jeans and shirt were tight. They r a size 3 X. It's a close up but u can watch my face also get smaller. <BR> <BR> <img src="... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 21:17:03 EST Goal for 15,,, these LEGS ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843387 I am walking again ! YEAH !! For how long I do not know, so each is cherished,, held special in my memory bank. The hardware is coming out of my foot for sure,, on the side, which was put in June 15th. I've have had nothing but, problems with this ! So now it's a race,, will I have to have emergency surgery cos the hardware has popped thru the skin??? Its sooo close to that,, or will the bone simulator work,, grow the bone,,, so I can KEEP the big toe,,, time is the only answer to that,, i... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 22:34:38 EST Helping out, though I said "I WILL NOT DO IT" ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840268 Well today (Sun, and Mon) I have CAVED IN and am helping my BFF who's a hoarder,,,, well actually up to 2 weeks ago,,,, so for over 2 months,, she's been working HARD at going thru my GD's room. My GD when she moved out,, just LEFT things as they are,,, and she's sooo traumatized at going into the place,, she can't handle going in to get things,, she has asked her Mom to "throw it ALL OUT" !! "Do NOT even open the boxes,,, just have Auntie S throw it OUT "!!! Her Aunt S,,,, LOVES ANY TYPE o... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 00:51:29 EST Assignment 6, Winter Challenge,, what do I WANT to do for goals? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839057 <BR> Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight. What do you want to change? How do you want to look? How do you want to feel? What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? And list all the OTHER things that you want to change! <BR> <BR> 1) Why do want to lose weight? I WANT to get around easier ! It'll be much easier on both my back and feet. My feet are a serious concern. I DO NOT WANT ANY Dr to look at me and "assume" that... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 22:44:36 EST Results of MRI,,,,, done yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837702 You KNOW when you pick up the phone and its ur Dr's office,, calling "about ur results" instead of receiving the usual note from the Dr in the mail stating "Everything was normal". I was informed I have a lump in the vein and need a nerusurgeon . Oh well,, that does NOT upset me in the least,, for this is PREVENTIVE surgery,, if it's even called surgery? I am not sure what they do. No doubt though,, it'll be easy,, most surgeries to do with the veins re from what I've heard others state. ... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 23:05:25 EST Today,,, why???? And my food reaction to this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837075 Today I had an MRI and another one with contrast. The brain MRI went just fine. Hopefully it showed nothing (It was done cos in 12 I had a TIA (stroke with no damage to brain) and in the past month, i've had my face on the left side go numb,, than quickly recover. (I HOPE its something to do with my neck, which has been sore). That took them about an hr,, in the closed in tube,,, and the MUSIC part was BROKEN, so it was just me,, shoved into the tight tube,, with the COLD air rushing over... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 00:31:24 EST How do you move PAST a FEAR of success? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835173 It's starting to happen again. I am near my year end goal. It was at first back when Feb was here,, to be 202/03. But, than I had surgery in June, by August I KNEW I was not healing well,,, and the road would be a long one,, with many bumps (Its Dec, it's holding thru of this) so in August I redid my goal to 209/10. <BR> <BR> I had been up to 223 during the yr, now I am VERY CLOSE to that 210. It scares me, and yet, it EXCITES me. But, i've been here before. Tonight Maryann and I we... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 23:26:29 EST YEAH !! I GOT IT !! My bone grower !! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829982 Today has been a TOTALLY EXCITING DAY and yet,, in another way it "COULD" be discouraging IF I CHOSE to look at it that way. I'll instead think "In time, it will get better". <BR> <BR> I talked at length with Steve who bought it to me,,,,, he said it can take 3 months (unusual,, that was a record) ,, the usual is 6 months,, that he expects to be me,, and some as long as NINE months,, for the bone to heal with it. I need to use it at the same time each day,, and well I am almost ALWAYS at h... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 23:18:51 EST Dr appt today, update, some good news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827783 TY all who saw yesterday s blog and hope better times are forward from here on. <BR> <BR> Well, I can't say that , but some neat news ! I finally get to walk some on foot!! Being so long without that is doing more damage than good. Yeah, so I can help it by walking. I have some Fancy do dads to put on it. He says this will protect it. I happily started to walk at ONCE! It hurts sme, but it's supposed to. <BR> <BR> Also the bone grower was finally approved today. The guy who handle... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 21:04:44 EST Sigh.... foot again, will it ever improve? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827096 Called surgeons office on. Tuesday. See his assistant tomorrow. No doubt he will also come in <BR> <BR> Not sure if it can b seen well enough here. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l35759458.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just in case,,, about an inch from the toe nail,, u can see what looks like a big pimple than further down near the end of the scar, u can see another bump. <BR> <BR> What that is r the screws/hardware working it's way outta my big left toe. This of cour... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 17:12:14 EST Sigh.... foot again, will it ever improve? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827095 Called surgeons office on. Tuesday. See his assistant tomorrow. No doubt he will also come in <BR> <BR> Not sure if it can b seen well enough here. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l35759458.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just in case,,, about an inch from the toe nail,, u can see what looks like a big pimple than further down near the end of the scar, u can see another bump. <BR> <BR> What that is r the screws/hardware working it's way outta my big left toe. This of cour... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 17:11:52 EST Tues,, way OVER Eating, anxious ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826511 HI ! TY for reading. i hope this is NOT triggering to anyone, nor offensive in any way,, it's not meant to be. <BR> <BR> If you know me,, and have for sometime,,, than you realize that most of the time I am high energy ! WOOHOOO LETs GOOOO DAWGGIES !!!! My entire family except for one brother is like this, my Dad was,, so have been my ancestors. As far back as we have been able to trace it,,, 1600's,, some call this an "illness" I prefer to it as a "condition" much as most in the family h... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 16:44:30 EST Am I hungry, or something else? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5824467 Its now winter time,, the snow and ice are on the ground ! <em>425</em> and yes it's VERY PURDY !! BUT !! This means I am even more limited than in the other seasons. I use a power chair to get around the area (I can ask for a ride, but than that has some walking in involved). <BR> <BR> Its ALSO the time of yr,, that I am home more (as are many of us) and its the time of yr,, we tend to CRAVE those "comfort foods". <BR> <BR> How am I getting thru this thus far? I could tell 2 week... Fri, 28 Nov 2014 23:18:00 EST Frustration,,, She wants PITY (Friend) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820414 I ve written before,,, I have a friend,, who's now over 300 lbs (She refuses to tell me exactly,, i can NOT blame her,,, I've almost always been smaller,, she HATES it). <BR> <BR> Today she called me with "a new phone #",,, cos she's in DEEP DOO DOO with $$$$. I had told her when her X was paying her,,, and she an abundant of $$$ "Put some aside S is going to graduate in ___ yrs, when she does,,, I'm strongly expecting him,, to NOT pay you " ! I was right,,, they have such a HATE/HATE rela... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 01:04:43 EST GOING DOWN Towards ONEDERLAND ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818590 I KNOW What SPARKS says about "DO NOT WEIGH IN DAILY" cos most will fluctuate up and down as much as 2 to 5 lbs on a given day. Notice "MOST" for I am not one of those,, and I've been clearly addicted to the scale for as long as my teenage yrs. I was on the gymnastic team,, you had to weigh 115lbs,,,, and I DID NOT ! It was such a hard struggle for me (OH WHERE are those DAYS NOW???). <BR> <BR> Life changes,,, and it did. Now I am with the rest of us,, walking this journey, but I ve met s... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 22:14:13 EST Update: foot,, also am learnin a valuable lesson, acceptance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815208 Today I had an appt at 2,,,, it was for a scat scan (SP) and at 3 I had the Surgeon. On my way outta of the hosp from the scan,,, I hit some tiles,,, and I had NOT tightened my knee scooter,,, and the tile of course has gout ,,, so KA BANG !! My wheel had suddenly turned to the right,, my body FLEW OVER the knee scooter,, and down on my knee,, of course of bad foot,,,, I am thankful it's only got a good knot on it,,,,, and a finger is sore,, not broken,,, as well my hip, leg, and back on le... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 23:11:08 EST Facing the FOOD MONSTER at the FOOD COUNT (Mall) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811824 Yesterday,,,, I needed to vacate my apt,, while the landlord worked on it,,,, LOL So did Missy Izzy,, and how just to have TO MANY RULES of STUPIDITY the landlord has decided we can NOT bring our pets from one apt to another one !! GRRRR That put me in QUITE A BIND !!! So I called the office,, got "special permission" since kitty was not doing a "social call" (DUH??? Ever know a CAT to WANT to go to another place as a SOCIAL CALL???),,, she was allowed to stay at a friends,,,,,,, as LONG as ... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 08:10:41 EST Ouchers....how I've felt today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808444 This is what I woke up with today: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l417851856.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As you can see it's quite sore and I was soooo scared I had broken my toe again. <BR> <BR> I at once called the Dr. I was told. "It's supposed to hurt a lot. Be swollen, and the bruises are from not being able to walk on it. Well of course I didn't tell my Dr that I had been walking some. Tuesday when I finally got off the cast, I then had permission to do so. I c... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 00:30:04 EST Woke up laughing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807496 This. Morning, about 7 AM, I could feel something strange around me. I. Cautiously opened me eyes to see this goober staring at me and purring as loud as possible!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1064733234.jpg"> <BR> <BR> She now thinks my tablet is hers. I keep her claws cut, and have down loaded a game for cats to play where she chases around a mouse which squeaks when she hits it with her paw. She gets soooo excited she actually has the tablet between ... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 10:43:51 EST Hmmm being Nakked ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806669 Well as most of us know,,, today I was to get OFF FINALLY my cast !! WOOHOOO !!! <BR> <BR> In came the Dr after X Rays were taken. Its both GOOD and NOT good news. I am NOT healed well,,,, but also the cast is making my foot very, very sore. So today this is my result ! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l271321687.jpg"> <BR> <BR> YES !! the CAST IS OFF !!!!! YEAH !!! <BR> <BR> BUT !! The fusion is NOT healed,,, it was ONLY taken off since it was making holes ... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 00:19:23 EST I Passed a HARD TEST on this journey today ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805888 WE ALL KNOW what "time of yr" it is now. Its CANDY TIME !! The sweeter the better !! AND BEST of ALL to a CANDY HOLIC its ALL ON SALE !! WOOHOOOO !! Is not that SWEET??? <BR> <BR> Or is it???? <BR> <BR> Today, I went to the dollar store,,, they had A TON of my favorites,,,,, I saw my ABSOLUTE Fav this time of yr,,, peanutbutter kisses !! Even as a kid,, when I got these in my bag,,, I'd go CRAZY !!!! I just LOVE THEM to pieces and pieces !!! Right down to the last taste in my mouth ! <BR... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 18:55:34 EST Have lost 70 plus lbs. What I've learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803829 I've been on Sparks now for 3 years. In this time I've gone from 288 to my successful weigh in today of 212.4!! Not bad I say. It's been quite the journey!!! I've been up and down the 200s quite a bit, and once down as far as 174. <BR> <BR> I got very scared of the success at 174, I hadn't prepared for others freaked out when they started to to b looking at me and making specific remarks about myself and 2 of them commenting on parts of me. As a rape victim it made me hurt inside and... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 08:43:11 EST It saddens me,,, my BFF is dying from overeating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801193 One of my dearest friends since childhood,,, has been very depressed most of her life. She "says" now "I am not" I tend to disagree. She sees one emotion at a time,,,, whereas most of us swing from one to another. We 've been friends since we were in the 7th grade,,,, I was 12,,, she was 11. She was over weight then,,,, I was drop dead skinny. we both ate tas much, but it piled pped on her,, not me. <BR> <BR> Well until I was in early 40s or was it my late 30s? I've forgotten tonight... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 00:14:51 EST THis is such a HARD challenge for me ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800623 I am a SUD (Spirited Undah Dawg) with the 5% challenge. I am also the CL (Challenge Leadah) and as such I always do my best to be a good example. <BR> <BR> This week though, we have 2 LTGL (Living The Good Life )part of the challenge,, and its a 2 parter neither of which I'll do well on. One is the NEE (No Evening Eating), and also how many hrs did you sleep? We can count a maximum of hrs we can count is 9 hrs of sleep. And where do I average?? SIGH ! In general about 4 to 6 !! Generall... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 23:21:05 EST