DEVIPUCKETT's SparkPeople Blog DEVIPUCKETT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Emotional Eating - high on fats So, I've discovered that I am an emotional eater. I know it sounds silly - I should know myself better - but the reality is that I had no clue how much I eat to numb my emotions until I was on the hCG diet. I was rocking along, losing weight and then - wham- I have a family conflict and I eat and drink wine and eat some more. I'm applying for a job and eat and eat and eat. My sweet old kitty dies and I eat - you get the idea. My loss has stalled. I was so proud of my 17 lb. loss in three week... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 12:28:32 EST Three free buffets in a row...conquered. So - you may appreciate this - my work has food everywhere. Free food. Beautiful food. Forbidden Food. This week alone, I was in three meetings where breakfast was served, one day with free fresh cookies in the front office, one day with a double-chocolate cupcake thank-you gift, and two birthdays complete with snacks and cake. Tomorrow I face a day with a pizza party built into it. UGH. Isn't it good enough for me to drive past my coffee stop and my favorite fast food places and look the oth... Fri, 4 May 2012 18:26:21 EST Three-mile Start I'm back from a 3-mile walk and I'm proud to have started the new year with doing something outside with my sweetie. She loves to walk and I'm happy to be by her side rather than making excuses as to why she should go without me. <BR> <BR> On another topic, I am not usually one to make resolutions on the new year but I find 2012 to be an exception so... <BR> <BR> Resolved: <BR> <BR> 2012 <BR> the year that I align my values with my behavior. <BR> *I will be fit and healthy. <BR> ... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 13:27:04 EST For whom the school bell tolls... Monday it begins. I love the start of a new school year - I could leave the 12 hour workdays and the broken copiers when I really need them - but the rest is amazing. <BR> <BR> In the month since my last blog I've been to a three-week-long workshop at Dartmouth, prepared for a new year, planned lessons, cleaned & furnished my classroom, shopped for supplies and run myself ragged. What I haven't done is stay on my plan. Sure, I've tracked my food & water, sure I've done the odd walk or chore... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 19:31:53 EST ...I can feel it. School is coming - I can sense it. There are obvious signs like the back-to-school section in Target that just sprung out of the ground. Then there are the insidious hints - dreams about school (where I'm completely unprepared for class), the urge to make lists, get out my calendars and (gasp) PLAN. <BR> <BR> If you're a teacher, you understand. If not but you know a teacher, listen sympathetically and then remind them that there is plenty of summer left. Help them plan something fun, self-... Sat, 16 Jul 2011 11:39:09 EST "Please Sir, may I have some more?" - Oliver Twist I gave in last night and answered the call to binge and although this story starts on a bad note, its ends well. I confess that I almost didn't include all of the foods I ate on my nutrition tracker. I wanted to hide what I'd done. Because of that impulse, I spend some real time thinking about the causes of the binge and how to make this a positive experience. <BR> <BR> So, first thing I realized is that I was feeling financially unstable all day - I had some worries about an upcoming confer... Tue, 12 Jul 2011 15:22:16 EST I actually live here. I know it's strange but for the longest time (maybe 40 years-ish) I haven't felt like I live in my body. The disassociation was pretty solid - I felt like a head resting on something mobile, like a cart. When I'd close my eyes, I couldn't really feel my body - just the pain. Then I started using the wii and a strange thing happened: when it asked me to close my eyes for the body test, I'd picture a distorted me. The distortion was like a cartoon character - I'd feel the right side of my body ... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 10:06:36 EST The F-Word Fibromyalgia. Ugh. I'm still getting used to the reality that I have this complicated syndrome - I'm happy to have an answer for how I feel and yet I'm struggling with the way it can limit me. I worked so joyously and hard over the weekend and I've been out of commission for two days, this being the second. It seems like I have a day-for-day or even an hour-for-hour exchange - for every hour of physical work, I have an hour of pain and weakness. I know that being lean and fit will help with t... Wed, 6 Jul 2011 13:04:59 EST Wheelbarrows So for the past three days I have been landscaping my backyard. I've dug, toted, filled, planted, watered and loved on the space that will someday be a beautiful garden. I adore hard physical labor and often think that I should have been a landscaper or handygal. I'm great with tools and enjoy the design/problem-solving process. <BR> <BR> Over the past days, I was so excited to be combining my love of labor with conscious exercise. I moved with intention - using the loaded wheelbarrows to st... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 13:05:39 EST Paths - literally and figuratively This week's successes: <BR> *I tracked water, food & fitness everyday <BR> *8+ glasses of water every day <BR> *30+ minutes of wii 2x this week <BR> *10+ minutes of wii eveyday this week <BR> *walked my dogs 1x <BR> *Only one binge episode (and it was much shorter and I made better choices) <BR> <BR> This week's challenges: <BR> *Keeping my calorie count on target <BR> *Reducing sodium <BR> *Resisting tempting/trigger foods (pizza especially) <BR> <BR> What next: <BR> *Get better exercise c... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 11:01:23 EST Sweating for a reason I sweat. I mean, I sweat too much all of the time and it's embarassing. My hair gets wet, my face drips and I'm mopping my forehead almost all of the time. Heat isn't the determinant - I can sweat in 40 degrees. Humidity is my nemesis though. I am a human barometer - when the humidity is over 35 - I'm dripping. <BR> <BR> I used to hate sweating but I've discovered something I used to know when I was young and fit: sweating means I'm moving, using my body, burning fuel and emotions. Sweating ... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 12:33:52 EST Upset? wii can help :) This morning found me feeling frustrated and upset with myself for overeating at dinner last night. I just plain lost control and had three huge platefuls of dinner - the good thing was that the dish was very good for me, the bad thing was that I was eating indiscriminately. <BR> <BR> I refused to stay upset for long because the spiral is predictable - being upset leads to overeating and depression. I am not going down that road today. So instead, I logged on to SP, wrote some notes, took c... Tue, 28 Jun 2011 13:27:16 EST Put it in writing. I took time today to read some of the motivational spark pages. I'm fired up! The overall message I received is that "it can be done." I also noticed that the folks who met their goals had all racked up sparkpoints and fitness points; meaning that they took SP seriously, stayed connected and met small goals - yeah, I can do that. <BR> <BR> I can see that SP is like an ongoing contract - I've put my goals and progress in writing. SP requires me to be faithful to myself by being consistent on ... Mon, 27 Jun 2011 12:21:14 EST Smaller is better OK - I'm on my fifth successful day of eating well, exercising. drinking plenty of water and just plain ol' being good to myself. I have had some victories: <BR> 1) While eating out at a Vietnamese restaurant I made great choices and didn't stuff myself <BR> 2) I rode my stationary bike and jogged in place so that I could meet my cardio goals INSTEAD of going to bed. I even did extra time so that I would meet my goal and then some. <BR> 3) I can comfortably wear capris that I couldn't zip las... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 12:59:46 EST Lurking. One of the first things I noticed while creating this page was that it listed me as a member of Sparkpeople since 12/08. Geez. I've been lurking here for YEARS, uncommitted and hoping for a change. I haven't journalled, tracked my food or exercise or even discussed my goals with others - how can I possibly have been a "member?" <BR> <BR> I'm facing the fact that wishing isn't committing. <BR> <BR> So, what does it take for me to wholly commit? The horror of having the scale top at 266? Th... Wed, 22 Jun 2011 11:19:14 EST