DETERMINEDJANET's SparkPeople Blog DETERMINEDJANET's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Thursday, 3/5/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Testing is done and we'll get Maegann's results around June. I finished the book I was reading and Isaac is not happy with the things I learned about parenting autistic/asperger kiddos. The words/actions pretty much show that we've got his number and we are going to expect more from him than he wants to offer. Next read is another Temple Grandin book called "Thinking in Pictures." Excited about that one ... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 22:25:50 EST Wednesday, 3/4/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Testing went fine again this morning and I found my reading to be fairly intense and tiring. So much information on autism and trying to figure out what part of it I see in my son. It's a lot to take in. One final day of testing left. <BR> <BR> I had planned to go to the gym about 1:30 or so, but ended up needing to take Isaac shopping for running shoes before practice tonight and they were on sale today ... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 22:11:23 EST Tuesday, 3/3/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This morning was very quiet as I sat reading a book during Maegann's first day of testing. It was fun visiting with other homeschool mom's on breaks. Some from co-op (ours and others) and just those that I only see at these type of events. We have two more mornings of the testing. I'm reading Temple Grandin's book "The Way I See it" and it has been fairly interesting as she explains autism from the insi... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 22:18:25 EST Monday, 3/2/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> A smooth day at co-op and a fun meeting with the students running for Student Council. I think some of them were a bit shell-shocked over how much they need to get done before their first day of campaigning on the 16th. They'll have fun though. I was able to get all the co-op stuff done this afternoon so I can put it aside for the week. <BR> <BR> Tim took Isaac to his first track practice and Isaac thoug... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 00:09:16 EST Sunday, 3/1/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Worship was great this morning. A good sermon on the miracle at the wedding feast in Cana. Ended with our crazy Pastor dancing to the Village People's "YMCA" as he passed out glasses of wine (grape juice in water). Just being hospitable! <BR> <BR> The afternoon has been quiet. We did take a family errand to Kmart to buy Isaac some new tennis shoes...he's about walked his off his feet! Size 9 1/2 mens at... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 19:57:53 EST Saturday, 2/28/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today has been a steady day with not much in the way of down time until about 5 p.m. I used my time at the computer wisely and got the meal plan finished for the week and co-op as ready as I can for Monday before allowing myself to "play" on Spark. I also did some emails to adjust some things on the schedule for this coming week due to Maegann's testing on Tues-Thurs mornings. Hoping the trainer can resch... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 21:20:47 EST Friday, 2/27/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I did have my quiet day, but it did not come without another "interruption" to the schedule. What a crazy week for those interruptions! <BR> <BR> Went to the store first thing after Isaac left with his therapy worker as I needed them for supper so I took Maegann out for a quick breakfast too. Once home she got busy on school and I did a few things that didn't require a computer. Finished up school with I... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 22:32:34 EST Thursday, 2/26/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I thought today was going to be my first calm one of the week, but it wasn't meant to be. It wasn't horrible, but just enough stuff that took me away from the paperwork I needed to get through for co-op and home. Didn't help that Isaac came home from therapy with anger. He controlled it which is a blessing, but it totally makes his schoolwork tank on the accuracy side. I think I've found the trigger as t... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 22:06:43 EST Wednesday, 2/25/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Started out at the gym this morning and it was a good session for the most part, but I am having some pain in the deltoid area of my right arm so Josh lessened the weight I was using a bit so it wouldn't get too aggravated. We were going along just fine and were on the last circuit when I began experiencing light headedness so we only did 2 rounds instead of 3 for that circuit. He believes I may have been l... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 21:35:00 EST Tuesday, 2/24/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I have forgiven myself the simple mistake that caused me to miss the gym today. Had I remembered last night that Isaac's physical therapy was at the Rec Center pool I would have gone to the gym at 7 this morning instead of planning for 2 p.m. The good news is that I have the trainer tomorrow morning so will get a solid workout accomplished. <BR> <BR> While Isaac was with Kenzie at the pool I took Maegann ... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 19:07:22 EST Monday, 2/23/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Co-op was a smooth day, but still tiring like always. The big event for me today was hosting the Jr/Sr class planning meeting. Great ideas and will be fun to see which ones interest the students in a few weeks time. I spent all my time home this afternoon working on emails as there was much to tie up for the week and I'm not finished yet. Shouldn't take long to get it done tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Did hear f... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 23:21:15 EST Sunday, 2/22/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Another great worship service and the series starter for the Lent messages to come. Today he spoke about how we miss all the miracles in our lives every day and how to begin finding them in the simple things of life. At the end of the service one of the other worship leaders pulled Maegann and his son Dakota up to the stage (wasn't planned) and through tears told everyone that these are two miracles. He t... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 21:56:45 EST Saturday, 2/21/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Last night was a great reminder about choosing the right foods. We decided to take it easy and just get pizza from a take-and-bake shop and I have paid for it through this afternoon. Your body does know how to talk back! LOL We did have a fun evening with the young adults from church once they arrived. The organizer had told them 7 p.m., but we had it down for 6 p.m. so we were packing up the food when t... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 21:28:05 EST Friday, 2/20/15 "Maegann's Birthday!" <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> The trainer called last night to say he was ill so I made plans to head to the gym by 7 a.m. so I could watch Joyce Meyer's broadcast while on the elliptical. Happy to report that I reached that goal! <BR> <BR> Once home Isaac was off with his therapy worker and Maegann and I got busy on the housework. Bathrooms, floors, laundry.... Then came school with Isaac and this afternoon I've been able to continu... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 19:05:10 EST Thursday, 2/19/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And this is what I am watching happen through my dad's anxiety and anger. He has lost his strength to do what is possible, granted with some pain due to the arthritis, because he has chosen to put all his energy into worry. Yesterday he was very anxious and angry while we were at the ER (this followed his visit to the general practitioner) and today it had escalated even more. It has turned into a good lesson fo... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 23:31:37 EST Wednesday, 2/18/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And I could sure use it tonight! <BR> <BR> Will write more tomorrow, but my day derailed about 2 p.m. when I met my dad for his doctor appointment. Finally got home about 10:30 p.m. from the ER/hospital and am exhausted. They will be doing more tests tomorrow, but for now they are treating a urinary tract infection and checking for pneumonia. Blood pressure was horribly high... 200/100 something when he went to... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 01:56:38 EST Tuesday, 2/17/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Unfortunately the negative person around me today that I'm trying not to respond to is my son. This latest phase of maturity lovingly called puberty is magnified by the autism. The anger and negativity that seems to come with autism for most is now so intense it is almost scary at times. I did finally get through to someone at the specialist's office to get started on a new appointment. I am praying it h... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 17:02:50 EST Monday, 2/16/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> A busy day at co-op and one sprinkled with some frustrations and joys. I am to the point with this teen nonsense of exclusiveness and treating others as unimportant that if it continues next year I am ready to resign and pull my family. I am the Director, but I am replaceable. I don't think there is much that I can do this year as we only have 8 more class days and we are graduating the top three that are ... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 21:38:54 EST Sunday, 2/15/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Enjoying a quiet day before the chaos of homeschool co-op tomorrow. I will be a bit busier as I need to fill in as a helper for a couple of classes and also it is the first of two Monday's that I am leading a lunch meeting as we begin collecting class ideas for the next co-op year. Tomorrow is also the first day of our final session so things are definitely feeling like they are winding down. Nine weeks to... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 19:44:30 EST Valentine's Day 2015 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Managed to get a good night of sleep with this cold and that actually did surprise me a bit, but very thankful just the same. <BR> <BR> Headed out for my Bountiful Basket and thought I'd have time to go to the grocery store to get the few things I needed before Isaac's basketball game. I forgot...he needed to be there at 9 so they were leaving as I pulled in. I did make it to the game in time though! It ... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 17:41:13 EST Friday, 2/13/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I could easily have stayed home from the gym once again this morning thanks to a very solid head cold. Yesterday it felt like I just need to wear a box of Kleenex around my neck. I wasn't quite as bad during the training session thankfully, but I could feel the need for a little more rest time during the first cardio/strength circuit. The first circuit was new, but used tried and true exe... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 13:27:55 EST Thursday, 2/12/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> My day began with yet another moment to start kicking myself as I did not go to the gym as planned. Again I didn't sleep well so I just reset the alarm for an hour later. That allowed me time for breakfast and to head out to meet my dad at the pain clinic for his appointment. Switched up his pain med so we'll see if it works better than what he's been on. Still have his injection procedure planned for th... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 23:09:40 EST Wednesday, 2/11/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Went to bed ready to make changes today. Took me some time to quit kicking myself for canceling with the trainer when I woke up about 6:30 a.m. tired from not sleeping well, but mostly because my throat was so sore and my lungs were aching. I am really tired of this "sinus" type stuff hanging around, but I know it is a signal about something else going on because it truly isn't cold/allergy related. My gu... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 19:19:03 EST Tuesday, 2/10/15 -- Just Say No! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Offended.... This message keeps coming up off and on so I've been listening. I think about the pit of my depression at this time and there is a hint of feeling offended by the words/actions of the autism. But the message is right...I don't have to claim that feeling. Not easy, but definitely something I am working on. <BR> <BR> I am nearing the end of the book I've been reading (There's A Boy In Here) and... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 21:41:57 EST Monday, 2/9/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Co-op went great today and the Valentine party during lunch was a lot of fun. I was able to be home for about 90 minutes afterwards before I needed to head out for the student council planning meeting. I used that time to get things finished up from co-op so I can put it aside for the week. The planning meeting was very good. Carrie made a wonderful Chinese buffet for our meal (I had a little too mu... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 00:13:32 EST Sunday, 2/8/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Anxiety has been running rampant lately and I want to say <em>304</em> to my Spark Friends who have offered the kind words that have kept me propped up. I did shed many tears off and on again today and this afternoon I finally got on top of it a bit thanks to essential oils, time by myself and St. Johns Wort. <BR> <BR> During my "on my own" time this afternoon I've gotten some little things done like cl... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 20:02:35 EST Saturday, 2/7/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> And I will admit I often feel like I am not enough. When it is a message you've heard all your life in one way or another it becomes easy to believe. Logically I know it's not true, but emotionally it can wrap me up tight and lower me to the pit. <BR> <BR> My day began with my usual Saturday errands... Bountiful Basket and groceries. We headed out for Isaac's basketball about noon and they played their be... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 23:59:05 EST Friday, 2/6/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today was definitely quiet. Isaac's therapy worker arrived at 8 a.m. and they were going to be gone until noon as she wasn't able to make it for their two hours yesterday. Maegann kept to herself doing school, working on Valentine's for co-op on Monday and whatever else so the house was still. As I didn't have to be at the table working with Isaac I got busy with laundry, cleaning floors and cleaning... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 18:31:47 EST Thursday, 2/5/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> The good and bad news of the day is the same. Isaac is feeling better. It's good for the obvious reason...he's feeling better. It's bad because that means the negative behaviors/attiutudes are back. <em>198</em> Despite that we did manage to get through his schoolwork and his physical therapy. He also had his annual check with the pediatrician and it went fine. The doc used the words "well into pub... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 22:59:05 EST Wednesday, 2/4/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today found the headache still in the house and the stomach "pain" now felt like stomach "sick". Since Isaac's been fighting this for over 2 days now we decided to get creative and pulled out some of the natural toxin fighting things and guess what? They worked! I had made an appointment with the chiropractor for the afternoon anyway and by the time we arrived the headache was better. It was worse again ... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 19:18:39 EST Tuesday, 2/3/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today turned out differently than planned due to a headache in the house. Not me for a change...Isaac. He'd had one yesterday off and on, but it was a grand slam today. Still not completely gone (8:30 p.m.) He was fighting going to bed early tonight as the clock didn't say 9. LOL <BR> <BR> Due to the headache, I canceled his physical therapy which in turn canceled the swim time at the Rec Center. We ... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 22:25:02 EST Monday, 2/2/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am trying to remember that as I walk through this "storm" called autism. Today Isaac has been good with me because he isn't feeling well. He has been fighting a headache off and on and then he took a good fall in PE so his back is aching. I have to take the "sweetness" that I can get from him! <BR> <BR> Co-op went fine today and will be the last of the quieter days for me as certain activities begin. ... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 20:57:36 EST Superbowl Sunday, 2/1/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Just waiting on the big game to start at our house and the "junk" food is in the frig. We allow ourselves to enjoy cheese dip (homemade) and chips for supper for this game day. My muscles are already a mess from too much dairy (the lasagna I made the other night) so it isn't the best timing on my part, but it is what it is. <BR> <BR> Worship was great today. The pastor spoke on "It isn't over until HE say... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 17:50:39 EST Saturday, 1/31/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today has been a good one and remained steady with activities. The schedule: <BR> <BR> *Bountiful Basket <BR> *groceries <BR> *Staples (got the new copier/printer for co-op) <BR> *home and putting stuff away <BR> *Isaac's basketball game <BR> *processed hashbrowns & berries while watching the Biggest Loser finale <BR> *cleaning floors <BR> *Sparking <BR> <BR> We are now watching Lawrence Welk (haven't watch... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 21:10:34 EST Friday, 1/30/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today has been a GREAT day! Lately there have been so many "ugh" type days that it feels wonderful to be able to say that. <BR> <BR> Began the day with the trainer and it was evident I was tired, but I made it through...side planks and all. (I don't like those at all!) We have scheduled next week for 5 p.m. on Tues/Thurs to get two workouts in as it is Guards weekend so Josh couldn't do Friday. I ... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 18:27:02 EST Thursday, 1/29/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> My day got a bit off track early on as dad's appointment at the pain clinic took much longer than anticipated. I was thankful the doctor spent that kind of time with him though, but I didn't expect it as it was a consultation. We go back in two weeks and then he can offer dad some different meds. Today was test stuff so he knows what to offer and to legally be able to do so. Another two weeks following t... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 21:57:28 EST Wednesday, 1/28/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> A much better day to report and I'm thankful. <BR> <BR> I did cancel with the trainer this morning as I had another not-so-great night of sleep and I was just exhausted from that and the long day yesterday. I thought I'd go to the gym this afternoon instead, but I can tell rest is the best choice for today. I refuse to feel guilty about that choice. <BR> <BR> Managed to get school accomplished with the k... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 17:19:24 EST Tuesday, 1/27/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> And I did need that thought today as I struggled along through the emotions that were running rampant and that I could not seem to get a handle on by myself. I was so thankful I had an appointment with the chiropractor this afternoon so I could add "emotions" to my list of complaints. Interestingly enough, most of my knee pain I was going in about was due to emotions and evidently quite a lot of them. Tod... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 19:10:05 EST Monday, 1/26/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Another great and crazy day at homeschool co-op and I was able to get all the emails, etc., done once home so that I can put it aside until the weekend. Nice that there are less things needing my attention this week. <BR> <BR> Thankful that Maegann had one of her best days at co-op today especially as the anxiety has begun rearing its ugly head again. I am just saying "prayers answered." <BR> <BR> Nothin... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 19:40:16 EST Sunday, 1/25/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Enjoying a quiet afternoon at home after a wonderful morning of worship. Maegann was off for a "party" with her Sunday School class so we treated Isaac to lunch out and he chose Taco Time. Once home I went to Walmart to get the few things that were needed for the week and then I got busy getting things ready for co-op tomorrow. Didn't take too long as email was quiet, but did have a little extra work as Mae... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 18:29:43 EST Saturday, 1/24/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> We had a fun evening last night with the "20 something" group from church. Seven of them showed up for supper (we bbq'd hamburgers and hot dogs) and then we played games for a couple of hours. They had brought some and it was fun playing some new games we'd never seen before. I was thankful Maegann was comfortable with them and stayed in the middle of it all. Nice seeing her begin to trust a little bit at... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 19:11:00 EST Friday, 1/23/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Began the day at the gym and he didn't take it as easy on me, but we did leave the spin bike out of things again. Just too much with my current issues. He threw some more new things into the circuit too. I don't care for the floor work, but I know those core exercises are good for you as well. <BR> <BR> Once home I had time to snag some breakfast before Meg came for Isaac. Maegann began her schoolwork a... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 17:36:26 EST Tired Thursday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This has been one of those days where you wake up tired and never get over feeling tired. I also had yet another headache, but thankfully I can take the "severe headache" pill and it lessens when used with my essential oils "sinus bomb." This inversion (dirty air) is really messing with me. On top of that, my body has aches and pains all over from the workout yesterday with the trainer. I am hoping tomor... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 19:17:40 EST Wednesday, 1/21/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Began the day at the gym and was able to get an extra 5 minutes in on the elliptical as I got there a bit earlier than usual. I was happy about that! Time with the trainer was good. Still a bit less intense due to my tendonitis and bronchial stuff, but still very solid and I'm already sore in many places. <BR> <BR> Got school done with the kids and then headed out for Isaac's counseling appointment. Spe... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 18:36:11 EST Tuesday, 1/20/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This morning I got a little bit of school underway with the kiddos before heading out to meet dad for his doctor appointment. He was still in his endless negative loop so it was easy for the doc to see his antidepressant needed some adjustment. Still waiting on an appointment with the pain clinic and until that happens it is just is going to be in pain and feel hopeless. Everyone wishes we coul... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 16:50:13 EST Monday, 1/19/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Another day at co-op over and I didn't have to spend much time on things once home so that was a nice change. I've had two hours of quiet as both kids went home with another family. Figure I'll be hearing from them anytime to go pick them up. <BR> <BR> Nothing scheduled for tonight, but I sure do have a lineup the rest of the week! Tuesday is our Board Meeting, Wednesday is dinner out with my friend (yea... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 18:56:25 EST Sunday, 1/18/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today was a very lazy day. Went to worship and after lunch sat down with a jigsaw puzzle and football. I was sure hoping Green Bay would take down Seattle, but it was not to be. The second game was such a blowout I turned it off and now we are watching "Spy Kids". I did get my puzzle finished though! <BR> <BR> I am struggling about co-op because Maegann is in anxiety mode each weekend now. Remind... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 21:47:54 EST Saturday, 1/17/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Started the day heading out to pick up my Bountiful Basket. I was thankful I could share some of this with a friend today. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yummy stuff for the week! Afterwards I headed to the grocery store and then home. I was able to get a bit of housework done and the new handful of receipts entered before it was time to go to Isaac... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 20:56:41 EST Friday, 1/16/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Began the day at the gym and the trainer was great about adjusting the workout once again to accommodate my ills. I am still not 100% with my bronchial inflammation and my tendonitis is still not playing nice on my left ankle. <BR> <BR> Once home I was able to get a few things done including a trip to the bank before it was time to leave for several hours. The afternoon was lunch out on the way to meet the... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 18:46:09 EST Thursday, 1/15/15 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Notice the theme this week? Unfortunately I had to spend another couple of hours with my current "negative" person (dad) and it took me a couple of hours afterwards to regain that peace and joy I felt when I woke up. <BR> <BR> Didn't have much time to accomplish much as far as school as I had to leave for dad's doctor appointment, but it worked out that Isaac's community worker was coming at 9 and they went... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 20:25:39 EST