DETERMINEDBABE's SparkPeople Blog DETERMINEDBABE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Haven't Lost & Haven't Gained After losing a hundred pounds my body has finally reached a point where it isn't moving up or down. :) <BR> <BR> I would like to get to 125 or even back to 110 but my body says not right now...that's okay! <BR> <BR> Don't want to be too hard on myself...when my body, mind and soul is ready to continue it will do so naturally. I am not going to push myself or beat myself up about it. <BR> <BR> I look in the mirror and say I am not where I want to be BUT I'm not where I use to be so it... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 21:37:49 EST Looking for walking partner If you live in NH or near NH close to Kingston NH or Plaistow NH and would like to walk or hike please respond. <BR> <BR> I am new to NH and looking for spark friends that live near. <BR> <BR> Have 30 more lbs to lose and would really enjoy friends that are on the same path to goal. :) <BR> <BR> Hope to find a few friends here...can't believe I am having so much difficulty finding people in NH that enjoy hiking or walking. LOL Go figure. :) <BR> <BR> Any suggestions on how to find ... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 21:17:57 EST My man inspires me Heart Given: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> You make it easy to love you, my heart does over flow….Draw me closer to you, let’s see where this will go. A journey sweet this road I seek with you hand in hand….from the first day you swept me away, my charming handsome man. <BR> Sun, 21 Jul 2013 21:32:05 EST Another poem I wrote for my man Draw me closer: <BR> <BR> <BR> Bring out my desire to love you; draw me to you now…and I will give you my heart this is my solemn vow. <BR> <BR> Make my heart sing a song it’s never known before, and I will sing your song of love to you, the man I adore. <BR> <BR> Show me what true love is from deep within and I will respond likewise as your lover and best friend. <BR> Sun, 21 Jul 2013 21:30:03 EST Poem I wrote to my sweetheart :) <BR> Unconditional Love: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Love is a priceless gift when given selflessly and the joy of giving brings peace inside of me. <BR> <BR> How I longed for loves true bliss to touch my soul within, as two hearts become one the memories begin. <BR> <BR> Hold me gentle in your arms, show me that you care and this road we travel will be ours to share. <BR> <BR> Through the struggles life will bring we go hand and hand overcoming the hard times with love in command. Sun, 21 Jul 2013 21:28:24 EST Living happy Hello all my beautiful friends, <BR> <BR> Sorry I haven't been on but life has changed in so many wonderful ways for me and I am busy living life to the fullest. <BR> <BR> Now that I am working, I joined a gym and met a wonderful man whom I have been getting to know; building a loving relationship. We both want to be happy and enjoy life with someone that enjoys the same fun and activities...then we met in Dunkin Donuts my favorite place...we talked for an hour ... the sparks flew so we s... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 05:53:28 EST All is well with my soul and life Thank GOD My life has been an amazing journey from hell and fear to peace and joy....I can tell you it is only by the power of my GOD that I am able to have peace and joy and the strength within me is by the power of the Holy Spirit that I rejoice in who I am and how my life has turned around. <BR> <BR> I have lost my weight...I have found a job that I am learning and doing well at....I am getting to know and help family out which brings me happiness. I am mentally and physically healthy and I owe e... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 19:41:42 EST Passed my license test. Thank GOD! I have been MIA because my life has been a bit crazy. <BR> <BR> Been hitting the books hard so I could pass my insurance license test and today I accomplished my goal. I passed and now on to the next faze of my life changes. I will be learning my new responsibilities as an insurance agent for Allstate in Plaistow NH. <BR> <BR> I love people so this new job will give me the opportunity to meet people and help people. Isn't GOD wonderful....the LORD has been improving my life as I follow ... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 20:21:35 EST GOD wants us to know the great I AM I have to remind myself to listen for GOD's response when I pray....notice a lot of the time it is me doing all the talking but GOD wants to reach me, so I need to meditate and then be still so I can hear the LORD's response to my prayers. <BR> The beauty is I now know that GOD does respond because I have experienced HIS response and love. Feel so blessed by this knowledge because it is a gift from GOD that HE reveals Himself to those whom truly seek HIM. <BR> I feel it is very important ... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 10:20:51 EST Poem I wrote last night: Worship Worship: <BR> <BR> Born to be a light of Love, hidden deep inside, tis the mysteries you keep from the darkness rise. <BR> <BR> Death does part from within all these burdens take, til your glory resounds; nailed upon the stake. <BR> <BR> Lift thy voices; sing as one to the glory of GOD's son....praise and worship Christ our King in thy voices offering. <BR> <BR> Bended knee...heart reborn....from Christ Jesus we have won. <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> <BR> <BR> Wrote this on 2/22/13, ... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 10:56:23 EST Day Seven Experiment complete This experiment taught me, I still have issues with food and exercise alone can not get me to goal. Although I have lost a hundred pounds, the weight could come back on....I increased my exercise and at times the decision to exercise before I snack did curb my desire to eat but I want to find something that occupies my mind so I don't want to snack. <BR> <BR> My life is in transition so I shouldn't be too hard on myself....once I get my own place then I will not have to resist temptation ... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 10:20:23 EST Day SIX Didn't feel like walking today but I couldn't let that stop was hard pushing myself out the door but I knew if I gave in to my mood it might have a domino affect and keep going SO I put my sneakers on and hit the pavement. <BR> <BR> It wasn't windy although it was cold; as I was walking I started to enjoy myself which I knew would happen....isn't it funny how we think we don't want to do something and yet when we start that feeling goes away and we end up having a good time! I en... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 13:01:02 EST Day Five down It was just too cold yesterday to go for a long walk but at least I went as long as I could before turning around. It was 35 minutes of movement I normally wouldn't have done before so that's a change in the right direction. I count that as a successful day for me. <BR> <BR> Will refrain from talking about should of or could of because "what IS" is done and it is better then "what WAS".... <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Each day has its own challenges and how I handled them is w... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 12:01:11 EST Day Four of Experiment When the weather is nice it is very easy for me to get in the exercise needed for this was one of those beautiful days where I got to walk and walk and go further then before...was tired by the end but still felt great to get out and enjoy a healthy body while walking in an area that is so beautiful and perfect for walkers. Also got to meet people that were also out and is good. <BR> <BR> During the game I decided to do a little exercise like wall push-ups.... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 14:08:57 EST Day three I walked a lot yesterday but didn't snack so all that extra time was calories burned....really loving this idea.... <BR> <BR> Noticed I am actually looking forward to the workout and not so interested in the snacking...tonight is super bowl Sunday so I will be doing some exercise before the game because I do plan on having some snacks during the game without guilt! <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> Of course I could get into the game and say no to the snacks even if I exercise before the game...wi... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 13:20:09 EST Day two of experiment Did a hundred and five minutes of exercise so if you break it down it would be..... <BR> <BR> 15 minutes breakfast <BR> 15 minutes lunch <BR> 15 minutes dinner <BR> 15 minutes snack <BR> 15 minutes snack <BR> <BR> 75 minutes total <BR> <BR> 105 - 75 = 30 minutes extra <BR> <BR> The experiment results are showing me that for me the promise to workout before eating doesn't prevent me from snacking but does add steps to my day. <BR> <BR> Going to continue while seeking other ways to gai... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 10:00:40 EST One day down :) My experiment is one day down now. <BR> <BR> Exercising before breakfast was a big change for me and I thought to myself ....Self why didn't you think this out more.....LOL I was wishing I had said exercise before snacks not meals.. hehehe then I thought well it's only 15 minutes but when I started that fifteen minutes it seemed like forever ....ahhhhhh what did I get myself into I thought as I was waiting for the timer to go off....15 minutes really why didn't I say 5 minutes hehehehe ... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 09:43:06 EST Before you Eat...try this for a week. What if you committed to doing 15 minutes of exercise before you ate anything for seven days..... think about how that would change your lifestyle and thought process about eating. <BR> <BR> Would the exercise prevent you from eating between meals? <BR> <BR> Would you find after the fifteen minutes you were not hungry any longer. <BR> <BR> Would really love to see how this one small change in behavior would change not only how often you ate but also how your body would feel after just a... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 13:10:03 EST I am a wretch but HE loves me... Just got back from my long walk with the LORD and during my walk GOD helped me to see another flaw creeping up in me....PRIDE.....I didn't notice that I was starting to have a bit of an ego because of my walk with the LORD when GOD corrected and humbled me once again....Thank you Jesus for loving me enough to redirect my thoughts and actions to align with your Love.... <BR> <BR> You see what I received is this....GOD shows no partiality with any of HIS matter where you are in ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 12:53:57 EST With every breath People don't understand what I'm doing or why I'm doing it; there were times I even doubted my actions too. Several times I prayed and asked GOD if I am on HIS path to make sure I'm not fooling myself....GOD is faithful to send me more confirmations.... I am reminded to follow HIM even when it makes no sense. Learning so much still even without a pastor or church because GOD is my teacher...I have never been more certain that I am where I'm supposed to be....praying in time GOD will show the... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 08:43:22 EST The Harbinger Always knew the cross found at the site of 9/11 was a message from GOD to return to HIM but after reading the book "The Harbinger" I have realized I still have a lot to learn. <BR> <BR> The book mentions that the call of repentance is for the righteous and unrighteous, the godly and ungodly alike. I wondered why the righteous but it explained why soon after... <BR> <BR> If the righteous had been shining the light of Christ boldly as we were called to do, GOD would never have turned HIS fac... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 08:36:46 EST HALT Jan 24, 2013 From my daily devotional by Intouch.... <BR> <BR> A Moment of Weakness <BR> <BR> Read | 2 Samuel 11:1-5 <BR> <BR> "We all face key moments of decision, when our actions can lead to lasting consequences. The issue is, will you be ready when such a time comes? <BR> <BR> David wasn’t prepared for the moment of decision that suddenly faced him. At a time when he was restless, lonely, and preoccupied with worries, temptation and sin caught him unprepared. We can guard ourselve... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 07:39:55 EST Let Faith Grow... Do you think staying in our comfort zone shows our trust and faith in Jesus' power? <BR> <BR> If staying in our comfort zone, doing things in our own strength is all we do, how does that glorify GOD? <BR> <BR> Isn't it when we are at our weakest point; filled with fear that GOD sees the depth of our faith, when despite our fears and weaknesses we step out in faith. <BR> <BR> What a beautiful way to show everyone watching how much we trust what GOD promises to be true? <BR> <BR> If Jesu... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 14:28:29 EST Small victories...Big changes with no regrets! When someone would ask me if I wanted some ice get the point...I would give in and join them. If I said no, I would resent that I was on a diet and then I would end up going on a binge out of self pity. Silly old self.....terrible cycle.....was very weak because food was in control..... <BR> <BR> NOW....I am doesn't have control and I have been able to refuse the junk without regret....I'm not missing out....I'm feeling powerful and laughing now... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 21:51:51 EST New Me Emerging The old me would have talked myself out of exercising for many reasons....tired, muscles ache, headache, had a hard day I deserve a day off, already exercised four days so missing one day will not hurt ....ect... <BR> <BR> New me is stronger minded and when the old me tries to creep back the new me takes a moment to look back at my old pictures and then I think to you really want to go back to that person? When you broke the momentum, didn't you find more and more reasons not t... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 12:37:20 EST Awaken Awaken children of the light, GOD is calling thee to find the courage deep inside the courage of thy King. <BR> <BR> For so long you walked about with no voice did you share, the words of truth given to you to lift the hearts despaired. <BR> <BR> You know the truth taught long ago from history it bleeds. Why do you keep silent, allowing darkness to feed, instead of proclaiming the victory Jesus has won, so the light that grows inside can release the chains that bind! <BR> <BR> Hearken to... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 07:40:36 EST Permanent Changes I'm not in a hurry to get to that special actual goal is to make permanent life style changes. Permanent changes take time and bad habits need to be broken and good habits to be learned. <BR> <BR> Self control is key, not allowing things to control but the mind be strong in all things. <BR> <BR> Stay active and increase activity as the body becomes stronger to keep improving health. <BR> <BR> Always look for more activities that will be fun to keep things interesting. <BR> <... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 19:20:05 EST Said No Thanks to.... I am getting to goal because today I said No thanks to... <BR> <BR> a donut <BR> coffee cake muffin <BR> fried fish and chips <BR> chocolate chip cookies <BR> second helping at dinner <BR> <BR> Tomorrow it will begin again....what did you say no thanks to? <BR> <BR> What craving did you not give into? <BR> <BR> Every time you don't give in to temptation is one step closer to breaking your old habits! <BR> <BR> <em>381</em> Thu, 17 Jan 2013 18:01:21 EST Going to succeed I can overcome my food cravings & increase my exercise level because I have developed self control. <BR> <BR> Eating unwanted calories .... <BR> doesn't make me happy <BR> doesn't taste as good as it smells <BR> doesn't satisfy <BR> doesn't get me to goal <BR> doesn't improve my health <BR> doesn't improve my shape <BR> doesn't improve my self esteem <BR> <BR> Adding movement.... <BR> will improve my self esteem <BR> will improve my muscle strength <BR> will improve my endurance <BR> will ... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 16:25:00 EST Three hour walk and more... Today I started walking at 8:00 am and got back at is such a beautiful day here in Plymouth I didn't want to stop walking. The only reason I did was my gluteus maximus muscle (bottom) and calves were crying <em>46</em> Need better walking shoes. The rest of me was saying no lets keep going but I have to rest my legs and then later I hope to get back outside....want to walk until my stomach muscles say no more... <em>40</em> really need better shoes for that to happen. ... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 11:54:51 EST Within my Heart A path of Love, I follow you, in peace over come. <BR> <BR> Tis slumber sweet to rest in thee when the day is done. <BR> <BR> <BR> Seems so simple this journey be, when your light does glow... <BR> <BR> inside this body deep within thy Holy Spirit shows. <BR> <BR> <BR> Burning deeper, my mind craves the wisdom You do part... <BR> <BR> With YOUR living words of truth embedded in my heart! <BR> <em>296</em> Tue, 15 Jan 2013 16:17:46 EST Excuses don't get you to goal.. Excuses are the only thoughts that prevent you from achieving your goal <BR> <BR> Strength and will power is created not found! <BR> <BR> Strength is found when you fight through the difficult... <BR> <BR> Nourish your body and your mind; the results will speak for themselves! <BR> <BR> Only way to over come the excuse is to take that FIRST STEP! <BR> <BR> <em>311</em> Tue, 15 Jan 2013 13:22:06 EST Stay Positive Went for a long walk today and talked to GOD about my hopes and dreams wondering if they were in line with HIS will....the answer was yes.....GOD also let me know that as long as my eyes are focused on HIM, HE will always bring me joy and peace. <BR> <BR> <BR> GOD wants us to stay positive in all things which shows our faith that HE is in control even when evil tries to bring us sorrow and strife. Everyone will have things happen that can cause physical pain....emotional pain....stress..... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 12:29:25 EST I AM is Always Faithful I am hurting inside and pray GOD will bring me peace... HE DOES! <BR> <BR> <BR> I am crying inside and pray GOD will comfort me...HE DOES! <BR> <BR> <BR> I am scared inside and pray GOD will calm me...HE DOES! <BR> <BR> <BR> I have doubts and pray GOD will enlighten me to the truth...HE DOES! <BR> <BR> <BR> I am afraid to make a mistake and pray GOD will guide my every move...HE DOES! <BR> <BR> <BR> I am lonely and pray GOD will embrace me with HIS love...HE DOES! <BR> <BR> <BR> I... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 17:08:03 EST My thoughts on feelings Feelings are neither right nor wrong, feelings are an emotion...Feelings are an expression of what that person is experiencing at that moment in time which stimulates all their senses along with recalling part or all of past experiences. <BR> <BR> <BR> How a person interprets all that is happening at that moment and has happened in the past creates the emotions and feelings. <BR> <BR> <BR> How that person communicates those feelings to others is very important because miscommunication... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 14:24:31 EST Longing Longing: (wrote this just now, wanted to share it.) <BR> <BR> <BR> Troubled heart, restless soul not knowing which way to go. Seeking answers, seeking grace, take me from this dark place. <BR> <BR> <BR> Tears are falling, hands they grasp, longing for this sorrow to pass.. <BR> <BR> <BR> Why oh why once again does this doubt enter in.....I know your love, I know your me LORD to set things right. <BR> <BR> <BR> Peace I pray be once more, help me through the open door....l... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 13:28:00 EST Food for thought Intouch Magazine <BR> <BR> "No one gets into heaven on the strength of good works and kind behavior. When we stand before God, the only thing that will matter is whether our old sin nature has been replaced. We want to show Him the living Spirit we received when Jesus came into our life." <BR> <BR> This statement in my devotional hit me....I understood this but today it's meaning felt more like a warning for me. <BR> <BR> Feel as if I am in the ocean treading water and if it wasn't for my... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 10:12:15 EST My Spark I started Spark long before I created Determinedbabe sparkpage....before Determinedbabe I had created Lady In Black sparkpage and other user names while trying to find myself. <BR> <BR> Originally I came on Spark to lose weight since I was 265 lbs and wanted to get back to the Lisa I was, not the Lisa I became over the years. <BR> <BR> While on Spark I started to transform...first silly me came out then creative naughty me emerged...didn't like her very much and my life hit a very low p... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 15:12:36 EST Fruit of the Spirit Galatians 5 <BR> <BR> The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. <BR> <BR> If we live in the Spirit, let us also follow the Spirit. <BR> <BR> <BR> My Prayer: <BR> <BR> Please LORD continue to grow the fruit of the Spirit in me so others may see that the power of the Holy Spirit dwells within and my body is YOUR temple that YOU make Holy for Your glory.....In Jesus name....Amen! <BR> <BR> Pruning: <BR> <BR> Pati... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 12:18:09 EST Encourage Me Encourage me oh LORD to continue giving You, all of me to build upon this temple make brand new. <BR> <BR> Encourage me oh LORD to resist all things that do not build up in me, for the glory of the KING. <BR> <BR> Encourage me oh LORD to stand firm and tall, knowing YOU are all I need when darkness tries to call. <BR> <BR> Encourage me oh LORD when I start to doubt, enlighten me with YOUR truth and tear the ugly lies out. <BR> <BR> Encourage me oh LORD when I'm feeling weak, give me stren... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 10:40:28 EST My Expression of life as I see it Lovely flower opening up with the warmth of the sun, loves warm embrace. <BR> <BR> Beautiful butterfly emerging from its cocoon with delicate wings flitting upon the breeze, life is but a whisper. <BR> <BR> Sweet bundle of joy, helpless in your mother's arms, trust is born. <BR> <BR> Ocean beating full of life, one goes missing by careless greed, fragile balance destroyed. <BR> <BR> Voices of light crying out, ears don't hear, darkness allowed to grow...lesson not learned. <BR> <BR> <B... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 19:35:47 EST Invisible Just something I wrote today and wanted to share it.... <BR> <BR> Invisible: <BR> <BR> <BR> Can you see the true me, longing to be known? Crying out in silent pain, feeling so alone. <BR> <BR> <BR> Can you read between the lines, when I share my soul? Not what I say but what I seek, a love that goes beyond. <BR> <BR> <BR> Can you do what I dream, without instruction from me? A deep connection between or just this girls fantasy! <BR> <BR> <BR> Can trust be restored when hopes are d... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 17:15:04 EST Things I've learned to help me lose weight... A BODY IN MOTION STAYS IN MOTION AND BODY AT REST GAINS! <BR> <BR> Nothing tastes as good as healthy feels! <BR> <BR> Everyone knows how to lose weight and build a stronger body but it's the person that acts upon that knowledge that gets to goal. <BR> <BR> Be doers not hearers! <BR> <BR> Don't sit on the bench...participate! <BR> <BR> Positive attitudes in all things makes for success and a better day. <BR> <BR> Starting the day excited with a can do attitude is more successful the... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 17:01:28 EST Temptation (James 1: GOD is not subject to temptation to evil, and HE himself tempts no one. Rather, each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. Blessed is the man who perseveres in temptation....) <BR> <BR> We defeat ourselves when we give into our it food or any other desire that we focus on and we are unable to have self control. When you do fight the urge and develop self control, over coming that which made you a slave, is the best feeling of empowerm... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 14:22:07 EST Special day Every day I wake up seeking to find the gift GOD has created for me on this special day that brings joy to my soul. By the end of the day, I find that which I seek; is filled with love and I am thankful. <BR> As I lay my head down to rest, I recall all that GOD has done for me and I look forward to what my creator is planning tomorrow should I once again awaken to another special day. <BR> Pray everyone finds that special gift that GOD has created for them each day. <BR> Seek and you will ... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 13:46:42 EST Filling up with GOD Filling up with GOD's living words and seeking HIM because when I seek HIM, I find HIM and HE always answers. <BR> I am in love with the great I AM, my LORD, my KING, my Savior and my Heavenly Father. Christ Jesus forever and always guiding me, teaching me, showering me with HIS Love and grace. Always faithful, forgiving, merciful and kind. <BR> The Holy Spirit dwelling in me this humble temple GOD created and HE is molding me into someone I can say I truly like. Still a work in progress... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 22:53:04 EST 2013 is the Year to refocus and lose more weight :) Life has changed so much for me in a very short time since February 28th 2011....started at my highest weight of 260 lbs. Now I am bouncing between 150 and 160 because I haven't been focusing on losing....NOW it's a New Year and time to rededicate myself to losing more weight and getting to goal. <BR> <BR> What has worked for me is eating small portions of the foods I enjoy; cutting back on the carbs that are my danger out of control foods and of course getting more active. Harder to do ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 17:04:28 EST Love in Motion You shown me love before I was aware that you exited; as I stared...walking aimlessly around, <BR> You plotted my course on this ground, where darkness tries to twist and turn but You knew all it's tricks; that I wouldn't give in, because you kept placing your love on my path so I could see Your Love does last. <BR> Days when I thought I couldn't take any more, you gave me hope you gave me joy for a moment I was able to see the light you had given to me. Then darkness tried another ploy to ... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 09:30:59 EST Doing evil makes you a victim Just my opinion: <BR> A person that commits evil is a victim of evil because they are losing their souls to satan the master of all lies and deception. <BR> They whom do evil are puppets because they are blind to the truth and the light so in their dark ignorance they are lost, weak and unable to resist that which is leading them to a destruction that is eternal. <BR> The only way out of this pit is to repent with a sincere heart and seek the power of the Holy Spirit which GOD has given an... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 16:00:37 EST Enlightenment Have you ever prayed and experienced enlightenment? <BR> <BR> It is true, if you seek you will find and if you knock the door will be opened. I asked GOD about the suffering going on in the world because it was making me ill and I was feeling prayer was this: <BR> <BR> Why do people have to suffer so LORD? <BR> <BR> Here is what came to me in response: <BR> <BR> When others are suffering it is the opportunity for GOD's children to show GOD's love and grace as part of HIS ... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 14:11:56 EST