DIANEDOESSMILES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DIANEDOESSMILES DIANEDOESSMILES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ YEAH !! I GOT IT !! My bone grower !! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829982 Today has been a TOTALLY EXCITING DAY and yet,, in another way it "COULD" be discouraging IF I CHOSE to look at it that way. I'll instead think "In time, it will get better". <BR> <BR> I talked at length with Steve who bought it to me,,,,, he said it can take 3 months (unusual,, that was a record) ,, the usual is 6 months,, that he expects to be me,, and some as long as NINE months,, for the bone to heal with it. I need to use it at the same time each day,, and well I am almost ALWAYS at h... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 23:18:51 EST Dr appt today, update, some good news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827783 TY all who saw yesterday s blog and hope better times are forward from here on. <BR> <BR> Well, I can't say that , but some neat news ! I finally get to walk some on foot!! Being so long without that is doing more damage than good. Yeah, so I can help it by walking. I have some Fancy do dads to put on it. He says this will protect it. I happily started to walk at ONCE! It hurts sme, but it's supposed to. <BR> <BR> Also the bone grower was finally approved today. The guy who handle... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 21:04:44 EST Sigh.... foot again, will it ever improve? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827096 Called surgeons office on. Tuesday. See his assistant tomorrow. No doubt he will also come in <BR> <BR> Not sure if it can b seen well enough here. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l35759458.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just in case,,, about an inch from the toe nail,, u can see what looks like a big pimple than further down near the end of the scar, u can see another bump. <BR> <BR> What that is r the screws/hardware working it's way outta my big left toe. This of cour... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 17:12:14 EST Sigh.... foot again, will it ever improve? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827095 Called surgeons office on. Tuesday. See his assistant tomorrow. No doubt he will also come in <BR> <BR> Not sure if it can b seen well enough here. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l35759458.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just in case,,, about an inch from the toe nail,, u can see what looks like a big pimple than further down near the end of the scar, u can see another bump. <BR> <BR> What that is r the screws/hardware working it's way outta my big left toe. This of cour... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 17:11:52 EST Tues,, way OVER Eating, anxious ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826511 HI ! TY for reading. i hope this is NOT triggering to anyone, nor offensive in any way,, it's not meant to be. <BR> <BR> If you know me,, and have for sometime,,, than you realize that most of the time I am high energy ! WOOHOOO LETs GOOOO DAWGGIES !!!! My entire family except for one brother is like this, my Dad was,, so have been my ancestors. As far back as we have been able to trace it,,, 1600's,, some call this an "illness" I prefer to it as a "condition" much as most in the family h... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 16:44:30 EST Am I hungry, or something else? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5824467 Its now winter time,, the snow and ice are on the ground ! <em>425</em> and yes it's VERY PURDY !! BUT !! This means I am even more limited than in the other seasons. I use a power chair to get around the area (I can ask for a ride, but than that has some walking in involved). <BR> <BR> Its ALSO the time of yr,, that I am home more (as are many of us) and its the time of yr,, we tend to CRAVE those "comfort foods". <BR> <BR> How am I getting thru this thus far? I could tell 2 week... Fri, 28 Nov 2014 23:18:00 EST Frustration,,, She wants PITY (Friend) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820414 I ve written before,,, I have a friend,, who's now over 300 lbs (She refuses to tell me exactly,, i can NOT blame her,,, I've almost always been smaller,, she HATES it). <BR> <BR> Today she called me with "a new phone #",,, cos she's in DEEP DOO DOO with $$$$. I had told her when her X was paying her,,, and she an abundant of $$$ "Put some aside S is going to graduate in ___ yrs, when she does,,, I'm strongly expecting him,, to NOT pay you " ! I was right,,, they have such a HATE/HATE rela... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 01:04:43 EST GOING DOWN Towards ONEDERLAND ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818590 I KNOW What SPARKS says about "DO NOT WEIGH IN DAILY" cos most will fluctuate up and down as much as 2 to 5 lbs on a given day. Notice "MOST" for I am not one of those,, and I've been clearly addicted to the scale for as long as my teenage yrs. I was on the gymnastic team,, you had to weigh 115lbs,,,, and I DID NOT ! It was such a hard struggle for me (OH WHERE are those DAYS NOW???). <BR> <BR> Life changes,,, and it did. Now I am with the rest of us,, walking this journey, but I ve met s... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 22:14:13 EST Update: foot,, also am learnin a valuable lesson, acceptance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815208 Today I had an appt at 2,,,, it was for a scat scan (SP) and at 3 I had the Surgeon. On my way outta of the hosp from the scan,,, I hit some tiles,,, and I had NOT tightened my knee scooter,,, and the tile of course has gout ,,, so KA BANG !! My wheel had suddenly turned to the right,, my body FLEW OVER the knee scooter,, and down on my knee,, of course of bad foot,,,, I am thankful it's only got a good knot on it,,,,, and a finger is sore,, not broken,,, as well my hip, leg, and back on le... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 23:11:08 EST Facing the FOOD MONSTER at the FOOD COUNT (Mall) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811824 Yesterday,,,, I needed to vacate my apt,, while the landlord worked on it,,,, LOL So did Missy Izzy,, and how just to have TO MANY RULES of STUPIDITY the landlord has decided we can NOT bring our pets from one apt to another one !! GRRRR That put me in QUITE A BIND !!! So I called the office,, got "special permission" since kitty was not doing a "social call" (DUH??? Ever know a CAT to WANT to go to another place as a SOCIAL CALL???),,, she was allowed to stay at a friends,,,,,,, as LONG as ... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 08:10:41 EST Ouchers....how I've felt today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808444 This is what I woke up with today: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l417851856.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As you can see it's quite sore and I was soooo scared I had broken my toe again. <BR> <BR> I at once called the Dr. I was told. "It's supposed to hurt a lot. Be swollen, and the bruises are from not being able to walk on it. Well of course I didn't tell my Dr that I had been walking some. Tuesday when I finally got off the cast, I then had permission to do so. I c... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 00:30:04 EST Woke up laughing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807496 This. Morning, about 7 AM, I could feel something strange around me. I. Cautiously opened me eyes to see this goober staring at me and purring as loud as possible!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1064733234.jpg"> <BR> <BR> She now thinks my tablet is hers. I keep her claws cut, and have down loaded a game for cats to play where she chases around a mouse which squeaks when she hits it with her paw. She gets soooo excited she actually has the tablet between ... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 10:43:51 EST Hmmm being Nakked ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806669 Well as most of us know,,, today I was to get OFF FINALLY my cast !! WOOHOOO !!! <BR> <BR> In came the Dr after X Rays were taken. Its both GOOD and NOT good news. I am NOT healed well,,,, but also the cast is making my foot very, very sore. So today this is my result ! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l271321687.jpg"> <BR> <BR> YES !! the CAST IS OFF !!!!! YEAH !!! <BR> <BR> BUT !! The fusion is NOT healed,,, it was ONLY taken off since it was making holes ... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 00:19:23 EST I Passed a HARD TEST on this journey today ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805888 WE ALL KNOW what "time of yr" it is now. Its CANDY TIME !! The sweeter the better !! AND BEST of ALL to a CANDY HOLIC its ALL ON SALE !! WOOHOOOO !! Is not that SWEET??? <BR> <BR> Or is it???? <BR> <BR> Today, I went to the dollar store,,, they had A TON of my favorites,,,,, I saw my ABSOLUTE Fav this time of yr,,, peanutbutter kisses !! Even as a kid,, when I got these in my bag,,, I'd go CRAZY !!!! I just LOVE THEM to pieces and pieces !!! Right down to the last taste in my mouth ! <BR... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 18:55:34 EST Have lost 70 plus lbs. What I've learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803829 I've been on Sparks now for 3 years. In this time I've gone from 288 to my successful weigh in today of 212.4!! Not bad I say. It's been quite the journey!!! I've been up and down the 200s quite a bit, and once down as far as 174. <BR> <BR> I got very scared of the success at 174, I hadn't prepared for others freaked out when they started to to b looking at me and making specific remarks about myself and 2 of them commenting on parts of me. As a rape victim it made me hurt inside and... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 08:43:11 EST It saddens me,,, my BFF is dying from overeating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801193 One of my dearest friends since childhood,,, has been very depressed most of her life. She "says" now "I am not" I tend to disagree. She sees one emotion at a time,,,, whereas most of us swing from one to another. We 've been friends since we were in the 7th grade,,,, I was 12,,, she was 11. She was over weight then,,,, I was drop dead skinny. we both ate tas much, but it piled pped on her,, not me. <BR> <BR> Well until I was in early 40s or was it my late 30s? I've forgotten tonight... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 00:14:51 EST THis is such a HARD challenge for me ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800623 I am a SUD (Spirited Undah Dawg) with the 5% challenge. I am also the CL (Challenge Leadah) and as such I always do my best to be a good example. <BR> <BR> This week though, we have 2 LTGL (Living The Good Life )part of the challenge,, and its a 2 parter neither of which I'll do well on. One is the NEE (No Evening Eating), and also how many hrs did you sleep? We can count a maximum of hrs we can count is 9 hrs of sleep. And where do I average?? SIGH ! In general about 4 to 6 !! Generall... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 23:21:05 EST Going slow, but progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796281 Today's weight in day for the Spirit under Dawgs team. I had gone up the first week 6.2 lbs cos I had fallen and of course was (still am some) swollen. Especially on my left side where I hit the floor. I'm working on this. <BR> <BR> 2nd week I am soooo grateful I lost those 6.2 lbs. I had my feet above my heart, which I need to do again. Lol Izzy doesn't like this, for she is much of a lap cat. Any time I sit cross legged,, she runs right over. Soooo cute , but hard to do with feet... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 10:23:23 EST I had no intentions of doing it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793648 Sometimes life just surprises us ! <BR> <BR> Yesterday,,, which was soooo gorgeous outside,, and again today,, how can my spirits,, my well being not soar with the eagles? Well it feels this way. <BR> <BR> I used to be soooo very depressed,, for 20 yrs. So to say this now,, is such a gift,,, i am sooo grateful to God for this,,, and also to my sweetest GD, who's now all grown, but I had such an influence on her,,, and she's a Lovely Young Lady,,, reflecting on these,, the amount of lovi... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 21:03:45 EST Slowly does it,,,, Esp when in chronic pain,, did I? Can U? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793118 Today,,, i so badly wanted to help my team,, the SUD (Spirited Under Dawgs) of the 5% challenge. <BR> <BR> So so slooooowly started off. At first I did only 20 mins of arm work. for the few who do not know,, I've been recovering from surg since June. I can't do much,, and have a ton of other problems health wise,,, so the 20 was enough. <BR> <BR> Than later this afternoon,,,, I did 50 mins of yoga. I do the beginners yoga,,, on youtube. My neck has been hurting sooo badly. If I went ... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 00:04:09 EST Iz there any benefit to my "Tracking"? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5792487 When I first came to SpaRKs yrs ago,, I think it was 4 yrs ago,,, I had been writing down in the AM,,, 1240 for a calorie allowance for my day. Than evrything I ate,,, I'd simply subtract that amount of cals. This did work quite well. But than I started to struggle,, with not losing,,,,, I was NOT sure why. Turned out when you do 2 hrs of exercise,, one NEEDS to EAT MORE Cals,,, LOL I was of course HAPPY to do so ! LOL !!} <BR> <BR> But, how did I find out that "Tracking" has ,, has it b... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 22:21:04 EST sigh,, when does this get better? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789982 Hi, thank you for reading my blog. <BR> <BR> As most of you know I had surgery back in June. I was in a cast until a week ago Tuesday, or so was the plan. But, as most also know I fell the Sunday before and broke the surgery toe all the way through, so yeah I'm still in my cast. <BR> <BR> Tonight I was putting ice on it. I noticed this: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/6/l763991872.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Needless to say it's upsetting, for the entire foot hurts, I'm ... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 20:37:14 EST U gained "HOW MUCH"??? WHY ??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787598 Dearest readers,,, Dawggies,,,, <BR> <BR> Tomorrow (Sat) is weigh in day. i am one who feels they MUST weigh in daily. It goes back to being a teen,,,, and not weighing enough to be on the gymnastic team. I had to weigh daily to remain on it,,, I was 108,, they wanted 110,,, 112,, and for me,, it was virtually impossible to gain,, so the coach told me "I hope no one has a scale with them. Oisr you will be off the team,, and I was the captain !!! <BR> <BR> So yeah, I still carry this o... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 21:44:53 EST Day 33,,,, can one really exercise, when the body is broken? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786471 Dearest Readahs,,, <BR> <BR> TY so MUCH for all the LOVELY well wishes yesterday ! <BR> <BR> Today I did my MD. I did NOT thankfully break any bones with the fall on Mon,,, the broken foot part on Sun's fall is enough ! <BR> <BR> I did though strain the tendon in the upper part of my arm. Also I did strain the tendion in my good foot from using that one all the time,,,,, it's now 14 weeks of being in casts,,,,,so yeah my right (good) foot is taking a beating. To help these ,,, I am now... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 23:32:06 EST Day 32,,, life is not always what we want, enduring, keeping streak ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785763 Today is day 32 of execerise,,,,,,,, <BR> <BR> The Dawggies are aware,, that on Sunday,,, at 6AM,,, I had fallen. I am in an air cast,,,, except for when I sleep,,,, of course I do not have to wear it,,, giving my foot a much needed chance for air,, to help heal the sores. Finally they are almost gone. When I fell I KNEW at ONCE that foot,,, which I had surgery on,,, June 16rh was definetly in trouble ! <BR> <BR> Of course my Dr's office is closed on Sundays,, he was in surg all day y... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 22:00:50 EST Day 29, doing FINE ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783773 This is day 29 of my exercise "Streak". Well that's when i made up my Febble minded self (LOL) to do a streak. This has been amazing. <BR> <BR> I am now regularly doing my exercise,, and lookin to expand the yoga vids I find on youtube. I am having so much FUN ! Today the one I did worked on my abs,,,, YO ! Did I FEEL that ! but, there's a nice difference between "soreness" and "oh my, I am now in pain, and will need to see the Dr",, this was the nice pain,,,, just showed I did a very go... Sat, 20 Sep 2014 23:12:44 EST Day 28, Yoga with a cast on? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783241 LOL YES tonight I was doing a harder video of yoga,, with my Cast ON !! NO DOUBT my Dr would of had a FIT had he of known,,, I m not saying a WORD !!! BUT !!! I was soooo careful to ALWAYS protect that foot,,,, keeping it as coddled as much as I could. Which was all except for getting down on the floor,, and back up again. <BR> <BR> I totally ADORE yoga !! Its sooo much fun, and reminds me a lot of the types of stretches I did when I was in gymnastics, only now I weigh 100 lbs MORE ! That ... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 23:20:29 EST Day. 27, emotions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782317 Hi dearest. Readers, <BR> <BR> I've been watching on Amazon.com a show called. Heavy. It's about 2 people they match up for 6 months. Lately it's been a woman and a guy, ages vary. <BR> <BR> I really like this show for its making me face my own eating habits, as well as how I got here. <BR> <BR> Many of us can pinpoint a time in life where we started to eat poorly and hence started to gain. My thyroid was fast so I didn't gain unlike my friend who was with me. We were in the first gra... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 12:13:09 EST Day 25, how is this helpin me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781295 Ahhhh Day 25 !!!! I have NOT slipped. I may, if a bad illness hits, but even right now, with foot hurting like mad, I was able to while at my religious meeting,,, to get in 20 mins of "walking" well that's "walking" with One foot, which was pushing along my knee walker. <BR> <BR> I may also do some beginners shoulder, upper back yoga. Prob will,,, they are hurting, and as most of us know,, when you lay around,, sit around,, ,and do NOT take a proaction against pain, it just GROWS to an UN... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 23:19:03 EST Day 21 streak, yoga for back - beginners http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778312 WOOHOOO Today is day 21 of my exercise streak !!! Tonight I was talking to our FABOOOOLOUS MaryAnn(GI) and she said to not think of it, as 1,000 days and if I "Screw up" to not let be thought of as a "Screw up" as I had been considering it to be. Said to take it in smaller increments. Such as in 50 days at a time, it'll not be sooo daunting. :) That's good advice, but PLZ DO NOT tell her I agree ! LOL ! I am such a STINKER ! <BR> <BR> Todays yoga ,,, I worked on my back. I had earlier ... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 02:29:10 EST Streak Day 20, triggers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777453 Today is day 20 of my exercise streak ! WOOOHOOOO !! more yoga,,, for my neck, which has decided it's wants to be very sore. Tomorrow I FINALLY since the end of May see the back Dr,, who will work on my entire body,,, starting with my neck ! WOOHOOO !!!! <BR> <BR> For the Fall Challenge, we've been asked: What are your triggers? <BR> s <BR> Like most of us, I DO at times eat emotionally. I had just lost my Dad less than 2 weeks ago, and also Dick, who I considered my 2nd Dad a few days... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 20:05:17 EST Day 16, Help for neck, shoulders/Headaches http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774869 HI !! WELCOME !! <BR> <BR> Today I feel kinda LAZY !! We all have those days. But, what do we DO with them? Take OFF ALL day from exercise? ANd let the THOUGHTS control our actions? Or move any ways, and hope as you start,, it HELPS ! <BR> <BR> I was earlier on reading a SPARK Article on depression, which I used to suffer from sooo badly. It was RIGHT on, it pointed out that exercise DOES help increase the endorphin's in our brains, a FEEL GOOD pathway for helping with the depression. ... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 23:14:58 EST Day 15, gorgeous, lovely day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774320 Today one of those late summer days we wish we could BOTTLE up and keep forever !! it was just PERFECT !! High 70s, with a strong breeze,,,, just a GREAT Day for sitting on the Green Belt (Walking path,which goes thru many towns/cities here in Maine. I am soooo fortunate to live on it. I asked though for the SUNNY side of the building,,, but, had they of given me the harbor view,,, I think that would of been ok to, though I dO ADORE the sunshine ! LOL So does the Meower I own, or rather w... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 00:54:08 EST Streak Day 11, thinkin of how did I get into this mess? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771524 Its Day 11 of my exercise streak. I've been watching HEAVY, A show in which 2 contestants lose what they can (its NOT a contest against each other) to lose their weight in 6 months. The first month they are under a managed, control 6, which they do exercise, 5 to6 yhrs a day, along with therapy to figure out :What bought this about, what emotions?: <BR> <BR> That got me to thinking, what emotions has done this to me? Andof interesting, in talking to one of my BFF's who's rather large,,,... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 23:32:06 EST Streaking day 8, relaxing Yoga (link) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769706 First I want to say THANKS to ALL of you !! During this time,, of my Dad's passing, I DO SO MUCH SO wish say "THANKS For ALL the support" !!! Its amazing how those of us on a putah though in some cases we haven't met, are still as close as we are. He is now free of all the pain. <BR> <BR> Today is day 8 !!! Of my exer streak ! YEAH !!! I waited til just b4 I wind down for bed (2AM, did this starting at midnight) 25 mins of yoga,, and did "relaxation" one. They use a strap for yoga,, in su... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 00:59:25 EST Goodbye Daddy,,,, U were the BEST Dad for me ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768091 Dearest Readers,,,, <BR> <BR> My Dad did pass on this AM,,,, around 9EST. He went peacefully thankfully. He lived in FL,,,, and most of us kids are in Maine. He was with his hospice nurse, Caroline. It takes a special type of person who can work with those who dying/than gone. She knew Daddy from working with him over the yrs,,, he thought the world of her. I am so THANKFUL she was with him. That helps to sooth the worry/pain of losing him. <BR> <BR> My Dad,,,, he was just the PERFEC... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 12:54:08 EST Day 5 (Streak) Yoga for Neck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767661 Today is DAY 5 of my STREAK !!! <BR> <BR> How am I getting in some time you may ask? For Friday I was put on restriction from bearing weight on my surgery foot. (It now has an ulcer on the bottom of it,,,, need to see surgeon again next week,, as I did today,,,, they are inbetween on 0.............(LOL Izzy just walked on puter ! LOL She THINKS its her toy. now my Kindle Fire, IS one of her toys,,, I have downloaded a CAT /MICE game ! She LOVES to play it ! It's terribly funny,,,,, I nee... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 21:52:49 EST Day # 4 of exercise streak.... need to be careful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767053 Thank you so much for reading this. <BR> <BR> Starting a streak of something of anything we choose can b daunting if we expect to much of ourselves. So plz do pick something u want badly to do and than just start it...think of it day by day. <BR> <BR> Today.is day # 4 of my exercise streak. Smiling. <BR> <BR> I have my knee walker which I need to use for now since I have the hole on the bottom of my foot. I see the surgeon tomorrow at (Tuesday) first appointment at 8. This is the 2nd t... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 00:18:37 EST Days 2&3 of exercise streak...Beginners yoga http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766411 Hi. All u fabulous Sparklers! <BR> <BR> I'm on day number 3 of my first real streak! I'm so excited to take this serious. <BR> <BR> I didn't blog yesterday. I was tired..so sorry. <BR> <BR> What I did was to go Jen Hillman.com one word. She is a physical therapist who also has a bunch of yoga video s for us for free. I also look her up on YouTube. I put in beginners yoga for.. <BR> Than I put the the part of my body which hurts the most. So yesterday I kinda wanted the day off so ... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 01:29:26 EST Lets go STREAKING ! Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765186 Remember when "Streaking" was a taking off ur clothes and RUNNING thru a crowd of people? LOL !!! We paid a neighborhood boy, who went to the same Inner City HS with us. We offered to pay him 10.00$ to RUN NAKKED up thru Congress Street,, which on the end of the HS is all business. He STRIPPED DOWN In a door way,,,, than OFF HE WENT !!! He was WHITE Skinned as can be !! And things shall we say,, "Where a flopping"? It was soooo funny,, I'll never forget it ! So that's what STREAKING US... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 22:13:14 EST Getting ready for the FALL Challenge ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764631 We do not yet have the date for the Start of the FALL Challenge, but I am already GEARING UP FOR IT !!! <BR> <BR> Thru the summer challenge,, my paws were UP in the air,,, and depending of when the FALL Challenge I "MAY" start off with my PAW UP also,,, it's currently in an air cast,, the infection I've been dealing with for almost 2 weeks,, is FINALLY clearing up (YEAH !) so I am going to call Dr's office next week,, and see if I can pick up activity !! BUT !!!!! I MAY have an ulcer on the ... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 00:49:13 EST I once felt life was not worth it,,,,,,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760387 Yesterday Robin Williams committed suicide. He had no doubt felt as the rest of us who have tried this,,, "The world would be so much off without me." And its an "honest" but, mislead feeling at the time. <BR> <BR> That is exactly how I had felt,,,, I had tried way more than once, two or 3 times. Ending up on the ICU more than once,,,,, there was one time,,,,it was for 3 days in a coma. My family/friends came in,,,, to support me, all I could see was "I failed",,,, their words of love,,,... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 16:02:27 EST Oh my !! its True ! But, also some good news ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758538 TY for those who read yesterdays blog,,,,, it had to do with my Dad,,, he's sooo slowly passing away. Of course my heart is very sad,,,,, I am his "Little Girl" LOL no matter what size I am ! I will clearly miss him. Tonight he asked "how are you"? And than "I love you hon" which was all he could get out,,, his breathing is so bad at this point. I wish with all my heart,,, he'd just go to sleep,,,, I know I'll see him back on the Earth in time. And than he will NOT hurt any longer,,,... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 21:50:49 EST I'm/we are entitled to a bad day,,, today is mine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757773 Its just not a "fun" day,,, and I am not in my usual good mood,,,,, <BR> <BR> My Dad is soooo ever slowly passing away,,,,,, and that hurts. Why does it have to be so hard for him? Hard on us watching him. He's to pass away any day. If ur a regular regular reader,, you know that my Dad and I have always been very close. I've always been "Daddy's Little Girl" though out my entire ,life,, no matter what my changing circumstances have been. I love ya Dad !!! I wish he could just quicl... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 19:33:33 EST Update,, SURPRISE ! **I WAS** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755486 Well today turned out be a SURPRISING Day !! <BR> <BR> I had been this for 2 weeks now: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l827112893.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And 2 weeks b4 the orange one I was in: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1480591902.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I had surgery on June 16th to correct a toe which was turned outward,,,, by about 75% and it HURT like MAD to walk on. The pic I cant find was for the first 2 weeks,,, b4 the yellow cast... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 01:42:12 EST Getting kinda freaked out,, time will tell http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750541 As so many of you already know,, I had the surgery in June,, to straighten out my big left foot toe,,,,,,, and have since then been in 3 casts,,, with the last one now on,, for another week. <BR> <BR> I noticed last night,,, that FOOLISH/ROTTEN toe is already turning sideways AGAIN !! MAN OH MAN !! its IN the cast !! I kinda wanted to call the Dr, and RUSH ON IN today, but he's not in again til tues,, and the cast comes off any ways on Fri,, so of course,, I'll wait. <BR> <BR> I HOPE I am... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 17:44:24 EST It would be UNBELIEVABLE , but it's MY life ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746712 OK,,, for those who are new to here,,,, I had surg on the 16th of June, so 6 weeks have passed. It was to correct my left big toe,, which was in the process of turning UPSIDE DOWN ! It was on the side for the most part,,, and yet,, a part of it was almost in that upside down position. IT HURT so BADLY that I WANTED this surg very badly and RIGHT off,, though it'll and has affected going an hr aways,,, to a convention next weekend,,, (though I Do have permission now,, as long as I sleep on ... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 00:31:18 EST I want it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745951 Tomorrow if Fri the 25th, and I FINALLY get OUT of my knee cast !! I have had them on now since the middle of June !! So yeah,, its TIME !! WOOHOOO !! ANd no,, I would nOT want it "as a reminder" though it IS PURDY in that it's NEON YELLAH !!! LOL someone yesterday remarked "WOW ! That's QUITE a traffic cone you have there" !! I just laughed. <BR> <BR> I am a DAWGGIE (Spirited Under Dawg) on the 5% challenge,, where we weigh in weekly... most of us do so on Saturdays,, though we can pick ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 21:14:33 EST I feel like I am out of prison ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743874 Well I've actually not ever been in prison,,, but, I was THREATENED with it twice in life,, one time I was only 7,, for breaking /entering with thousands of $$$s worth of damage. I DID NOT think about being wrong ! I did it for FUN ! ANd it was FUN, a friend had told me ,, she had done so the weekend b4 and how much FUN she had,, so of course I had ,, just had to join my friend. The other time,, was during my "drinking" days, which thankfully are in the past,,, quite a bit !! I had lost... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 00:43:59 EST This doesn't make me smile,,,,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739772 As my regular readers know,,, I had surg on the 16th of June. I went from the 1st cast ,, which was hard,, but wasn't all the way closed,, to help with the swelling,, to now a hard cast closed in,, bright neon yellow. I need to stay on the bed, couch, or bathroom. Of course being single now,, and no kids in the home now (Why do they grow up so FAST?) I need to also get my own food,,,, and clean up the few dishes I use,,, I am concentrating on going HIGH protein to help the bone heal. <BR... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 01:26:31 EST