DEZIMAE's SparkPeople Blog

no spend month= no go...

Mon, 13 Aug 2012 13:42:52 EST

so obviously i suck at keeping my promise to blog once a week.

and i suck at keeping a budget when your best friend is getting married and you have to buy a whole crap ton of stuff for the wedding.

therefore, no spend month (july) didnt happen.

however, this month, i am on a tighter budget, and trying my hardest to stick to it.

i have also started to track my calories more diligently as well. so heres hoping. gotta get back on track.

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no spend month, week one...

Mon, 9 Jul 2012 13:10:24 EST

total spent: 34.24

money to roll over to this week: 15.76

making this weeks spending: 65.76

but still hoping to only spend 50, however, i know that i will have to get gas soon and some groceries (like milk and such).

however, last night we all went to a steak house here in OK, for my aunts birthday, and even though i got the cheapest thing on the menu, it was still 10.95. so that counts toward this week and i'm getting creative and finding things t...

Count down to No Spend Month... 2 days

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 13:01:38 EST

okay, so pay day was today. and i have figured out just how much i will be spending the ENTIRE month of July is: $230

so thats not TOO bad. im thinking 50 bucks a week. again this DOES NOT include bills, and i already took the 60 dollars out that i owe to my friends maid of honor for "my part" of the shower we are giving on Saturday the 7th.

starts on Sunday, the 1st. so by the 7th i will be making a blog post about my trials and tribulations with the first weeks spendi...

Prepping for July- No Spend Month

Sun, 24 Jun 2012 00:19:31 EST

so a few days ago while pinning on Pinterest, I came across a woman's blog where every year her and her family had a "No Spend Month" in July of every year. it was just her, her husband, and a small child, but they vowed to only use 250 dollars (not including bills) for the whole month of July on things like groceries, gas, clothing, etc. and every year, they have been able to accomplish that goal by eating at home, using what they had in their pantry, freezer, and refrigerator and making it ...

starting a new chapter... on a wednesday

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 15:19:54 EST

working with a runner and a health nut makes you really want to make a difference. thank you Lord Jesus for putting this wonderful person in my life. she makes me yummy nutritious snacks, and we can discuss workouts and health and all that fun stuff, and i dont feel like i'm being looked down upon.

so today starts C25K today. i was going to do it this morning.... but i am NOT a morning person. at all. i used to be. not anymore. i like my sleep, and i am a night owl. that and all t...

screw you Oklahoma weather...

Wed, 30 May 2012 13:43:28 EST

i love living in Oklahoma. dont get me wrong, theres hardly anything to do here, but its where i was born and raised, and i dont intend on ever leaving.

but lemme just say, why the hell is Chicago known as the windy city? have you EVER been to Oklahoma?! really? we should be known as the "never-wear-a-skirt-outdoors" state.

and to top it all off we get these AWESOME things called tornadoes... in case you were curious, that was sarcasm.

i think i would much ...

loving life for what it is...

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 12:11:09 EST

there has been so much going on in my life lately. stressing about this and that. being on a non stop emotional roller coaster. lots of ups and downs. anger, hurt, sadness, joy, happiness, loved. its all been there. Debbie (debbie130) showed me a blog that she had printed this morning. it was a blog from someone on here, but she cant remember who it was that wrote it. but they had a passage from a writer about appreciating life. and it really got me thinking. it got me thinking about how lazy...

feeling powerful and accomplished

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 12:36:22 EST

well today is Wednesday. we have to be at work early on Wednesdays for meetings early in the morning. boo! but the good news is we get off a little early as well.

today, i have only been awake 4 hours, and i already feel like i have accomplished a lot. i woke up (hey, thats an accomplishment in itself... if you only knew how cold my house was and how warm my bed was... man i didnt want to get up), took a shower, had a yummy smoothie for my breakfast, and got to work ON TIME. then ...

weekend update

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 17:08:24 EST

well friday went by pretty quick, we were busy at work, and then i went home and spent the evening doing a whole lot of nothing.

then saturday my mom, my sister, my little cousin (she's 14), and myself went to go look at bridesmaid dresses. and i think we found one! its really pretty and looks good on my curvy-self and also on the 14 year old stick figure. but we arent making a decision (well, a final decision) until a little closer to time. im just hoping im one dress size smaller...

Eric Church Concert

Fri, 9 Mar 2012 10:32:25 EST

so yesterday, after doing 2 workouts and working all day I went out with my best friend, her fiance, and another one of her friends to the Eric Church concert. she won tickets thru a local radio station so on top of getting to go to the concert we also got to do a meet and greet. i was thrilled that i would just get to touch him and take a picture with him. and then i learned we got free merchandice. so im thinking SWEET a free teeshirt. no we got FIVE teeshirts, a cd, a coozy for a drink, AN...

biggest loser day 1

Thu, 8 Mar 2012 10:49:45 EST

woke up this morning at 6... and its raining... so of course i didnt actually get out of bed till 6:15. so i went into the living room dressed in some yoga pants and a sports bra (thank GOD i live alone because i wouldnt want anyone but me and my dog seeing that action), popped in Jillian Michael's "30 day shred" and as the intro and all that jazz was playing I got a big glass of cold water, took my medication (nothing serious, skin issues... blah), and midol (thank you TOM for sucking hard c...

BIGGEST LOSER weigh in...

Wed, 7 Mar 2012 22:38:05 EST

my work is doing a biggest loser challenge.

i guess they do it every year, but seeing as i've only been there for a month, it is new to me. they offer some AWESOME cash prizes, along with surprises along the way that i am unaware of what they may be.

well weigh in was today, so i gorged. on everything i could get my hands on. tried filling myself to the brim. when i woke up this morning and discovered that my TOM had started, i was excited. extra water weight and bloat...

my life lately...

Mon, 5 Mar 2012 12:33:15 EST

you know that couple, the one that have been together for forever? the couple thats just so darn cute and you aspire to have your relationship be just like theirs? the one who have beautiful children, a lovely home, and just everything about them is perfect? yeah, that couple. well i just learned THAT couple, the husband came home the other night and told her he wanted a divorce.

WHAT?!?!?!

I never thought in a million years that that would EVER happen. He's the kind of ...

hitting rock bottom

Fri, 3 Feb 2012 01:55:50 EST

so i dont know what it is about me. i say im going to start again. but i just dont have that motivation like i used to have. i need that self motivation back and i am trying to find it, it just seems harder to find lately. i thought for sure my best friend getting married in August would be a motivator for sure, but its not. it needs to be, i'm gonna be in a bridesmaid dress for Christ's sake. i need to look fabulous.

i have hit my highest weight. ever. i dont even know what i am ...

oh sweet addiction...

Sat, 12 Nov 2011 22:15:41 EST

okay, so i have a new addiction.

i havent hidden it from anyone...

i spend hours upon hours doing it...

i wake up in the middle of the night just to feed the addiction...

it has taken the place of doing homework, and i even do it while i'm at work...

what is my addiction you ask?

Pinterest.com

it is AMAZING! I loveeeee this site. i've spent hours upon hours. in class, at work, while getting ready for work, while la...

thank goodness its friday... not

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 11:14:39 EST

sorry i didnt update last night, by the time i got home i was way too tired to even think about logging on. so an update on whats going on. my whiplash has gotten better, i still would love to have a massage to get everything straightened out. my ribs are bruised, yay for that action, and are so sore that wearing an actual bra is painful so sports bras all the way. today, being friday, is normally a joyous day for most because its the end of the work week and the beginning of the weekend.... ...

and the aftermath.

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 00:18:26 EST

waking up this morning was almost impossible. and typing this right now is close to unbearable. who would have known that a little tumble would cause so much pain. not only did everything i scraped up yesterday hurt even worse but there are bruises with each scrape, and then some. i have a mild case of whip lash. my shoulders, neck, back, arms, and hands hurt to actually move. so needless to say when i couldnt really get out of bed i decided school was a no go. so i slept in a little longer, ...

woah is me.

Tue, 8 Nov 2011 23:42:05 EST

today. today i had planned so many things. i didnt have work or school today so i figured i would get alot of things accomplished. my plan was to wake up around 8:30, have some breakfast, do some pushups/sit ups and maybe go for a walk around my complex, then i was going to fold some laundry, clean my bathroom, make some lunch, go grocery shopping, maybe do an exercise video or something, and then fix a big dinner that i could pack up in containers for left overs for the rest of the week. did...

i make no excuses...

Tue, 8 Nov 2011 00:49:20 EST

i have no excuses for the fact that i keep saying im going to start again and i havent yet. it is true i am a very busy person these days, with working and going to school and trying to have some what of a social life AND trying to date on top of it all. it just hasnt been the best of situations. with that said, i have yet to jump back on board like i have promised myself. i think my issue is that i am a people pleaser and i am trying to please everyone else when the real person i need to lea...

aaaanddd... its back to the pits.

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 19:09:42 EST

well, i havent been on in a while. mainly because life took another turn for the worse. Thomas and I broke up about 2 1/2 weeks ago. it was kind of a mutual thing. still really hard getting used to being alone. i hate being alone. i blame this on the fact that my sister and i were so close in age i never was alone because i always had her with me where ever i went and to play and do things with no matter what. heck, we live in the same apartment building just on opposite sides for crying out ...

I'M BAAAACCCCKKKK!!!

Thu, 2 Jun 2011 14:35:46 EST

alright, I am praying this will be the last time I say that I'm back. But I think its serious this time... just a little update...

So, I'm working again. nothing special, hotel receptionist, not much money and awkward hours but they work with me with school and everyone is super nice, and I have the opportunity for bonuses which is nice. The boyfriend has a great job as a detentions officer for our juvenile detention center. we are both making less money, but making it work. My mom...

There's nothing like watching Biggest Loser to make you feel like a fat a$$

Tue, 11 Jan 2011 21:48:44 EST

I'm sitting here (yes sitting here... ugh) watching Biggest Loser, and as much as an inspiration it is for me to lose the weight and get out of my big comfy chair to do something it also makes me feel horrible. yes I realize that they have a special designed diet that they have to control themselves and that I have that same thing through spark people, but they have this huge gym, and awesome trainers, and absolutely NOTHING but working out to do. if only i could have that. if i had the money...

a wedding, a birthday, a drunken fight, and the hospital...

Tue, 19 Oct 2010 20:41:07 EST

so this weekend was an eventful one for me. and when i say eventful i mean eventful...

Friday night was some friends of ours wedding. it was beautiful and so much fun. i caught the bouquet and Thomas caught the garter. we danced, we drank, we had fun. one of the best nights actually.

it was my moms birthday on Friday, but since we had the wedding she agreed to have a lunch on Saturday so that me and Thomas could enjoy her birthday with her. We went to a local mexican res...

hey everyone... im back.

Fri, 15 Oct 2010 10:57:05 EST

its been a long time. and to be honest a really really rough time.

as some of you know, i was laid off in May of this year. and i tried so hard to stay positive... and then emotions and life happened and i fell off the deep end. i slid into a depression that i tried to hide from everyone else, and sadly no matter how much i tried to hide it the people who are closest to me and love me the most could tell. i completely went off and stopped counting calories, quit doing my portion c...

getting laid off sucks!!!!

Mon, 10 May 2010 11:35:58 EST

so on wednesday of last week i got the horrible news that my company was getting rid of my position. i work (on friday it will be worked anyways) for a stock broking firm and my boss used to make 12 mil in revenue and because of the plunge hes barely getting 3. so they cant afford to keep me. so i am training my superiors how to do my job because they will have to take up the slack. anyways so my last day is friday, and im stressed to the max. i have ordered a 3 month supply of my prescriptio...

time to update

Thu, 29 Apr 2010 10:36:39 EST

well hello spark world. it has been a while, hasnt it?

hm. well i have been a busy and good girl. i've been weighing myself every day and taking the average of my weight for the week as my weigh in weight. i've noticed the days that i work my butt off i lose quite a bit and then it starts evening out as i dont work as hard. but the good news is its still dropping!!! i've started weight training (at last) and actually kind of enjoy it. i was a little intimidated at first and now its...

new weigh in

Wed, 21 Apr 2010 10:13:13 EST

so i was just surfing thru spark world these last couple days and came across a message board about weighing yourself. i've been weighing myself once a week. on sunday night because thats when i started weighing myself at the beginning of all this. i know some people say oh no, do it in the morning, but then my whole weight loss would be thrown out of whack so i keep it at night. and then some people only weigh once a month, some once every 2 weeks, some once a week and some every day. well i...

crappity crap crap crappy crap!

Mon, 19 Apr 2010 11:58:10 EST

*sigh*

i think that sums things up.

this weekend was... ugh.

friday night was fine. went grocery shopping after some coupon clipping and had a good night overall with the boy.

saturday... saturday was the day from hell. i woke up early to start my busy busy day that i knew was going to be hectic... but i never thought it would be THIS hectic. my bf made breakfast that was very very yummy. then i headed out the door in a hurry to get on with my day...

long time no update

Tue, 6 Apr 2010 14:12:38 EST

its been 5 days... and i havent updated my blog. so here i go:

so this weekend was an interesting one. i did HORRIBLE keeping track of what i was eating. and yes it was a holiday but i shouldnt use that as an excuse for the ENTIRE weekend. its just so dang tempting!!!

friday i had the day off so i helped the boy move in some of his things to my house. i went out there that morning when i got up and around and did some heavy lifting (not joking, and i felt it the next day...

only one more day

Wed, 31 Mar 2010 21:57:52 EST

so glad its Wednesday. i only have one more day of work and we get to wear JEANS!!! so exciting...

tonight was my long work out night. and it was fabulous... kind of. zumba was amazing but for some reason i was having balance issues when i was on the treadmill trying to run and it was horrible... i walked most of the time instead of trying to TRY to run... im doing 2 minutes walking and 45 seconds of running and working on the running a little longer. its how a friend at work, who ...

ATTN: all married ladies, or multi-time maid of honor/bridesmaid sparkers....

Tue, 30 Mar 2010 16:40:16 EST

HELP!!!!

my friend is getting married this summer and i am her only friend as a bridesmaid (the other 2 are her sisters) and im pretty much the maid of honor but because im not her sister, im not. make sense? anyways her sister is throwing the bachelorette party at a club down town where its 21 and up and renting out a vip place and everything. we'll since we are a bunch of college kids there are many friends that arent 21 and she decided to throw a personal party so that everyone ...

my monday...

Tue, 30 Mar 2010 09:52:52 EST

i know everyone hates mondays. its the first day back at the job (for most people anyways) and you just hate to leave the weekend. but my monday was horrible. of course i hate mondays for the fact that i have to go to work, but i also hate mondays because i have to go to school as well. its my never ending day. i wake up at 6, leave the house by 7:30 and dont get home until between 9:30 and 10:30 where i immediately get into bed. usually mondays at work are pretty laid back so i put my studyi...

thank you everyone

Sat, 27 Mar 2010 18:35:45 EST

thanks everyone for their words of wisdom and encouragement yesterday. i really appreciate it. im alot better today, altho i will say i cried so much that my eyes were very swollen, but after putting a cold wash cloth on my eyes for about an hour and i was good to go. he came over today and apologized and we talked things thru and we are okay now. i say we argue more and more but its not that bad, like once a month... usually not that bad usually only lasts an hr or so, its just the fact that...

why me?

Fri, 26 Mar 2010 22:22:51 EST

i have had yet another horrible day of my year. i swear out of the 3 months of this year half the time i have been extremely unhappy. so many bad things going on in my life and then my bf and i fight more and more often and its usually over the stupidest of things. he has anger problems, and i knew that going into this thing, and he has learned to control it alot more over the past year we have been together but it still annoys me at how much he curses and yells when i never ever yell... i ju...

the answer to my question...

Thu, 25 Mar 2010 10:00:44 EST

and the winner of the 10,000 dollars.... BAHAHAHA yeah right... anyways... the person who guessed the closest to my age wasy EKYLIBRARIAN with a guess of 22.

i am 21 years old, just turned 21 in December at that.

now do you guys know why i want to look my age? with guesses of between 28-32, thats a big thing. im hoping once i get all this weight off i will look more like my age, and by that time i will be 22 (or almost 22 if im lucky).

thanks for playing!!! ...

i want YOUR opinion....

Wed, 24 Mar 2010 14:51:22 EST

i just got to thinking today... and thought this would be a fun blog...

how old do YOU think i am?

its not posted anywhere on my page but just from my picture i want to know how old people think i look. its like that show on TLC (i dont think its on anymore) 10 years younger. i get alot of different answers and i hope at the end of this journey i look as old as (or younger than) i am.

have fun with this, i promise i wont feel bad if you guess something ridicul...

ya know...

Tue, 23 Mar 2010 21:51:01 EST

watching the biggest loser after a jam packed day makes me feel like even though i've done alot i should be doing more. so... i did. hahaha. i picked up my free weights and did some easy lifting... well i say easy but i have NO upper body strength so it was pretty significant for me...

today, i did zumba, cleaned out my car, washed off the outside of my car (its gonna rain tomorrow, so i didnt want to full out wash it but because of the SNOW [ridiculous] this weekend, it was cover...

first MAJOR goal right around the corner...

Mon, 22 Mar 2010 14:12:06 EST

so i have 6 goals all together, and 3 MAJOR goals. the six goals are listed in the all about me part of my page but the major ones are number 3, 5, and 6. why do you ask... well here is why...

goal number 3 is to be down 30 lbs. the reason why its a major goal other than it being a little more than half of my weight loss goal total, its also the weight i want to be at for a friends wedding i will be in in July.

goal number 5 is my goal weight, as of right now. i picked ...

size 14 WOOO HOOO!!!

Fri, 19 Mar 2010 09:38:49 EST

i dont think i've seen that number on a label of my clothing since my sophomore year in high school.

last night the boy and i went on a date and after our awesome dinner we went over to ross bc i just wanted to look and i need some new clothes for spring time and i immediately went to the 16s bc thats where i always go and started looking around and thinking to myself, ya know i wonder if i need to go down a size, so i picked out 2 dresses from the 14 side and went to try them on ...

sorry for being a downer lately

Thu, 18 Mar 2010 10:49:51 EST

okay so i want to apologize for my most recent attitudes. i guess i really shouldnt apologize because well life threw me some mighty big curves and i had a rough time dealing with them but im okay now, which is good.

i am finally over my sickness but allergies have struck YUCK! but im keeping a positive attitude so YAY! go me! haha

on monday's i normally dont work out because i have class that night so i am GO GO GO from 6:30 am till 10:30 pm and there's no slowing down...

for the curious, and concerned

Sun, 14 Mar 2010 21:39:09 EST

i posted a status update about sick of hearing bad news. well this is whats up.

on friday, i got the news that my moms nearest and dearest friend who she's known for 36 years passed away. 40 days after my grandfather, her dad, died. a month before that my mom's other best friends mother died, and 2 months before that my dad's dear friend who he treated as his father (he was alot older and our next door neighbor for 15 years) died. my parents arent old, 46 and 48. so with all these ...

sorry guys, kind of a girly post

Fri, 12 Mar 2010 12:29:18 EST

just some thoughts and most of them are girly so here we go...

dont you just hate when your most favorite bra (the one that just makes you look so freakin good in just about everything), and its the most expensive one you've ever bought, starts poking you in the ribs bc the underwire is starting to poke thru? omg i am SO annoyed. i spent like 60 bucks on this thing... okay okay so i wear it ALL the time (not every day but at least every weekend and occationally during the week) and...

feeling like i want to give up...

Thu, 11 Mar 2010 15:49:51 EST

okay so maybe this is the sickness talking or... i dont know. i feel like i have no motivation. dont get me wrong i have plenty of things i look forward to in my "new" life but it all seems so far away and at this point in time i feel like its not even worth it. I like me. i think i'm pretty and fun and outgoing... i just dont like me naked. i've never EVER been the skinny girl so i dont know what it feels like to be thin and so i dont have that want to be "my old self" bc my old self was fat...

being sick SUCKS!

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 15:01:44 EST

for the past few days i have been sick. at first i just thought it was allergies that were really really bugging me and now i've just reduced it down to a head cold, a really really bad one. it started out with a scratchy throat then lots of sneezing and runny nose nastiness. now its headaches, sore throat, painful ears, runny nose, sneezing, coughing, icky icky ICKY! i stayed home yesterday from work because my ears were killing me, i can function with everything else just my ears i cant han...

a blog worth reading...

Mon, 8 Mar 2010 10:44:49 EST

last friday's blog got ALOT of hits! thank you everyone. i dont feel so alone anymore. yay!

this weekend was fun... and DREADFUL at the same time. so here we go.

Friday: as some know, i went to Applebee's last Friday for my boyfriend's birthday celebration with his family. it is his FAVORITE place to go. we're all enjoying our meals and talking and having a great time (which by the way, i splurged just a tad, but still wasnt a bad girl), when all of a sudden theres a HUG...

loving the comments... wait... what comments?!?!

Fri, 5 Mar 2010 14:35:47 EST

so, alone am i on SP.

oh well, i dont care. i make these blogs for me.

tonight we are celebrating my bf's birthday at Applebees and i went looking around for calorie and food information... if you've read yesterday's blog (which i highly doubt anyone did but oh well) you will see that i hate veggies and im a very very picky eater... yeah, how am i gonna do this weight loss thing right? i'll figure it out. so i have found a couple of selections and cannot wait to get out...

oh yesterday.... ugh.

Thu, 4 Mar 2010 10:36:14 EST

i hate vegetables. i hate them with a passion and always have. now im not talking about the starchy veggies like potatoes (sweet and regular) because those are the loves of my life when it comes to food. starting on this new journey i told myself well maybe one day i'll eat some. yesterday i made that decision. i bought a lean cuisine that had veggies mixed in with it and i figured "oh, that wont be too bad." boy, was i WRONG! every bite i chewed really really fast and swallowed and took a dr...

making progress...

Tue, 2 Mar 2010 11:16:20 EST

slowly but surely.

this weekend wasnt very productive. my bf's dad had surgery on his elbow, so we spent the evening over there friday night. Saturday night was my sisters birthday celebration and we went to olive garden. the good news is i wasnt all that hungry from being stuffed at lunch, and even though my bf paid 40 bucks for us to eat neither one of us ate much, me because i was full, him because his dad called in the middle of the meal to get into a fight with him... yeah. l...

wednesday night work out= AWESOMENESS!

Wed, 24 Feb 2010 22:16:08 EST

so after work i went to the gym like i always do. i started off on the elliptical and after i ran a 10 minute mile (YEEESSSSS!!!) i started getting a pain in my foot YET AGAIN! it wasnt in the same place but its really starting to annoy me. anyways so i got off after 18 minutes and went to the locker room to work out the pain in my foot. then i decided the treadmill would be okay. so i walked for 17 minutes on a 4.5 incline and my cousin joined me (which nearly scared the crap outta me, i wa...

busy busy bee

Mon, 22 Feb 2010 14:26:48 EST

had a fabulous weekend (thank you for asking... wait... nevermind)...

anyways lots of late nights, one of which i wish i could turn back in time and completely erase. the bf and i got into a fight... but i think it was mainly because we were both really tired. it ended well and i slept like a rock. the rest of the weekend was great. spent most of it with my best friend, her bf, and their little one. found out today he has chicken pox after we were wondering what these small little...