DIABOLIQUE15's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=DIABOLIQUE15 DIABOLIQUE15's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Is it still water? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395254 So here is my dilemma. To say that I dislike the taste of water is an extreme understatement. I think it tastes horrible, yes even bottled water. So I have been adding Crystal light and other sugar free drink mixes to it. It is the ONLY way I can get it down. Now you need to understand that I am a recovering Pepsi addict. Pepsi was my crack. I used to drink 6 or more 12oz cans (not diet) per day! I have now gotten it down to 1-2 20oz Pepsi Next bottles per month. It is a joke at work because... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 13:33:43 EST eating challenges this week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393347 Eating healthy will be tricky this week. I am going back to my regular schedule at my 2nd job and there won't be time to cook at all today or tomorrow. I work my day job from 8am till 5pm and my night job waiting tables from 5pm till sometime between 10pm and 12am. I won't get to eat until after I get off from the 2nd job. By that time I'm too tired to cook and the only places open are fast food. I'm going to do my best but I'll need to figure out what to do in the coming weeks. Oh and to com... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 11:31:24 EST OMG! Someday is TODAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390654 I am so excited! This has nothing at all to do with weight loss....or maybe it does. We will see how this development may or may not affect it. Nearly 15 years ago I made the hardest decision of my life. My twin boys were 5 years old living in Kansas with my ex husband and I was here in South Carolina. Contacting them was difficult and getting to see them was impossible. When I did talk to them it didn't go very well. They had a step mother who loved them and took care of them as her own, at ... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 09:53:52 EST I did it! Finally! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388454 It took much longer than it should have but I finally went in there and pushed through my annoyance. My son even helped me. He's in there putting it to good use now AND I was sweating by the time I was done, so yeah, I think it counts as a workout! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/2/l620161223.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> Thu, 13 Jun 2013 22:07:18 EST I need motivation (and an engineering degree LOL) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388107 This is almost too embarrassing to admit, but here it goes. For Christmas this year I decided to surprise my now 13 year old son with a home gym bought from Walmart. It was something he was interested in that would benefit me in my weight loss journey as well. I wrapped up a picture of it in a box for him....there was no way to sneak it into the house to surprise him. So we finally got it to the house by the end of January. Now through the years, as a single mom, I have put countless toys, fu... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 14:20:54 EST Trying something new. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387078 I need a new approach. Trying to eat healthier and track my food works, but only for so long. After a while I get complacent or tired of trying to log in everything I eat. Sometimes it's not so easy to figure out if you don't make a recipe already on Sparkrecipes or eat out at a local restauraunt that doesn't have a nutrition guide. So here is my plan. Goodbye fast food, well except for the Wendy's Berry Almond Chicken salad yummmmm . <em>211</em> I will make a concious effort to eat three ... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 14:46:42 EST Only one month left in my 30's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5328663 Well more accurately 1 month and 3 days. Unfortunately I will not be making my goal for my birthday. I stumbled and fell on my dieting and exercise plan but I am going to pick myself up off the ground and keep going. 140lbs won't be happening anytime soon. I got down to 180 and then plateaued for months. Eventually I just gave up. luckily I only gained 8.4lbs before I woke up and said NO! I WILL NOT GO BACK! So today is a new day. I set a new goal....170lbs by 4th of July. Baby steps. Instead... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 11:45:07 EST Time to get back on track! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202249 I've been gone for a couple of months. Life got in the way, but I didn't do so bad. During that time I've been dealing with a lot of stress primarily caused by a bullying incident at my son's school where he defended himself and he got severly punished and the bullies got nothing! zip, zero, nada. not to mention the holidays. I wasn't keeping track of my food and didn't have time for exercise. So I will consider only a 2lb gain a huge success. That means I'm learning and adjusting my lifestyl... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 13:45:15 EST weirdest injury EVER!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081970 I haven't written a blog in a while. I've been frustrated because I just can't seem to get past this plateau. But I had to write about this. You have never heard anything like this before and you never will again. Only someone as "talented" as me could have something so odd happen. I was washing the dishes. The collander from the night before had spaghetti stuck on it. The scrubby part of the sponge wasn't working so the smartypants that I am decided to scrape it off with my nail. DO NOT EVER... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 10:46:27 EST Vacation derailment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5025060 I went on vacation last week with the best of intentions. I knew I was going to eat somewhat unhealthy and more than usual, but I had a plan. I booked a hotel I used to stay at when I was a kid. There was a pool, a sauna, a jacuzzi and an exercise room. I would be fine and everywhere we were visiting required tons of walking. Then we got there. The sauna was long gone, the jacuzzi was boarded up and the equipment in the exercise room wasn't exactly in tip top shape. To top it all off the indo... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 14:32:49 EST Another positive "side effect" to my weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989404 So I was at my second job serving tables earlier this week and it was pretty slow. Uh oh. I work with a bunch of kids age 18-25 so it can get pretty interesting when we are bored. Several funny things went on and I couldn't help but laugh. Then one of the girls came to me and said "You know, I don't think I've ever heard you laugh so much." I've been thinking about that statement for a few days now. Was I really that grumpy? Did I really not laugh and joke with everyone? sadly the answer is y... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 14:24:06 EST taking 2 steps back. GRRRR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4986005 Not having a great week so far. I feel like I took 1 step forward and 2 steps back. I was doing so good and then my good intentions got messed up. I was all ready to exercise Monday night . After work I went to my car and the rearview mirror is just hanging by the wire for the reading lights...just great! I changed my clothes and headed to the place I go to workout and the door is locked, no one is there. Lovely! My friend said we needed to get our stuff out of the building we had the yard sa... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 09:27:50 EST Protein is up, Weight is down, and I'm feeling good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4983111 As some of you know from previous Blogs I was told I wasn't eating enough protein even though I was within my range. Later I was also told that even though I was staying within most of my ranges the weight wasn't coming off as fast because I wasn't really eating breakfast. This is a hard one for me because I'm not a morning person. I'm lucky if I get myself moving enough to make it to work on time and the only breakfast food I ever have time for is fattening junk like pop tarts and doghnuts. ... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 11:33:34 EST Taking back my life!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4978980 It's time to take back my life. I deserve better than what I have and I'm not going to settle anymore! <BR> First there are a few things that I'm not very proud of. I've been letting my friend take advantage of me and treat me like his dirty little secret for 2 years. Whenever anybody calls me his girlfriend or asks how long we've been dating he says "we're just friends". And I let him get away with it. I was always making excuses for him. "he's waiting for his divorce to be final so she does... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 09:43:56 EST Mysterious injury http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4970447 Today has been so frustrating! I haven't gotten to exercise most of the week because of bad weather and trying to get my son ready for his Boy Scout camping trip and now it looks like I won't get much exercise next week. After I dropped my son off and they left for Alabama I went to the yard sale my friend was having and let me set up a table of junk. I was walking around and my calf was achy like I had worked out so I just thought I slept wrong or something. I wish! I was walking across the ... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 20:25:47 EST somewhat ridiculous but still flattering http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4967120 After working my 2nd job waiting tables last night I had to run to Walmart. Since I was there I went to price yoga mats. I don't do yoga but I want a mat for when we are doing exercises that require kneeling or lying down. I walk around the corner to the exercise equipment and run into one of the cooks, a server that does nothing but lift weights and drink Muscle Milk when he's not working, and 2 guys I don't know. These guys are all about 20 years old. So we're talking and they call me miss ... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 12:06:21 EST Protein update week 1...well half a week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4962336 So after I was told last Thursday that my protein intake was way too low I started eating as much protein as possible and the scale started to move! Since Thursday I lost 2.8 lbs to get to 190.4. Now I was down to 189.6 yesterday until I indulged...more of that later. So I really think this might be the way for me to go. I ate 122 grams Friday, 125 grams Saturday and 93 Sunday. The only problem I'm having is my high protein foods also seem to have a high sodium content. If it isn't one thing ... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 14:04:19 EST The power of protein http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4959084 I have been exercising and tracking everything thing I eat. I've been staying within my goals for calories, fat, and protein. I've been having a little trouble getting enough fiber even with supplements and getting too much sodium even though I don't add any salt to anything. Still i've been frustrated. lose a few lbs one week, gain one back the next. I told myself it was because muscle weighs more than fat and I had been upping the exercise. Apparently not. I was at the nutrition place that ... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 10:16:07 EST Vacation destination finally decided! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4958226 I am so excited! I decided to take my son to the place I had the most fun going to on family vacations when I was young. Williamsburg Virginia. Every year I try to take him somewhere fun right before school starts. I felt bad last year because I couldn't afford it so we had a "staycation". One night in a hotel and a day at the waterpark. BORING! I can't wait to take him to Busch Gardens and historical Williamsburg. He loves history so I know he will enjoy it. And then there is the waterpark. ... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 16:04:09 EST cheat day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955652 Of course 4th of July turns into my cheat day. I would have done great but because I was headed out to the river with friends and we were running late everyone ended up eating double cheeseburgers from McDonald's for lunch. Cheap, quick, and easy but full of fat. By being careful the rest of the day I only went over my calories by 167 and it was the first time since I started tracking that I went over my fat grams. I don't really think I did much damage what with all the swimming, climbing up... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 22:07:40 EST Fun day at the water park http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4951092 We spent 7, yes 7, hours at the water park today! Just me and my son. I felt bad we had to take a trip on his birthday and we hadn't gotten to do anything fun for it so off we went today. It's been so hot out the water park seemed like the perfect idea. Of course it was hard to find a healthy eating choice. I don't think I did too bad an all beef hot dog and my first pepsi in a month. I'm pretty sure I burned it off walking up the endless flights of stairs on the water slides lol. By the time... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 22:57:59 EST The oops that wasn't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4946698 It seems I totally overreacted about the cupcake today. I've been eating so much better that I didn't even go over my calories today. In fact I have 140 left for the day after dinner! I didn't get the 3 miles walk in. It was just too hot. So 30 minutes of metabolics and 1 mile will have to do. Although, I will try to get in some hula hoop before bed. <BR> <BR> Today's lesson: I do not have to give up sweet treats completely. I just need to eat sensibly and work them in to my day. That does n... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 18:48:26 EST Oops!....maybe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4946057 Okay, so I've been really good for almost a month now. I've been exercising. I haven't been eating junk and I haven't gone over my calories.....until today. My co-worker comes in from running the office errands and plops a package of homemade cupcakes on my desk! "you gotta have one" she says "I know you are dieting but one won't hurt you." Well yes it can but I won't let it. I think instead of a mistake I'm going to call the red velvet cupcake(delicious by the way) a treat for doing so well.... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 10:54:41 EST Balancing act http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4941813 So I finally reached 10lbs down on Sparkpeople for a total loss of 18lbs! Only 52 more to go. The balancing act I'm trying to control is a constant struggle. Between my two jobs, my son, my friend and his kids I feel like I might lose balance at any time. Some days I don't feel like I have any time for myself. I don't mind helping him with his kids. He only has them for the summer, but sometimes...okay all the time...I feel like he takes me for granted. I didn't get asked if I had any plans f... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 14:46:49 EST Why I am so hungry today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4938049 Well I've been starving all day and couldn't figure out why. Now I know. I've slowly been adding in more exercise. Yesterday is when I really amped up my exercise doing twice as much as usual and I ate on the very low end of my calorie range. Today when I got back from doing some aerobics I entered it into my fitness tracker and got a warning from Sparkpeople, "If you are burning more calories than usual you may need to adjust your fitness goals because you may not be eating enough calories" ... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 18:30:45 EST All I can say is OWWWWW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4936757 I had every intention of losing this weight mostly through diet modification with minimal exercising. By myself. In my home. Like Hula Hooping and Various X-Box Kinect games. So then today a friend invited me to join her after work. A few women get together at this nutrition place. They do a 30 min video and then walk. I figured why not? It would be nice having some local support. Well todays video happened to be strength training of which I have done nada, zip, zero!! I didn't have any weigh... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 19:56:57 EST STRESSSSSSSS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4934915 Do you remember the old Calgon commercials where everything is going crazy and the lady says "Calgon take me away" and just for that little while everything is quiet and calm? I really, really need that. I just want to check out for a few days. Only a little while that I'm not stressing over paying bills or working two jobs or "mom, what's for dinner?"or every little thing I eat. Today I realized that I forgot to pay the water bill when I went home for lunch and had no water. It wasn't that I... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 14:44:47 EST Planning makes the difference! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4931715 Boy I needed that night out with friends! I was having so much fun that I drank waaay too much. But it's okay because I planned for it. I put all the alcohol I drank into my tracker and was still within my calories. Not to mention that I danced quite a few of them back off. I only do this once every 6-12 months so I'm not going to feel guilty about it. Saturdays and Sundays are still bizzare for me. Struggling to eat the minimum calories. I still don't understand that. Maybe it's because I'm ... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 14:15:15 EST It's 12:30 and things are slightly better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4927731 So he went and got the tire fixed before they left on the field trip and I was able to get a ride to the car when I went to lunch, of course the car had no gas. Then I tried to drive it. Can we track driving a car with no power steering fluid in our exercise for the day? I mean I could barely steer the car. It took all the strength I had to turn the wheel. On a positive note I was able to eat lunch at home. I wasn't very hungry so I had 3 slices of deli turkey rolled with american cheese and ... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 12:27:28 EST Having an awful day and it's only 8:30!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4927391 I would really like a do-over on the start of this day. My friend an d his 3 daughters stayed the night last night-no problem....until this morning. They have a field trip with the day camp today so they were excited but I'm just not used to whining and fighting about "I don't want to wear that!, No I wanna play the video game, or flat out ignoring daddy's request to get ready. My son has NEVER given me a problem getting up or dressed in the mornings, thank goodness. Meanwhile I'm trying to g... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 08:44:36 EST Someone noticed and it feels good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924948 I haven't been able to work my second job as a waitress much the last few months due to my son's baseball schedule. But, baseball is over and it's back to work I go. I hadn't seen one of my coworkers for a while and when she saw me last night the first thing she said was "Are you losing weight?" It felt so good to hear those words. I told her I had lost 5 lbs. She then made me feel even better..."no, you've lost more than that since I last saw you" which is entirely possible. I think I may ha... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 13:58:44 EST Reverse Anorexia?!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4917791 So this weekend I was at the park with my son, a friend and his daughters and he brought out the camera to take pictures. OMG! not good. When I saw the few pictures of myself that I wasn't able to avoid, my slight feeling of depression went into a downward spiral so badly that I actually went to the doctor to talk to her about depression, insomnia and my plan for losing the weight. I told her how even though the scale says 200(hers said 199 yeah) when I look in the mirror I only see about 175... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 13:35:40 EST It could've been worse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4911224 So I had a bad week this week. I'm up 1.6 lbs. I had to go on a road trip this weekend. We drove 1066 miles in 48 hours! Unfortunately that meant I didn't have time to eat healthy. Have you ever tried to eat a salad or Subway sandwich while driving? It just doesn't work! I tried to stay away from my weakness .... Pepsi, but I couldn't resist. So today begins a new week and back to tracking my food. We also took some pictures this weekend and when I saw myself I almost burst into tears. What I... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 09:39:53 EST Calorie Surprise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4900495 I've only been tracking my nutrition for a little over 2 weeks now, but I've found something interesting. I always thought that the weekends were when I was overeating and gut-busting my calories. So imagine my surprise when I realized I was actually having trouble eating enough calories on Saturday and Sunday! I even treated myself to my favorite beverage today since I was 300 calories under for yesterday....a 20oz bottle of Pepsi. I drank it half a bottle at a time throughout the day and I'... Sun, 27 May 2012 22:38:03 EST The last year in my 30's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4893204 So today I turn 39. It's just another typical day, but it's not. I still have to work both of my jobs today and I still have to take my son to baseball practice in between and then it sinks in. One short year from today will be the big 4-0. I have exactly one year to reach my goal of 140 lbs. 2lbs down 60 to go. Today will be a bad day calorie and fat wise. I know this already, but hopefully the fact that I was under on Saturday and Sunday (not on purpose) there won't be much damage to my die... Tue, 22 May 2012 15:42:44 EST